Ppl think my mind is broken but perhaps it's actually my heart.

I know that just from the title alone people will judge me and think i’m crazy!
Society thinks it’s simple..some people are "sane", while others are "insane"..but it’s not black and white...it’s a massive fucking spectrum!
Anyway that’s not the point of this video.
The point of this video is to say BE TRUE TO YOURSELF, ALWAYS!!!
The point of it is also to explain where my heart is at, and right now it feels pretty fucking crushed.
I’ve always tried to do everything from my heart since I began the journey I’m on, but this is at odds with certain people around me. And I can’t carry on down this same path anymore.
I’m no angel myself of course. Far from it. I can be demanding, impatient, jealous etc
But I always aimed to be true to myself.
Now I don’t know what that is anymore.
The world is so lacking in truth these days...just look at President Trump or Prime Minister Johnson. We are led by liars. People only out for themselves.
What is the point of life without truth though? I struggle to see it.
But, you live, you learn. I really wanted to be everyone’s best friend but I realise that is impossible now.
Thanks for watching. 2020 IS going to be different. So I remain hopeful xxx

[@mandingo94750]

Johnny, you inspired me to speak my truth, the fact that I have mental health issues. I’ve been brave enough to hate my soul in my workplace. I haven’t looked back and I’m doing good work to educate, empower and inspire. I want to thank you from my heart! Keep strong Johnny, be yourself, be proud of who you are!

[@angelakenyon7490]

You make perfect sense to me....🙏🌹

[@ShawnPhelpsVlog]

I’ve also been feeling depressed and confused, also saying I can’t go on like this and knowing I need to make some personal change if I want to untangle my mind. What kind of life would you like to have though? I’ve been watching a lot of your videos and you’ve talked about mindfulness meditation. Are you finding the time to keep up that practice? Are you getting out in nature? I know that helps me so I’ve been trying to do that more often. Are your medications stable or have your dosages been changed? Mental illness is no joke... it’s a hard life when you’ve had to battle racing, obsessive, confused thoughts all day, everyday. But, I do think there are things that work to lessen the burden. It’s just hard to keep the habits up. I can also see how reliving that day over and over isn’t really the healthiest thing for your mind when you’re already feeling down. That said, I do think you’re doing a public good by sharing your story. Good luck to you, and I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time right now. Just remember it will pass.

[@brimmingapplerowentree6232]

Glad to see that think walking in nature is beneficial, because it is,at least it is when you are stable enough.

[@bradmarcus6030]

I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2015, then schizo-affective in 2016. I feel where you're coming from man!

[@e.e.3583]

The "Behind The Scenes" is the most important. Hope you find a way to talk about that to beloved and maybe in future to unknown persons who have the same struggles. It's obvious in your eyes on camera when you drift off, which is natural. Send you a strong bear hug, Esther🍀⚘

[@reynolds1949]

Hello, my lovely! I hope the talk went well and you got through it OK. None of it is your fault! You are an absolute gem, don't ever forget that. 2020 will be a good year for you to start over but never lose your truth. Please keep letting us know how you're doing Tony Salisbury x

[@suzannealsop3394]

💚💚💚I hear you Jonny. I have been ill with psychosis just recently and had to take 6 weeks off work. I am only now going back on a phased return and increased dose of meds to prevent relapses. I have to keep life fairly simple and not overload myself to stay well. Other people in my workplace struggle too, some with a mental illness and some without. I am always amazed at everything you have achieved as I know how difficult it is managing the illness let alone all the travel and talks that you do. There will be something new and better waiting for you in 2020. Mind, body and soul are all connected. Recently I have become a true Christian walking in the faith and this has helped me when such bad things happen in the world. It is too much for me so I hand it over to God. We are all sinful and are never 100% perfect and I think we are only on earth to learn lessons before we go to a better place. I trust in God that he will make all things right come the end. Anyway, that’s just my take on it. Know what you mean about pushing and pushing, I am just like that! 😂 I refused to believe I was ill at work recently until I could take no more. When I went back yesterday a colleague who I get on well with said ‘I heard you were off ill and then said I think we all knew that! ‘ Sometimes I am always the last one to accept it and try to soldier on regardless. Also hate having to prove my sanity sometimes when I am well too. Have plenty of rest and sleep when you get home and have a re-think about things. Sending you so much love and respect always 🏝 💤 xxx

[@tibsnibs3010]

Love to you Mr! Everything will be ok, your a bright guy. I know the struggle. Be kind to yourself x

[@cole3053]

You’re an inspiration my dude!

[@boomzoombang]

You need a big hug! You are a very handsome guy and you need to give yourself more credit! 😀❤️

[@fionaokane1969]

Sending you lots of love and hugs, Jonny. You are wonderful, just as you are. You make the world a better place, simply by existing. Please put yourself first. It's time. I truly empathise with you. Stay strong and remember, you are loved. ❤️❤️ xxx

[@patrickochinski6754]

They fell in love... 😩💛 Wish I wasn't so good at British crypticness... Courage? You do, courage is the fight to keep going my friend. You are so brave and important to this world. And there are so many that love, care, and need you. 💪🙏💯

[@mssamanthagunn9004]

The good mix! watched ~

[@krask5331]

yes, its always the heart!

[@jrwoledge]

Not 100% I was able to understand your current situation but I feel for you mate. I think you definitely need to take some time out and be amongst people who love you and can lift you up. Be proud for what you have achieved and don't feel guilty for hitting reset and choosing a better path which doesn't make you unwell. Things will get better. 😉

[@user-us7vw3yq8p]

I thought I'd commented yesterday but no sign of it. Maybe I didn't press it but I was trying to be nice and help lol xx

[@achimschmidt2547]

Stay strong, please. You are loved 💫

[@messpilo]

I have intrusive thoughts every day I hope you are fine.

[@audfosutv2500]

Thank you Jonny for being so open in this video. Strive to get off this roundabout. You are right to want to move on from the stranger on the bridge. It's like you're trapped in amber. Your journey has moved so many of us. But that was then and this is now. 2020 is a year of authenticity and peace. I wish you all those things and I believe in you.

[@cynbot]

I hope you can speak your truth I'm cheering for you

[@saravelimirovic8137]

Hey Jonny, this is one of the few times I am leaving an actual comment on KZbin, but it's important I say this: you are RESPONSIBLE for EVERYTHING that happens to you in life. November is hard on everyone, and I bet you think your life and struggles are the hardest, but the truth is, no one cares. You are supported by life, keep on keeping on, and try to get your head out of your ass. peace and love

[@ShawnPhelpsVlog]

Hope you’re doing alright.

[@evaapril7300]

🤗

[@jimthevic]

One day you'll invest in a tripod!! 😆 Take good care of yourself, gorgeous man xx