Jaymes Young - I'll Be Good [Official Video]

Jaymes Young - I'll Be Good [Official Video]
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[@lydiacamurati4145]

"I've been cold, I've been merciless But the blood on my hands scares me to death" Damn that's deep

[@vaibhavnaudiyal3264]

Exactly!

[@jatinsharma2839]

No it is not. Stop quoting random lyrics and acting so high all mighty.

[@Sarah-fc6dj]

Jatin Sharma what you so pressed for damn lmao let people quote lyrics that means something to them.

[@gachafall3186]

Somebody will put you on r/iam14andthisisdeep and that isn't gonna be me

[@ri-ri6202]

@Jatin Sharma- yo-let people state whatever the hell they want! What the hell has it got to do with you?!

[@shreksballs]

i want to give this comment section a big hug

[@gabriella86112]

yes your comment hitting different 🥺

[@ri-ri6202]

@yes- *hugs back* thank chu UwU

[@Jin-ii3wm]

Virtual hugs my guy:)

[@aixra]

huggggg

[@irenetyler5773]

Seriously, why can't the real world be as kind as this comment section? Virtual hugs to you!

[@RukiaSailormoon]

I'm 5 years clean as of yestrerday, it's fucking wild. Especially when I still get That Urge to do what I once did. I worked hard and I'm better now, but the thought is still there. I hope I never give in.

[@Couchpotaytoooo]

Are you fighting an addiction?

[@rawanalawadi3019]

Yesss I'm so proud of you ,please keep trying no matter what!

[@laligarcia19]

Please don’t give in

[@arianawaves1126]

Practically Satan congrats on five years

[@ev9168]

Im so proud of you! Keep fighting 💞

[@katakl1sma671]

I'm leaving this comment here, so everytime someone likes it, I will remember to listen, sing, play this masterpiece again. It talks directly to many people, describes their lives.

[@katakl1sma671]

I always wanted to write this, since some years ago I listen to this song for the first time.

[@zeetech0123]

Here's your reminder then haha

[@yz478]

There you go

[@hardikrai7939]

I find this song I forgot this song how

[@Repn617]

🔥🫶🏼Listen. Again. Do it. Right Now. 🫶🏼🔥

[@sapphireous1083]

This has become the national anthem of all the *'villains' who never asked to be*

[@sarylarogers4322]

Ever think heroes don't want to be heroes?

[@monowersadaf]

bruh....

[@vinalycent]

Draco malfoy, cheryl blossom, severus snape, Dabi and !!!! many others!!!! who didnt deserve what they got edit: i put the people I thought of off the top of my head, stop replying to me telling me about a bunch of villains, it's been a year I don't fucking care.

[@flameaker66]

For me, it just helps me to not off myself. So I listen to it often

[@kamuiyato]

@@vinalycent Sirius Black

[@corypeters3676]

One Whole Year Clean Today From Heroin I'll be good. for all the times i never could. I had to loose myself completely to find myself.

[@sarahjones4623]

Cory Peters keep going down the road of sobriety. It’s dark sometimes but it definitely gets better ❤️

[@dudeno5811]

I'm so fucking proud of you. Keep going even when times get hard.

[@jazz_intown4723]

I hope you are better now! Keep going! ❤️

[@jessirose]

Hope you're doing better. If not, it's okay, there's still time to come back and be better

[@Z.h.S.B.]

I hope you are doing well now 💙 💜

[@superiorhart]

I’LL BE GOOD LYRICS [Verse 1] I thought I saw the devil this morning Looking in the mirror Drop of rum on my tongue with a warning To help me see myself clearer [Pre-Chorus] I never meant to start a fire I never meant to make you bleed I'll be a better man today [Chorus] I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world like I should I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times that I never could [Verse 2] My past has tasted bitter for years now so I wield an iron fist Grace is just weakness, or so I've been told I've been cold, I've been merciless [Pre-Chorus] But the blood on my hands scares me to death Maybe I'm waking up today [Chorus] I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world like I should I'll be good, I'll be good (I'll be good, I'll be good) [Bridge] For all of the light that I shut out For all of the innocent things that I doubt For all of the bruises I've caused and the tears For all of the things that I've done All these years, no, yeah For all of the sparks that I stomped out For all of the perfect things that I doubt [Chorus] I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world like I should yeah I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times I never could For all of the times I never could

[@Franciscomeirajr]

I scrolled way too deep to find this. Thank you.

[@Vinnisamurai]

Thank you

[@aaryan09huss62]

Thank you you have helped me become a worse human

[@mary-bellvazquez2143]

Thank you dear strange 💖😊

[@DoDo-xv3xc]

Tysmm 💖

[@Lucacide]

"I never meant to start a fire, i never meant to make you bleed", The revelation that he is wiping the blood from his own nose and not somebody elses shows we need to be good to ourselves and not just others. Take time to listen to your inner voice, no matter how quiet. It will never lie and always tell you why you are feeling what you do, It is our responsibility to act positively to improve the inner self's happiness and safety. We can sometimes be self destructive, when things are going well, to fit in or even to spite others we may put ourselves in comprimising situations that we later have to discuss with ourselves. May you open the door to communicate with yourself and hear what it means, try to permit yourself to feel things and hold back judgement of 'what SHOULD be' and work with 'what is'.

[@Silvery_jade]

I'd never taught about it... Its the first time I've watched the MV, I always assumed he meant he was sorry for hurting those around him, not that he was hurting himself.... I think I have to treat myself a bit better, thank you for making me realize it, random person on the internet.

[@andrewvanderschaaf2967]

Every once in a while I come across a song that speaks to me directly. This is one of them.

[@markgraham7464]

So your someone who most likely was an abusive boyfriend?(guessing from the video)

[@gamer69lmao25]

Gh0sty Things you're a idiot he's saying that this song has a meaning ..... the fuck not an abusive boyfriend fucking dumb ass

[@timkowal6484]

Kyle Schawingen you tell them buddy thumbs up to you

[@gamer69lmao25]

Tim Kowal lmao thanks XDDD

[@markgraham7464]

Kyle Schawingen no need to be rude it's just this video portrays a (likely abusive) relationship. And if you say that relationship is just like your life is just a little fucked

[@nathanbutler695]

My girlfriend had broken up with me and this was the first song I heard after it happened and I realized that I was a terrible boyfriend and that she should have left a long time ago, so now I'm working on being a better person

[@katiekitchens1092]

Props to you for being one of a kind and admitting you were wrong. Most people would just automatically blame the other. Hope your journey goes well in becoming a better person!

[@shaunmcginnis2401]

We all learn from our past mistakes as long as we readily admit we were wrong, I've done shitty things too and I work on bettering my self everyday but there is one thing i dont know if it was a mistake or not, good jod realizing your mistakes too

[@danieldevera4122]

We all learn brother, imperfections can make us do anything and better. Be strong and keep moving forward.

[@Jane-gw5kk]

Wow kudos to you for owning up when you could've easily blamed her.

[@kurokkkki7316]

good luck! :D

[@menngi]

Don´t worry, we're all human, we all make mistakes. You are not your past, you've grown so much and I want you to know that I'm very proud of the person you've become. Never doubt your worthiness because you are worthy of love, you deserve all the best. Please stay strong, it'll all be ok.

[@DGHeina]

Whoever you are, I love you. So much.

[@deltamisfit3677]

And if I have become a murderer?

[@allynyusuentan6560]

your words was exactly what i needed to hear. thank you so much it helps me alot. im struggling from regrets and mistakes that i maade from the past and i just can't stop thinking about it and blaming myself so hard. hope i can get out of this cycle one day.

[@menngi]

@@deltamisfit3677 A bad action does not imply that you're a bad person. In my opinion, there's always time to repent and grow from what you did no matter what situation that is. You will always be worthy of love and respect as long as you're able to show emotion and have empathy towards others. I believe that a person who commits murder might've lost it at some point, but that doesn't necessarily mean they aren't able to recognise what they've done and then grow from it and rebuild that empathy to become someone better. No one's story is the same, we should accept ours and let the actions we had in the past become part of it. But never let it consumme you, because, no matter what, you're not your actions. Everyone deserves a second chance, I repeat, at the end of the day, you're just a human who is learning to be a better version of themself everyday.

[@menngi]

@@DGHeina I hope you're doing well, sending lots of love

[@StZero7]

It's 2021 and I'm still playing this song. It's never too late to be good.

[@grassblock7668]

Same

[@Jairopique4]

Same 2022

[@mariaa5748]

Still here in 2022.. almost 2023 tho😕

[@haidengeary8277]

@@mariaa5748 5/30/2023

[@justlife7112]

2023!

[@emmaswan4673]

I want others to see how amazing Jaymes Young is but at the same time I want him to be my little secret. ;A;

[@runnyeggs1507]

you put it into words!

[@emmaswan4673]

Nidhi Nair It's so frustrating, Im tempted to show if to my friends and help him get more fans but I don't want anybody else to know about him!

[@Ana-if3mt]

+Emma Swan i feel you

[@donaldojauregui7613]

same..

[@d7oo435]

+Emma Swan First thing i did after i enjoy listening to the song is share the vid as respect for his work he Deserve it

[@-change-6820]

someone will find this comment one day until then, and even after, i love you stay strong

[@salomevermeersch8010]

Thank you

[@salomevermeersch8010]

Love you too

[@DumKump]

"Until then" ? so once someone finds your comment you stop loving? ;-;

[@-change-6820]

@@DumKump no ahh thats not what i meant... and holy jesus so many likes

[@salomevermeersch8010]

@@DumKump Maybe, maybe not

[@onshou]

This song was my company on my dark years. It was posted on my 14th birthday. Here i turned 20 last night and i healed ❤ so for all my fellas out there that are feeling helpless. You're gonna make it ❤ i love you!

[@gikukoshy]

stay blessed 🙌

[@onshou]

@@gikukoshy thank you🤍!

[@carlyforev]

Hope your doing well

[@pxrevoid6065]

Is this just me that can’t hear this without thinking about Draco Malfoy edits

[@coralie7460]

No me too!

[@pxrevoid6065]

Mallory Moore malfoy from Harry potter

[@ishaa.x23]

Mallory Moore did you never watch Harry Potter?

[@gracemacf2173]

pxrevoid thank you! I’m not alone

[@sofiachaves7725]

Hell yes???

[@misterspace374]

2020 Despite COVID-19 Is someone still listening to this song?. Keep Safe everyone

[@charliethechandelure]

Well I have Coronavirus but i'm ok (Don't worry everything is ok and I'm not at the hospital ) And this song is beautiful UwU

[@denisesutton3432]

Dabi Todoroki I hope you get better always stay strong

[@bethaneyroberson9470]

yup

[@oz340]

I am Jessie yes and this song is so beautifull

[@user-lw4fe5ft2x]

Heck yes

[@dragonlorddl982]

You can feel the pain and self-loathing in his voice it's painful and beautiful at the same time

[@marina4629]

Fr ❤

[@cornbread6947]

I just wanna hug everyone who reads this ngl🥺... I’m depressed af💔

[@warizojo3326]

Man it'd be fine You got this💪🏼💪🏼

[@nazalsalam6678]

Stay strong U got this 💪 This too shall pass

[@weatherfordja]

15 years ago, I found myself broken, suicidal, strung out, unemployed, and living in an abandoned house. I quite literally found the end of myself. I cried out to Jesus and in a single, radical moment, I was absolutely transformed FOREVER. This song reminds me of that once broken man that I was from drugs and alcohol but the fact that grace changes EVERYTHING. I'm nobody from nowhere with the same story as a billion other people. Thank you, Jesus, you found me. Today, I'm drug and alcohol free, no depression, no suicidal thoughts, no more medication or therapy, two master's degrees, and a beautiful wife and two kids. I don't know about "I'll be good," as I put all my faith and trust in the only one who could ever truly be called "good" -- JESUS. Ok, I'll get off my soapbox. This song just really hits for me. Bless you all.

[@larrytomlinson8134]

I am a French teenager and I am 16 years old. I discovered religion during the time of solitude due to Covid-19 (March). Thank you Jesus for loving me and blessing me, thank you, ho lord! Thank you sir for your touching story, I wish you love and happiness to you, your family and friends, Amen French : Jesus Merci monsieur pour votre histoire touchante, je vous souhaite amour et bonheur à vous, votre famille et vos amis, Amen

[@tiffanypersaud3518]

Thanks for sharing. I am happy that you were able to come from that to a far better place with yourself now.

[@BaldrIsDik]

[@krisweinberger6052]

Praise the Lord! He changes everything. For all of us!

[@whiteflag1000]

Jesus is the Coolest!

[@nyjahking9583]

Dear Me, I'm sorry I didn't protect you. I'm sorry you went through that. I'm sorry I made you face it alone. I'm sorry that I made it your burden and didn't let you reach out. You deserved so much better. I deserve better.

[@casaelowens1928]

I'm proud of you. You aren't alone. You are loved. You are worthy. You are strong.

[@seraben7100]

Thanks for both these comments

[@markevent9852]

This was how I was feeling since I started that relationship , we broke up this Friday please someone help me

[@niveditaghosh7182]

I am so proud of you❤

[@lorinclark2618]

Makes me wanna cry

[@Alessandra-jx4ys]

This song makes me feel so vulnerable and alive at the same time

[@carmenbonalde6489]

Alessandra literally me

[@kayleighgriva4817]

This is a beautiful comment. Just saying.

[@christinarenee8076]

I’ve been trying to put it in words. Thank you.

[@singwisevocals]

I think it's our vulnerability that makes us feel alive.

[@AYDiNHAKSEVER]

It's brilliant

[@helenethielemann8452]

This song is perfect for Zuko from Avatar

[@lordmoldybutt1260]

I'm rewatching that rn lmao

[@klaparooni]

Facts bro

[@camerons_falling]

"I never meant to start a fire" ikr

[@tikihead]

@@lordmoldybutt1260 Same! It's literally on my tv rn. Crazy

[@wjaneap]

Truee

[@1DeadMurphy]

For years i was a bad man. A liar, a cheat, a bastard, an asshole. I was the villain of my own story, and countless others in the past. I got clean from the dope and tbe booze 17 years ago and have been trying my hardest to be a better man than i was yesterday's... this song... this song... is a monumental testemant to then and now... Ill be good... for all of the times i never could....

[@Nyxisdangerous]

This song means so much to me. I seriously didnt know how much a song could affect me until I found this song. Thanks Jaymes.

[@fairycub5733]

H0lly P00le i hope you are okay💕 can you please help me ? Im translating this song into my language but i cant understand some parts of it. Im struggling with this part "Yeah, for all of the sparks that I stomped out" can you please tell me what he means? I cant figure it out. What's stomping out mean? Im not fluent in English

[@Nyxisdangerous]

SUN 90 For sure! Theres no eaxact meaning put out but what I and most people are getting from that is this: When he says sparks I've stomped out he's refering to the action of putting out a fire. This means to me that the fire represents something good and he's ruined it.

[@fairycub5733]

H0lly P00le thank youuuuu 😭💜💜💜💜 ly

[@Nyxisdangerous]

SUN 90 Of course glad I could help! 💞

[@feenoyen5857]

almost 1,000 likes

[@fawzeabdelftah380]

Underrated.

[@Scxteen]

4 million views

[@haruigarashi8888]

+Terrence Smith yup

[@asdfasdfasdfasfdsaasf]

+Terrence Smith some really ass songs get hundred times that.

[@najmiahjusoh9557]

Jy

[@bullerballer520]

KIRA!!

[@briannarosario9075]

I’m such a bad person. I think I’m always right and am such a annoying bad friend. It sucks it really does. I try so hard but I just end up disappointing everyone. Why can’t I just be good

[@apecello4475]

You're a human, it's okay we all got our faults and flaws. Either you find people who will accept you as you're or yourself or change the way you live your life

[@vokvok2805]

If you could write this, you're already better

[@zyloh5273]

let me just say this this song, is hands down a fucking masterpiece.

[@Snowapplyby]

I accidentally downvoted trying to hit read more, apologies.

[@marina4629]

It is❤❤

[@ghozter1]

Since the day I discovered Jaymes Young's music, it has help me to get through some rough stuff.. I'm not anywhere near to complain' about my life because there's a lot of other people who are going through inexplicable things but still; I thank God for giving me the chance to live another day and ofc I also thank him for giving me such a good taste in music.

[@071ISDOPE88]

ghozter1 sayin you can´t be sad cause other people have it harder, is like saying you can´t be happy cause others have it better

[@ghozter1]

071ISDOPE88 It might've sounded like that but what I meant is that sometimes we worry about meaningless stuff.. but that's without saying that every person has gone through different things and such

[@bigdumbandkindascared5181]

ghozter1 I have cystic fibrosis and I suffer from depression, and a life expectancy of 50 at best, my best friend is socially insecure and worries about how she looks even though everyone she cares about knows she's gorgeous, her sadness is no less than mine, and mine is no greater than hers, it's alright to complain, it's alright to accept your sadness, everyone has their story, and everyone has their experiences, that's how we grow and learn what we are capable of handling, hang in their buddy, there's always an upside

[@ghozter1]

Brandon summerlin thanks, and I'm sorry to hear that I really hope that one day you guys overcome your illness.. meh my life is not bad like at all but sometimes I get sad over stupid things; but at the same time it helps me alot in a way I can define what's good and bad for me, "I'm sad not because I miss but because it's hard to forget"

[@bigdumbandkindascared5181]

Well honestly the illness doesn't feel like a big deal at this point, and like you said, people out there are going through worse, but sometimes it's the little things that get you down, don't ever feel bad about that, and memories are sometimes a difficult thing to get past, hope you're doing alright

[@jmhknl]

Every time we hurt someone we break our heart a little too, we just don't see it until we're alone and broken cause someone hurt us, then we remember everything we did and want to take it back but we can't. That's why this song matters. To remind us to be good every day and not to make mistakes for which we'll later grieve.

[@smilemoore]

SO TRUE!!!! Exceptionally well said.

[@smilemoore]

@@jmhknl 💞 It's ok 😁

[@vererinvererin535]

at age 59, it sucks to be me. Just released based on my expertise with advising the miserable and saving the innocent. Released, you can put a ribbon around my misery, i can walk away, untie it and you have done nothing for me..leave me be to the earth.

[@Ayoddp]

Lamija ❤️💜❤️❤️💜❤️💜❤️❤️💜❤️

[@yoonjicheonjae]

That's what i am thinking! You wrote this passage like looking my feeling....

[@RdBlyth3]

This song is too good for a person like me. I wish I could say,"I'll be good" but when your eyes is open to truth, even the devil looks like an angel.

[@Godisfirst21]

You have lots of good in you Darling. Don't doubt that.

[@thecommentator7017]

This song is dedicated to those people who are in need of a second chance in life

[@lovealways6597]

I cry every time I listen to this song tbh because it makes me think about all the things that I have done wrong over my life

[@MaximKramerXiMaTi]

Same here :/

[@elonaymond9004]

that's all in the past my dears

[@myja100]

Lucifer's Wolf

[@henrywestwood5661]

It makes me see the bigger picture, allowing me to discover more things about how i can make mine and other people's live better as an influencer...

[@leighakelly2760]

your past does not define you remember that! stay strong girls and boys

[@Godofwar555]

1 month ago I almost killed myself... Stupidly I might add. I spent a few days in a psych ward for people who aren't right. After I got released this was the first Jaymes Young song I heard... So now I have these lyrics tatooed on me. Between the army, my divorce, and my kids hating me I just got tired, but this time... I'll be good.

[@dxdyx8251]

Hey,, just wanna say you are strong.. You'll be good... You aree good... Love from indonesia ❤

[@capnovna]

who knew how much one simple comment could inspire you. thank you for sharing

[@philiproseakacrazybro]

If you attempt suicide, and it doesn't work, just means that's not how your supposed to go, I have a feeling you will be surrounded by all those you love when you pass on into the next life.

[@love_lauren]

Stay strong. ❤💪

[@saadaks5606]

stay strong, and I think you are strong to bare with all of that. I hope you're doing good.

[@yellowlamp4183]

I have no words to describe this song. I cannot describe the feeling it unlocks for me. Literal chills every single time I listen to it. I’m currently in the phase of my life where I think I realized there’s something wrong with the way I’m living. I spend my days in negativity and suicidal thoughts. They started as jokes. But they aren’t. I would never have the guts to actually do it because I’m such a fucking sucker to anyone. I spend my days trying to please everyone else, when I should be happy with myself first. How can I help anyone if I can’t even help myself? I know my faults, i know there are many more, but I know. But they effect me. And I spend almost every conversation I have and action I take into consideration of what type of person I am. What type of person I want to be. I don’t want to care about everyone else’s thoughts on me. I don’t want to judge people so often. I don’t want to think about death so often. I don’t want to get headaches from over thinking so much. I don’t want to spend every second of my life contemplating and calculating my actions. I want to be happy. I want to be positive. Humble, compassionate, confident, agreeable, healthy. Hell I want to be an actor one day. I want to be confident and dramatic in the best way possible surrounded by good people. But I’m not that way and the only way I can be is if I change. And I need to learn there’s nothing wrong with change. I need to learn that I can be who I want to be. None of us will ever achieve our dreams if we’re all unhappy or dead. So keep fighting because one day we will get there.

[@wearenotdoinggethelp1077]

Yes. You're right. Change isn't easy but it can help... Sometimes I think, that you don't need to know how you are, or how you want to be. It's more about feeling the life with every inch of your body. I really hope, you'll get happy, fellow stranger. Stay save out there.

[@pencilknight8606]

Hope you'll make yourself who you want to be, your comment hit me deeply...Stay strong💪

[@jamie1249]

Please take it from someone who only lived for others. Life still isn't the best but it's better now that I do things for myself, I do things that bring me joy and bring positivity into my life even if I need to say no to someone. Even if its 1 small thing a day or week, do something for just you, it helps

[@pauldaniel2195]

I hope you are doing okay now !!

[@AnEvolvingApe]

"Maybe I'm waking up today" the key phrase from the song

[@Brazzbalzk]

If this guy actually means what he sings about, may the lord protect him.

[@biff1177]

Why is no one talking about how beautiful the woman is?! She's fucking gorgeous!!

[@Grizzleface]

I think it's because she's bruised battered and bandanged up. The last thing you want to say to a woman who's taken a severe beating is "you look great love"

[@Vangal]

x2

[@elinajoy5535]

Meow Meow I think she's beautiful

[@gsammp]

bc the man is more

[@mimiluvya07]

she is perfect

[@funnyshit415]

wow that woman is so beautiful, the freckles on her face are so pretty

[@catto6112]

seriuosly wear a glasses

[@cutejuju10011]

+estrius brad rude af.

[@MelodyAndersoneja22]

+estrius brad seriously, go back to school.

[@a.j.795]

+estrius brad immature.

[@catto6112]

yea many reply

[@bebbz72]

I used to avoid people and push everyone away until I met him, he was the person who got me to feel more confident and open up. The first time we ever spent time together was at the mall, and I still have the picture he took of me. It was the first time I really smiled and I havent smiled like that since. We still talk but not like we used to, we split up a week before our 7 month, where i planned and still did bake his favorite cake. I miss him, quite alot.

[@karab.3719]

Who’s listening to this in 2021

[@faye_isc]

here here

[@nesscole8253]

2024

[@Witchyrose2349]

Dear me, I'm sorry for hurting you so much I have no idea why I'm doing like this Because it's not your fault For what the world has done to you But I have no idea how to love I have no idea how to treat myself good No one ever teached me I was living from the lies of the past Please forgive me for being like this I hope that I will make you proud one day That you will not depend your happiness on others But that you will only do it by yourself I want you to look up at yourself Be your own example of how it should be You know better then anyone what you deserve Wake up my dear and step out of this spiritual prison Because you deserve to live With love, (Your future) Me. -Indy RA

[@marifofix1234]

This was so beautiful .... I cried :/

[@soundmellifluous6654]

I love your words. They touched me.

[@Sofia-ic8vf]

Yes

[@osirissimmons8626]

This is so beautiful and real

[@tamah2026]

I am facing something similar and I can't really explain it but I cried reading this. I don't know you but I just want you to know that you are loved and is worthy of love 💜

[@Espeonchan]

Jaymes Young never disappoints

[@jaqenhghar3395]

ever disappoint

[@lunareclipse021]

Whenever my life turns into a mess ı come here and listen this.

[@lovelyash2566]

Just listening to this song it just reminds about how lonely I am. It makes me feel sad even if I have no reason to feel this way. I’m smart. I have no family problems and I haven’t lost too many close relatives yet. My family is on the richer side. We’ve never had to worry about money. Why should I feel sad?! My life is amazing, why in the world do I want to end it?! I guess I’ve finally realized why. My mental health is far from perfect. What’s on the inside matters more then what’s on the outside. No one knows what goes on in my head, how I’m scared to close my bedroom window. I was told it’s just a “phase.” It ISNT a phase. It’s insecurity. That isn’t the only problem I have, I also suffer from social anxiety and depression. Social anxiety never got in the way until I was in 5th grade. I was scared to talk to anyone. Scared of what they would think of me. I’m even too scared to talk to family. I can’t control it, I wish I could. I wish I didn’t have to think about what I would say a minute before I had to say it. Social anxiety gets in the way with so much more then I can express. In the end, I still suffer from depression, insecurity, social anxiety, anxiety itself, and just life itself. Ive stared down from tops building whenever I get the chance. In the end, I’m too scared to live but I’m also too scared to die. Sorry for how long this is..

[@safiyyah2915]

I understand what you going through.

[@paolinamelamed7052]

You will good

[@selestegeorge]

Check out Melanie Martinez's "Dollhouse". I think you'll relate to it alot. My family keeps this cookie-cutter-perfect image, but there is SOOO much dirt/ugliness behind those immaculately staged photos that it has been enough to make me start cutting since 5th grade. I am 36 now, and still struggle; especially with expressing emotions.

[@amosbirb2616]

God this is like my anthem. I always feel like a manipulative monster. I open up to people and it just hurts them. It drags them down anytime I express my grief or struggles. It makes me hate that side of myself, and I keep my emotions bottled so I don't hurt the people I love.

[@l.h.9747]

Its not the best but you can talk to people who you dont love. Better than not talking at all

[@larrytomlinson8134]

amour

[@-Katetastrophe-]

This right here. This is me, to a T.

[@bloedjohan7602]

Give and take, I'd say. You can take if you give, really It also depends on your friends, it always made me super happy if my friends had enough trust in me to share their struggles, ask them how they feel about it maybe.

[@dovahkiin6038]

Same

[@fraya1022]

This song came out this year? Why hasn't this song been played endlessly on the radio or talked about more by people like all the other songs? Songs like that stupid "Anaconda" or whatever desperate attempt Madonna just put out? Man, people both young and old need to learn to appreciate good music.

[@swat22camden]

There's an agenda to corrupt society with music

[@alaasasuke7360]

Ya, I agree with u R sayibg

[@dandoan7047]

+fraya1022 it's came out more than 1 year, maybe 2 years

[@a.7801]

+fraya1022 Stop bitching about it and just enjoy this.

[@danielle9993]

It came out in 2015 of February a.k.a more than a year ago...

[@juliezs]

"I'll be good, I'll be good, and I'll love the world like a shit." Thats deep.

[@AngieAJ]

I'll love the world like i should*** Yikes.

[@seven1374]

The “I’ll be good and I’ll love the world like I should” just hits different, imma get it tattooed; it’s just so powerful, it’s means a different thing for everyone. I just- I’ve spend ages hating myself and my life, my body, my scars... I feel like, I’m not good enough because I don’t Love the world like I should; so I’ll be good and I’ll love the world like I should

[@trinityseaton3497]

I relate to you x

[@morgandamon-xs9qo]

Did you get the tatoo?

[@georgie8755]

okay guys the second i saw his face i immediately imagined him as a young remus lupin and the lyrics of this song fit so well with remus' character for some reason but idk im harry potter trash and im making myself really sad

[@georgie8755]

AND HIS NAME IS JAYMES GUYS COME ON

[@ThePainLife]

What about Credence?

[@larariddell3989]

It reminds me of Draco

[@maggieclark9249]

no name it reminds me of Snape

[@georgie8755]

Sylvain Pitre Labreche hoLY SHIT YES

[@alette7841]

The lady with the freckles is beautiful

[@dustytucker5813]

she is

[@leonie6834]

@Thomas Vatz How can you judge like this about a human you don't know?

[@em-qu5dz]

Thomas Vatz please stop hating on people more talented than you, it is people like you that cause people to be mentally unstable. Pack up and leave, it’s 2019 we accept everyone.

[@figuratively1261]

@Thomas Vatz 🖕

[@figuratively1261]

Yeah she is

[@Kanimates]

Everyone has stories of realizing that they’re the bad guy.. I feel like I’m the only person who believes they’re the bad guy no matter what. I wasn’t a good person in the past and I’m still not a good person. I’m a burden to my family and friends. I’ve tried to find people like me so I wouldn’t feel so alone in all this, but I can’t find anybody.

[@egd5588]

We are all fucked up one way or another. You’re never alone.

[@camryenmitchell-marr3205]

I have faith that eventually you will be a good person. Stay strong.❤️

[@ajaysampsom]

So it's Feb 2021... I listen to this daily. The comment about this being a villain anthem seems so accurate. I've had so many health problems and I ask myself on a regular basis "what have I done so deserve this?" "Who was I before that this life is so cruel?" Honestly, more and more I just find myself angry. At myself, at my life, at the world... I'm becoming the villain.

[@monicaserrada701]

This song reminds me of many "villains", such as Luke Castellan, Bucky Barnes, Natasha Romanov, Ethan Nakamura, Jonathan Morgerstern, Draco Malfoy, Regulus Black, Theodore Nott, Damon Salvatore, Tomura Shigaraki, Itachi Uchiha, Katsuki Bakugo, Reiner Braun, Annie Leonhart, Berthold Hoover, Eren Jaeger, Manjiro Sano, Kazutora Hanemiya, Wei Wuxian...

[@hadia241]

It also sorta reminds me of thanos lowkey lol

[@monicaserrada701]

@@hadia241 a little tbh

[@kathrynh.2809]

You had me at Jonathan Morganstern

[@nitish.pratap.singh.]

Draco and Damon 🖤

[@idnt_exst8348]

Not a villain but shouya from silent voice

[@God_Driven]

Who is the lady in the video. She is gorgeous. It's like looking at a moving painting of a masterpiece. I'm going to paint her. This song is beautiful.

[@JessFess27]

Nikia Phoenix! I drew her because of this video, did research and found out who she is. She's beautiful :)

[@God_Driven]

Jess Fess Thanks!

[@justinfritz4648]

This song reminds me of my bestfriend 😪, she helped me make it through highschool we both struggled with depression and finding away to cope with the tidal wave that comes from being shoved in a building with a bunch of people who don't know who they are yet or the morals and ethics they hold to be true. We clang together for our lives like a twigs in a flood. We made it but sadly adulthood stuffed us apart, and I miss her, and wish her the best in navigating through her life. I miss you buddy forever and for always 😩💙

[@gryphonheart3398]

A year and time keeps ticking, but this vibe is timeless✌️

[@kayyys_art2258]

It's so sad seeing so many people relate to each others problems. Our generation is so bad that young children can't enjoy their youth. We have so many things to live for. Laugh, cry, fall in love, make a family, give love. But none of us thinks of those things anymore. Cause society and every fucking problem that's caused by the older people's choices effects us. Parents, please give your kid attention. Let the work for once and spend some time with your son to watch some football. Fix your daughter's hair and talk about your day. Don't judge your kids expecting them to open up to you. How can they do that when all u do is accusing them for everything when u can't control your nerves and expecting them to be the best. The best in class, the best in life. Listen. I beg you as a child. Listen

[@levnuica8863]

The last parts made me tear up. My parents fight a lot, scream at each other on a daily basis, about 70% of the day they are mad at each other and thus mad at the world surrounding them. And without my brother around, since he left for college a few years ago, it's only me else to be mad at. I try to be calm but anxiety always gets the better of me, I always shake when they're around and I can hear them cursing under their breath. I never do anything right in their eyes. I'm always such a mistake, they're never pleased. I can't wait to get out of here, I wish I could just run away. I do have amazing friends, but I tend not to trust them a lot (paranoia) since I can't even trust my parents not to hurt me. And it all fucks with my brain when they act nice and say that they love me and act nice with each other, I mean, it creeps me out! And then they wonder why I'm not talking to them and why I'm always in my room, or why when they walk in my room uninvited and without knocking, when I'm bawling my eyes out, maybe anxiety attack, maybe I'm getting shit off my chest, they act so much like they care and they wonder what's wrong, what happened. I can't stand them

[@kayyys_art2258]

@@levnuica8863 even if I told you, you wouldn't understand how much I can relate to your life. I do that as well. The crying part?! Yes. Everyday and night when everyone's asleep trying to hide from everyone cause if they see me?! It's my mistake for crying. it's my mistake for not being strong enough. But I tell you it's NOT OUR FAULT, we are teenagers, we need love, I need love and a hug. A shoulder to cry on... I feel so sorry for both of us. My parents aren't the best as well. Always accusing me for being a failure. Please stay strong, I will if you do it as well. If not for you, for your brother. You are lucky he is older than you. Mine is younger and I have to take care of him as well... Stay strong. Its a metter of time till you grow up and u can finally live your life the way you want. Because its YOUR life and YOUR life its out there and not in a house full of pain. Have patient. That's what I always tell myself. I love you, please be safe and I wish both of us the best. If u ever need a stranger to talk to. I'll always be here ❤️

[@levnuica8863]

@@kayyys_art2258 Thank you you are really kind. I'm both relieved and really sad there is someone in the same position as me. I'm sorry that your little brother will also have to go through the same treatment, but with you as a sibling I believe it will be easier to bear. I will send you a virtual hug and a pat on the back, because I feel you and it's all I can give you I understand it's not our faults. But the way they treat me has started to rub off on me and I fear becoming the same as them, always mad and everything, judging and never satisfied, you know? It terrifies me. Yes, if you would like to I'm more than open to talk about anything, you could hmu on discord if you have or Instagram (I'll give you my account if you want)

[@vildan5679]

@@levnuica8863 i can relate so much to your life it happens to me too

[@prernamehta6866]

Untamed fan?

[@faithgutierrez8558]

Have you ever opened up but no one understands you so even if you talk to people about your problems your still crying out for help 🥀😔

[@Bha-vani]

Faith Gutierrez i ca totally relate to this

[@elmariachi7007]

You can talk to me if you want. I'm sure I'll understand you, because I'm no different.

[@sydneyanastasia3053]

That’s exactly how I feel, everyone always comes to me for advice but whenever I need advice or simply someone to listen I get ignored or dismissed.

[@SusiQf]

@@sydneyanastasia3053 Same...

[@Ayoddp]

💜💜

[@robertohernandez6721]

"I'll be a better man today, I'll be good...I'll be good...for all the time I never could"

[@loch4u233]

I know you're coming back in a few years. Please don't forget to be better

[@rickysanchey4269]

this is so relaxed

[@nisan2482]

ooo türrrrrrrk

[@rickysanchey4269]

vaayyyy bee karşm hoşgeldin

[@nisan2482]

ben hep burdaydım karşim

[@e.m.foster1249]

oo parti mi var ne

[@nisan2482]

E. M. Foster Aynen :D

[@saltyshimakei4155]

*Even though the music video was very simplistic, the message behind it was very strong. Absolutely beautiful.

[@sophiabanks4126]

Absolutely :) and... YOUR USERNAME IS GOLD

[@saltyshimakei4155]

Sophia Banks Why thank you. C: Always nice to find other SPN fans floating around on the internet.

[@1DWLyricsXcastielqueen]

Castiel Winchester OMG UR NAME this wins everything basically

[@saltyshimakei4155]

castielqueen♥ Haha well thank you. xD

[@saltyshimakei4155]

Jessi Donlan Thanks xD

[@raccoon8686]

I'm stuck in a cycle. I hurt everyone around me, and I don't know how to stop. But every time I try to get better I get worse. This song is not just about redemption, but about the failure of redemption in my opinion.

[@marina4629]

Are you okay honey?❤ wanna talk about it?

[@SilverFlame819]

This song always feels to me like begging the universe to make things better. Like saying a prayer, but for those of us who don't pray. Whenever I feel like the universe is just kicking me in the fucking teeth, this song becomes sort of like an inner mantra for me. Bargaining with whatever powers there may be... I find myself singing it a lot lately.

[@Godisfirst21]

I didn't use to pray. I pray now. It has transformed me. God is so GOOD.

[@b1e2t]

I wanted Jaymes Young to succeed and be ultra famous, yet I also want him to be my secret, something I'd keep all to myself, because he's too much to be appreciated by people, and I fear people won't find him as amazing like the way I see him.

[@KellyJayneAustralia]

So i just discovered a song called moondust and was like damn, this great, who is it by? Of course it's by Jaymes Young! I'll be good is one of the highest played songs on my phone and now my new obsession is by the same artist. This guy has serious talent!

[@octaviatrikru802]

KellyJayneAustralia same but the fitst i heard by him was I'll be good I'm in love with this song tbh I cried the first time I heard it and still do sometimes idk why it has lot of meaning and he dose have serious talent

[@NorthernGreenEyes]

6yrs sober from a decade long addiction. This hits me.

[@kaisenkunnc8364]

Im the Black sheep of the family. I have a cold heart this song very encouraged me to see the world clearer

[@randijo17]

This song reminds me to not be so rude to people. I dont want to get hurt so I dont let people get to know me. And my wall ends up me being rude. I hope this song and ig my comment can help other people fix their wrongs🙂

[@heartsMuzikhearts]

Randi Jenkins Same problem.

[@ssssolarr3721]

I try to do the same but my weakness gets over me. I really don't want them close. All it does is lead to hurt.

[@nolan1734]

Yeah lol. This song made me cry because my parents are having a bunch of health issues, and every time I hear this song, it pushes me to be a better person and help them as much as possible before time runs out. It also kept me motivated to keep helping people at school, as well.

[@samuelfoster12]

Randi Jenkins I recently failed, can't even tell anymore with the system, my second year of HS and my mom, while disappointed, still loves me but she's got some problems and needs all her rest and medication so after all these years I'm standing up, finally taking responsibility, helping her with food, helping with groceries, always mentioning how I love her. It may sound sappy but from failures and music we see things we never thought we would see. I hope everyone out there is also doing their best and if you're having a hard time remember to look back at us. You ain't ever alone, pal.

[@parkerbrosauto]

Randi Jenkins you are spot on with my life, I am making a leap of faith I cried in her arms and told her how scared I was I was in the army as infantry, she had no clue how bad I was hurting she thought I was angry at her but no was just to scared to let her in thanks to this song and reading yours and others comments I know I am not alone in this struggle thank you you and others have given me a chance at keeping my family.......I am in your debt

[@kaelierichardson5794]

I listen to this song whenever I do something stupid and then I start crying😐

[@sydneyzane7434]

+Kaelie Richardson Same.

[@josephahlstrom7335]

If I did the same I would always do stupid things

[@est.99xx84]

same here. :(

[@mistyfreya]

yep.

[@RenanzinhoSopadeAbobora]

stupid things, new episodes in netflix

[@user-jy3hx5ut1t]

it’s 2021 and this is still heartbreaking

[@nicolekent5813]

I hurt a lot of people when I got mentally ill. I became someone I hated, more than anyone else hated me. I dislocated from my family, I unfriended everyone trying to help me. I just wanted to hurt all on my own, because I didn't want to let people see me that way anymore. I wanted so bad to get better, be better, be GOOD again. Not sure if I ever will get better. Maybe someday..

[@Vladi-kj7rl]

Lyrics: I thought I saw the devil, this morning Looking in the mirror, drop of rum on my tongue With the warning to help me see myself clearer I never meant to start a fire, I never meant to make you bleed, I'll be a better man today Refren : I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world, like I should Yeah, I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times that I never could. My past has tasted bitter for years now, So I wield an iron fist Grace is just weakness Or so I've been told. I've been cold, I've been merciless But the blood on my hands scares me to death Maybe I'm waking up today Refren : I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world, like I should I'll be good, I'll be good I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the light that I shut out For all of the innocent things that I've doubt For all of the bruises that I've caused and the tears For all of the things that I've done all these years Yeah, for all of the sparks that I've stomped out For all of the perfect things that I doubt Refren : I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world, like I should Yeah, I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times I never could. Ooh oh oh Ooh oh oh For all of the times I never could.

[@hlaobaid4407]

I'll be good for all the times i never could

[@veroniquel.6432]

merci 😍

[@VictorYamaykin]

Gracias 🙏

[@KisielekToJa]

Dziękuję

[@ri-ri6202]

Thank chu! 😂💖

[@dizastr]

1:04 can i just say absolutely beauTIFUL FRECKLES WTFFF

[@kevanlarcey6273]

This was the first new song I stumbled upon when I arrived in a halfway house in Florida circa winter 2014 after surviving a wicked year long heroin addiction back home in Baltimore. I remember singing this song biking 10 miles to the call center I hated working at, only to get enough scratch to pay the insane cost of rent and a little left over for food and maybe a redbox movie on Friday nights. I was suicidal then...I was actively suicidal before then, with multiple stays in a couple of psych wards at the ages of 13 and 15. I had always struggled with every last -ism and disorder I could put a name to...therapists, psychiatrists, councilors, sponsors...they all help me but not at the time. It was later I realized how to use the tools they gave. But at that point in time, I didn't want to be helped. I didn't know what I wanted. Fast forward a year and my sons mother said she was pregnant. In denial, I couldn't handle the thought. A 20 year old junkie with a year off from hell. What worth did I have? Fast forward 5 months, im sitting in jail withdrawal from smack and crack, barely coherent as the crowd is pushing me around, feeling as though I was strapped in an ice cold straight jacket. Bottom, I have found you. Past the nitty gritty details, I eventually found myself. For the first time, I committed to myself. To take care of myself, to love myself. And no its not what you think. I did all there was to do for a young junkie and got out what I put in but it wasn't finding sobriety. It wasn't meetings or anonymous groups or anything of the sort. I ran away from it all and found myself. And my son was the first step. I found something in my life more precious than life itself. I remember, constantly, feeling worthless and not good enough, curled up in the shower, crying, "I just want to do the next right thing! Thats it, I swear! Thats all I want! Let me be better! I want to be better!"...time, after time, after time, after time....after time. All of a sudden, here I am. I have depression but I'm rarely depressed. I have anxiety, but I clean and play with my son instead of staring at a wall, eating my fingers, waiting for the world to end. I have dreams that have become goals that have become work that have become accomplishments. Why? How? Cuz I wanted them more than anything. I changed the way I think therfore changed the way I acted and behaved, changing the fibers of my being to be in accordance with who I wanted to be and even, who I knew deep down I already was. When I hear this song, which I still sing to my 4 year old son at night (hence why I'm commenting on here), it brings me back to that time of being so empty and lost. And I sing this song proudly today, as an ode to who I was and how far I've come, this song being a piece of me, now and forever. "I'll be good, I'll be good. And I'll love the world like I should." Now, and forever. I will. Not of obligation but of desire. I hope someone may read this in hopes of feeling that they're not alone in the world. Yet, your problems and demons can only be casted away by your own doing and no one else's. Persevere and never give up the ship. Stay long enough to see the sun rise.

[@Draculaura44]

This whole lyrics just describes my life. I lost so many people,I became person I never wanted to be,I was scared to become who I am today... I did so many horrible things, I lost so many memories... I never cared about those small details that could have been big things in my life... I’m trying now I’ll be better I’ll be happy I’ll be good...

[@himarimii]

🥺

[@isaacvines3188]

I just found this guy and he is amazing!!!!!

[@GsKrishna]

Same

[@danielcertuche2542]

exactly

[@MrMrWolfrWolf]

same

[@HaiItsLizzie]

Isaac V check out habits of my heart

[@ptmont4483]

Same!

[@adyingbreed1017]

once you realize how broken you are is the same time you realize how to fix yourself as best as you can for yourself and others

[@ssssolarr3721]

Deep.

[@acasaization]

J Dilla you couldn't have said it better !!!

[@Godisfirst21]

I just found this song in 2023. Oh my heart....oh the comments...oh people do feel the same as i do...oh i am not alone in my pain.

[@gothgirlclique9126]

Dear Myself, I know that you didnt wanted to hurt people. I know that you are scared, but you cant keep continue like that. Its not fair for them, and for me. Your inside puppet. You need to be yourself, you need to love yourself just like the way you are. I know that you are a child, and i know that you ve been make a lot of mistakes lately, i know that you are shame of them, but the rage and the fire inside you, need to calm down, you need to breathe, and you need to stop crying, because you need to open your eyes, and see what you are, and who exactly are. I know that you also hurt me, putting me in your most difficult situations, but..im still here for you. Im still for myself. If you love him, understand yourself. Its for the good of both. Love, Dorina..

[@suvtropics]

Day's been rough. It shocks me how I've changed, what I've become. It brought me to tears in half a minute.

[@laurenzhamez1666]

I hope you have a better day(:

[@suvtropics]

Lauren Zhamez I hope so 😢

[@togp3403]

Sorry for you, hope you feel better! Everyone goes through some low points in life, but it'll get better. Although it may not seem like it, it will. I promise.

[@saniazahrani6851]

i feel you ...

[@lindsaygriffin]

Life is tough sometimes there's rough holes you need to patch up some bigger than others but when you put it back together life gets better and you feel it

[@kumiko853]

Actually this song is for all humans... we are villains of our mother earth. Sadly... earth is crying out loud but we can't listen to it...

[@jerullium1947]

Yea & we were so bad to it, it had to induce covid 19 just to take time for itself 🥺✨

[@kaceyjones4473]

‘Mother earth’ 😂I’m creasing

[@moonmothh]

good point

[@kenr7997]

so true bestie

[@vanuvidivici9702]

the meaning of this song to me is release. it was new year’s eve, 2014 to 2015 and this song popped up on my playlist while i was on the road to see my brother and his family. i had just decided i’d leave church and walk my own path of faith. i grew up in a church with people telling me how to act, who to be, but when i finally decided that wasn’t what i wanted, i felt like this, i felt like i could be good on my own for all the times i never could, nothing would hold me back. i promised myself i’d be good. i’m still working on that promise and i plan on never breaking it.

[@nyainatoky7308]

Who else discovered this song with the AMV of The Silent Voice ?

[@jasminvazirovic5662]

Me

[@kingasta7947]

Me too

[@dhananjayaswal8130]

yeah man ,this song hits different

[@connieex_15]

I found it from a worrier cats MAP

[@r_thekingslayerx4352]

Yep me

[@porcelainbeetle]

That girl is so pretty?? Hecc she is one of the most aesthetically pleasing people I've ever seen

[@victorbourguignon6897]

Dont knowl why but i totaly get you

[@roohmava7553]

Yes, she is a masterpiece

[@olciaxxxdd]

Who is she? Is she a model or something? I just need more pictures of her face. She is beautiful

[@olciaxxxdd]

Ok, if anyone is looking for her name, I found it and it's Nikia Phoenix

[@monamattersberger451]

at first I thought you’re talking about Jaymes...😂

[@ArcticEmpire]

Jaymes Young

[@RandomDrood]

Arctic Empire Arctic Empire

[@oliveoil7477]

^

[@robertouribe565]

Ya

[@annunow921]

Woah Lmao 6 years later I now see this comment

[@LookAtThiis]

Hey ! arctic Empire !!!🙌

[@rainl9351]

sometimes I look at myself and wonder “how did I get so far out ?” “why do I let people change me so much I don’t know who I am?” i hate having to pretend. i ask myself “does anybody know the real me? do i even know who i am?” it’s so confusing and im tired. im tired but it’s not something I can say aloud. saying im tired are words that cause fear and happiness at the same time. fear for your loved ones who don’t want you to let go. and happiness to those who want to see you fail. .... but i don’t want to please them and even though im tired i still want to keep going isnt it funny?

[@grassblock7668]

Why did I find myself in this- I know how you feel but I also know it's not gonna stay the same forever,we'll change with time,we'll know who we truly are sooner or later. I know how it feels to be confused,I know how it feels to feel guilt for crying,feel guilt for everything you're doing wrong and that are suppose to be doing right. We'll get better,you'll get better. Stay strong and God bless you

[@rouarddharon7267]

You're a human being. And the ability to feel sadness is normal for you. Just like any other emotions. You must enjoy it for you to be able to cope it..

[@azuma6041]

This video helped me realize that my response to my depression isn't healthy not only to myself but for others. When I have deep depressing thoughts or anxiety I pick at my skin until I bleed. I cut and burn. But one day I was caught with a burn mark on my neck after I rubbed plastic on the surface of my neck until I bled and it left a mark. My mother cried, my brother was frustrated and disappointed, not only that but worried as hell. He told me the pain my mother went through when she lost 3 children after and before my brother was born. And then my father was shocked and hugged me saying I needed to speak. Time went by and my family isn't the most accepting... But I understand... They have all the right to be mad or stressed, even dissapinted to have a mentally ill daughter. But when I saw this, I realized even though I'm harming myself, I also harm those around me. Not only my mental issues but in the past I have physically and mentally hurt my peers, I don't know what came over me. And when the school year ended it was the last grade level before moving schools. At night, I beat myself over it. I told myself, I need to suffer the same pain i made them go through. I was then able to find some of my peers and I said sorry, they said it was alright and to not worry,but I couldn't convince myself. That's another reason why I developed depression. Even now,its been 3 years since then. And I still feel like the pain I've gone through isn't enough to match the pain I put my peers through. But now...I'll be good, and I'll love the world like I should...

[@evera]

Cheers to you! This too shall pass and its a great step to be self aware. Be kind even when the world is unkind to you, cause you might find it returning to you in all the unexpected places : )

[@Ayoddp]

💜💜

[@shoppingbag1058]

I FEEL YOU DONT NEED TO HURT YOURSELF FOR THAT REASON YOU NEED TP PRAISE SOMONE WHO CARES FOR YOU AND WONT STEER YOU IN THAT DIRECTION. PLEASE DPNT HURT CAUSE OF YOUR PEERS KILLING OR HARMING YUR SELF WILL ONLY CAUSE MORE PAIN FOR YOU AND OTHER

[@q-tiptingz7197]

My mom wouldn't give a shit if I killed myself.

[@rileyhosmer]

my mother doesn't care that I struggle with anything mental or physical. she doesn't care if i cut myself, or even if i kill myself. i hope someday it gets better, i just don't feel it anymore though

[@itsrainingtrash7106]

Its 2019 and I’m still here 😍😍

[@toh_kie]

@Bebe Mabara Same 🙆

[@ashxx3755]

Hello brother

[@tuanasvlogs7948]

me too

[@miloszalesak8684]

you are not alone

[@balalablalala5843]

tAkinG oVer yOutuBe me too i Guess when I am gone I will remember those stupid days but I know I am not the only one in this world so yeah life sucks for everyone but just know somebody took the time to make you happy we actually should remember the good days and not the bad days but that isn’t possible so if you’re reading this just know there are people Who love you so just care about the people who love you and not people who don’t 💕

[@chrisslate1506]

I once felt like a monster, and then I got high for x months, and now I feel like I woke up as a broken, well disciplined monster. And I'd like to think anyone who knew me knew that at the core I am nothing but love and peace. Either way, I'll (try to) be good.

[@zaturn2451]

james is definitely one of my favorite singer, his songs, the melodies, the lyrics, are just so- i cant even explain.

[@ness3082]

Am i the only one that thinks that this song is perfect for Jace Herondale?

[@ness3082]

+WingsofAlice omggggggggg😍😍😍😍

[@mllepomme02340]

yes ! thank you so much !! 😍

[@ness3082]

+mllepomme02340 * hug*

[@nelekempkens]

exactly what i thought omg

[@odettchang1611]

OMG yesyes

[@GrubbyPigeon]

This song is for those of us that have these little moments of clarity, where we know we were “bad” or wrong. When we usually just let our brain ignore it.

[@okayokay3860]

Don’t ever worry. There’s a play called wicked you should see, if you haven’t. I freaked out on two KZbinrs during a livestream because they were making people hysterical. Apparently they have a lot of money and know Jordan Peterson, who wrote don’t worry my darling.

[@seminole111]

Every once in a while, a song comes along that you instantly know will hold special meaning. This is that song. It was playing in the background on XM one night and since that day, I have listened to it countless times, singing it in my car countless times, and it never gets old. “I’ll Be Good” has been a major cathartic event in my life which I have incorporated into my self-preservation and redemption back to the spiritual being I once was, before a disastrous marriage broke me down to a point of wanting to end my life. “All of the things that I’ve done all these years….” Damn that lyric, I can’t sing that line without feeling a well of emotion in my throat. This beautiful song reminded me what I already knew, that I deserved to treat myself better, appreciate God’s love, and see the truths of my having stepped off the path of my faith. Time and time again, repeating the self-abuse…for me personally, it was like re-crucifying Jesus Christ all over again with every useless escape that brought me absolutely no where but more pain and alienation from things I once cared so deeply for. It’s become my personal prayer of repentance for things I just can’t accurately articulate to God. I still have difficulty forgiving myself for turning my back on Christ for my own selfish gains, but this song collided with those distorted escapes and has become a compass of accountability for me. I wonder if Jaymes Young will ever have any idea just how profound his song is and the impact it makes for those of us who wandered in the dark for so long. It’s light in a very dark world and I am so grateful to have heard it. I don’t believe in coincidences, but I DO believe in this song and myself more each day. “Maybe I’m waking up…..”

[@justaperson863]

"But the blood on my hands scares me to death, maybe I'm waking up today." Two hours ago I cut myself too deep, and I almost fainted and it fucking scared me so much. I finally threw away the razor, and hopefully I will be good and I will love the world and myself as I should. This song is so touching and encouraging❤

[@porcelainbeetle]

Maryem D hecc that's not good I hope you feel better and I'm happy that you are tryina love yourself, because you should

[@user-ye6so5uj2k]

Go for it! I hope you find a healthy way that helps you with whatever you’re going through.

[@justaperson863]

@@user-ye6so5uj2k wow I completely forgot about my comment! Thank you for your kind words, although it's still challenging at times I'm happy to say that selfharm is no longer a struggle that I have to deal with.

[@snizzol]

Give this man an award please

[@okenk.6379]

Joost Wasbauer please!!!

[@caitlinsailors3820]

This song reminds me of my bipolar schizophrenic little brother. I know he wants to be better but his mind just wont let him. I love you DJ, you never deserved what you went through.

[@TyoungUSMC]

I grew up rough, I went to Afghanistan a few times as a Marine Infantryman, I'am an Ex-Cop trying to do better. Thank you for this song, thank you for helping me heal a bit.

[@olivialopez5802]

My slytherin heart :(

[@ozymandias949]

Olivia Lopez lmao

[@admiradea3428]

Olivia Lopez is that why I like this song so much.. goodness. It all makes sense now.

[@tobirama8500]

Omg yesss

[@ainsleyr9658]

Omg