IVF round 2 triggering TF out of me 💀

Just so everybody knows, my body dysmorphia was quiet for a few months. I believe this upcoming vacation is triggering me pretty bad along with the fertility journey. Also I have a wedding I’m attending Saturday and anytime I need to wear real clothes and be seen, it’s too much for my me. It’s so sad because I enjoy my family and I enjoy vacation and I can be so fun but my body image issues ruin everything 😫 I’m sure I’ll power through it and I always have fun once the main event is here but the stress beforehand causes lots of problems in my life 💕

[@remmary100]

Just because the Dr. told you to do another round, doesn’t mean you have to. Follow what your gut tells you. Hugs!

[@lisakuhta3157]

Yes! Why do another round when you have embryos that can be used? I guess I'm not understanding something, but this is not making sense to me!

[@lindatohara6438]

The doctors are not God. I feel bad for her she is listening to them. I have learned to be demanding in the medical field. I told the gastroenterologist how to help other people with IBS he doesn’t do any research to help the patients and had no help for me. He couldn’t even recommend a probiotic. ABSURD! I found a great one on my own if anyone is looking for one just ask.

[@happyface771]

I agree

[@donnasexton716]

More money 💵

[@hazeleyes2479]

Hugs Cindy. Struggling with your own thoughts is horrible. I wish you could see yourself through others eyes cuz you’d see an amazing, funny, beautiful in and out woman. Praying for you ❤

[@helengonzalez8216]

You look beautiful But the obscene words that you speak makes you look ugly. To feel better you must speak better. Cuss words just will bring you down. 9:33

[@hartandsoul142]

We are our own worst enemies. It is hard to see ourselves as other see us. I see a beautiful on the inside and outside woman. I see a REAL woman. Sending love and prayers......

[@lindatohara6438]

She is gorgeous

[@sandrasiecgrist9233]

Boom!!!

[@aliciareyna4342]

I have told her before she is the whole package. ❤

[@traceytaylor522]

One step at a time Cindy! You are a strong woman and it is hard to get your mind wrapped around new information like that. My heart goes out to you. ❤

[@monamatic5101]

Dear Cindy, your body is your temple. Whatever it looks like it is the best cause its yours. And anyway the most charismatic people i met didnt have perfect body, but becouse of their charismatic character and self satisfaction they where literary shining. Everything is ok, you are going trough tough time, you are strugling, you are feeling bad sometimes but it is all normal and ok. I was depression and anxiety patient, i couldnt even take medicines cause i even had fear od them, i struggled one year working on accepting myself trough yoga and meditation and once i accepted my bad thinking and pannic attacks with depresion saying to them: well go on, come on, burst all over me, i accept you, its all fine for me - they went away. And when i became mother suddenly all my fears and weaknesses went away, the only fear i have now is fear for my child and huuuge strenght. Salute from Europe and once again - everything is fine as it is. Youre just perfect in this moment.

[@DebbieDowd]

That was a real good comment that you made on Cynthia's page I couldn't agree with you more❤

[@karenligus8224]

My heart goes out to you Cindy. I'm so sorry for all you're going through. Praying brighter days are ahead for you. I have Depression/Anxiety among several other health issues so I know the struggle of being in a negative mind set. I wish you could see yourself like we do. You are beautiful inside and out!❤❤❤

[@jayellevee]

I hate to see you cry. You are so beautiful and can help so many women, even young girls. I hear you, I love you from afar. ❤

[@davisdoxie-watson4608]

Oh Cindy you tore my heart apart. It was so sad to see you so upset. And no amount of your friends (and followers) and family telling you what a gorgeous woman you are is going to sink in. But honestly you are a gorgeous woman with a great personality, and a beautiful body. Please try to remember that. I know how much this was to process all at once. So what I would do is go on vacation and not worry about it. When you come home, I would talk with your husband and or family and ask for advise. And I would definitely pray 🙏🙏🙏 on it. So I'm sending you warm, healing hugs 🤗🤗🤗, lots of love 💕💖❤ and prayers 🤲🤲🤲.

[@KeepingItHopeful]

I’m so sorry to see your struggling. I pray vacation resets everything for you.

[@user-ks1en5gd7d]

I feel for you girl. I have struggled my whole life with weight, self worth,and more. Don't let life slip by. So many things I didn't do or places I didn't go because I hated the way I looked. Please try counseling. They may be able to help you see things differently . You are worth it!!! Love you and have an awesome trip with Stefanie and all your family. I'm here for you and I'm sure many others here relate. You are awesome!!!

[@AnnetteRobertson-oq1tj]

I'm so sorry. Look forward to your vacation with your family❤️

[@cinramirez8627]

Hugs and prayers, Cindy. I’m sorry that you have to go through this again. I hope the upcoming trip to Mexico helps you refresh and reset as far as mental health goes. You are so beautiful! God Bless ❤

[@nancybaldwin4893]

My heart goes out to you Cindy. I’m so sorry honey for all you’re going through. Prayers for you and your husband. ❤❤

[@beverlyplotner3278]

Oh Cindy I’m so sorry you are going thru all this. You are beautiful and sweet. And like someone said in the other comment. I wish you could see you thru others eyes.😢❤

[@pm11685]

My heart breaks for how you feel. Thanks for trusting enough to share your pain. You’re incredibly beautiful inside and out. You bring so much life and joy on your life vids. I know it’s not a party always on the inside and I wish I could help you. Like someone said, I wish you could see yourself through our eyes. For whatever it’s worth Cynthia we love you and thank you for being real. Warm hugs. Praying and sending you lots of love and positivity. 💕

[@danielle-lk5mv]

Oh Cindy, I’m sorry you are crying. Virtual big hug for you.

[@barbarahansbury2291]

You’re amazing have a good cry but remember how much you have gotten thru ! You are doing so much for so many by sharing you are seriously drop dead gorgeous and so much personality ! Hugs from all of us out here keep talking to us. We are here and you are sooo articulate about EVERYTHING you are so honest about EVERYTHING

[@animal-lover555]

Awww Cindy, this broke my heart to see you so upset. I did not have dysmorphia but I have never felt comfortable in my own skin. A bit better now that I am older but still not comfortable. I pray you can find a counselor to help you. Our minds, our thoughts can do so much damage to our psyche. As far as IVF. Nothing wrong with giving your body a break. Follow your gut, nobody knows you better than you. Sending you much love, good vibes and try to enjoy your vacay. ♥️

[@Vikki-pg5kf]

Cindy so sorry your having to go through all this... I went thru a very similar thing back in my 20's... quite a while ago... it is so very stressful, know you are not alone. If I had to do it all over again I would do whatever it takes to have a child, the stress you go through is worth the outcome. I was not so lucky! You are a beautiful woman and have a supportive family and husband... truly blessed, remember that when you are down, they are there for you!

[@sandrapepinsandra_hp]

OMG cindy, your words make me sad but know there is a future, I am 51 closer to 52 actually an I started to love myself back in 2022, I needed therapy and medication to be able to get to this point and I am beyond thankful to myself for doing this, I have been able to cut the anti-depressant by 2 sinc the beginning of 2024, DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF and seek mental help, please 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 as soo as you will love yourself the doors around you will open and every thing will be so much easier ... it took me 50 years to get there because I did not know and nobody told me before ... you too will get there, I pray for you finding this love for yourself🙏🏻🙏🏻 stay strong girl, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL and you are even more beautiful inside out

[@christinerichardson6900]

You are beautiful inside and out. Hopefully the holiday with family can give your mind and emotions a break. Loves and hugs to you.

[@Paintwritelive]

Hang in there. You are not alone. I have not but have family that has. Thank you for putting yourself out there in such an honest way

[@lisaknight2268]

Hi Cindy, Its amazing what our tiny little brains do too us. Go with whats in your heart, go on vacation , have fun, come back and go from there. Take some time away and try the 2 eggs, and go from there. Im kinda of having the same right now, I lost my dad and job, with in a couple months of each other, gained alot of weight. my mind kinda of got me stuck, Hang in there, you"ve got a strong soul, and you are very beautiful🥰 Breathe , you got this😘

[@kimberlyfernandez3759]

I’m so sorry that you have to go through all of it again. I wish you could see how beautiful you really are! You have a beautiful body and you are so beautiful. You have amazing hair. I feel like the process of egg retrieval is really mentally hard. The ups and downs of the hormones is so hard. I pray for you to have a great vacation and break. You are so much stronger than you know. You will be a wonderful mother.

[@crystalIzed333]

Thoughts and hugs my dear Cindy! I have heard how hard IVF therapy is for woman (and men)...I wish I could take the frustration and fear away! Love, kisses and hugs! You are right we don't know what you are going through but we are hear to listen and support!

[@heleenzuidhof8780]

Hey Cindy. I am so sorry to hear!. I heard that IVF can be a very long, difficult road. I have also talked about it with others in the past. I understand your frustration. It's good to talk about with others. Such things obviously have a big impact on you. I understand you. I really hope you talk about it with people who have experienced it, that can help enormously. It helped me too. I wish you all the best dear Cindy. All the best

[@dellalou4033]

Sending you love and calming, peaceful vibes. BIG HUGS, mama. You have people here for you. Vent when you need to. I struggle with self love and body dismorphia and my heart goes out to you. People who don't have it can't understand the internal battle. Better times ahead. ❤

[@teresacurtis4443]

Oh Cindy im so sorry to hear this, your a strong beautiful young woman with a gorgeous body dont ever think otherwise i really hope you can eventually see what all your viewers see your a beautiful person inside and out you will get through all this i know love and big hugs from Australia xxxxx

[@carolchlosta1027]

I'm so sorry girl ❤try and keep your eye on the prize 🙏❤

[@mama_j1629]

You have to find a way to love the body that you have. I went for so many years not wanting to wear shorts cuz I thought my legs were too skinny and not wanting to go swimming because oh I’d have to wear a bathing suit in front of people and I couldn’t possibly do that and eventually I realized this life I have is only given to me once and I’m missing out on so much just because of my own insecurities and that’s all time I can’t get back. Also you are beautiful so you gotta realize that there’s other people that see you and think omg I wish I looked like her but you gotta learn to love yourself. It took many years for me to do that, now I’m 42 and I couldn’t care less but I do wish so bad I could get some of that time back I spent obsessing about my appearance…praying for you 🙏🥰

[@amycarr7635]

At least you have your vacation to give you some time. You'll be with people you love and who love in a beautiful place. Much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lisabeaver2919]

Oh Cindy , im so sorry your going through this. My heart breaks for you. No body deserves a baby as much as you. ❤

[@genevabarberena7168]

This breaks my heart for you..hope everything works out 🙏🏽

[@marilynpasquantonio4492]

I can’t imagine how you feel but I’m so optimistic for you I know eventually it’s all gonna work out I get I strong feeling ❤️🇨🇦💕

[@garlandfraley734]

Honey I am so sorry, give yourself some grace and just be in your feelings.....it's a lot ok ,it's hard to relate ,we CANNOT no how it feel not having it, prayers, to us you are so pretty ..........hugs ....so glad you are doing some better,vacation may help❤

[@patriot4life262]

Please see a therapist , there is zero / NOTHING wrong with therapy. Your internal dialogue is not nice to you, please seek help for yourself…IT IS OK….

[@supersparkley123]

Yesssss, this!

[@user-xh5nx2wq3x]

My heart breaks for your disappointment and sadness. This process has taken its toll on the both of you. Cry it out and think about all of your options. My heart is with you!

[@kellysnyder1405]

Nothing I say can make it better I know that, I won't ever pretend to understand IVF. I'm feeling your heart so much. In 2005 my bulimia ended and it was a decade long battle, so please know my love and respect for you is absolutely 💯

[@dorenemadrzykowski8426]

Oh man!! Tough stuff. So many ups and downs to this for you. Love and many hugs and good vibes. Slow down.....one day at a time.....one thing at a time. Go on vaca, refresh yourself and soak up all that is good.

[@tornadod23]

Hugs Cindy ❤ We are here for you! Remember that your tongue can cut like a knife. Speak these babies into existence and Remember this is justba season of your life and this hard time will pass. I pray one day you will see yourself as beautiful as we see you. ❤❤❤

[@lizoreilly8582]

You are beautiful, don’t be so hard on yourself, things will get better ❤️‍🩹 (it’s probably not what you want to hear) but you’re stronger than you think girl,sending you hugs, kisses & prayers from Ireland 🙏🙏💚💚💚☘️☘️☘️

[@margaretgray9882]

Cindy I wish I could give you a big hug right now. I know that everyone can tell you how beautiful and what a nice person you are., but it makes no difference about how you feel about yourself.

[@lynzstark]

It's IMPOSSIBLE to say what I'd do in your situation bc I've never been in it. Even those who have can say what they did but it's ultimately what's best for you!! I do know that you need to be in a good place physically AND mentally when the time comes. If it's easier for you to try with these 2 nuggets & go from there, you have a LOT of people that will be praying with you for success!! If you'll be too stressed out bc there "aren't more than 2", then make the decision to try for more first. Whatever you decide will be the right answer. Don't let anyone say otherwise! I also pray that you have a good support system for when you're pregnant bc those intrusive thoughts will be magnified by hormones & the physical changes you'll see. I'm excited to watch your journey and grateful to you for sharing! I'll be praying for your peace no matter what :) 💛

[@tnblueeyes777]

I hate that you feel like you do. You are a beautiful person. Prayers for you and your journey. Love yourself. You deserve it! You will conquer through this. My husband and I quit everything because it was getting so stressful and ended up getting pregnant.

[@rositawangdahl457]

God Bless You 🙏❤ I feel You. Hope everything(You want to) happen soon 🍀🍀🍀🍀

[@jessamygoddard4112]

You have had a shock because you were not expecting this. But in the end you will be cradling a beautiful being in your arms and it will all be worth it. Your body is perfect. It is the imperfections in everyone’s body that we love. The imperfections make a body perfect and beautiful. And as a person you are so open and honest, you are amazing. Sending much love from uk. Xxxxx

[@daisyd8977]

Cindy, I am so sorry you feel that way. Everyone has struggles its part of life but you're just a girlllll so cry it out lol i do lots of that now a days. You should transfer both embryos that way you have cutie little twins and if you decide to do IVF again you'll be too busy to have body dysmorphia and you'll be too busy to be sad!! Have a great trip and good luck girl!!

[@aprilhaywood3306]

Awwww Cindy I know I feel for you, I don't want to say the wrong thing, so lots of love and prayers for you ❤❤❤

[@shavonlynn9317]

Hugs girl praying for you guys love ya girl❤

[@wandasnowflake_5039]

😢sorry your going through this not fair sending lots of love and hugs your way sista❤️🌹❤️🌹❤️🌹❤️🌹

[@Americanhoney86]

Sending loads of love Cindy! 💕Girl I’d kill to have your body. You look great. You’re not only beautiful on the outside but your beautiful on the inside to. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I wish I could hug you. This virtual hug will have to due. 🫂

[@maureenpalardy4912]

Aww Cindy... Im so sorry! I wish there was something I can do for you. No matter how many times we say you look great, you don't see it. For that I feel for you. Hugs❤

[@sallynorton9776]

Watched again.. praying you feel all the love from us!!! ❤❤

[@oldladybird8528]

Honey please don't down yourself. When I was younger I was my own worse enemy. Please think about getting help. I did and it takes work but you will overcome this. ❤️

[@patdrake8859]

I just want you to know we are here with you so you are never alone. We keep you in prayer.

[@MyrtleNiemann-xj5xh]

Greetings from your biggest fan from South Africa!!! Please hang in there beautiful lady, you got this!!!! I wish I could go through everything on your behalf. You are smart, you are beautiful, you are strong and You are the most amazing person in the whole entire planet❤ P.s. You look good in the Neon Green girl! Once everything is over, you will look back and say, "Fu@#, I AM THE GREATEST PERSON EVER!! You had me in tears for a moment... So glad you're feeling better. We need our girl to be happy!!! Please do what you want to do, and don't ever change. You are going to have an amazing holiday!!! Huge and lots of love. P.s hope your next holiday will he in S.A!!!

[@heleenzuidhof8780]

I wish i could give you a big hug. You are not ugly you are beautiful 💗💗

[@Grahamt978]

I wished you talk more about body dysmorphia it would help so many people and maybe me you feel so alone💕

[@tracethomasvickers2224]

Love you back🙏🏼❤️

[@gracefox6988]

Sending you Biggest Hugs Cindy. I don't know anything about IVF, but I struggle with my weight everyday & struggle with my thoughts. I wish I had a great body like you have even though you don't see how amazing you are. I can totally understand & relate. I'm so sorry. You are beautiful, & I understand about self sabotage so, so well. You will be OK. ❤🤗🤗🤗

[@carmenb9209]

oh hun, so sorry you feel so sad, I know how you feel, IVF for me was a disaster, my hormones went crazy and we never made it to far enough, that was like over 30 years ago, we never tried a second time, my health was so bad at the end total hysterectomy was my only choice, so at 30 everything came out , and still my dream got fulfilled and we got a daughter trough adoption, and do not give up Luciano and Luca are still chilling and waiting for you

[@sharonowen]

Once the news sinks in you will realise that it’s for the best to get it over and done with. I do understand your body issues as my son Daniel suffers with it and it is so bad with him that he doesn’t have a life much of his time is spent in his bedroom but he has got an appointment coming up to go back to the phyc which I’m praying that this time something will be done to help him. Have you ever had CBT or any other form of therapy apart from medication? Take care hon you will get through this just take one day at a time xxx

[@smooshie2285]

Hugs to you. My opinion is that the stress this is causing your body and mental health right now is a sign to wait, breathe, take that vacation. Use the embryos you have and pray that one or both take. Maybe that Dr just wants the $ for another cycle.

[@carolcarll7873]

I'm sorry you have to go through it again, if that is what you and your husband decide. If you guys do decide to go through the process again, may God give you the strength. When times are hard don't lose faith. ❤❤❤

[@jeanlouderback2976]

Hugs ❤ praying for you and your husband.

[@alanamallon1407]

Awk Cindy your beautiful inside and out but i know what ur going through when it comes to ur body and mind lots of love and hugs xx

[@MikkiGray]

Oh Cindy, I’m so sorry! It’s so frustrating. I’ve never done IVF, but even getting pregnant in the traditional way is tough. I had a miscarriage before having my daughter, had to have a D&C, then start over. It was no fun. But all I can say is, trust the process. I’m curious about doing another round of egg retrieval before implanting the two you have now - is that usual? I thought a second round happened only if the first embryos didn’t take. But I have no idea how it works. Sending hugs, glad you were feeling a little better at the end ☺️

[@vickiefinney6073]

Honey you are beautiful, just the way God made you. My daughter growing up was a tall girl and a little on the heavy side and i taught her to be happy with who she is. God made us all different for a reason. I pray you don't go through postpartum if you have a baby. I had it so bad, and i worry for your mental health. Praying for you 🙏❤️

[@racheltessmer925]

Oh, Cynthia Victoria! I am reaching through the vlog to give you a big hug 🫂. I know the feeling of the spiral! My heart breaks 💔 listening to you! Please, Please give yourself some grace! You are so beautiful! The struggle is real! Oh, Cynthia Victoria, you have a spark left! A flat butt! 😊 You are strong to go on a vlog and put yourself out there! That is me some days...I call it the "hell in my head". I am sad you suffer as well. You have a supportive husband and family. Yes, keep praying! I will pray you come to a decision that is best for you! All good thought and prayers to you! Love from Minnesota!❤🙋‍♀️

[@bettydanico2959]

You are so beautiful! I dislike seeing you this way. I’m 73 and got pregnant on my first love making. Shocked . We were not married but we 😂had a beautiful baby boy. Go on vacation and just relax and have a good time. Try not to pressure yourself with the second round of ivf treatment. See how you feel after vacation. Give yourself a break. I will pray for you. I am Catholic and I will pray for you❤️😍❤️

[@Roro19609]

Cindy, you almost had me in tears. I felt so bad for you. You don’t sound good emotionally and mentally. You do have all of us viewers but you need someone who you can just talk and scream too. Being so stressed and not in a good mind will truly affect your body and the concieving of your baby. Who knows , you just may come back pregnant from vacation after all the treatments you have been through. Only god knows, have faith. Cindy you are so beautiful and talented and funny. Remember it could be worse, there’s someone out there worse than you. Cindy you are beautiful, your body is beautiful so start loving yourself. Your husband has to love you so much to stand by you through your moods swings. Eres una Mujer fuerte y Bella. Dios te bendiga hoy y siempre. sigue para adelente. Mucho abrazos y carino from Bradenton, Florida.❤🙏🫂🤍

[@discodms]

Praying 🙏 for you and your family. Go love on Sébastien some and Stephanie will hold you up and encourage you.

[@michelleholmes7984]

I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm sending you nothing but positive thoughts. My heart is breaking because your heart is breaking.

[@tribalreal7994]

I feel your disappointment & aggravation youre feeling! Yes, you are who you are & it is awesome . I hate my body too. I wish I had a body like yours. I try to think that I should be happy because it could be worse...glass half full you know. You sound like me &I totally understand. Hang in there friend❤💕

[@gabrielle-uk3nl]

Hei Cynthia, I like to hear what others think but, I follow my heart. You are strong and you will find the best way . Lots of love from Norway😊❤❤❤

[@karolrust2300]

I won't tell you I understand what you are going through because I have not had the same struggle. But I can pray for comfort and strength for you as you go through these struggles.🙏 You are beautiful and have blessed so many people with your time and talents. 😊 When I face uncertainty in decision-making, I always pray and seek God's direction. Love and hugs!!🤗

[@victoriapereira8651]

Ahhhh honey,I feel your pain but dont give up hope,nothing is your fault.Its just bad luck,this is a set back but it will improve your chances so thats a good thing.My daughter in law has been through,8 rounds of IVF,operations,flown to spain for ops at a renowned hospital,the expense has been astronomical.She had 1 success but following that her womb had to be removed.Her heart was so broken because her younger sister has 4kids and they just pop out,no problem.keep the hope going darling,this isnt, The End for you yet,its so upsetting and unfair but you still have chances and options,just believe in that,sending hugs and kisses xxxx

[@tschandraheinze1680]

Love! You are allowed to say what you feel. It's ok not to be ok. You are so beautiful inside and out. I hope that you can get to the place you want for yourself mentally. Sometimes, we need to have that moment ❤. You are loved, and you are heard. You are perfect 🥰! It's gonna be ok 100%. I think you should follow your heart. god has a plan love just for you, and he gives the hardest battles to the ones he knows can handle it. Even if we don't think we can. Sending you so much love. ❤

[@CindyVic]

Thank you for giving me space to share these things 🥹 and I have lots of praying to do 🙏🏼

[@tschandraheinze1680]

@CindyVic Thank you. Shows others this is a safe place, and we can all support one another. ❤️ you got this love. I'll pray for you too. 🙏 I get what you are saying for sure. Hugs. You have a good day.

[@junehulbert2885]

@@CindyVic you have a community that loves you ❤️❤️❤️

[@susanqueen4628]

Take time to process what they told you. Then like some have said, go with your gut. You are beautiful and strong. I don’t like my body either, I struggle with that. I’ve lost 40 pounds but still need to lose 20 more. I’m at a lull. Which has really made it hard. My hair is thinning, I’m getting more wrinkles, I’ll be 60 this year. That’s a hard pill to swallow. Hang in there. I think you are beautiful and so fun!! ❤

[@lauralaura8115]

Is okay to cry and feel sad with unexpected news. But I’m a great believer in positivity and the bigger picture. It might suck a little along the journey. But the outcome of a family for you guys seems to be the goal, so it will all be worth it. And hey this might not be the only down time, but we always ride them out. Ups and downs babes ups and downs. I really feel for you in terms of how you feel about yourself. Im nearly 43. I have had agoraphobia for 10 years now. During that time I’ve lost loads of confidence and self esteem, tbh I’ve never been as fat as i am now. And i hate it. But cos of my anxiety i do nothing about it exercise wise. Which makes me feel worse. I self sabotage myself all the time and it’s a crappy feeling. Wish i could give you a hug. It will be okay! You got this! Think bigger picture! ❤️❤️

[@cindypackard9597]

I'm so sorry Cynthia ! But you might not have to hun take it easy and slow sweetheart , It could happen just give it time ok Please Don't get discouraged I understand believe me , if you ever want to talk I'm here for you ok Love you guys

[@cindykoehn7680]

🤗 Hugs. Being a woman at this time sucks! There is so much pressure put on us. You look great. We are all different shapes and sizes. I’ve been plus size for my adult life. I became Diabetic 5 years ago, I struggle every day. Walking at least an hour a day! For the last 5 years. I’ve been on an anxiety med for 7 years, without it I couldn’t function. You are not alone! 🤗 You need Sebastian Therapy, and time with Steph. Hugging Bogey will be just what you need. I have no IVF advice. But will pray for you. 🙏🏻 Hope to see your smile soon! ☺️🥰🤗

[@susanlassiter6494]

I am 62 and I feel every bit of this.

[@carmelaburrone5029]

So sorry for your pain. Sending healing prayers my🙏 dear. BLESSINGS from Connecticut.

[@user-sm1hz5tg2b]

Cindy I am this way too. Listening to your vlog I thought I was talking. My brain never tells me anything good about my body others say I'm fine the way I look I wish that compliment would stick but to me I don't believe it. Seeing a therapist for it is a good idea. This may sound odd but I am glad you put this out there it made me realize that I am not alone some else gets its it was comforting to me. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Like you said everything will be ok am right beside you.🫂

[@lindatohara6438]

I am 63 and been exercising since I was 16. I never had a butt but its tight as a drum and was in style during flash dance era. Lolz Focus on one thing you want a baby then don’t worry about outward appearances. You don’t need as ass to have a baby, I had 3 c sections with my narrow pelvis. I work out to feel good not look good. Maybe a therapist is a great idea you seem really overwhelmed in your head. Also breathing techniques found on KZbin works miracles. Please try them and listen to ocean sounds and healing vibrations. It’s all free and you got nothing to lose.

[@joantorres3309]

I’m sorry, for what you are going through. I don’t know if you’re religious, please, pray 🙏 I can’t stress enough that the Lord will help you through this. You have so many people who are supporting you. I hope and pray that everything will work out for you and your husband. I too have depression. It’s rough. Do what makes you happy. God bless you 🙏 Go on that vacation girl. Please know that you’re beautiful! I promise.🙏

[@vbrandon1858]

Praying for you 🙏 ❤️ so 😞 sorry I bet it is hard!much love to you ❤️ 💕 💖 hope you have a wonderful day

[@jessicak4913]

Girl I have a friend she tried for 15 years then tried to Ivf and it didn’t work but once she had done all that she got pregnant own her own so don’t u give up I mean that u keep strong spirit it’s hard I was never able to have a baby I lost one tube trying and I couldn’t afford ivf but there is hope ❤❤❤❤

[@AshleynCollins]

Praying for you 🥹🙏

[@amycarr7635]

I wish i had the body you have. Ive always be fat and have struggled for years no matter what i do. Acceptance is the first step

[@christyrichesson6977]

Hi Cindy, First off BIG HUG. I wish you seen yourself as we see you. You are such a beautiful woman. I'm sorry you are struggling so bad. You are so beautiful, Funny as hell and have the biggest heart. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. XOXO

[@lisawines9932]

You are beautiful. Nothing else could make you look better. Beauty is on the inside I was always told because I'm fat. I have struggled with my weight my whole life. To us we can't see the good or positive things because we hate ourselves. I haven't found a cure yet and see. Different therapists and medicine and nothing works. I have some good days where I feel good about myself but they're further apart now. If you feel down about yourself I should be suicidal. You have a wonderful personality. Your Mom and grandma are beautiful women. You have good genes. ❤❤

[@kimsylla5531]

Oh, Sweetie, I wish you could see what we see. My heart breaks for you because I hear the disappointment and hurt in your voice. Go on vacation, discuss another round of IVF prep versus just using the 2 embryos you have with loved ones, and make the final decision once you're back home. Sending virtual hugs. ❤

[@colleenford5398]

I wish I could have crawled through my tablet to hug you! I lived my entire life trying to be thin, be perfect, etc. I am now 64 and I still feel that way, well sometimes but now I have gotten comfortable with myself. I take meds, of course, with the panic/anxiety and I have started therapy again. My anxiety has been through the roof. .I am entering what they say are "the golden years"! I find NOTHING golden about it! I have arthritis in both knees, fibromyalgia, sciatica and COPD....the thing I have been struggling with lately is the end of my life...I know realistically that the last thing I should be thinking about but there you go. I'm not married and can't have a beby now so I honestly can't give advise on that subject. I do want you to know is this and I think most would agree with me: from what I've seen you've got a awesome body, I think that you are beautiful...on the inside as well as the outside. I also want to know is: WE LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!!!❤❤ As a side note: there should be a COCKIES AND CONTENT MEXICOOOOOO! I thought about that last night! Sorry this is sooo loooong! 😁

[@EllieVillalpando]

Ohh Cindy 🥹 my heart breaks for you. I know I don't know you personally, but you are honestly one of those ppl that truly deserves all good things in the world, and I pray God blesses you. I don't know if this is a dumb question, but is it possible for the two eggs that you have right now to use those and see if you get pregnant and say you do, can't you just do another round of IVF later in the future? Also, if not. I would do the second round after your trip if I were you. I know this is tough, but think positive! All the tears and madness will all be worth it in the end ❤

[@carrievaughn9442]

Hunny don't cry it's ok babie don't cry your going to be ok. It's we still love you we know your sad but you still look good to us

[@elliegoldie6140]

Cindy you are stunning really beautiful but struggles you have are real and no use us saying don’t be daft you look so good.xx❤

[@lauriegertenbach3421]

There are many things i don't like about my body, but God made us, we are and you are beautiful inside and out. Please be kind to yourself, you are gorgeous❤

[@junegrimley5697]

Omg Cindy, I don't know how that feels, but I wish I could help, I wish I could hug you😢😢 no one knows what it feels to do ivf, it's such a difficult decision big hugs girl xx❤❤❤❤