having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps... | keep it simple

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

Yes I relate to bring addicted to meetings and steps .

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

My fave daily reading is Hazelden 24 hours a day June 6..it likes tells my story written by somewhere else at some other time it blows my mind like I have experienced those feelings and at one time or another Ive been every type of different person who needs God at one point or another

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

I did go thru the 12 steps from Wally p back to basics book in late March 2013. I did a 5th step with my sponsor at the time who told me not to reconnect with my GF because she was still using so of course I fired him and went back to her. Abd of course just like he said in 2016 I did relapse

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

But I've just recently begun to go back thru my 12 step process

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

Good reminder. Reminds me of step 10 in the 12&12 about remembering how it was God who saved me by grace, not becoming the "bigshot" or letting my ego get out of control. I tend to go from 0 to 70 in 3 seconds instead of staying balanced. Your teaching is a great reminder too stay balanced thank you

[@VanessaWhatever_]

I hear ya, I’ve been there. It’s a constant practice to stay grounded, but it’s so worth it! 🙏🤍

[@Thesarahreneeshow]

Happy birthday month!!!!! ❤❤❤ I love this topic- so good!

[@VanessaWhatever_]

Thank you so much! 🙏🤍✨ I’m gonna see how long I can do this series lol

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

Thank you for this teaching. I'm bipolar on top of alcoholic so I can get "too many" thoughts or ideas, it's very important I stay grounded in keep it simple silly and don't overdo things once I get feeling better from a dark depression stage. I tend to go too far the other way and get delusions of grandeur or take on too much like dozens of projects instead of keeping it simple

[@VanessaWhatever_]

Yesss 💯 exactly! I relate to this

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

Gosh your teachings are so good. I really relate to the way you put stuff. You have great insight. Like I learn a lot about me listening to your teachings it's pretty cool. Your doing a great job with your lessons I appreciate your open and honest sharing I could never do that, let alone on camera. My self body image is so horrible because I was born with a rare genetic skin disorder and for decades o resented my mom because I inherited it from her, and I resented God for being born how I was. I'm still trying to work thru it to find acceptance it's hard to even look at myself in a mirror or share at meetings because I don't want people to look at me. And I'm terrified to chair and absolutely horrified if I stay sober like 18 months or years multiple id be asked to share my story at a speaker meeting with everyone there looking at me. It's the most terrifying thought I can think of. But I know if I stay sober one day I might be asked and it does really scare me pretty bad. But I hope if that time ever comes maybe I will have made peace with my physical appearance by then. At 47 days it's still a long ways off and no one at my groups likes me because I'm a chronic relapser. I have several dozen desire chips and multiples of white key tags for the other program. But I'm determined I don't wanna get loaded anymore because I was at deaths door barely living and feeling a fate worse than death when I stopped this time. But no one believes me which is understandable actually since I've relapsed many times.

[@VanessaWhatever_]

I’m so glad my words are helpful. You are not alone in this struggle. 🙏🤍 I hear you about the insecurity and appreciate you sharing that, it sounds difficult and almost like a catch 22 to your sobriety. I so encourage you to stay strong in your recovery though. I know if and when you do, that resentment and fear of being looked at - and most importantly, seen - will be dissolved and you’ll be able to experience a freedom. Keep going, you got this. 💪

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

So true. Emotional sobriety is so different from physical sobriety. You have such keen insights. Who's James Finley??? Oh never mind I'll KZbin it or Google it, lol

[@VanessaWhatever_]

Yes James Finley is amazing! Had a horrible childhood and overcame so much, has really helped my spiritual growth.

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

Happy birthday

[@VanessaWhatever_]

Thank you!

[@EricWiseman-op9hm]

10-16-24 is my sobriety day

[@VanessaWhatever_]

That’s amazing!! Congrats 👏🎉