Life Update - Where have I been? Am I still making videos?

Hey guys! I'm finally bringing you a life update! I'm answering all the questions on where have I been, am I still making videos, what's going on?? All of that! I appreciate you all so much and even though I'm very nervous to open up this much, I'm excited to be back.
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[@fijigoya1236]

Okay your dog jumping up when you started crying is one of the cutest things I’ve seen omg

[@cheerallyear]

I know right 😭 what a sweet & caring pup 🥰

[@marykeerasmus4817]

I love how dogs feel your sadness ❤️ so beautiful

[@Jade-kt3mj]

Ikr he’s just like I’ll kiss you till ur happy

[@teresawise7331]

Dogs are the best companions when you are hurting. They are so tuned in to our emotions.

[@lifeofjohannafrida]

Fijigoya 123 the cutest! And it was so immediate ❤️

[@ferishak17]

Two years later, you’re the happiest you’ve ever been. I’ve been following you since your green background days Kayley and I’m soo happy for you

[@elsagaxiola8431]

Letting go of the idea of what you thought your life was going to be like is the hardest part of divorce. You mourn the separation of your partner but letting go of your dreams of your future is devastating in my opinion. Especially since it's part of us even before we meet the "one". It doesn't feel like it now but at the end of this chapter of your life you are going to love the women you will become even more so than before. Sending you a giant hug.

[@apocalypticlove]

Elsa Gaxiola yes! Thank you for this. I’m currently going through a separation myself and this is helpful to read.

[@meghanborrasca3900]

Exactly what she said ^ I went through a divorce at 26 and it’s exactly what she said above.... the idea of what your life was gonna be is what I mourned mostly...

[@ashleerees807]

Agree 100%

[@katyavolkov4089]

Elsa Gaxiola This is a beautiful, insightful reply. How wonderful the world is when women reach out to other women in such a kind, nurturing way. Thank you.

[@janetp.7827]

watching this after her coming out video hits so different I'm so happy Kayley got to grow and find herself, she deserves nothing but the best

[@cookie04031991]

You getting a divorce in no way makes a bad person, bad role model etc. You respecting you ex side of the story not dragging anyone down that makes you a good role model. It is normal to feel that sense of failure you are losing something you loved and worked on, but it does not mean you are one or are defined by this. I hope you feel better soon, but it takes time so patience is key.

[@luisadelatorre5960]

I've been here since the green background and I will stay for as long as this channel exists. I'm sending you all my love and support and positive vibes!

[@lunix3562]

I have never commented on your channel but have followed it for many years. You are not a failure. Life takes so many twists and turns that you can never be prepared for what is ahead. I remember when I watched How I Met You Mother, Barney had a quote about marriage that stuck with me.... "This isn't a failed marriage: it was a very successful marriage that only lasted three years." The three years part was for the purpose of the show but you can apply your marriage years to it. My point is you are not a failure.

[@looksidewalkpenguin]

I'm the same as you! I've never commented but I agree with this 110%. We're here for you! And sending all our love!

[@noaarianna5750]

lunix 356 what a nice comment😊

[@marcyc7204]

Kayley, like many others have said, you’re not being a bad role model by getting divorced, you’re being an AMAZING role model by respecting someone you’re no longer with and not dragging him through the mud. Also, a great book to read to deal while in a tough situation is “It’s not supposed to be this way” by Lysa TerKeurst. Love you and your channel!

[@liviadiana178]

Agree! She handled this situation so well! Kayley, if you read this: You are an amazing role model.

[@maryruff4725]

I have followed you since I was 13, and here I am looking at my role model and realizing that it’s okay to not be perfect. I am a older sister to a younger brother and two younger sisters and I’ve always strived to be perfect and happy. you have taught me how to braid and in return I’ve taught my sisters. you are an inspiration to me, I always wait for a new video and this one truly tops them all. keep your head up high and keep pushing because girl you are amazing 💖

[@AngelaPags]

OOOOMG I melt at your dog's reaction to your emotions. Dogs are seriously the best!!!! I wish you true happiness, Kayley.

[@4ng3lic4]

Ikr!!

[@MrsBellaBrunette]

The way your dog comforted you when you started crying 😭...he truly loves you! Wishing you much happiness in the future

[@LinkinParkLover2012]

And 2 years later you’re finally at peace with yourself 🥺🤩

[@manyagaver1946]

I was scrolling looking for this comment

[@ferishak17]

She’s engaged!

[@lynnyuxin]

Beyond being curious to what happened to you, I think everyone were more concerned about your well-being and safety (though I did notice you were still active on Twitter, so that was a good sign). I am so glad you decided to open up with us even though you don't have to! I recently went through a breakup which was hard, and I'm sure you've had it harder, but I can at least somewhat understand/relate to what you're going through! It took me a few weeks to function properly, and 3 months later I am only still starting to try and get my life together. So, take your time and please take care of yourself! Above all, welcome back! We missed you and we will always love and support what you do ❤️

[@magnolias__]

just came back to this after today's video and can i just say congratulations for getting out of your previous situation and finding one that's so much healthier and kinder to you. 😭💕

[@trishpipkins]

I went through a really really horrible divorce. It gets better. I at first hated the fact that it happened. But staying in a marriage that shouldn't be would be the true failure. And now I'm married to an amazing man and I am so glad. Don't be so hard on yourself. 💖💖💖

[@Fuckaroundandfindout101]

Trish Pipkins reading this mad me so happy! Congratulations on finding the right one!♥️

[@trishpipkins]

Amber Renee thank you! He's wonderful. I have learned so much through all of this and want to encourage everyone to find what makes them happy. It's so worth it.

[@Wemills1285]

This is the first time that I have ever commented. On anyone’s video. But this spoke to me on such a personal level that I had to say something. I split with my husband of 13 years in October. I cried every day for weeks after I made the decision to leave him and move my son and I in with my mom. Divorce is very much like a death and you have to give yourself time and permit to grieve. I so empathize with everything you said here. I felt like a failure and that I was going to end up screwing up my son. But it gets better. I am happier now than I have been in years and I know you will get there too. Your channel was the first channel I subscribed to on KZbin 8 years ago. I have loved your content since then, even when I cut my hair off and couldn’t do most of the styles in your tutorials. I still loves watching them because of your genuine joy in doing what you love. Keep it up, girl!

[@cozypillow638]

Beth Mills this is a wonderful comment❤️

[@dgroskurth]

I’ve been through divorce and it is horrible, be strong

[@brookelew3237]

No judgment at all sweet lady! This must be so hard for you! So sorry for your pain. 💛 Praying for your comfort and healing dear lady. There is such FREEDOM in realizing we do not have to be perfect. I hate the pain that you have had to go through, but I deeply appreciate thIs Video and YOU!

[@Oceans1974]

I second that!!

[@MirandaScully]

Rewatching this after the engagement video because I remember my heart breaking when you first posted it - as someone who has learned so much from you to the point where actually caring for my hair and feeling pretty helped my mental health and my social anxiety. And now knowing that two years from when this video was posted you finally found happiness and love and a relationship that makes you feel good and appreciated? It's a real testament to 'It does get better'. Also your lil pup continues to be the most emotionally intelligent dog I've ever seen!

[@JahairasMission]

Literally JUST thought of you, you are deeply missed! Please don't lose sight of the value you bring to KZbin! We love you, sis. 💖

[@racheltheclumsy]

Pippin is such a good pupper. You have been through it my girl. It’s okay to not be okay sometimes. You are such a sunshine filled, beautiful person and you have changed everything about how I do my hair for the better. I lost more than half of my hair due to a medication and since then have struggled to feel alright about my hair but a lot of your videos have helped me cope with that and love my hair again. You are so pure and sweet and that is so hard to come by on KZbin, and honestly the internet in general. There is very little you could do that would make us love you any less. I’m glad you are healing and I’m happy to see that you are being loved and taken care of by your family and your excellent pupper. Love.

[@anniallerlei440]

Love the Support your dog gives you and you can be sure that your viewers will support you too 😘😍

[@blueprint-edits]

Kayley.. here comes big sister talk. I'm older so that works. I hope you'll read this. You don't have to be perfect, life isn't perfect. Letting go of the plan that you had for your own life is the HARDEST thing! It feels like disappointing your child self. I've been there, I am there. My concrete plan was to be a missionary with a husband and 4 kids. Now I'm in a gay marriage and it couldn't be more different. But that's OKAY! You'll grow SO MUCH from that. To see that you're not perfect and that life isn't. It's actually so librating! And exiting too! Just live one day at a time!! Be yourself and don't judge yourself for being human and vulnerable!!!! I'm so proud of you for the way you made this video, not throwing shade and just being such a kind human! You are brave and strong! And amazing the way you are!! Don't let yourself tell you otherwise! You'll come out sronger, just take my word for it

[@carriea4046]

I just want to let you know that what you have done has shown a tremendous amount of strength and courage to come out to the public and bare your soul and show your vulnerability shows me and should show everyone else what an amazingly strong woman you really are

[@Cubitoo18]

blueprint. Thank You For This ❤️

[@HilBG]

KAYLEY my heart. We have missed you so much and I am so glad you're back on your own terms! I also got divorced in the last year (after having gotten married around the same time as you) and moved back across the country closer to my family. (twinsies) Every situation is different, but I definitely understand the difficulty of having to explain when there was no clickbait ~event~ that signaled the end. You should be so proud of yourself for making the right decision for both of you, and you should be extra proud of yourself for having the courage to open up to us. I can't imagine what it's like having these fans who feel like we know you and definitely love you, but you don't know us as individuals. That's a scary crowd to be vulnerable in front of! You are amazing and strong. Keep taking care of yourself. We're not going anywhere! Also PS I am so happy you have Pippin and your sister. You deserve all the support you get and more!

[@joyarose2801]

Your dog is precious! Literally just knows that you need comforting at that time😭😭😍

[@MonicaMettert]

Oh, Kayley. 😢 I have watched every video of yours since the green sheet days. I went through a divorce about 3 years ago and it was so, so hard. I lost so much hope. But it got better. I grieved and healed and met the man of my dreams and we just got married and we are SO better matched than my ex and I were. You are a passionate, beautiful, successful woman and you WILL find love again. Divorce is not failure. It is learning and growing. It is going to be okay, sweetheart. 💕

[@mayssarmini6917]

Same exact story here 😊 just keep pushing

[@theahaberman8189]

Being open is the best way of being a role model. Being honest enough with yourself (and with us) to know that you needed time away to heal is an important thing for all of us to see. I'm so proud of you and love you! ❤❤❤

[@curlsandnodes8886]

Oh, girl. I noticed that you weren't wearing your ring but I didn't want to push the subject. *hugs* You are such a big role model to me. That hasn't changed a bit. You did the right thing by respecting his privacy. You're not a failure! I miss you and I hope you will feel better soon! I really hope to meet you one day

[@projectmunchkins]

Kayley, don't apologize for what has happened or for taking time to heal. Your true fans/ friends will remain true... views and followers come and go... you need to take care of yourself and be healed. 💕

[@carolinatrindadeferreira3169]

I don't know even how to start... I cried with you the whole video - not because i'm sad, but because i'm so, so, so proud...! I don't know you, but for some reason I really love you in a level that see you hurt makes me wanna go there and feed you with love... And ice cream! These moments in life make us grow, and i have to believe that is for the better, as I know what is like to be depressed, to be hopeless, to struggle to get out of bed, have to come back to the family nest and re-build the life from scratch. It took courage to put this video out here, we can see it, and don't worry about us, we are loyal, and you deserve the loyalty for being this amazing beam of light in the world. When I am down, few things put me back on my feet like your videos, how long and I'll wait as you rise again, supporting you in everything. By the way, I am a child of divorce, and like with many friends of mine, the rupture made both mom and dad to flourish into happier and better people. Oh, and I loved your ideas for the channel, can't wait to watch!

[@katyavolkov4089]

Carolina Trindade Ferreira Wonderful comment! So poem and honest and supportive. I'm so sorry you've suffered from that kind of debilitating depression. And so brave of you to tell the world like this. I hope you're doing better. I just felt I needed to reach out to you and give you a big Bravo for being who you are!! ❤️

[@Twistmepretty]

Girl you had me in tears. I just felt all your emotions during that video and I hope you know I think you are incredibly brave for coming here and opening up. Giving us a piece of your heart and just being so vulnerable. You’re a light in this world and I’m so sorry to hear about your split but you’re gonna get through it and come out the other side so much stronger. I love you. Keep your head up, we are all cheering for you!

[@martinastefancova67]

When I saw the thumbnail I knew you were going to announce a divorce. I saw myself on that bed. I'm not divorced but I went through a terrible breakup. You are an amazing person and a divorce doesn't define you. You are still a role model for so many girls. And now even more, for standing up for yourself and doing what's best for you. Be strong, the pain will pass. Looking forward to new videos ❤️

[@karishi11]

I've honestly been thinking about you for the past couple of days. You were one if my first discoveries on KZbin back when you had the green background. I'm sorry this is happening to you and I'm sending love and positive energy your way. Just remember that you're exactly where you're supposed to be even if it's not where you want to be and that's okay. You're loved and not alone 💛💛💛

[@mindyrardin9934]

Nothing can keep a good channel down! We will always love your channel. We love your videos whenever we can get them thank you for all the videos you’ve given us already!

[@diibadaa]

I actually found you today and have binge watching them. I think you seem super talented, your videos look awesome and they are some of the most inspirational hair videos I've ever seen. This video is now at least 2 months old so I'm sure you have healed a bit. I just want to let you know that people still stumble upon your channel and follow you cause' your videos are good. So it is good to give yourself time and make better quality content. Thank you for this video even tho idk much about your ex and life at all. It still shows you're a human.

[@1stAmbientGrl]

Kayley, Kayley, Kayley, Kayley! I'm middle-aged and one thing I have learned is life rarely ever works out the way you think it will or should. Right now I'm dealing with my mother having dementia and I never imagined she would because no one else in her family had it, that I'm aware of. I never married or had children. I don't have a career or any savings because life keeps throwing curveballs at me. I've learned to see it all as an adventure and to be flexible with my plans/goals. I've also learned that there is something good in each difficulty and that the quality of my life depends on focusing on the good rather than the bad. I know how you feel about hating to make mistakes because I've always been that way, but guess what? Making mistakes is inevitable. So, embrace it all and be kind to yourself. God loves you more than you know regardless of what happens in your life.

[@magdalenasofiasalgado5458]

I've been following you for ever, you taught me to braid my hair all those years ago 🤭 I hope you overcome this hard chapter, you are so great and full of light, keep your head high!!!

[@camilla1708]

I never comment on videos, but I feel it's time to make an exception. I've been watching your videos for the past 7 years. I started when I was in the middle of a depression, and learning how to have fun and be creative with my braiding really helped me focus on something else. You came across as a such a lovely person and you almost felt like a friend. I especially appreciated when we got to see a glimpse of you life, like when you decided to go in to cosmetology school, got married, moved, told us about your depression, and now this. There isn't such a thing as a "perfect" life, and I think you're incredibly brave for sharing your story and I think that is a big part of why I've almost consider you as a friend for so long. I sure I'm not talking just for me when I'm saying, don't be scared of being yourself in front of the camera! I'm really looking forward to watch your videos, just make sure you don't get too stressed about it. We can wait if you're not feeling well! Lots of love from Sweden

[@serenakelly3619]

Also, being real and showing vulnerability is the bravest thing you could possibly do, and so powerful. I think just posting this video alone makes you a fantastic role model to anyone scared to deal with darkness. Your strength is inspiring 🦋

[@everythingmusicgirl]

Sending much love. As the oldest sister of four girls I have deep sympathy for the feelings of being a good big sister, but you are one. You help me with my hair, you're super kind, respectful to all, and full of the character that makes you a good role model. I know it's hard when life shakes us up hard, but please know the best parts shine through, and imperfections are something we all share too. Much much love!

[@shaylingates2393]

I completely understand what u were saying about being an older sister and all the responsibility that comes with that. I'm so extremely sorry that you have to go through all of this. I respect u so much more simply because you didn't put up a front when you were telling us as much as I did and being as honest as u were. Much love😘😘 u deserve every single drop of love and support that comes your way.♥♥

[@micromiek]

I really appreciate the “transparant” you and am looking forward to the wednesday video’s. Please dont try to be perfect and please take enough time to heal! As we say in Dutch: sterkte! (Translates as wishing you strength/support)

[@angusthepangus1]

your videos have always been so professional and helpful to me, but I had no idea the amount of pressure you put on yourself behind the scenes to create that image. You're an amazing person and have SO MUCH to be proud of.

[@theqashah]

Dogs are the cutest. As soon as you started sobbing Pepper seems so concerned. I lowkey want to adopt him ❤

[@marykeerasmus4817]

The Qashah my dog does the same. They sense your sadness. So precious ❤️

[@marsklassen]

Kaylee, you are such a loving person and it is so evident in how much you care about our family on KZbin. I can't imagine the heartbreak you are healing from and I'm so proud of the strong young woman that you are. Prayers are being sent your way. Take time to heal. We don't want you to be perfect. It's so much more important to be healthy than it is to be perfect.

[@andreakevresian1429]

I also divorced young, and I identified with so much of what you said -- Being a perfectionist, everything "by the book", never in my life imagining something like that would happen to me, and consequently feeling like a failure on so many levels. But what I can tell you is that it is so hard and will be painful for a long time, but it DOES get better, you WILL heal, and you are NOT a failure. This doesn't define you even if it feels like it right now. Praying for comfort for you during this time ❤️

[@paigepearson5361]

If anything, this has made you even more of a role model to me. The respect and restraint you showed when talking about your situation and your grace and kindness in general speak volumes about who you are. Best of luck moving forward!

[@ayjamay]

Meh, my sister has been divorced 4 times. I’ve learned more about marriage from her than my siblings who haven’t divorced. It’s not being a bad role model, a bad role model stays in a bad marriage. Take time, lick your wounds and you’ll get there when you get there. ❤️

[@ginaa.4539]

Stay strong. Thank you for your honesty. You didn't need to bare your soul but since you did, I'm sure it will help a lot of people going through a hardship.

[@vgamer456]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It's not easy for anyone, and all I can say is that do what you know is right for you. It's not an easy path, but you can. Don't lose sight of who you are Kayley.

[@Jaezzman87]

You're a big sister for so much people more. I'm so glad that you got the strength to be honest with your whole community and be a role model for all of them,me too. You don't know how much you helped me in my own situation. Sending all of my love to you!

[@unakarengumundsdottir3837]

Omg i just want to hug her trough the screan this is so heart breaking 😔😭💔

[@BollywoodMediaOnline]

3:39 "My entire life I've been a by the book, goody two shoes, do everything perfect, color inside every line, follow every rule kind of girl... I could have written my life 500 times and I would have never written it this way." Love this quote... completely relatable as hard as this time was for you, thank you for sharing. You are helping so many of us

[@renaterondeel2794]

Im so so sorry! Please take care of yourself first, we can wait. You are perfect the way u are,u are good enough!!!! Pippin! You rock puppy🐶you take very good care of you're mommy.

[@amandaharris421]

Kayley I’ve been watching you for several years - I used your hairstyles for prom back in 2012! I can’t even imagine how difficult it must be to go through this type of thing publicly. Just know that your fans are so behind you. You are one of the most genuine youtubers left and I’m so fortunate to be a part of your subscribers! Wishing you nothing but happiness and positivity this coming year!

[@itsoliviaaa18]

So brave of you to share this with us. Take your time to heal! No pressure to come back straight away. Looking forward to see more of your videos once you’re feeling better. ❤️

[@andreamorgan996]

Kayley you are the first youtuber I ever followed because you helped me learn how to braid my hair, and 8 years later you still inspire me with your kindness and genuine spirit. I am so sorry you've had to endure this pain and heartbreak and will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

[@crystgh]

Amidst the painful parts in life, family and God are always with you. And so are we, your subscribers, we love you! ❤️

[@aleguzman4203]

I've followed you ever since your channel started and loved you since then. You'll get through this and I hope you can see us as a way of support. We don't personally know you but we love you.

[@vickyw6178]

Awww, your dog is so sweet & knew right away you needed support! It is hard but you are a woman & stronger than you know! This moment will pass and it will get easier every day. 💪🏻👊🏻👍🏻❤️🙏🏻

[@andrearoballo1254]

I hope you get to feel better and move on. You deserve it SO MUCH! I’ve been here since the braid enciclopedia hahaha and I’ll be here always 💙 I’m sending all the best vibes possible and I’m praying for you!

[@friendofafriend94]

You know I watched Captain Marvel yesterday, and I thought she looked familiar. I couldn't figure out why, because I had never seen her before. I see you now, and I saw you in her! Stay strong! It's okay to be hurting, it's okay to not be okay!

[@rianamahtani9389]

Kayley, thank you for sharing this with us, it couldn't have been easy. Just so you know, I probably don't watch every one of your videos but I've always loved your tips, info and most importantly your personality. I just attended a friend's wedding 2 days ago and looked up one of your braiding videos to style my hair for the reception. I've been following you since I was a teenager and haven't found anyone else that beats your styles, the ease of how you explain things, and your relatability. You're right in saying that not posting on KZbin kills channels, but just remember that in the 9 years you've been doing this, you've built up a following, fan base and FAMILY on KZbin who would stick by you no matter how absent you are. And don't you dare think for a second that you don't deserve that! x

[@thenightingale3347]

Oh Kayley stay strong! You dont have to always be the big sister or the role model, be yourself and happy :) im sending you lots of love from Slovenia Also Pippin is amazing, props to him

[@alexsmith7384]

Kayley!!! Of COURSE you deserve love and moments of joy. Your fans love and believe in you. You’ve absolutely changed my life in how I do my hair EVERY DAY. Can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I swear it’ll get better. Eat all the ice cream and popsicles you want. You got this.

[@rocacore]

I havent even finished watching tje video, but dont feel like a failure honey, you are not. You are strong and the fact that you decided to open up this much makes me happy and proud. You got this.

[@avantisavur9824]

Kaylee I've been watching you for years now (throughout middle school and high school) and I love you so so much. You're such an inspiration to me and you could never ever be a bad role model for anyone. You deserve all the happiness in the world. You could literally make a video about anything and I (along with everyone else) will 100% watch it, because we all love the beautiful person you are💜

[@brinaf2857]

Hi Kayley! You are not a bad person, life happens and sometimes things don't go the way we plan them. If getting divorced was the best thing to do for yourself, that's ok. Stop saying you don't deserve support, you do and we got you. Lots of love from Italy💕 P.s Pippin is the sweetest 😍

[@taylorelliott4384]

You have helped me get through so many tough times. Hair/beauty is my outlet and I always come to your channel when I need a stress reliever. I’ve followed you since I was 15. You are truly incredible and such an inspiration. Sending so much love and many prayers your way! ❤️

[@Rhaemyra]

I found your channel about three or four years ago and I was in the deepest point of my depression after my dad died. It was a very rough moment, hard to wake up and do things and found no reason to take care of myself. Finding your channel gave me motivation and a reason to try new things because I always loved my hair so through your tutorials I started to remember how much I loved styling. At first, I was only watching your videos, then started trying the styles (and failing hehe), kept going, bought a curling wand, bought an iron, sooo many bobby pins and finally, after months of feeling terrible I started to look at myself, feel pretty and capable of doing something well, like I actually liked myself a bit again and at that moment that was HUGE. So I am forever grateful to you and your channel. We all go through painful moments in life, moments when we fall and find it harder to stand and that's ok. It doesn't make us weak, just reminds us we are humans facing life and that is never easy. You are not alone and again, thank you forever for being here and sharing yourself with all of us. :)

[@brielzibub27]

You’re not a failure. You’re going through a tough life change. I’m a little older, but I’ve been watching your hair tutorials from the beginning (the green curtain), and still refer to them now. You have a great support system and lots of understanding subscribers. Take whatever time you need - we’re not going anywhere! Things will get easier over time ❤️❤️

[@PixelMusing]

Man, it must have been tough. I’m glad you took the time off to recenter yourself after all you’ve been through. I will admit I was like “hmm … it’s been a while. I hope everything is okay.” Something tells me you wouldn’t want to do this unless you had to. I’m sorry to hear things didn’t work out and in some cases, divorce is a solution. I know you tried and I know it’s not ideal but it may be best for both of you to be better people apart then together. I thought it was very professional when you decided not to go into the details and truly appreciate it. It must have taken a lot of courage and inner strength to come to this conclusion and then to go back to doing what you love. My heart goes out to you and I look forward to your next video when you’re ready.

[@heatherfarmer88]

I’m so sorry you’re in a difficult chapter right now, Kayley. I adore your channel and have grown so much in my own self care through your tutorials and product recommendations. Seriously, as a mom of two, I never have time for me. But little pointers (like Kristen Ess Style Assist! 😍) have empowered me to find little ways to take care of me and feel presentable AND chase after my kids. That’s huge. And I’m so grateful for all of the time and energy you put into your channel. I can’t wait to see what’s next, good things are in store for you!

[@laurahammer4060]

When I first discovered your videos hoping to learn a few hairstyles I never saw it coming how much I would end up caring about you as a person, and how each video would be like catching up with a good friend. No matter how long breaks you take for whatever is going on at the moment I will always be there so so happy to see you again. Sending you the biggest possible hug from Denmark

[@constancemorris4266]

I haven’t watched many of your videos however those that I have watched you are a happy upbeat lady. That’s enjoyable to me. Pippin is awesome and has your back and I love that he gives you kisses. Words of wisdom now. Your marriage failed you did not! What you’re going through hurts so immensely but remember everything happens for a reason. You both received what you needed from each other in a sense. Now your new adventure and journey has begun. Remember it’s better to have loved and lost than not knowing love at all. Time will heal you...and your joyous personality will shine on through! Hugs 🤗

[@mayaowen6557]

After such a huge life change, a recovery period is definitely much needed, and with all the hard work you put into building this channel, was a well deserved break. Your videos always give me joy and inspire me to try new things with my hair, and it's because of you that I can do some really beautiful hairstyles that give me confidence. I'm so glad you're back, and I can't wait to see what you come up with next!

[@emilylucht5397]

I’ve loved you and supported you for years and I will continue to be here. You are amazing and you deserve to heal and be happy. I’m sure all of us that truly love you will continue to be here

[@WonderfulHayden]

I'm so sorry to hear this, Kayley, I'm so so sorry. My heart breaks for you. My condolences.

[@bv8560]

As many of your followers below, I have been here since the green background & you are still my favorite KZbinr! Your videos helped me do my sister’s hair for her sweet 16, homecomings, braids for myself & my nieces, the list goes on. While I hope you never stop making content, know that you & your videos were a daily part of my high school & college days & you made an impact in my life. It’s ok to need a break b/c you are such a sweet, caring human! Praying for you & your healing 😊

[@rebeccas9488]

No one is perfect and I don't think anyone expects you to be. To be honest, I really love the bloopers at the end of your videos. And what a sweet puppy. And what a good sister you have too. Sending you love during this time of transition.

[@charleemcneil3531]

Been watching Kayley for YEARS while and my heart breaks watching this! You're so beautiful- inside and out- and deserve so much ♡ even at our lowest, we are deserving of love and happiness but trials are meant to make us grow and you have all the tools needed to do that. Can't wait to see what this new season on life brings 💗 "For I know the plans I have for you. Plans for your joy and goodness"

[@dinachristine]

healing takes time. there are no short cuts. grieving is a process, and the best thing is to deal with it. moving back home to be closer to family and friends is a very wise move. i think you’ll be fine. looking forward to your next video. 😊✌🏼❤️❣️😊

[@rockchicn]

I know I'm late to view this video but I just want to say, that you don't have to be perfect, just being you makes you more relatable. Your videos don't just help me with hair and such, they cheer me up so much! When I'm feeling down, I watch your videos and your lively personality just cheers me up. I wish I could hug you through your tough time. Xx

[@andielangemeyer]

From one recovering perfectionist to another... the most liberating thing I've experienced in my 28 years was loving myself enough to unlearn the BS myth that perfectionist exist and see it for what it is: an unending trap that sets us up to be chronically dissatisfied with yourself, and be stuck in a place of "never enough". You DO deserve support. Perfection isn't human (and also pretty boring, haha); who you are in this video is HUMAN and beautiful, and so much more relatable. We think the armour of perfection protects us, when it really weighs us down, down, down. We're here as digital sisters to help each other learn all the way we will never be unloveable. Now as Meryl Streep once said, "Take your broken heart, and turn it into art". Don't doubt if its good enough. It is.

[@milkbread5036]

I needed to hear this too as I also am a struggling perfectionist to the point I went through depression because I would often compare myself to others and feel never good enough. I think the best life lived is one where you live like a child. They only focus on the moment and not get caught up on the past or future, not self conscious allows them to have fun in every little thing and every little moment. If you do your best with the time you had right now and the strength you have right now that's all that matters. Your mental attitude reflects in the outcome. A dancer on stage who is terrified and afraid to fall and look dumb will inevitably look awkward and stiff. But one who loses herself in the moment and enjoys every second of it as it passes looks way better and feels better. One day at a time we have to watch our thoughts and believe... Soon we will be and achieve. To change the external we must first change the internal

[@xoapadani]

I’ve been following you since I was 18/19 (I’m 26 now) but you’re a great role model and you still are. I hope you heal and find your center again. Sending you so much love, we’re all here for you

[@VSanchez43]

Take your time! We’ll always be here for you💕

[@elisabetheubanks6706]

I’m so so sorry. Even though you say that it’s for the better, it’s still a loss. You are still an amazing role model and such an encouragement. I’m sorry that this is going on and I’m praying for you. You have so many behind you. You’re incredible!

[@VictoriaBC610]

So, i've watched your videos since the forrest green backdrop you had.. :D and did see you get engaged and then get married...then move to LA.. Yes, been following for years.. :) and when you posted on IG yesterday that a "life update" video will go up tomorrow... i just knew.... It is indeed a devastating thing..divorce, i mean... unfortunately, i went through a divorce too and know all to well how you feel.. :(( When you said that you "could've written your life 500 times and would've never written it this way" i burst into tears... It just hit home so hard for me... Anyway, it's been years for me now.. and i'm ok for the most part.. it's just seeing videos like this really brings back the emotions so hard, because i can actually relate... Kayley, i wish you a speedy recovery. You did the right thing moving back closer to home - i did the same and it helped a lot! Sending big, bear hugs your way. You're not alone.

[@aliciaacevesestrada8946]

You’ve been such a positive part of YT to me Kayley, you seem like a genuinely good woman and you are on the reasons I got more into YT last few years. Since I’m ONE subscriber I can say to you what you’ve meant to me: whenever you uploaded I would get a smile on my face, you’re an oasis of calm and more than once I’ve played your videos as background noises and so on. I used to HATE my hair, but since meeting you I’ve grown to love and accept that, and as an MD and grown woman, that tinny bit of confidence and self love has helped me get my day done and don’t feel like a failure at the end of the day. Feeling good about the way you look makes a whole lot of difference and you’ve helped me there, yes Im confident in my work but Im also a human I like to feel good and sometimes just braiding my hair before a 32 hr shift can help. Im sorry you had to go through this Kayley, but you’ll get beyond it. I can feel it, you look like you have a great support system and you’ve got a job you love. So just heal, we’ll still be here when you come back.

[@meganclaire3651]

You’ve got a whole bunch of people rooting for you and that will be here whenever you’re ready. Take any time you need. We are here for you.

[@thearizzaorjalo6732]

Kayley, sending much love and overflowing support from me and my pup named Barbie. She’s my emotional support, too. Let yourself heal in your own pace. Whether you post a new video or not, I’m still going to be subscribed and letting my hair grow even longer to try out all your hairstyles. You’re an inspiration to many. Virtual hugs 🤗!

[@michelele859]

Your dog loves you so much and it melts my heart when it looks at you!!! Stay strong girl! You’re very clearly a fighter and beautiful inside and out ❤️

[@tararoseberry3598]

I just started watching you and subscribing. Watched numerous videos and came upon this. Take it from a 47 year old woman who has been there, done that. You got this! Divorce sucks. It is a death to what you thought life would be. But trust me. Be you, get to know you and what you want in life. The forever is out there. You will make it through. I notice you have a wild following and so much support. Allow yourself to mourn. But make yourself move on. Fake it too you make it lol. Look forward to watching so much more of your hair and oh my goodness the organizing/crafty videos, yes yes yes! Good luck!

[@sharezerglazedilao2329]

Take as much time as you need Kayley. We will wait for you! And thank you for sharing with us, even when its really hard. Stay strong. We'll be here for you!

[@tinyhappybeetle7907]

i can tell how hard this is for you and it’s so brave of you to be so vulnerable and open and respectful. life doesn’t work out the way you plan it to a lot of the times but i’m sure whatever’s ahead of you will be something you’re happy with. really hope the hurt passes soon and i’m so excited to have you back. love love love you and you’re amazing ❤️

[@jenarichelle92]

oh kayley. you are loved. you are so strong! we will always be here for you whenever you're ready to come back full swing. focus on your health, and surround yourself with love. if i was your friend i would hug you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@klcoop3]

You do deserve encouragement and support, not least because that’s what you give all of your viewers in every single one of your videos! That’s part of the reason we all love your channel and will continue to love it! Also this video makes me so happy that you have such a wonderful emotional support Pippin 🥰 stay well and stay strong and honor what you need!

[@cozypoisons]

I'm so sorry you're going through this darling. I can see you're really hurting, and I am sending you all the love and light. Your dog loves you so much and is trying to remind you as much as possible every moment how wonderful you always are. I am inspired by your strength and grace i this situation. I've gone through a similar divorce, but you are handling it the way I think is the best way. I'm proud of you. Time will bring healing, you will come out of this stronger and happier. I promise. Don't give up, love you!

[@kileydix1159]

Oh, this pup is just the sweetest! Give yourself time. Like any grief, don't rush yourself and don't let anyone else rush you. You'll get through it on your time. Love and light to you

[@estebritt9555]

You're one of the first people I ever subscribed to, and this was yeeeeears ago. I'm so sorry for what you've been going through, but you're so strong for sharing it with us. ❤️❤️❤️

[@evelynlam168]

Please stay strong Kayley! I've been watching your videos for a long time, not just for the great hair tips, but also for your lovely bubbly personality. Watching your videos when I'm having a bad day really helps me feel better. Sending you all the love and support :)