it will be ok

[@san-qv3jp]

when emma said “as i’m growing up i have a less desire to talk” i really felt that.

[@anajaramillo7365]

Same here

[@marizubi1548]

yesesssssbsvss bro

[@martinazafir9160]

im goingcthrough this rn

[@lokifrenchie5236]

totally relatable...we live in a world where isolation feels like the best option

[@sathyashrees1582]

@@lokifrenchie5236 truee

[@rosiefreckles5532]

emma was relatable before, and now she’s grown to be relatable in a completely different form. it’s something mature, yet so understandably deep. i’ve laughed and cried because of this woman and it’s shaped me to be the person i am today. thank you emma

[@Feel_ingemotions]

Well said honestly kzbin.info/www/bejne/kHileJyIibVgbKs

[@poti732]

@@teacup3370 you can demonize coffein how ever you want , i dont drink coffe at all , but i do know that these kinds of serious panic attacks are a lot more massive than a “coffe driven “ anxiety. It COULD alter your mood a BIT but holy sht not my this much. Feels like u read an article about coffe and connected it to severe panic attacks.

[@michalmaman6033]

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[@poti732]

@@teacup3370 seems like you cant read.

[@natashamason157]

A little tip my therapist taught me, instead of saying “my anxiety”, say “the anxiety”. So instead of “my anxiety is really bad today”, say “the anxiety is really bad today”. You are not your anxiety. It helps me feel a tiny little bit more control ❤️

[@lyssybarclay]

I really like this idea. Thank you for sharing.

[@Isa-cq8pu]

omg……. thank you

[@abinaya276]

fuck i've been thinking of this my whole life i've always questioned why people try to own their anxiety and say 'my anxiety' 'my depression 'my ptsd' like it becomes us. i've always wondered why therapists NEVER talked about that. i'm so glad to hear that someone's caught on. it's so important 😭😭😭😭

[@freshliving4199]

Great tip. One question tho, if it’s not your anxiety then who’s anxiety is it?…and where does it come from?

[@TheUIATarot]

I really like this. It’s good to affirm it as something outside of yourself almost

[@denise1746]

What Emma is trying to describe is called "Derealization". Anxiety causes a classic host of symptoms including tingling in extremities, heightened smell and taste (where everything smells and tastes "off"), pinpoint pupils, heart palpitations, gastritis, feeling unstable or weak to the point you feel as you may fall down, a sense of impending doom and that feeling of "otherness". This is your poor brains' attempt to protect you. It goes into a "fight or flight" mode to warn you of impending danger...whether real or imagined. Anxiety states can last for hours or months. God bless you, Emma. You are not alone

[@nryanmusic]

they can last for years, or lifetimes.

[@DiegoRodriguez-th1ho]

@@nryanmusic yeah it's horrible, wouldn't wish it on anybody.

[@rhysmason7430]

@@nryanmusic Wouldn’t that just be called psychosis then If it lasted that long

[@nryanmusic]

@@rhysmason7430 im not a doctor... but ive experienced these things for years and years

[@D3vilMayCry99]

Yeah, thanks for describing it. I’ve had since 2017 24/7. It only used to come during panic attacks but after so many panic attacks my brain is still in “safe mode”. It sucks because I feel I can’t connect to the world around me on a deeper level and I have gained ADHD symptoms after it. Really makes me feel alone or crazy sometimes. I’ve managed and I can still feel happy but damn does it get strong af during my periods.

[@rmh8940]

You’re not becoming boring without anything to say. As you get older and more comfortable with yourself, the urge to fill the silence goes away and the other moments are… peaceful. Sometimes it’s nice just to enjoy company without the pressure to say something all the time. Sometimes presence is just what I need

[@Jijita1]

THIS

[@LifeOfLiana]

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[@markvk3928]

Great insight @R H

[@mysecretaccount8222]

This is so real

[@angelwest6]

ur so well spoken, i find that very admirable

[@kaviishaa]

When she said "as I'm growing up I've less desire to talk" that actually hit hard. It scares me seeing a huge difference of me as a child and me now. No matter what we always love you Emma

[@Rachel-wv3nb]

facts n ily but “I’ve less desire” doesn’t make sense even though “I have less desire” does :) just a random English tip if this isn’t your first language:)

[@sandrinegiro]

@@Rachel-wv3nb "I've" is just the shortened version of "I have". It makes sense both ways :)

[@raybrad3853]

@@sandrinegiro ya no…

[@muna712boulos]

I read my old diaries and the person in them is a stranger to me it’s so crazy ! It’s like I was hopeful and my imagination was so strong and I could create a world in my mind , but now I can only daydream for like a minute then I move on to toxic thoughts and I can’t read books anymore and everything that used to excite me is a burden now

[@aissalubisi_17]

@@muna712boulos same!!! It's honestly really crazy but at the same time scary. It's nice to know there's someone who gets it

[@michi1093]

As someone who struggles with mental health it is nice to see you do the “recovery” activities such as showering, beginning to cook, cleaning up your room, etc, after you’ve had those bad days where “normal” activities are really difficult to do. It gives me energy and hope to know my recovery days will come too and it will be better.

[@binkybinkles]

You will feel better soon, it's coming ❤️❤️❤️

[@peppipippuriina2555]

❤️

[@lexo2069]

i feel like emma is really one of the few youtubers who show like the real side of life instead of putting on a mask for her life and feelings .

[@kayleesdiaryyt]

As a young content creator (13) I can see where you are coming from by saying that. That being said though, a lot of the time it’s easier to put a mask on how you are really feeling and your emotions because you will be called attention needy or you will be told people have bigger problems. I posted a video making kinda a joke abt my depression. Someone said I can’t be depressed because I live in a big house. And I do have rly bad mental health. But I don’t quite talk about it on my channel because I get those type of comments and lots of assumptions get made about who I am and that I am taking it all.

[@octaviodigianni905]

About silence: this happened to me, several times. The older I get, the more it happens. I’m 24 and I feel I vocalise less thoughts, and take things at a slower pace. It doesn’t mean you don’t have anything to say, it means you’re growing, learning to let things take their course, process your emotions and thoughts a bit more. I find it to be a beautiful thing, silence. Contemplation is a wonderful gift.

[@cjdiaries7722]

Omg I love you for this comment Bc this is literally me ! Ppl think it’s odd or whatever that I enjoy complete silence especially in the dark! One asked if my thoughts were loud which is a tricky question Bc I just like to hear my thoughts and be able to hear God respond to my thoughts.

[@koostattoos-8859]

i have days where i literally wont say a single word the entire day for no reason,, like im not upset or anything i just dont feel like talking.

[@cjdiaries7722]

@@koostattoos-8859 and that should be considered normal Bc same

[@sqoishicasette]

Same here lol

[@Aurelia2147]

That's why I love movies like "Spirited Away" because there is so much silence, just taking in the scene, no comment. I feel like Emma's editing style has also a lot of this silence. In Japanese it's called 間 or Ma, which can be translated to it. " negative space" or simply "pause". It's so beautiful. "Lost in translation" another wonderful movie (that happens to be set in Tokyo) also has a lot of Ma. I try to fill my life with as much Ma as possible to get away from the overconsumption of media and prevent my brain from getting overwhelmed with all the input. It helps me to process my emotions and thoughts more. Some people may find it boring but I love it. I love unspoken words, I love vibes, chemistry, silence, stillness and to surrender to a situation. I love the space between the words that we speak. Pauses can have such an impact and may even tell more about the situation than the actual words spoken. Think about it: We even breathe in feelings. A sigh or breath can carry much more information about what is actually going on than the words we speak, that have been processed, possibly changed and perhaps even manipulated and therefore we are perhaps not able to truly express what is going on, whereas when we learn to read ourselves and other people, learn to understand our feelings and what they are trying to tell us then communication can be much clearer, since we not only rely on words but also our intuition. Plus it helps us to spot when someones words do not align with their behaviour, which can be an indicator that someone is lying to us. Sorry for this wall of text... your comment inspired me somehow to write this, so thank you!

[@peterson8960]

As someone with severe anxiety, watching an influencer be so open about their struggle makes me feel so represented and supported. Love you Emma.

[@kaylakent446]

agree

[@claudiat.business7468]

exactly me.

[@paige172]

that's why we stan her. she's fucking relatable

[@girlinterrupted9102]

Me too.

[@anushakamran7296]

Nobody cares

[@jessikast-onge3656]

She's an artist. To be able to make us feel the dissociation throught her words, her filming and her editing is impressive. Take care Emma. You are precious.

[@Sunfloweratsundown]

I was thinking the same. She’s an artist and she may not even realize it.

[@moments0fpeace]

a another nice chapter in the story of emma

[@PalomaZermeno17]

wow. so true. she’s an artist , making us feel. love u emma heads up boo

[@zionmeier2531]

it’s wild that someone living in la, in that beautiful house with everyone’s dream job can feel just as depressed as I do. makes me realize we really need purpose in our lives to feel happy

[@melanie0223]

same, when you see people online living in beautiful houses and having jobs that pay them well makes people forget that we all have feelings🥲 in the end most people feel this way and it’s good to talk about it

[@JJjsd6h23]

And people ❤ we need to feel connected with fellow humans who are willing to be by our side in the dark times, people who don’t offer solutions all the time, rather they are just near

[@Aueshhh-tm6oo]

so freakin true

[@GNICHO]

You act like having multiple people salaries to pay, constant dialogue about not only who you are, BUT YOUR LIFE, and ultimately being the “less” pretty, “has to work for it”, “funny” girl isn’t hard. She’s frozen in her adolescence with the burden of responsibilities some adults may never see over the course of their life. Imagine being 16 and doing all of this. If you notice influencers freeze at the age the gain popularity. She doesn’t have boyfriend, her dad is slightly jealous and aloof. She’s alone in the worst way possible, castle or not. And your little snarky back handed comment is a further reflection of the cage she lives in. Not to pity her, but these are details of her mind. This is how she feels.

[@arringtonallen]

I think what you talking about in the first like minute it’s called derealization it’s really scary sometimes. I love you, you will get through this just continue taking it one day at a time ♥️

[@auserjdjss]

aw arrington you’re so supportive ilyy

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[@skinnywrists]

I was literally just about to comment this. when it happens u just have to remind yourself that is what is going on and it will pass

[@SerafinaJohnson]

Yes! I have this chronically. Starts from a panic attack. Crazy stuff.

[@Su12387]

And not knowing what to do at that moment worst feeling in the world you think you are going crazy

[@tayzonday]

Thanks for the assurance. It doesn’t feel like it will be okay, but this helps to hear.

[@snoooooooorz]

Omg chocolate raaain!!!!!!!!

[@minecraft-hw7kh]

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[@ozjthomas]

I mean it’s a nice sentiment and I hope it gets better for you but everyone’s struggle and journey are different, so I hope you are able to persevere reguardless

[@choicethetaurus]

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[@sharkboy5562]

@@choicethetaurus as much as i dont like self promotion this the only time ill accept it cuz this song goes

[@jessican9777]

Hearing people talk about being in a dissociated state for a period of time makes me feel so much better because I've been going through exactly what she described for months now and I've tried to explain what I'm going through to people and they either don't understand or don't understand how debilitating it is and how it affects your everyday life.

[@valeriaadz_]

omg yes! i thought the same, has it been really difficult to you to take decisions or things like that? it happens to me a lot :( is like i don’t who i am so that is so hard to face everything

[@eatyourcreal9365]

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[@d4Nc3rCr4zy]

I’ve had chronic derealization for almost 6 years now but I think it’s really time for me to get help and I encourage you to do the same as well. Don’t wait

[@isthisjune8155]

as someone who is suffering the same thing, i honestly think it has to do with consistent use of social media. repeatedly attaching yourself to a screen and having that be a way of consuming your reality thus altering the way you perceive ACTUAL reality.. slowly over time. Bc so many of us are suffering the same thing..

[@maggiehassan8763]

@@isthisjune8155 completely agree with you

[@giuliettalee]

Watching Emma recovering from the panic attack in a unrealistically gorgeous house, weirdly still feel she’s very down to earth. And the video just so comforting, make ppl who also struggle with mental issues felt being understood.

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[@kaande6453]

Emma, you’ll never see this but if you do... the talk about you being “boring” because you don’t contribute to the conversation doesn’t mean you’re boring. It means you’re learning to accept that there is beauty in silence and also, you don’t have to over compensate for someone else’s lack of enthusiasm....

[@aissalubisi_17]

This really helped me. Thank you

[@starrhewitt8456]

Well said

[@athanasiapierropoulou2672]

Thank you for this!

[@madeleine2534]

thank you wow yes

[@emersyn3783]

yes

[@yana-perrault]

emma is making films, yall. FILMS. the peace these videos bring me.... thank you

[@sarahjones6637]

Am I the only one that doesn’t really enjoy her new style? Hey but no complaints, I’m still watching 😂

[@sarahjones6637]

@@misanthropexoxo9618 agree

[@renee3223]

@@misanthropexoxo9618 dude. if making these types of videos makes emma content with her life then fine. it is obvious that she switched styles so just stop watching her videos? if you keep wasting 10 minutes of your life then that is definitely your fault. if she likes recording herself doing 'basic little things' so what..

[@emersyn3783]

yes

[@user-rm4xl3xf4k]

@@misanthropexoxo9618 I don't agree with you at all, being a so called famous person living in LA living the "dream life" I think its so important to not feel the need to post vids that a famous youtuber SHOULD post. She's a normal human and finds happiness in posting videos here, there's no rights and wrongs in being creative. Stop watching her videos instead of complaining about her being lazy

[@miastark3039]

Disassociation is terrifying but it’s so comforting to know there’s people in the world who have the same thing and you’re not alone. Thank you for talking about this❤️

[@jennaisela]

I just started feeling this maybe a month ago? Maybe just few weeks ago but i want to feel like "me" again, do you have any advice to help? I feel like im going crazy and i cry almost every night scared i cant get back to my real self

[@ellenfrancess]

@@jennaisela Im still sort of dealing with mine, its important to remember and be comfortable with knowing your journey might take a little longer than others and that's okay, never compare your recovery to others. You've almost got to relearn yourself and not force anything to be, its terrifying but each day gets a little easier I promise. I felt so stuck but having a routine really helped and forcing myself to not think about it, eventually your brain is rewired to think the best and not the worst, that part is hard and takes a while but keep going, you got this

[@miastark3039]

@@jennaisela I completely understand where you’re coming from. Disassociation is a way your body protects itself. It doesn’t mean you’re crazy it just means that whatever you are going through right now or have gone through your body just needs to recover. It’s not a straight road to getting better and some people take longer than others, but I can tell you that it’s not forever. Things I did to help myself is to educate myself on what it was. For some reason knowing everything there is to know about it helped ease my mind and know exactly what was going on. When I would have episodes I acknowledged then and talk myself through them or when it gets bad just mentally talking to myself and telling myself it’s going to be okay. Another thing that helped was laying in bed and using grounding techniques. I’d look those up. Finally, disassociation is caused by ptsd/anxiety/weed and a couple other things. Going to therapy and really talking about what’s going on helps so much. Also, anti anxiety medications help a lot too. It helps give you a moment to step back and out of your head and breathe. I hope this helped and I pray you feel better soon!! It comes in time don’t pressure yourself. You’re not stuck like this forever.

[@hannahstokes1065]

@@jennaisela taking the leap and getting out, socializing, being around people and reminding yourself that you’re not alone. That helped me a ton because as soon as I stayed in my room with my anxiety and disassociation, I was physically isolated in addition to my mental isolation.

[@lilymunoz2913]

@@miastark3039 I know this wasn’t towards me but this made me feel safe I’m suffering with it as well but what stayed with me after I went through an episode I lost so much of my emotions like I cry sometimes but I can’t cry like how I usually do is that normal?

[@aghoulsreel]

I had that when I was younger it’s called derealization. It’s terrifying you feel like your in a dream it’s hard to explain. But it does get better. Sometimes anxiety triggers it. Keep yourself occupied, exercise is good too! Hope you feel better!

[@mikkakilburn7354]

I have this all the time and it’s actually scary to me it feels like im dead it’s so weird

[@TheBlackBrat]

girl you was disassociating ., i understand everything you went through

[@idk2666]

Everything you described Emma I’ve experienced. I’m so glad to hear someone talk about it, and now I know I’m not the only person. With everyday it gets better

[@gemzentaurus5537]

Is that what it is called. I have been going through the disassociation stage for 2 months now. Is that a bad thing? :'(

[@ellie-om4qo]

@@gemzentaurus5537 i strongly suggest reaching out for help, or at least talking to someone you trust about it. it’s not easy to bring up but it’ll make getting through it easier. you’ve got this. take care hun

[@ellie-om4qo]

@@gemzentaurus5537 dissociation also usually occurs from the result of something, whether that be prolonged stress or trauma so maybe try picking apart the cause. again, wishing the best for you x

[@elenaaperales]

The absolute worst feeling in the world.

[@maitaha6679]

I genuinely care about you as if you’re a real life friend. That’s the impact you have on people, Emma. You manage to make our day better with just a 10-minute video. I really hope you find your peace and may all your worries and troubles fade. You’re a strong girl and I know you will. We love you ♥️

[@jordan.42]

same that's why I want longer videos I think. they make me feel less alone

[@Meg-cc6yc]

@@jordan.42 being alone is a good thing sometimes. Try to find comfort in solitude

[@cindybronico2786]

I hope you’re doing okay, Emma. Don’t isolate yourself. Surround yourself with love, read books, take walks. Do whatever you know will pull your mind out of those dark pits. You are not alone.

[@newenergymagic5271]

Good advice! She is in the beautiful Maldives, per her Instagram page, so I am gonna assume she is feeling better!

[@emilychilds588]

@@Lisa-wo2ql n o

[@Pari78798]

This video found me 2 years ago when I was on the verge of giving up any faith in myself which would've made it so much more difficult for me to get up and get to facing life and WINNING. I've always looked at emma as a comfort person and she hadn't posted in a while, I was in the middle of a panic attack when the notification "it will be alright" popped up on my screen and I just smiled. I needed it. I aced that one task but since then life hasn't been feeling right and right now I'm about to do something that means THE WORLD to me and I'm just coming back to this video to say hello and thank you for the reminder. It has to be okay, I'll make it okay.

[@heyitscathloe]

Hugs to you and everyone who needs it.

[@Maahieeee209]

I hope whatever you do in your life becomes as awesome as you are ! I can relate with you a lot..!! I love how you came back here to watch her videos because she is your comfort person and I totally relate with you. I'm also struggling with the same feeling as emma is suffering from in the video and i can't describe it but it is so bad.. But yes im living for the hope of it that yes it will get better and everything will be fine. I also cant fathom the fact that this video is almost 2 years old and how people like you and me come back here to find a certain sense of comfort...it is really crazy how time is flying away i dont know why but i just related with you a lot and thats why im dropping this comment !! You got this bud ❤!!! Everything positive will happen with you ♡

[@DeanithForeverYoung]

I feel like she's changing in front of our eyes. She's growing into a new version of her. She's evolving. I'm just glad we are here for it and she's willing to share this journey with us.

[@sirdk1234]

Im not trying to downplay what you say, but this is just depression. Straight up. People like us will just be good for any period of time and then its like a huge wave hits us and we can be depressed for days, weeks, months. Diet, exercise and as much as I don't like to say it SSRIs are all needed imo. SSRIs maybe not so much if you can manage, but some people can't produce the correct chemicals in our brain.

[@LifeOfLiana]

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[@matildemoura3113]

true

[@angelwest6]

@@sirdk1234 notice how u just watched 10 mins of her life and can now essentially have a whole description of her life and schedules, etc... you just formed this opinion upon your own experience and i find it odd that you somehow think you have the ability to depict how her life and brain work from watching a 10 min video which consists of 2 min footage over the span of like 5 days. check yourself, you don't know her, she is the only one that has full perspective on her life everyday and that applies to you as well. this person was simply emphasizing that she has been uploading for a long time and we have seen her growth as time went on.

[@angelwest6]

@@sirdk1234 and u did exactly what u said u weren’t doing at the beggining of ur reply lmao nobody talked about brain chemicals

[@CrayCrayJay]

*since this weather change and the cold i’ve been going through seasonal depression. my anxiety has been heightened the past month and as a way of distracting i’ve decided to make videos similar to yours on my second tiktok account. i love this new content. it’s very comforting and relatable to me.*

[@wikusdupreez827]

I feel you like in South Africa 🇿🇦 we suppose to have summer...... but the weather its shit loke rainy gloomy windy everything in one

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whats your tiktok? :)

[@katetroy8477]

Same her videos help me calm down when I start spiralling and get panic attacks

[@arringtonallen]

Missed you so much bestie

[@ambrosiadelph3328]

i love y’all both sm

[@auserjdjss]

HI ARRINGTON

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[@bankio1883]

@OLIVE,,,,, 👇😍 pls stfu

[@nargolia200]

Heyyy bestieeee

[@emiliascovers9335]

I just started a new school and I've had a lot of breakdowns, and I haven't had enough time to heal between each. So right now I'm kind of in this cycle of breakdown and depression. I really love how Emma talks about this openly and it makes me feel like im not the only one. Love you Emma 💛💚

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[@Kiki-oo3bw]

Hope you're doing well!! Sending all the love

[@keaganerstad9477]

Emma is the most relatable person ever, the way she explains everything so perfectly is so comforting.

[@matildemoura3113]

thats why we love her

[@jameskingston]

I feel you on the talking

[@LifeOfLiana]

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[@mmgames1999]

Hi

[@die_go3009]

James Kingston watches Emma?!!😱this jus made my day.. love ur vids James🤘🔥 and of course Emma's vids aswell

[@IsaS4444]

me too...

[@ella-wg4du]

she has no idea how many people she’s helping, just by existing.

[@nksarps]

:)

[@TheCarmolly]

Literally

[@noelleskandalis8267]

No because Emma you just explained my whole life. “I became aware that I was feeling weird and it only made me panic more” thats my biggest problem. A few days ago I had a huge panic attack in nyc and it felt like I was just watching my life from someone else’s perspective, like my eyes were a tv screen. I love you so much

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[@uditsahu4537]

When that thought comes during a panic attack it opens a whole another level of it

[@AmandaMuse]

I love how freely you share.

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[@GO-ls8hn]

Call on Jesus

[@LukeAlexander]

Thank you for being vulnerable with us queen

[@mmgames1999]

Hi

[@vonbee22]

I don’t think she’d want to be called queen. She’s a human being, not a Beyonce

[@ChroniclesofAshanti]

She’s human and being vulnerable is difficult but she’s doing it and we’re proud of her

[@yugen8195]

@@vonbee22 do yk her personally? i don’t think you should assume what she likes to be called.

[@d.2542]

It’s just a cringy thing to say, “queen”

[@heidimarie4864]

when you talked about having some days were you feel like you have "nothing to say", it literally resonated with me so much. it scares the shit out of me when it happens because for me it always feels unpredictable and I fear I'm going to stay that way forever. listening to how you experience that is def reassuring!

[@kylacas]

This is the first time I’ve watched one of her videos since I used to watch her way back in high school religiously. I’ve seen her become wildly successful just through social media but coming back to her KZbin, everything has changed. It’s such an interesting thing to watch somebody grow so rapidly from beginning to now. She has gotten so much simpler and seems to really be getting more raw with what she puts up on KZbin as she gets more successful. She seemed to have gone through so many waves of life through KZbin and this one’s just feels more her. Not to say that she hasn’t been authentic throughout her entire KZbin career but I like where her channel is going. It feels very honest. Even the simple videos titles and no music playing in the background. It’s gotten very bare and it’s completely stripped-back and I guess you would expect it to go the either way when someone gets so successful. We tend to forget about people when they get super successful and wish for the old them but not with Emma. It really goes to show that Emma will always be someone that the world will love for the same reason they loved her back in her prime KZbin days. She doesn’t change for anything and it seems that all the good things happening in her life are just an extension of who she already is and has always been. We all know she deserves her success. She’s incredibly unique and fun and relatable. I think she always will be. How cool to see where life has taken her.

[@RussellBrand7777]

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[@jasmineflora1619]

i totally understand the whole "not wanting to talk" thing. Sometimes just sitting in silence alone, or in someone's company is better than forcing small talk or an otherwise useless conversation.

[@pisces444]

dissociation/ derealization/ depersonalization sounds like what emma was talking about in the beginning of the vid :/ i’m sorry emma (and anyone who has ever experienced anything like this). you are safe, you are real, you are sane, and everything is going to be okay

[@heatherdurds]

The way she edits and makes these videos into little movies is actually insane. I could really see her doing something in the film industry in the next decade or so, she definitely has a knack for it and knows how to make a nearly silent scene emotional

[@twincherry4958]

Does she not have an editor

[@twincherry4958]

@@seraphinejs ah, ok. Ty

[@oscarthagrouch]

it’s so much better than her old editing style

[@cleo3271]

Stop

[@rustyshackleford5943]

​@@cleo3271 what???

[@serenagilbert1483]

1:38 and im already crying. Ive been dealing with severe anxiety, panic attacks and dpdr for years and its so so hard to deal with, youre just terrified youre losing it half the time. Its exhausting and i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy tbh. But knowing someone amazing, adventurous/brave and cool like emma experiences something like dpdr and panic makes me feel so just like relieved oddly, like im not alone or crazy for feeling these things :(

[@SierraLachelle]

It’s sorta refreshing to hear an influencer talk About their struggles because I feel like a lot of them try to portray their life as “perfect” so it makes us feel like we’re the only ones dealing it with problems. That’s one of the reason why I love Emma because she’s so open and relatable.

[@LifeOfLiana]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/qZmapX9nmJeUg7c Christmas vlog !!

[@samanthalovibond2477]

I’ve been dealing with episodes of derealization lately and hearing Emma discuss her experience so openly is the reassurance I needed to get up today. Whoever is reading this - you are not alone and take comfort knowing that this feeling will pass ❤️

[@her1889]

I wish that , thank u 💗

[@eatyourcreal9365]

@@her1889 ikrkzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@ericarhodes3240]

Haha funny joke but mine has lasted 3 years straight I doubt it’s going to pass anytime soon

[@AM-pr5hl]

As someone who has suffered from bouts of depersonalization literally starting at the age of 11, I just want to share some advice on how to prevent/reduce attacks in case it's helpful. Depersonalization (and derealization for that matter) generally happens when you are feeling overwhelmed, and while you should unpack what triggers you (preferably with a therapist), life just IS overwhelming sometimes. So when you're beginning to feel a bout of depersonalization coming on: take deep breaths, begin to ground yourself in the moment by acknowledging each of your senses (name in your head or aloud one thing that you hear, see, smell, taste, and feel. Do this multiple times if you have to). Finally, and most importantly, keep holding onto the FACT that the depersonalization feelings WILL pass. The more you're scared of these feelings, the more they'll escalate. Trust me, THEY WILL PASS. In order to reduce attacks, I highly recommend meditating. Even if it's only for 3 minutes a day. The end goal of meditation is to have your brain build a safe, calm space you can always retreat to even when you're feeling scared or overwhelmed. Once you build this space, you'll naturally start having fewer bouts of depersonalization and they won't feel as intense. Even if you think you're "bad" at meditating, just taking deep breaths everyday and practicing (through breathing) what you'll do if you feel depersonalization makes the feeling less scary because now you have a plan. Hopefully this reaches whoever may need it, and sending you all love and calm during your storms.

[@emmaverhaegen7187]

This really helped me, thank you! :)

[@nevaleane]

thank you, ive been going through a lot recently and have been extremely overwhelmed with my feelings and the things around me and just want to lay in my bed all day. Laying here all day though, while comfortable and away from my problems, leads to me stressing about then every second. I want to try meditating and maybe think about getting a therapist because I don’t want to be in this hole of struggle anymore. Thank you for your comment and words.

[@Mary-eg5hr]

Thank you for sharing this

[@kessibabanee7776]

I have ptsd and this is a good advice thank you!

[@braylatilley]

Thank you for sharing this, I have also dealt with derealization and depersonalization since I was 11. I have found that taking videos of myself and watching them back showing that I am a real person and what is going on around me is real is helpful. Much love to you and others that are going through this

[@soilgrasswaterair]

6:36 Cats are so wholesome. They’re so true to their emotions- free to share their inner stuff in any given moment. They’re all,”I don’t care that you’re eating right now, my cuddle bar is low...fill it up immediately ”. My cat doesn’t hide when she’s scared, she’s all “ f*ck no, I’m not going to sit in this window one more second, I’m f*cking out of here”. She doesn’t wanna be my thunder-buddy. Your cat must be very fond of you for allowing you to use their cat bowl, Emma!

[@sungkyung8578]

I love her cats just surrounded her like they knew she wasn’t doing okay

[@Sir_Catnip]

She has plenty of money, she's fine....

[@bonecrusher4033]

@@Sir_Catnip if you honestly think that then that's concerning 😐

[@Kia-bj7yw]

@@Sir_Catnip money doesn’t fix ur mental health

[@Sir_Catnip]

@@Kia-bj7yw yeah but it sure makes things a lot better

[@alkanoudalkathery7314]

@@Sir_Catnip Money will not fix everything, it may fix some things, but not all, so do not think that money fixes everything

[@JacobMichael]

I actually really relate to the “not feeling like talking” sensation you described. I’ve been experiencing that same feeling lately too. I also admire how you let that feeling show up in this video with the silent pauses & such. Great vlog tbh! :D Also lovely water color!

[@elliecaitlin1122]

Yes I definitely relate to that feeling as well, especially recently

[@twincherry4958]

Lol....is this supposed to be an issue🤔

[@haileymcculloch7305]

I feel this sm it scared me when she described it

[@Goblinking0613]

As someone who had experienced derealization and years-long dissociative episodes, I appreciate this so much. and i’m here to say it DOES get better!! It’s a struggle but it’s worth it :)

[@m.t5514]

what helped you get better?

[@Goblinking0613]

@@m.t5514 honestly years of reflection, therapy, and medication. The little things are what helped the most, like setting aside time to do activities that made me feel present or celebrated my inner-child. Medication to stabilize my chemical imbalances is what helped break through my years-long episode though but there’s lots of tools at your disposal if you’re struggling!!

[@m.t5514]

@@Goblinking0613 thank you smmm

[@lollypop21381]

@@m.t5514 therapy in a nutshell is a super good channel and a lot of her videos helped me process my anxiety and my thoughts and she gave me a lot of tools to help. shes helped me immensely

[@m.t5514]

@@lollypop21381 really, i will check her out ty!!!

[@motivejjk]

this was so comforting to watch during a difficult time in life 🥲🫶🏼

[@mirrorballtv]

i love how emma is not afraid to address what she’s going through especially her mental health. i recently I had an anxiety attack a few days ago and she really makes feel safe that it’s okay to experience these bumps in the road :)

[@Emazza]

The way you depicted exactly what anxiety and depression looks like with the somber clips and laying in bed, the clothes still on the ground idk it just is cool to see that someone who looks like they have everything you’d want still faces that struggle that you do. Idk but I love it thank you❤️

[@sarahbiggs3707]

I haven’t watched Emma in a while, reading through the comments and seeing other people go through the same experience and seeing how she’s helping people is incredible.

[@eatyourcreal9365]

Ouchkzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@ayayahyaoui2286]

I miss her on yt sm but at the same time I'm so happy to see her heal and thrive

[@sagespills3159]

She’s back apparently

[@ketzalimaciel7451]

I can't even put things into words. I feel like I can resonate with her in so many different ways. I've always been the talkative and outgoing person in my family and even in my friend group. I just graduated, saw all my friends go, stayed for community college, and have been having a rough time lately. I feel like my life has been extremely dull and even feel like I don't have a place in this world. Like she said an existential crisis episode that has been going on for days for her, but months for me. This specific video hit right at home. She really turned my words into a visualization of how I've been feeling. I kind of feel like crying just saying it. I feel like those worn-out childhood stuffed teddy bears that's been shoved into a closet. I don't know how to better describe it. Watching her videos and listening to her podcasts has brought me an indescribable sense of joy and comfort. So, I just want to thank you, Emma :,) Update: crying rn... mixed emotions of joy and sadness haha

[@lyricsmind]

🌈

[@newenergymagic5271]

I think we are feeling a pandemic depression as well. The effects will be felt for some time. You are not alone in feeling this way. From your comment I am gathering that you just started college, you aren’t suppose to know your place in the world yet. Your job right now is to find your passions, what lights you up, and get to know yourself. I know you feel like your comfort zone has dissolved ( your friends moved away, starting a new school, etc...), but you are exactly where you are meant to be. Growth only comes from doing new things and as someone older than you, I say enjoy this time getting to know yourself and learning new things. You will be glad you had this time to do just that! Best of luck to you! Hang in there. You will be ok! 🌸🌺💕🦋🌻🌟🌷

[@meghansullivan6812]

jjeez louise im in this too rn. in big existential flux rn

[@allyboyle6629]

Oh my goodness… this is exactly what I’ve been going through and I feel so extremely heard and validated right now. Even as I type this I’m struggling with feeling like I’m me anymore. The comments…. Everyone has been experiencing this it seems like right now. Maybe it’s our age, I’m also a 20 year old community college girl living at home while it seems like all my friends have their lives together. I think we are all going through a big change right now, a transition that we must experience to grow into stronger versions of ourselves. Remember, you are always you, that old version of you is still inside you, nurturing you and loving you. Together, we will heal and we will grow and we will create the best version of ourselves. Be kind to yourself, be compassionate. If anyone wants to maybe start a chat so we can feel less alone, I think that would be very beneficial!

[@lazyellie1299]

Hey I’ve been through such horrible confusing times as well thanks to my mental health. Possibly not for similar reason but know that there’s people out there that really love you. For that you have a place in the world & will have more in the future like we all will. Know that I’m here if you simply just want to rant, personally helps me calm my anxious mind somehow. I’m saying I’m here for you not to be nice but really cuz I care for u simply bc your human, going through a tough time but ur still valid. Take it day by day! Treat urself at least once a day to celebrate how far you’ve come( it can simply be like buying urself a cupcake or drink like coffee) wish you the best! Goodnight/morning

[@maggiedemo2401]

I've struggled with derealization and depersonalization a lot for the first time this last year. It is truly one of the weirdest and scary sensations a human can feel. Once you research it, it can really help you feel more relaxed realizing that it's something that can go away and is mostly just your brain in fight or flight. The cool part is I came out the other side more present and aware than ever before, I felt even more connected to myself and everyone around me and felt much more elevated. You just have to find ways to treat it with love. I hope that gives ya hope and that you're feeling better. You will get through it

[@EllieHawkes]

Love this comment! So true. Just the sympathetic being activated to protect us :)

[@nikkibear6426]

u worded it beautifully.

[@meganlawton7955]

I’ve been struggling with it too for years, so glad to not feel alone

[@milica9822]

Same, somewhere in between March-April 2020 (in lockdown) a random thought just came to me and I kept overthinking it so more thoughts were coming and I had such bad panick attack and I was crying so now with ocd it still haunts me and it makes new restrictions between me and everyday life almost every month, but hey, shows, movies, social medias and many other things help me distract myself from the thing for a bit so its good lol👍

[@marelisifuentes]

Holding an ice cube really helped me whenever I felt disconnected

[@lilli-violazachau9758]

The feeling she talks about in the beginning, I also deal with, no one has ever related to me on the matter, so it feels really really nice to know I’m not the only one who feels that way.

[@Kobejsmsks]

@@idasirasi4107 not the time or comment to place this

[@kourtney5664]

exactly! :(

[@chloroform5640]

depersonalization-derealization disorder. often used to cope with trauma. I have it too

[@katie2028]

you’re not alone! i have been dealing with is for a few years now. it’s hard, but we’ll get there. ❤️

[@prishagoel11]

i completely agree

[@aminamrashid]

i swear this exact phase of emotions, specifically anxiety, happened to me just a week ago. it gets better, you're right. i love you.

[@SANTINOISREAL]

this is why I love Emma's vlogs. she is so personal and vulnerable and being someone who has panic attacks, seeing someone I look up to face the same struggles really helps me feel that I'm not alone.

[@LifeOfLiana]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/qZmapX9nmJeUg7c Christmas vlog :)

[@mmgames1999]

Ji

[@forestoddity]

I love ur profile picture

[@SANTINOISREAL]

@@forestoddity thx bestie

[@briarmstrong3177]

Lately my panic attacks have been happening more recently. Especially the feeling of not wanting to leave my bed. You got this Emma, things do get better 💛

[@minecraft-hw7kh]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/gKTLoH2YitaKbKM

[@chanelc95]

Omg me too

[@minecraft-hw7kh]

more kzbin.info/www/bejne/gKTLoH2YitaKbKM

[@grwnkd]

Same 🙈

[@sofiafromikea6512]

I just felt that this came at the perfect time for me, and probably for other people too! I've had such bad anxiety lately and horrific panic attacks where it feels like I'm dying, and it just helps to know that you are not alone! thank you emma

[@pia1897]

Same for me! You are Not Alone!

[@emmaharker3528]

totally agree!

[@Andjela912]

Just now have I realized that I actually have anxiety and panic attacks.😱 I always knew what I felt, but never how to name it, that feeling, because I thought it's just normal for all. Great. What now

[@miadonea554]

Never truly understood the whole «hype» but i can say now that she is probably the only KZbinr that makes me feel so safe. Putting words on what i go thought and giving me hope, showing things can get better. Thank you so much.

[@soilgrasswaterair]

That’s what it’s about though! People tend to care about HOW people make them feel, it’s not about the other person per se. That’s the “it” factor. That draws people in, when someone can make them feel things without being in their face and working for it- when a person’t presence is more than enough to spark those emotions in others. I guess it’s like that with most things, we feel and depending on how we feel we decide if we want more or if we will move on (be it a crush, a scent etc).

[@rome-tk5vd]

love this comment

[@alldaevideography1334]

It makes me cry to know she understands this feeling. Nobody should have to. It's so terrifying and painful.

[@cheesedoodles8931]

I AM 52 SECONDS IN AND EMMA HAS PERFECTLY EXPLAINED EVERY SINGLE PANIC ATTACK IVE EVER HAD THAT IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL AND FOR THE PAST 6 YEARS OF MY LIFE I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO EXPLAIN WHAT I WAS FEELING BUT EMMA JUST EXPLAINED IT PERFECTLY THANK YOU FOR EXISTING EMMA

[@Maria-tr9bb]

Same sis

[@makeupbyrowyn]

it’s called depersonalization and derea

[@makeupbyrowyn]

derealization

[@mariam_ah]

IKR and i kept on askinf people like do you guys feeling like your living like i feel out of place as if im dreaming and i then realized that i was panicking

[@makeupbyrowyn]

@@mariam_ah that’s called depersonalization/derealization

[@ninadolan4608]

The beginning of this video made me cry. I recently have been having a lot of troubles with anxiety after I had a panic attack a few months ago, and Emma described it perfectly. Going through such terrifying sensations that only amplify your anxiety feels very alienating and isolating. I really appreciate that someone with a platform of such magnitude is so transparent about mental health and illness. It’s a very real thing that feels so much less scary when it’s talked about. To anyone hurting, please look at the title of the video and remind yourself it will be okay. XX

[@eatyourcreal9365]

Yoyokzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@Industryplantmom]

This video means everything. Mental illness is so debilitating. After a week of spiraling my body physically aches and I feel like I’ve run several marathons. That you for sharing this with us ❤️

[@colbyandbrennen3543]

One of the best things about Emma is that she's so open and honest and it's not only refreshing but helpful for people who are struggling

[@mmgames1999]

*That's where EMMA has gone:* kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8 kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8

[@RawRealLove]

I’ve felt exactly what you’re talking about. It’s scary and it’s not something you want to feel ever…but it’s like you can’t control that in the moment.

[@dezikistler1596]

It’s called either disassociation or derealization

[@asunbleachedfly]

i felt it at school. i was walking and i kept thinking what the fuck is going on. so i just went to the bathroom to sit in the stall for like 20-ish minutes. i hated it and a few days before i had a random anxiety attack at night as well. school makes it all worse too

[@mmgames1999]

*That's where EMMA has gone:* kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8 kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8

[@elizabeth-fy8pc]

i think the most annoying part about it is you don’t know when it’s gonna end. you don’t know if you’ll be dissociated for a couple days, weeks, months. think itd be less scary if you were guaranteed an end

[@Andjela912]

For me it's gotten to such rate that I forgot that it's *not* normal. Ugh I feel crazy and I'm scared tbh.

[@frankieverse99]

Panic attack hangovers are something I wish more people would talk about. Thank u for this, Emma🥺🤎

[@girrrlplz]

I never thought about calling it that but that is exactly what it feels like

[@nakoanishikawa7635]

It feels good to feel your energy, honestly I feel like I’m in the same situation and I clicked this video out of nowhere. Any ways I feel as the environment changes around so do you, for example the weather is cloudy and gloomy, when the day gets darker i just don’t have any energy in me so I’ll be in my bed. I’m also thankful for this video this has made me aware of my being that I’ve haven’t really been connected reality, aligned to myself. being vulnerable really does bring insight and clarity to the surface. if you can be vulnerable to others you’ll offer them to open themselves up, open your heart 💜

[@chiaramahy3434]

honestly you should make chamberlain coffee candles that smell like good coffee

[@_xcx.]

i would buy

[@eatyourcreal9365]

@@_xcx. ikrkzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@jadehankal1181]

YES!!

[@uuuniiin]

It really is a scary feeling when you feel like you don't know yourself, what time, what day, what year, what reality it is. It is a feeling you can't describe.

[@ayayao.3357]

One time I forgot how old I was and it was a crazy experience.

[@uuuniiin]

@@ayayao.3357 Oh damn.. 😳

[@youssratrid8149]

Emma is probably the only person that’s keeping me sane about my depression

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

I feel you

[@Angie-hp7tx]

I hope it gets better❤️

[@Livvy053]

it’s kind of insane that you say this because i have been going through those exact same feelings and you described them better than I ever could. I love your videos so much and i hope you’re doing well.

[@josephbohme7917]

People watching lots of youtube and online media already have a problem, not much differnt from hanging out at bars or coffee shops. Not grounded enought to have a solid career and not confident in having a talent to useor sell. Very anxious. Seeking solutions without firsthand knowledge or experience. Artificial Inteligence of the First Kind. You cannot ingest what you do not do. Watch 100 MMA fights and then step in the ring- you will be beat down in under 30 seconds. Listening to 100 songs does not let you play or sing a thing. Buying or owning books, instruments, tools, does not change your capablitlty unless you do something physical for weeks and months and years. Inherent Talent is an X factor, most people are poor because they have a

[@internetajay]

Early to an Emma video, achievement unlocked. You help me so much when I am feeling down.

[@LifeOfLiana]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/qZmapX9nmJeUg7c Christmas vlog :D

[@mmgames1999]

*That's where EMMA has gone:* kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8 kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8

[@mmgames1999]

Hi

[@eatyourcreal9365]

Okkzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@nankyasembuya7205]

y’all should try listening to her podcast. very calming

[@minecraft-hw7kh]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/gKTLoH2YitaKbKM

[@lifewithneefah4012]

yess

[@hey7068]

agreed

[@juliacomeau6932]

honestly Emma, I feel like appreciating silence is part of becoming an adult. Like appreciating the peaceful moments instead of constantly needing there to be conversation. I adore how personable you are, and I wouldn't even care if your entire video was silence. I'm glad you said that though, because I also feel as though I am boring bc I used to be super outgoing and talkative, and I kind of just enjoy peace, and thinking, and observing sometimes now. We are the same age btw!!

[@byivyonce]

I tried Emma's editing style

[@lylamcpherson9186]

Emma is my absolute comfort animal. I’m so glad that i’m not alone. I’ve been feeling how she’s been feeling for a little while now and i honestly thought something was really wrong with me til i realized it was anxiety. I’ve been taking some medication for it and i’m getting better but honestly my main relief and health helper is emma.

[@paulines1876]

As someone who had recently started to struggle with depersonalisation and derealisation, it’s so comforting to hear you talk about it. Makes me feel less alone and crazy. Thank you Emma & I hope your mental health is better now 🤍

[@ipekbulut8440]

This sensation is called depersonalization/derealization. My boyfriend went through that. It is pretty scary, it can be induced after using drugs, overdrinking, or any other activity which depends on person. It feels like you leave your body and watch everything around you including yourself from outsite. Dreams seem more real than your daily life. It is something that you should not go through alone. You should have people around you to keep you away from your thoughts. And doctor suggested us to repeat what sounds you hear or things you see in order to seperate what is real and what is not. It passes easier when you talk to a doctor and family/friends help a lot. The person should not sleep all the time, you should go out, take fresh air, take a walk, focus on your job, focus on something else than yourself. It will be okay Emma, dont worry. You are not alone in this 💕

[@TrueArian]

it happened to me after a bad shroom trip, it makes sense now ty ://

[@eatyourcreal9365]

@@TrueArian ikrkzbin.info/www/bejne/l2LNaqKtd9qqmrM

[@MrSuperbad37]

Haven't heard from you in awhile Emma, hope everything is ok.

[@zowiwiwiwie]

probably she just wanna rest

[@DerekGoooo]

She's probably just busy, I think she's just doing a ton of photoshoots

[@newenergymagic5271]

She is in the beautiful Maldives per her Instagram, so I am gonna assume she is feeling better!

[@emilymckenzie9296]

Definitely check her podcast:)

[@idkwhattonamemyself9326]

Active on her podcast

[@deletedemail.8785]

you remind me so much of my junior year english teacher emma. she was very fragile and i wanted to always put her in a little bottle and protect her. you’re so cool. i relate to u too much it’s kind of comforting

[@veronicah3095]

it is important to talk about this stuff so people don’t feel alone, but as someone who has suffered with depersonalization derealization for a few years now i cannot stress enough the importance of getting help. anxiety, depression, and disassociation are common but should not be normal. emma and everyone commenting deserves to be happy and at peace and getting help, especially professional help, is one of the first steps.

[@codycat6]

very this. it's so hard to go through it alone :(

[@jennaisela]

Do we have to get professional help? I with with my parents and they don't believe in the whole "depersonalization derealization" thing and they will shame me for seeking professional help in something i "dont need" so can you help me find something else? If there any other way i can help myself get back to reality? Without professional help?

[@jessican9777]

@@jennaisela I've been suffering with this for a couple months now and I completely relate to you. When I talk to my parents about it they just brush it off or just tell me to go eat or something. They don't believe in mental health and it's so hard to go through alone. Somedays are better than others but somedays are so hard and I always debate seeking professional help because apart of me is scared.

[@theLatestkraze]

Yeah it really helps to hear. When I had my panic attack I literally thought I was dying and I felt messed up from it for months. I thought I was insane! Little did I know a lot of people deal with the same thing sadly

[@casspreskitt6365]

This gave me the push I needed. I’ll call my DR today.

[@lukeestern]

I’m honestly happy that emma is pushing her self to go back to doing stuff what she normally do knowing that it’s healthier and more beneficial

[@mmgames1999]

*That's where EMMA has gone:* kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8 kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYSTe2qAm8hnha8

[@AxxLAfriku]

My haters throw rocks at me and IT hurts. I hope they don't throw The Rock at me because I like him as an actor. GAGAGAGAGA!!! I am funny!!! I am the funniest KZbinr EVAH! Please agree, dear luke

[@Ydnew51]

And she’s reaching to so many of us who can relate. I mean she has billions of views. She’sawesome

[@lukeestern]

@@Ydnew51 I agree, and she’s one of the reason why I’m not afraid of posting myself in a ugly outfit online knowing that I can just dress up as if I were going to school or sum

[@cherishjoy5245]

i don’t know why u posted this at the EXACT moment i needed to hear this. thank you for everything emma, u really connect with me on a deeper level than u may think and i really needed it this week ❤️

[@anikasultana2178]

No literally!!!!!

[@HaileyHanks]

Don't worry about the whole not having anything to say anymore.. it's part of our evolution. Being quiet is a good thing, there's always a time to talk and a time to listen and observe. Once you've learned more over your years, you'll have more to say.. I think that's just how evolution works.. it's a good thing ❤ you don't wanna be talking out of your ass anyways

[@cadiebuggie]

i’ve been falling asleep listening to ur podcast episodes lately and they’ve made me feel so much better ♥️ i feel like it’s great food for thought before bed and i relate to a shocking amount of what you talk about so i hope you’re doing well emma !!! you’re totally right it WILL be okay!! :,)

[@Katherlinehao]

we haven't heard from u in a while so, hope you're doing better emma! WE ALL LOVE YOU!!

[@idkwhattonamemyself9326]

She's active on podcast

[@michalmaman6033]

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[@tasiamclaughlin694]

omg i think she may be moving into her new place i just remembered

[@julietmackenzie8076]

Yeah, I’m a mum with grown up twins boy & girl. And it’s true Emma even mums connect with you too 😊 also yes panic attacks are horrid and horrific I know. Hoping you’re feeling much better hunny sending love you’re way ❤️⭕️❌❤️

[@nicolegovoni1450]

I love that your videos aren’t “for” KZbin and made strictly to be “something” they just are what they are and show that not every minute or hour of every day has to be this spectacular or grandiose thing..it’s okay for things to be just simple sometimes. It’s okay to not always have “something” to say. I feel like that says even more. Much love xx

[@pamelag3879]

This comment is golden👏👏

[@tj6346]

the ''less desire to talk'' or less energetic and hyperactiv, wanting do to a bunch of things all at once reminds me of what my therapist said to me. It's a process of growing up, becoming your own person, not depending on anyone but yourself, living alone, having to deal with all that adult stuff you didn't have to do years ago... Your body needs to rest more than usual and that's okay. It's hard to understand that process, especially if you lived your whole life as this energetic talkative sunshine and now you feel like you can't relate to that self with anymore. I'm going through that now and it's weird. But it's okay. And I hope you're doing okay. I've just started watching your videos, after years hearing about you. And honestly, I'm so glad I started watching your videos yesterday because I feel like right now I can relate so much to everything - it feels really good seeing that process on someone else. Sending much love to you and to anyone struggling through that process as well

[@kieralaehy3274]

I'm normally not one to comment on videos, but these videos recently have really been so comforting for me. I get bored easily on all social media platforms but something about these videos, in particular, makes me feel at ease and if there's no need to constantly fulfill my drive to be extremely entertained. Thank you, emma.

[@byivyonce]

I tried Emma's new editing style

[@esem3511]

its relatable. She is showing all the sides that we understand. Everyone else only shows only the great times in their life and its so much movement and its so hectic. Her videos are chill and calming.

[@emiliaclarke1676]

Putting into words to thousands what most can’t even explain to the people they hold closest.. it’s admirable. Thank you Emma

[@vi0223]

it was really important for me to hear someone talk about derealization and panic attacks because that is SUCH a hard part of my life. the ups and downs, the spirals, the restless body, and i feel really alone when this happens but it’s comforting to know real people who have the same feelings and struggles i do. thank you emma

[@noahrosen9353]

Is crazy how relatable it was when you said you let silence be and you have nothing to say I’ve been feeling like this recently and I think it make me boring as well but I’ve never heard of anyone else feeling like that so thanks for relatable I guess it makes me feel better

[@nehiremyilmaz]

i see a lot of people struggling with what emma’s talking about in the beginning. it’s dp/dr (depersonalization/derealization) it’s the way your brain protect itself from the outside. in stressfull situations, your brain puts a barrier between you and reality as a coping mechanism. it’s actually a symptom of anxiety and it goes away with time

[@byivyonce]

I tried Emma's editing style

[@Entitysupasn]

your comment reassures me :)

[@hannahtorrance]

Ugh it’s the worst - I struggled with it all through high school 💀 But you’re right, it does go away with time.

[@isitevenme6353]

this happened to me on my very first day of work! i was so stressed and i felt like everything was hazy and then it was like i was viewing myself from out of my own body. it’s like my soul floated up or something lmfao. i didn’t actually see myself go up nor did i see the top of my head but i just knew. it was terrifying because it was the first time it happened- like ever.😮‍💨

[@elsalindgren8690]

I've had it for about a year straight at this point. It's so awful

[@laylathomas6868]

Emma really came out vulnerable in this and It makes everyone feel less alone like she isn't covering up the panic attacks and not talking about them. Few people can actually talk about them

[@jenny_jenny931]

I can’t even talk about it to my family but here she is talking about it on the internet...that’s amazing

[@meena4249]

she is the best, i love how everything looks simple in her vlogs, she’s not trying to do complicated stuff, she’s just filming and that’s like therapy !! i love her omg.

[@lokifrenchie5236]

Love it

[@sebastianovando9876]

I found so heartwarming how Emma’s videos have become a safe place whenever I Struggle with my anxiety or depression. I can space out in a very positive way, just by allowing myself to be taken care of by her pure and real energy.

[@MIYAKUBOTA]

Her transparency when it comes to mental health, and just the daily struggles of living in a dying world, inspires me to be more genuine with my peers and even with the internet when it comes to my own internal battles. ty Emma

[@jacquelineguerrero962]

I remember Emma making jokes about her art, but like let's talk about the GROWTH. And not even that, Emma, you can draw something from a picture you've created in your mind. That's some serious creativity. Artistry is in her blood o wateva 😌 💅

[@neptunem]

so true !! depression kept me from doing my favorite thing - art and creation, so seeing her doing that is so inspiring

[@kayleydrummond1819]

i also had an out of body experience like that randomly one day and went into the worst panic attack i've ever been in & then it lasted for weeks after that because it scared me so bad i couldn't stop thinking about it so it kept coming back. it's absolutely horrible, you'll be okay emma ❤️ i love u one day at a time.

[@kameko.studio]

I just listened to Emma’s weed podcast and I immediately thought of this video.