Injured by a hallucination

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I want to make more light hearted and positive videos and change up the content a little that I make, and also keep making the same content I have been making. The audio might be a little bit out of sync so my bad on that.

[@LBMUSICGR]

nice headphones i heard they can achieve studio sound-quality.....

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Is it time for a new cat Jacob? Or a g friend - u r such a handsome young man. 💙

[@rebeccamendez2691]

I'm glad your getting out! 🩵

[@lilshrine]

​@@rebeccamendez2691 Ikr he is so pretty 😅

[@trevoidc9859]

I hope you are doing good man. I have been watching you since my bipolar with psychosis diagnosis. I am still experiencing panic attacks and paranoia 3-4 times a week. I try my best to ignore it but I should probably up my olanzapine dose (I don't want to fry my brain on a high dose of antipsychotics though).

[@tayzonday]

I have schizotypal personality and extreme sensitivity to sound (misophonia) and touch (haphephobia)-this can lead to a lot of reactions to normal sounds and interactions as though they’re the start of a catastrophe. Autism spectrum disorder is my main diagnosis. While I will be afraid and worried and have extreme anxiety in response to things, sometimes reacting to small noises or other stimuli as though they are gigantic and painful- my reality testing is usually pretty in-tact. That’s what keeps me from being diagnosed with schizophrenia.

[@saids7737]

Damn, that's wild that you see people running at you on your workouts. I had no idea. I'm really proud of you for continuing to better yourself with those difficult episodes. You are also so right about the stigma. I try really hard to advocate for people who have psychotic disorders, especially when people spread misinformation about it. People with those disorders are people too and they deserve peace and clarity and connection with others. You're doing amazing, Jacob. Keep it up ❤️

[@MayaImaniAmani]

The thing about violence and schizophrenia is that not only are we less likely to commit violent crimes, we’re actually *more* likely to be the victims of violent crimes. Thanks for another great video my guy ❤️

[@dave_goldcrest]

Glad to see you back man. Hope you feel better soon.

[@Hypatia350]

I hope your back and neck get better soon. You come across really well and have a very nice sounding voice. I could listen to you talking about anything - you are so thoughtful and interesting to listen to.

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Very true. His voice is so soothing

[@CheezhOfficial]

Dope that you are still uploading.

[@sensunory]

Man I just said that too

[@sensunory]

Dude awesome to see ur still active! all the best to you man

[@bearfrombeyond]

In the past being around mates who'd post 'schizo' memes and jokes in group chats, or say them irl and I'd have to just sit there silent through it is really quite painful. Not being able to tell them to stop, or do anything about it, and seeing youtubers I liked growing up and even now make jokes at my expense, even those who claim to be "the good ones" in the topic, that hurts too, happening repeatedly through the years with the same or new people. Its like a disappointment just washes over and makes my chest hurt. Ive been very jealous of the accommodation people ive known receive for their (id consider) less stigmatized conditions, its frustrating for them to be so open about it all. The worst part is the times ive regretted,overshared, and wanted a closer friendship with someone, so i tell them, and theyve either forgotten the mention of it or not cared enough to stop making those jokes. In the current society, it truly feels its best to not tell anyone, and to an extent, not trust anyone ironically with that power over you. Ive never not regretted sharing it, and Ive never not felt uncomfortable by it. its a toughie and i hope to see the tides turn. Either be seen as a source of morbid curiosity, or as something to judge and fear.

[@CyKedeli]

Praying for your healing.

[@cyberiansilverfish7692]

I can relate. I also think that the people in mental hospitals, who are treated and called “mentally ill”, are much more empathetic and caring than the majority of “normal” people in this society… Hopefully, there are better days to come for us.

[@flowerpott26]

I hope the pain subsides within the next couple of days or weeks. Do you think you slipped a disc or pinched a sciatic nerve or maybe impingement? I have neurological and mental health things as well as hypermobility syndrome, so I've injured myself in very mundane and silly things in the past. The pain you described sounds very similar to my experiences in the past. Aside from OTC meds like tylenol and ibuprofen (which don't help much), I find that heat packs, pain patches (Salonpas, tiger balm, lidocaine), stretching, and massage help, since I don't have any stronger pain medications. Feel better soon and take care of yourself.

[@Ravenwillowwood]

I hope your back and neck get better soon! Happy Birthday!! People tend to be very insensitive and can be very cruel. I’m sorry you have to deal with that! I’m glad to see you making another video. You look happy and well. I’m glad your taking care of yourself! I enjoy your video’s!

[@suzannealsop3394]

Well done Jacob. You're doing really well. I know how tough it can be at times 💚

[@Adamisgood24]

I used to do DXM a lot, and I injured myself, broke one of my laptops, from becoming psychotic, and interacting with the hallucinations.

[@ggggglist]

I'm so glad that you're posted a new video. With you I don't feel myself as lonely as I am. I sincerely hope you'll get better ❤

[@tonia4203]

Don't give up, keep going. God be with you and help you. Healing in your heart and body I feel you are a beautiful and kind soul and will be rewarded for that. We are privileged for what you endure ❤️

[@stefankunar9649]

Great job with the running. Keep it up!

[@r4h4al]

Sorry to hear you got injured.

[@CyKedeli]

Praying for your healing. Take care.

[@oaao8312]

do you ever kind of get used to it? Been hallucinating more recently and even if in the moment it isnt that scary it completely sets me off balance for like a week, makes me so scared. Any tips for that?

[@Polyfusia]

Hey brother, it's been awhile. How have you been doing? Well I hope. Did you quit vaping? If you did that's super good for your health

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I quit smoking altogether since april

[@Polyfusia]

@@Ihaveschizophrenia1 That's great. I stopped all nicotine in 2019 and I feel much better now. That feeling you described of worrying about health issues, was definitely haunting me as I continued to chain vape all day every day for a few years. We don't know the longterm effects of vaping at all yet. I no longer smoke or drink alcohol of any kind. Hopefully it will be good for our health in the long run eh?

[@sondra75016]

So glad to see you. I really appreciate hearing what you are going through. It helps me better understand how SZ affects a person’s daily activities. I have a relative with SZ. You seem to be handling it well but it must be tiring. Glad you are exercising and not valuing or smoking. Best wishes. Stay strong. You are a very special person and we all appreciate your videos.

[@tennesseewalkers9398]

Thanks for the video. I hope the pain goes away soon. Great job trying to get healthier. I’m trying to eat healthier and have actually don’t crave fast food anymore.

[@francescozzononsisa1078]

You seem to be a very good boy, it's true that people should stop using schizo as an insult and portraying schizophrenic people with negative narratives just because mostly it fits film narratives. You are a worthy person, bro.

[@kaylah9206]

Your haircut looks great! I hope you’ve healed by now

[@tonia4203]

Hope you feel better soon ❤

[@Riveristoohonest]

I think I have schizophrenia. I have every single symptom. I started to really think I might have this recently as my symptoms have gotten worse. Insomnia is very bad and I’m starting to hallucinate more, it’s not severe but more than usual. I want to get tested. I’m scared but I’d love to know what’s wrong with me. How did u get diagnosed? I’m not sure since so many disorders have the same symptoms. But I know something wrong

[@keshavraj8545]

Did you get morning wood on antipsychotic medication?

[@Velvet-Sunshine.]

Your video caught my eye. Subscribed. I don't know anything about schizophrenia. I think anyone can be cut off guard and startled by something they think they see. 28 is not old, and I think people care and you will find love. Just give them a chance to enjoy you, then love will come.

[@techniquephysique]

Lifting is great for the mind keep fighting 💪

[@Omiiification]

You hallucinate that severely (thinking about the peron running with a knife) while on several antipsychotics? I get that the medication cant remove everything but cant you try to switch up your medications a bit? I feel like there must be possible to improve it a little bit more atleast idk though not an expert.

[@bearfrombeyond]

It ain't always possible, you can be on a medication that does wonders for hallucinations but causes severe side effects to the point you cant be on it any longer. Other meds can make the other symptoms worse (that arent hallucinations) too. I can almost garentee you that he has been through this roundabout for many years already and has reached a point of knowing what balance of meds can be achieved at this point in time. Even when I was on a med that worked wonders I still saw things often, things were just quite bad at the time. Even now when Im considered doing well, in a very stable, consistent environment, any shake up or difference to that (for example leaving the house), immediately flares up the issues and symptoms. I know exactly what he means by the 'disappearing act people' in the sides of your vision, it isnt mega intense on the scale (for me personally) but you just kinda react out of reflex if its sudden, as would anyone to "real people". I wouldnt say its as severe as you'd think? The ones that the meds tend to take care of is the ones that stay around for longer, or that take you out of reality completely. Much lessens those. Idk if its the right way of putting it, but you do get used to certain "blinky" ones to an extent. im speaking personally at least, and feel itd be pretty accurate broadly speaking for ""functioning" schizoaffective" (people not in hospice with the condition i mean, not that were functioning-functioning lol).

[@rhuwrong1135]

Are you still on serequel?

[@SEBTI]

Why did you cut your hair

[@alexanderpalermo-wylde55]

Luv u jacob

[@MayaEmmerShamallah]

Might take like a year to heal from the bruising. Hope u well.

[@OkrosVardi]

Waiting for your vids 🥺

[@CocoAndTheBombshell]

I'm sorry you hurt yourself. I think social media can be great at getting the word out about mental health issues or even how the neurodivergent brain works.

[@veronika9410]

❤

[@michelleimolina19]

Ur awesome buddy we here are all awesome 👏🏼 paranoia is a label that ppl made up …. We are like everyone else but a little damage that we have in our brain ! 🧠

[@olesyapopenko9047]

Hey! As for the back pain, try a hot bath. Like really HOT, not lukewarm. It has helped me in a very similar situation.

[@rivipalomino]

♡

[@larasvibe8]

You are beautiful 😍

[@tashawaters89]

You could be hyper connected.... You remind me of a new friend who just passed away... This friend lived on the street, and had been fearful of women who had been attacking him and stealing his things. He showed me a small knife he got for protection. I stupidly bragged about a new knife I found myself. He had a right to defend himself. I probably made things worse. Police wanted to ask him questions. He had a knife. He asked why they were asking him. They shot beanbags at his stomach and when he turned and ran they shot him in the back and he's dead now. He was a quiet protester. It could have been him you saw.

[@tashawaters89]

I think he'd applaud you on your commitment to health, Jacob.

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Hmm

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Don't think so

[@graycryptosporidium6974]

I'm sorry about this, your trying to function normally and they still screwing around with you! dude...gaming rig, grind some wow