I hope my mom is holding the gates open when I die... I miss you mom. Love Jay
@PatschoPat5 жыл бұрын
"Though I've grown up, I'm still heartbroken, aching to cry Hoping you're the one holding open those gates when I die"
@intellectualsolitudeproduc28656 жыл бұрын
My dad just passed away today. This song comforts me.
@MichalSada6 жыл бұрын
be strong. be yours, sending good vibes to u ,))
@419buckeye76 жыл бұрын
Don't start drinking
@honkykong73896 жыл бұрын
Sorry man, music is therapeutic in a way. Stay up.
@mongrel_975 жыл бұрын
shit man, you good?
@crypticraps5 жыл бұрын
Rest easy, man ✌️ How are you holding up?
@LloydAragon-fh8kg Жыл бұрын
Song brings tears out of me
@DruidsTears5 жыл бұрын
My uncle was a huge fan of Ill Bill. He got a lot of inspiration from his music and such. For me personally the song is almost too accurate. He was always like a big brother. He never made me feel like a dumbass kid. My uncle though did die of an overdose. Every time I hear this song I feel close to him. Cause it’s one his favorite artists. He was only 32. If I make it to the gates of heaven i hope you’re their uncle Stephen.
@prodmicrocosmicorbit Жыл бұрын
🙏🏼🙏🏼📀📀
@basketballfan33 Жыл бұрын
I lost my grandfather in April 2012 and this song came out a few months after that (Nov 2012). Used to bump it EVERY DAY after school. Shame this version never made it to the album
@justinkase4285 Жыл бұрын
I just attended my grandfathers funeral today and this is the first shit i played when i got home.
@Jean-Claude1vince Жыл бұрын
these song made me cry i been thinking about my dead grandmother while listening to it
@pyrykivi4153 Жыл бұрын
That Mercyful Fate sample is just BEAUTIFUL! 🔥🔥🔥
@victormcvic35798 жыл бұрын
Glad to see Ill bill gettin so much attention, its been a long time comin, underground legend
@htownguero4 жыл бұрын
I remember when this video still first dropped! Was my school years and crazy times then. Still bumpin in 2020! Salute from Houston brotha 👌
@MindOverMacros4 жыл бұрын
Little late but same with doom. Doom finally got recognition.
@dylanmcwhirter98444 жыл бұрын
Fucking A
@dylanmcwhirter98444 жыл бұрын
Finally reached enough kids ears pretty amazing how so many people can relate all over the globe
@9326metal3 жыл бұрын
Never knew about him until i heard gmoskee name drop him as an influence so i figured if he helped inspire one of the rappers i actually he should be worth checking out. Im so glad i did. This dude is phenomenal.
@almpertz12 жыл бұрын
There's two kinds of rappers these days. Those who rap for money and those who rap for real. Ill Bill is without a doubt the realest rapper out there. Thank you for doing what you do better than anyone else. Stay strong bro and may Howie rest.
@muzikdepotart5 жыл бұрын
From Non Phixion to his solo shit, son proved he's a fucking dope Emcee on the mic...Bless up Uncle Howie, forever shine yo!
@illel-zorro95276 жыл бұрын
Ill Bill really put his heart on this one. I really love this person Bill has grown to.
@jevusstegmann5674 Жыл бұрын
Ive never heard you before. This came up random. Your lyrics are crushing, real and profound. You hit my heart bro. I got you bill.
@Cody66988 жыл бұрын
My mother passed away seven years ago, so this song really speaks to me. When the time comes...I hope she'll be holding the gates open when I die.
@Paddabear1232 жыл бұрын
This song has everything I've suffered in my 48 years alive on this planet this is a true life story great bit of work keep at I'll Bill
@GODHATESADOPTION3 жыл бұрын
Though I've grown up, I'm still heartbroken achin' to cry, hopin' you holden' open the gates when I die!
@francisdrake37302 жыл бұрын
One love from germany, lost my father at a young age. This song brought tears to my eye. And people say rap is ignorant.
@SicilianCerdaPride7 жыл бұрын
This song always hits so close to home, I was raised by my grandmother, and my uncle was the only male role model in my life. I lost both of them 8 years ago, both to cancer, even though my uncle was an addict all his life, and there are so many parallels in this song its insane.
@PMOHGUILD7 жыл бұрын
SicilianCerdaPride real music has that effect
@davidchristiansen90126 жыл бұрын
I feel you bro..youre not alone
@GODHATESADOPTION5 жыл бұрын
Respetto
@roastchicken4015 жыл бұрын
Damn, that's crazy man... My condolences
@MrGerardo83 жыл бұрын
My pops just past away today... This song comforts me... See you in the other side papá...
@realnagger67184 жыл бұрын
Still Listening to this song in 2020. Love both versions. Ill Bill, The Beast...
@sewerslidemg3 жыл бұрын
both versions are sick but i prefer this version
@realnagger67183 жыл бұрын
@@sewerslidemg To be honest, this version is deeper, sadder. The other version is more "hopeful". Anyway, I guess, the Lyrics, the delivery and Ill Bill's character really make this song...
@handzimbo62242 ай бұрын
Rest in peace dad. Almost 8 years. Rip
@MetalxMasters4 жыл бұрын
This song makes me think about my grandparents who died when I was very young which basically split my family apart. No matter where you are in the world, we all grieve together. Stay strong, friends.
@ou45344 жыл бұрын
Same situation here man, but at least were still here
@johanandersson20288 жыл бұрын
Mercyful Fate and Ill Bill is a heavy combination! Hail King Diamond, Hail Ill Bill!
@ever13705 жыл бұрын
Which song got sampled?
@damianhealy3005 жыл бұрын
@@ever1370 To One Far Away - 8th song on the Don't Break The Oath album
@ever13705 жыл бұрын
@@damianhealy300 much appreciated
@MrMickthemonster2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for this song... It's really helped me.
@chaosofmankind12 жыл бұрын
Such raw emotion and talent is what this world lacks
@RO-wt8mp2 жыл бұрын
Mercyful Fate + Ill Bill. Awesome lyrics. Best song ever.
@LMAODOODZ12 жыл бұрын
My mom is 60, from the Bronx and I got her into this song. It actually made her cry. No disrespect to anyone else but we're Italian so even if our family isn't that big, we're tightly knit. I hope you have a happy New Year Ill Bill, you speak the truth.
@chanrider11 жыл бұрын
This is one of those tracks that stands apart. A timeless epic, I can listen to this in twenty years just the same. It's hard to find music of this caliber, with this much soul.
@pedrosoler79612 жыл бұрын
Massive respect BILL, when i listen this song i remember what the real rap is. Thanks you for existing and sharing your talent. RIP uncle Howie. One love from france.
@donnyp59397 жыл бұрын
An old woman I took care of entered her final hours of life this morning, and it about damn near broke me. This song has been getting me through the emotions. Can't wait for the day we're all reunited with our fallen loved ones. As bleak as that may sound, that's my only idea of heaven. Bill, horns high to you brother. Thanks for this master piece. Much love to all you. Those going through it, solider on.
@codypratt74632 жыл бұрын
I feel you man on some real💯 just lost my grandfather this morning. One of the last pearl harbour veterans. I wouldn’t know how to be a man today if it weren’t for him. And now I’m stuck wishing I had the power to bring him back. I miss him
@jonathangrant82013 жыл бұрын
Damn, I don't know you at all but this song makes me want to cry as If I do.
@christopherrivera31115 жыл бұрын
King diamond's voice is absolutely soothing props to Ill bill for the ear to put this masterpiece together
@RipperOFBongs11 жыл бұрын
this song came out no word of lie a week after my uncle passed on. he was boss, he ran everything,with a great sense of mind two people i respect in this world are him & my mother. i was choked i didnt know how or what to do but the one thing i do know is this song really did help get through it. RIP Shane ill be seeing at those gates soon enough!
@adamsandler62962 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry for your loss. The only thing you can do when someone dies. Is be aware that life isn't forever, live your life to the fullest and spend time with your relatives, friends, and love ones. Life isn't forever. One day I will die and everyone will die. Life is too short. Do many things in your life because everything will be gone. R.i.p to your dad may he rest his soul. I wish everyone well. Be safe everyone ❤️💕 I hope each and every individual on earth lives a happy and peaceful life❤️
@lagansonskroz36928 жыл бұрын
Man i just love your Work.I miss my fallen ones,miss my Dad bro.Tears now,sea of tears.Love your Work man really.
@mikhail213934 жыл бұрын
Dedicated to all the Uncles out there. Just like my uncle passed away yesterday and tomorrow will be buried. God Rest In Peace!!
@R.T.and.J12 жыл бұрын
How is it that not only has Ill Bill been blessed with such gifted talent as a songwriter, but he's also able to produce such God-like beats? Amazing.
@onicronprime1183 жыл бұрын
Look at his crew he rolls with, they keep trying to top each other
@RatsWithAttitudes6 ай бұрын
this song really touches your soul, had forgotten all about it until today.
@lordkromakaekd40374 жыл бұрын
I cry to this song. Peace.
@SteelCityBloodInBloodOut2 жыл бұрын
Bill too Ill reeespect from Canada Ontario
@ponchbellywarpig40485 жыл бұрын
this is what rap needs truth!!!! real soul!!!!
@templarmoney112 жыл бұрын
"Not just as nephew & uncle, but as homies, we were friends Though I've grown up, I'm still heartbroken, aching to cry Hoping you're the one holding open those gates when I die"
@Mega420madman12 жыл бұрын
I really feel this track, my grandman just died and my cousin died from an overdose a few months ago, ill bill please keep making tracks like this, respect from kamloops BC Canada
@Te37_daniel12 жыл бұрын
Literally brought tears to my eyes. Wonderful song.
@christianwagner93752 жыл бұрын
Hardcore RAP From THA REAL PAIN !!!
@vdosrchn12 жыл бұрын
What’s that sincerity and genuine reality like? I think they call it non-fiction. How many wish they could speak or express like this. Better yet like that track. May God, bless and continue to guide his chosen.
@EmakulateMM13 Жыл бұрын
I ❤ you are this song Bill
@SomeDude-b4hКүн бұрын
I love ill bill (platonically). Favorite rapper for 23 years
@fishez4204 жыл бұрын
This song is beautiful
@beymeester55936 ай бұрын
I lost my best friend, my grandfather in 2007. I still talk about him often, he believed in me when i didnt believe in myself. This track hits hard. Eventhough I lost so many friends I cannot count on two hands, my grandfather is the one I still hope will open the door for me one day. Bless you Bill!
@p0w3rbik38 жыл бұрын
RIP UNCLE HOWIE
@charliepouliot85295 жыл бұрын
Amen
@Phearsum5 жыл бұрын
Got me caring about an uncle idk but thank you because Bill might not be Bill without you and we love Bill.
@AlbanianThrash4 жыл бұрын
feel like i grew up with him thru bill's music
@Knatch993 жыл бұрын
Its like hell on earth without you near!!!
@frankincense34777 жыл бұрын
WHEN I DIE (OG Version) Heartfelt Classic !
@tyrantpoh12 жыл бұрын
bill is the illest its songs like this that show his incredible talent in making u feel every word he spits its quite a rarity to find such realness in todays watered down bubble rap...i can replay this song for another 2 hours,I had the privilege of meeting him at a show,honestly the realest person I have ever met,this song is quite inspirational and gives me strength I lost my grandmother Zaharoula Troumouhis on 10.2.06 a day before my 24th birthday.I still feel her presence my good brother-pz
@Boblivion812 жыл бұрын
This song is beautiful. Well done I’ll Bill. 10/10 with the Mercyful Fate. Too one far away… 🤘🏻
@mickcross63133 жыл бұрын
So sad 😭 but we all feel this way about a loved one 👍🤔 it's crazy
@diegomari4478 Жыл бұрын
For my mama ❤
@chanrider12 жыл бұрын
Damn Bill you really did it this time. Made me question my heritage, whether or not my passed loved ones would be disappointed or not. You yanked some shame and tears out of my soul. RIP Nana Pearl, Papa Cohen, Oompah, Uncle Howie and all those who have had an impact on our lives.
@MrGundam00833 жыл бұрын
this hits you on so many levels its great and hard to listen too
@jonathang83235 жыл бұрын
2019 rip Howie. Listen to this every day
@OldschoolVgamer Жыл бұрын
This guy seriously has more talent and substance in one finger than ten mumble rappers have combined between the whole of them. Why isn't there less UNsuperficial rap music like this? lol
@jimicarfora787811 ай бұрын
Damn, merciful fate beat too! Love you bro!
@HarvestStudio8 жыл бұрын
Song gave me chills bruh
@brollan123411 жыл бұрын
I was 17 when I lost my pops to cancer, I'm 22 today. It'll make you grow like nothing else. Stay strong, brother.
@MadMan-wo8gv6 жыл бұрын
Real lyrics gives me the chills real life issues I have faced in my life make thank u Big bro
@MrXocozin12 жыл бұрын
This song makes me think about my dad... I'm 20 years old and he passed away when I was 11 , but I still miss him....
@cprigas5 жыл бұрын
That damn guitar riff made me wanna cry..
@GODHATESADOPTION5 жыл бұрын
Mercyful fate
@ihateeverything39725 жыл бұрын
Those vocals
@slumchemist8804 жыл бұрын
@@GODHATESADOPTION to one far away to be exact
@MelloBlaze Жыл бұрын
Fire video. Ill Bill is a legend
@TheOmegaeyes7 жыл бұрын
THIS is so fuckin' chilling!! I gave up on hip-hop for a while, stuff like this gives the art form some hope. Loving the Mercyful Fate samples throughout!
@snorlaxlove11 жыл бұрын
this is deep. REAL RAP right here. no commercial bullshit RIP HOWIE. brings memories of my own loved ones that have passed.
@CARLGULA5 жыл бұрын
R.i.P to ALL the loved ones we've lost and thumbs up for anyone who can relate ✌️
@fabiopunzetti89267 жыл бұрын
I got chills for all the whole track, respect to you.
@baranobama53758 жыл бұрын
My uncle just died this morning. Still can't wrap my head around it.
@sacequeensny53117 жыл бұрын
Cyka Blyat may he rest in peace my G
@clay44446 жыл бұрын
respect.
@rodrigojosephybanez13023 жыл бұрын
Miss my Grandma so much
@cristian012318 жыл бұрын
Realiest song ive ever heard!
@CorzIlla2 жыл бұрын
Love You Bill.. Man You reppin in my ears Hard here in Australia boy! Much Love Corz
@greysoul81094 жыл бұрын
I love you mom...hoping you're the holding open those gates when I die
@MrOptik15 жыл бұрын
That was deep, thank you Bill. Very VERY authentic NYC rapper right here. It takes a real talented artist to go above and beyond the status quo and do something from the heart like this track. Shows how you really think and can perform on any level. That's real talent, very under rated I feel. I followed the entire journey from when you guys started documenting UH.. This track was touching bro. I'm sure there are people in the world hurting and feeling the same way and this song might bring them some comfort, which is the gift you were given to share with the world. I love your music, Don't ever stop.
@eduard41174 жыл бұрын
This song is masterpiece. RESPECT FROM ROMANIA!
@tumeone8312 жыл бұрын
This song has been on repeat for 2 days now. One of best tracks Ill Bill´s ever made. Can not be feeling this.
@05assahse7 жыл бұрын
5 years and its still dope 🎧👊
@argylesmith2346 жыл бұрын
great song. man this family has been through so much together. much love
@saywaugottasay8 жыл бұрын
R.iP to most of my closest family ...R.i.P ,I can relate to every verse !
@saywaugottasay5 жыл бұрын
@@liveandlearnlearntolive4003 I made this page in 08 u loser before you had been born
@KonJamo12 жыл бұрын
this level of honesty is unmatched
@dimethaltryptamine12 жыл бұрын
The lyrics to this are over the top T R U E!! The music, the vibe...the whole thing is a blown mind here! This should be heard across the world it's just wow!! Coming from a Hawkwind, Yes & Moody Blues fan. I adored my acid. LMAO 1
@Justins187712 жыл бұрын
Respect from British Columbia, Canada, Bill! One of the dopiest songs of 2012/13 without a doubt.
@marsbikers4 жыл бұрын
real hip hop
@jusallah765112 жыл бұрын
all i got to say is "Dope" beyond the 3rd power thats why true mc's will forever be respected for true words and inspiration i got love for ill bill and respect eveything he says!!! forever keeping it real!!!!!! chicago loves you PEACE
@GiancarloDiamond8 жыл бұрын
the og version is much better 1 mil times then the remix on the grimy awards / hour reprisal version
@underground40125 жыл бұрын
100%. I bought grimy awards and was pissed to see the other version so i bought the OG on amazon too
@GODHATESADOPTION5 жыл бұрын
Well Bill is a master... he has lots of style
@GODHATESADOPTION5 жыл бұрын
Btw mercyful fate is the sample in this track
@Scot_Tz5 жыл бұрын
This is the original when I die. What you talking about?
@dariushlarijani80834 жыл бұрын
@@Scot_Tz they were talking about the grimy awards/ and amazon version of this song
@lofiwackpainting46203 жыл бұрын
How come more people don’t know about this dude man
@trapgoongucci71042 жыл бұрын
Man this shit hits deep
@DannVerner11 жыл бұрын
Rest in peace Uncle Howie and thank you for giving Bill the inspirations to carry these life lessons to we the people. Big ups from Toronto!!!
@sarahtitcombe12057 жыл бұрын
bill does it again.
@doctoraugustuskwembe5 жыл бұрын
Lost my mum 6 months ago, and my Grandma 3 years ago now. RIP to both....
@shaunmoody1053 Жыл бұрын
Been a fan over 20 years can say he is still to this day my favorite rapper of all time
@mrmadeyehd98785 жыл бұрын
Old school rappers: rapping about truth and real life,has good beats New school : skibidi pah pah haha
@minceraftfornite43345 жыл бұрын
mrmadeye hd that’s why old stuff is better because it’s real
@coreyb18963 жыл бұрын
This song’s been in my playlist since 2013. Still hits.