Just A Dream

[I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.]
So I know this may come as a shock to a lot of you, please bare with me as this is extremely difficult for me to write.
I had owned Leo for about two and a half years.
Due to unforeseen circumstances we were forced to sell Leo. I miss him with all my heart. While this has been an extremely difficult time this has in turn opened up some great opportunities for me riding wise. I look forward to the future and am deeply grateful that I was able to call Leo mine.
When one door closes another one opens.

[@mayabojan636]

I'm heartbroken. You and Leo were my favourite team to watch. Praying for you and your family and that you'll be back on your path of happiness soon. You deserve it

[@luciejurickova4841]

Hezkèatakè

[@heidihoney1]

I clicked on this video, so happy to see a new upload from you, then as I heard the song, and audio, I began to get a feeling that this wasn't a happy video. I didn't want to scroll down and read the description, like this is heartbreaking for me, and I didn't even personally know you! This is an AMAZING video, like always, and I am so incredibly sorry for this. I can't even imagine. :(

[@briannamoffat2009]

exactly my thoughts

[@rebeccagrocholl3571]

my thoughts

[@jadaburnette2916]

heidihoney1 my baby was my everything he died a little ovdr 2 weeks ago

[@meagan1827]

Trust me the feeling is almost unbearable. I myself have experienced a time like this

[@user-uy9fx5mv2x]

I cried a little and I don't know her either 😔

[@jesseq2793]

I'm not kidding I've watched this like 100 times

[@Reb.1444]

Same thing😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 my mom got anoyed 😬

[@TheSmallworlds2000]

this literally made me cry. i was bawling like a baby. i now realized how attached you get to a horse overtime, and it is the hardest thing to say goodbye. you're the best rider ive seen and you're a strong person. keep going and don't give up no matter what life throws your way. maybe one day you'll meet again, or you'll find another horse thats just as amazing as he is

[@AsharpJumper77]

you deserved him. more than anything. i am so sorry that you and your family feel in to tougher times. he will remember you - and all you gave him. chin up lady - you are special.

[@xPaintTheSkyx]

I am completely broken for you... I can't even imagine. I wish there was a way that leo could still be yours. you two were so perfect together. Hang in there girl. You are made for this sport. You have been through so much heart break, it will only make you stronger.

[@pitbulls4life141]

I cried cause I thought of a horse that I used to know.🐎he was amazing, and I think off him every day. Love you flight, rest in peace my baby.

[@emmaline8aj412]

I had to leave my horse from camp, and I cry when I think about him. Like right now.... He was my baby, and I even made a small horse figurine of him.. I sleep with it every night, either it's with me or beside me on my beside table, because I can't and couldn't and never would be able to be away from him... Even if it is just a fake version of him.... I love him so much... I miss him with every beat of my heart and every breath I take... Every second of my life I'm always thinking about him, no matter what's going on at the time... I cry for you at night, every night.... You were the one and only for me... We had the strongest relationship together.. The strongest bond.... Everyone said so.... Even I think we did... And we still do... Never forget that I love you and I will never forget you... Never ever.... I just wish I had a little more time.... We had a little more time... I love you so much, and I would die just to see you again... My baby again... I love you Heat... and I will wait for you.... 😭😢❤️💔

[@scenery001]

I cry when i see your coment

[@sabethspr]

I am so sorry for you.. I just can't believe it, you didn't deserve this! Stay strong and I hope everything will work out for you and your family! ♥

[@evitare8714]

I am so sorry for your loss. Lots of hugs and cookies your way. I am sure he is loved and appreciated. Best of luck with everything, financially and riding-future-wise. Life is so hard sometimes.

[@caleighcalhoun5263]

horse's have a way of encapsulating our whole hearts, in ways both good and bad. what a beautiful horse, i'm sure leo is in a great home. this was a lovely video, i'm so sorry for your loss.

[@lucy-ix4xq]

I just saw this now! I'm So Sorry! You guys were an amazing team! Your very positive, and strong! I liked and subscribed! ♡

[@prmntink]

I was watching Horse videos almost all night and I didn't blink unless there was no horse on the screen. This is so sweet ❤️💜❤️💙

[@horses9294]

I'm so so sorry about your situation. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. You gave Leo the best 2 and a half years of his life guaranteed. Wishing the best for you and your family.

[@paulafleddermann3060]

I could not imagine losing my mare. I'm so very sorry for your loss! I hope you find happiness again, you deserve it. Even tho i don't personally know you, I cried during this video. You are a talented rider and keep moving along in your riding. Ik Leo will never forget you like you won't forget him 💖

[@LoveMaverik]

Just clicking on this I knew it was going so break my heart. I'm so so sorry I can't even imagine what you must be feeling. Bad things happen to really good people- just goes to show. And you're the best. I hope you are okay and I'm glad you're still working with the horsey thing- it's never an easy thing to do after having to say goodbye to a close friend

[@equineelli2726]

Trust me I understand the pain. my horse has passed away and lyrics like: " think about us, what we could've been" just makes me think about my loss. I love how you think of this in a positive way. you are very strong so keep fighting

[@annieseto5644]

I've watched your videos forever and I like you and Leo as a team, so sorry you had to sell him. I know you will make it in the horse world one way or another!!

[@EquestrianTina]

I'm in you're same situation... I really know that's really hard to believe. And it's really hard the fact that you have to pass though this things, and you have to let go the most important thing... Know that you will surely find a way to continue... I'm with you and I'd love to support you perhaps just a little with this message. I'm so sorry for you, I totally understand how it means, loose what you had since the day before... You have to stay strong! Always love you and your videos!❤️

[@allieevans6717]

This video actually gave me chills. Anytime somebody asks me what it was like to lose my horse, I just show them this video.

[@amyperkins30]

This video was amzing,, just stay stronge!! He will always be in heart no matter how far apart u r!!

[@Polopony20.]

the things that teach us the most leave so soon.... i just pray my mare wont teach me much, or this wont hold true, ive only had her a year, and she brough so much confidence. She once again lit the spark of Eventing in me....

[@marthaxxalexi]

Oh my god I can't believe this.., I am so sorry for you! It has to be so damn hard, I can't even imagine. This absolutely broke my heart, I loved you two together and this video is in some ways so emotional. I really hope you will be back on track in this amazing sport soon, you deserve it.

[@eiry25]

Can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling, heartbreaking situation. Good luck for the future, and hope you're okay!

[@equineelli2726]

the loss of a horse is one of the hardest things you will ever go through, I know everyone keeps saying it'll be ok just let got, letting go is impossible so never let go but just accept, stay strong and soon the light will come thru like it did for me because I have a horse who went through no pain and nowadays we are galloping along beaches, he will NEVER replace angel but he has given me a chance to REALLY ride, we are very experienced now, I know it seems impossible to be happy again, but just stay strong and you'll get out the other end in one piece ♡

[@theponygang5112]

Omg... I almost cried when I read the description... I feel so sorry... The video is amazing!

[@minnamoon5734]

oh my.. this is incredibly stunning- im so so sorry for you, you two were the dream team... i really hoping everything picks up for you and you find another way, you really deserve it x

[@FancyBug123]

My heart broke after reading the description :( You and Leo made such an amazing pair, and I'm so sorry you had to sell him❤️ I've been following your riding journey for a long time now, and I've always admired your determination for success no matter what circumstance you're faced with. I hope things start looking up for you soon ❤️

[@xxcaddixx88]

Wow ❤️ ... [speechless] 🎀

[@IsabellaPinon]

I can see you have a very strong relationship with this horse! Happy trails

[@BayleaToth]

I've always respected you as a person because your work ethic and desire to achieve your goals and be successful have always come out through your videos. I also have aspirations to make a career and future in this industry and have devoted my life to it, so I've always felt that I can somewhat relate to you and have loved watching you work and improve in every video. I am so so sorry that this has happened to you and it makes me very sad, because I can imagine how crushing it might feel to you. There will always be set backs because if there weren't, everyone would be at the top and that's not the case especially in this business. I know that you will make things work and will come out of this scenario and end up achieving your goals and I look forward to continuing to follow your journey, because I know it will have a happy ending. Trust people when they say everything happens for a reason, because no matter how unfair things may seem.. everything DOES happen for a reason. Things will turn out the way you want them to if you keep working

[@piperhayes3862]

You are an inspiration and I truly wish with everything in my heart that I see you at the top one day❤️

[@briannamercedes4016]

I'm so sorry that you are in this situation. The partnership you had with Leo seemed like one I've always dreamed of having with my own horse someday. I never did own a horse, but a few years ago my mom lost her job of 20 years, and now it seems impossible for her to get a new one (either she's too old or too qualified). The transition from being well of financially to a minimum wage income has been very hard, but it's come with it's positives as well. I hope you and your family are ok, and I hope you're still doing what you love. Working through your setbacks will only make you stronger :) Wishing you well! I'm sure you'll find another great horse in the future.

[@salernodaisy9476]

ohmygosh, I really didn't expect this. I'm so sorry for you, and I really hope that you'll see him again! This video is more that incredible. This is te best edited video I've ever seen, And it's so incredibly touching. Stay strong! ♥

[@ImHotIPromise]

I completely understand where you're coming from, and it's a terrible situation to be in. I am devastated for you and Leo.. you two were truly one of my favorite pairs and will be for years to come. I'm sure you guys will meet again someday, when you're ready.

[@TrailPony]

My heart breaks for you. I cannot fathom the position in you are in and the decisions you were forced to make. The video is absolutely stunning.

[@krow3786]

I had a horse who was about 2 years old. He was going to go to the butcher but we saved him. He hated everyone and I was the only one who could get close to him. After an accident I stopped riding for a bit but I learned to ride over again and he was there with me to learn. He was my baby and taught me to love riding again. We learned together and I loved him, until one day I came back from a vacation and found out they sold him..

[@xtheciscokidx]

Oh my gosh, this is so beautiful. I am so sorry to hear about this news. So much emotion went into this, I could just tell. I think everyone could tell! I have no words, just speechless on what has happened.

[@rubystrongheart5690]

*puts hand up*

[@heartofequine]

You are so strong and utterly inspiring. Giving up the love of your life in order to ease the financial pain of your parents and yourself is something that is indescribably hard, yet you did it. I will forever remember Leo and Cirsten as the pair that continually inspired me to be a better rider and a better person. I wish you the best of luck in the future xx

[@carlychandler3026]

I keep watching this over and over again, even though it's sad. I feel for you and don't even know you!

[@nataliasowa2957]

It's beautiful what you're doing, you don't know how much inspiration you are to me.

[@horsesrmylife78]

This is heartbreaking!! I think that saying goodbye to a horse is one of the most painful things in the world. I hope you're okay, and I'm glad to hear that you won't stop riding. Stay strong!

[@Horses9001]

This actually broke my heart :( I am so sorry for both you and your family and I really hope everything works out for you ❤️❤️

[@EnglishPony]

What an awful, heartbreaking situation! I'm so sorry this has happened and I hope that things will become better with time x

[@showjumpinggirl100]

I know you can do it, I don't come from a lot of money and it motivates you so much to fight for what you love. I bought my horse in March 2015 by doing payments, I absolutely love him but selling him to get a horse to do the big stuff on and to put money towards showing. I don't make a lot of money so I just gotta save up what I can and do what I have to do to get where I wanna be. You are such a fantastic rider and I always love watching your videos, with your talent you will get far in the industry 😊

[@Deeem100]

Oh my gosh i'm soooo sorry for you.. As Heidi said I was so happy to see another upload of you and then I started reading the description ahw it breaks my heart.. Really don't know what to say Cirsten.. nobody deserves this, but eventually you are so Lucky to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.. ♥

[@queenofhearts5151]

I'm so sorry love. I've been following your journey with many horses, including him (this is just my new account). You were an incredible pair. I hope the best for you and know that everything happens for a reason. Leo may have given you the ride of your life, but you have him the greatest life he could have. He'll miss you too. His new owner will love him. Keep your head up love, you got this :)

[@tt-kj6ek]

You are beautiful with your horse and the song too !! ❤️

[@chrissyp2931]

What a beautiful video, Thank you for sharing ❤

[@yfriesians]

"You have to keep pushing toward those dreams no matter what set backs happen" Cirsten I'm so sorry about that! :( Your an amazing rider and I wish you and your family the best of luck!

[@delated6777]

i was like yay! a new video and then i heard the song, the audio and then i read the dicription over and over again i am so sorry for you and its so sad to see him go i really wish you the beat of luck and i hope you can someday get him vack because you two where the greatest team i have ever seen ;)

[@zoegilster7686]

Oh my God 😮 from the first seconds to the last i was shocked 😍 it's a wonderful movie, you are a wonderful team 😍 it's so pretty, but i Can't explain that… wow ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ravenheart4113]

No matter how much I watch this. I can’t keep from coming to tears

[@emiliasameefroughi9680]

I am so sorry... When I saw that video first time is started crying. I cry now too... Beautiful video and lovely song. 😭💕💔❤

[@skyeoelofse7303]

My horse and I have a connection I feel her. I've just started riding but I think it's worth it because when I'm with horses I feel free and this video brings out that feeling.

[@IRide4TheBlue]

Oh my gosh, girl, i am so sorry. Life is just not fair. You worked so hard to get where you are, and i know you can find a way to accomplish your dreams, even if you have to take a different route now. I'm keeping you in my prayers, but I know your talent will take you far. i'm sure these words come of little comfort to you at this time but i hope you know they're true

[@almudenagarcia9114]

I'm really sorry, you both look so nice together... I wish you the best of lucks, be strong!

[@iloverazor101]

I'm so so sorry Cirsten :( you two were so great together, i can't believe that it had to come for this. Chin up, you are the definition of someone made for riding, and you can get through this.

[@kirstenelzinga1081]

I didn't see that coming 😞 You were absolutely amazing together, I hope you'll be able to visit him sometime and that your father will get a job again soon! Stay strong

[@onlydreams9716]

this video is so amazing! I love it! and I'm soo sorry for you😞

[@eyvetteshelby2304]

life is hard WHEN some one has your baby

[@smc542]

This actually made me cry, it was beautiful

[@sarafox9826]

I'm so sorry he was a brilliant horse great jumper and we all loved him and i don't know y some people disliked this vid its so sad and i feel so bad u go were a amazing team I hope u will see him again....😢😢

[@raythegoth]

I'm so, so sorry Cirsten :( you really don't deserve this, you and Leo were an incredible pair but you've given each other so much and you'll always have that! All those memories, all those achievements, they're YOURS and no one can take those away ❤️ You're an incredible rider and you'll definitely go far in the sport with your passion and dedication! Chin up girl, when you hit rock bottom the only way is up ❤️

[@justjumping]

i love how you took the possitive route! stay positive!

[@einherzmitpunkten6110]

I must only crying when I watch this beautiful video😭❤️❤️

[@faithhawthorn2408]

me2

[@jessaminegloomcloud4009]

I can't love my horse because I don't have one or ride one I can't imagine how happy you are to do an amazing sport and I'm just sitting on my bottom watching people accomplish my dream I'll one day find my horse and accomplish my dream

[@laurawagner4579]

Beautiful edit. I'm so sorry!

[@Blitzen72697]

I am so sorry, Cirsten. You and Leo were such an amazing team and, even though he is no longer yours, no one can take away all that you have accomplished and shared together. You are such an incredible talent, so I have no doubt that you will have success in the equestrian world. You just have to stay strong and never give up - no matter what.

[@apoaer]

I love you woman. You're going to overcome this, I believe it. Don't ever give up.

[@yvis5251]

I just found your video and it's amazing. Really beautiful!

[@stolemyheart8679]

this video is stunning I'm so sorry about what happened but gorgeous video

[@1PonyGirl1]

This is incredibly sad to hear because you're such a talented rider and you two were such a suited partnership for each other! Losing a horse because of insufficient funds is heart breaking for anyone especially when in the horse industry it's all about money :/ I wish you the best of luck in your coming journey and I believe the saying "All things happen for a reason" will apply to you and your future, you'll go far - I know it :)

[@meagan1827]

I cried my eyes out watching this I had been in a school for 5 years straight. I had so many friends that I had called family. I was so hap y there. I loved everyone there. When I found out I had to move away after 5 years with family i was to the point where I just wanted to dig a hole and hide forever. I miss my friends so much and I cried the entire time i watched this.😰😢😣😣

[@kariequii]

All i am gonna say is that you are really strong...if that was me i probably wouldnt be able to think straight. So sad that needed to happen the video is touching tbh i cried

[@EquiiRash11]

Life is so unfair. You really didn't deserve this at all. You are amazing girl. Stay strong. Best wishes ❤

[@Schleichhorses24]

Oh my god, this is the worst news Cirsten. I'm so sorry for your 'loss', you guys were an amazing team. I know how you feel, i lost Daiske after 4 years and I cried my eyeballs out for weeks. Your video is amazing tho, the song fits your story so well and I really hope things will get better for you soon girl!

[@leighfieldsphotography]

I was so excited to see the email notification pop up that you'd uploaded but my heart sank when I read the top of the description before watching the video. I am shocked and so so sad for you, Cirsten. Your videos have been one of only two or three editors that I still check KZbin for, and it was because of your pure passion for this sport. (And stunning editing skills, but I digress) You have quite honestly been the only person I've seen on here that I've ever felt truly had "the stuff" to make it in this industry. This is an unexpected setback, and a heartbreaking one I am sure, but you will make it through it, I'm sure - and we're all here with and for you! You go girl!

[@HunterJumperCassie]

Broken hearted for you, it's terrible to sell your horse. Keep your head up and I wish you every bit of success in the world.

[@xxJannaJessiexx]

I'm so sorry this happened to you and your family I hope everything will work out, keep your head high ❤️

[@TheCarrotlove]

Looks like you both had a great partnership. You've got his, you can make it. He will always remember you.

[@chicaine4915]

i loved this , it is so incredible

[@chicaine4915]

+EquiiCaine i liked and subed x

[@annaoleary5665]

This is so beautiful and sad😢😢😢It made me cry😭😭 it's my fave video to watch every time I cry about my beloved nacho 😢😢

[@laurahunter3675]

I use to do horse riding for over 5 years and I haven't being doing it for about a year 😊 After watching this it makes my cry how much I miss it and my horse 😓

[@julianakrieg7671]

Beautiful horse

[@equineelli2726]

I had a horse and we were just getting more experienced like learning to jump after his accident, then the next day he was diagnosed with cancer, he lived for a week but he was in pain, finally the toughest decision of my life was made, we put him down, he could barely walk, you could see the pain in his eyes, but he is always and forever in my heart ♡

[@taliamaurice8008]

Omg this is one of my favorite videos of all time!!!

[@taliamaurice8008]

(I don't mean this comment to be harsh it was just great editing !) I am so sorry for your loss

[@caitlinpadgett-pararider5037]

So sorry you had to sell him, such an emotional video.

[@briannamoffat2009]

I'm so sorry. truly inspirational video though 💜

[@starstablez8524]

Wow... just wow. Its so powerfull and also kinda emotional. Im just happy after seen this video :D

[@BehindxBlueEyesx]

I'm so sorry. I know what it's like. Having to let go to of that one horse that just completed your life. I promise. It gets better. It's hard I know, but you're a very talented rider with a bright future, and I know there is an amazing opportunity with an amazing horse waiting for you! I'm here for you! Best wishes :)

[@elyssiacollett9037]

Love the song so motivational, so dreamy!

[@chrisclarke754]

I'm really sorry :( I'm sure you can still make it, you're amazing!

[@lolsmh3204]

wow. amazing video. im so sorry for that what happened to you. i hope that you two will get together again. i like your videos. i used to like this song. now it just remind my, how many riders get separated from their horses. i wish you best of luck with everything 🍀 🍀 💔

[@rebeccaharbin3189]

I don't know what I would do if I lost my horse, I am truly sorry for your loss.😭🐎

[@nikitameeusen7208]

This was so Beautifal i can crying for this video this was so magical

[@bebecadum1471]

Just ... Amazing ❤

[@TheNativeHorses]

Cirsten I am so sorry to hear you had to sell Leo, you are such an amazing person you are the last person this should happen to. You and your family may be going through a really tough time right now, but his is your heart horse, fate might play a part in one day bringing you two back together. I wish the very best for you, your family and your hopeful future with Leo.

[@reaganlittle8396]

I'm so sorry.😭I am praying for you and your family.