Jake Hill & Josh A - Suicidal Thoughts

[@hectictrolls6176]

" Depression is like u don't wanna die , but also don't wanna exist "

[@yeetskeet1581]

good quote but depression is many things, not just that. not disagreeing with your quote just pointing out that its a mental illness with many expressions

[@iambackyo6803]

Yup

[@azzerith6339]

Yea

[@animeedits3865]

@@yeetskeet1581 yea

[@azzerith6339]

@@alexdaniel5641 how did you talk to me

[@extcmusic]

its funny how everyone who searches this song puts 'song' at the end to avoid some conversations lol

[@stevenpemberton1634]

I didnt

[@InsaneJumpscare]

Nah

[@fin6338]

😅

[@maritoguionyo]

I just put jake hill afterwars but tbh I would do that too

[@zashinunes8191]

Its not my case

[@Angelika131]

When I was a kid, I thought crying out loud was the most pain ever thought of, but crying in silence is like killing yourself slowly of that which you have no control over.

[@anonymouseidk1466]

Well some people like to cry in silence and that some people is all of me I really want to cry right now it’s really hard to

[@pcmkx]

that hit😔

[@kami0]

sooo deeepppp maaaannnnnnnnn😭😭😭🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙😭😭😭😭😭😭🥲🥲🥲🥲😂🥺😂🥺😂😭😂🥺😂😭🥺

[@pcmkx]

@@kami0 different typa heartbreak 😮‍💨

[@slewlovesu4408]

don't commit suicide that shit kills you..

[@alteringtherealities1522]

"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but everyday I feel like dying." i relate to this way more than i should

[@BirdTheCat]

Same

[@primisoda1400]

lmao stop capping

[@alwaysawomanofGod]

Jesus loves you

[@hahockey6842]

Me:Gets depression Family: *its from being on that PC all day*

[@dylanvanhorn9961]

Poisonous Nightmare facts

[@whatdoiputhere7025]

Zpitting da factz

[@whatdoiputhere7025]

Fml

[@lucek9107]

Fact

[@commanderkizza978]

Why do they never realize that pc is to cope with other troubles

[@thegoldencompany4191]

"Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright" who else felt that? (-) yall aint alone 🙏

[@snow9330]

Me

[@MarioLord14]

ツSki Mɑsk eeeee I did.

[@Toxic-dw4mi]

Me

[@mody4229]

Me.And my dads belt

[@nitrojengt7089]

Go play agario lol

[@Thatcharmingjokester]

This song is the definition of how I feel every day.

[@alexdanieloliveira2294]

If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it, If necessary search for help in the internet and If you can afford it call a therapist "ending your Life is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" so many People that tried to end it changed their minds and are glad to Be alive,. we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it by the way do not Be shy to call for help

[@Thatcharmingjokester]

@@alexdanieloliveira2294 I know. And thank you. I'm not gonna die, I can assure you that

[@BrailleGamer04]

yep same here

[@sharkloverlife4820]

Same

[@BrailleGamer04]

yep mee too

[@CatPCgaming]

Honestly, this is the most relatable song I've found in awhile.

[@echospace7347]

Listen to more music by him

[@VANCOF_NOT_ALIVE]

Listen to citizen soldier

[@abelmartinez3196]

Listen to bullet by Hollywood undead

[@damianmontiel6364]

Yeah

[@kenzieberwick7462]

"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright" i felt that

[@beefboss4203]

yeah same with all the shit going around the world and me fucking myself up even tho i keep telling myself to stop

[@kenzieberwick7462]

@@beefboss4203 yeh

[@robbidyrob3787]

we felt that

[@mymom3373]

@@beefboss4203 I keep telling myself to stop watching something inappropriate on KZbin. Every single time I do watch it I feel like dying. Like what the song said. ;(

[@RAHHHHHHHH394]

I felt that shit at the bottom of my shattered heart

[@xtaniwhax9655]

Me: **gets mild depression** Everyone in my family: its those pesky headphones

[@yernef350]

If you only listen to sad songs yeah its those pesky headphones ^^

[@xtaniwhax9655]

@@yernef350 that's not how it works, I listen to sad songs cause I can relate to them, it's not the music or headphones it's the shitty people at school and my messed up family

[@yernef350]

@@xtaniwhax9655 The music doesnt help it also puts you in a certain mood, theres actual research behind, for example a lower bpm will tend to make you sad and a higher bpm will make you happier. So it also does, i didnt mean its all of it.

[@xtaniwhax9655]

@@yernef350 it does help This is a sad song so I'll be sad and happy another time and if your such a no it all about happiness then what the hell are you doing here in this depressed side of KZbin

[@xtaniwhax9655]

@@yernef350... Sorry

[@spikips9375]

I remember when i first heard this song when it came out. I was this really positive kid who never had depression before but still loved the beat and the song. 4 years later and a lot of shit after i saw this song and started to cry for some reason. At that moment i realised i've suffered through depression for a long time now but i never realised it. The lyrics just hit so deep.

[@alexanderbrenner6953]

So true, once you read the lyrics then you will understand how he feels

[@marcombr8371]

I just did the Same shit, i cant live more , i am 18 and i been thinking about suicide everyday since i am 15 , i legit just want to die or cut my veins

[@jeffmcclelland3215]

the one thing I learned is that the person who has smiled the most times has also cried the most times.

[@raptix5619]

You haven't gone trough depression if you need a song to realize it. You're not depressed if anything you may have small period where you are sad but youre definetely not depressed

[@iwillbrb8723]

@@raptix5619 oh my god thank you, liteerally everyone in these song comments are dumping their 'life story' but somehow they all were just never depressed before???? i can't stand it. It's like they WANT to be depressed because it's like a trend or something. It's bullshit.

[@car2see163]

“Sleep isn’t just sleep anymore, it’s your best escape from reality”

[@TheVeryMrSirJosh]

Felt that

[@taurushere6380]

yeah

[@art3m1z92]

Sleeping is like being dead just without the commitment

[@alwaysawomanofGod]

Jesus loves you 😊

[@KyleEvra]

I always look forward to Sleep it's the only way of knowing true peace.

[@slowedsongzzz1]

"just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright “

[@mrzwonderful6205]

We all want to

[@emelycorsino9791]

Something we all know we want but yet something we all know isn't real 😔😭💔

[@slothboy591]

I looked at ur comment while it played in the song at the same time

[@jekjeklaron7008]

Its everyday bro yeah its everyday bro

[@bisexualbonobo8616]

FuryyyX every day i feel like dying

[@FortniteKid]

I showed this to my grass now it's weed

[@kleiton__]

mine's dead

[@oneasianman688]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/bHXLXoWClMSohJY

[@ilai1215]

I am trying to figure the fuck out what you writong i am high af rn

[@dxrk.mp4872]

Mine caught on fire 🔥

[@monashi1041]

sTeAlEd

[@yemliha5170]

Why are these songs not getting the recognition they deserve?

[@1th117]

Yes

[@gerardwayseyelash]

@@1th117 Yes

[@glitchxoxo9313]

that's because we apes value plastic more than gold.

[@gerardwayseyelash]

@@glitchxoxo9313 Facts periodt

[@agentkenaki6529]

because they are awful

[@lolichicken5373]

I wish I could close my eyes and open them again to find my self in a better world

[@hayleyervin4116]

I feel that

[@N._s67]

Dont we all man?

[@justaguy919]

Same bro

[@sethcook1517]

Me too

[@zoyanavidhassan]

when you want people to stop hurting you but then you realize you're the one hurting yourself

[@RavenGames224]

Same

[@samiraarabella1801]

Man😭

[@fifty6289]

Than you also realize you're 12 and so is everyone replying

[@kai-1480]

r/im14andthisisdeep

[@lovebite4748]

@@kai-1480 r/Iinvalidateteensmentalhealth

[@nosanitypx2282]

Roses are dead Violets are dying Depression aint no joke Many kids are crying

[@moodedits2882]

:(:

[@closery2340]

Yupp

[@kevitamaster-brewkombucha5472]

I’m 11 and wanna die 💔*cries with fake smiles*

[@skylar7022]

*_I started having depression when I was 8, I hate life, there’s NO way I’d change my mind._*

[@boopdeboop575]

LOL

[@luvvsammy]

this used to be my shit and years later, i’m still here lmao

[@alexdaniel5641]

If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it by the way do not be shy to call for help

[@merlinwizardlizard8417]

Sameeee

[@Matteyjanable]

This fucking song hits home... Damn... 28 years saying fuck it I will stay. And now this song pops up and BAM I cry. This shit hit home hard.

[@levantinedoomer2317]

*Social anxiety has joined the server* and you can Never leave...

[@charlesstanley9825]

Your everywhere

[@x_blue9954]

Charles Stanley he really is lmfao

[@vijayatman]

True man 😭😭😭

[@ciuciz5323]

NICE NAME XD

[@shinobibeats1330]

@@charlesstanley9825 justin Y is the real account

[@thelunasalpha4338]

What they say: it will get better What they mean: you’ll get used to the pain

[@torihoskinson562]

That is very true and that's sad

[@18rxfi]

Hits different

[@AyhamSpaceE]

Yoongi makes me always smile.. (:

[@sleepyashie]

Damn that hit

[@introjkjm9350]

It’s true but let’s try to love ourselves :)

[@zealot1111]

2 years ago i was suicidal and used to hear this song a lot. But somehow i saved myself from it. But now, here i am, back again.

[@johnthicc865]

Same. But I have learned one thing. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem I heard those words from my therapist and we'll basically that's what has kept me going. So just stay strong and you will make it.❤️

[@subahanqutubuddini235]

Me too. 2 years ago. But I'm good now. I never lost hope

[@yazenalmafalani4138]

Hope you’re doing better now man

[@chadwickfan2987]

Good for you my g

[@kidkid6600]

you got this man!

[@chinharry8746]

The fact that it shows a suicidal warning just shows how powerful it is.

[@sonam9881]

*"Why do I even try?"* This speaks to me on so many levels

[@gabeblaze3769]

There's more hope or motivation

[@brawlhallagaming2875]

me too

[@beasty8554]

I feel you here

[@umargamer5550]

Haha same

[@bigballerjerry1653]

I feel this post

[@11skylars]

**gets grounded for thinking about suicide**

[@rawr9977]

Wth , they need to be slapped

[@tylersinclair5167]

#relatable and for cutting

[@some__kid]

Yeah my dad just gets mad at me whenever I cut myself. That's why when I relapsed earlier I never reached out. I'll just get punished

[@Eli-ld1vg]

DUDE MY MOM TOOK MY PHONE AWAY FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND CUTTING WTF

[@tylersinclair5167]

@@Eli-ld1vg same. Love the name

[@robertmacdermid456]

“I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die just wanna close my eyes and feel alright’’

[@SidewaysNoob6268]

they always say "talk to someone" when nobody takes you seriously

[@ktqkudra4313]

2 mins. Silence for those who still can't find this song, after hearing 1st time by chance!!

[@timiffyesknallt4556]

B. I. G TROLLED

[@MommyDaddy17]

Yessir

[@mintdrunk2981]

i'd rather listen to half of this song

[@lack_d3mon395]

TRUE

[@corgifereza]

Yesss

[@asrieldreemurr5073]

I told my friend once that i'm depressed and he was just like "Just be happy" Smh

[@thevzil9462]

Cam L depression isn’t just sadness 😐

[@jonipihvi]

just smile lmao

[@legoyoda256]

@@jonipihvi dont be sad lmao

[@MagicNote]

ikr? like OH WHAT A BEAUTIFUL ADVICE?? THANK YOU SO MUCH!! NOW I'M GOING AND BEING HAPPY :))))))))))))))))))))))

[@yee2494]

See a fucking doctor if your depressed

[@samantharepass6767]

I don't think there will ever be a day I don't feel like dying. I struggle with these thoughts everyday.

[@rpmstudios]

Hey man, how’ve you been?

[@Infact77]

hey, you alright man?

[@therealkayr15]

Little boy: are you an angel? Girl: um...no... Little boy: My mother told me that people who have marked wrists are angels, and often they are broken by this world, so they try to get back to heaven. Girl: You know your mother is very wise. Little boy: I know. She was an angel as well, but she already returned home.

[@a.m.5581]

This copypasta older than time lol

[@user_sx125]

that shit is deep

[@kpoplovertrinityh9805]

Damn it still gets me every time

[@PolskaQueen-]

But it's a sin to... Okay

[@PolskaQueen-]

@linkgame 2999 you shut up. I'm just saying and you being rude is not helping.

[@shadowishere7115]

Nobody wants to die they just wanna be free from the pain...

[@cristianbarbu6347]

Pills are better 😬!

[@stephensmith3184]

Or just not exist...

[@bxmbxr]

...

[@catkin8330]

I do want to be free from pain It's not even about someone abusing me (like my brother but it is one thing) the main thing that keeps harassing me the main thought... Is how I use to HURT my friends I lost control of my anger and harm them, looking at them... They remind me of myself (here come their names) I was as ignorant as Leo As Annoying as Molly As naive as Serena And as soft as Caitlin I could easily be hurt lost control and hurt my friends... I was ignorant and didn't realise how bad I was... I was annoying...I was a monster but im trying to improve and I did, but they don't see it... If they only saw or hear how much they mean to me... I hurt them so I tried importing ITS FOR THEM which I became better... For them! They don't know that... It was them who took me out of the darkness, now I just try to smile so brightly that it blinds the darkness so I will be here even if my friends turn against me... Everyone makes their own purpose of living... My one is to protect my friends even if it would cost my life, because they are everything to me... I wish I could tell them this but I can't... I just can't...

[@user-ig6qc7pv6t]

Ama bjk hala küçük kulüp 😭😭😭

[@SectionC970]

"I'll be running from myself now" Jeeeez that's a new level of depression.

[@aalex6394]

Ahmad Amjed oof

[@holidayodell5000]

I have been for a while bruh get on my level

[@radioaudio69]

Ahmad Amjed Welcome to My Brain. Enjoy your stay.

[@imgay6885]

I've been on that level of depression since I was 8, I'm 12 now.

[@SectionC970]

@@imgay6885 holy... it seems I'm just out of this Earth cuz God dam your 8 to 12 depressed? Hope you feel good some day bud all support.

[@minnieshorts6969]

Just imagine if NF and Jake Hill collabed!!!

[@VICPLAY14]

That'd be so cool

[@PhoenixMyth1]

Wow couldn’t think of anything better

[@manharkumarbarad7505]

Dream

[@real.l.lallll]

brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr that will be godly

[@daisythereaper3336]

This is what my anxiety and my depression does to me it actually makes me feel numb and i hate it it makes me feel like i want to live i love this lyric though cause it kept me alive for 18 years so far "just wanna be able to close my eyes and be able to feel alright but everyday i feel like dying" also at the end of the day i have to cry myself to sleep cause of it :(

[@de4dg1rl73]

I wanna die, but at the same time. I feel like, I dont wanna die

[@zashinunes8191]

🙇🏻‍♂️

[@discodude4231]

youll get over it i did

[@web9452]

Dont end it. What if there is nothing after? Make the best of what you can while alive. Be a good person and hopefully there is a god and an afterlife. But if there isnt atleast make what time you have here the best possible.

[@nteachristou3909]

Don't

[@nifou5677]

Same

[@chrissuper]

Lyrics (from what I hear, if I'm wrong feel free to correct me) I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' Why do I even try, why do I even write lyrics about how I'm livin' the life when I'm battlin' pain and my demons at night trying to find a new outlet the devil pounced in I hear him howlin' my vision cloudin' man I tried to escape but there ain't no way try to be strong when I deal with the pain yah, but I'm ditchin' the coffin so my family has options gonna work till I'm dead so that they get the best don't wanna set up a bad example 'cause kids lookin' up can't live with shambles can't let them think clockin' outs okay so fuck suicide I'm here to stay tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light I'll be at it runnin' I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'll be runnin' oh I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' one too many bad thoughts inside me got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed for time I'm stressed with life my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always barely stand to crawl down the hallways sink into my bed, with death inside my head That note you found, I didn't mean it just wish I had a better sense of meaning never meant to let you down I've been down and out erasing thoughts, I had to drown 'em out FUCK Never givin' in I swear to god no matter how many times I pray to a god that I don't believe in, just to see if I'll never wake up but he called my bluff tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light tried to free my mind I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light I'll be at it runnin' I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'll be runnin' oh I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin' *I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die* (distorted) *just wanna be able to close my eyes* *and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin'* *every day I feel like dyin'* If anyone has suicidal thoughts or if you just don't think that you're good enough, please call the suicidal prevention hotline like the song says, "fuck suicide I'm here to stay" everyone has a purpose and a place in life, bad things happen to everyone and we just gotta fight through it! 1-800-273-8255

[@nesss99]

Upvote

[@farhantariq12345]

pin this shit!

[@brandonmacintosh9698]

I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down, find my way out of the cell now Kinda sounds like this in the part where you put (IDK)

[@Zuignap]

I think "but he caught me bluff" should be "but he called my bluff" at (2:00)

[@chrissuper]

Brandon MacIntosh Yeah now I can hear it, I fixed it.

[@Bullmann55]

5 year anniversary and it still helps me cope

[@Simpson195]

I hate the fact KZbin has a warning when you play this song but this song is about NOT killing yourself.

[@someguyinthecomments370]

Showed this song to my teacher Now he's my therapist

[@Xiroh]

Some guy in the comments Relatable

[@tuc07770]

Some guy in the comments that’s a good one lol

[@leonung9789]

Some guy in the comments showed this to my girl just now. She probably gonna hug me and cry. Oops. But what can I say it’s a great song that I could relate to

[@leonung9789]

Go Lol who u talking to

[@leonung9789]

Go Lol he is probably young dude. My 5 year old brother watches stuff like that all the time. Y u gotta pick on him for the stuff he likes?

[@Maisxxn]

This song speaks to me on a personal level because being depressed without a reason can be worse than having a reason because then you’re constantly searching for that reason then you find more causes and more and more until your first memory then realise you don’t know then think you’re just a joke so I relate to this song on a personal level

[@twincardinal5649]

Its the worst being depressed for no reason cause there is no solution that is clear, just lean on family and friends, they help a lot, your not alone.

[@gracenolikeu9969]

I honestly feel the same way for a while I though if it was just wanting attention or something but I know that’s not me so idk i relate to this song to on a personal level and don’t talk about it with anyone to seem like it’s just for attention cause idek myself what is wrong

[@shawnpiercd5329]

#BillieEllie 😐 facts tho

[@mozard8304]

What

[@stefankriminskiy9977]

me too, i lost a game in league of legends

[@kalebcoco9066]

Ive never been the emo type but this shit actually makes me feel better when im depressed. I even have a fee songs like this that talk about my depression

[@kalebcoco9066]

Few*

[@cammmygaming1601]

Thanks you so much jake. Your music has helped me cope through it all

[@goranschkreblin8769]

When my mom asks me whats wrong i just say im tired because i dont have the heart to say the lady who gave me life that i dont want it nomore

[@sosiiaa6371]

Bro,you destroy my heart right now

[@ryahacorn806]

Goran Škreblin facts :(

[@daboiiz6266]

@@goranschkreblin8769 ik man just keep living it

[@kostass.1023]

same dude...we just waiting and waiting..but until when?

[@RogueWRLD999]

@@goranschkreblin8769 it is😖

[@PuffDaGoat]

_i just want a hug •~•_

[@vmc300]

Same

[@outis8159]

I know it doesn't mean a lot, but here's a spiritual hug (◍•ᴗ•◍)

[@hiddenkensho8780]

Puff -_- i just want this girl to love me the way i love her

[@lucky_luke20030]

Ghost hug, you cant feel it but it's there \^-^/

[@Internetuser435]

🤗 here

[@BrailleGamer04]

I can relate to this so much, when I was 16, I tried to overdose on pills and it didn't work. Even though I feel depressed every day, 'fuck suicide, I'm here to stay!' Thanks josh a.

[@LoveYallWithMyLife]

Dude I get it, I tried to OD when I was fucking 13. I discover his music about a week ago and I can't stop playing his music on repeat.

[@BrailleGamer04]

@@LoveYallWithMyLife nice bro!

[@LoveYallWithMyLife]

@@BrailleGamer04 Thanks dude, it takes skill to try and od 5 times in one week and then fake being okay in front of everyone.

[@BrailleGamer04]

@@LoveYallWithMyLife I know

[@BrailleGamer04]

@@LoveYallWithMyLife you ODd 5 times?🥲 Never forget that your life is important, I know what it’s like and I struggle with some mental issues it sucks bro. We are both just trying to hang in there.

[@iridescencenankurunaisa9473]

I listened to this song in 2019 it portrayed how I felt and now in 2021 I realize that I still feel that way

[@raemavl296]

Happiness has left the chat

[@NariNon]

Depression has joined the chat.

[@Inseptex]

Death has joined the chat

[@nooraiwa4]

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[@thesaucehub]

I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 1: Josh A] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pouncin' I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh) But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options Gotta work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok So f*ck suicide I'm here to stay [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (nah, man) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Chorus: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 2: Jake Hill] One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (f*ck) Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Bridge: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (nah, man) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Outro: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna f*cking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[@traveler9331]

DoughNut BoB thx

[@RobloxxMania]

Thanks. Now i can die in peace :(

[@Nova-hu7rt]

This song is me

[@mxths]

thanks

[@user-kn4xu7ds1w]

Thx♡

[@Luna_Lilith01]

Been listening to this banger since I was 13 and id listen and cry alone. and now I'm 21 and I still cry. I'm tired and although my life is different now, I still feel depressed even tho I'm on antidepressants and this crippling mental health issues keep racking up and I feel like I'm slowly going insane 🥲

[@espinoname2988]

I get you, I'm 25 and I've also had issues since 13. Although for me its improved between 15-19 and then started going worse and worse. I also sometimes feel like I'm slowly going crazy and get scared of myself. I hope that with time we can both get to feel better. I send you all my strength and best wishes. ❤💪🏻

[@BFGofficial2]

This song is a therapy for all of us.

[@itsyaboisoup4616]

2 years ago I was in high school I put this song on repeat because it represented how I felt. I was filled with depression and anxiety and it gotten so bad I resorted to drinking at school. I would’ve gotten kicked out if it weren’t for the personal issues I was dealing with at the time. But now I’m learning on how to control my anxiety and depression and how to live with it instead of being constantly haunted by it. If you’re ever going through anything just know you do have the strength to continue on and to never give up and Stay strong.

[@BaileesWRLD]

How are you doing now

[@joshuabatt137]

Hey dude are you okay

[@emilywilson1002]

I hope your doing better now friend.

[@stefhackgamatos5401]

Exactly

[@colorstorm4136]

Im in highschool too right now and i really feel this song. I have to do so many things that my life doesnt feel like its my life. I dont even know for what im alive

[@contractorhomes]

Showed this to my grades... They were an F and didnt change

[@m0thanimates]

They're paying their respects to this song. 👌

[@levantinedoomer2317]

@@m0thanimates comment of the year

[@tommyshelby8570]

@@m0thanimates Best comment ever

[@zeynepozcelik5544]

Same here 🙁

[@blacktotheblink9773]

@@zeynepozcelik5544 MEREBA

[@Knozo-it1uz]

"talk to someone today" hahahaa

[@Dudja]

Amazing song

[@lubomir8619]

its a shame that this guy and x will never collab, a big shame

[@d1rekt869]

thank you now im about to cry

[@corpseriot_]

Стильный паркер awww they would have been a good collaboration 😪

[@tillyrobyn5763]

Sean Sparandero you cant call all feminists fucking idiots because 20 or so women and some men said he beat his wife,feminists fight for equal rights,extreme feminists are the ones that take it too far

[@jacobbaldridge4451]

@Sean Sparandero he actually did beat his wife 😂

[@nothing.9484]

Ikr X'C

[@nohjjgghju7uyh]

Singer *kills them selves* Fans "i wish we knew 😭🤧" The singers songs

[@idkwhatmynameis7326]

lmao

[@cubanminions]

Theyre not wrong

[@sebastianstory-camp2166]

True

[@cringyrochie7157]

Yeah and it’s messed up.

[@cristianbarbu6347]

@@cringyrochie7157 nah it's just deep

[@YourBasicPatriot]

Man the old depressed days 😞 this song always has a spot In my hart, I was lucky enough to find happyness again unlike others.

[@zzzane_]

This is the most bold and fascinating song I heard in long time. Thank you guys!

[@TheVeryMrSirJosh]

Agree

[@HelpMe-pw8qu]

"I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but everyday I feel like dying, everyday I feel like dying..." I actually felt that.

[@MariaVasquez-ws3qp]

Help Me : same here to

[@GhostBouDB]

We’re with you on that one.

[@zxylon959]

Same dude

[@emilygyulumyan4373]

I lost my best friend, he's dead, i don't feel anything i don't want to live anymore, i haven't motivation i don't see something good in life

[@malikirose979]

normal people: "your fine, get over yourself, there is nothing wrong with you" me: your why i feel like this

[@tukii6159]

When Depression and Anxiety kick in the middle of class :)

[@yeah7174]

Exactly. :)

[@nicoteaco4812]

All the time

[@kevinharmse8656]

I hope you're better now

[@lickras]

@@kevinharmse8656 doesn't work like that

[@nicoteaco4812]

And then you cant get anything done and then the teacher sends you to the office and it gets worse

[@Xius_WoW]

Absolute banger of a song. Hits me on such an emotional level.

[@Jibbzz]

Whoa. Odd how this almost perfectly encapsulated my own struggle. The thoughts are there but the intent isn't, and lots of people I've opened up to don't understand the distinction. Accepting the feelings, moving past them, and fighting every damn day to escape the mire in our minds. Good lyrics and flow.

[@shaquiquijones2197]

This song hits different at full volume at 2 am

[@ZIADD]

Ikr

[@Femtanyls_biggest_fan]

Listening this at 4am rn

[@LadySasha2115]

listen to gucci coffin, u might like it

[@XILEAYY]

where i am rn

[@Satyammm247]

It is 4 :45 in India and I am listening it right now It gives me goosebumps

[@333doom]

90% of comments are: "Sad gang where you at?" and "I'm not sad I'm depressed." 10% of the comments are: "Great song"

[@guessimbishop9250]

Not even 10% tbh

[@333doom]

@@guessimbishop9250 yeah maybe 5%

[@pingupenguin1256]

Great song

[@slapstickcomedy7479]

And now it’s 0.01% of this kind of comment. Thank you for ruining perfect statistics.

[@djtv5770]

Related

[@juliawilkinson]

Great song that reflects so many people’s thoughts. I hope it gets more exposure!

[@reb287]

My comfort song I used to listen this nonstop 2020-2021 and now I'm not sayin that Im free from struggling with my mental health just not as bad as last year. Whoever is struggling with their mental health now I hope one day you will found your lost soul that you've been questioning if you had one.

[@crowsinaden742]

The saddest thing is... the entire new generation is depressed but the past generation doesn't understand

[@user-qr2us8ib2g]

yeah, no, thats bullshit

[@THATONEM1N3CR4FT3R]

lol no

[@THATONEM1N3CR4FT3R]

@I like 2K sounds like depression to me

[@newb2676]

@I like 2K No, many of kids, especially ones my age, romanticize things like depression and so therefore a great many are in this romanticized depression than a real depression. I hear "oh I'm so depressed" all the time though they seem perfectly fine and content with themselves.

[@yourlocalstinkbug1145]

I was lucky my dad had severe depression and took meds for it so he took my depression and anxiety very seriously

[@null8319]

"Just wanna be able to close my eyes and just feel alright"

[@bigboy5393]

Fuck off

[@si3190]

Fuck off

[@user-yq9vf2gx2s]

Bo Clowes a wot

[@user-yq9vf2gx2s]

NoFoxsGiven a wot

[@noRanchnoService]

Does anyone ever feel empty, invisible, or just existing?

[@Fun-and-new-with-summer]

Me

[@raiohofficialtt]

Heard this song for the 1st time on this day, and I have it on repeat. I love this song.

[@HelloImPhaze]

Everyday I feel like dying very very true

[@KingofFray]

Hang in there

[@ripvanwinkle6832]

Same here

[@bobthe7thh]

@@RiqzaR your nice

[@RiqzaR]

@@bobthe7thh I appreciate that brot....

[@fahalo5688]

Dude if you actually feel suicidal please call 1-800-273

[@blissconnect_]

[Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Josh A:] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pounced in I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (Yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options Gonna work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok So fuck suicide I'm here to stay Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (Nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck) Never giving in I swear to God, no matter how many times I pray to a God I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Josh A:] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (Nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Jake Hill:] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[@TwisteRpubg]

Thanks❤️❤️❤️

[@sasainyourarea2336]

thx 🖤

[@itz_elliroblox7383]

Dang good work!

[@itz_elliroblox7383]

@@Man-rx8ci lol I know I mean what the song says is how I feel

[@misce_]

Thank you for this

[@alexandermendoza393]

Every day I feel like dying

[@HaloReachWS]

Still coming back to this. Yall deserve the best Josh and Jake

[@engineer2323]

00:13 her defasında ''Anasını satayım'' diyecek sanıyorum

[@user-sp9nq8of1d]

LOL

[@selencivelek663]

Artık şarkıyı normal bir biçimde algılayamıyorum çok sağol

[@engineer2323]

@@selencivelek663 geçmiş olsun sjshhs

[@kaangirgin3443]

@@engineer2323 ya akdlsjşflslfşf kafayı yicem virüs bulaştırdın resmen

[@anarchyinthemonarchy928]

AHAHHAHAJD

[@camillerivas5955]

I'm not scared of death I've already lived longer than I expected

[@cxnsist5314]

Are you ok?? Do you need some one to talk to?

[@kslitz-2609]

Are you okay?

[@HDelirousToonz]

Same

[@spectregaming3537]

Same

[@hel2727]

@Paul Android Games there's nothing wrong with him.

[@deanjbwinchester2995]

Haven't heard this song since 2019. it used to be my favorite Jh and Ja song and it brings a lot of memories. Forever a masterpiece

[@xjsmykxx_1240]

[Hook: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 1: Josh A] Why do I even try? Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pounced in I hear him howling, my vision clouded Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options Gonna work till' I'm dead So that they get the best Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok So fuck suicide I'm here to stay [Chorus: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Hook: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) [Verse 2: Jake Hill] One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always Barely standing, crawling down the hallways Sink into my bed, with death inside my head (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck) Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up But he called my bluff [Chorus: Josh A] Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light Try to free my mind I don't know what's right Wasting all my time, trying to find the light (nah, nah) I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now [Outro: Jake Hill] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...) (Muffled) I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But every day I feel like dying Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[@horfallwest1865]

Thank you

[@zashinunes8191]

Up

[@quelquunquelquepart2845]

Thx a lot, for a french guy it's not easy to follow him ! 😅

[@quelquunquelquepart2845]

(I don't even know if my sentence make sense... And same for this one... Yeah, french people are fuckingly bad in English...)

[@takumi6216]

Quelqu'un quelque part effectivement ptdr , Même si mon niveau en anglais et quand même pas mal pour une jeune fille de 12 ans , j’ai du mal à entendre dans les musiques ou le son passe avant les vocalises si tu vois ce que je veux dire xD

[@no-mk1yc]

I'm not usually a fan of rap but this is really fuckin good

[@derqu6463]

+1

[@raediostatic7597]

no saame

[@stephenfitzsimmons1752]

Lol same

[@anniethepiggie]

no.

[@prodbywolfcanyon1119]

same dude

[@ivcorporation]

Cómo es que Josh y Jake no están nominados a premios por mejores canciones y mejor letra ? La verdad está canción es increíble 🔥🔥

[@rayannathomas1]

This song always makes me cry. One of those songs that is overwhelmingly accurate.

[@crowofjudgement8810]

This song is aggressively telling me that everything will be ok... And I'm completely ok with that, be safe everyone you'll be ok no matter how hard life may seem stay strong 🙏

[@zyrexnotpyrex3205]

No :(

[@Br34dL04f]

Sadly, my hope died. Only thing left to me is my internet friends. Only people who supports me without saying "It's your fault", "You are annoying", "If you are that emotional then you have to be in mental hospital" like my family doing.

[@gerardwayseyelash]

@@Br34dL04f Are you doing okay?

[@Br34dL04f]

@@gerardwayseyelash Not really. I want to die for months and having panic attacks about death at the same time. Im getting annoyed by everything and feel like soon I gonna cut my veins even more.

[@johnthicc865]

@@Br34dL04f bro I went through this I cut my veins too but just trust me there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. I know it's very hard cuz I know how it feels but just... Believe in yourself and you will make it through ❤️

[@00au]

im not suicidal, i dont wanna fuckin die! my fav line..

[@muldanrahmat8832]

I'm Suicidal I Want Fuckin Died My Fav Line

[@ritz2704]

@@muldanrahmat8832 same

[@muldanrahmat8832]

@@ritz2704 Sorry To Hear That Man It Be Like That Sometimes

[@shannonlunn878]

I love that this now has the number for the good samaritans, youtube is aware enough of who is listening to know we ain't alright

[@TheQuietKidsBackpack]

Been 2 years since I last listened to this Life comes full circle

[@jennadurbin3538]

"But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options. Gotta work till I'm dead, so that they get the best."

[@SaiTheForgotten]

Meirl and probs us irl

[@Venlysi]

no its “put a bitch in a coffin”

[@kashootmyself9799]

i like how this is the guy who made an outro for PewDiePie

[@Venlysi]

kashoot myself ikr

[@thecoolkar]

kashoot myself for real?

[@gae1_b724]

And tobyonthetele

[@bryceh2163]

I only like the comment because kashoot is funny

[@dog_on_chair]

u_don't_ _need_my_name ayy someone else knows lol

[@machinegunc1325]

Man I felt like ending it at night a few nights ago for the first time ever. I was crying for 30 minutes. But I got my way out. I feel better now. This hits home

[@RebelsRemain]

This song hits hard depending on what you're going through. Personally, the only thing that keeping me going is I want to see how my life turns out. I'm at another hard point in life, but I want to keep going. The harder I fight though it seems pointless, I'm dying inside.

[@atlasrx2541]

This passed year has tried me harder than ever. I’m in the same boat. I know there is bigger things in my future but Jesus the pain inside doesn’t go away. Your not alone. Stay strong friend keep pushing.

[@helloworld4896]

*Depression has left the chat* *wait...nevermind.*

[@leahparker4607]

Hello World happiness has left the chat Love is disconnected error 404

[@KingofFray]

Monika.chr has joined the chat

[@bdhshstuff9700]

Yes it has and dont let is back in let happyniss back in

[@redzclan8429]

Lol what I literally think

[@tits4606]

*don’t keep it in*

[@rileylena9350]

I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna F%#$ die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright.. Dangg that hit hardd

[@johnsondasia7136]

It got me everytime

[@MrcrispyYT]

It hit harder then my dads belt 🤣

[@rileylena9350]

Mrcrispy bruh haha

[@MrcrispyYT]

🤣sorry was that too much

[@rileylena9350]

Mrcrispy nah it was funny dw 😂😂

[@Mayhem_Is_Dead]

I still listen to this song on repeat sometimes. ❤

[@benoktay6756]

The first times that ı listened this song was so bad . I was thinhink things never be good , problems would never be solved, ı wıll never be happy but now, ı realised that ı was wrong ı learned how life works ı saw the Real faces of peoples and it really hurt me, no matter how much it hurt me the important thing is that get up stronger every moment you hurt. The last thing i Want to say is that, never lose your hope ✨

[@quickerblazelol4367]

I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying Why do I even try Why do I even write lyrics about how I’m living the life When I’m battling pain and my demons at night Trying to find a new outlet The devil pouncing I here him howling My vision clouding Man I try to escape but there aint no way Try to be strong when I deal with the pain Yah But I’m ditching the coffin So my family has options Gonna work till I’m dead So that they get the best Don’t wanna set up a bad example Cause kids looking up can’t leave in shambles Can’t make them think clocking out is ok So f*ck suicide I’m here to stay Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light All be out here running All be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now All be running now All be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying One too many bad thoughts inside me Got a hole in my heart Put the past behind me I’m pressed for time I’m stressed with life My breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more Just like always Barely stand I crawl down the hallway Sink into my bed with death inside my head That note you found I didn’t mean it Just wish I had a better sense of meaning Never meant to let you down I’ve been down and out Racing thoughts I had to drown them out F*ck Never giving in I swear to god no matter how many times I pray to a god I don’t believe in Just to see if i would never wake up But he called my bluff Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light Try to free my mind I don’t know what’s right Wasting all my time Trying to find a light No, no I’ll be out here running I’ll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’ll be running now I’ll be running from myself now Gunning demons down Find my way out of this hell now I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying (I’m not suicidal I don’t wanna f*cking die I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright But everyday I feel like dying Everyday I feel like dying)

[@00anemia]

wow nc

[@Gracie_3271]

Thank you , that’s some long lyrics lol

[@quickerblazelol4367]

Mermaid Elizabeth look at the song Suicide Forest and go down and you’ll see other lyrics I put there :)

[@leondrelul]

youre a god

[@quickerblazelol4367]

TweaZy why thank you

[@degre_5261]

I bought the album... if anyone has second thoughts... BUY IT

[@zerowolfblade]

Brayden Degre it's not on Google play store so I can't buy it. Like come on that's garbage

[@degre_5261]

Zero Wolfblade that fucking sucks

[@iamactuallyjakehill]

Zero Wolfblade It will be soon. I set the release date way too early which means it probably won’t hit every store at the exact same time. Give it a few more days

[@Luis-ym9or]

Zero Wolfblade spotify

[@bulten5275]

Brayden Degre don’t you have apple music? All music there is free.

[@Zeptix_.]

"Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright" I felt that you're not alone man

[@johnjustus8128]

this will always be my favorite song by him tied with hiding in the dark matches be all the way through

[@krypticghxstgaming]

Me: *searches song KZbin: Ummmm you can call this number btw for help me:Yea im good...

[@ivygay1003able]

I get so damn mad when I search up stuff about overdose or songs about suicide and it's only stuff to get help. Like if I wanted help I WOULD'VE ASKED FOR IT. damn.

[@krypticghxstgaming]

X.tremely Bittersweet EXACTLY

[@kodavaldez2209]

I agree with you guys

[@pollyl-dko5180]

bruh same

[@IronIsKing]

@@ivygay1003able Not true, many suicidal people don't have the chance to ask. People that will potentially end their life are higher priority than you for searching for a song.