Hiya Kevin! It's Paula off the virtual gatherings. 3 months is a long time, I'm sorry you went through all that, in and out of hospital every couple of weeks. Nobody could or would wish to do it alone. You are a great photographer, you are also a lovely person, Kevin. Anxiety, panic attacks and paranoia are all horrible, we share these after effects and I would like to connect with you Kevin. You have a great sense of humour Kevin. Exactly sometimes families don't understand our after effects. Feeling overwhelmed, and processing speed are sone of my after effects too. We both want to be changemakers Kevin. Never give up is my motto. Remind myself Im still alive, I was 1 but I understand where you're coming from. God bless Kevin. Stay positive.