Heroin Addict On How The Drug Ruins Lives | Minutes With |

[@Sofiarey285]

My mother was a crack addict and gave me up to my alcoholic father in kindergarten. I remember seeing her smoke crack, it was so odd, she would stare at her hand then crawl on the floor like she dropped something. My dad got sober after he started taking care of my brother and I, which I am grateful. The next thing I remember about my mom is when my dad came to school to pick me up early in 4th grade. My still drug addicted mom was in the hospital having come out of a two week long coma. Some rando dropped her off at the hospital and they had to get courts to get permission to perform life-saving surgery on her because they had no idea who she was. She fell down the stairs (my dad always told us that maybe someone pushed her down but nobody knows), hit her head and had brain swelling. She lost her memory and partial sight and to this day is very child-like from the trauma. My older brother died of a heroin overdose when I was 18 years old. To say my life has been affected by drugs is an understatement. I feel silly explaining my life to strangers on the internet underneath a 2 year old video, but if someone is reading this and is struggling with sobriety I want you to know that I am proud of you. Being sober for one day, one week, a month, or years, I am proud of you. I celebrate you and I am truly proud of you. My brother couldn't do it, but you can.

[@burritolover5082]

Sorry for your loss and thank you for your words

[@drippnjimmy1033]

God bless you, I pray for your families safety and happiness.

[@cordislucian2195]

Oh man I love crack more than life...

[@il_principe]

God bless you, I hope you live a good life

[@danielfields4779]

powerful stuff thank you for sharing

[@krisztiankorosi7752]

This guy said more to me in 7 minutes than all the drug prevention speaker together over many years in high school

[@monstermunch7083]

Krisztián Körösi you will find that, I have spoken and spent time with drug counsellors of all kinds and not one of them has a real clue, a lot of great people who want to help but have never been high in their life let alone addicted.

[@dominicflatt7777]

Exactly

[@dmotorsports]

you are damn right sir

[@krisztiankorosi7752]

I am still Junkie so i know what you are in 🙂

[@paulsartorelli3904]

Swurvin Media You have one of the most ignorant viewpoints about drugs that I’ve ever seen. You clearly don’t understand drugs and you clearly don’t understand what truly happens with addiction. Do you have sympathy for people addicted to alcohol? We know how bad it is (one of the top 5 most harmful drugs on earth), so I’m sure you have NO sympathy for people that drink, right? Also, do you consider natural psychedelics to be hard drugs?

[@chrisbee487]

Im 13 months clean tomorrow. Well done John. Inspires me seeing stuff like this.

[@janeokeeffe5297]

Well done stay strong wishing the best for you

[@chrisbee487]

@@janeokeeffe5297 thank you my friend ❤

[@TheRebeccaDaviShow]

Congratulations Chris! So inspiring!!💗

[@chrisbee487]

@@TheRebeccaDaviShow thank you Rebecca

[@kevinrussell1319]

Keep in there Chris stay strong.

[@briannetarver2261]

I was an every day user for 13 years. 5 years sober this September! Still trying to figure life out, and heal from that life. Love seeing other people come out on top. ❤️

[@BodyRibbonz]

5 years? I would say you did come out on top! Fantastic! You inspire me to try...

[@leaf16nut]

@@BodyRibbonz To try heroin? I don't think that's the message she wanted to spread 😂

[@tupakkaonhyvaa]

@@leaf16nut Nice bait. 😁

[@brettwilson7680]

Congratulations.. I've been in heroin for about the same amount of time. Day 2 withdrawal, feel like hell but I'm sticking this out.

[@brettwilson7680]

@Harley J Suboxone..today isn't so bad. The first 28 hours were absolute hell on earth, but I figure anybody can force themselves to go through hell for that amount of time. After that the Suboxone really works well.

[@cfontaine]

My dad died of a heroin overdose when I was seven years old. Nobody had heard from him for three days but that wasn't abnormal. The neighbors across the hall complained about a terrible smell. They investigated to find out it was him, rotting, on his knees with a needle in his arm. If you're struggling with addiction and reading this, no matter how hard it may do your absolute best to not end up like him.

[@benmarshall4646]

You're an inspiration stay strong brother 💪

[@doubletapthatdotty4597]

Hate to break it to you but the body doesn't rot that quick

[@eatmypant5]

@@doubletapthatdotty4597 being a cop you see people die and an hour later maggots are running through their nose and eyes. the smell of a body 3 days after death is disgusting so just be quiet when you're ignorant

[@christopherburns2303]

Sorry to hear. But by your tone it seems you’re dealing with it well and using it as a positive motivation in your life. All the best... 🙏🏼

[@ricardoalves5488]

I first tried heroin when I was 17. Through my life I had almost every available drug there was. During the covid pandemic I got jobless and alot of time to think about life. I entered a methadone programm and I am clean since 4 months now. I had two relapses but I keep on. It's not easy, but it's possible. I will get rid of my heroin addiction. I'm very sure.

[@Smokesalot8466]

This man and his 7 minutes are worth more than any motivater influencer or self help guru can preach in a lifetime

[@Orgun1213]

Absolutely agree with you

[@nickbunt2209]

Amen to that.

[@markcasha1590]

💯👍

[@dominic3530]

Well the man with the iron lung is a contender :)!

[@IAn0nI]

That's very subjective.

[@mrmervinjminky1536]

Always amazes me that people can turn their lives around so dramatically, ultimate respect.

[@omars-qz6rn]

it just takes one day

[@thedonofthsht76-58]

Its it's often the worst users. You gotta hit bottom

[@TheRebeccaDaviShow]

Totally agree! It's amazing to see!💗

[@HaycravingHorse]

wish I could do that too.

[@mrmervinjminky1536]

@@HaycravingHorse Do you live in Scotland?

[@Rickie-37]

I appreciate how he brought up the fact that he's a blank slate after he got clean. Not knowing who you are can be one of the most emotionally challenge situations to face. Thankyou for sharing. And thank you for not giving up

[@jameshurst3279]

My dad was an alcoholic. He managed to go 6/7 years sober before he died. He is my hero for doing it. Anyone who can beat an addiction has my complete admiration.

[@oaksxnfx3147]

My dad's is and idk how to make him stop he does it every weekend or every other weekend it sucks man

[@oaksxnfx3147]

@Ciaran Eley so you wouldn't consider someone who drinks every Friday Saturday and Sunday and drinks heavy to the point where he is passing out in his garage not an acholic? I think not

[@starbright1256]

it's not how much you drink. it's what it does to you while your drinking. alchol is destruction to the drinker & all others. whether it's twice a month or daily. it's hurtful, painful & binge drinkers are more at risk than alcoholics to die from it. but daily drinkers get more of the liver problems generally. it's toxic. sorry to hear of your situation with your father. blessings to you. xo

[@KiraHunter2310]

@@oaksxnfx3147 he’s not an alcoholic then is he if he doesn’t do it every day

[@ChelsLoveCOYB]

@Ciaran Eley Stop glorifying alcohol abuse. Drinking every week is alcoholism.

[@tiktaktikka]

Happy for this dude... He's overcome a monster. My uncle died from it. Much respect!

[@internetvictim4147]

rip to your uncle, bud

[@tiktaktikka]

@@internetvictim4147 Thanks brother

[@qrewzin]

Rip to your uncle bro

[@tiktaktikka]

@@qrewzin Thanks man, he was a great dude just suffered with depression. He made had a lot of positive impact on people despite all of that. Much love bud

[@tiktaktikka]

@Lazz Perry Aww im sorry bro... yeah sometimes its just a darkness that you cant get rid of. The only way it stops for a short period is with that stuff... Good people die just trying to feel better sadly. RIP to your uncle as well big dog.

[@user-ex1yk7gk7g]

I began ‘secretly’ using at 14 due to not being able to cope with certain things and overdosed in 2015. Im now 24 and six years sober. I cannot emphasise just how precious life really is. I’ve just graduated from my masters and I have my dream job. It does get better. You’ve just got to believe that it does.

[@based_mediumchungus1788]

using heroin at 14? what the fuck, why not just do some weed or even some coke?

[@JT0007]

Are you still sober? Hope so.

[@user-ex1yk7gk7g]

@@JT0007 still going strong!

[@based_mediumchungus1788]

@@user-ex1yk7gk7g why would you even use heroin at 14? thats fucking stupid shit. responsible users of diacetylmorphine such as my self are not going to touch it until they are retired.

[@JT0007]

@@user-ex1yk7gk7g 👍💪🤜🤛🇺🇸

[@galy4547]

I took heroin for 2 years and became an addict. One day I woke up and I had this very lucid moment where I realised I was a prisoner of this and my life was completely ruled by the heroin. The same day I went to a rehab clinic, I passed all the cleaning process hid from my family and girlfriend, I said I had a strong flu and I walked that hell alone. I cannot put in words how it hurts in the mind beyond the physical cleaning pain. After that I was clean but emotionally broken, a horrible feeling. I heard about the Vipassana meditation retreats and I went for a 10-day course. That change my life for good, is the tool that made me recover the happiness and the full control of my mind and my life. No matter how deep in the hole you feel you are, you can get out and you can have your fresh start and feel the joy of being alive once again

[@Josh_J91]

Your absoulte scum

[@toniomiklo2406]

Amazing story. Thanks for sharing.

[@OrangeUaLemon]

i used heroin for a few years from about 14 - 17/18. i overdosed in 2012 and got sent to a juvenile detention center which landed me in rehab. i relapsed right after but immediately flushed what i had down the toilet that night after getting high. i used once more and just wanted to sleep it off and knew i was done. that was almost 11 years ago now. im in a challenging place now, have struggled on and off with the same things but now that ive gotten older and have abused my mind and body i have more health and psychological issues than before, unresolved trauma rearing its head. i no longer do heroin but i use kratom and cannabis, mild drugs but the underlying issues were always the real problem to address. Heroin was just a dangerous added element to the underlying trauma and pain, a risky way to cope indeed. i just wanted to say i greatly appreciate your comment. im motivated to get completely clean and heal, i know vipassana is the key for me to truly gain back control and find mental and emotional stability, so your comment was a great reminder and inpiration. blessings

[@teddygunzbarno2102]

Congratulations on being clean I can relate I was a herion addict for year's I got clean on August 28th 2009 cheer's mate....!

[@Fee_V]

Keep coming back hon! 💕

[@sandrea4872]

Congrats! You're both inspirational x

[@tristanbibeau704]

Congrats that makes you one of the strongest people:) keep it up

[@qrewzin]

@Tj Gaming Happy for u Bro my mom is sadly a herion addict still

[@teddygunzbarno2102]

I hope she gets better its up to the person u can't force them they have to want it 💯

[@kayf516]

My daughter is just about to go to rehab for the second time to battle this addiction. It can be done & I have every faith in her. Never give up on those you love.

[@janettodd1441]

It's a hard thing to beat. Rehab didn't help me, but detoxing in jail sure did. I was clean for 5.5 years before relapsing. I'm now almost 2.5 months clean. It's a long, strange, hard trip.

[@arjovenzia]

It can be done, just keep in mind you cant do it for them, no matter how much love. the only person that can flip that switch is them. Its hard, but you may need to let them scrape the bottom. but you can be there to pick them up. its not much fun, loving someone in that deep, dark hole. Love is powerful, but it cant conquer heroin. the thing that sickens me is writing people off because they are addicted. they are still humans, worthy of love and respect. they may not appreciate it at the time, but they are still Human, underneath a shell. there is a fair chance the addiction will push them into places they'd rather not be, do things they'd rather not. treat the human underneath the shell. only then can they put it aside on their own terms. you cant tear it off. that does not work. best of luck to you and your daughter. some random dude on the internet sends love and hope. It is possible. its a process.

[@briantjepkema7758]

May I suggest methadone to help with your daughter. It allows people to get stability in their life before they begin to detox which can then be done gradually. I know many people that it has helped.

[@timharper4246]

Miss Kay, I'd like to suggest a program like Alanon. One thing a parent needs to learn is to fix their own thinking and not enable their loved ones. Being around addiction can make you just as sick as they are.

[@randommadness1021]

@@briantjepkema7758 methadone is just as bad, if not worse. Brutal to get off.

[@95netta]

"something that i love more than a success story is, a story were someone destroys their life and then makes a comeback" Joe Rogan. I definitely agree with that

[@ippolea]

At least quote Joe Rogan.

[@ippolea]

Thanks for the quote

[@lillexus5589]

" Video games are bad" Joe Rogan

[@Kelbayram]

Dmt

[@lillexus5589]

@Natural Born Killer that's the opinion of some one that can't control himself in any way lol. Not the game's fault that Joey "Chinese Cash" Rogan has an addictive personality.

[@HiGlowie]

Utmost respect for this guy getting his life together and having the courage to be passionate about new things. That’s harder than it sounds unfortunately.

[@alecogden12345]

"When we havnt got security in our life and we're missing something, anyone can become an addict." So true, and it explains so much about society and peoples mental health

[@joshrichardson5067]

Which sadly has been heightened by Covid-19 and people being furloughed.

[@Crsf84]

jeezo when will the world toughen up instead of going down the mental health bollocks. Really quite shambolic that we as a generation are even considering this as an excuse for cunts . most people just want attention or use the mental health card for an easy time. Just get up get out and get on with it. very very simple .

[@Lol-vt7de]

@@Crsf84 It seems like you’ve had the luxury to live a life without mental health problems probably due to having a lot of security in your upbringing. Ignorance is bliss but it’s consequence is disastrous.

[@Crsf84]

@@Lol-vt7de No not at all I have family members that are crazier than a shithouse rat and have turned to class a drugs then expect hand outs sympathy ect ect ect. Just absolute nonsense you are your own enemy in situations like that. As above its mind over matter and people who cannot see it through are too weak minded. self inflicted drama.

[@andyfield6854]

Very, very true.Problems in my childhood led me to alcohol addiction and its ruined my life.I have been dry for 3 years and i pray i never go back.

[@timothymoynihan8063]

I was a heroin addict from summer of 1993 to Oct 2 2012. Oct 2 2012 was my 37th birthday. I spent it in the ICU. My lifestyle of drugs and alcohol put me there. The Dr's told me 10 days later as I left the hospital, they were surprised I didn't have a heart attack. I just celebrated my 45th birthday a few days ago. I'm thankful I changed my habits and was given a second chance. Not everyone I know was as lucky. Please never walk down the same road as many of us had. Never be afraid to ask for help.

[@emmajane9403]

🙌🙌 Well done. Its so hard to get off substances so well done you.

[@jazread8121]

I’m so proud of you x

[@teelesynclair5902]

I don't know you but I'm proud of you. Im off heroin and cocaine 5 months now, i don't know my precise day i gave up because it wasn't planned, i ran out of money, got the shakes/hell and just never went back. I have a fiance who never took hard drugs and being with someone clean helped, he did watch me carefully and would get so upset if i faltered so i like avoiding hurting him

[@Legend29087]

Well done mate 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼

[@teelesynclair5902]

@hairCarexo Xo you've made a positive change already, your planning on getting clean which is great. Do it for yourself, you deserve better, the life of an addict is no way to live, it messes with your mental and physical health, you have minus cash and its a life full of anxiety, ie. Where will i get money tomorrow? What if i can't get my fix or what if i get arrested or attacked? ect. I didn't plan a set day, i got ripped off with rubbish weak drugs and i didn't have cash to buy more and i just decided ive had enough of this sh and i want out so i just stayed in. Im not going to lie and say its easy because i did have slips, i did want to go buy some as soon as i got money but i didnt want to upset my partner who was watching me like a hawk as he worried id relapse. If you have a quit day i recommend you do some prep, like get some easy to cook and eat foods such as ramen, bread for toast sandwiches ect, ready meals and some isotonic drinks like gatorade/powerade to replenish lost fluid/minerals. Make sure you have good tv to watch, some quality reading too so you can just relax and chill. You wont feel like doing much, even a trip to the store might be too much so have supplies at hand. Have paracetamol/ibuprofen to lower a temperature and anti diarrheal medication with rehydration salts nearby. Dont surround yourself with users, or watch stuff about drugs and delete your drug contacts or better yet, change your number so they cant reach you cos when i quit my main dealer was ringing and texting me within 3 days asking where i was, acting like he cared, offering to front me a few bags if i was low on cash. Its not fun but i promise itll pass, you might feel like youve royally messed up and you cant get back to normality. You can, trust me you can and will. I was smoking £150 of heroin daily and also £200 worth of cocaine daily, i was a mess, weeks from death because i was that weakened. If i can do it so can you. Praying for you but i have every faith, you got this 💖😉👍

[@rw4614]

The sad thing is that a lot of these drug addicts and alcoholics are highly intelligent people who have had a very bad run with life.

[@TheRebeccaDaviShow]

Love this comment! So true!💗

[@jimmycain8669]

Like other people don’t have rough lives. I’m an addict myself and their ain’t no excuse for that crap. Heard it all from “mommy set me on the toilet backwards during potty training”’ to infinity.

[@abitshady9562]

@@jimmycain8669 I have an alcohol addiction and like you say, there isn’t any excuse for it, I’m an addict that needs to sort my life out. I have my own successful business. I need to stop drinking.

[@alainvosselman9960]

True ! Seen it many times cuz i was living in that type of environment. I was an addict myself. I read philosophy, isoteric material, played chess, learned to play 4 instruments and did 7yrs of jazz academy later on in life. It's indeed a sad thing that it involves people who have capacities. A good friend of my who was an addict is actually a great artist, making awesome drawings. He could've gotten a lot further had he concentrated on that and if some one had taught him about integrity.

[@dirkve]

@@abitshady9562 U got it man, I don’t know you, but no matter how bad something gets. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, and sooner or later u will get there. Go talk to some people (professionals if u will), sounds stupid at first, but if you do it and win in the end, u will look back thinking it was the best thing u ever did.

[@sarahpalin9400]

A very articulate and interesting account. My son's father was a heroin addict. I had to walk away in the end. It affected my son's life profoundly. I wish you well-you should be proud of how you have turned up for yourself and stood firm. Giving your energies to causes is a great way to move forward and stay on track.

[@AriPicard]

I’ve been free of heroin for 14 years. I still get cravings at times. I get flashbacks of the taste and smell from smoking it. Sometimes the foil makes me nervous. My husband and our little boy are constant reminders of how blessed I am to have so much love to give and receive. Applying myself to everything I do, creating new things, making toys has become my new drug. There is no healthier sense of pride than to feel accomplished and making people smile.. nurturing is such an amazing feeling. Heroin was a gateway to learning to love myself in some ways. My shamanic path. I only hope that others can find freedom through that hell.

[@vantastroganoff4370]

Ari ari so true..what was I seeking..it was all accidental indeed.from 30 to $150 to $500 per day Thank god I quit before covid..the smell and sensory still there..I hid money all over Vancouver At horseshoe bay for emergency that never came

[@Al-ex92]

You're a hero 👏

[@christopherpitt9806]

And don't ever go back👏

[@mongo4511]

Well done girl. All the best to you and your family x

[@user-ug2oz8fj1q]

where do everyday people even access it?! i know no one who can provide it

[@bjkarana]

To me, his most salient point is that _anybody_ can become an addict; addiction is so pernicious because every user says to themselves, "I won't be like _that;_ I can stop anytime." Thanks for sharing your story!

[@pinchebruha405]

Not true some of us can try anything and not become an addict, genetics and the psychology of trauma play a huge role

[@Chaos_God_of_Fate]

I don't say those things to myself or anyone. I'm an addict to all sorts of things, Opiates included. I'm not stopping. Stereotypes are convenient, huh?

[@multifister47]

@@pinchebruha405 anyone can absolutely become an addict, because addict doesn’t specifically mean use it once and you’re addicted. Most people can do a drug once and never do it again. Do it enough, you get comfortable, do it more, you eventually get a taste for it and become addicted

[@adrianflo6481]

@@pinchebruha405 Everyone is an addict to food and money, if your body didnt produce counter measures to make you addicted to surviving youd jsut sit under a tree content until you died and youd never produce any offspring that would share your bliss.

[@bjkarana]

@@pinchebruha405 I've heard a lot of people say that, but the old adage holds true: _the chains of habit are too light to be felt until they're too strong to be broken._

[@AB-ou4hl]

4.5 Years sober this month. To everyone out there in the same position, keep fighting the good fight!

[@karlosborne8723]

Good luck brother

[@Kate-kg5pf]

Congratulations!

[@ogchin6084]

Congratulations man

[@serinagjesdal4927]

you are amazing

[@porkch0p33]

10 years clean but there’s allways something that comes back to haunt you that on top of my severe depression 25 yrs of heroin and crack has done a number on my head really sad

[@kiddboifr3sh219]

I was an alcoholic for 13 years. It crippled me into something I never thought I could be. I’m almost 3 months sober now and my life has literally done a 180. I can finally feel again. I know exactly how this man feels. Life is so precious and I’m so fortunate to have had the slightest will to change. God bless anyone who is struggling.

[@Lakefruit]

I’m incredibly proud of you for getting sober and sticking to it. I wish you all the best!!

[@ashleyculbertson3430]

you got this! I am rooting for you! Much love

[@cactuscooler48]

As a former alcoholic, I'm so proud of you! The first 3 months can honestly be the hardest. I know I'm commenting 10 months after you made this comment, but I sincerely hope you made it a year sober. But if not, don't beat yourself up! Any amount of time sober is better than not being sober. Keep up the good work - it's worth it in the end!

[@kiddboifr3sh219]

@@cactuscooler48 I’ve got 1 year and 16 days. I’m living a life I never thought I would be living. Everything is absolutely wonderful. Thank you

[@cactuscooler48]

@@kiddboifr3sh219 Hell yeah!! That's awesome to hear! Keep going strong! ❤️

[@irwanahmed001]

5:31 - 5:42 “When we haven’t got security in our life and we’re missing something, anybody could become an addict” Straight facts, this applies to almost everyone, not just drug addicts.

[@DarthFurie]

Yep, he's so spot on. It wasn't heroin, but addiction happened to me too for the same reason, emptiness and pain inside. This guy inspired me so much

[@irwanahmed001]

scoot manke alright strong man with many hobbies. yes, hobbies r a gd way to get out of an addiction, but that does not mean u can just get out of an addiction thru that. when it comes to the more serious addictions, many additional steps r required which ultimately comes down to identifying the root problem behind the addiction and solving it and enduring the slow n painful process of rehab. for drug addicts, sinply getting out of an addiction is not that easy, and takes a lot of patience. at least they were weak before, but once they overcome it they will be much stronger imo. i dont really have any major addictions, just saying this with addicts in mind.

[@johnreeves3876]

"Write that down write that down" -some politician trying to sell themselves during an election

[@idfbjfodkdkdbdidndb8859]

@scoot manke what part of the uk are you from?

[@the_glitter_is]

I don't think people become addicts, but rather are born w/the predisposition that lies dormant, waiting for the moment to waken the addict within.

[@nicklavarini5231]

I am absolutely hanging on every word this bloody wonderful man is saying... No pity for himself , just the utmost integrity and sincerity.... What a great man....

[@palmeadia]

Well put!

[@jbuckley2546]

Not so wonderful when driving whilst disqualified, high on heroin.

[@mikefamey6809]

He went through something worse then death.

[@helentee9863]

@@jbuckley2546 he admitted it,that takes honesty and courage I'm sure he doesn't think that makes it right, that's not what this is about,being right, but about accepting how wrong you were to change the future

[@selinakhan18]

I was an addict. I was snow balling up to 7 times a day. Quit 2012. One day at a time still. It's not easy, but it becomes easier by the day. Good luck to everyone. It can be done

[@eejyool5099]

Good for you, and congrats. I have an eating disorder which, from a purely scientific viewpoint, is less harmful but also less "rewarding" for the brain (much less) than heavy drugs, and yet I still struggle with it, so personally I can't fathom going through something like heroin addiction and then having the guts and determination to stop. Stay strong.

[@randommess6667]

@@eejyool5099 I dunno if an eating disorder is less harmful I thought alot of anorexics die

[@nolachino504]

💯 I Know all about that too I used to shoot heroin .8 years Clean now.

[@SnakePlisskin.]

Well done mate same boat diffrent ship tho...

[@dannythompson1948]

What does snowballing mean where youre from?

[@RK-nq3fj]

Much respects. Some of us are trying to quit much easier stuff - drinks, junk food, phone etc and struggle to succeed. Your turning around a much harder addiction is an inspiration for all.

[@suzannelacy8093]

Have just watched the brave ex heroin addict and it brought back the nightmarish experience of living in a caravan for two months with my heroin addicted daughter . I deliberately chose a camp site which was so isolated and impossible to access any transport , the first two weeks were the worst . To see my beautiful young child rattling whilst she suffered agony was heartbreaking for this mother as she weighed only five stone .We braved that time together and when she suffered withdrawal I held her so tightly just as when she was my little baby . She was clean and managed to get a job after weekly blood tests showed she was clean . Sorry 😔 for such a long long comment .

[@katsm-wo9704]

What a caring intelligent mother you are. Thanks from another mother

[@jaydawg4732]

You are an incredible mother and incredible human being. Your story is inspirational and really moved me.

[@sanibabie]

Sending you and your daughter love

[@jamiemiller8850]

Wow well done mum, I bet your girl is so happy to have you on her side ❤

[@pavilmacaroni]

Thats proper parenting 👏👏👏 good on you

[@Rickmarine1]

In one month’s time I’ll be 4 years clean from heroin as well. This guy was pretty spot on with what heroin addiction is like. The drug is so powerful, it makes you feel SO good to the point where you’re in utter bliss, nothing bothers you. You feel warm and fuzzy, happy, and for me it took away all my anxiety and sadness. But when you run out, the withdrawals would make you feel the complete opposite. It’s literally the worst feeling in the world, words do little to describe how bad it really is. It really is an amazing thing when someone gets clean and stays sober, it way harder than it sounds.

[@briang.7206]

If you have studied iradology its examining the eyes using a chart you can see the condition of the body and organs.someone's who's on drugs will say they feel ok but using the iradology chart you can see the damage to their body. Drugs give you a false sense of well being.

[@coopsawright7225]

Were you ever on methadone and if so, how was it for you. I have been on the done for 2 years now and it does offer a little bit of pain relief but I wonder if it is even worth it now ?

[@Rickmarine1]

@@coopsawright7225 no I never got on methadone, I asked to be put on Suboxone and it was enough to help me through. Although the withdrawal will still pretty intense the first few days off heroin.

[@coopsawright7225]

@@Rickmarine1 May the road rise with you and thankyou dearly.

[@Rickmarine1]

@@coopsawright7225 and you as well, take care

[@forbiddenhistory2331]

I took heroin for one month and quit. I just knew it was bad news. My buddy who started at the exact same time didn't quit. He died of an overdose 2 years later. He didn't make it to age 23. I turned 43 recently and couldn't be happier. I can't believe how careless I was at that time. It was really dumb. Don't do drugs kids.

[@nuraxgaming6601]

I'm now 16 years old and never took alcohol or drugs in my life. These comments and interviews are a good reminder of that I should never go down that path. Thank you. I hope life is treating you well, and may your buddy rest in peace ❤️

[@audreydoyle5268]

Except weed... if you're a chronic pain sufferer or trauma survivor (mental and/or physical)

[@ivagreen11]

@@audreydoyle5268 weed is also disassociation... Many ppl who smoke daily are living parasites

[@sadhu7191]

U would think we would make an opiate with no overdose risk. Some scientist has to make it. And steriods with no side effects like come on it would be over

[@forbiddenhistory2331]

@@sadhu7191 we actually have both... sort of. Methadone is a very powerful narcotic and it's supposedly "non addictive", which is why it is used by doctors to get people off of heroin. As for a steroid alternative, we have something called andro. It works just like steroids and could be purchased over the counter up until a few years ago. See Mark McGwire who admitted to taking it in 1998. Neither drug is as strong or quite as effective as the others. But it's the best we can do with modern chemistry. It's simply impossible to create anything equal to heroin and/or steroids without also compromising the drugs effectiveness. Heroin, for example, actually blocks the pain receptors in the brain. And that's precisely why heroin gives people a euphoric feeling. Take that away and it doesn't work as well (ie. people stop taking it).

[@MrAkeel360]

I hope everyone reading overcomes any issues they are facing in life.

[@asheresterhuizen786]

Thanks sixteen hard drug addiction

[@MrAkeel360]

@@asheresterhuizen786 at the age of 16??? You got your whole life ahead of you.

[@pitstop1338]

Thanks I have stopped dealing drugs like heroine because I was money addicted. Now I feel better and do social work

[@MrAkeel360]

@@pitstop1338 glad you got out of it and will stay away from it.

[@timdriscoll2528]

Appreciate it bro, I needed to read this. Hope you are well too mate

[@lovedaybebe5881]

I’m 18 years clean . Thank you for sharing your story. Heroin definitely replaced a loss in my life . I think the most shocking part of it , is the subtlety of the drug . Like a gentle hug , no great souring high ! This is what caught me out . This gentle hug that turns on you and strangulates your whole existence ! Anyone reading this and watching , suffering . Go seek help when your ready. There is life after addiction . It is possible , you can love life again 🙏

[@rebel4466]

Damn. Well done

[@lovedaybebe5881]

@@rebel4466 thank you 🙏

[@ihavemacaroni]

begin again

[@M.b5277]

Thanks for sharing as someone that struggle with abuse of all sorts I've seen the light at the end of the tunnel. These videos and comments like yours are needed to help show the potential of change and redemption. It can truly show wanting to survive for better is possible I hope we get to see each other again thrive.i wish this message is received by all who may feel unheard I'm here and I understand my brothers and sisters.I hope we gain a little more understanding and learn to embrace divine unity.

[@markmcelroy1872]

That's so well said. Thankfully I managed to get out before it became a real problem for me (only used four times, over a month- I am an idiot and was well on my way to addiction, I had cravings for years, do not try this at home), but that's exactly what surprised me too, it's such a subtle drug and it doesn't feel like a big deal at all.

[@danniis9444]

I'm 15 years clean from heroin. It is absolutely a 24hr job being an addict. After a while you take it to just feel normal. It has destroyed my life and the lives of those I love. The grieving process you go through when you stop using is unbelievable. It's like mourning for a deceased love one. I wish I could do my life over again.

[@chris4181]

im 20 yrs clean last week and u are totally correct its a 24 hr job to keep clean. i can still taste it and smell it . oh how i loved that lil rock. but i love my wife and daughter more. it might still some days nearly break me but when i see my girls i know i can fuckin smash anything. keep your head up and keep loving hard. all our love from down under

[@carpediem4512]

I had to leave the country to get clean. It’s been 21 years, but I know if I ever tried it again, I would be right back to square one in no time.

[@leonc9760]

That's the feeling I had when I stopped abusing opiates, I just wanted to get those 10 years back i was on them that were a blur and just gone like I hadn't lived them......15 years is amazing though, you should be proud of yourself

[@leonc9760]

@@chris4181 20 years? That's fantastic mate, reading messages like yours is what gave me the courage to ask for help and I'm currently on methadone -which I've reduced to only a small amount, no more heroin, fentanyl or any other opiate I could get my hands on! Can't wait to be free of methadone to and one day say I have 20 years clean! Thanks for sharing, it definitely helps others

[@chris4181]

@@leonc9760 my bro thanks for the love. mate i kniow u can get 20 yrs its going to be fuckin hard and everyone and thing will test you. but i know YOU CAN DO IT

[@redbanana6841]

Great man. He didn't just get clean and carry on with a destructive lifestyle, he became a positive force in the world. Inspiring stuff.

[@TristanBanks]

Good on this man, for not only saving himself, but then choosing to save others from slaughter and abuse. He even took some time to come on here and talk to us! Top quality bloke.

[@KnifeModders]

I love hearing stories like these, it's so inspirational. I was a full-blown alcoholic at the age of 19 after watching my childhood idol, my uncle, be nearly decapitated in a boating accident. I was determined to not be sober, I didn't want to feel or to think, I just wanted to escape my reality. By 22 I had moved on to meth and heroin, was homeless, and had burned every relationship; complete self-sabotage. I can't express the copious amount of opportunities that sobriety has given me. I feel as if my life is really just starting for the first time, I am now 27 years old with 1 year and 6 months clean. I went back to school, I'm able to hold down a job, I have a roof over my head, and a warm bed to sleep in at night. For anybody who is reading this who is an addict, I really mean it when I say that getting sober truly will truly be the best high you will ever have, seeing yourself capable of being successful and having everything you thought was out of reach, so keep trying, take a risk and get clean. You won't be disappointed.

[@JamieLoweJ]

This guy gave a whole speech about animal cruelty and heroin abuse at a festival i went to over a year ago!

[@jackthomas3221]

Well done John... I currently struggle recurringly with addictive and depressive tendencies however I believe anyone can make it when you follow the light.. thank You for motivating me to keep trying, my Uncle passed away last week (cancer not addiction/od), which has made me realise life's too short to be miserable ❤🌅

[@Jadymoo1994]

I lost my dad to an overdose he could never find a way out, I hope someone reading this knows there is always a way out and lots of people are here listening as you just need to open up is the first step and you’ll get there eventually try a good support network and distance yourself from others using it.

[@flynnmckee2703]

❤️

[@superdannny]

“i met up with..... someone I knew. i’m not going to say friend.” jesus, that says a lot

[@vicklemiss]

It’s so important for people to hear these candid stories. Drugs don’t discriminate, you never know what people have going on or what journey they’ve been on. Pray that you can stay clean and find happiness

[@paulsartorelli3904]

For real. And what makes it even worse is that many addicts have underlying problems (depression, anxiety, trauma, etc) and abuse drugs to mask the problems. So when they’re demonized for being addicts, they’re more isolated from other people when they need it most, the underlying issue might get slightly worse, which makes them use more drugs. We’ve got to change the cultural mindset

[@tommychoppa7564]

feel like people who can understand and relate to this video have already been through it them selves. it's clear that all the ignorant judgmental people commenting don't know shxt, have never dealt with addiction, and cant understand the vid.

[@twigwhite]

@@tommychoppa7564 Not always: I've known some alcoholics or even potheads very judgemental about others addictions and so called "hard drugs" (illegal ones)

[@jamestabbron8124]

You don't get people mentally stronger than those who have been addicted to something like Heroin and have managed to stop, its nothing short of incredible really. I hope anyone out there with an addiction as bad as this, can find that same strength.

[@markvincent522]

I am a recovering opioid and cocaine addict. I’m also a recovering alcoholic. I haven’t used opioids or real drugs since August of 2008 and booze since October 31, 2014. I went to treatment four times before I was 25, overdosed on OxyContin while doing “bourgeois speedballs,” and had several close friends die from overdoses. I went to treatment a fifth time at age 28 because it had been awhile since I’d gone, so I figured I’d quit drinking. As this man says, I’m one of the few who made it back. I live my life for the ones who didn’t make it back-they deserved another chance just as much (or more) than I did. If feels like it was the life of someone I didn’t know who lived hundreds of years ago, but hearing other people talk about similar experiences makes it feel like it’s still right behind me. I was that person, but I’m no longer that person. It feels like remembering an extremely close friend who slipped away. It’s an “epidemic” now, but there were so, so many amazing, beautiful people who died from this shit who aren’t remembered because they died when it was considered a moral failing and not a disease or biopsychosocial condition. They were victims just as much as the people dying from heroin right this very instant. At the time I was using, doctors were literally giving prescriptions away-we’re now witnessing the end-result of that cavalier attitude. The crackdown came and everyone had to switch to heroin. Doctors and pharmaceutical companies created an entire population of medically induced addicts and then decided they should be cut-off because it was a bad look. F**k American doctors and f**k American pharma. They lined their pockets while I buried my friends. If you have a problem with drugs, booze, eating disorders, gambling, mental health, etc., please find help. You’re worth it and things can always change for the better. People can always change for the better. Nobody is hopeless. Never believe anyone who says you can’t change. Never quit fighting for the life you know, deep down, is what you deserve. I was told, and told myself, that I couldn’t, I did anyway, and now I’m telling you that it’s absolutely possible. You can do it and you’re worth it. We all deserve better.

[@stephend7679]

Very true mark there is always help and hope etc. I have now been sober for seven years still very difficult etc....

[@originalog6995]

How do you find drug dealers

[@prey_xo]

@@originalog6995 what the fuck kind of question is that

[@originalog6995]

@@prey_xo well if I wanted drugs how would I get them seems like a pre normal question

[@variedadesvariadas7785]

I'm not quiet there but I struggle to get clean, I'm hooked since 1995. I'm still searching for a way out, I'm 41 now and I know one day I will get out. Congrats bro, keep on like that brother

[@travisward7302]

I just turned 24, ive been on fentantlyl since 18. We got this dude..theres more to life like he said but i am still struggling to

[@stevelinnen8286]

Good luck mate I’m similar, trying to get off the methadone after using for 20 years, 39 myself. What a waste! But gotta keep hope.

[@stewartmathieson8397]

Good luck guys. Lost a brother this year to it he was 28 years old. Not a blood relative but a brother all the same. Not a day goes by that we're not constantly thinking about him. His family is doing their best to get by but everyday is difficult. Remember whether you know it or not people love you and their world will always be missing something if you're not in it

[@tells550]

Joe Shmo hopefully one day you’ll get the help that’s needed.

[@dominicflatt7777]

cross medicated what ive done since 1992 on the booze now and tablets now never felt worse...only reason i gave up street gear cos getting nicked all the time...hate drinking now it's bad

[@Perfectly-unperfectly]

It’s so beautiful too see people have a complete u turn and get away from the absolute hell and mental torture of heroin addiction. I also got on it in 97 and will never forget the day I woke up physically dependant. You explained it so well because my life was never the same after that for 21 years either. Absolute hell. Il be 5 years in December free from any substance. Keep going brother I’m so proud of your achievements 🤙🏻

[@timscimeca978]

2 years clean from opiates. Hardest thing ever to do ... without my family i would have been dead.

[@smeIlIy]

thats massive, so happy for you :)

[@jerrybartlett7479]

Sounds like you had good support from your family. I did too and it was very helpful.

[@vantastroganoff4370]

Good men..I realize cold Turkey was not smart Now I seeing the complications..breathing Is wheezing..swollen joints.thank god I never use needles

[@benstricker8555]

Glad you’re sticking around Tim

[@Ashfold_Eberesche]

Good on you bud. I know how tough that is, but 2 years is amazing! You're definitely over the hump now, and you've got the rest of your life in front of you. I'm proud of you mate. Even though I don't know you, I know exactly how big of an achievement that is and I know how tough it must have been. Learn from your past and use it to motivate you into building your future. Good luck my friend, and congratulations.

[@gdfggggg]

My older brother was a drug addict from about the age of 13. He started on trips and dope, speed then by about 15 was a heroin addict. He was also an alcoholic. In his mid 20’s we discovered he was schizophrenic, probably a result of the drug taking. He managed to get off the heroin and was getting his fix through prescription medication provided to ease his schizophrenia and drug addiction. What the doctor didn’t know was that he was getting his weeks worth of drugs on the Monday and downing them and then buying his other drugs to keep him going from illegal drug dealers. The amount of drugs he was taking would kill a man instantly, but his body somehow got used to it. He lived like that for years. A year ago he was found dead in his flat at the age of 53. Amazingly, the coroner report detailed that they could find nothing wrong with his internal organs despite the immense abuse he’d given his body over the years. He basically just keeled over after one of his Monday binges. He will be in a better place now. RIP Sean.

[@sneezystudios5856]

RIP Sean

[@hugo0420.]

rip sean

[@Player420_]

RIP SEAN

[@gdfggggg]

Thanks all, that's nice.

[@Petem7668]

Did he keep some what good physical health or eat good? Maybe that’s a factor

[@rhondachiodo3438]

His description of how it feels to be a heroin addict and re-covering is right on point. I'm 3 years clean and never forget the hell I was in.

[@richardpedley6291]

I was on heroin for over 33 years pluss metherdone and over crap im glad to say im nealy 5 months clean im 5 9 i was about 7 stone thank you for shering with us your story all the best with all you got on take cear m8

[@jasmeetsingh9536]

Enjoy life man and stay clean

[@richardpedley6291]

@@jasmeetsingh9536 thanks m8 and all the best to you but yea thirs no way id go back on opits i just hope people read these coments and dont wast thir lives like i did its just not werth it stay strong bruv

[@fg780]

Holy shit 33 years how tf are you not dead

[@richardpedley6291]

@@fg780 to be honest with you m8 i dont now just lucky i gess lol you now the one thing that did relly fuck me up was alcahol and thats legal personly i think in all hour lives we hit a wall and a nd we all have to grow up i rember getting my first dose of metherdone 1990 i walked out with a script 80ml a day crazy he could of killed me enyway im 48 now and gave up the meferdone and the gear for good im about 6months in now and trust me im never going back to old for been ill everyday mugs game enyway hope your well m8 all the best

[@socore4659]

"When we haven't got security in our life, and we're missing something, anyone can become an addict"... Seems pretty spot on. Thanks for that.

[@benjaminsemel6423]

i’m almost 10 months clean yeeeyeeeeeeee

[@SKIPPYBABBIDY]

Congrats!

[@saarahkerr]

keep going u got it✨✨

[@matteightytwo]

Nice work mate 👍

[@facehunter504]

Congrats keep up the great work

[@xxhshrebyba]

congrats ❤️

[@samworrall9978]

You got me at "I've got no regrets about what done, who I am, what I do now, because to have regrets we cannot change it, so you have to embrace the good and the bad in your life". Hats off to you fella, keep on keeping on,

[@jermm2183]

I have complete admiration for this man, beating such a strong addiction and turning his life around for the better. I wish more people like you were near where I live, you continue to make the most of this gift you worked hard for!

[@CortexZero]

I'm approaching 7 years of sobriety. No smoking or drinking either. The last thing you said is a very crucial, the regret will dig at you for many years, I would know, but do you know what I did? I made my peace with my mistakes. You have to just face the things that you did, and every day do something better than those things.

[@Meloncholymadness]

I have so much respect for people that beat heroin, when I say I know how hard that fight is, I speak from experience.

[@kedro2152]

Autumn Aurora I lost a very dear and close friend to that stuff, evil the way it grabs a hold and won’t let go, I miss my friend lots.

[@TheRebeccaDaviShow]

"When we haven't got security in our lives and we are missing something , ANYBODY can become an addict!" This touched me! Amazing to see how he SUCCESSFULLY managed to turn his life around!💗

[@drabalisallat2188]

Me too, that inspired me to become an addict, best decision.

[@2760ade]

The guy hit the nail on the head! Very intelligent observation.

[@godzilla928]

@@drabalisallat2188 Choose a heroin then. But don't smoke it, be economical!

[@MarthaRodriguez-bn2wq]

Legit on 7gs staring into my roof with rgb lights and I swear it was like the patterns I was seeing on roof reached out and pulled me into a different dimension

[@marshalpeters]

I Did this recently for the first time, I will say it was the most beautiful and amazing thing I have ever felt. My spiritual being opened up to the earth. I saw portals, the stars dancing, aliens and I saw the realm of heaven. I for once was not sad but an overwhelming sense of happiness that filled my entire body. It's something that I'll never forget.

[@tinna283]

Most people take it for PTSD and trauma or a treatment resistant depression

[@Daniel-cy5ur]

I've seen lots of positive reviews on mushiest I'm really looking at trying them.. any idea?

[@kty149]

I can say dr.johnsonshrooo is the man for you dude 0:05

[@Iconic_moment]

0:07 Is he On Instagram?

[@HannaAndMaddyRawr]

He sounds like an absolutely wonderful man. Getting through all that and advocating for animals!! Thats great🥲🥲❤️

[@SuperGrinch123]

Agreed!! 🙏

[@kawayanldn9324]

I love that he didnt have regrets. 11 years of journey and 12 years of winning. What a mindset shift.

[@ledzeppelin708]

So glad for this bloke, im from Dublin, a city where heroin is in pretty high supply, ive seen heroin addicts all over my city and its terrible to see, this guy is living proof that there is always light at the end of the tunnel, fantastic to see people recovering from addiction!!

[@aaronhayes2518]

Dublin is absolute riddled in gear trust me , limerick is just as bad

[@earlpugg1322]

What an intelligent, thoughtful dude. I wasn’t expecting to be inspired by this. I’m glad he’s made the life for himself that he has now.

[@adambarrs92]

When you're born you have a bright light that shines through your childhood... as you get older that light dims through tough times and experiences, leaving you with all sorts of mental and emotional complexes/feelings. Staying in touch with that light is the most important thing you can do and letting that light go out is the absolute worst thing. Addiction and lack of self respect/understanding are a couple of the signs that the light is dimming and you've lost touch with reality and as you said yourself, the preciousness of this life. You were one of the lucky ones. You appreciated at the darkest moment that you were still there, a contender, and how beautiful this gift of life is, but so many people do not and stories similar to yours often end in a very sad outcome. You don't need to be ultra successful, rich, powerful etc., all you need to do is be in touch with that light and be sure to never let it go out.

[@vantastroganoff4370]

ADAM SO TRUE I was lovable interstellar kinda dude..the one all others ask deep questions I will always give the answer to make you see things differently..catering to position you seek will be delivered..mister retrospective was I Only keep me saint I'm not stupid I was around the echelon of vancity.you cant hang with uppity bein a fluff The ELITES of van is eh separately Devine in own self worth ..one day I told chip wilson #LULLULEMON. Preteen sheer yoga what I saw on ferry.summer day an lil girls flaunting body in sheer yoga. I snap & our FRIENDSHIP was over Ten years ago..I gladly sold all shares..well he bought it back.. I'm better for it But something is missing I SHOULD not be living alone in fucking million dollar haus..the drugs have dim my light Ok I'm off to forest #pacificspiritpark

[@Harkz0r]

Reading this comment is painful because I _feel_ how true it is. While I don't think I've fundamentally changed from the person I was when I was young, it is true that what was once a blazing fire has at times been reduced to smoldering embers. I have always been careful never to let that flame die out. I think I did the best I could but I'm not sure if I can say I did enough or am happy with the results. I see so many comments here from addicts and ex-addicts and they're so heartbreaking. Substance use is one thing I would never allow myself to experiment with. (Including an excess of alcohol. My father was an alcoholic. I know how that goes.) To me it was just common sense. Nobody I have ever known that has any experience with drugs has said "you should start using, it's fantastic". Every piece of information out there is about how harmful it is, how addictive it is, how it can at worst ruin your life and at best be something you will struggle with for the rest of it. I never wanted to know or to take that chance. Because I'm important - to me. I'm the one person that has to live with myself for the rest of my life. I feel like a lot of people that fall into this trap must suffer from a lack of self-love, which I just find sad. There are things I don't _like_ about myself, but overall I would say I do love myself. Some people would call me judgmental, or say that I think that I'm perfect, which is really not the case. By society's standards I'm a loser in a lot of respects; I'm far from perfect. I've struggled with depression and a chronic lack of motivation and self-discipline for some time now, though there are some lines I refuse to allow myself to cross. But it's self-evident to me that it's a road to nowhere. The fact that there is so much information and so many experiences out there that paints such an overwhelmingly negative picture and yet people still choose to do these things is... I can't really put my finger on how I feel about it. I suppose it's something like, "I don't know why you're doing this to yourself, and I wish you'd realise you're worth far more than you think." I can't help but feel as though many people are selfish above and beyond the philosophical selfishness inherent to all living things. It's true that we all have to manage our own emotional wellbeing, but I wonder how many take notice of the harm they may unwittingly inflict on others who get involved with them. I feel like any issues I have should not become other peoples' problem, and I hold honesty in high regard, so in that respect I can find it difficult to sympathise with addicts who did terrible things while in the grip of addiction. But the feelings that lead people down the start of that road in the first place I am probably quite familiar with. I just couldn't stand the thought of becoming dependent on something external. It's a messy world we live in, but I'll always be wishing for people to find their version of happiness, so long as it doesn't come at the direct expense of others.

[@adambarrs92]

@@Harkz0r Wow... thank you for the reply... it's made me tear up a bit to be honest. You obviously have your head switched on and clearly have a strong mental state. For someone to not only be able to self analyse, but to also act on it is a very special trait and you should really appreciate that about yourself. Don't worry about being a loser haha... I'm the same. It's a sign that you're strong willed and independent, and often how you feel when you've had what can only be described as an 'ego death'. To truly not care about what others think of you (within reason) is a ground-breaking thing. The times in life when I've had the highest social status are also the times when I've also been the most mentally unstable, and as you accurately touched upon, the times when REAL self love and worth was the lowest. You live your life trying to please others and end up replacing the void of self esteem with external validation, which is a thirst that will never be quenched. You will never be truly happy and only be chasing temporary feelings that instead only make you 'feel' happy. I've been there and it's bullshit... You pretend to have the light but it's really at it's dimmest. You can't love or respect anyone else until you love and respect yourself. This is why you can't comprehend people that inflict pain through selfishness. It's all because they don't love and respect themselves. There's deeper issues that even they themselves don't understand so they do whatever is necessary to make themselves 'feel' good. Children are born with this light of enthusiasm, motivation, love and brightness. Little angels isn't just a saying... kids are literally angels. With so much beaming energy, it's so important that they are raised to keep that in tact as much as possible. I've got one and another on the way and I can tell you it's the most beautiful thing in the world. My mum was an alcoholic too. You're very right in feeling that many people are selfish, no matter how close they are to you. I'm feeling it all the time... trying to keep my family together and usually being the emotional punchbag, often being called 'judgmental' as you are. I see that as a good sign though. You're in a place that you're so sure about yourself that you can really care about others and when that's not reciprocated fully, it's because you're actually the backbone of the situation. You may not get appreciation but when push comes to shove... You are the strongest. Keep that light going no matter what.

[@daveybaby10]

I was a addict for about 6-7 years and I’ve been clean for nearly 20 yrs now and it’s the most horrific drug going,avoid it like the plague as it’ll destroy your life and your families too and still 20 yrs later I’m still tarred by it’s stigma with a lot of people

[@MrMallum]

What a powerful speech! As somebody who is a recovering addict, I can totally empathise with him. To be able to “succeed “ in life on top of all he’s been through, takes real character…

[@Oki-t7q]

He's a success story. He's still got healing to do like us all. But wow what an inspiration

[@blaketindle4703]

You’re an inspiration sir. So many good people who lose themselves in an addiction but you are living proof that one can overcome it! You can turn your life around! God bless you mate!

[@haileyranson8255]

What an absolutely incredible person. I’ve battled addiction to prescription medication and it wasn’t the drugs that nearly killed me (luckily) it was the absolute stigma around it. I was just a broken young girl trying to numb a world of pain. Thank god for my daughter who made a surprise appearance at the height of my addiction and helped me kick it within three weeks. I just didn’t want to lose her. She’s healthy and happy and I’m so much better. All thanks to my incredible doctor who has never once judged me 💙

[@AdamMaxx]

You must be in the USA

[@haileyranson8255]

@@AdamMaxx what makes you say that?

[@AdamMaxx]

@@haileyranson8255 in the UK, the doctor would have you sent to camps for less. USA has an epidemic of prescription medication, but real doctors too.

[@Canuckmom128]

Thank you, John, for doing this. It should be shown in every Junior High Class, everywhere. People like you save lives. I lost a much-loved Nephew at the age of 30, from a Fentanyl overdose. His Parents will NEVER fully recover. Some days are better than others, but a day doesn't go buy where, at some point, they have a stab in the heart from missing him. Such a waste of a beautiful life.

[@ilikecats392]

This guy gives me so much hope. I’ve been thinking that same thing, “well heroin is my life now so I’ll just roll with it”, but he’s given me hope. Thanks mate

[@Ashfold_Eberesche]

Hey mate, I just saw this and see it was 5 months ago. How are things? I really hope you're doing better, but even if you haven't managed to kick it yet, it's never too late. You CAN move on from addiction, and you can have the life you truly want. I know it probably doesn't feel possible right now, and I'm not going to pretend that it won't be bloody hard, but it's not out of reach. Anyway, it'd be awesome to hear from you. If you see this, it'd be great if you could reply and just check in. And if you need someone to talk to who has been there and can relate, I'm more than happy to chat with you. How long have you been using? What do you find hardest about quitting? For me, it wasn't the physical withdrawals that really got me - that part sucked, but I got pretty good at toughing out that initial week or two of pure hell. What really challenged me was going forward from there. Especially since all my "friends" were still using, everything reminded me of using, and I didn't have that "blanket" around my mind anymore and my anxiety just got so bad that everything was terrifying. That's why I used in the first place, it made my anxiety just melt away and I was suddenly able to interact with people so easily. It made me feel like the person I always wanted to be. And I had no idea how I was going to live my life without that safety net

[@community7874]

So is heroin still your life now?

[@dogworld3485]

@@Ashfold_Eberesche samee methsdone now but it makes me sweat so much it’s almost like withdrawling until I can shower or dry off then I’m ok but if I do work I sweat and get cold sweats = goose bumps which is when you usually would go for more in addition

[@thrickthooter4403]

To hold a fresh psilocybin mushroom in one's hand is to possess the very nature of oneself. Their beauty meets their potency.

[@coryflores4964]

These are great healing compounds! When used in proper context.

[@kristahutchinson6519]

I remember having some minor surgery years ago and at that point I had never done any kind of drug at all. I didn't even drink small amounts of coffee or alcohol. They hit me with an intravenous dose of shrooms and I felt so good, so positive, and so thoughtful that I felt like I could've talked Hitler out of a wagging war.

[@jordanlewis5666]

I have done shrooms in small doses a few times, but a couple days ago I took almost 4 grams and had my first actual trip.l believe I truly experienced ego death..

[@chang3227]

Y'all all talk about the benefits but you don't say where one can grab from...

[@jordanlewis5666]

dr.rinehartshrooms

[@DPapDpap]

I remember thinking this is my life and being totally ok with it while addicted to meth. I was 20 and totally convinced I would be addicted for the rest of my life, I'm clean now for 3 years :)) feels way better than being high, trust me guys.

[@tommychoppa7564]

Everyones moment and how everyone feels in that moment is different. Plenty of us definitely feel a lot better being high right now than not lol. Everyone has their own time of when to attempt to quit if they choose to do so. Also it doesn't always have to be cold turkey. I hate how people think thats how it has to be. I take huge breaks between small binges because I enjoy it that way more. Also if someone can stop for 1 day only thats still a lot better than 0. Trains your mind body and soul for future attempts of quitting.

[@DPapDpap]

@@tommychoppa7564 everyone has their time, I was lucky it was young. However, withdrawals, even for meth, were the worst experience of my life.

[@tommychoppa7564]

​@@DPapDpap sameish. I've done meth for 4 years and personally the first 2 1/2 years was hell but it was mainly my situation and the addiction had an insane grip over me. After stopping for a year then coming back to it with experience, more responsibility and strength I can freely do it as much as I want without worrying about withdrawling or wanting to do it the next day after the sesh. Part of that is the bad health flare ups I get from it though because even if i wanted to do it everyday it would destroy me beyond imagination. I've had the worst and the best. Highest and the lowest experiences in my life literally cause of meth. Glad to hear youre off of it and that you see how detrimental it was to you. It costed me physical health but mentally i learned and matured so much during those very fast years. A lot of it is environment and mentality imo and why I always say mental addiction is stronger than physical. Scientists say that meth isn't physically addictive but theres clearly millions of addicts to it. Because physical addiction is just the first week of sobriety. Everything after that is 'mental'. Anyways gl on staying sober. Sorry for the big essay I never get to talk about this cause I got high alone like a hermit. Cant talk about this to my stoner friends.

[@DPapDpap]

@@tommychoppa7564 yeah I empathize with you 100%

[@DPapDpap]

@@tommychoppa7564 I used to get tweaked and not get out of my car for dayssss

[@Someb0dy1Day]

Very moving quote at the end there "we can't change having regrets or what happened in the past, you just have to embrace the good with the bad" That is my key takeaway, I'm proud you found a new lease on life. Good luck

[@patrat6072]

April 7th 2016 I quit doing heroin. I have been clean for a few years I got to meetings and help people try to stay/get clean. And since I started until now I haven't heard anybody explain it better than he did👏👏

[@traceyroberts5439]

Cherish this life, bravo! My son is now 4 years clean from heroin.

[@juanitaleak6482]

What a beautiful guy & a wonderful story about recovery. I don’t know this guy & my heart is so full of pride for him. What he has achieved is miraculous. I am so happy for him & wish him all the best 💙

[@silverstreetmoto1458]

Big respect to you mate,I was a smackhead in the 80's,coke fiend in the nineties,most of my old mates are dead now,as well as my youngest brother to heroin.

[@maryvalentyne2553]

His description is perfect. Using opiates I always described as a warm blanket coming over you comforting you like nothing else and erasing all trauma for the time being. Then when its time to pay the toll with withdrawal it is hell. Agony so intense I had suicidal thpughts. 7 years opiate free now!

[@sleeplessdreamer1814]

Loved ones who are addicts know this man had a miracle. Well done and God bless you.

[@markdickens968]

WOW I RELATE. I'm 5 years clean and sober I'm so grateful not be using anymore. 1997 was the first time I tried Heroin as well many prison sentences rehabs detox units later lost friends to addiction as well. Well done to everyone who is in recovery and if your still in active addiction there is hope never give up on yourself

[@oxblood7032]

Well done that bought tears to my eyes watching this. I am 3 and half years clean from a high dose of methadone and herion addiction. I suffer with mental health issues now but at least I'm seeing my kids grow up and I'm here for them..

[@vernievuitton]

Thank you for your openness and sharing your experience; and thank you Unilad for covering this piece.. I've been fighting my addiction to opiates now for a few years and he's right about losing hope on quitting.. it's so much easier to not go through the literal Hell that awaits in a withdrawal to get clean. My biggest fear is that I'll grow old and regret all this time I had to do so much more with my life.. I fear so much that I'm wasting the most important years of my life, which I undoubtedly am, but hearing him say he has not regretted any of his learning experiences in his life gives me so much hope that I will overcome this in time to still reflect and enjoy my life to the fullest.. I have hope to start my days completely sober again one day and end them the same. Thank you for your experience

[@NotDecided420]

I was a heroin addict from 2001-2010 after losing a girlfriend, and a close friend dying, I tried it. Or should I say "it tried me" and it liked me! Where I'd been in a depressed hole for 6 months, heroin filled it up. It was *exactly* what was missing in my life. Then just like this guy's story, and probably every other addict. I started out alright. But after 3 years I was an IV user, and I was injecting over £150 worth of heroin a day. (3.5gs) It didn't start out that way, but it never does. Until one day *I* decided that I wanted to get clean, that's when I got clean. Every promise I made before then, I knew I had little to no intention of keeping them. So whenever anybody asks me now, I tell them, until you're ready yourself to quit, you won't quit. You'll just continue to hurt the ones you love, breaking promise after promise. Losing friends and alienating family members. Until you're left alone with your one true love. Smack! Horrible drug.

[@NotDecided420]

Omg. Do you even read comments? What an absolute 🔧

[@PutriOddity]

After three overdoses in a month, the last of which nearly killed me, I decided to sweat it out for two weeks and I have never looked back. Worst drug ever created in my opinion. But Congrats on getting sober dude. I know it's not easy

[@drgiblets8463]

How are you hanging in bro, good luck

[@kareendeveraux1847]

You haven't tried antipsychotics. You can do a heroin withdrawal in a few weeks, while it can take years coming off of antipsychotics. Those aren't street drugs but forced onto people because it creates profit for big pharma.

[@olivercollins1076]

You've got this, my friend! Wishing you all the very best :)

[@gordonlekfors2708]

I used heroin casually for a year, about 2 times a week, sometimes 3, and then I got better things to do and stopped. never got addicted, and haven't used it in many years now since. I know many people become utterly addicted and ruin their lives, but different users, different stories.

[@giorgibe1378]

@@gordonlekfors2708 bro you had good life, most people that get addicted are unhappy, and the drug fuels their emptiness.

[@stephenreie9847]

Well done on your 12 yrs clean,im 52 and have been fighting against addiction from the age of 21,dread to think the money I've spent over the years, trying to take one day at a time, for anyone out there with addictions I wish you all the best in trying to escape from what is just a miserable experience

[@kierenbonner8419]

ive literally spent my whole adult life as an addict (18 yrs) but i gave up and did my withdrawal 4 days down so far you can do it too man...

[@verefiedxL]

Very well spoken. You can tell he’s achieved a level of storytelling that really resonates with everyone. Hell of a human being

[@itsnotme61]

So much of this hits home for me. You are so right about that comforting feeling. My brother and I were abandoned when I was 14. Of course we never really had a nurturing family. My brother was the first one to stick a needle in my arm and man did it fill that void of not being cared for as a child. Detoxing in jail is a terrifying and miserable experience and like you I was high within hours of being released.. I finally managed to recover but my brother spent his life in and out of prison. By the time he died he had been incarcerated more than he had been free. Congratulations on your recovery! It's a long road

[@Axenicsecond]

I just want to say, to anyone struggling out there, that it doesn’t have to be all of the sudden. You don’t have to have a “spiritual awakening” to keep trying. Even when you’ve become completely hopeless, you can still keep trying. Everyday is a new beginning. Much love and respect, and good luck :)

[@FIONA21ful]

Exactly...it took me 23yrs to stop for the past 12yrs, I have lapsed a few times in the past 2yrs because my brother was killed and its been a terrible hard time for me . However I have not given up, a few lapses does not mean all is lost . I am regaining my spirit and my strength.

[@justinwatson6932]

This made me cry like a damn baby, this fella is legit amazing and I have the deepest respect for him. *I'm one of the lucky ones* that quote will stay with me forever!

[@CSRLaunchpad]

Congratulations to John for defeating his addiction. He should be really proud of himself, it's not easy at all.

[@dazzabo5315]

Very inspirational. Anyone can become an addict to fill a void in their life and that’s why it’s always the people with harder childhoods who usually become addicted to substances like heroin. Its very easy to judge people like that and see them as worse than you for wasting their lives away but sometimes a bit of compassion can go a long way. Understanding that perhaps you’ll never even begin to feel the pain that brought these people to their decisions. And why it is they feel they need these substances in the first place. That but of empathy can help people begin to get help because they don’t feel guilt. Rather than stigmatising and shaming, a bit of empathy can help these people, as the lack of shame and guilt allows them to accept help, rather than deny their problem. Or even worse, accept they’re problem is never gonna change

[@billukhan2954]

Its not that deep for most people. Most teenagers just get into it for the fun of it

[@makesnodifference]

Be careful offering SYMPATHY to people who don't have any for you.

[@kizombeiro8130]

Plenty of people suffer unimaginable trauma and DONT turn to drugs. I interact with and help drug addicts every week. They are running from their dark emotions, loneliness, fear, abandonment etc.

[@makesnodifference]

@@kizombeiro8130 The addict does not understand that when they shut off the negative emotions, the positive ones get shut off too.

[@MtnLionFHL]

I love how he says at the end of this "just cherish this life". That is what is most important. Each of us matter and each of us have a purpose. Whether he impacts one or a million, he has done that. What a life and story!

[@Red_1976]

Amazing, give this man a trophy - he really deserves it! A big congratulations. You should be very proud of yourself, I am proud of you and I don’t even know you. Good lad.

[@YoutubeSam1987]

The way he proudly held his head up when talking about all the good he's doing now... This is incredible! What a guy! I'm in awe of you, man.. Good on ya for being twelve years clean!!! We are so proud of you!!

[@regplasma7906]

This guy John Awen is tops.Animal sanctuary owner, activist and vegan too.Well done for turning it around.You are an inspiration to many and you deserve all those good things you now have.

[@erinb1815]

I love hearing that you turned your life around! Amazing ! My brother is 18 years off heroin, and we all nearly gave up hope. God bless you! He will use you to help others.

[@Laura-cz4ds]

Thank you for this, you're braver than most ex addicts for using your experience as a platform to help others. That's real purpose and passion.

[@jonathanadams7607]

Much respect to this gentleman for turning his and other people’s lives around..... including animals! I’ve never touched drugs, but I can see that he’s reached out to a lot of people who have struggled and that’s powerful. Stay safe all of you.

[@3-methylindole730]

What's your definition of a drug?

[@jabobnicol6905]

I grew up with junkies for parents who are still on heroin and methadone to this day... This man is the 1 in a million usaly once u try it game over... Well done lad

[@TaLeBogan710]

Jabob Nicol I’m always on and off it. It’s beyond expensive in Australia. 1.7g of pure is $800 know since COVID it’s $1200 or $100 a point. I’ve been using it for years and I did yesterday but not today and the withdrawal is not as bad as he describes but maybe everyone is different. I fear alcohol much more than heroin...

[@MrCpvids]

TokeE420 please sir, stop taking heroin its not good. Life is precious dont waste on this drug

[@ShapurTheLegend]

Hope your parents get better and that you transcend your environment

[@TaLeBogan710]

SparkyGBs but why is alcohol accepted? I’d gladly trade heroin for opium. Some people have chronic pain and can’t just deal with while at the same drs don’t like prescribing medicine I need.

[@MrCpvids]

TokeE420 If you think alcohol is worse than heroin you seriously need to check yourself onto rehab bro. Under stand it can be tough with chronic pain etc but you can’t surely think heroin is a safe/healthy drug to take consistently even once! Cannabis helps with pain you are better off smoking that. Change your life bro. Stop making excuses and reasons why you choose heroin over other safe alternatives. Other drugs do work you just have withdrawal effects at the same time. You get one life only dont waste it on some horrible drug. I hope my words will change your life and in some aspect make you change. People care. Stop making excuses and CHANGE! Alcohol can be taken moderately without addiction. Don’t say heroin is better than alcohol lol, majority of people who drink do not get addicted unless they have nothing going on in there life

[@bobbytheblade2550]

Alcohol made me feel joy like no other time in my life. Nothing compares. I am pushing 2 years sober having had to accept that my sacrifice is that joy I can never experience again. I am living a great life today, and yet there are times I miss that euphoric high. All it takes is a moment to play the tape forward, and the thoughts diminish. I get addiction, and very few are able to liberate themselves. At day's end sobriety is a choice - simple deal!