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[@morgansvlogs]

I love you 🖤 even if you don’t feel loved remember that you are and life always works out for the best

[@sydeezy17]

needed this today, Queen 👑💞

[@wisdamnmaglangit3965]

Ur channel is so homie

[@kaylahoskins]

I love you

[@Sarah-Harvey]

I love you too Morgan, remember you are loved by so many people. You’ve got this ❤️ xx

[@alabamayaw]

💜💜

[@TheDezizzle]

Girl. Buy a small fixer up in CO. You can redo it with your family and thrive. Cause the redoing your room videos you were glowing and happy. There's nothing wrong with being a KZbinr not in LA. Doesn't make you a failure just means LA wasn't your vibe.

[@Raevynwing]

Yes! Not everyone loves to live in a huge busy city!

[@aosmond97]

My thoughts exactly!!! I think she would THRIVE! I think we all just want to see her living her truth and being happy ❤️

[@rayleend7259]

Wow I second this!!!

[@GEGL10]

This would be so cool!

[@poutygirl_]

omg yes i would looooooove to see this happen! i love when she’s with her family. The happiest

[@badshotqueen7574]

Crying into your breakfast whilst trying to convince yourself you're ok, is the most relatable thing I've ever seen on KZbin.

[@nayavizcarra5378]

Agreed!

[@halez1407]

Nothing sadder than big tears falling into food

[@VSGIRL21]

💯

[@Finessenime]

It really finally made me feel not crazy

[@halez1407]

@Dead Ryan shes not recording herself crying, she is trying to record a usual video and get on with life despite feeling so crap and that sadness seeps out. You obviously have never experienced that before or you would understand.

[@KarenAg1]

Morgan crying while saying she’s okay it’s the most relatable thing on internet 🥺

[@chi1610]

FR✋😔

[@amekori]

I was diagnosed with GAD and depression 2 years ago, and it's been really hard. I can't even get a job or drive far away from home. It really sucks. I just want to be normal. I'm 28. To anyone reading this: I pray that every stress, worries, overthinking & anxieties will be swept far away from your life. 🙏🏻

[@abx7092]

Reading this resonated with me so much. I’m in the exact same position so thank you for this comment. It meant a lot

[@kristinrae9008]

Me 3! Your definitely not alone...I'm 40 and been dealing with the same stuff since about 10or11 yro..but when i hit 25 it just got worse by the year .honestly, my 2 daughters are the only thing keeping me going!!! Its tough and seems so unfair that some humans get to be happy and not have so many health issues. Anyhow, Thankyou! Your comments really helped me tonight in feeling that I am not the only person going through this chronic torture ..stay strong💙

[@hemanareddy7757]

@@kristinrae9008 I really hope u get through it all

[@mandaycarpenter7160]

@@kristinrae9008 same I’m 34 when I had my 4 year old at 30 it hit me and it’s so hard I have to make my self leave the house for groceries and my social anxiety is really bad I have a panic attack thinking about leaving or even knowing about an upcoming dr appointment like I want my old self back I’m so glad I’m not the only one going through this! Thank you for your comment it’s helped me more than you know,

[@ashleymascorro2021]

"Its not a breakdown, it's a breakthrough" is my new mantra

[@Sunwolfff]

I love your way of thinking. :)

[@camtranquoc3745]

ok

[@linak9161]

I feel like nobody talks about the loneliness one might experience in their 20s. A lot of people move out of your life while it becomes a lot harder to find more people to connect with because you develop standards for people you want to have in your life.

[@madeline4144]

yes!!!! it's so hard to make new friends in your 20s too. especially if you move out of your hometown. we feel you morgan

[@Glambutfirstcoffee]

I am in my late 20s and I can say THE BEST TIME OF LIFE! But also hardest. Why? Because I feel like I am smarter and better than I ever was. That makes me see the stupidness and craziness of the world and where it goes, and it is scary!

[@Zaphkyel]

Let me tell you it doesn't get any easier in your 30"s, at least for some of us.

[@Chachixo]

Standards and as you get older, you don't find yourself around as many new people as you used to unless you really make an effort.

[@CelestBiohazard]

20s are truly some awkward year. Everyone is growing up at different rates and it’s difficult to stay in the same lane.

[@shutcho95]

That person that made you feel like a “bottom feeder” obviously has her own self confidence problems. Like who the fuck would say that to anyone? 🤷🏻‍♂️ You’re awesome and I’m pretty sure if we lived near each other we’d be best friends 😊

[@shutcho95]

@@amplifiedbynature5978 Absolutely!

[@charon_lix]

@@shutcho95 If you've ever played a sport you know that coaches and players yell at you to push you to do better. Only weak minded people take someone shouting at them and turn it into negative feelings

[@rakul1006]

"Someone could kill me and I'd be like... I bet they had a good reason!" That is about the most relatable thing I have ever heard.

[@neonsheon]

Morgan crying over eggs telling herself everything will be okay is literally me and I feel that. Also thx for the great content :)

[@PadmeAmidalaEdits]

Same it’s a whole mood love her 💕

[@Michaelyn]

Right? like I’ve actually done that before😆

[@juicebox333]

Me this week lmao

[@april-vq2mh]

I felt so bad for her 🥲

[@elizabethmarchen2929]

1.4K LIKES LOOK AT YOU GO!!!!!!

[@AlexFlores-sk2xu]

I balled my eyes out to this video. I lost my mom back in Jan and I swear to God the only thing getting me by is my cat..and my friends. I can’t function right at all. I find myself wanting to give up a lot. But I’ll be okay, we all will I love you Morgan

[@khyati7733]

Shit i relate

[@1acyjayn3]

The soul cycle experience is such a good example of having compassion to others. You never know what they are going through behind the scenes. So sorry you made such a great effort to get out and exercise for your mental health and were broken down by the instructor. You are doing great.

[@alexishess713]

as an anxious person, soul cycle classes sound like my actual nightmare

[@Andshewasafairy]

Yes!!!! I’ve wanted to try it for soooo long but I literally can’t find the mental courage. I’m way too shy and anxious 😩😂

[@mamiiiv]

I’m anxious just hearing her explain it 😳😂

[@gaila.6003]

It sounds like a totally nightmarish unnecessary thing to do even if you are a laid back cool as a cucumber person. Who needs to sweat their butt off while riding a bike to nowheresville while some lunatic is screaming at you like a maniac!! No thank you!

[@ultvio9965]

My thoughts exactly, the whole time I was thinking “screw that lady, like why be so rude when people are coming to you for instruction, typically ppl go to an instructor for encouragement and direction,, not to be shamed into going back home“

[@jenniferr.8794]

I'm anxious af, but also I know I need that energy to not end up hating exercising. The only problem I'd see confidence wise for me is that in LA people who go to that tend to look great while I'm here looking like mashed potatoes

[@andreadunham2168]

You should move back to Colorado!!! I think it would be way more beneficial for your mental health and happiness! Of course that is completely up to you but I think that we all have been able to see a difference between Colorado Morgan and L.A. Morgan. We don’t know you personally and don’t see day to day life but we want what’s best for you!! ❤️

[@mia-xf3xp]

I def supported her staying in CO bc she was happiest there, but I feel like she may need to work on being actually happy w herself by herself. I think that’s one of the issues she hasn’t overcome just yet. which is so hard to do. I believe that she’ll find peace in herself eventually i just don’t know if she’d be able to living in CO

[@HappyDaze4200]

I agree... family matters, I felt all of this when I tried to live away from my family for like 3 months, I called them crying everyday. 😂

[@maddykellogg]

I 100% agree. Huge difference!

[@BhappyD]

Couldn’t agree more with your comment! I really think it would be good for her overall mental and physical health to be in CO right now. It doesn’t have to be a permanent move, but at least while the pandemic is still an issue. Obviously we don’t know what her life is like off camera, but LA just seems to have some serious negative effects on her wellbeing, at least from what we are able to observe from the videos she posts. We all just want the best for her.

[@Glambutfirstcoffee]

@@HappyDaze4200 It depends on the person. I moved to another country, I feel great here while there are great people around me, and while I do what makes me happy. :) I have not seen my family in almost two years

[@hagglemyivan]

Thank you Morgan. The depressed folks needed this. ❤️❤️❤️

[@Ambeee1]

I’m a mom...she’s only 8, but will some day be a woman. Let me just say, as a Mom I can honestly say you are someone I would be proud for her to be like. It doesn’t matter where you live, what you do, as long as you are always you and you’re kind. Do what makes you happy and be your true authentic self regardless of what anyone thinks. ❤️

[@trinitylace1101]

That’s so sweet❤️bless you mama and your baby girl❣️

[@courtneyburke7364]

“It’s not a breakdown its a breakthrough.”- Morgan Adams, 2021

[@bookwrm4evr]

That was such a great comment

[@Liefssmarije]

AMEN.

[@KendallRae]

Morgan 💔I’m sorry you’re really going through it right now 😭 but I’m so proud of you for being so aware of your mental health and working really hard to think through/work through these things. You are doing amazing!

[@dayaoof8907]

Love your vids kendall

[@karlie4883]

Alright I need a Morgan and Kendall collab asap 😩 love both of your guys content so much 💜💜

[@emily6861]

We all go through it and it’s great when people are there for each other ♥️

[@saraz9838]

Kendall what happened to your last video ?? 🥲🥲🥲

[@luciandrei9701]

Icons supporting icons. Love to see it

[@shelbeighmcleod1884]

LA really just ain't good for anyone's mental health💯😞

[@sarah29880]

Right and def not a cycling class in LA haha

[@jenniferfields5947]

I’ve lived in California for 9 years now and I can honestly say I’m not happy. I don’t know what it is.

[@sarah29880]

@@jenniferfields5947 crazy cuz it’s so sunny there all the time with perfect weather right?

[@angelbaby7122]

You crying while eating breakfast was honestly heart breaking but eye opening for me. Like I’m not the only one who feels like this. Im not the only one who cries randomly and feels so low some days. Im sorry you go through this too. I love your videos and I love how real you are. ❤️

[@shalecewyatt4103]

I don’t even know Morgan but I feel so incredibly protective over her. Like I need to be the one to tell her she’s worth it. Even if it’s every day or every hour. It’s crazy.

[@morgansvlogs]

🥺 I love and appreciate you ❤️

[@kmpeck4086]

I felt like this too. I have to believe it’s the camaraderie of knowing how what’s she’s sharing feels like♥️

[@accioanna]

Same.. she is a friggen treasure

[@bethinwonderland5331]

Anyone else want to cry with Morgan because you feel the same? Let’s all cry together ❤️

[@LindsayBallif]

YASS 💕

[@Lynny444_]

Yes😭💕

[@livv3905]

Especially when she said she always gives them the best version of herself and it just never works 😭

[@peytonreynolds3224]

I never knew how to explain how I feel in words but what Morgan said was exactly it. I cried the whole time and I’m still crying 🥺❤️ it’s just so freaking hard

[@lacylashay83]

Yes for sure 💗

[@esthekatie]

Dude this shit never makes sense.. be as honest as you can with your dr. You are NOT stupid at all.. you are so emotionally intelligent and so empathetic and so fucking strong. Also that red dress looked BOMB on you👏🏻👏🏻 the color looks so good w your skin and eyes

[@madi_helene]

Does anyone else just really want to give Morgan a hug and cry with her?? Or just me? 😅 lol

[@kysoccergirl98]

As a fellow 23-year-old-still-in-college-wondering-what-I’m-doing-with-my-life person, I feel this and I am right there with you girl

[@banibadwal7995]

I really relate to this !!

[@chatayaholysinger3067]

Sameee i cried😭 I love morgan so much and everytime I see her videos I relate more and more. 💕

[@noramero2955]

I'm not 23 but I relate 100%...

[@amypeterson1445]

I lived that life for MANY years, and now I’m on the other side (for the first year). I love my job, I have a life outside of work, and I feel like my life is BALANCED - something I never thought was possible. I just want to tell you girls to keep going. I’m here cheering you on. You are amazing and life will get better 💖💖💖 P.S. - “Keep going” as long as it’s not ruining your mental health. Cutting back hours at work or school (or taking a complete break) does NOT make you a failure. Do what makes these years as mentally healthy as possible 💕

[@kysoccergirl98]

@@amypeterson1445 Proud of you!!! I’ve been in undergrad since 2016, and I’m finally one semester from graduation after changing my major three times. I ended up making myself take a semester break just to slow down, regain my mental health and focus on what I really wanted to do in my own life. After that I’ve been more motivated than ever and I can finally see the finish line for this goal I’ve worked so hard at. I was so lost not even a year ago in my life and now I finally feel like I’m on the right path, just had to figure out what was right for me. Everyone has their own track and the universe will do funny things to keep you there! 💕

[@mrsmichelledaniels]

It sounds like right now in your life you need to move home. Everytime you go back to LA you seem to have a hard time coping. It’s ok to take a step back and figure it out. You don’t have to live with your parents. I am glad you kept the crying parts in. Thank you for this video.

[@oldkittykiyru]

I was thinking the same. Morgan needs to get a place 15 minutes from her family and maybe some old friends. Feels like she is forcing herself into this L.A. life to feel like she is moving forward and it's not working.

[@abbieg3945]

I feel this too and was about to say the same thing

[@missjones8824]

this made me cry. I feel exactly the same. I just want to turn the lights off and sleep for a week. everything just feels like it's too much for me right now. seeing you buy the barn made me feel like when we feel like this it might be the universe pushing us in a different direction. Thanks for this.

[@TimeBucks]

You are so strong

[@shreyasharma2160]

At this point I feel like we’re all the same person 😂😭

[@PadmeAmidalaEdits]

Same 💕

[@kittykat8110]

Ditto. 🥺

[@holly-sh5yo]

Let’s start a Morgan discord community to help out each other!

[@catshriin]

Agreed lol

[@Lynny444_]

@@holly-sh5yo omg yes!!!!! I’m so down for that

[@aliciacorvina3111]

I can't even begin to tell you how chaotic life is right now for literally everyone I talk to.

[@mermaiddiyartist8119]

Yes

[@Derynhochheim]

Yup!! Too much pressure in existing like she said. Everything could be so simple

[@andrearose98764]

Yes! I know of 4 people plus myself that felt like the world was going nuts for a few weeks in March

[@VioletSky908]

Yes! March has been absolute hell for so many people I know including myself. I know so many people who had daily mental breakdowns and just stared crying out of nowhere every day. Everyone is super stressed out right now

[@bunnyhop4592]

Yes. Existing is so hard. Full of depression and shame

[@gaelk2301]

You aren't stupid, you're valid. Hang in there girl, its a process. You're doing great! Mental health is complicated. Don't be afraid to reach out to professionals when you cannot find the answers.

[@leeroyjenkins3391]

Agreed. Morgan, I can see that you're trying very hard. It will get better. Just keep doing what you're doing and taking those small steps. Before long, you'll be able to look back and say "I did that. Me." It seems tough but you WILL get there.

[@lollylolly8186]

As an older, sometimes wiser person; you are normal! So proud of you getting up, doing stuff and pushing through. You are strong and so lovely. You can be surrounded by the most lovely people and feel so alone and lonely. You have episodes of depression, most of us do especially given this past year and the stresses of being online. Just be aware you can get help if you feel it gets worse. I’m sure you know all of this, I hope all your fans do too. Thanks for posting such a heartfelt, honest video. It’s what we need! Yes sometime life is hard, but that does NOT mean you are crazy or weird. It helps to unplug from social media and take a walk, read a book, pick up a hobby. Take care of yourselves 👏❤️

[@mariaandrades1536]

Trying to eat without crying and trying to convince yourself your okay is literally the definition of going thru it. Literally throw back to the worst time of my life.

[@sunflwrfields250]

Does it get better

[@jessicaoberhausen9691]

@@sunflwrfields250 It does.

[@yellownailpolish4203]

@@sunflwrfields250 of course. it will. I promise you it will get better. 💖

[@mariaandrades1536]

@@sunflwrfields250 yes, and then you can help others that are still going thru it

[@Andydandy7]

Morgan eating her breakfast and aggressively repeating "everything is okay" while gradually beginning to sob is such a mood

[@SplashOfGreen]

The way she choked that bite down. Ugh I felt that

[@ofyourbluesky]

"I'm happy. I'M HAPPY"

[@mirellalastar]

A depressive mood, yeah. But her vision is clearer when she cries than when she fake smiles.

[@moodyringtarotllc1624]

Thank you for being so transparent. I, We, are NOT alone.

[@jacquelinetemple2524]

Take it from a 58yr old mum of three grown sons, depression/anxiety rarely has a defined reason. I suffered with postnatal depression so severe I was hospitalised (not the medical kind either) and I learnt so much from looking back, mainly that some days it felt like my world was caving in and some days 'the sun was shining' but nothing happened to make those days different! My husband has often talked about coming in from work not knowing what version of me would be there, sunshine happy or sobbing because I forgot to buy eggs that day...I noticed you trying to convince yourself that everything would be ok or smiling when you really wanted to cry, pretending to 'enjoy' yourself because you don't want others to worry about you . I saw myself in your eyes, worried what people will think if you fall apart. Teach yourself to be aware that it's ok to have bad days when you're dealing with depression, it doesn't mean you're not getting better, it just means that today is a tough day. Keep a mini journal of good days (or hours) and bad days, over the course of a month try to aim for more good days than bad. You may have already done this but just in case, get your thyroid levels checked (I didn't get diagnosed till I was almost 40!) and your Vitamin B/hormone levels checked. So many people think vitamins aren't important because you can buy them over the counter, but the B vitamins (there's a few) are massively important to your mind and body, I only know this because my thyroid condition means I can't store them no matter how healthy I eat. If I sound like a fruit loop, ask google lol...and please, just don't rule out a medical reason for your anxiety/depression. Sorry for the ramble but I wish someone had told me in my 20's what I know now. xx

[@wenny463]

Morgan is so relatable. I feel like I'm not alone when I watch her videos. It's somehow comforting to know that someone feels the same way you do.💖

[@Estrafalari]

Same. I'm kinda going through the same thing. But It'll pass sooner than we think! good vibes to everyone

[@theejordanrose14]

Morgan, girl, thank you for showing this side of you and helping to stop the stigmatization of having bad weeks and bad mental health days. I know it’s so hard to be this vulnerable but it’s so nice to know that there are people who have these weeks just like me.

[@MaleficMarls]

It's hard to learn self-love and peace, the distraction of having people around takes the pressure off from having to learn that. YOU'VE GOT THIS

[@satumoon6997]

I absolutely feel how you have been feeling, and seeing you cry and say things that I think in my head but never know how to put into words is so comforting yet saddening at the same time. Thank you for showing this side of you and letting everyone know that it is normal to feel this way, and to not give up because you will overcome it. I wish you nothing but happiness, I know you'll reach everything you ache for.

[@nanyvargas85]

Your soul is not meant for California. It’s destined for far more and you’re deserving of far more🥰

[@AprilFrresh]

Good call, I agree. I lived in Los Angeles for many years and never made use of it bc it wasn't my fuel. Moved outta state, got a house, some pets..... So much better.

[@sakurabreeze_]

I’ve lived here my entire life & absolutely love it but I understand how it wouldn’t be for everyone. Some places hold people back while they can propel others forward. I definitely agree it could be holding her back from her full potential of happiness . Hopefully she can find her happy soon 🥺

[@whitneyblack85]

As you get older making friends is harder. It’s better to have a few true friends than 100 fake ones.

[@lacylashay83]

👍

[@lucyalicia1613]

this quote will live w me forever!!! BUT PERIOD!!!

[@carlasouza5306]

Yes

[@courtneylynn8568]

Oh god. As u get older. We only ever get older 😭😭😭 i have no friends

[@vip5hawol]

thats why it sucks when you grow old without any at all fml

[@S.archotic]

Can we just talk about how good Morgan’s skin looks now? We’re so proud of you, your progress is showing and your fans are always gonna be there for u

[@joanmarshall5736]

I love that youre talking about this so openly!!! it feels good to know someone is going through a similar thing as me. I had a rough dec and jan where I would cry on the subway every day on the way to work. I started going to therapy and noticed I just feel so much better!! Also, try headspace! I was never able to meditate or relax, but this app helps bring you into the present moment. good luck! it will get better

[@gonkerr]

Girl, this is gonna sound so brutal, but cry your eyes out and feel like shit. Disconnect from everything and sit with yourself for awhile. There’s honestly nothing more therapeutic than releasing backed up emotion you’ve been distracting yourself from feeling. Happiness is a ‘fleeting’ emotion and at the end of the day we’re only human ✊💞

[@courtneylynn8568]

Yes....but...if you cry too long in a room by yourself....sometimes you literally cant stop crying and then your hands and feet go tingly and then you have a huge headache and end up throwing up ... But also sometimes you end up closing your eyes and feeling a sense of calm and relaxation at the end of your crying session

[@sugarbumps5083]

“We simply have no other option than to figure it out, so here I am figuring it out” I don’t know why but I just really liked that statement

[@HeatherLynn11]

I just moved out to Cali alone I have no family or friends and I regularly turn on your videos when I’m eating dinner, feeling lonely etc so you actually have helped me with my mental health and I think it’s important for you to know you’re having a positive impact on people’s lives 💕

[@kd1764]

I feel this in so many ways. This is me literally every day trying to get through life. It’s nice seeing big-time creators showing real emotions like real people.

[@amberh4656]

Anyone else want to invite Morgan into their homes and be her BFF? Morgan, let’s be friends. Come over and hang out 😘😄

[@Kristypuff]

Seriously😂 she’s such a sweet soul

[@sabrinamedina194]

I honestly think the same like her personality is soo chill & she's pretty much down to do anything even if it's just chilling doing nothing lol

[@AprilStringerScaparo]

Yasss. ❤️🙋🏼‍♀️

[@ashgarnermeow]

Me! Honestly, would love to be her friend

[@krissydawn644]

Absolutely!

[@caremila1469]

That’s depression, babe. I rarely have a tangible reason to feel “sad” but I feel it anyway. At any time. Talking about it helps a lot. You’re doing great. And that red dress is IT!

[@katiealtieri4284]

I absolutely love how vulnerable you get and you don't show the "perfect life" You are so real! I hate that you have to deal with mental health struggles but you are so inspiring and make me feel better when I'm going through similar issues

[@courtneyfleming5475]

Morgan, thank you so much for being so open and honest about how you’ve been feeling! It was so relatable because I’ve been in your same situation and more people need to see and know that it’s ok to not feel ok. And that you don’t always have to put on a happy face for other people. I love watching all of your videos because you’re so real in every way 💜

[@oliviabain6036]

When she said that she felt like she had rocks in her stomach and that her throat was closing up and she feared the sun going down i felt that so deeply. That's exactly how i feel when i'm going through my worst moments, but thankfully it is always temporary. Morgan you're amazing never forget it :)

[@siiighdiana2110]

Oh my god Morgan... this is your sign to go back to Colorado. LA is soooo bad for you :( you were so happy back there and as soon as you came back.

[@peaches8705]

She probably won’t go because she feels like Ryland and Shane need her

[@mikaelaraymond4690]

This aged really well!!

[@shelmilli]

Mourning past friendships, the life you used to have, and the person you used to be is something I was never told I’d have to do, but I really wish someone had. My life is also completely different from how it was a few years ago, and for about three years I was unconsciously digging myself into a pit of loneliness, disappointment, and depression comparing my relationships and personal life to how it once was and to other people. I was so scared to change that I had rather let myself become more and more miserable instead. I felt lost, purposeless, and out-of-place for so long. I had opportunities to change certain aspects of my situation but the fear of the unknown stopped me from acting on them. It was exactly how Morgan described it in this video, the universe will tell you when it’s time to change but if you keep ignoring it, the more painful life becomes until you finally listen. Over the past few months I’ve had to learn the difference between missing something and wanting it back. Identifying the things I missed but no longer wanted in my life moving forward was like a weight being lifted off my chest. You can hold onto the memories and lessons from your past and still allow yourself to move on, to heal, and grow. It’s a daily struggle and I’m still trying to figure out how to let go but I’m grateful to be in a much better place now. I pray for anyone out there who is going through a hard time, I promise you are not alone. “Change will come when the pain of staying the same is worse than the pain of changing.” - Tony Robbins “The people who are meant to be in your life are the ones who know how to gently wait for you to heal.” - Anonymous “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” - Isaiah 43:2

[@WyllowNorth]

A llot of the things you said really resonate with me. I've lost a bunch of friends that I considered like family in the past year and I've lost my dad and I'm essentially trying to build a future post-college in a place where everything has changed and I just feel like it's time for me to go and venture somewhere else but letting go of so many important things to you all at once is like a brick in the face. Been trying to stay collected for the passed 2 years and I'm only just seeing a bit of light through meditation and spirituality (astrology & witchcraft). It's rough and heartbreaking, but I think you got the right mindset by accepting that it is a transformative phase that needs to happen. It's part of the process and we will all be alright, but we need to pass through this phase first and it's ok to allow yourself to feel whatever you're feeling. Sending good vibes your way xx

[@SUPAM0N3YY]

I'm so glad you talked about this because I've been feeling like this for my entire life and while I would never want anyone else to feel this way, I don't feel alone now. It was literally like you were speaking straight from my fucking brain!

[@morgansvlogs]

It’s awful and I’m sorry you have to feel the same. It brings me great comfort to know that it’s not just me so thank you for sharing and I’m sending you love and light ❤️❤️

[@SUPAM0N3YY]

@@morgansvlogs I’ve loved watching your journey of growing through these horrible feelings. Gives me hope that I can get there some day too! ❤️

[@rachelrooth4075]

Literally this breakdown was me two weeks ago and I thought my entire life was over and now I’m looking back at myself like wow she was fine and needed to breath

[@Kateosaurus]

Same! Everything was all fucked up last week and I was circling the drain, this week it is a different story!

[@breestrong4858]

I feel you dude. I've been stuck in a new state since the pandemic started and have no friends still. I'm super lonely. I'm going to dinner and the movies alone now. It shouldn't be this hard... But maybe just a trial I have to endure to become better. I know you'll prevail, Morgan. You ARE a great person and the universe will always care for you. I send you love , distant friend. Thank you for posting ! Helps fill my void

[@Jerrica8123]

I’m so glad you uploaded this. Thanks for showing how it is for so many of us on a day to day basis!

[@josipagrbesic924]

KZbin community needed this raw and unfiltered footage. It is so honest, brave, and beautiful. Thank you for posting this. Hang in there Morgan! 🥰

[@erikaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa]

remember that you dont have to be a skinny, blonde, LA, vsco instagram model at a soulcycle class to be happy and worthy of love

[@Marina-cq2yt]

Yesyesyesyes

[@TeenGlamBoxx]

in LA yes u do unless u r a kardashian

[@leahlullaby1307]

I literally felt the same exact way last week, I’m just now starting to feel better, you ain’t alone, love you!!

[@littlewing5682]

ThAnk you for your vulnerability. I often go through the same thing.....fine for a few weeks then I’m a mess for a couple weeks. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone.

[@Repzion]

This vlog is so relatable. Being aware of your mental health is so important. You're very strong! I, too, am adjusting of being alone after 3 years straight, its quite difficult but I know I'll get thru it and come out stronger. Same applies to you! Take everyday one day at a time.

[@MrLove502]

Love that, so true

[@SIRRAUN]

nice to see you here too rep - i hope you have an amazing tuesday! :)

[@Mason-lt3wj]

No

[@juggiebonebrain3383]

Being aware of mental health, that's fine. Making money off it, pathetic

[@EmmaGrace-rp3oq]

So high run can barley undetsyand the words

[@smilesarelove111]

"Well on my way to a tearfilled day" needs to be on some merch.

[@leddik]

Yes! I would buy that shirt.

[@PadmeAmidalaEdits]

I would love that so much

[@franceshopkins238]

I’d buy it

[@rojoecasey7579]

i'd buy it, too..

[@rissyrose84]

I appreciate you posting this! It takes a lot of courage to be in the public eye and share times like these. You definetly helped me know that I'm not alone in having these kinds of overwhelming emotions once in a while! And sometimes it lasts for days or weeks or even longer and you just don't know why! Thanks Morgan 💖

[@chanteillemons5507]

Girl same. I think we can all relate to how you are feeling, especially with what we are gong through right now.

[@amyclark2466]

Lmfaooooo the “everything’s fine. it’s fine” while simultaneously crying is very much a MOOD

[@natalienicole3880]

“ anyways do you wanna see my outfit tho??” *me black out while venting/crying to my friends*

[@morgansvlogs]

ME HAHAHAH

[@natalienicole3880]

@@morgansvlogs as whole literal tears are rolling down thinking you said too much not wanting anyone to worry 🥲 we love you morgan! you have so many people here for you.

[@kristaleeraffaelli5858]

You're a beauty.. your sensitive soul radiates good vibes much farther than you think you could imagine! And this inspires me, how brave to just put your shit out there, I'm glad you have!

[@ashleyferris5749]

Omg I went thru my jean pile while depressed last month and it was the worst thing ever. I just donated all of them and said I'll start over after quarantine.

[@clarissa7203]

"It's not a breakdown, it's a breakthrough" I will be living by this forever now We love you Morgan 🖤

[@munchie0499]

Anyone else feel like Morgan looks absolutely stunning in everything she has just tried on?! 🙋🏽‍♀️

[@alondralima9442]

I broke down this week too. To the point where I was on the floor with my head down crying out of frustration, sadness, mental pain and stressed out to the point when I'm trying extremely hard to keep it all together. People love to criticize and have their own opinions but those can really hurt . You just break. I get it. Update I feel better today(: remember we always have ups and downs in life. We are in this world together.

[@melindadavids5300]

Aww girl! I’m sorry you’re going through such a hard time. I’ve been struggling with my mental/emotional/physical health lately. My uncle passed away unexpectedly only months after my aunt passed away from liver cancer. And watching her body and face change bc of that cancer was the worst thing I’ve ever gone through. It was extremely traumatizing and I was still dealing with that when my cousin found my uncle passed away on his couch. He was holding onto a cup of water and some aspirin. He was literally fine the day before. He died all alone. And now my daughter is having health problems end we’re still waiting on results. It’s been a rough year and I think it’s been rough for all of us. Don’t be ashamed to feel this way or feel ashamed bc you’re trying to fix it. Be where you feel healthiest! If that’s Colorado, then be there! We’re still gonna love you! No matter where you end up. Stay strong girl. Love you 😘

[@teetertotter5787]

You are NOT a bottom feeder. You are a queen and a legend. Thank you for sharing your lows. Your vulnerability is inspiring. You are definitely on the cusp of some kind of transformation that will be so exciting and awesome, but also yeah so fricking painful. But you are amazing, so just stay in it!

[@TessEliott]

I feel like everyone is going through it right now... its nice to see that im not alone

[@VioletSky908]

Exactly! I know so many people right now around this time that are really going through it, I know I am

[@Laura-fh3sc]

❤️💔❤️💔❤️

[@kayleelands1754]

Same, spot on. Some of the things Morgan said in this video, are things I’ve said the past few weeks while breaking down. Definitely going through it over here as well

[@TheShelbyK]

You are in an interesting time of your life. Your early 20s, you learn so much and it really helps shape the rest of your life. If you do good, and and act right, you can't honestly look back on this time on your life and think you've done wrong. It is brave to keep trying. Good for you for putting in the work and the effort and make sure you credit yourself for that. You'll really appreciate it down the line when you see others that haven't put in the work.

[@hollymccabe7932]

I have never related to something more in my whole life. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way but you sharing this video helps me ❤️

[@Pertusetian]

I'm a 44yo man, and I don't even know how I got to liking Morgan so much. I guess cuz she's very real, open, and grounded. I wish you all the best. Also, to hell with that SoulCycle vibe.

[@heidishideaway1613]

Listen i love watching Morgan & im 52 🤷🏼‍♀️💕💯💯

[@brentlymcdermand5621]

Thank you for showing the real version of what depression and anxiety is. What it is like to feel alone and that there is no outlet that helps. It’s easy to feel overwhelmed, and to feel everything and nothing all at once. Always remember we are not alone. Mental health matters. Never be afraid to show this side of you. Stay strong, we love you. 💕

[@GirlWhoVlogs22]

♡♡♡

[@mariahmcgregor1094]

Morgan! This destroyed me because I never hear anyone talking about how you can do everything right and you still feel so terrible. It's so hard when people tell you just to work out or eat a certain way and you'll be cured. It means so much to see you be open and raw and I literally cried every single time you did. Thank you for being real. ❤️

[@LeaAnne94]

I'm going through a breakup right now and I just moved to a new city where he was the only person I knew. So I feel ya on the "being alone" thing. My friend came to see me and try to help, but as soon as she left I broke down again.

[@blossomingprincess9266]

I’m so glad Morgan uploaded this. There is so many of us who are feeling so lost, alone, etc and it’s honestly a good reminder knowing others feel that way also. If anyone is struggling and reads this, know that you ARE loved, you ARE strong, and you ARE worthy of all the wonderful things life has to offer. Even if we’re strangers, we’re in this together and are here to support each other even if it’s via the internet and a simple like, comment, etc.

[@chandel19g]

I feel less lonely today. I'm not alone in the struggle.

[@hiefa]

thank you morgan for sharing your raw feelings this help rise the awareness on mental health and i hope it helps you overcome negative thoughts too

[@frannault57]

This is amazingly relatable! Thank you for being so authentic! Even though you are having a hard time. You can tell that you are growing and dealing with your feelings in a more mature. Your honesty in your journey though life is deeply inspiring! I hope you are talking to someone though. Sending love! You are amazing!

[@Alexandra_Wolf]

I lost the ability to walk this year. I was a normal girl then randomly lost the ability to walk and had to call off my wedding sell my dream home because the stairs and I wanted to die. I am just surviving right now. A depression I never knew. I totally relate to all of this. This was me before I fell into my real depression so I’m glad your doing things to counteract it.

[@TheNocturnalpheonix]

@Sasha Gold Big hugs, Mamacita.💜💐💜 About ten years ago, when I was 22, I woke up one day unable to use my dominant arm. Within two weeks, my entire right side went numb. While working two jobs, in addition to being in the Army reserves, it felt like I lost my entire being when I hit diagnosed with a rare form of Multiple Sclerosis. A decade later, everyday is a beautiful struggle. No less, no more than before my life changed, but a different divergence into self care and discovery. Though the only constant is change, sometimes, a breakdown is really just a Breakthrough. 🤘🏼😘🔥 Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Hope today shines a light more light your way. 🌈

[@katejackson6502]

I also had my life completely change just one day due to health. I am sending you love. Try to reach out to those that love you and not isolate.

[@JoanaTrincaoAaltonen]

[@katerina9159]

I’m sorry if I’m being inconsiderate but what happened ? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to though

[@Chachixo]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Life can really throw some curveballs at times. I hope you find an even better home and new things to make you happy. You are strong and it's not over yet. Much love to you. I wish you all the happiness in the near future!

[@jennifergross3506]

Listen young one. If you have left people behind...it means you have grown and decided they did not grow with you. They can’t all come with you on your journey... it is YOUR journey. And now you have to find the people who fit this new person you have become...stay on this journey and keep growing...

[@zeinabalkayed223]

But they won't know i am becoming a new person. And that's on me cz they don't know what i go through or even what my personality is (cz honestly i didn't even figure it out myself yet).

[@sassysockss225sass4]

Thank you so much for this video. I've been struggling in the same way. It's hard to put into words how bad nights are just like you said. When everything goes quiet it hits differently. You have so much support Morgan. Thanks for speaking up for those of us who aren't strong enough.

[@alondrahrawr]

Thank you for being this vulnerable it really does make me feel like I’m not alone

[@janelleclarke5]

As a 22 year old, I have never felt more connected to a video.. so many people are feeling this way Morgan and thank you for sharing with the world! You are beautiful and growing even if it’s the smallest amount of growth it’s still growth!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@alohaXamanda]

We need exercise classes for introverts and people with anxiety, autism, etc. Dim lights, soft voices, gentle music, everyone wearing horse blinders so we can't see each other.

[@preciousonejewel]

yessss

[@tinabeall22]

This would honestly become bigger than Planet Fitness.

[@ofyourbluesky]

Make a business plan

[@ofyourbluesky]

Or I will

[@ErinMitchell95]

YES

[@iammimi5060]

When you said you’re at a point when you are afraid for the sun to set cause that’s when the bad feelings set in, Ive never related more!!!!!!!!!!!! Morgan you’re my family. Thank u

[@bridgetbroad9850]

i think a lot of people can relate, im so sorry you are having a rough time. sending you positive and healing vibes all the way from new zealand. hang in there, youv got this. you where born to stand out.

[@fo0o0d]

Honestly I think LA is the thing that the universe is trying to get u away from

[@alexcottam3999]

Yeah, everything about it seems so toxic and fake

[@ryanlutz6574]

1000000 she will be so much happier if she leaves - I know I am!

[@DoubleDTVx2]

She said that she was trying to re-create her life from two years ago-wasn’t she already in Cali then? I’m only recalling from memory, but wasn’t that when she used to live with Shane and Ryland? Either way, I really don’t think it’s LA that’s the problem, I just think she’s too much of a social butterfly to live alone!

[@fo0o0d]

@@DoubleDTVx2 Yeah thats kind of more so what I meant. Its probably hard for her to choose because it feels like she's choosing between Shane and Ryland vs. The rest of her family. In my opinion tho she'd probably be much happier in Colorado. Just look how much she was thriving when she was there with her family

[@DoubleDTVx2]

@@fo0o0d ultimately yeah, it's super unfortunate half of her heart's in one state, and the other another! Edit: Grammar

[@livv3905]

Mourning the loss of another living person is one of the greatest pains. No one talks about breaking off a friendship but the pain is just as a raw as breaking up with a so.

[@8mykayla]

This made me cry. I feel this something hard and watching this makes me know I’m not alone and things will get better.

[@drea-sunshiine]

I just love you so much! I cry with you, laugh with you, and feel so often as you do. Never forget how truly amazing and talented you are!! I dont have words to properly describe your bravery and selflessness, being as open and raw as you are. Just always know you are appreciated and so very loved by so many.