Divorce is hard, I’m divorced also. I didn’t even want to wake up in the mornings at first so I know what you’re going through. It’s going to be hard but you will make it. You have a support system in your friends and neighbors, use it. Don’t be afraid or too proud to call someone just to talk or hear a friendly voice, it helps. The fact that you were able to enjoy something as simple as the grilled fish is a good sign that you will be okay, it just takes time. Just keep in mind that the past is the past and that you have a future to build. My thoughts and prayers will be with you through it all.