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IA cover with better mixing (lol): / quiet-room-ft-ia-cover...
"I can't remain upright any longer anyway."
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This song is so beautiful and sad, I love it to pieces. I know most people say it revolves around two childhood friends that grew apart and all but for some reason it relates to me in certain different ways. I can't help but think that these two personas are two parts of the same person. You find solace in a quiet room you’ve made for yourself and you seem to enjoy its peace. You begin to enjoy your own company. These personas exist to keep each other company especially when things in life go downhill.
One part of you leads the other into certain choices, wishing that these would grant you a form of happiness without knowing that these decisions would eventually kill the rest of you albeit slowly. But despite that, all you want is mere assurance from yourself. You pat yourself on your back and try to get rid of the insecurities that latch onto your shoulders… Yet they don't seem to go away, now do they?
They bring you down so bad that the things happening around you dig too deep into your bare feet, and what makes it sadder is that you feel too numb to even notice or feel the pain. You get too accustomed to the bile in your tongue that it eventually becomes tasteless to you. Nevertheless, by the end of the day, you ask yourself if your confidence was ever even there to begin with.
Was your HAPPINESS even there in the first place?
Does YOURSELF still exist?
Or rather…. was she even there to BEGIN with?
Was the “YOU” you’ve known always been just a mere figment of your imagination?
You realize that the person you’ve been living as had always been a stranger. You tried too hard to get to know them better; what makes them happy, what makes them laugh, what they want to be when they grow up, what their purpose in life is. But your effort becomes fruitless as you see that the plants you’ve been cultivating don’t seem to grow. The promises you’d given to yourself and those New Year’s resolutions all seem to shrink as your stubbornness grows. By then, you’d finally want to disappear into the darkness.
That pair of scissors suddenly look enticing to you.
After all… who would want to live as a liar?
But you’re afraid.
You find yourself in the same spiral. You drag the other part of you to tag along; as you run away like the coward you are….because you are unsure… unsure if you even have it in you to end things…. Because you know that it doesn’t solve anything. The fear of being alone consumes you and you just want someone to keep an eye on you̶ to know if someone actually cares. And yet you thirst for your own love more than anything. Ironically, despite this, you seem to drift further away. Unreachable… until the quiet room you used to have solace in becomes a place you would eventually despise.
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Sorry for my rambling guys ;; v ;; it’s been a long year, I hope you’re clutching on hard. I just wanted to thank all of you for your support. I still can’t believe I’d reach this many followers really. You’ve all been kind to me despite me being such an inactive and horrible coverer (is that even a word lol)
Also wanna thank the amazing people in my life so far, I wanna list all of your names but this description might grow even longer. Anyways, you know who you are. Thanks for being here in my ups and downs whether be it in discord, messenger, skype or SC pm. I really appreciate the efforts you’ve all put to talk to me, ranging from talks about pixel art, KPOP, my own unreleased UTAU, Gordon Ramsay??? Chorus battles, ships and everything really. I usually can’t express my feelings well but I hope all of you know you are special to me.
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◆Yuukisan (music, lyrics)
◆Touyou Igaku (illust, movie)
◆minome (VSQx, mixing & tuning)
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(THIS VSQX IS A MONTH OLD I’M SO SORRY SHDGD I WANTED TO POST IT THE DAY AFTER KYAAMI COVERED THE SONG BUT THEN, I SUDDENLY WANTED TO WAIT FOR A 1500 SPECIAL IN SOUNDCLOUD ;; w ;;)
VSQx:
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Please credit me if you use my VSQx, I'd love to see your work too!!!
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