I'm Finally *Actually* Going Back to Harvard

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[@jessicagrace4622]

Taking time off from school and returning later as an adult was life-changing for me. Our stories are very different, but I relate very much to your feelings about having the ability to appreciate school once you’ve taken time to pursue other things, reflect, and “grow up” a little outside of it. I hope you have a great final year! As I’m sure you know, going to Harvard is a very special opportunity that you’ve worked hard for. Enjoy it while you can. :)

[@thejohnfish]

thank you so much for the kind words Jessica!! I'm really excited to head back, I'm glad you had a good experience with it :)

[@shiellaaa]

I agree. I was able to go back to university (and finish it) 7 years after i left. I was able to appreciate the education more.

[@candies1449]

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[@Romansantiago24]

I am about to start my last year but it feel i need 6 months to rest, because ive been studyng my hole life, and besides that i work full time.

[@chaddad4046]

John Fish has been one of the best youtubers for a long time. Proud to say I've been a subscriber since his first year.

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Chaddad!!!

[@hoaluu907]

Me too. From the first year

[@chaddad4046]

@@thejohnfish thank you for being a thought provoking and inspiring guy.

[@tesla2262]

Me too

[@earlynrachellebaltazar7553]

Same here I could still remember I was only starting college back then and I've watched most of his videos over and over again just to, you know, get some inspiration. I am very happy with his channel's growth.

[@sleexox]

From a subscriber that has been following since your first year of school to now, you've grown a lot. From growth book, shaving your head bald, joining a contest with brilliant people around the world and to finally having a live stream talking about books. Damn.

[@thejohnfish]

thanks for coming along so far 🥺

[@leejaerim8972]

Same here, man, it's been a wonderful journey so far!

[@jboushka]

It wasn't quite bald, just a crewcut (like in the military). I remember the Instagram event, it was like a "film". It was also a benefit.

[@candies1449]

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[@trumanlazarus8637]

John, you changed my academic life. When I found your channel I was in 8th grade and failing 3 classes. Your passion for learning and approach to academics were inspiring. This changed the way I approached school. I am now in 11th grade and taking 6 AP classes with straight A’s. Thank you John.

[@sum33r]

That’s amazing!!!

[@wisterblue2190]

That’s fantastic🔥 keep doing your best but also don’t overwork yourself!🎉

[@asdasdd320]

Woow! Congrats!

[@bernadettban8309]

Same, I was doing my second year at Uni, had a C average, but by the time I graduated was B+

[@certiorari]

wtf that’s insane

[@DmoneyenomD]

When you talked about the scarcity mindset, I felt that. I graduated college a few months ago, and when 2020 came about, I realized I had drained my battery, spending that energy almost entirely on prepping for the future like you mentioned. Don’t get me wrong, it’s got it’s merits, but it came at the expense of many opportunities and experiences I wish I would’ve savored in the moment. Worst part was I couldn’t do anything about it, since my last 1.5 yrs were virtual. Similar to you, I’ve been recharging my battery in a more meaningful way. And I’m probably the happiest/most hopeful I’ve been in the last year and a half. Thanks for sharing, really resonated !

[@thejohnfish]

So glad to hear you've come to a similar realization Danny! It's a really hard mindset to shake but I'm glad that you're on the up and I hope everything is going super well for you!

[@jennj8149]

I can’t believe I was a baby as well when I first began watching your videos! I changed my major, I took a leave of absence as well & I got into reading because of you! Thanks John. Can’t wait for the many more years to come :)

[@thejohnfish]

life has come at us fast!!!

[@Karina-rl7dg]

John Fish wearing a Rico Nasty sweatshirt is something I didn't know I needed

[@thejohnfish]

I don't really talk like this I KNOW

[@mier_inc]

Online school is so overrated… I was in school with so much motivation, with so much passion. Getting my engineering degree has always been my goal. But this year I completely burned out. I neglected my health, got so much stress I didn’t see a way out, pushed my family and friends away, got sick very often (my immune system was/is a mess). I was scared of everything. I still feel and experience those negative feelings. For almost a year now, I go see a therapist. But in the mean time I feel like I grew a lot, I became more mature and became more aware what it’s like to live in the world I’m living in. I had the “time” to think about the things I really want to do, I really want to achieve. I thought about the things I like, my passions. So this horrible time brought me closer to myself. Glad to experience it, sad I had to go through it for almost two years now. I hope next year I can finally go to school with new stranger friends and I can finally finish my master degree in engineering with the passion I have.

[@alyderuby2480]

Oh my....your reply encourages me so much!

[@candies1449]

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[@nalanyaylaci894]

what are the chances you study in Leuven?

[@wendy_doll]

I love online school. Sorry to hear about your personal experience with it. It personally is so much better for me.

[@lolaz.3485]

Sorry to hear about your experience. I’m currently in my first sem of grad school and things have been out of balanced as in my sleep cycle and social life. Like yours, I aim to pursue my main well target which is my field but unfortunately things can get awry… online classes are somewhat a blessing for me as well because I have more time to get back to my studies without worrying about transportation and time taken to get back home etc. I think I’m quite lucky to have a study group from people from my batch, thankfully i can connect with people despite the current condition. So I hope same goes for you! It’s a good thing that I found people who actually experiencing almost similar situation here :)

[@malloryleake2495]

Why is this guy literally so likable

[@sparsh2955]

For some reason, this was quite comforting. Will always remain a subscriber. Much love

[@danielcriales]

When this guy talks he just makes me think and reflect on what I'm doing with my life.

[@gonzaotc]

Same. i see me reflected on him

[@abby-fo2wg]

Thanks for sharing John. It has actually been a shitty year and sometimes because of external situations that are out of our control we just forget to look at the bigger picture, appreciate all the things we have and to value our friendships.

[@rajbiswas6551]

Haven't seen this John Fish for a long time, welcome back!

[@Shizu_Kare]

Hi John. My situation is complicated, but I just wanna say I relate to the struggles you presented in this video a lot. I took a year long leave of absence during the pandemic coming out of sophomore year. I'm glad I did because I felt like I wasn't going to get the most out of my college experience over zoom, and I have a very complicated home situation that I knew long term would make thriving in school next to impossible. That home life is tribulating and extremely draining, even without the burden of school. I managed to work on a few passion projects and make some interesting connections, but sometimes this year I just felt like I was lost because of how different and complicated life has become. Many of my friends are now going into their senior years, and while I'm lucky they're still at the university at all, it's scary to think that they're all going to graduate before I do now. In a club I was really active in too, all the board members I'd gotten to know my first 2 years have just graduated and I didn't get to spend time with them during their last year either. I guess I just want to say that it's a reassuring perspective to know that someone else out there is dealing with similar circumstances and is trying to make the best of life, as messy as it is. I'm ecstatic to finally be going back for the fall semester and hopefully a chance of scenery from this past year and a half will help bring things into a better direction. Hope the same goes for you, best of luck. I'm looking forward to seeing what other videos you post moving forward!

[@blacksunsettn]

Very true John, I think it's so hard for us in our generation to take the time to enjoy the present. I'm in my last year of medical school and I have made the conscious decision to just enjoy the last upcoming months- no extracurriculars, no additional classes- just my friends I will be saying goodbye to soon after not seeing them for one and a half years. It's hard but like you said- we're never getting this time back. Good luck with the new year, I'm so happy you made the decision to live life First. Let's make it count in the most unambitious way possible!

[@tkerby91]

Love hearing your perspective on various things John. You have such a calming, rational & approach to things. Look forward to more content :)

[@serafinpatino7936]

Seeing you go from your first day at Harvard to know being in your final year has been a real roller coaster. I'm not sure if other subscribers have noticed your shift from a strong focus on academics to a more relax attitude and live in the moment. It's been amazing seeing your growth, and the work you did in the past year was the most unique in terms of content. From the different projects with A.I. to your book collaboration, the ventilator project you worked on, and the more honest version of yourself that you put out there. You've been a significant inspiration to the people I've recommended you to and to me. I just wanted to say thanks for all the work you put into your youtube because I think your most significant strength is not your intellect or adversity in trying new things. It's your ability to gather and inspire the people around you to go beyond what they usually can. From a fellow Uni student, Cheers for your future 1 Million subscribers!

[@artworkbybernizzz2654]

Love how your videos are being more and more relatable! I do enjoy the past videos about productivity but seeing one of my admired creator sharing the same concerns as I am is a whole new feeling. Online school is really hard. I hate that happened in my final high school year. But also on the other side, I get to learn how to deal with those difficult times. I guess that built our tolerance to adversity and also, gave us some time to review our lives. Genuinely loved your videos even more. Take care!

[@martinle855]

It's always interesting to hear about other people, and always nice to hear from people like you, John! I think you're very fortunate, and you seem hard-working too. But I feel that I sometimes forget that you, people that inspire me, are also humans. I'm sorry to hear that everything is not going smooth, but that's life, I feel like I'm not that alone though. Even though we're so different, I feel like everyone is a little bit "off" sometimes, and that's ok. I don't know where I'm going with this, I really hope it gets easier, or clearer from now on. Thanks for keep uploading!

[@chungkinng1476]

Yay, John's back!! will definitely follow along

[@EmitPeace4Love]

Bro you were not immature. You did great!! You inspired so many of us. You did your best and gave attention to social media at the same time. Please man don’t be so hard on yourself. You are an inspiration to so many seeking to succeed from the inside and out! I applaud you for your values and courage to travel to another country for education. You my good sir I look up to and I will continue to support you. Trust me there are 1,000’s who follow you and growing into leaders and inspirational themselves. Bless you man 🙌📚📚📚😌

[@MsDoujinshi]

Congratulations on everything you’ve accomplished. I really felt like you’ve grown a lot. Your videos always gives me inspiration. Thank you so much and btw you look so happy in this video😊and I’m so happy for that.

[@CrazyMaeGirl]

In a lot of ways, the fall semester feels like freshman year although I’ll be a junior. It was comforting just to hear someone else say those words !

[@kateendge9264]

Thank you so much for sharing! We’re so proud of you.

[@lindayuejin7230]

I resonate a lot. I’m in the same year of college as you at a public university. I left college around the same time as you did after two years because I wasn’t doing so well. And now I’ve also been away from college longer than I was there. I relate so much to what you’ve been going through. Yes life can be so messy and out of control. And these years growing from a teenager into an adult can be the most challenging and transforming. I feel like I’ve grown so much since I first entered college but I also have the same fears about the future. But like you said in this video, it’s important to cherish what we have in the moment and focus on living.

[@agyemannyamekye2227]

I've been following you since your dorm tour. You got this, fisher. You'll do just fine. FYI I'm all the way from Ghana.

[@OakiLory]

YES! Well done. Fingers crossed.

[@rodnielaviles3446]

Thanks for the transparency! I’ve been struggling with those high standards that I set to myself and feel like there is no other option for me. Im really excited to start College in person again in a few days to my final year💪🏻 Wish u the best !

[@1-eight]

Glad I stuck around since your freshman year. Wish you the very best John. 🇬🇭

[@karlam00n55]

Your videos really help me a lot, its great to hear you talk about this, it makes me feel better Thank you!

[@xandralex]

I am really proud of your growth John!! Keep it up!

[@Collin_Cornwell]

Glad you are back. Vulnerability and transparency highly respected 👏

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Collin!

[@yo.first_lady]

Honestly glad you are back🥺❤️ Much love from South Africa 🇿🇦

[@evanthomasgant]

I really respect your level of candidness on some of the topics you brought up in this video. I'm a relatively new sub, but your content introduced me to a whole new world of books and education, the kind I had never seen, nor wanted to see. I hope your return to school is as fulfilling as it seems from optimism!

[@thejohnfish]

Hey Evan thanks so much for the super kind words. I'm glad I was able to introduce you to a new world of books, I hope you continue to enjoy exploring!!

[@edenrosenbloom2707]

Hi John, I just wanted to reach out and say what a tremendous comfort your videos and perspectives have been as your navigate the whirlwinds of early adulthood. As a Montrealer who is enrolled at Barnard (and can understand the experience of a Canadian attending an elite US institution) and who will be taking this year off of school for the very reasons you have described, I see so much of myself in you and wanted to thank you for the light you have been (and will continue to be). Sending mountains of love your way as you embark on your senior year!

[@thejohnfish]

Thank you so much for the kind words Eden!! It really means a lot to read messages like this. I hope that you have a wonderful year off and that you learn much about yourself and who you want to be.

[@guilleeeavgs]

some things you say are so wise and so important.. i’m not yet done with high school and already feel some of those. nice video.

[@dropped_poptart3449]

I’ve been watching your content since I was in undergrad (since you started your first year of Harvard!) , in a way I felt like I grew with you and you being super transparent has always been super helpful in my career. There’s no manual for higher education, and I know you’re helping so many people relax a little in their journey of life :) I am now earning my PhD, but without neglecting my relationships and mental health, thank you for sharing your life with us john ❤️

[@halssseaarnold3341]

I relate to this so so much. ALSO THE RICO NASTY SWEATSHIRT IM SO PROUD YES

[@merryoldgrinkh9020]

All the best John!

[@johnlou844]

Hello John been waiting for a new video!!Keep em coming bro as they are always entertaining and informational!!

[@ella-wh9kg]

I actually also took a year of school this year since I mentally couldn't go to school anymore. This year has been so rewarding to my health and I am actually looking forward going back to school recharged. Thank you for sharing this video! Love from Sweden /Ella

[@saraw2135]

John! I just wanna say thanks for your awesome videos and advice over the past 3 years of watching you. You were a huge part of me getting into Columbia! I start this Fall! Good luck with returning to Harvard!

[@thejohnfish]

amazing Sara!!! good luck at Columbia!!!!

[@MichaelMSwart]

Excited for you, John!

[@lettersandpoims]

john, you've got an amazing future ahead of you. im excited about what's to come for you

[@cadenhowlett]

Yeah buddy, good to hear. Thanks for sharing and the continued inspiration.

[@TheMrmoc7]

As always, glad to hear you're ok John Fish.

[@alexmckenzie1728]

Thanks so much for posting this John. I'm heading into my third year of university this fall and I've been feeling inadequate this past year. The demanding finance recruiting cycle has really been grinding me down. It's reassuring to know that even a Harvard level student is feeling the same burnout that many students are.

[@yusrabali509]

I found you here through your "How to get into Harvard" video 4 years ago, and now we are here. When I ever feel demotivated, I come to your videos, it helps a lot. Thank you.

[@gonzaotc]

A few years ago i seen your videos from first year in Harvard and i freaked out how well organized, dedicated and smart you were. Im doing computer science engineering in Argentina, and i was not good at all, full of procastination and burned out all the time. I taken you as a model and thanks of you i started reading non-fiction books, from FLOW to a lot of other self development ones. I got obsessioned as you say in this video, in taking the perfect path, making the perfect decisions and working really hard. This particular year was so identical to me as for you, i broke a years relationship and dropped out college for 6 months. Now, after months of meditation and working on not being obsessioned with perfection or extreme productivity i feel so reflected with everything you said here. Im really glad that you shared you reality with us, so we can see that everybody is human and everybody struggle, is completly normal. Keep up!, i will come back to college tho. Thanks for your videos.

[@pablopinedarivera9961]

Best of luck John, I’m so proud and grateful for your channel. I have applied and learned from all of your techniques, thanks to you I’ve been preparing myself to study Actuary in my native country (Mexico), when I was about to enter college a corruption scandal broke the balance of the uni in which I was about to begin classes, I took the opportunity to grow some more and now I’m grateful because now my family is helping me to accomplish my goals and hopefully begin classes at ITAM (which is considered the one of the best private school in my country). Thanks for everything John, enjoy your last year in college; you are a great person and will become a great senior. Send you cheers from Mexico.

[@thejohnfish]

Pablo!! Best of luck studying as an Actuary, I hope you have a great time at ITAM!

[@pujakarmakar9176]

For me things went pretty downhill from 2021 I didn't realize the reason right away. But I felt like at the start of 2020 I was so optimistic with everything that I over worked and mentally burned out! Hence 2021 just was a punch in my face now I just taking it slow one day at a time. I definitely agree with you john on the point of our optimism we just over did so many things at the beginnings. All the very best for your coming on campus journey!

[@dez-m]

That is awesome!!! I am happy for you! I started Engineering at UC Berkeley recently so it's such a coincidence! Wishing you all the best :)

[@eperezhello]

Thank you for this… I’ve felt so burnt out from doing online school and felt guilty that I wanted to enjoy this summer and not worry about an internship.

[@alexisrivera3046]

John I’ve been a subscriber since your freshman year and you are one of the best KZbinrs. Thanks you for creating such an amazing content

[@thejohnfish]

Thank you so much Nicolas!!!

[@ryansnothere]

Wow. I've been watching you forever. Glad you're going back to school fully charged up. Keep doing you man.

[@poojah7720]

Amazing video. I couldn't relate more to the high stakes part. Sometimes it really is important to slow down and decide what you truly want rather than just following the 'plan'. Hope everyone finds the courage to do that. All the best, John 👍

[@mr.meeseeks6549]

its been a while since I've seen your videos; glad to know you're still well

[@bhavs4869]

Can I just say John, as someone who's followed you from the early days, it shows just how much you've grown. And your willingness to rebuild yourself and move forward is so inspiring. Good luck with everything!

[@thejohnfish]

I really appreciate those kind words, that means a ton to me. Thank you, best of luck with everything yourself!

[@eusouolucas5344]

I've been watching your videos since when you entered Harvard, I can see that you've matured and pursued goals other than college, I think the books you've read opened your mind, good luck back at Harvard! A Big hug for you here in Brazil

[@truongkhanhnhat635]

Thanks video, keep going what you’re really eager to and stay safe!

[@joseperez-ig5yu]

One good thing that you have on your side is that you are young and have so many prosperous years ahead of you!

[@HypothesisI]

Good luck John!

[@santiagogomezgomez1334]

Man you inspire me, i follow your work for two years and you show me how to a young man can fixit and organaized his life (im 22) i just started my carrer (biology) and you put me the college life in a way i can undestand it, you helping me to enjoy the lecture and make a daily shedule this help me so much, i know you dont know me but in this years i think i barely know you and you and you theachings, we are from two different words i live in Medellin and my economy its bas, but i can feel we have a lot in common, this comment its just for say thank you men you and you videos help me so much (sorry for my bad english i hope you can udersteand this dead leguague i just invented)

[@shashanksinghal4901]

You inspire me John! Best wishes to you!❤️

[@blinkur09mom]

Living in the now, is important. Planning too much for the future can just cause unnecessary stress because things don’t necessarily pan out as we expected.

[@thejohnfish]

Exactly! I believe the relevant quote is "the best-laid plans of mice and men often go awry" haha

[@asminabar9156]

The things I needed to hear, even though I hadn't realized that before I watched your video. Thank you

[@maeiscompletelyfine]

All the best with your journey! 💖

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Mae!

[@bendoverDN]

Hey John. I’ve been here since we were both in grade 12, and funnily enough, looks like we’ll be heading into our final year of university together. Like you, I’ve had my fair share of setbacks, more than I can count - but we’re still going, so let’s kick some ass. Good luck, man!

[@RuiYiGan]

all the best! I have been watching your videos for the past 2 years and I'm finally going to university! (studying computer science :) at NUS) thank you!

[@superalex381]

Taking an extra year to mature and find (and be sure) that I am still passionate about what I was learning and putting my all into was the most important moment in my life. I truly went into school again with a newfound joy and eagerness to learn and develop as a professional. I am just fresh out of university (graduated in June) and my passion and eagerness got me into my dream job! Everything started to fall into place when I stopped chasing it, and that was a lesson I could not learn in a classroom.

[@joseramon6999]

Cheer up, you are not the only one who has gone through all those problems (here I am too, for example). Always keep in mind that you have the support of all your followers.

[@thejohnfish]

Yes! Many of us have experienced similar things, I appreciate the kind words José

[@murphseye]

Good to have you back!

[@madebyymira]

excited for you to go back! i had to take a gap year during the pandemic because of health reasons but i’m excited (but nervous) to go back to campus next month

[@lauraandrade3770]

i took a gap year, and now i’m headed to law school. i feel so grown and understanding of what the world really is. it’s the best decision ever and you helped break the stigma to take the leap for me :)

[@shrinivasramasubramanian9007]

always honest and from the heart, loved it

[@thejohnfish]

thank you!!! doing my best

[@aarond9371]

Hey John. I've been a fan since 400k (like 1.5 years ago) and you've been a role model to me for a while. I was 13 & you made me realize that it's possible to be as productive and, more importantly, fulfilled as you were. You literally helped me get into the best school in my state, helping me study for its exam. Thank you so much for everything. (side note: I've struggled monumentally this past year as well)

[@thejohnfish]

that's so nice to hear Aaron!! hope things continue to go your way, you got this

[@Simzoid]

Good, and true, video John! Respect.

[@carinasorenson6308]

Hey! Just wanted to say that you were a huge part of motivating me and I got into UPenn! Thanks for the inspiration :)

[@gamemi5364]

Congrats🥳

[@serenalizinnqui8474]

I am going to BC this fall. So interesting to hear about your experiences. Also weird to think that we'll be in college a few miles apart at the same time (idk why, I guess I always regarded you as a wise old man lol). Good luck with your senior year!

[@lautarocardone5166]

Awesome video, you are a true inspiration! Much love from Argentina.

[@martinle855]

I was waiting for a new episode! Much love from Argentina John!

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Martin!!!!

[@canteenpapi3040]

I watch your videos John they make me want to become a doctor, lawyer, entrepreneur or something! Youre an incredible speaker

[@keniya1444]

1 million soon! cheers i love you

[@suntaohsing9142]

Thank you so much for making this video. I’m tracking into the same problem you mentioned like having really high stakes and chasing for the Aplus. Your words are pretty helpful

[@serineajdir4592]

omg i missed this optimistic john welcome back

[@stevensong8784]

5:10 - 5:40 In 2018 went back to my alma mater to pursue my second bachelor's in CS. I was surrounded by people who were 7 years younger. I was mortified, let it distract me. Now I can ignore all that and put my mind to it. Knowing that you're a talented and creative person, your mention on perfection reminds me to accept mistakes and make the most of it. Good luck in your final year. Mr. Fish.

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Steven! I can imagine that would have been a jarring experience!

[@Swukelz]

The man himself is goin back! Man I remember back in 2018 I copied ur planner layout…still do to this day ✊🏼

[@naomibashkansky4639]

AHHHHHHHH hi!!!! I've nothing beautifully introspective to write, but your video reminded me that I'll be starting my Freshman year at Harvard in *two weeks*! I, too, will be concentrating in Computer Science. If Harvard is full of people like you, I'm sure I'll enjoy my time. :)

[@thatguyFS6961]

Took me 7 years to graduate from uni 😅 , i felt that when u said most of ur friends graduated and ur next year feels like a freshman year with new ppl .. I remember watching your vids few years ago when u started going to harvard , i was really in a bad place in my life ( i was 23 living in syria and I hadn’t graduated structural engineering yet cuz I failed two years ) I felt like a failure , I wanted to do more but couldn’t cuz life here is really tough But luckily I graduated and now I’m gonna move outta here and hopefully find a job and start a carrier somewhere Good luck with ur next year in Harvard you gonna crush it

[@helennnr]

This is the happiest I've ever seen you look! Good luck at Harvard!

[@AlexTheDonut]

Thanks for the awesome advice and videos! Best of luck to you^^

[@thejohnfish]

thank you Alex!!! best of luck to you too :)

[@motivational_writer53]

John Fish is always insightful

[@ernestovillanueva7448]

Thank you for all the content❤️

[@oscarmonroy6337]

I started watching your KZbin channel and you inspired me to finish my UCLA College degrees ! It’s truly sad that your journey at Harvard was interrupted 🧑🏻‍💻I liked watching you make your tea and study 📚

[@amvworld1200]

This is an amazing video. I relate to this deeply.

[@melissajose4850]

Thank you for sharing! This resonates with me so much! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@tarinaahuja348]

Rising sophomore here :) Can't wait to meet your incredible self in a month - you have such a radiant energy and soul

[@naechim7185]

Funny how we live far away from each other yet still experience similar things!!! Just like you, I had a "list" that I was rushing to complete including every course I should take during my undergrads, possible companies I could apply as an intern and continue after my graduation, my high bf I should marry... However, everything changed when me and my bf broke up and I assure you nothing hurt me more than this. It was really painful to realise that me and my bf were growing into different personalities after literally growing up together for more than 5 years considering I am only 22. I knew it was the best option for both of us since we started to drift apart and argue more frequently than usual. However, my mental health was at its worst. The remaining failures in other areas of my life were just happened like dominos. I couldn't get myself up and do my school work because I was struggling so much, ended up wasting a semester since it is not possible to have a gap year. All of my grades were F that time. The next semester I was starting to feel better but covid happened and it just made everything worst for me. I developed anxiety. However, I took my time to read books - your vids helped me soo much I really loved your recs - cooking, painting, yoga and other stuff. I read philosophy, psychology, linguistics and many more. I discovered parts of me that I never know it existed. I am now more than ready to go back to school again - I got my 2 shots, hopefully face to face- . I mean, those things happen. We should see them as opportunities for self-development. I hope you are happy and healthy💞

[@erum__ehsan]

I was a junior in high school when I subbed you, 15 years old basically an infant, now i have passed high school with distinction, and am giving my college entrance exam, its 47 days later and I guess this is the most unsure time of my life. Been watching you John, it was an enriching experience.

[@adebayostephen7576]

I wish you the best.

[@erum__ehsan]

@@adebayostephen7576 thank you! All the best to you too!

[@arif2336]

@@erum__ehsan how's college going?

[@erumehsan1033]

@@arif2336 didn't get in

[@arif2336]

@@erumehsan1033 oh sorry to hear that

[@Maredrom]

Really glad you enjoyed Montréal.