Lessons a drug addict can teach you | Lauren Windle | TEDxSurreyUniversity

[@peggyharris3815]

15:22 "These things may or may not kill you, but they will stop you from living." That's an important distinction.

[@courtneytyler7256]

Used meth to make sure I was safe, couldnt rightly fall asleep with no assurance. How could I when I'm all too aware. Unfortunately I didn't know what was what was.

[@peterpoutch574]

we die so many ways

[@almightyalan8942]

@@courtneytyler7256 wow I stopped drinking n smoking for 4 days and I expected life to be an amusement park, u just made me think its gonna take atleast 3 weeks to get back to normal programming, I'm programmed a certain way rn

[@kaitlinheidt1292]

6 month clean on the 19th. It is possible. I'll take another 24 hours.

[@dexterleeventer1302]

I just came from a long term rehabilitation where I stayed for nearly 19 months.. also went through the 12 step program it was so tough yet it was so amazing I had the best time of my life I never want to have over again. God is so good.

[@imannonymous7707]

I had a moment of clarity when i turned 42. And in that moment , i looked at my life and realized . Our lives can be reduced to a few key decisions The choices we make determine who we become

[@mrnice7570]

41 opiate addict here. Experiencing same said revelations

[@quinnpicquelle7315]

I just got 6 months clean! Never was able to string together more than a couple weeks. I reached a breaking point and just surrendered. Followed direction, shut my mouth for the first few months, and now I’m at 6 months clean and I’m never looking back.

[@lizlemon5281]

Well done, it's a great feeling, be proud of yourself for breaking free💗

[@joshuapotter9575]

I just went to my first AA meeting tonight, and I start a rehab recovery programme Thursday, which incorporates the 12 step programme. Terrified but slightly optimistic.

[@joshuapotter9575]

Oh and thank you for the talk. Brilliant (:

[@killeenstraide1]

Wishing you all the best.

[@evelynbaron2004]

so many best wishes!

[@notanotherone1835]

Good luck ❤

[@davidcardinal3654]

Good luck man. The journey is tough but the human spirit is tougher. You will prevail if you continue to have strength.

[@candygamingcat3243]

Recovery is such a complicated time. I started my recovery journey about 3 years ago but it wasn’t until 6 months ago I awoke from the fog the chemicals had created in mind. You really can’t force someone into it....even if you put them in prison or rehab they can continue to be imprisoned within their own mind (like i was for over two years). Now I’m awaken and look back and think “OMFG I can’t believe I continued to make such poor life decisions without any self awareness”

[@shephherd]

..... congratulations! That's so great to hear....keep it up :)

[@imogengardner194]

waking up is sometimes the hardest bit NEVER underestimate your achievement, NEVER...many don't manage it and you send out such a positive message to other users ( recovering alcoholic; 3+ years )

[@eequalsmcdonald]

Recovery is forever if you do it correctly.

[@imogengardner194]

@@eequalsmcdonald I believe I am ;) and we are all in recovery ... it's a life journey

[@trapengineer821]

Candy gaming Cat324 I agree 100%

[@Quartzone6145]

I'm trying to understand a loved ones addiction. It seems things will never change. I pray for a miracle to get our lives back. So so hard when you love that person so much.

[@michelangelope830]

I am a psychologist and recovering addict can help you for for free with your loved one if you help me back.

[@michelangelope830]

I have been trying to have the discovery of the nature of addiction known for years to end the war on drugs. I would like to help you as a recovering addict and psychologist. Addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom. The tragedy of addiction is children who revenge a childhood hurt, or trauma, against their parents learning from example. I am alone socially ostracised by liars paying the price for being honest.

[@sxcme103567]

1 year and 6 months clean

[@sxcme103567]

@Leon Coombes OMG

[@katrinabb9152]

Marty Jane I’m dead inside because I can’t get away from it

[@sxcme103567]

@@katrinabb9152 thats a shame :( which is your drug of choice? mine was meth. what helped me was a hospital stay, one month of rehab and the fact that i knew i was breaking my mums heart.

[@sxcme103567]

@Leon Coombes thank you!! I hope to be able to one day say "I'm 30 years clean" you know?

[@supererikman5331]

It never gets easier, it will be a lifelong battle for you and the cravings will never go away. You have to understand that once you let drugs into your life, you will forever be an addict and will need to be supervised for the rest of your life. Once an addict, always an addict.

[@XxDeadlyAmazingxX]

3.5 years clean and public speaking all over the country. I love recovery. I hope to be able to speak to bigger crowds!

[@kevinschindele4829]

Did you have to take classes for that? I'd love to get involved in this once I get my sobriety under control.

[@choicegaming3183]

Congrats

[@Mark-pp7jy]

If it's meant to be, you will. Just remember that "ego" can be very dangerous.

[@BriJaynesBCTWP]

I am now 5 years clean (this is bri jaynes) I loved speaking and I still do it from time to time. I got involved through meeting other people that speak in the Recovery field and posting my story with others. Ego can ruin your life that is true! I actually ended up opening a peer center but unfortunately our funding isn't great so it's been a struggle but all things come eventually if you continue helping others!

[@imdilyn]

@@BriJaynesBCTWP *Lol*

[@cphilly2015]

The way that she delivered her moments of divinity was truly inspiring I'll give this girl all the credit and recognition that she deserves for having the strength and courage to internalize those deeply valued moments hat usually are turning points in someone's life humanity can learn alot from the principles displayed in this video

[@reconnectwithtrue2924]

This was absolutely beautiful. I needed to hear this. Thank you

[@merncat3384]

Every ailment she described is what I went through, plus about a dozen more on a constant daily basis.. I'm 46 years old now and after a huge 14-year addiction I am on day 14 today

[@matteightytwo]

Congratulations! Hope it's still going well

[@keeganbrown3084]

How are you doing today?

[@gordonsands]

She had no aliments except her incredibly weak mind

[@nenkoandreev8509]

Hope you are still sober fella!!!

[@cassidybrewer]

Hope you’re still doing well ❤️🤞

[@ClandestineGirl16X]

Keep pushing. Recovery is possible and beautiful. You are not alone and you are valuable. You are worth it.

[@MichelleVasquez-fz4em]

This is the first TED talk it talks about the 12 steps in detail I really enjoyed her talk I love the TED talks I have 8 months clean and sober I go to AA regularly and I listen to all kinds of motivational speakers but this is the first one that intertwines the 12 steps and it just verifies and solidifies in my mind that this is the way to go God bless her and God bless everybody❤🎉

[@calliathompson1501]

Congrats girl its ppl like you that keep me going 3/23/19 to now

[@itzcawdkarma]

So proud of you

[@kimwarburton8490]

WOW during that first lockdown too! Im well impressed! Its been hard for me not to lose control of my Me/CFS symptoms at times after 7 yrs XD I got addicted to weed, but off nicotine during the 1st lockdown and still trying to quit XD

[@almightyalan8942]

Wow, and look at ur beautiful babygirl, she would be so proud of you if she knew

[@icyfreckles1528]

Yay I’m 3/9/19 keep it up

[@mishafankhauser8198]

This is so beautiful❤️ I had tears in my eyes.. So relatable.. I had that with hairmasks, if I showerd, and even made time to do hairmasks, I knew I was doing okay 🙏🏻 8 months sober now, doing TED-talks at schools. I wouldn’t been able to get here without inspirations like you! Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️

[@youngdylan5083]

Amazing ❤

[@sarahwilliams1956]

“We’re not built that way, we can’t deal with this stuff, it’s too BIG to do it on our own” this made me cry. It felt so freeing to feel like it’s okay to ask for help with our personal issues if we need it. We are only human, we are not perfect. We will all make our own mistakes, the most important part is that we realize the reality of what’s going on, and we choose to be better and do something about it. All of you who are struggling, save this video and watch it when you’re beating yourself up the next day after a night of mistakes, make a list of how you can help yourself progress through it, and pat yourself on the back for surviving another day.

[@DeathYesPlease]

Love this ❤

[@atomnous]

What she said about those steps was relatable to my own experience. Although mine wasn't about drug addiction, but the racing dark thoughts triggered by anxiety and depression. At one point, you will feel so powerless to do everything on your own whim anymore and realize that your thoughts can be wrong too. That you can't know everything and admit it.

[@April-rj8lf]

Drugs = Running away from reality. New reality = Running away from drugs.

[@lplaito]

casi, pero no.

[@karenmexico7357]

I disagree. Somewhere in the process of working the steps and living the principles of recovery daily, a complete psychic change occurs and we stop running away from ANYTHING.

[@jarofdirt16]

Yeah, gonna have to disagree here. Running from drugs is only going to lead you right back into the place you were running from. You gotta just want a better way of life, just gotta be sick and tired of being sick and tired. Hope you're still on the right path :)

[@ericarios3685]

@@karenmexico7357 q

[@GentlemenJack109]

Stop assuming people take drugs to run away from reality, it is not always for that reason, some people just like the feeling you get.

[@CherrrrBear]

6 months clean in 6 days. I had 6 years and relapsed in 2020. So upset at myself. This was an amazing video and watching it when it turned 2022... to new beginnings!

[@Mark-pp7jy]

Getting good at living sober, is no different than being an athlete, or musician. We need to practice a little everyday. After many years of continuous sobriety, why would I stop doing the things that have given me a great life? That would be insanity! My recovery depends on how I move my feet on a daily basis, not what I think or feel. All the best to you Cherry!

[@Fitzgeraldkinsey]

Keep fighting baby girl,u got this.

[@Mark-pp7jy]

@@Fitzgeraldkinsey "Fighting" is a recipe for failure. "Surrender" to a different way of living is the key to sobriety. "Go to meetings, clean house, and help others"!

[@brandyhuffman8672]

I was sober from alcohol for 5 year's and released in 2020. Ur not alone, I just found these videos.

[@Mark-pp7jy]

@@brandyhuffman8672 The key to sobriety is "Living in the solution, instead of the problem". What are you doing differently this time?

[@DiodeMom]

Everyone, regardless of whether they’re an “addict” should do the 12 steps. It’s freeing at any stage of life. It helped me to be a better person.

[@markforrestsm]

As a supporter of an addict, I've been involved in the 12 step for the last 10 years. It changed and continues to change my life!!

[@alexkdoyle]

Leigh Westraad AMEN! I am a recovering addict and I completely agree!

[@pixels2564]

Yeah but the religious aspect is unnecessary

[@HonestJunkie]

@@pixels2564 I understand your point, I truly do. However the problem with 'religion' isn't the particular belief, ideology or philosophy that defines it. As always, the problem lays with those that follow it, that claim their way is the only way. Fortunately, those steps claim no monopoly on philosophies of living, in fact, they make no religious sways at all, spiritual yes, religious no. I agree with you 100% ..... the religious aspect is unnecessary, that's why it's not a part of the process, of course some people just can't help themselves ;)

[@evelynbaron2004]

Your comment reminds me of Tom Petty just before the 40th anniversary tour, accepting an award from MusiCares, saying 20 yrs ago I would have been too cynical to accept this … and the speech is widely available. The 12 steps are not rocket science; if your higher power is your favorite tree, it still works: you are powerless and must ask for help; it is your responsibility to look at yourself honestly, not to beat yourself up but, having shared what you learned and let go of a lot, not all of it, because Life is a Long Road, with a doctor or your sponsor, you take responsibility and make peace with your past, meditate when possible and give back to the community. And this way of life is immensely freeing and so scary; I think of myself as a bird in a cage who forgot there was a big world out there where I would find friends and be a friend. For people like Tom who found a safe place as a really abused child in music, the path would be in his words, which way to forgiveness which way to love land which way do I go; it was important that he let those troubled memories go -- it wasn't about the rage and inflicted hurt from his Dad, it was about understanding that this man had his own demons, just let it go, which is why I think so many of his songs were about freedom and flight, up there in the clouds where no-one could hurt you. And he helped 3 generations of people.

[@malikdavis1124]

2 days clean 🥺

[@gigijax2043]

Well done buddy, I'm struggling

[@herstory1012]

You can do it!!!

[@kitty10141]

Watching sobriety videos shows you want it. May we all achieve and maintain sobriety 🙏

[@zombieman2013]

Way to go 2 days is better than none! How is your recovery going I see that it's been a few months since you posted this?

[@breyreneea888]

Baby steps.

[@matg2067]

I recently found out someone I love has this addiction. I know zero about opioids, zero about withdrawals, zero how to speak, I know nothing but basics and common sense. I've been trying to research what I can. Anyone with any really great resources, advice, tips etc I would extremely appreciate it. Shout out to everyone here who quit, the mind is one of the most powerful things created each one of you guys gals won congratulations.

[@111goo]

As an addict who has been to rehab, relapsed multiple times and battles it currently, there is sooo much I could say but I will try to cover some things I find important. The first thing is understanding how complex addiction is. It changes your brain so much, and truly is such a strong urge it’s equal to the feeling you get when you’re thirsty and want water, or hungry and want food. It becomes almost like something your brain convinces you that you need to survive. It’s also important for you to protect yourself and never contribute to the problem. It can be hard to not wanna just help because you love someone, but also the best thing my family ever did was kick me out after u continuously lied and manipulated them. The only thing you can do is offer direct help such as programs, rehab, etc. And the last and HUGE point. NEVERRR give an addict money. It will go straight to the problem. Offer support with food, even gift cards, maybe offer to pay for some new work clothes when they find a stable job. But NEVER cash. I hope some of this helped.

[@matteightytwo]

Mat, the bottom line is how much they want to recover. You can't save someone that doesn't want to be saved. Life has to become sufficiently uncomfortable (for them) that they want to do something about it

[@copgreen8781]

@@111goo you are right about Never give an addict money. I had friend who was struggling with addiction, they had moved from one State to stay with me just so that they can try new environment. Everything was good for about one month, then one day someone gave them money and that's the day they went and bought drugs!.

[@michelangelope830]

I have been trying to have the discovery of the nature of addiction known for years to end the war on drugs. I would like to help you as a recovering addict and psychologist. Addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom. The tragedy of addiction is children who revenge a childhood hurt, or trauma, against their parents learning from example. I am alone socially ostracised by liars paying the price for being honest.

[@michelangelope830]

@WodlWodlwodldnrbfg1 addict is a synonym of liar. Drug addiction is a manifestation of the psychology of a liar. Liars are victims of themselves to conceal the hatred and hurt others. Don’t you know what is being truthful and what is being a liar? I am alone because I am honest and honest people are not popular because the truth is not liked or shared.

[@Baja383]

I started my IOP program January 13th and have relapsed at least 4 times. Not giving up. Good luck to all you out there.

[@PurposeandPassion9]

Keep going

[@AO-co5to]

hey pal...how did you make out with your IOP program and how are you doing now? I went away to detox and PHP in florida APril 29-May31 and came home without them setting up me in a correct IOP. Its been 30 days and ive relapsed 6 times mb more myself already....not even 12 hours back in NY and got a call my grandfather was dead....and hit financial rock bottom...one good thing however, i now start a small 8 person IOP at a good place this coming Monday 6/27. this is so tough man....it sounds and feels so easy in my head to say "OK this is the last day....again) but i wake up and just crave it. been going to meetings too every night but the crave is real and strong and even stronger when depressed and have had no luck every waking day......i wish you nothing but the best and one day at a time brother.......

[@pendurton3081]

I work at a ministry for homeless men and a couple months ago I started a recovery class on campus and have been looking for material to use in my class, this is perfect and I will definitely be showing this to my class next week I absolutely love it this is a perfect description of the 12 step program

[@Virginie-a]

Congrats for trying to make society better and save not only lives but soul

[@lalasuncokretic1046]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I'm 4 years and 2 months clean and sober.

[@oaidenparkerabramov5978]

im so proud of you!! :D

[@lalasuncokretic1046]

@@oaidenparkerabramov5978 thank you❤ im proud of you too

[@imogengardner194]

Waking up is sometimes the hardest bit NEVER underestimate your achievement, NEVER...many don't manage it and you send out such a positive message to other users ( recovering alcoholic; 3+ years ) Freedom through recovery is possible. I forget sometimes, it is others that have to remind me that I have achieved something. My biggest mistake has been holding onto and punishing myself with guilt. That traps not only me but those I love. Today I choose not to feel guilty but to offer myself some forgiveness.

[@jocelynsingle137]

I've been sober for almost 2 years and I'm just trying to find myself and feel whole again. Idk if that will happen but I will keep pushing through.

[@Craigox001]

I wish you all the best hope I can find the strength because I changed and lost so much that it breaks my heart. 😔

[@cassidybrewer]

You will eventually. Everyone’s timeline is different. Keep trying ❤️❤️

[@TonyRome402]

The 2 year mark is exactly when I considered going back to drinking, because I missed my friends. That very day; I chose myself over my friends and stayed true to myself. I lost my friends, but found myself. I am 8 years sober now and will remain this way until my last breath. Good luck to you. You have just got past the hard part. I believe you will start to understand how easy this can be.

[@AimeeDenise_bct]

So much respect 🙌 to you for sharing your story to help others heal. 🦋 It's a true calling. I absolutely found my purpose in telling my story of borderline death ☠️ and life implosion 🤯 to healing my brain and body to get my life back! Much luv! 🕉 You can heal!

[@tyronebull8466]

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't always promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every good-bye you learn. Author: Veronica A. Shoffstall

[@DuckingTaylor]

I love this!!!

[@kimwarburton8490]

Amazing, such wise true words!

[@afireinhearts1302]

Thank you for sharing this 💜

[@paulpheifer3002]

Very Schopenhauer...and depressing

[@NN.Nemo917]

Thanks for sharing. I'm trying to understand this all after I've found out that my uncle has been an addict for quite a long time.

[@toxic.forest]

Believe in YOUR SELF.

[@Groundandpound431]

I work in detox and rehab and your video will be played for my clients thank you 🙏

[@jasonabrams6644]

I'm 6 months clean and sober and loving life

[@monteceitomoocher]

Stay strong Lauren and well done.

[@joshuapoynter5132]

I just wanted to say thank you to the people that stuck by me, especially when I was a mess. Because I didn't know what love was until I became sober. Realizing how much hurt and pain I caused..thank you for showing me patience and dealing with my selfishness

[@eldermillennial2677]

I’ve bursted into tears right in the middle of “how angry you were after seeing what you wrote “ ... Thanks for that. At least I know where I am at . The simple realisation of what and how you are feeling is life changing.

[@williambox2463]

It’s fair to say her addiction has had a massive impact on her because she’s making regular speeches about it. All addicts have that in common, they may have stopped taking it but they never stop talking about it to anyone who will listen. One way or another it’s with them there whole life

[@Skullflowerz]

Any speech that ends with the "F" word like that is impressive and amazing.

[@saikumar6216]

Freedom

[@jessicaisolda196]

This by far was one of the best talks I’ve heard & seen. May not have been for anyone else but for where I am in my recovery it definitely was what I needed.

[@D87943]

To all those who struggle with addiction their will always be a bright light at the end of the tunnel.

[@timwoodward9799]

Hello. I loved watching this. I am an addict in recovery. 20 months as of tomorrow actually. Today at 11:00 a.m. I have an interview with a very upscale inpatient drug rehabilitation center here in the town that I live in. The position is for a overnight residential instructor. I'm wicked nervous. I've been wanting to get into the recovery field for a little while now and nobody will give me the chance nobody will even give me an interview. These folks are giving me the interview. I was up all night long scribbling into my notebook preparing myself for any question they could possibly ask me. And literally sick to my stomach I'm so damn nervous. But.. regardless of the outcome... Life goes on.

[@adriennec6033]

I hope you got the job!!

[@shoryacione5175]

Did you get the job?

[@SergioK111]

Any addiction is a prison, when I realized this, I changed my life🥳

[@matthewgrimes]

Explained the steps beautifully. Thank God for CA. 🙏🏻

[@luisitaevangelista8563]

I find the steps liberating, not just for addiction, but life in general.

[@Mark-pp7jy]

Absolutely!!!

[@rachiefitz2919]

Most amazing and resonating Ted talk iv watched... Thankyou 😘😘😘

[@ghendrix2322]

Love you girl for this🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@marthaalavez1537]

I’ve never related to someone so much…

[@ambernawrocki]

Wow did I need this. Thank you so much this hit me right in the feels ❤

[@youngdylan5083]

❤❤❤

[@bobbyd224]

I was 9 yrs clean… messed up 3 weeks ago and fentanyl stopped my heart for 5 minutes and haven’t done anything since it will always be a battle for me

[@cassidybrewer]

Hope you’re doing okay, Bobby. Sending love.

[@bobbyd224]

@@cassidybrewer ty

[@doobiehowzer6068]

Stay in the fight homie

[@JasonBrown-dd7dj]

​@@bobbyd224stay strong your very lucky you ain't brain damaged no more mate life's a gift.

[@filiprusinek2517]

You won once you can do it Aga in keeo your head up❤

[@sarahmcintyre6150]

Wow, my list will be so long! 51 now and still doing the same as at 21. So hard to change but for years I thought my life was hard, now I have an amazing lifestyle but a lot of baggage and I’m the same as when I didn’t have a mattress to sleep on. So much work to be done. Spot on about connection. Desperate for that, I was fine when my girls were young with all the love but now it’s back

[@Danny-dc9os]

27 days clean from opiods. I feel healthy, if i can stop so can you i promise its worth it!

[@kitty10141]

5 days behind you, keep it up!! Exercise and chores, especially when you don’t want to.

[@shephherd]

The 12 step program is a process for emotional catharsis. At the core of any alcoholic/addict, there's some kind of 'pain' and this process tries to help to come to terms with/release it. Once the pain, like a wound is exposed, the healing is faster. Seems to work if one is really diligent and honest about it. Good luck!

[@eklypised]

Bhavesh Athawasya my issue is I don’t have any old “pain” issues I just liked to het high...trying to figure out how to make that feeling go away.

[@shephherd]

@@eklypised ...noted and understand what you said. Depending on how old you are, at what age you started and whether a significant part of your 'achievements and key positive milestones' in life so far were while using, an approach can be developed. Whether you have been fortunate to have a job, family, friends and other activities that give you satisfaction and fulfilment...whether you are able to perform in all these equally well without usage. Whether its possible to think how one may have dealt with certain common life situations and challenges without usage are a few things to consider. If one is unable to function in any of the key areas of life optimally without usage, then that's a sign of dependency. Any substance including alcohol changes the chemistry...if it has been for a majority of ones life, then often it seems impossible to imagine a life without... The duration and approach to 'settle' from the using self and the non using self varies and often not very smooth. It goes back to the question that when we are born and growing up, we are told to keep away... When the first 'experience' happens, when it becomes second nature(more predominant than the primary, 'clean' nature), and when that is the only one we begin to identify with is a something to think about. Many first usage is out of experimenting, one likes the feeling...and the moment there is a negative experience, one wants to move to that state of good feeling. Typically, one is termed as an addict when there's derailment in key areas of life OR inability to maintain the standard of these key areas without using. Is it a matter of getting high once in a while or unable to function without getting high... That is the key question to address. Pain can be camouflaged. Good luck

[@suzygriffin3597]

@@shephherd can i ask if u speaking from experience?

[@shephherd]

@@suzygriffin3597 .....yes.

[@suzygriffin3597]

@@shephherd that essay was informative but sooo boring!!!

[@welshwitch2024]

You are truly something. Thank you 🙏 💖

[@alistairwalsh1022]

One day at a time.

[@chaabraaah5823]

Addiction is only a symptom if a bigger problem. I've been on/off drugs for 12 years, finally got my life going. The moment I got purpose in my life, was the moment it all changed for the better. Addiction is only a SYMPTOM

[@lukemitchell1975]

ive been on this merry go round for 15yrs, slowley battled each addiction. drink the first was goinfg to kill me and lead me into herion, i was at age 27 i knew i was going to kill myself unlees i made changes. now im 8yrs soba from drink and hard drugs, my life has been so much better since then but im struugling with cannibis feel i just cant completley let go. thank u for your share lauren :)

[@jennamercury7625]

Everyone working in the field should educate themselves about the process. Its bigger than what they read in books and learn in college; you can only help when you TRULY understand what you are involved with.

[@michaelgantt969]

My dad recently passed. He was my best friend. I’m struggling tonight. I’ve been considering using all day. I’m white knuckling it bad.

[@andrewdabar2230]

I'm so sorry, Michael. The only comfort I can offer is that there is someone out here who genuinely resonates with your situation. The extreme of pain of loss is impossible to escape. I myself have considered joining the dead because sobriety is too overwhelming when you're completely alone. I keep waiting for someone to call or text but my line is silent while my mind is screaming horrible things. I can't sleep. The night terrifies me. I want to believe in God but am struggling with belief in anything other than the fact that sorrow has me by the throat. I wanted to encourage you and not talk about myself. So . .. I hope that you've succeeded with resisting the urge. Maybe we will both discover that a clear mind and a clean life is something beautiful and waiting for us on the other side of our darkest nights.

[@jasonabrams6644]

I just got out of inpatient rehab after 4 months now I'm in sober living

[@librawoman4554]

Thank you for the post . I understand why now .I need help and will ask for help.

[@DiodeMom]

Libra Woman just read this comment. I hope you’re doing well, clean and sober and spiritually connected.

[@Sassy_Alaskan]

Libra Woman come find support on Facebook @ No Addict Left Behind.

[@librawoman4554]

I just read these comment today. Thank you I've been drug free for 2 years, I've been working out and became very fit and active. I am also very spiritual. A lot had change and I'm happy and I am peaceful.

[@kimwarburton8490]

@@librawoman4554 Thanks for sharing, its good to hear success stories, will be starting my journey soon. Getting therapy sorted atm still

[@librawoman4554]

@@DiodeMom sorry for the late response. Yes I'm doing very well. I've no longer interested in drugs. I had helped from above. I understood it was just a journey and lessons. Luckily for me that I had help from my friend and I moved out of the place and ppl that tempted me. Thank you for your concern and prayer. Love 💘

[@oneonly5696]

If you help yourself you help your family recover the addiction. A mint to days to become years to have you and keep you. Its way matters. A drug doesn't run you... Drugs affect all even the ones who aren't addicted.

[@Quartzone6145]

So so true

[@markforrestsm]

Great video and respect for Lauren Windle for her share..

[@ChelseaChronicles]

I can’t wait to be free again 😞😞

[@userqwertyuiopasdfgh]

So inspired by Laurens story!

[@ConfusedRevolutionary]

Been a drug addict since 2012. Got expelled from HS and Continuation School, which just fueled my reckless behavior. Presently, I just graduated from Uni (SDSU/History). I am proud to state that I intellectually devoured the semesters subjects while being higher than Rick James and James Brown. I feel indifferent, however. Where there is supposed to be a feeling of pure academic accomplishment; there is a feeling of expected disappointment. I should be celebrating this milestone of my life, but instead I am maintaining an unhealthy lifestyle and cynical perspective about life in general. Should’ve paid attention to those TMNT’s commercials. Would’ve likely experienced a peaceful adulthood than a drug-induced, depressing, and tragic one. But hey fellow determined drug addicts. One step at a time.

[@missmaryjo4439]

Idk what to do with my life I’m turning 18 soon and my fam doesnt want to and won’t support me. I’m addicted to opiates and with no actual support I don’t even want to get clean I just wish that didn’t I dropp out so much cuz now I feel like I can’t do anything I aspire to do, I’m not ashamed to say I dropped out Because I believe the school system is one that doesn’t engage a persons mind or promote creativity it felt like I was being pressured to conform to the rules or simply not go So I dropped out of school because I’m not gonna be a part of something I hate! But anyway what can I do from here you seem qualified to answer

[@shanephelan75]

Reality is for people who cannot handle drugs.

[@justinjuneazucenas9351]

Im upset that what u said makes sense

[@kkdream99]

Edit Name Nah, it’s very true if you think about it. People who can’t quit are not ready to face the reality and quit.. yet..

[@eddiecongdon8017]

I tried the steps once but I could not get past the second step because I always said I was the God of my understanding.

[@NiksKoleva]

Eddie Congdon the real point of the second step is to admit that you are a human- you make mistakes and you can learn from them and bad things just happen and you can’t control them; also building relationships with other people can heal and make you stronger; opening your heart to a bigger cause or group will help dealing with loneliness

[@meghanr9639]

If it hasn't worked for you then maybe change your mindset so it can work for you.

[@psycho.psycho.psycho]

Ain't a fan of religion, but if it helps one in life, then who am I to say otherwise? Very positive, impactful presentation.

[@aaronthembogym]

Thank you so much

[@ryan-vj2yb]

Addiction is a choice NOT a disease

[@michelangelope830]

I have been trying for years to have the discovery of the nature of addiction known to end the war on drugs. I would like to help you as a recovering addict and psychologist. Addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom. The tragedy of addiction is children who revenge a childhood hurt, or trauma, against their parents learning from example. I am alone socially ostracised by liars paying the price for being honest.

[@austinmwatati1268]

Your life is too precious to accept anything, other than complete freedom...❤

[@DuckingTaylor]

I loveeeeee this talk!!!

[@karenkimberlypickering5299]

The saying goes... "Oh what a difference a day makes"! Say instead... "Oh what a Day a Difference makes"!

[@gabrielleple4309]

Very powerful. AA isn’t for everyone. But it worked for her. Do whatever it is that will work for YOU! 😊 Thank you for sharing.

[@Mark-pp7jy]

AA is for everyone. It's just that most people trying to recover, can't or won't put forth even a fraction of the effort that they put into drinking or using. That was me...until I got rigorously honest with myself. 27 years later, I still make the effort and have a great life to show for it. Thank god for the fellowship!

[@gordonsands]

@@Mark-pp7jy no mark not everyone thinks replacing one addiction with another is healing

[@Mark-pp7jy]

@@gordonsands Achieving, and the development of sobriety is no different than going to the gym, playing a musical instrument, practicing your golf swing, etc, etc. Ask Michael Jordan, or Wayne Gretzky, or Tiger Woods, or James Taylor, or Capt. Sullenberger how they became so good at their craft. They'll ALL tell you "PRACTICE"! What does it say about you to criticize people for seeking to be the best they can be? Ruminate on that for a while.

[@theking1233456]

What an awesome person. Thank you for this

[@simona2m03]

thank you! Now I see that I must help my friend.

[@Sassy_Alaskan]

Simona Glavan come find support on Facebook @ No Addict Left Behind.

[@ergomez7184]

I'm going through a cocain addiction very hard to stop but I'm ready and need help or advice. I'm not to the point that i need everyday but only when i get hurt or mad

[@sheldonlobo4722]

I pray you get the help you need!!

[@sheldonlobo4722]

@Maintenance In Progress hopefully he is on the road to recovery

[@Quartzone6145]

Good luck to you in your recovery journey.

[@michelangelope830]

I have been trying to have the discovery of the nature of addiction known for years to end the war on drugs. I would like to help you as a recovering addict and psychologist. Addiction is the psychology of a liar, only liars get hooked and only honesty gets freedom. The tragedy of addiction is children who revenge a childhood hurt, or trauma, against their parents learning from example. I am alone socially ostracised by liars paying the price for being honest.

[@deeannladowski566]

This is all God. I'm battling a bad benzo addiction right now and I'm desperate for Gods help. I dont knos how to get out 😭 I want to go to Jesus, not satan. Plese wash away my sins God. Wash away this addiction and show me the only comfort i need IS From YOU. Nothing in this world can comfort like the lord and savior Jesus christ

[@itzcawdkarma]

How are you doing

[@DALEEMBERLEY]

Blah Blah Blah. Jesus Christ aint doing nothing for you. Only you can wash away your sins. Looking for somebody else to comfort you, is really an excuse. You are your best comfort, nothing else. Addiction sucks, but at the end of the day, only the soul within you will truly make the effort to change. Not attacking....I am an addict too.

[@Officiallyyzeke]

Amen baby

[@joey_btw4718]

I'm not religious, but don't let these haters budge you. Concentrated energy, collective support, a something to give yourself to and receive something back is the way to recovery. As one non religious person to a child of God, I believe in you. You have the strength, and your support network is your safety net. I love you, and you are worth a life.

[@ericstephens4284]

I'm not religious, but I have 3.5 years clean. I know a lot of people that leaned on god to get clean. So to each their own. You got this 🙏

[@pattirodzewich7081]

Thank you for your awesome share here 🙏🏻❤️

[@qossii]

Very Inspiring....Thanx

[@gavincook8166]

I've done the 12 steps

[@heathertatum1268]

I just started my residential recovery program at the Veterans hospital today is day 1.. maybe it will work this time!! ❤️

[@americanboy5064]

An addict is an addict because he wants to be an addict! He/she will quit when they decide to quit. They may need help, but it is on them to quit! We need to stop making excuses for them - it is their fault, and the fault of their parents for not fostering strong character in their children.

[@AR-do2ob]

Ugghh...u have no idea!!! No, people are addicts because it's hard to stop, that's all

[@droidtech4903]

People are addicts because of there environment.

[@danab333]

Wow our stories are absolutely identical in the beginning...that was crazy hearing u tell my intro to my first addiction n that too was coke. But that's where our stories change

[@Sassy_Alaskan]

Dana Begody come share your story on our Facebook page. No Addict Left Behind.

[@vanessarouvier2827]

THANK YOU JESUS !

[@Sharletpmathew]

Praising God..Wonderfully explained ..God Bless your journey

[@user-eo8jx7jq4u]

Do you and your friends think it's ok to mock crackheads? Today's youth have zero respect for mental health and addiction. It really cuts me. Please don't.

[@suzygriffin3597]

Crack heads and mental health are two different things....whats ur point?? And mocking anyone or thing is totally unacceptable...

[@daneosborn3476]

Actually todays youth has more compassion for crack heads then my generation does. Probably because there are more druggies now then ever before and todays society doesnt want to hold people accountable for their actions. My generation really made fun of them

[@reverse_meta9264]

Crackheads are objectively unattractive, to say someone looks like a crackhead is not to mock a crackhead but to attach the label of the objective reality - grow a thicker skin

[@psychedlicsouljam1995]

@@suzygriffin3597 actually, you people are creating stigmas and for your information, addiction is treated like a public health concern like mental illness.

[@suzygriffin3597]

@@psychedlicsouljam1995 you people???...👅

[@panicattacked57]

The tools for living, something many of us don't get without the 12 Steps. This is great. Have you seen Dr. KJ Foster's videos on addiction and recovery? They're also great.

[@lunamorris2091]

I liked your blog. It is informative too, at the same time. Thanks a lot for your guidance!

[@Stan-mv1ty]

In 2004 i started using street drugs. My addiction lasted for 18 years. I have been sober now for almost a year. Restoring a relationship with my 32 year old daughter is so very important to me, but it just seems like that will never happen. My daughter idolized me before the addiction, we had a very good father daughter relationship. Does anybody have any advice for me plse?

[@humbertosequeira1536]

Congrats to all the ones that have recovered! We need good and sober people in the World so much, being humble, ask for forgiveness, meditation and be willing to give and help others has made a great diff. to me

[@Craigox001]

I can't believe how much I've changed I hate the person I've become 😔

[@c_farther5208]

When this lady talks about her self love, I think she is way beyond that, she adores herself, she is her universe.

[@llindstad]

The problem is that people dont care, so you have to detach you to all your friends and focus on your selves.

[@jimmydeats9901]

This woman is breaking a tradition that says aa should remain anonymous.! Especially film, press, and radio, etc. It is based on attraction, not promotion.

[@acgillespie]

Change has come to the USA & UK.... It's a business all for profit and that is that.. All prior traditions are non existent Including the Indy 500

[@careliakuhn]

Recovered Herion addict ❤ 19 years

[@gaynorbishop9749]

Thank you for this wonderful talk. Going to show this at the Rehab centre to inspire the service users 🥰❤🙏

[@gordonsands]

Nobody should be inspired to replace drugs with god...at least it was only their bodies they were killing before..now their brain is shut off lol

[@leahswenson7776]

this is so true. I am working the steps myself

[@lloydfrancis9149]

Your witnessing the Grace and Mercy of God and the Power of our Lord Jesus Christ. What a testimony Love. God bless you this gives me hope