Icon For Hire ~ Hope Of Morning ~ Lyrics

Artist: Icon For Hire
Album: Icon For Hire
Song: Hope Of Morning
Track: 4
Video by: Ethelia Jumper
Lyrics:
My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
The last mistake, the choice I made
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair
I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step
What if my words are meaningless?
What if my heart's misleading this?
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight
When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills
But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight
Try as I might to keep it together
Why is recovery taking forever
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
Don't make me say it
Don't make me say it
Don't make me say it
Don't make me say it
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Don't make me say it
Don't make me say it
Don't make me say it
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

[@sweet.devil2004]

This used to be my favorite song in sixth grade when I was stupid, edgy, and didn't understand the lyrics. Now that I'm older and actually mentally ill, it's kind of reassurance to hear this song again.

[@seongsera4005]

Oh god me too. Sixth grade pre emo phase and i listened to billie eilish around the same time. Dang

[@af2876]

Dont let anybody tell you that you are mentally ill. You are actually smart enough to fight this sick world and not sell your soul to that bullshit we call life. Your mental "illness" is just you fighting the fucked up way this world has become. A natural reaction, the people who are not ill, those are the one to worry about. Have faith in a higher power , ask for a guide. Ask again and again and eventualy the universe will help you. Just keep knocking, i am not talking about religion. What i am talking about runs deeper then any religion. Havent you always had the feeling that something is off about the whole world and like you are the only one realizing. Thats it. Cling to that. Your not crazy, i promise.

[@someedgyusername]

@@af2876 Tell me you've never dealt with severe mental illness without telling me you've never dealt with severe mental illness

[@af2876]

@@someedgyusername you think i would talk like that, if i had no clue? Why would you even think or say that?

[@cheyannegiles9772]

@@af2876 okay bro i get what you're talking about here but sometime yes you are actually mentally ill. Sometimes you are in fact the sick one and you need to deal with it, sometimes telling yourself you're not sick is just you falling deeper into your illness or otherwise completely unhelpful. You wouldn't say "don't let anybody tell you you're disabled" to a person in a wheelchair would you? I sure hope not b/e that would be factually wrong, same with mental illness.

[@angrypenguin9816]

My favorite part is "try as I might to keep it together, why is recovery taking forever, fool the whole wold until I get better"

[@meganmeeker5111]

same cause i'm actually afraid that i will have to fake my smile forever

[@sarbear1889]

@@meganmeeker5111 Aa A A A a A A

[@konnernissen1661]

@@meganmeeker5111 do you wanna talk?

[@meganmeeker5111]

@@konnernissen1661 sure...you wanna start? i'm slightly awkward.

[@bluezircon1432]

The line that hits the closest to home for me is one of the lines that people don’t tend to notice. “But my disorder can’t be cured by a bottle, blade or dose.”

[@josephharrell8643]

Same that line always stood out to me

[@redmoonrise6507]

That line always makes me cry. It's so real! Ariel is a genius

[@nicolee1311]

I'm just sitting here wondering how she pronounces Kaleidoscope so fast....

[@Dreamheart101]

Oh! Actually, when learning a song, we start at a slower temp (speed of song). She most likely practiced at a slower tempo, and gradually sped up to learn how to do that.

[@claudiahart4455]

Exactly

[@whiteshadow473]

I can't even pronounce that

[@mrsbeggins8171]

I love singing this, and with much practice I have mastered pronouncing this quickly; but I can never get enough breath for the beginning, and end up almost passing out from lack of air >.>

[@brandonlittle9729]

Same XD

[@Blank55600]

When a song wraps up most of your life, in three minutes...

[@lilbitofeverythin6894]

It took me 3 days to learn how to rap it

[@korawilson8582]

Same

[@strawberrygamernb2147]

yeah...

[@bananajello5709]

Agreed.

[@foxgirl8964]

same :I

[@alyssbunny7276]

"Don't dare let darkness have its way with me." my favorite verse, I sometimes think that everyone has a little darkness in them.

[@kyleneckar3415]

Alyss Bunny I can’t pick a favorite line from this song, the whole damn thing is so good and well-written

[@bradhaines3142]

sometimes think that? you should understand everyone has darkness in them, if its not on the outside its still there. always for everyone. just shows in different ways

[@laurenlabansen5845]

I think the Darkness is the endless sleep she means!

[@Etheliajumper]

I normally try to stay out of the debates that happen on my videos. This is a public place and people are free to talk about whatever they want (though I do ask that it be kept appropriate). But the amount of controversy over fandom comments under this video makes me sad. I know this song has deep meaning to many people (it means a lot to me too), but it can also be easily related to numerous fandoms (I'm in lots of fandoms and I relate this song to several of them). Relating a song to a fandom does not have to cheapen it's meaning in any way. Nor does the fact that you personally relate to a song mean you can't also relate it to a fandom. I don't think there's anything wrong with either perspective. The problem is when you allow other people's comments and opinions to interfere with YOUR enjoyment of the song. The beautiful thing about music is that it means different things to different people, so let everyone enjoy it in whatever way makes them happy and don't let their views stop you from enjoying it in your way.

[@jessica-pc5sb]

I agree.

[@wowzersthunder3791]

👍

[@farasapt6579]

lol, this is too long to read

[@lilbitofeverythin6894]

exactly

[@MrPatrickbuit]

That's a powerful comment.

[@Llama-kr1fr]

I don't get why people are mad that people came here from an amv? yeah, it gets annoying when you go through the comment section and all you see is that. but hey, at least they came here cause they liked the song. Cause ya'know, the song is pretty lit.

[@jupitersorbit9314]

It's the fact that everyone is commenting that, and it's becoming annoying. Now I actually see more comments complaining about it than the actual comments causing the problem though.

[@krimsonkarma8412]

you should be glad that the AMV is helping this artist gain popularity.

[@beejface282]

What's amv???

[@beejface282]

Am I stupid for not knowing what amv means

[@raebeaman8681]

No, you are not stupid for not knowing what AMV means, I didn't for a while either. AMV stands for Animated Music Video.

[@jaylinwalker8762]

When she says "hope of morning" I can also picture it being "hope of mourning" as in she doesn't want to feel dead inside she wants to still be able to feel things Just a conspiracy theory

[@hikari31415]

Icon For Hire is rapidly becoming one of my favorite bands.

[@Anonymous_Gambito]

I know right 😀

[@amvactionsboboiboy937]

Jenya Lestina yes I too

[@shalinemendez1436]

This song is just so....beautifully composed. It gives one the strength to go on. Recently, things haven't gone the best for me. It pains me and I cry but this song.....when you're at your weakest point, now is the optimal time to listen to it. Please hope for the morning.

[@Lonatly]

+Shaline Mendez Legend has it that a mouth filled with cockcheese does alot to a tired mind.

[@padmavaldevit867]

I feel you

[@lildoop5369]

"You don't need a song to go on... do it yourself" Agree, but don't you realise people need inspiration, something to empower them? Music is one of the most powerful forces in the world, if a song can help you which I know for a fact it can, than that is great, doesn't mean you aren't helping yourself as well.

[@soniccookie655]

+cankat +LIL DOOP The way I see it, being inspired by a song to keep going _is_ helping yourself. Your memories are most of what you are, and you'd be nothing without them. When you hear a song, it's part of your memories so it's part of you. Everyone keeps going because there's something they want to live for, so if they're still "doing it themselves", someone inspired by a song would, too.

[@stan3882]

im trying my hardest to hope for the morning but idk..

[@SuperXavier]

I couldnt sleep but listening to this song helped me finally ready to sleep idk how

[@arnencha]

I used to listen to this song when I was younger, I liked it very much because of the rhythm. But now, I came back here again after a while and I love this song because of the lyrics, I understand it very much as it resembles my life very much. When you're happy, you enjoy the music. When you're sad, you understand the lyrics.

[@singingatthegraveyard6272]

"My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast." Such a good sentence. ❤

[@apocalypticfurball]

theme song for depression/anxiety disorders

[@lisakripps608]

Yes

[@luckyinky7849]

That's why i love this song

[@user-oq7ee2ol6i]

i actually have it

[@yusufylmaz560]

I actually have it.

[@shellyfreedman4555]

As well as suicidal attacks. 'the hope of morning makes me worth the fight' is like saying 'i survived another day and I fought for it'

[@Kaitronoamv]

The lyrics are fantastic in this song. I really like how very little repetition it has.

[@belkais_]

👍

[@WhiphTikoto]

These lyrics explain everything that I can’t put into words it’s crazy

[@mikasaackerman1410]

Years ago I fought PTSD, and when I was scared to relapse I listened to this song to calm me down. Now I‘m a psychologist myself and just stumbled about it again - it fills me with so much warmth and happiness now. It really does get better, don‘t give up to those who are still struggling ❤️

[@danabochow8750]

I am so proud of you

[@TheOliverz121]

7 years ago I found this song and vibes to the melodies. Today I am here connecting to the lyrics to a degree I never thought possible

[@pearlbirdmom2638]

In middle school I was legitimately thinking of suicide. That was just last year. Singing really helped me. I found this song right after I finally stopped thinking about suicide. High School has been tough, but music has helped me get through it.

[@SteampunkHorse]

Pearl Bird Mom Same! I found out this song by one of my best friends, I still haven't thanked her... darn it

[@jellofish9934]

Music helps me cope with stuff too.

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Mood I’m in 11th grade

[@Harajukubarbie333]

@Легкий заработок от 1500 в день um... chile anyways

[@danabochow8750]

I am so proud of you and hope you are okay now.

[@somebodytolove12345]

This song saved me. Ty icon for hire. I will keep hoping for morning.

[@AnathemaXIII]

***** Damn that's some intensely negative thinking. I'm glad I picked myself up out of the dirt instead of choosing to dwell in it like you have.

[@AnathemaXIII]

***** I know exactly what you said, and you view yourself as a "knight" or a "protector" when in reality you are a scared child cowering behind extreme uses of metaphor. Only a fool says he welcomes the darkness, yet thinks himself an angel. You say you have not given up, but welcoming darkness and pain is the greatest form of defeat. How many people have you "protected" and "stood up for"? Chances are when real fights go down, you cower in the shadows. It's time to stop hiding behind such grand exaggerations and step out into the real world.

[@AnathemaXIII]

***** Oh, I see. You're one of those anime-loving emo people that hate using contractions when they speak and are so sad with their lives that they try to incorporate elements of anime into their actual life and exaggerate all their problems when in reality they are just a sad fat kid lurking behind a computer because they are too scared to go out into the real world for fear of being rejected by their peers... Just look at that profile picture, ugh. Like, did you really just say "foolish human" ? You've got to be kidding me. Go outside and get some friends. AND GET SOME PROFESSIONAL HELP. YOU ARE NOT RIGHT IN THE HEAD. :)

[@LambentLight00]

llkool2014 Okay, wow. I know this conversation has been over, for at least 3 days, but. Just. WOW. What a fucking ass you are. "sad fat kid lurking behind a computer screen because they are too scared to go out into the real world for fear of being rejected by their peers... ". What. Do you know what you just said? Not everyone's just *afraid*, I mean I can't speak on behalf of Patrick over there but the reason *I* am typically on the internet is because I've been worse than *rejected*. I've been attacked, in more than one way. Also, please do not tell people "you are not right in the head." That's... Really insulting. And rude. And just, disgusting in general. As well as the fact you classified anime lovers as "emo". Not all of them are as depressing as you think. I know some very... Hyper, happy individuals that are anime fans... Uh, anyway... I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you but please, go crawl back into the trashcan your opinion just crawled out of.

[@AnathemaXIII]

Here's three things for ya. 1 I never said all anime lovers are emo. There is a sub group within them that are though. I even enjoy some anime as well. 2 if you think that comment was written by someone who is indeed right in the head, then you aren't. And 3. Do you think I would be listening to this song if I haven't gone through tons and tons of stuff too? I respect those with mental illnesses like depression and anxiety but I call crazy when I see it. Like damn he really called me "foolish human". I'm still laughing from that one. Lol.

[@couldbesweet02]

I am currently having a depression attack--I am so tired of living, of doctors and prescriptions and therapists and the cruel and thoughtless people . Never being able to measure up or be worthy of anyone's care, even my family. Icon has helped me so much. A well as Marina and the Diamonds. I'm so tired though, so sick of hurting.

[@undeadhound3402]

alana walker I hope you recover. "Don't let darkness have its way with you".

[@undeadhound3402]

alana walker I hope you recover. "Don't let darkness have its way with you".

[@lisakripps608]

Me too bro we are in this together

[@mgam4963]

alana walker I almost cut myself with a knife because i looked at a knife then i realized how am i supposed to hide the cut my family will know somethings wrong and i dont want them to worry

[@rhiannonmatthews2434]

@@mgam4963 I feel you. I wish I could hurt myself, but I know if I did than the people around me would notice. So I just have to get to keep it all bottled up inside, and it's so hard

[@killergarfield]

Judging by the lyrics....it's talking about depression.... The word "hope of morning" means happiness that's is draining inside of yourself......"darkness" refers to suicidal thoughts and the mentioned emotions refers to the feelings u get when ur depressed

[@rock2946]

@@emptychannel6191 I interpreted it in a similar matter. That this song is about depression and you're fighting against it but cant help listen to the lies it whispers in your ears.

[@enevy3165]

@@emptychannel6191 same.. How the Hope of Morning is like the hope of a new day, the possibility of unexpected happiness in the near future makes fighting the darkness worth it "The Hope of Morning makes me worth the fight, so I will not be giving in tonight."

[@andresnoyola8783]

@@enevy3165 I think that part is refering that she is hoping that in the morning she can wake up, that is way she says that hope is worth fight i think she mens her life. Like in the song she says that there is something wron in side her head, she is acting normal so the rest of the world do not find out about it.

[@Icantchangemyhandlehelp]

I just discovered this song today and it already feels nostalgic Just sounds like something I'd really like when I was younger. And I _do_ really like it now. The lyrics are so good too. God, I love Icon For Hire.

[@fenrirthevargr7212]

My boyfriend showed me this yesterday, and I cried because the lyrics relate so much to me...

[@DAI2KSILVEI2]

I cried too haha :3

[@fenrirthevargr7212]

We will cry together XD

damn that attention though

[@fenrirthevargr7212]

Lukas Schröter Says you, I am putting what actually happened, no need for your input.

[@AlyiscrazyasheckxD]

Zero Kiryu I like this song too xD

[@Mijuki]

Im so glad i discovered this song

[@theminecat2556]

Me 2!

[@melosabr8237]

+The Minecat agree

[@garnethello6283]

Same, this song is too good

[@singingatthegraveyard6272]

This gave me hope...

[@firstnamesurname7640]

Oh my god... It's wonderful coming back here, recovered from whatever mental thing I had going on (an identity crisis? Depression? Not sure, but there was something wrong with me), and to feel nothing but memories and a good song when I listen to this, rather than the sadness, pain, confusion and at the same time happiness that at least there was something out there that understood what was happening to me. I can't believe it was only a month, and in that time I've completely gotten over what was going on. Still love the song though!

[@firstnamesurname7640]

Aaaaand.... I relate again. Shit. Oh well, I'll be fine next month. 😅 I hope.

[@victoriajahdaigarciamartin7842]

First Name Surname holis

[@seongsera4005]

Yeah I came back here after years! The nostalgia just hits hard. Im so good now

[@AgileFan0]

Wow, what a powerful and truly meaningful song. It speaks volumes.

[@SteampunkHorse]

AgileFan0 Thank you for understanding me. The amount of ridiculous talk about irrelevant fandoms in the comments saddens me greatly..

[@alucard5841]

This music is great beyond the lyrics. The rhythm is fast paced with rap vocals, Just like a mind Full of worries and ansiety, and then It breaks in the choir Very calmy

[@isla6799]

this song describes my depression and anxiety so perfectly well i love ICON FOR HIRE for making songs that have such a deep meaning

[@octobermoon2893]

1:56 "But I don't wanna let you see that. I don't want my friends to know. Self-disgusted and Selfishness Take me everywhere I go" Relatable lyrics right there.

[@spaghettijuice4350]

"But my Disorder can't be cured by a Bottle, Blade, or Dose." Oof.

[@AbbigailSailor]

Bit of a rant below I feel the lyrics “straight up made up epidemics” mental health isn’t a fun tag. It’s hell on earth I have been suffering since I was young and I was officially diagnosed but it really hurts when people use it lightly. Pills help me I get them from my doctor but I can never be fixed. I can’t just magically be ok. I love icon for hire because I feel like the music understands how hard it is to get my point across without sounding like a pompous asshole because of how people use my disorders as ammunition. Depression isn’t sadness it’s when there is nothing wrong but you feel like it’s hard to breathe. Autism doesn’t make me behind the curve it makes me different and I don’t know things the way you do. High IQ doesn’t make me have good grades or make me a bragging asshole it makes me understand more. Anxiety isn’t being scared it’s hyperventilating because I can’t stop my mind from racing and crying and shaking. ADHD isn’t I just can’t sit straight it’s I can’t think about one thing and I’m failing because of it. This are how my disorders present may not be how yours do. Disorders aren’t just emotions there how my brain works. I just hate how people use these things so lightly. I’m sorry if it makes me a gatekeeper or a asshole I just want people to know what’s wrong with me without looking at me like I’m looking for attention or a charity case... I’m just so done being the speaker. I’m not perfect but I’m doing my damnedest I just want people to understand. I don’t want to have to feel like this. I just needed this of my chest thanks if you read this wether you agree or not.

[@teaartist6455]

I'm gonna guess they mean the kids that just see one post/short comic strip about something and then self diagnose, which do exist but I'm going to guess they're mostly young (maybe 13-15) and/or have some other problems that they could really use help with even if it's just usual teen drama, not those with actual diagnoses or those that are suffering but for one reason or another can't get a diagnosis/an accurate one.

[@forestisconfuzzled7492]

I agree I see all these kids say “I have depression” and when in reality they had a argument, as someone who has depression I find it very annoying

[@emilil]

It's absolutely true, that not taking mental health issues seriously is a huge problem and everyone deserves to get adequate help and understanding! But I think she is specifically talking about people who wrongfully self diagnose and use that to gain clout and sympathy on the internet, and especially romatize those problems. I pretty sure that Ariel was fighting quite a few of her own mental health related demons for a long time :)

[@AwkFoxx69]

I 100% agree man.

[@frogfireFantasy]

You listed having a high iq along with depression, ADHD, and autism. How is having a high IQ a mental disorder?

[@ambersmith6928]

WHEN A SONG PRETTY MUCH SUMS UP YOUR LIFE

[@sahl7632]

Amber Smith Edgy shit?

[@Hellohello-no1nv]

@@sahl7632 Not really edgy. She didnt say she have depression. It's just relatable

[@Dillon6545]

this song is my true medication when I feel like my life has no purpose then I listen to this song. and I feel like after this song is life is far more then our eyes and ears can go. our life does have purpose. it could be one person's life or the world itself but whatever the case is. our lifes do matter even homeless people, even other people their lifes can be change into a good life. and don't let other people interfere our feelings, our life. if you know and if you want then do it. im just a 16 year old kid and this song has help my life and it stills is one of the things that help me through my years of my life. thxs Icon

[@JP-rf8rr]

the lyrics are powerful

[@JP-rf8rr]

thanks

[@Anonymous_Gambito]

True

[@APanime000]

Come from the fandom stay for the vocals, lyrics, and raw fucking emotion yall dont know how many times ive used this song to push tears out? I cant cry easily due to being a bottler, but theres an easy valve for relief when I listen to this song and anything from this band I love you and wish you the best

[@redmoonrise6507]

"i don't have to have the answers, but tonight i wish i did" That part always makes me tear up....even after all these years

[@bleachedmabbit9221]

Icon For Hire could be my religion

[@whatibelieve9999]

I really think they'd prefer that you follow their God.

[@bleachedmabbit9221]

fuck your faith What I Believe

[@whatibelieve9999]

Bleached Mabbit Someone isn't in the mood for a civil discussion. However, just so you are aware, I am praying for you.

[@bleachedmabbit9221]

k

[@headsonthefritz]

Ew God.

[@coollary1]

Dealing with depression and adhd... this song is me

[@doritosMSP]

coollary1 Stay strong my friend

[@jeremygatrell2406]

+coollary1 I feel you.

[@oof1226]

+coollary1 *has adhd*

[@lisakripps608]

Me too but my depression is major and I'm medicated and if forget to take it I. Let's just say it's not pretty

[@evilhappy1461]

+Lisa Kripps stay strong dude. SURVIVE!

[@osegundoplaneta592]

i still love this song, thank you

[@blackroseofsand]

I also have to say the way you made this video is amazing. The way how you made the important words stick out and make us think about what it's really about was incredible and creative. Great job

[@destructiveraider]

Anyone come here from their mother's womb? Seriously, no one cares where you came from enjoy the amazing song.

[@biggiecheese253]

destructiveraider no one cares where you came from either...

[@izzy_izzy_izzybelle]

how dare you i came from a test tube you ignorant pig/

[@notjohndoe6878]

goddamn right

[@notjohndoe6878]

destructiveraider.

[@trashbutbetter309]

destructiveraider did your profile picture come from cyberlife

[@cameronhollinshed80]

"My disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade or dose"

[@juantermo6996]

It's amazing how music can make people understand their feelings, this really helped me. what about you ?

[@lisakripps608]

Yes in a deep level

[@SteampunkHorse]

matias satina I understand you completely...

[@ameliawinchester1784]

Anyone here not because of a fandom?

[@ExilePrincess03]

Me lol, although I am IN some of these fandoms. But I've loved this song forever xD

[@ameliawinchester1784]

Evelyn Brooks Same

[@ExilePrincess03]

+Amelia Winchester Btw, love your picture.

[@ameliawinchester1784]

Evelyn Brooks Oh thank you so much ^￦^

[@easygoing9328]

NOPE!! lol

[@allyfair7482]

Thank you for uploading this I love what you did for the lyrics really creative. :D

[@Etheliajumper]

You're welcome!

[@benjaminnguyen3070]

+Ethelia Jumper eye leik how u did dis

[@seongsera4005]

DAMNNN THE NOSTALGIA hits with these!!!

[@jessicalindsay8387]

I heard the Nightcored version of this one first and couldn't understand it very well. So I came to find this version and words just can't describe the feelings this evokes. I love it. Amazing work on the video as well! I love it.

[@seongsera4005]

I heard it from nightcore too

[@cassidywoods392]

This song inspired me to start writing a story, so now I'm almost finished with chap 1!

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Nice what’s it called

[@olafgurke4699]

Yo, please tell us how it went. As a hobby writer myself, I'm always curious. ^^

[@cassidywoods392]

It didn't go well, I don't really know how to write stories well, I did get the first chapter mostly done but then deleted it and re-wrote it. I still don't like it but might go back to it sooner or later

[@olafgurke4699]

@@cassidywoods392 Ahh, I see. That is unfortunate. There's a lot of tips and tricks for becoming a better writer, and I definitely know the feeling of not meeting your own standards. But the most important thing is to have fun with it. I wish you the best in all your endevours. :)

[@Cs-fg5iw]

So it's not long enough I started my song hunting in the rock genre,. depressed af..Gave up on life..but then a person who's now really close to my heart introduced me to this..... She's trying to save me in every possible way and am trying to hold on because of her....Now I'm writing all this here because I can't tell her all this......I can't thank you enough for saving me A. If you're reading this then you know who you are .....I will love you till my last breath even if that's gonna be tomorrow ~C.

[@billienasmith485]

I know it’s been a year since you posted this, and that I’m a complete stranger to you, but I hope you’re still here and going strong xx

[@Cs-fg5iw]

@@billienasmith485 oh hi!!! Thanks for checking on dear stranger.. I'm just living for the hope of it all. Definitely better than last year✌️

[@hehecactusboy4312]

This song helped me get through depression. Thank you, Icon for Hire, even though this isn't their channel so they probably won's see this.

[@penelopenorwood7270]

This and The Grey are so reminiscent of Evanescence and I love it.

[@stealthpanther]

This song hits really close to home. It's beautiful and personal. I immediateely felt like my feelings and thoughts were just made into musical gold (and I'm sure many othera feel/felt the same)

[@cathystrange9172]

I always find my way to this song when my mental health is deteriorating

[@sukidakara4326]

I love Icon for Hire so much. Their music means a lot to me. Also, I'm a child who tends to listen to fast music, so Icon for Hire is like. The best thing ever. Even though it's hard to sing along for me since I'm not a native English speaker and even in my native language I have trouble with talking fast or singing along to fast songs :'3 R.I.P. Nice lyric video tho, you have a great feeling for timing!

[@homuraakemi2993]

Wow this song describes me quite well :( "im terrified i will be faking forever, all the secrets silenced by the shame" :'(

[@oneradkidgaming]

I'm so glad you uploaded this lyrics vid, I love the song but I was never able to figure out what she was saying in the beginning, if I know the lyrics I can actually understand a song better, and this is by far one of the best songs I've listened to in a while so I wanted to thank you for spending your time to make a lyric video for it

[@joeslater779]

"Fool the whole world just until i get better Im terrified ill be faking forever" The most relatable lyrics ive ever felt in my life. Damn.

[@sjnash]

their best song, no doubt.

[@luna-mt7sf]

it's weird to see most of the comments here are from 5-7 years ago ....well anyway hello from 2022 👋

[@DuskPShermanWallaby123]

yeah.. but hi also from 2022 in pride month

[@luna-mt7sf]

@@DuskPShermanWallaby123 heyyy👋👋

[@schlechtername8432]

@@luna-mt7sf it's weird to see your comment here from 2022.....well anyway hello from 2024

[@mayap_66]

So many fandoms. This was just in my reccommendeds. XD

[@Bloodatmidnight]

I used to listen to this song when i was going though my depression, it reminds me a lot of bad memories but at the same time i still love this song, i feel like a sense of nostalgia, it's really weird.

[@icepops25]

This song sounds so good with headphones holy poop

[@ImGhostlyy]

Man I remember the days when I used to feel like what she sings about in this 😰

[@JPeyo]

Gabby Looks like you still do.

[@dawnultimaex6319]

Lmao I'm totally doing this to piss people off but yes I did come from the SU AMV. I don't see why it's a problem, you should be happy whoever made that AMV got people to listen to this song because it's really good. But, this is the internet so I can't expect much.

[@lisacarter8630]

Same!!!!

[@firstnamesurname7640]

* sigh * the internet will be the death of us all...

[@TheFruitiestCake]

Same ^u^

[@franzkafkayaoi]

Ikr it was great

[@crescentheart_stellarart]

me too

[@thesquish8976]

You have no idea how many times this song has saved my life, thank you so much for making music and for staying alive

[@fv4dakurlzz808]

I love this song so much. Its like my feelings in a song. The speed makes this song so good cause my mind is too thinkin so fast + ah whatever i gonna say its perfect for me :D

[@badpuddin2915]

my favorite song ever

[@DuskPShermanWallaby123]

I never comment on these videos, but I love the way you make them

[@Alextroms5]

thanks icon for hire for helping me recognise my mental illness and come to peace with it. FEeling heaps better aftert 4+ years of darkness. Hope is around the corner guys/gals!!

[@seasaltlover7409]

Every now and then I come back here. Damn, my middle school self was into something but I really feel comforted with this. It's a surprise I still remember the lyrics XD

[@OculiCorvus]

Can't really tell if I'm a horrible person or not. I listen to songs about mental disorders and depression and such, and there's always a ton of people that are talking about how they have this, that, and the other thing that's been diagnosed to them, and how it impacts them. I'm also convinced that there's a lot of people who were never were actually diagnosed or never even suffered from whatever they claim, and they're just fishing for sympathy or trying to sound cool (because _insanity_ is such an awesome thing to have...?). This causes a a bunch of people to say something among the lines of, "I ACTUALLY suffer from [insert disorder, disease, or issue here], and all of these other people claiming to have it are clearly lying cause they just don't actually understand what it's like and they have no right to talk or empathize!" But the problem here is that , whether telling the truth or not, this person now sounds like one of the liars, desperately trying to gain the confidence of the comment section; and the actual liars do this a lot, as though using capital letters in, "I ACTUALLY have [insert disorder, disease, or issue here]," actually makes it true. My solution: everyone just shut up! If you don't have anything that can be proven by a doctor or expert to be wrong with you, stop making stuff up, and stop self-diagnosing issues that aren't as big as you want us to believe, because you apparently _don't_ understand just how devastating mental problems are if you feel it's a light enough concept to apply incorrectly to yourself for your own narcissistic gains. If you actually have something wrong with you, please, just leave that info out. I won't say that I don't _care_, it's just you don't need to prove anything to me or anyone else. At least, you shouldn't, anyway. We get people have hard lives. We get that it gets dark sometimes. You have our thoughts. You have our prayers. Don't bring potential for doubt into the matter by joining the thousand other comments all claiming a different mental problem. Just enjoy the music. Frankly, if you _do_ have something, and you're sharing it in a comment section, you're in the wrong place for support; at least, if you're in a section for a song, anyway. Instead, try a support group, or an online forum dedicated to the issue. You'll find the support you want there. Could we please just enjoy the music?

[@firebreathingchickenduck4936]

I agree with you.

[@graciethezombie7994]

+Oculi Corvus Thank you. Peoples comments claiming they are "insane" are offensive. I want to be a psychiatrist for the criminally insane when I am older and I have been taking classes on psychiatry and many of these people claiming they have these types of disorders are lying, most of these issues are VERY rare. The reason I wanted to get into psychiatry is because I want to learn about the minds of these people and my aunt has schizophrenia, a mental illness a lot of teens are faking to have... Its just STUPID.

[@OculiCorvus]

Grace Darling No problem. Someone had to say it. And truth be told, there are people on this site that legitimately have a psychiatric problem or disorder, and they like to talk about it. The problem is, there are way too many people claiming this stuff for it to be true; and the way that people write about it (teenagers especially) just screams inexperience and falsehood. For some of these comments, I go through and I wish I could believe them and give them support. But there's just too many to distinguish between, and unfortunately for those who could actually use the support, I'd rather trust no one than just take the (poorly) written word at it's face value and give every one my trust. (Message to rest of comment section) And before anyone gets on me about, "Oh, well, clearly you don't know what you're talking about because if you did, you'd realize that a lot of those poorly written comments are made by people who actually have the problems they claim and the problem makes it hard for them to express, so they struggle to get it out," first of all, I know this already. Still doesn't warrant my support. Don't blame me, blame the liars. Secondly, that's what therapy and support groups are for. They give them the words where they feel they can't find them. A KZbin comment section for a song isn't the place to dig for the support they seek; especially if they're aware they may not be able to express it the way they want to. And Thirdly, you're right! I have NO idea what I'm talking about when I talk about mental disorders. MOST OF US DON'T. That's what I've been saying the entire time, especially in regards to the liars out there. Most of us will never know the kind of hell that goes on inside the mind of someone who actually struggles with these disorders. I can only imagine that often times they feel hopeless, alone, isolated, like they are a mistake, that they can never be fixed, that their useless. I image it tears them up and is frustrating beyond any comparison. But ultimately, I can't speak with authority on the matter; I don't have one, and I've never studied it. But I've witnessed its effects on people, and in my experience, it's devastating to those that fall victim to one of these disorders. That's why I'm asking people to stop treating it like it's a issue that is light enough for them to wield as their tool for grabbing undeserved pity and sympathy. It isn't a joke; it's a real world problem that tears lives apart. That's too big a thing to lie about.

[@graciethezombie7994]

+Oculi Corvus Exactly. I have some problems (I don't talk about what it is) but I actually went somewhere and talked to people about it. There are many people out there that these people can contact, that aren't youtube comments.

[@firebreathingchickenduck4936]

Oculi Corvus this is why you are cool.

[@IceRiver1020]

This song reminds me of my insane character (I'm a writer), she tries to fight against the insanity but it's hard, especially since nobody knows she's going insane so they think she's doing bad things of her own free will and they all hate her now.

[@darbybell3269]

IceRiver1020 what is your book called?

[@IceRiver1020]

TheCrazed2 I don't really have a title yet.

[@darbybell3269]

ohh, well it sounds really good!!!

[@raeanneleaton8076]

IceRiver1020 Is it going to be an actual book or will it be on wattpad or something?

[@martinramirezjr7872]

I want to read this book when it's done

[@theyoutubecommentepidemic5528]

I pretended to be like other people for years because of whatever is going on in my head. I ended up leaving my friend group because of this. I tried to confess, starting with small things, but I just couldn't take confessing to bigger things. Mentally and physically(these muscle contractions are a bitch), I was unable. I'm alone. I made them sad, but at least know I'm aware of what I feel when I like something or when I dislike something. I think I can start over because I was able to confess to certain things I didn't like before. With a new friend and less expectations, I think I'll be okay. I hope they're not too hurt by my actions. They're fantastic people, but I just couldn't not be me anymore. To those of you who read this and think this sounds like you, try and be honest with your friends. Give them a fighting chance if you can. If you can't, I wouldn't blame you for bailing, but you should give yourself a chance to be honest first. Even if it's hard, try it. Also, get mental help. I know to some of you who are more far gone, like I was, the lies seem like a good thing. It seems like both you and the people who surround you are so happy. They love you, you're just a perfect little ball of sunshine. You very wrong. Being you is the best thing! Even if you end up on a waiting list like me, it's worth it! I've seen how happy other people are when they're them, and even if I don't know as much of who I am as other people do, well, I want that kind of life! The light that comes into people's eyes when they talk about what they like and dislike, it's beautiful! We can have that light, you and I. We just have to keep trying to do the right thing, even if it's hard.

[@meghantonner-mintier7196]

"I am terrified I will be faking forever" this lyric hits so close to home.

[@dunker2be]

Around 1:38 is it "insomniac" or "it's only an act." I've heard both ways and it can be hard to distinguish the two.

[@dier440]

definitely insomniac that's what I here and it makes more sense lyric wise

[@dunker2be]

dier440 I had always heard insomniac as well until I saw different lyrics posted somewhere. I think both make sense but it does sound more like insomniac.

[@dunker2be]

Then at 1:43 is it "trade up made up epidemics" or "straight up made up epidemics"? Straight up seems to make more sense and since the previous word ends in an "s" it's hard to distinguish the two.

[@dier440]

John Peterson well i hear straight up fairly clearly at that part.

[@dunker2be]

dier440 Ya that's what I was thinking it was but this lyric video had it the other way.

[@HopeAngel777]

one of my top songs to listen to when I'm depressed or feeling like I may have an anxiety attack

[@Hurricane-jb4xx]

This song has ment a hell of a lot to me for longer then I can remember. First found it when I was in school... what a ride I've had since. And it hasn't gotten any better. I remember the impact this song had on me the first time I ever heard it. It hit me hard. And that impact still hits everytime I come back to this song.. its a comfort that people around me don't understand The lyrics are so meaningful and they hit so close to home. The Meldoy really helps express the emotion. And the way it was sung. You can hear the meaning and expression in her voice Its beautiful song that hits were it needs to. The words "when the hope of morning starts to fade in me" that hit me deeply first time because that's how I felt almost every single night. And one of the most powerful sentences for me was "my disorder can't be cured by a bottle blade or dose" that.. I went through those stages mid teenage years to late Hurting myself, drinking, and when I was on medication I felt worse I felt hollow. Empty as if I was just the shell with no core It took a lot to crotnrol myself and fight back against that To anyone who loves this song and feels it. Stay strong stay tough keep hope and look up. There's a light In every darkness don't lose your way. See through to end of the road without ever turning back! We will.make it

[@KoryGrayson]

When you listen to the song/watch this video so much you start to hear and see all the little details that make this song and lyric video THAT much better.

[@maidoflight5834]

This song has 3 meanings to me, in no particular order. 1. Steven Universe. 2. My own struggle with mental health and thoughts like these 3. My relation to the words and the utter emotion and beauty in it ^^

[@vivianpham8873]

Even though I'm coming from a fandom (SU) I have to say that you did a great job with this. All the edits in the video show that put a lot of effort into this. Hope you have a wonderful day~

[@hannahmary6023]

Her voice is angelic on the chorus like damn😳😳😳

[@Eryniell]

I love this song....it feels like it's almost too perfect for representing the struggles I'm going through every day. I love the hope part of it. I want to fight for getting healthy, to be able to live my life fully and I want to keep hope close to me...the hope that it gets better at some point, is what keeps me going. Thank you for this beautiful song.

[@reiyung9096]

Fool the whole world just til i get better. I'm terrified I'll be faking forever. those words shouldn't hurt?

[@Harajukubarbie333]

I relate to them

[@Wind_Cursed]

As someone with both a lot of anxiety and a lot of hope, I relate. My anxiety and hope are always fighting, though. Anyway, the lyrics I relate to the most are: "... Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside No where to hide inside my mind I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair I second-guess myself to death I resolicit at every step What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this? ..." "When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself Like never let you get a word in While I dissect my mental health ..." "... I don't have to have the answers but tonight I wish I did All the pain I can't explain away won't fade All the secrets silenced by the shame ..." And, of course "And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight I will not be giving in tonight"

[@mellowyellow532]

beautiful beautiful beautiful song. especially the lyrics. glad this AMV brought me here and introduced me to this...

[@hannahjarrels9159]

I love this song, it basically explains what goes on in my head, icon for hire will always be a great band, that's for sure. I love what you did with the lyrics, it makes it seem more deep and meaningful.

[@gespenst0083]

Oh so this is the song my older brother used as an alarm that I would wake up to repeatedly.

[@KoryGrayson]

Thank you AMV for showing me this song

[@dopesunbear]

This song almost makes me cry every time I hear it. Gosh I love this band.

[@ChristopherCapersJones]

I last heard this song as a kid reaching teenage years. I love this song even more as an adult. It's just as good as it was when I first heard it years ago.

[@jazminstevens2681]

Anyone else get an emotional studio ghibli vibe??

[@devilishly-nightcore263]

KZbin autoplay brought me here 👏

[@ItsMeFern2019]

For some reason her voice is really soothing to listen to... I love her music. ❤

[@beahappypanda__5933]

I just discovered this band a few days ago and I am so in love with their music. ❤ how am I just now discovering them...

[@caylax3473]

OH GAWD I THINK I JUST BROKE THAT REPEAT BUTTON! :OOOOO EPIC SONGG!!!! :D

[@midnight6282]

+CayCay X this has been in my Watch It Again section for a month XD

[@EmeraldAnimated]

I stole a couple peoples' replay button, now I have to many. heres an extra 0:00

[@aoikiyoko1620]

for some reason this song makes me think about my future. 😐

[@lunaefall]

*_This song really gets my hopes up. I’ve had plenty of pitfalls and, two weeks ago, I felt like everything was over for me. Listening to this reminds me that I’ve got goals I still need to accomplish, and that I can’t fall back yet. It isn’t easy, but you can’t let your failures stop your journeys. There’s something you’re meant to do. There’s a reason you exist. Don’t waste your life and become useless like the world says you are. Show ‘em who’s boss._*

[@vinceackerman8207]

This song got really good and hit DAMN real quick. It's catchy and the message is great.