J-LOWIM (who I am)

Part II of J-LOEX.
Background speech from
• 7 Signs of Autism in M...
The Johnny-Amber references relate to J-LOEX at ( • Lucemer - J-LOEX ).
There, I set the premise of my life experiences being similar to the relationship between the two actors, with Amber being the part of me trying to repress and manipulate my own self-understanding, steering me away from accepting my own peculiarities and uniqueness with arguments like "you're just lazy or introverted or whatever, and nobody would believe/care about you anyway".
I associated my curious self with Johnny because, while growing up, my family compared me to Depp for various reasons. In this part II, Johnny makes the call without further giving Amber room to dictate things around, but Amber will have already hurt him anyway.