【Kanzaki Iori】Hated by life itself - eng sub【Hatsune Miku】

[@ChocobitzXD]

i love how at the end of the video, the screen just fades out to black and you can see your face staring soulessly into the screen

[@mietchfrfr9404]

i'm sure this is supposed to be serious probably but i can't help laughing cuz of how true it is

[@hellraiser1306]

Damn thats deep

[@bananamilk5753]

Can't the lights are off. Kay I tried it Though I am already dead in the inside

[@karl4286]

I couldn't help but laugh since it's so true

[@marujul]

why is this so true, I want to laugh like the others here but there’s no expression coming out.

[@andante4904]

"In truth I couldn't care a bit if I died but I'd be pretty sad if the people around me did" My exact thoughts.

[@daifukumochi3686]

I wonder who will forget me first

[@mushnoomz]

People only care about you when you're already gone Edit 3 years later: lmao i dont even remember making this comment (thankfully im less emo now this is embarrassing)

[@jenishprajapati4561]

@@mushnoomz True

[@nurrohmatadiputra5378]

@@jenishprajapati4561 wrong

[@lucidnyx5261]

Me too dude 😔

[@rui9435]

This song is honestly so blunt. It even mentions the ideals that are the theme of most songs that influence our personality and values. Honestly, this song is conveys the contradictory nature of human beings so much; we all are literally living oxymorons.

[@darkira2129]

Yes, but it's honestly don't want this song to be this way... Living by someone we really love is the only thing we need anyway

[@akuakkk1908]

Don't call us oxymoron, is it bad for people to possess vulnurability... This is what the song tried to convey. The vulnurability that people had. The contradictory nature of human, the facade of foolish bravery, uncaring of one own self, and caring for other without being able to do anything about it and thus hidden under their uncertainty.... And other like it. It's not the only part of a human being, we are more than these song convey, we are more than just a weak and vulnurable person. However, that doesn't mean we don't have weakness. We do, and that weakness is what sung here. We want to be acknowledged wholly, not just our strong side but also our weak side. And that's why i think these song resonate with many people. Since it acknowledge our weak self.

[@squidge4728]

@@akuakkk1908 I think you missed the point of the og comment a bit...

[@akuakkk1908]

@@squidge4728 perhaps?

[@kasanetetomiku3904]

Oxyclean???

[@D31taF0rc3]

The switch from pessimistic cynicism to desperate hope in the bridge always gets me. "Thats actually what I want to sing about"

[@o.liveil7111]

This really communicates something I've been struggling to put into words for years

[@Sillybleh100]

O. liveil I know I spend hours looking up things I could never say a real person same with songs like this they all hold a special meaning to those people who say o vocaloid songs have no mean screw them I believe that vocaloid songs have more meaning than most songs in English to be honest

[@andrewson5330]

Every word of lyrics i relate to

[@Marichii1]

yknow that type of song that you listen to and after u just go "damn" this is that kind of song

[@BL-xm7ps]

The end is bittersweet. It gives kinda hope?

[@markzaikov456]

It's like "Fuck it, we're living whatever bullshit happens."

[@kraigdoesdrawsyes]

@@markzaikov456 Yeah like, instead of "IKIROOOOOO" it's just "Ikiro."

[@Bull-tm6hl]

But the despair is overwhelming here

[@Jaysbits546]

The references are real

[@Abyssal.jellyfish]

It’s just saying whatever bad things good things and all in between happen your just have to say “fuck it all. And just live”

[@gigi-p134]

This song means so much to me, the last line of "just live." is something I repeat to myself whenever I start to panic and get existential dread. I've been learning Japanese for a while now, and one day, I hope to be able to properly thank Kanzaki Iori for making this incredible song, even though he won't see it, it would make me feel good to be able to express how much this song has helped me.

[@darqbladesoul226]

This takes me back to the time I thought about suicide if I ever failed my family once again because I couldn't bear to let them take the fall for my mistakes. I couldn't enter the state university because I had a record back at high school for my behavior so I was put had no choice but to go for another one, one where I made probably the best friends I've ever had in my life but I was held back a year because I couldn't pass a project due to an illness. I was out of commission for an entire week and I had to be there personally to submit it, and now all of my friends have graduated from college while I migrated to another country because that's where my dad lives now. Now a young adult, I can't even find myself a job because I never technically finished college; all I have for my resume are the school projects that received awards. I'm practically becoming parasite to the people around me. I'm useless, but every single day, I try my hardest to change that but it's beginning to take its toll on me mentally lately. So to anyone who finds themselves communicating to this song, just remember there's still a light at the end of the pitch black tunnel. ...probably. NEET life is hard, I tell ya.

[@darqbladesoul226]

Oh shit long, heartfelt messages on vocaloid subbed videos. I must be living in 2011

[@Zain-IX]

Ah try to make money on the webz, write ebooks about tutorials (how to become rich, self improvement etc) LERN WEBDESIGN and start affiliate marketing or pick up a new language for translating peoples stuff,

[@witchtea3676]

Xeros-Beat You probably still can get back to college later and finish your degree. Or Transfer to a College where you live now? And I don't think you're useless. I don't know you but you seem to care about your family.

[@Primanovas]

I’m sorry :(

[@jamesphillips531]

Xeros-Beat dude I relate. I was at one point in an abusive household with my stepmother. She made me feel like everything I did was worthless. I contemplated suicide hard at one point but this little voice in my head told me no. The day after that first time I told my stepmother and she told me I was selfish for wanting to die. Worst thing I ever felt in my life. Also learned that the family depression passed down to me. After that my school year was kinda just me acting like I was alright to the people around me. Telling them I was okay when I had these suicidal tendencies starting to pop up in my life. At one point while I was cleaning the dishes I put a knife to my neck but again that little voice said no. After I finished I turned around to see my dad watching soccer in the living room with a clear sight of me. I felt worthless and that I didn't matter. And eventaully I did get out but I was not the same. This next part I won't be surprised if you don't believe and even if it does not work for you. I say that because my brother is still with my dad and stepmother. The way I got out was that I prayed to god. My dad had made a snap decision to send me back one morning completely out of the blue looking really angry. He has never done that before in my life so I just thought he realized what was going on and did not like the fact that he was not right in trying to push me so much. And then god spoke to me one night while I was with my church on a summer retreat. In one moment I felt more healing and love from something I didn't know if he existed than my dad did my entire life. Again I don't know if god will do the same for you. He is kind of an asshole like that. Good luck.

[@awissa6188]

i cried listening to this song. Ive had suicidal thoughts when i was younger, i have climbed out of balcony multiple times sobbing uncontrollably while i gripped on the rails, my inner voice would usually call me useless over and over again, but in the end i always didn't have the guts to jump. My parents divorced and my mom was in debt. I thought of myself as just a burden to her. One night my mom and her boyfriend were fighting, i heard crashes and shouting. My mom came into my room crying and hugging me, i froze up and could only pretended to be asleep. It was extremely grueling to hold back my tears. it was one of the first times i saw my mom cry. After she stopped, all my tears started flowing out nonstop. There was another time where my mother dearest confronted about a post i made, of me wanting to die. I quickly ignored the topic of suicide and instead talked about how i didnt believe in god (im a muslim). p.s i was abt 12 at that time

[@Vicky-mh7rn]

You're growing up as a tough boy, by decided keep living in hard condition. Im sure now or someday life can be more painful, but i know you can face em! Keep living brother

[@awissa6188]

@@Vicky-mh7rn Thanks! im feeling way better now have a nice day bro :D

[@Niffter]

How are you now? Is everything okay again? I hope it is..

[@imthebossmermaid3648]

“I was 12 at the time” that last line took me out. 😭

[@V1nc3la_x]

Real 😭😭😭​@@imthebossmermaid3648

[@MinorTransmission]

WHOA those subs are nice!! Thanks so much for translating!

[@revaryk6868]

Oh god, another Vocaloid song that hits home for me! In all seriousness, I can relate to this song so much it hurts. I could go on a rant, but honestly, I have no need to blurt out my not-very-special life story. I love this song. That's how I'm gonna leave this.

[@Delta-nr4hz]

its okay to vent out, no need to bottle up, i hope whatever you're going through you're gonna be okay

[@Anonymous-td9fl]

Rant it up m8. I'll try to reply when i'm free. Bottling is no good. Let it all out once in a while should help. Letting it out too often makes you more depressed though.

[@Pbness]

If I watched this a few years ago then I'd say the same. Oh, and just because you don't tell strangers on the internet your life story doesn't mean you're bottling stuff up. I don't know why people jumped to that conclusion but they did.

[@alexanderludwigthaddeusvandarc]

the pen is yours truly, write,speak, yell and crying it, please, we will hear you P.S: we may not know each other, we are just a distant stranger, maybe separated by ocean and continent also maybe you never read my comment but all i know and i hope in my deepest heart that you will be okay there,somewhere. living life in absudity of it and smile, oh yes that why i write this message for you.

[@iam5759]

@@Delta-nr4hz yea

[@serene_snowfall]

This song really hits home, thank you for translating this

[@HoshiArt]

For the past 2 years, I've held onto thus song. It has really stuck with me. I was struggling with finding any enjoyment or meaning, but kept going for the people around me and a fear of what would happen. I don't know if anyone who reads this cares, but you are valuable. No matter how you feel or perceive those around you, you are important. You have added impact and value in the lives of others by simply continuing to live.

[@bmrful]

When I first heard this song in Project SEKAI I didn’t know this was Miku never heard her low pitch like this. I like it

[@Fethchu69]

For real i thought it was Len!

[@Meowruo]

Have you not heard about yowane haku?

[@Beesiess]

@@Fethchu69 omg me too

[@nuraneehajeed2000]

aw this song just explains what most young adults are thinking in life , what is life and why are we living when we're not even happy is the question we keep asking

[@TheBeastBandit]

“Regardless, we live on frantically” That was the single line that made this song go from a pessimistic pity fest to one of the most hopeful things I’ve ever heard.

[@dopaminecloud]

Seeing what isn't there is what hope is about I suppose. No part of a frantic struggle involving pain is hopeful at all, but you want it to sound like that, so it did.

[@akuakkk1908]

@@dopaminecloud perhaps you don't see it. But I see it and maybe i see it the same way as the other guy do as well. From the start to finish it is filled with 'it's fine to die/wouldn't mind if i died'. But at the very end you'll hear that despite all that you will still continue to live on even if it is just to struggle a bit more. Not to give up being alive even if it mean to live in pain for just a bit longer. As if to return to the phrase "don't say you want to die, Live on without giving up" that are said to be foolishly hopeful Still i don't intend to argument and it is just my opinion

[@thedotintheletteri]

Living. living. Living. Living. Living. Living. Living. Just Live. That’s where I always break. It hurts, I hate being alive, but that line channels the contradictory feeling I have: My strong desire to live. This song perfectly captures my thoughts in a way nothing else has. I’ll keep living, laughing, shouldering it all, just living.

[@alyssacydnyceledonio7269]

The way the video plays, I can’t help but think it’s like the credits at the end of the movie. The arising problems, the stressful conflicts, the perhaps bittersweet ending of you-the protagonist and then the credits roll as you finally overcome it all, looking back at it in the present.

[@novakiaki]

what an honest song ;n; great job on the translation and the video is so stylishhhhh, otsukare :'D

[@Forgetfulsubs]

Thank you :D

[@immaculateCanine]

This song completely chronicles my recent turmoil with life... After leaving middle school, I encountered one of the toughest battles with depression I had ever seen, and I was scared and curious of what I could do. I resorted to harming myself because of my past failures and shame. A few months ago, I had a breakdown in front of a friend on skype and was thinking about killing myself, and even got up a few times to look for something to harm myself with. Eventually, my friend talked me out of it, and ever since, I've had a completely different view on life. I changed my religion, mindset, likes and dislikes, and personality completely. I don't think my friends have noticed much of a difference, but I certainly have. And I would like to say thanks to my friend who helped me in that dark time.

[@donutfever4458]

Cashes Mattox I

[@invinciblemikey]

Literally the EXACT same thing happened to me. Same time period, same scenario, everything. The only difference is that the breakdown I had was over an Amino call. It’s nice to see other people that also managed to get through everything. I’m glad you did.

[@LittleFrostyPrincess]

And.... What you do if you are alone since child like me, and you don't have friends, don't have parents who care about you, and everyone wants you?

[@starbonkers0724]

Saya you are EXTREMELY lucky to have that kind of friend, i hope i have someone like that too

[@hika7_183]

@@LittleFrostyPrincess idk maybe they dead already, thats why all of that is given to you not they.

[@alis9492]

These lyrics are so meaningfull... I love this kind of songs so much. Thank you for the english sub.

[@minnasoft3139]

I never cried this much to a song before. It’s truly sad much I can relate to this.

[@vicyray9371]

I first listened to this song through an utaite called Mafumafu. It touched with me so much, the lyrics, the emotion, everything. That was a few years ago when it came out. My friend who listens to Miku told me she was the one who originally sang the song. And when I heard it, I felt so glad. I'm so happy Miku sang this so that my friend could introduce it to me, so that I could find a cover I love, and so that I could listen to a song when I feel down that doesn't bring me down but forward. Thank you creator, and thank you Hatsune Miku. Although it won't be proof this existed, you made a big impact on my life and many others.

[@harubladie]

I like how Miku is tuned in this song. It's just so good

[@harubladie]

this song is just so me tbh!

[@pupclaws]

i thought it was meiko at first ngl 😭😭

[@PalkisAlt]

@@pupclaws nah if it makes you feel any better, I thought it was Len 💀💀

[@Meowruo]

​@@PalkisAlt i thought it was yowane haku, no wonder why i thought that, haku's voicebank is just low-pitched miku

[@irithin1870]

​@@PalkisAlti thought it was flower bcs of the raspy tuning 😭

[@xkai84]

Even if you can't understand the vocalist the lyrics are really deep.

[@Little_baby_99]

I love your channel so much,i keep discovering new cool songs Thank you for always translating such good songs You always do such a great job, Thank you so much 😊❤

[@chalkwarrior5542]

Finally listened to the song after ages of hearing about it and... god damn it. For ages, I've talked about how all I know are oxymorons, how everything contradicts itself and I'm just lost and confused in it all. And it's all been right here in a song KZbin's been trying to get me to listen to for months.

[@blinkzaum8167]

Shinitai nante iu na yo Akiramenai de ikiro yo Sonna uta ga tadashii nante Bakageteru yo na Jissai jibun wa shinde mo yokute Mawari ga shindara kanashikute Sore ga iyadakara tte iu ego nan desu Tanin ga ikitemo dou demo yokute Dareka o kirau koto mo fasshon de Soredemo heiwa ni ikiyou nante Suteki na koto deshou Gamen no saki de wa dareka ga shinde Sore o nageite dareka ga utatte Sore ni kanka sareta shounen ga Naifu o motte hashitta Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Kachikan mo ego mo oshitsukete Itsumo dareka o koroshitai uta Kantan ni denpa de nagashita Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Karugarushiku shinitai dato ka Karugarushiku inochi o miteru Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Okane ga nai node kyou mo Ichinichijuu damin o ouka suru Ikiru imi nante midasezu Muda o jikaku shite iki o suru Sabishii nante kotoba de Kono kizu ga arawasete ii mono ka Sonna iji bakari kakae Kyou mo hitori beddo ni nemuru Shounen datta bokutachi wa Itsuka seinen ni kawatteku Toshioite itsuka kareha no you ni Dare ni mo shirarezu kuchite iku Fujimi no karada o te ni irete Isshou shinazu ni ikite iku Sonna sf o mousou shiteru Jibun ga shinde mo dou demo yokute Soredemo mawari ni ikite hoshikute Mujun o kakaete ikiteku nante Okorarete shimau Tadashii mono wa tadashiku inasai Shinitakunai nara ikite inasai Kanashiku naru nara soredemo ii nara Zutto hitori de warae yo Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Koufuku no imi sura wakarazu Umareta kankyou bakari nikunde Kantan ni kako bakari norou Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Sayonara bakari ga sukisugite Hontou no wakare nado shiranai Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Koufuku mo Wakare mo Aijou mo Yuujou mo Kokkei na yume no tawamure de Zenbu kane de kaeru shiromono Ashita shinde shimau kamo shirenai Subete muda ni naru kamo shirenai Asa mo yoru mo haru mo aki mo Kawarazu dareka ga doko ka de shinu Yume mo asu mo nani mo iranai Kimi ga ikite ita nara sore de ii Sou da hontou wa Sou iu koto ga utaitai Inochi ni kirawarete iru Kekkyoku itsuka wa shinde iku Kimi datte Boku datte Itsuka wa kareha ni you ni kuchiteku Soredemo bokura wa hisshi ni ikite Inochi o hisshi ni kakaete ikite Koroshite Agaite Waratte Kakaete Ikite Ikite Ikite Ikite Ikiro

[@melonchaa07]

you deserve more likes my dude

[@rizkysaputra2.022]

Can I Add Some Rap, Please?

[@asu_meii]

I have no clue who that is in your pfp and it’s scaring me

[@MokoChamaa]

I think I'll end up marrying you or something. Jokes aside, you keep translating songs I thought they would never be translated ! So big thank you to you !!

[@AkariAkariX3]

This song made me cry. It's all the words i need to hear in my life

[@amethyst4578]

I actually really like this style of tuning. Also, the small, sad, direct "Just live." at the end of the original is WAY better than the "JUST LIIIIIIIIIIIIVE" a lot of utaites do, imo. It's just more effective for me.

[@ariseri]

YESS SOMEONE WHO AGREES

[@efhi]

Covers may feel more human but the specific inflections and tone of the original vocaloids are always better since it's the author's unadulterated vision

[@elizelin2134]

The song gives so many mixed symbols to the point where its hard to understand, but a good part of it hits so close to home that it hurts.

[@Magenetra]

I lvoe this song.. but I feel like this is the number one hellsub song I've seen in awhile.

[@coolmikehatsune2225]

Magenetra Gotta second this comment. It's a great translation as always, fluid, emotional, and to the point, but SERIOUSLY good job on the typesetting in particular, Forgetful

[@Forgetfulsubs]

Thank you !! They were rather tedious (to put it lightly) but I’m really happy with how the subs came out!

[@grafeugenius]

I never thought that life itself might hate me... I guess I run away from such thoughts. Thank you for subbing this song. Thank you.

[@Warriorlyy]

i just love how this song puts feelings and and im sure many others cant put into word, yet this does it so poetically i could sob

[@frownieclownie]

i feel strangely comforted knowing im not the only one listening to this song with a head full of defeated thoughts

[@The_Unknown_Wanderer]

Thank you for translating this. I might have just found my new favorite song, and _dang_ is it deep.

[@akadrphilsflavatown9816]

This is a song that needed to be translated and understood by many people. Including me... thank you so much 😌😄

[@panghor]

really needed a translate to this, it brought emotions forth. which is truly needed. thanks. faved for sure.

[@Cool_Calm_Cam]

Oh okay, I thought I wasn't going to cry today, but that changed real quickly.

[@shiteyanyo1111]

Please keep doing what you do! Subbers are so scarce these days, and reliable one's fuel the non-japanese community! Thank you so much!

[@frostyclouded]

i think its interesting that pretty much every human cover belts the last note even though its delivered so softly in the original. i honestly like it better this way.

[@rowanadam8878]

Thank you so much for translating this! I discovered it earlier this month and absolutely loved it, but had already reconciled myself to the idea that I'd probably never know what it meant. It's such a sad and beautiful song

[@lolagagginw812lol7]

50% Thanking the creator for translating this 25% Long speeches about their Real Life problems 25% pointing this out (Probably)

[@thaivieto4705]

Great translate as always. And the song made me tear up a lot

[@xxclout-frostxx8049]

This song is so impactful and all in all a very blunt song that doesn’t sugarcoat and gives the hard reality

[@dokidi7158]

You did so well translating this, Thank you💕

[@PengalihKADYUGI]

whoever made this song, thank you. thank you for saving us.

[@Nanancay]

I love how vocaloids introduced us to these amazing songwriters, oh my god.

[@hika7_183]

remember when this is the only thing exist and no one do the cover? yeah me too

[@hulza571]

Yea I'm fckin sick with the covers

[@articcats701]

Ik

[@batteryacid3628]

@@hulza571 well while u may find them annoying, they can give these songs more reach to people who may like them. I got into into vocaloid through Jubyphonic and found this song through Mafumafu, them getting credit for songs and getting more views and attention than thr original os rlly annoying but ppl like me would've never found songs like these at all.

[@qu3stining_]

@@batteryacid3628 Exactly

[@basiltheflowerboy384]

@@batteryacid3628 i found this Song through Mafumafu too (and i discovered mafu with that Song too)

[@kouchazuki781]

one of the reasons why I love this song and Kanzaki Iori so much is the layered emotions that can be felt even though it's sang by an electronic voice. The end felt like a reminder almost used to convince himself to keep on living and not to fall back into his demons and depressive state, to convince himself again and again that it's okay for him to live and be happy and not want to die. Compared to the original, Mafumafu's cover had so much raw rage, determination and frustration and was also so good but in a different way. The third and last verse which made the most impressions to me was instead like him breaking free of his thoughts once and for all.

[@miumiu39]

Update: Just watched Suzume and this song hits even harder if you listen to it right after watching the film.

[@iam5759]

The tuning is just PERFECT.

[@hannahcorin2470]

ohly shi, i never thought that my careless saying of how much i want to die would actually be the reason why all my obstacles affect me so negatively

[@TechnoBump]

This is such a fucking masterpiece. I first heard it on Taiko and was immediately drawn to it as my first favorite song on the game. The I look up the lyrics and my mind is blown how much I resonate with this song. Beautiful art.

[@marsbars_v6071]

I can really feel how much pain went into this song

[@Solar_4eternity]

MY MOM CAME AND LISTENED TO THIS SONGS AND ACTUALLY STARTED TO VIBE TO IT 😭😭 ❤

[@Solar_4eternity]

Unfortunately she doesn’t know the meaning of this song 😔

[@fushi7853]

Oh God.... This is a master peace.... Thanks for the wonderful subs...👌❤

[@yoshikirby101]

I relate to this so much right now... I just don’t understand life and I realize that I’ll probably never know but I suppose that’s just how things are... There’s a lot of horrible things in life but on the other side their are tons of wonderful things here on Earth. I question what life is so much and I’m guessing I’m not the only though... It’s such a strange world that we all live on...

[@cosmicse_r_pent]

Oh, I love this song! I actually found the official video first lol Thank you for subbing it! :>

[@waywardzen4468]

If only life could be as bright as a fairy tale

[@Mellonychan]

To those of you that completely understand this song; you are blessed and never give up. Even if I can't believe those words myself yet, just remember they are true.

[@NeuviletteSimpTM]

So beautiful... and dark.

[@MoonGirl213]

i really like these songs that start out sad and depressing but turn more positive towards the end. Somehow it just has a bigger impact on me than those songs that are 100% happy og 100% sad

[@ruruins]

Ahh seriously, I keep coming back to this. It's really amazing! I'm wondering, will you be translating their newest song 君の神様になりたい as well?

[@Forgetfulsubs]

Yes, I think I might post it next week! Their lyrics are so good...

[@ruruins]

Ah I'll definitely be looking forward to it! From the basic lyric listening I've picked up, it sounds just as emotional as this eheh

[@Lajenaco]

This... This was perfect, why have I only see it now? I'm someone who lost everything in life, so I can see how life may hate me. Just existing alone has been my greatest mistake. Even those that I want to protect, they either die from disease or accidents. Many people has used me, betrayed me, and isolated me. My whole life has been like that, and it's not something typical like once or twice. As a child, I had no parents or siblings. Adopted to a house where I was isolated, lived in a neighborhood that only I was called strange, attended a school where everyone talks behind me. I had no one, nothing, and everything I found dear, the moment I value them so much, they suddenly die and leave me alone. Why is that? It felt as though I'm the curse that brought danger to them. I questioned all of my emotions, my thoughts, I contradicted myself and other people's perspective. I wore many perspective to learn, and I did not try to hide under any mask. I struggled even as a child, to just feel what is normal once. But I kept watching everything shatter, and I end up living for those that I've lost. It's not that those around me wants me alive, it's those that I've lost that I must live. No matter how hard it gets, this is the only thing I could do. Even until now, in my life, I've watched more than 30 people disappear. Life is so unfair, I'm not even a new adult yet, I just went out of youth that never existed. Even until now, I want to question everything. I'm so tired, I want to give up so badly. But I pathetically cling to life, refusing to just die. Is life teaching me to just let go? I have no one anymore, and these tears may be meaningless. My life may be in vain, but why do I still struggle to live? Still, everyone will die in the end. Though, it seems life hated me more than anyone else. Because as I yearn for it, it took everything else from me. It's slowly taking my emotions that I struggled to understand, it's slowly taking my memories that even though it's painful, I did everything to carry all of them as I worked hard to earn them. My life is bound to end soon, so why am I still struggling hoping for more years? I've only got 2 years left, so why can't I just give up on myself? Everything feels hopeless, and I'm helpless, I've been abandoned by everything, but why do I cling so badly on hope that is diminishing with the light?

[@Lajenaco]

Although... I would never wish to be immortal. I'm not even old, yet I felt like I experienced life worth 100 years. Even though I've understood myself, even though I understood someone else, even though I'm matured enough to handle my emotions and arrange my thoughts, I simply can't imagine enduring for more than I've did. Even if I say that, I bet I'll still live as long as life permits it. After all, even though I tried to die and tried to kill, I never inflicted wounds on myself neither did I try to point a weapon at someone else. I just endured this much, I also forgave everyone that harmed me. Even though my life has been lifeless for so long, it seems it hates me enough to not let me forget myself or forget why I endured this far. I don't want to be immortal, because I would be forever alone then. I'm not like a typical immortal who watches their loved ones grow old and die. I will probably turn to an immortal who couldn't even see my loved ones live their life. After all, I feel as though my existence brings harm to them, because that happened more than twice, thrice, or ten times in the past. Immortal people may even seem funny to me, because they got sad despite seeing their loved ones rest in peace. They also seem funny, because they require that many years just to learn things about life? I think even a young child could learn just as much. A year or two is enough to make someone experience so many things and run so many thoughts. Though, perhaps, that's just me.

[@sanjanaanan3771]

Tomorrow is my birthday thank you so much for uploading ❤

[@Forgetfulsubs]

I think I'm a little late now, but happy birthday!!

[@sanjanaanan3771]

Thank you so much

[@megam2255]

"in truth i cant care a bit if i died but i will be sad if the people around me did" i can relate bcus i have such good friends that help me through times and i cant bear to see them like that

[@jadeserpentd]

This is so amazing, thank you for the translation.

[@yami_mori]

This song is so nihilistically uplifting. I love it.

[@feralfauna_]

Ohh that producer! I had no idea their works had such philosophical lyrics! I particularly like their song "Adult Children" with Rin ^^

[@Friendly_Neigborhood_Astolfo]

I missed listening to vocaloid. This is the reason I listened. It always gets written off as some autotune, but these songs are still made by people and I got more emotional to this!

[@loli_cvnt5622]

I'm definitely gonna cover this because it really speaks to me.. I gotta say tho, I see the ending of this as really hopeful and "happy". Just like "Living with Depression" by Yanaga Miyuki, while lots of people find it depressing and sad, I actually find that it gives me hope and gives me positive vibes for the future. Also haven't heard a low Miku in a while, so THAT'S REALLY GREAT.

[@Random_sandwich]

ahh a good song. something that gives hope

[@vicyray9371]

English Lyrics: "Don't you wish for death when you're feeling weak! Hardships aren't as hard as they seem to be." (0:25) Sure, say that all you want, you're not fooling me, with those words you never mean. (0:29) While I don't care to die, I don't mind a bit, but someone I love? God, I think I'd wish I did. I suppose "Because I won't like it" is all my ego is. (0:39) Happy to gaze upon the pain of the haven't met, cowering in our hatred has become a fashion trend. Even so, we're supposed to "Live a peaceful life"? Even though I bet it's nice, I bet we've tried. (0:49) Someone succumbs behind the colors of the monitor. Deep in grief, another weeps by singing in their honor. Hearing that song a humming young boy wandered off with a knife and an offer. (0:58) Everybody hated well by life itself will never know! Why they force code and ego on the radio. Day-to-day they're singing out "I'll take you down", but then again, who takes when they're really being generous? (1:08) Everybody hated well by life itself will never know! Why "I want to die" is treated like another joke. That world where we see the worth in growing old, anybody hated well by life itself will never know. (1:27) Penniless again, through the day anew, I decide to praise the lazy and sing out of tune. (1:33) Lost upon life's meaning, I take in the truth, breathe and see there isn't anything I'm meant to do. (1:36) Would these wounds be better off expressed with the lowly illustration "I'm so lonely' suggests? (1:42) Shouldering nothing but this stubbornness, I'm nothing but alone when I go to bed. (1:46) Kids with passion to play make-believe will become young adults with a will to achieve. (1:51) As we age, there comes a day we fester like a falling leaf, carried down without a clue to prove we ever breathed. (1:56) Breathing on for centuries in a deathless design. Bored for eternity, the only to survive... These are the kinds of sci-fi dreams always on my mind. (2:06) Numb to the pain, can I die? Though I'm not afraid, all the same, I have to pay attention to the hearts I'd break. Lost in conflicting thoughts, I'm sure they'd have a lot to say. Yes, I can guess what they'd convey: (2:15) "Perfect things need to stay as perfect as they always were." "If you can't confront demise, then live the life you don't deserve." Since we're bound to end up sad and back to being hurt, we should laugh with the friends we lack forever! (2:25) Everybody hated well by life itself will never know! Why we claim to get the happiness we haven't shown. (2:29) Angered by our past hands, past, as we complain aloud, we smile while pretending that we're better now. (2:34) Everybody hated well by life we'll never know! Why "so long" took on the meaning of "I wanna go". (2:39) That time where goodbye implied "For now, I hope", anybody hated well by life itself will never know! (2:52) Contentment and exits, affection and friendships. They're gifts you can get for your money within but a whimsical fantasy. (3:03) I could be dead tomorrow, yet I'm sure in some way when I go, I'll get to know my life was such a waste. (3:08) Through daylight and stardom, through springtime and autumn, we die everyday and that's exactly why I chase No wishes or visions, since all I can afford is protecting your life, I ask for that and nothing more. (3:17) Of course... That's surely...all I'll ever need to sing for! (3:23) Hated well by life itself we'll never know! What makes the meaning matter when we die alone. (3:27) It'll taint you, it'll taint two, soon enough the rest of us will sink like a leaf into anywhere we know it's not for naught, 'cause we don't stop going out and off, always giving everything we've got. (3:36) To killing, to kicking, to grinning, to gritting Living, Living, Living, Living, Living on I hope this english lyrics helps people connect with the song better and sing your heart aloud.

[@QueenofTNT]

You ever get that creepy moment where you find a song you spiritually relate to? Welp, I've found another one. Thanks for translating ^^

[@GenesisTheKitty]

Man I love this song. It's so meaningful and explains my personal mentality almost perfectly, I love the story it tells and I love how well it puts something like this into words.

[@akiraharu]

Lyrics Shinitai nante iu na yo. Akiramenai de ikiro yo. Sonna uta ga tadashii nante bakageteru Yo na. Jissai jibun wa shinde mo yokute- mawari ga shindara kanashikute Sore ga iya dakara tte iu ego nan desu Tanin ga ikite mo doo demo yokute. Dareka o kirau koto mo fasshon de Soredemo heiwa ni ikiyou nante Suteki na koto deshou Gamen no saki de wa dareka ga shinde Sore o nageite dareka ga utatte Sore ni kanka sareta shounen ga Naifu o motte hashitta BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU KACHIKAN MO EGO MO OSCHITSUKETE- ISTUMO DAREKA O KOROSHITAI UTA O KANTAN NI DENPA DE NAGASHTA BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU KARUGARUSHIKU SHINITAI DAKOTA KARUGARUSHIKU INOCHI O MITERU BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU Okane ga nai node kyou mo- Ichinichijuu damin ooka suru Ikiru imi nante midasezu- muda o jikaku shite iki o suru. Sabishii nante kotoba de- kono kizu ga arawasete ii mono ka Sonna iji bakari kakae- kyou mo hitori beddo ni nemuru Shounen datta bokutachi wa- itsuka seinen ni kawatteyuku toshioite itsuka kareha no you ni- dare ni mo shirarezu kuchite iku. Fujimi no karada o te ni irete- isshou shinazu ni ikite iku. Sonna SF o mousou shiteru Jibun ga shinde mo dou demo yokute Soredemo mawari ni ikite hoshikute Mujun o kakaete ikiteku nante okorarete shimau. Tadashii mono wa tadashiku inasai. Shinitakunai nara ikite inasai. Kanashiku naru nara Soredemo ii nara ZUTTO HITORI DE WARAE YO. BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU. KOOFUKU NO IMI SURA WAKARAZU- UMARETA KANKYOU BAKARI NIKUNDE KANTAN NI KAKO BAKARI NOROU. BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU. SAYONARA BAKARI GA SUKISUGITE- HONTOU NO WAKARE NADO SHIRANAI BOKURA WA INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU. Koofuku mo wakare mo aijou mo yuujou mo Kokkei na yume no tawamure de- zenbu kane de kaeru shiromono. ASHTA SHINDE SHIMAU KAMO SHIRENAI , SUBETE MUDA NI NARU KAMO SHIRENAI. Asa mo , yoru mo, haru mo, aki mo, KAWARAZU DAREKA GA DOKO KA DE SHINU. Yume mo, asu mo, nani mo, iranai. Kimi ga ikite ita nara Sore de ii. Soo da. .. Hontou wa SOU IU KOTO GA UTAITAI INOCHI NI KIRAWARETE IRU KEKKYOKU ITSUKA WA SHINDE IKU. KIMI DATTE , BOKU DATTE ITSUKA WA KAREHA NI YOU NI KUCHITEKU SOREDEMO BOKURA WA HISSHI NI IKITE INOCHI O HISSHI NI KAKAETE IKITE KOROSHITE AGAITE WARATTE KAKAETE IKITE, IKITE, IKITE, IKITE, IKIRO

[@hann3668]

Forgetfulsubs, i love you :')

[@OfficialH2nO]

I needed this song at this point in my life baha

[@陈kopo]

I really wish this was on spotify. I love this song so much

[@bmrful]

it is on Spotify but it’s the Nightcord cover from Project SEKAI

[@gekimuzuentertaimment]

The live version by Kanzaki Iori and the 2021 remaster are both on Spotify

[@lunatunaluna]

omg i love how low miku sounds in this

[@badaboop2035]

This broke my heart yet i love it T_T

[@hervygervy8530]

This is a top contender for one of my favorite Vocaloid songs

[@mehgurine_]

I almost started crying because this song explains my life better than anything else

[@engineergaming9774]

This song has such real lyrics ngl

[@ImSumGuy]

Unique tuning, and while I don't dislike it, I'm really glad this song is so well covered that I can be happy listening to and suggesting them to non-vocaloid fans.

[@QueenOfDangos]

0:15 best part to me~!

[@i-draw-stuff-alot]

This reminds me of when you're done with a movie and you see the credits scroll down, I'm sorry this isn't about the lyrics but I do have a point

[@amandamcmullen5717]

This song is almost completely relatable.

[@hika7_183]

Fucking gr8 another song that make me feels not alone, you know like.. 'Finally i found somenone who understand my mind' lol deep shit i dont want to explain it and be sad but, just life.

[@user-qd3mv8wm7r]

Just wanted to vent a little but... I remember trying to do suicide a couple of years ago. I had about... I think 2 or 3 failed suicide attempts?... I remember all the scars on both my arms and legs, it was quite painful, as expected. But I stopped. I've been clean for 2 years... And this year almost marks my 3rd year of being clean... I feel proud of myself for once.

[@jewelstanuki4399]

I love this song so much, it's great to finally know what it means, thankyou!

[@user-gw5rd8nq7m]

"Don't say you want to die, live on without giving up!" ...How foolish it is to say songs with lyrics like that are correct. In truth, I couldn't care a bit if I died, but I'd be pretty sad if the people around me did. I suppose it's some kind of ego, that goes: "Because I just wouldn't like it." Not caring if strangers live or not, and hating someone else just seems like some kind of fashion now, but “Live peacefully” nevertheless? What a wonderful thing that would be indeed... On the other side of the screen, someone dies. Lamenting that someone else sings. Influenced by that, a young boy ran off carrying a knife. We are hated by life itself. Pushing values and ego, as always, so very simply we broadcast songs about wanting to kill somebody else over radio waves. We are hated by life itself. We who thoughtlessly say we want to die, and look at life carelessly, are hated by it. I’ve got no money, and so throughout the day again, I sing songs of praise to indolence. Still without grasping the meaning of life, I come to an epiphany that it’s pointless and take a breath. Are these wounds really ok to be expressed with words like “I’m lonely”? Carrying nothing but such obstinacy, today again I sleep alone on my bed. We who were but youths at some point start to change into young adults. Growing old, one day we rot away like fallen leaves, with not a soul in the world knowing of our existence... Obtaining an immortal body, and living our whole existence without dying… ...I’m just daydreaming about these kinds of science fiction situations. I couldn’t care a bit if I died, but I’m wanted alive by the people around me. Living on carrying such contradictions... I think I’ll get yelled at. “Things that are “correct” should stay “correct”." “If you don’t want to die, then live.” If we’re going to end up sad and if that’s fine, then you gotta laugh alone forever. We are hated by life itself. Without even grasping the meaning of joy, we just hate the hand life has dealt us, and merely curse our pasts. We are hated by life itself. We who simply like the idea of the word “goodbye” a little too much, with no knowledge of a true farewell, are hated by life itself. Happiness, farewells, love, and friendship; they’re all goods that can be bought for money… within jokes made by comical dreams. I might just die tomorrow you know, everything might just end up being for naught, mornings and nights, spring and autumn, unchanging, someone dies somewhere. I don’t need dreams or even a tomorrow, If you’ll have lived on then that’s all I need. Yeah... That’s actually what I want to sing about. Hated by life itself. In the end, we’ll die anyway. You will, I will, one day all of us will rot away like fallen leaves. But regardless, we live on frantically-- Shouldering our lives, frantically, we live-- Killing, struggling, laughing, shouldering it all. Living, Living, living, Living, living, living, Living, living, living, living-- Just live.

[@jacekagamine6800]

This song is way to blunt that its beautiful, thanks for translating

[@John_EMIYA_Miller]

"Obtaining an immortal body, and living for the entirety of existance without dying... I'm just daydreaming about these kinds of science fiction situations" Okay...! Okay... this song in particular was hitting a bit too close to my heart for comfort, but that line especially... fucking goddamn bullseye. Seriously, it's mildly disturbing to have a song call me out on a very specific thing I do at least once a day...

[@shizunotfound28]

Lyrics: Shinitai nante iu na yo Akiramenai de ikiro yo Sonna uta ga tadashii nante bakageteru yo na Jissai jibun wa shinde mo yokute mawari ga shindara kanashikute Sore ga iya dakara, tte iu ego nan desu Tanin ga ikite mo dou demo yokute Dareka o kirau koto mo fasshon de Soredemo heiwa ni ikiyou Nante suteki na koto deshou Gamen no saki de wa dareka ga shinde Sore o nageite dareka ga utatte Sore ni kanka sareta shounen ga Naifu o motte hashitta Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Kachikan mo ego mo oshitsukete itsumo dareka o koroshitai uta o Kantan ni denpa de nagashita Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Karugarushiku shinitai datoka Karugarushiku inochi o miteru bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Okane ga nai node kyou mo ichinichijuu damin o ouka suru Ikiru imi nante midasezu, muda o jikaku shite iki o suru Sabishii nante kotoba de kono kizu ga arawasete ii mono ka Sonna iji bakari kakae kyou mo hitori beddo ni nemuru Shounen datta bokutachi wa itsuka seinen ni kawatteku Toshioite itsuka kareha no you ni dare ni mo shirarezu kuchite iku Fujimi no karada o te ni irete, isshou shinazu ni ikite iku Sonna sf o mousou shiteru Jibun ga shinde mo dou demo yokute Soredemo mawari ni ikite hoshikute Mujun o kakaete ikiteku nante okorarete shimau Tadashii mono wa tadashiku inasai Shinitakunai nara ikite inasai Kanashiku naru nara soredemo ii nara Zutto hitori de warae yo Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Koufuku no imi sura wakarazu, umareta kankyou bakari nikunde Kantan ni kako bakari norou Bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Sayonara bakari ga sukisugite hontou No wakare nado shiranai bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru Koufuku mo wakare mo aijou mo yuujou mo Kokkei na yume no tawamure de zenbu kane de kaeru shiromono Ashita shinde shimau kamo shirenai Subete muda ni naru kamo shirenai Asa mo yoru mo haru mo aki mo Kawarazu dareka ga doko ka de shinu Yume mo asu mo nani mo iranai Kimi ga ikite ita nara sore de ii Sou da Hontou wa sou iu koto ga utaitai Inochi ni kirawarete iru Kekkyoku itsuka wa shinde iku Kimi datte boku datte itsuka wa kareha no you ni kuchiteku Soredemo bokura wa hisshi ni ikite Inochi o hisshi ni kakaete ikite Koroshite agaite waratte kakaete Ikite, ikite, ikite, ikite, ikiro

[@guyjin788]

The live version of this was so beautiful that I search it out.

[@br41nr0tt_]

currently writing an essay for my public speaking class about vocaloid and im using this as an example on how even though they are robots they can sound emotional as fuck

[@Yokizeshi]

Woah, this is Miku? It doesn't sound like her at all, not even like her dark append. Beautiful song, thanks for the subs as always!

[@corbeaudejugement]

Akira dessine it’s not. Read the title.

[@abdulaisiyoup3912]

this is Miku's Solid append

[@gekimuzuentertaimment]

​@@abdulaisiyoup3912 And also some of gender factor applied