Howard

Do you remember when we met? You were brilliant, witty, gorgeous to look at...something's changed.
Film by Julia Pott,
Assistant Animator and Compositing by Robin Bushell,
Voice Over by Carolyn Saint Pe,
Sound Design by Danny Boyle,
Music by Walter,
Produced at the Royal College of Art 2010

[@Heytrigger]

This cartoon changed me in high school... and continues to touch me deeply after college. The meaning, to me, has changed over the years... but the effect has grown stronger with every realization and change. I still cry.

[@mako3951]

This is such a good short. A wonderfully accurate way to convey how young love dies. When you are young, falling in love is new and exciting. It is not necessarily the person themselves you fall in love with as much as the thrill of knowing someone intimately for the first time. It is exciting when you get to know someone and feel their committed passionate love for you for the first time. And because it's such a new experience, it is amazing. But eventually, this novelty wears off. Over the years you realize that you did not choose this relationship because you're deeply in love with them as a human being, it was because it was an opportunity to have a new and exciting experience in forming relationships. You may appreciate the bond you've formed with them and think they're a nice person, but inside you know that they are not your choice as a life partner anymore. Severing such a strong attachment can be hard, but it's worth it. It's often better to explore people and relationships as you grow older instead of committing to a young love that you probably will grow out of

[@Myself2Blame]

When I watch these, I feel so weird and a bit uncomfortable, but then at the end.. I feel touched. I really like them.

[@melyjimenez2848]

I feel like this captures fellings very well. I absolutely love this.

[@SensiBooha]

Melissa Jimenez me to

[@cursingqbert]

To this very day I still cry like a bitch whenever I watch this video. Man, time sure takes its time to heal up old wounds.

[@WobblesandBean]

I know. I've had to break a man's heart like this, when he did nothing wrong. We just weren't compatible, but he simply refused to let me go. I still think about him sometimes. I hate myself a little for breaking his heart. I'm sorry, Steven. You were worth more than I was capable of giving you.

[@rijnl1211]

Why do I end up in tears everytime I watch this. so beautiful

[@GravityLlama1]

The music is so perfect.

[@spiceo2]

I was assigned to watch this for my animation class. At first I thought nothing of it and said “alright this is pretty cool, just another assignment though”. Then the next day I came back to it, then the next, and now I can’t stop rewatching it. Hits hard, man.

[@WobblesandBean]

I'm glad it's still getting recognition and being shown to new people. Your teacher is good people.

[@Vectone]

I revisit this video maybe 4-5 times I found it 2011 I think and it’s good watch if your sad or happy.

[@lj111500]

This is a lovely honest look at how one can feel in a relationship. A lot of people have regrets when they leave a relationship. But only honestly inspection of one's feelings and willingness to really evaluate whether or not it is right to stay or leave. And not just stay because your afraid to be alone that motivation is selfish and wrong. Sometimes you have to love someone enough to let them go. Because its the best thing for both of you.

[@bigchefandy]

Simply beautiful. My $0.02: I've known lots of people who spent the first 1/2 of their lives running from great relationships with great people as soon as the honeymoon phase ended. Now in the second 1/2 of their lives, they mostly settle for people with whom there wasn't a honeymoon phase to begin with. Having "uncompromising standards" is often seen as a good thing. Being true to yourself is important, but lack of compromise is never positive. New love is easy, long haul love takes hard work.

[@mathiasroman5365]

and fellings pures

[@Etsy]

Beautifully animated Julia. Congratulations, you've done it again! Great job assisting as usual Robin!

[@lalaloopsee]

I used to watch this when i was younger and didn’t understand. Now as a 23 year old, i’m going through this exact issue shown here.

[@WobblesandBean]

Which side were you on? Cuz I've been on both, and it never gets easier. For what it's worth, I'm sorry.

[@lalaloopsee]

⁠​⁠@@WobblesandBeanthe narrator, unfortunately. its funny that you reply to this 5 month old comment because about a week ago i completely cut contact off with this person. you’re right it doesn’t get easier but i thank you

[@RooneySparks]

This helped me through the hardest break up I've ever been through like 7 years ago. Still makes me feel good and validated.

[@ana7QotSA]

No, actually not. It's simply just the right to be happy, whether if you're a man or a woman. If you're are not happy with your SO, and stay with him/her for what ever reasons, you're only prolonging the drama, and making things worse and difficult towards the end. Simply as that. So it's not call fastidious, it's only common courtesy, indistinctively for both sex.

[@Liboo52]

I wish there were more full length movies with stories like this. If a movie is about someone who is in love with someone who doesn't love back, there is always another character who is conveniently there to love them. Life isn't always like that. That's what's so beautiful about this story, and The Missing Piece.

[@WobblesandBean]

Agreed. There isn't always someone waiting in the wings to step in and pick up where the last one left off. Sometimes things just end, and there's nothing you can do about it. It's horrible, but we have no choice but to move forward.

[@Liboo52]

@@WobblesandBean Thank you for your reply. One of my favorite things about KZbin is when people see comments of mine from over a decade ago and reply as if no time had passed at all. I agree with you, friend, it's serendipitous that you'd take me back to this particular video because I'm currently going through basically the exact scenario I described in my comment all those years ago. It is horrible, but I will try to keep moving forward just like you said, because there's nothing else I can do, but as long as I can keep moving, that's a good thing. Thanks @WobblesandBean

[@WobblesandBean]

This video touches me deeply. I think we've all had to break someone's heart not from a falling out, or by being betrayed, but because we simply fell out of love. It's the worst kind of pain to inflict upon someone you once adored because there simply is no reason for it. It's an empty heartbreak.

[@gerdamartens9013]

I really love this film. It is both visually beautiful and has a touching and a very meaningful story. And all these starry skies!! A great imagination. I hope to see more soon!!!

[@aguirretovarluisamaria8794]

Howard!!!! Summer Camp Island!!!!

[@dominiquefesta8571]

I come back every year to this video just to remind me of something’s. It always makes me cry but it holds a deeper reminder of being able to set boundaries

[@zehlua]

Thank you. I loved this film as a child, and I am going through this emotion now as an adult. Thank you 💜

[@Hobartthedolphinboy]

The roar at the height of the swing!

[@froggles176]

I swear, i've watched this video about 6 times within the last few days. The animation and style are inspirational.

[@JanetheCurious]

This is exactly my situation as of the moment. All those five years came to nothing. Now I'm bent and broken. :(

[@PaebloLeon]

Borderline Awesome I feel you. I feel like I’m Howard. My girlfriend broke up with me a week ago after almost 6 years. :(

[@scorpionaddiction2801]

@@PaebloLeon are you doing okay now?

[@PaebloLeon]

@@scorpionaddiction2801 I've learned a lot about relationships, trying to embrace and deconstruct with consciousness and resilience. I still see her as an amazing human being and I don't think my love for her has changed a single bit. Yet, I am happy to know she's with someone I actually appreciate and admire. Good fella, and I forever wish her the very best. I guess it's important to understand relationships change. We're flooded with negative connotations (i.e., "breakup"), and I've chosen to see it as a kind of involuntary transition of love that also becomes an invitation to check one's ego, wants/needs, desires. I can go on for hours with a nostalgic conversation, but long story short: Yep, I'm ok; and truly hoping she is, too. Spent some of the best years of my life with her. ❤

[@scorpionaddiction2801]

@@PaebloLeon // It's weird. Been six years with my partner and I feel I've become toxic for him, and feel upset by things he's done over a year after the fact. I want to break things off with him, for both of our sakes. I hope he comes out okay and understands like you do. Whatever happens I feel like it's going to be for the best.

[@PaebloLeon]

@@scorpionaddiction2801 I personally feel like that event brought a lot of things that I was able to channel into self growth and a focus I didn't know I needed. Openness is needed to embrace the fact that us humans want and need change; even if that involves growing apart from those we love, and it feels awkward because we've always been taught it's wrong. But it is achievable and, ultimately, I think ending a relationship does not always mean you don't want them in your life anymore, or that you hate them or dislike them. I guess there's phases in life in which we can truly grow together with another person, until we can't, for whatever reason. Maybe you/him want or need to focus on yourselves for a kind of self growth you're unable to begin or continue because of your current dynamics. I think at some point of the relationship we all come to those realizations but the fear of losing them, insecurities, etc. prevent us from even begining to address it. Also another important element is, we should always take care of our emotional reactions regarding this, and ask ourselves to what extent does the change the other person wants/needs is truly related to us; to what extent are we making all this about ourselves (why are you leaving me vs. humbly embracing the other's desire for a change in the relationship) . I don't know, it's 4:12 am and I'm just echoing what I've learned. :D

[@fabiancaceres1473]

i found it after years.. men its always make me tear up

[@meganli4863]

Such a sweet loving story. It's so ADORABLE!!!!

[@ataraxia7439]

Summer Camp Island is one of my favorite shows.

[@RawHeadRay]

"why cant i be as happy as i was before"

[@OfDeadDestruction]

When she said "I don't want to marry you." I audibly went aw.

[@Kat263]

i love how original your animation style is :) 4 years after watching my first video of yours (my first crush) to be reunited through a facebook video i was watching and saying to myself "this animation style is so familiar, it reminds me of my first crush..." then i clicked on it which linked me here and i was happy to find that the artist was the same :)

[@franceshemphill]

An absolute favorite.

[@brianratigan]

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE this.

[@nightofthemonkies]

This honestly gives me chills and brings tears to my eyes. It's my favorite of your videos since I first saw "My First Crush". But yet it hurts me to watch because I have broken every one of my boyfriend's hearts by leaving them from falling out of love. It's such a scary thing to have happen on both ends of the spectrum.

[@34Aykut55]

I beg you summer camp island new episodes come I miss you so much

[@lewisnoll]

Julia.. I love this animation... so refreshing to see such a delicate style!

[@VyckyM]

Wonderful wonderful wonderful!

[@syurjevic]

You are beautiful, Julia Pott

[@STEFANundMARKUS]

Sebastian Yurjevic thank you !

[@rachel2142]

@@STEFANundMARKUS what? are THE Julia Pott?

[@kerencl]

Do you remember the first time we met? I suppose love is not just about feeling but also putting in efforts to maintain the relationship. So please don't give up on me.

[@SkullCupcake24]

plz make more plz plz im in love with ur storys and cartoons

[@11111hz]

So great.

[@pizzaforeveryone]

that was sort of devastatingly sad but beautiful.

[@IAmRobbE]

Vary well done! Excellent music as well, it fit perfectly with the style and story!

[@mickeythemighty]

it was the best animated short film i have seen in a long long time. thank you for that master piece!

[@seanhogan1983]

Beautiful

[@darkheartgold]

Primer comentario en 2023 XD me encantó el piloto my inspiración para dibujar , animar . campamento de verano megusto mucho el personaje de erizó

[@elvientolfer]

I liked this video so much until now. I shared this one to my girlfriend days ago and today.. she broke up with me. coincidence? I don't thinks so.

[@jkswanso]

Brilliant! Love your work!

[@SerioMann]

i've missed these

[@flowerdeluna]

What song is this????

[@carlosthekiller4840]

Sigo esperando más de 8 años

[@chrisalexandra2794]

this is completely amazing.

[@th86stone]

in a word expectation. with a side of instant gratification.

[@thaismota3373]

stunning!

[@MNPComedy]

That was amazing!

[@Jussy833]

Along with "My First Crush" (which I've watched since College in 2007), this is one of my most favourites of yours Julia~ ^w^ Very well done indeed~ A++

[@1090gg]

The style, the setting, etc. of this short will featured also in the new upcoming Cartoon Network show "Summer Camp Island".

[@tomaspitt3833]

Juliapot is the creator of summer camp island oh yeah go watch more of her short films

[@DEEZTV]

wow! simply amazing..

[@anduinemor1]

brilliant. love the voice-over.

[@iosballodasola]

it's lovely.... sooo sooo tender..

[@masparasol]

Well finally someone said it.

[@MeiLanization]

this is lovely miss pott, and well done for being in the december issue of computer arts.

[@iomoo]

aaah i got serious chills :)

[@agathamontha8132]

Julia, you know there are two names Howard on this film and another on Summer Camp Island.

[@perisore]

JULIA POTT, YOURE INCREDIBLEEEE AAAAAAA ><

[@JedShepherd]

absolutely beautiful. please make LOTS more! jed

[@OskourDuservo]

Brilliant!

[@ohmygodfatherscat]

That was such a beautiful and sad animation

[@livietommo6490]

it is so confusing and also VERY entertaining!

[@thesecretheat]

love your work!

[@narusasurules2much]

omg this is so sad i still love it

[@EztliAztecatl]

iOS? is that similar to luOS?

[@juliocabrera7963]

hora de aventura era lo mejor pero tu puedes darnos algo mejor tu puedes darnos la nostalgia que sentimos al ver el final

[@tamichu6]

Sin palabras..

[@la_abuelita_luzma1360]

Te miedo

A mi me dejo el corazon partio la verdad la musica y la historia

[@TheAlwaysLovatic]

Aww the last part:(

[@sailhobiecat]

Your stuff is AMAZING!

[@peterlikesthis]

ah man I remember watching this at the animation film festival.. i rated high!

[@skhan002]

so relatable

[@interstellarturtle9775]

My god 2:37 sounded so real.

[@liminalkat]

brilliant.

[@IDontKnowCorp]

Lovely

[@EztliAztecatl]

R u Sirius?

[@Neurodelica]

lovely :)

[@ktinporta]

Awesome Julia Pott , wich software you use?

[@catalina3664]

i think she works with photoshop frame by frame, and after effects maybe

[@Pepipeperoni]

you are a genius!

[@embru]

'twas amazing.

[@STEFANundMARKUS]

i wish my girlfriend was a bear. wait. i have no girlfriend. damn ):

[@STEFANundMARKUS]

still funny 🐻

[@TunaULove]

holy shit this is beautiful. chiiilllsss.

[@MrMistery101]

Epic last name

[@halfdark000]

I long to see a romance where the moral is that honesty and self-respect can be more important than partners, or where a strong female character doesn't mean she carries a gun and not enough clothing. Hollywood could never be this articulate or considerate.

[@TheFuckOffMe]

this feels like adventure time but better

[@BadLactose]

One again, you've created a beguiling piece of animation.

[@TheMunchz]

KZbin recomendando cosas de hace 9 años? Creo que estare aqui unos buenos años sin likes xd

[@canalabandonado6433]

X2

[@andymaster8281]

Y yo dando like ahorita

Calma que esta animacion me hizo entrar en depresion

[@moosey44p]

answering vargasenator regardind 1:13 after "unbathe"; "and ungroomed to within an inch of your life."

[@tretatos]

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[@ritualpenguin]

making an effort on You tube? = brilliant!

[@rioferiokeanud.6549]

Who here is a summer camp island fan comment#summercampislandfan

[@Melttger]

I am fan summer camp island

[@MrEpicErickR]

i really do like this video but honestly looking at this makes me not want to be in a relationship

[@chockfullofmoxie]

Currently: Crying

[@Ak010ux]

i think this is how my mom feels about my dad

[@philliple123]

Tragic I saw your comment on my iOS mobile device... but maybe.