Let’s Talk About Grief | Death Anniversary

First off, you guys have been a huge part of my trauma, loss, and grief journey if you want to believe that or not. Being this open to judgement to total strangers on the internet does something for me that I cannot explain. The past couple days have been ROUGH and I plan to do a little self care if I can. Thank yall for listening and letting me talk about all of this. Maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to realize that sharing how Kale passed will be healing too. All in good timing I guess. I appreciate y’all, thanks for making my comment sections so heart warming and REAL, And don’t be afraid to trauma dump down there I’ll accept it with open arms❤️
R.I.P. Kale; love you, miss you, and I hope you’re proud of me.

[@Dr.Dumpnpump]

Lost my wife at the age of 33 unexpectedly and quickly as well. We have 3 small kids that I have to raise on my own. It never gets easier, just different but different isn’t always bad. Thanks for sharing.

[@normcheers6870]

I am so sorry for you. Hopefully your wife did not suffer. I have a feeling she is watching over you and your kids. Just pray someday you will all be together.

[@doratavano3983]

Wow I am so sorry for your loss!! That has to be so hard raising 3 kids without their mom!! I hope you have support from family and friends!! Stay strong!!

[@rae7864]

What happened ??

[@Dr.Dumpnpump]

@@rae7864 Cancer.

[@fredwilliams6843]

My son shot himself through the mouth 5 days ago so I know what it’s like to grieve. He was 52 and had everything, family, loving sister, father, mother, and friends. Very nice home, excellent high paying satisfying caring for others professional. He was a nurse anesthetist. Yes it’s a stressful job, yes he had highs and lows in his life, and yes he let this all go away in a millisecond. God I loved him so.

[@paison318]

Omg Fred! I am so so sorry! My heart and prayers goes out to you and your family. 🙏❤️💜

[@billnict1]

Sorry for your loss!

[@fredwilliams6843]

@@billnict1 thank you Bill. Have my sons 22, 18 year olds, his former wife, and his older sister for support. God willing well all get through this calamity.

[@fredwilliams6843]

@@paison318 thank you. His former wife, 18 and 22 year olds, and his older sister are all leaning on each other. God help us all.

[@paison318]

@@fredwilliams6843 🙏🙏🙏💜

[@vegasilkit]

He's so very lucky to have had a lovely, smart and sincere woman like you in his life. Most men don't find that nowadays. You have my utmost respect.

[@onlyfromadistance7326]

I honestly thought that there wasn't any woman like this anymore. Lord God protect this woman, and bring happiness and love into her life...

[@mistermom310]

I lost 15 family and friends between December 2018 and April 2020. In this group was my wife of 22 years and both of my siblings. I experience the box & ball at the most random times. A song, a food, s smell, even on the road while taking trips. I've learned on God and our 2 children. I'm what most consider a guys guy and the glue to my circle. I allow the tears to flow when it hits and embrace the memories. 🙏❤️🙏

[@godschildyes]

Praying for you, dear Sir. 🙏 😢❤

[@samrichards670]

37 years now that I lost my wife after six months of marriage. I have become secluded, and stay within myself. God is the best and only Healer in which you must give yourself to.

[@Laura_Kerouac]

Siento mucho tu pérdida. Mucha fuerza ❤

[@pestpro6606]

Thank you

[@user-ux3rl7wb8h]

Iv done the same after I lost my dad & brother 4 days apart. I’m trying to get out of the house but I like being alone now.

[@godschildyes]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Hopefully, God can help you out of your seclusion as well for more healing. 🙏 ❤

[@antoniobiancofiore2396]

God is the answer

[@JimS870]

Your dog is the perfect spirit animal. "Don't worry mom, no matter how sad you are, I will continue bringing you this ball."

[@timothysingleton6274]

Thank you for sharing your experience! Please don’t hesitate to share your very much loved .

[@user-kn7pf8mj9k]

My wife and I were married for 46 years when she passed away five years ago. When something triggers my grief button I concentrate on the good memories we shared. This pushes the grief away. Havee found that as time passes the triggers get less frequent and easier to get over. You are on the right track with your pets and bringing involved with farming. The sunsets are great and helps staying grounded. The next sunrise is proof that the days get better. Keep up the the efforts you are using to get better. ❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊

[@kennylaird9475]

God bless you I'm gonna start praying for you The Lord has a purpose for you

[@ericvantassell6809]

This man here^^^^^ knows whereof he speaks.

[@cama59649690]

Ciao JoJo nel tuo caso gli animali fanno miracoli x attenuare il dolore, loro si affezionano incondizionatamente e ricambiano 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

[@larrybreer9430]

Jordan, I know how you must feel. I lost my wife almost 5 years ago. She was my soulmate and my helper here on the farm. We had been married two weeks short of 50 years. I miss her every day! I enjoyed your video and your ability to keep it together. I think it’s a nice tribute to wear that same dress and sit in that swing that Kales parents got for you as a remembrance. You are a sweet gal and Zach and you work very well together. Blessings to the both of you!

[@notimeforcaution1264]

I just lost my identical twin brother and feel your pain. Jesus has been my rock to get through this.

[@SoCal780]

Man, I am SO VERY SORRY for your loss. The bond between twins is extremely strong and something very few ppl can understand. I’m not a twin myself, but I’ve known a few in my life. They finish each other’s sentences! I wish that there was something that I could say to ease your pain but I know that there isn’t. All I can do is wish you peace and healing. My heart goes out to you. ❤ Be strong.

[@guermeisterdoodlebug7980]

I am truly sorry for your loss. I, too, have lost close relatives snd dear friends, but never once considered keeping the grief alive for years by sharing it publicly years later on KZbin.

[@TheLanden11]

I know you’re pain I too I lost my identical, twin brother at the age of 15. I’m glad you found comfort in the lord he will always help.

[@massimoanelli3381]

Mi spiace,un abbraccio grande.forza e coraggio ❤

[@smille12]

Having identical twin sons, I shudder with the thought of the extreme grief that would bring for them or myself, it would leave a mark on the soul, prayers for you and your brother

[@user-dm8ok9jl4y]

Jojo, I have a story as well… when you lose a spouse you are forced into a place that is expected to be a tribute to them and the remainder of your life is to hold them up in dedication! It’s a pain and pressure that can break you, but you make it thru! The person you lost was connected to family and friends, you’re left to handle your grief and future as the one who lost their love! No one seems to really understand, but they try to offer support with a smile in admiration that you’ve handled yourself so well! You know that any day can turn into sadness and also have the ability to recall so many happy memories! I lost my wife in 2015 to an aggressive bout of cancer. She was amazing, I miss her, I wish every day that she could see her two incredible kids out on their own! But my loss is different from others in my circle, our friends and family. The love I have for her has never wavered but I am moving on, my loss has opened my eyes to the many people and experiences that continue to shape my life! Tomorrow is never as bad as expected, there are far more grand moments to mark as memorable! Enjoy those moments and embrace the past as you create a new life, I have and I love every day, because of her! She was my greatest teacher!

[@tmeyer2022]

I am approaching the 6th anniversay of my wife Sharon's passing. A spark of her life still burns in my heart. They are never completely gone. A small spark of Cale's life and love will stay with you forever. I have found 'new' love again. My 'now' wife Linda is/was also a widow. We share so many similar eperience (emotions). With time, you will find that the more love you give away [to your 'now' husband and others], the more love you will 'have' to give away. The more love you give away, the smaller the pangs of grief will become. I hope you will learn [as I have] to savour those moments of grief. ❤

[@SnowboardJedi]

Your wife is right there with you bro.....get in nature by some running water. Get in your zone and I promise you will feel her powerful connection come through.

[@tomdaley9154]

12 years since my little daughter died. 1 im sorry for your loss 2 thanks posting and being you. Im a dude and a combat vet, but i identify with you a lot and i love your channel. I also grew up on a farm. Doesnt hurt that your gorgeous. I would never share like this, but i really appreciate that you do. Grief is a journey. It evolves and ebbs and flows. Its the same for us all but also different for us all. You and your channel do fellow grievers a world of good.

[@williamschmitz971]

Only 29 when it happened and I can tell you were deeply,deeply in love with this person. My heart breaks for you during these times of grief but soon the distractions will come back and you’ll be enjoying your time on the farm! Someone who lost as hard as you have, must give themselves the time to grieve in their own way! I love all of your videos, your good times, as well as your grieving process! God bless you and healing prayers to you! ❤😮

[@danielseaton984]

It is so strange how this video was among the list presented as I scrolled down. I desperately needed this video now. My wife died this morning. I was her primary caregiver for almost seven years and married to her for over 49 years. Even though I’ve known this day was coming, the loss is almost unbearable. I’m fighting the want of giving in. The room she was in when she died actually echoed when I spoke to her after her death. It had never done that before. The room knew she had left it empty. I feel empty.

[@godschildyes]

Oh my God! 😮 I am praying for you, dear Sir. 🙏 ❤

[@ronleight9341]

So sorry for your loss, im sure she would want you to keep going. I know from experience, caregiving can be emotionally and physically exhausting. Give yourself time to recover and move on to your new normal. Best of luck, Sir

[@karenlong4817]

Praying for healing for you. May God lift you up.

[@VICTORIOUS-Ukraine]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my soulmate 4 years ago and I know that heartache your going through. In the past 4 years I also lost my 7 year old son, my sister in law, my mother, 3 brothers, my grandmother and the last one that I lost was my twin brother who was healthy and died suddenly on June 14th,2024 who had a heart attack. I have added you to my daily prayers list. The pain never leaves you but you learn how to cope with the grief and you learn how to go on with life without your partner. It's a new way of living. Praying for you and your family during this time.

[@markwalker1144]

It ain't much, it's barely a cup of coffee but it says hey I'm with you. July 5th will be the 5th anniversary of my wifes passing. I miss the hell out of her. It's a nightmare that never ends. Cherish those memories cause that's where they live. Stay strong, i appreciate you

[@michaellauer3397]

Hang on to the good memories, take them with you and let them see more good times.

[@johnpugh67]

Jordan It's been 16& a half years since I lost my wife. I am so proud of you and I do understand how you feel and how you can have good and bad days. Please know that a lot of people love 💖 you for the person you are. John (Adelaide, South Australia 🦘)❤❤❤❤

[@valdiralves1411]

Que bom termos amigos que enviam me sagens animadoras para Jojo. Saudações de Belém - Estado da Paraiba, Nordeste do Brasil

[@RonSheets-ql8ox]

I lost my wife 6 years ago next month. We would have been married 40 years last month. I have heard the analogy of the box before this. It is perfect as the constant pain does subside but when the ball unexpectedly hits the pain button it is real and you just need to roll with it. Never be ashamed of your emotions as they are there to help you heal. When you love someone deeply, I don't think the pain will ever completely leave your being. Thank you for sharing your journey. May you be blessed in your life.

[@donaschneider]

JoJo... I am so very sorry for your loss and grief. My 27 year old baby girl died in an unexpected, violent way on Memorial Day 2017. Your ball in a box analogy is perfect. Thank you for sharing. ❤❤️

[@popswrench2]

if i may speak from an opposite side of grief : near absence . 64yr now , i was 10 when my father started cancer treatments , but id didnt know that . just that he was away . the last year and a half i never saw him . my mother hada literal feud with him as he died , and i was the pawn . when news came , so much was hidden , my aunt and family were not sure what to say , so my cousin Debboe just came to the barn and told me .... stunned but had no basis for grief . as the story unfolded over the next decade , i still had little to react from . total grief took decades ; too keep the story short . the "grieving" is actually how we place the loss , no , that life in our memories , so we dont forget . my aunts death hit me more than my owwn father ; i knew her far more . i was about 45 . my lesson is , take your time , without dwelling . they are your memories , and dont separate them from Zak too long . as i gather m he was friend before and husband now . a great perspective to draw on and shoulder to cry on when words fail . you situation is unique with Zak & i think a blessing . payers kid . ❤

[@ericvantassell6809]

yep.

[@lucdoucette8302]

Gratitude for the uplifting content, your unwavering dedication doesn't go unnoticed.

[@user-fk8qz9wj4l]

❤❤❤

[@larrykelly2838]

🌹Grief from losing a loved one never completely goes away, we learn how to cope with it. Lost our 17yr old son in 1991 and I still break down and cry once in a while when the memories come back. The loss and pain just get easier to handle.

[@merrittkwarner8475]

At 70 years of age I have come to realize that time does really heal all wounds. You have a way to go, it's early yet.

[@olyokie]

I lost my first love at 17. I learned that, for me, grief came in huge waves, one right after the other. With time those waves got a bit smaller and further apart. Its been 51 years now and I still have tears but I am also usually smiling remembering…..everything.

[@starfish3156]

I lost 9 children the oldest was 10 all the way down to newborn. I lost all of them at the same time unexpectedly as well and honestly it feels like it gets harder the more time goes on not easier, but everyone handles pain differently! May God be with us all and may we see our loved ones again! And may he keep our loved ones in his arms❤❤❤

[@randyrstevens4403]

Lost my two oldest children within two months apart. As a parent, you can't explain the pain, and heartache, but it's only made me keep my eyes on Jesus, not looking to the left, or right, and keep running the good race, and fighting the good fight with all my heart. Praise Jesus Lord God and Savior AMEN.

[@drnv150]

Thanks for sharing such a difficult subject, I lost one of my closest family members recently and it's something everyone has to deal with and one of the hardest things in life. I wish you all the happiness and healing possible and have enjoyed your videos 👍🙂🙏

[@rogersandvik2826]

💞 Grief is a manifestation of love. He will be available for you, always. What you tells us shows he loved and still loves you equally much. He will defenitely help you on your way. I know grief, but in a different way since it wasn't a spouse. 19 months later and I still suffer giving me a hard time moving on. Thanks for sharing. It doesn't help knowing you're hurt, but it helps somehow anyway!

[@witness4312]

First of all it's a beautiful dress and a awesome swing,if Kale took a part in who you are as a woman and the wonderful woman you have become then Amen unto him,sorry for your loss Jordan,you are loved and respected by many,including the True one above,you are one of a kind Jordan in a beautiful way,you are a beautiful example of a wonderful woman,he is very proud I assure you, ✌ ❤ 😊 🙏!

[@MiguelAngelPeinadoGomez]

😢

[@Aurelio_Buendia]

Oh yeah, this dress is awesome 😋👍

[@citylimit33]

any idea how she lost her husband? 😢

[@desertcrab6331]

My goodness Jojo, this is amazing. You are doing the right thing here, you are talking about it and I can see you have processed a lot and are well on your way. It's so wonderful you still have a close relationship with Kale's parents. That is a bond that lasts a lifetime. It might be good to hear from Zach how he is processing this, I have a feeling that affects YOU as well and makes this more complicated. I don't see how you can avoid not being concerned for him when that ball hits your pain button. The only way to overcome grief and loss is to face it, but doing so makes you feel the pain. You HAVE to feel the pain, way too many of us self-medicate in one form or another (for Jojo it was shopping), to NOT feel the pain. Listen to Chris Stapleton's song 'Whisky and You' and you'll find the source of your newfound addiction, I think many find their beginnings there when dealing with the pain of loss. I speak from experience. When your parents pretend your sister never existed and never helped a young boy process that grief, he spends an entire lifetime seeking anything that will dull the pain so I didn't have to face it. Hell, I didn't even know it was an issue, she never existed. This is the best thing you could ever do Jojo, it is VERY brave to put it out in the public like this. It's like you are asking the world to hold you accountable. I just love you Jojo, such an amazing woman. I know we don't see your hard times, BUT, we DO see a LOT of good times! Besides, you have more kitties to love on now. And you bring them in a basket! You make my heart happy Jojo, thank you for being you.

[@bobstern7827]

Thank you for sharing your experience and suggestions. Both are helpful to me. I lost my wife of 54 years in February 2023. I cry everyday. Getting out and doing things is critical and also social interaction. I was a very social person until we moved to the present location about 18 months before she passed. Then we both had health problems that limited our interaction with friends and family that were now too fae away to visit. The day we buried her I sat at home alone waiting for visitors. None came, that left a hole in my emotions. Be Well and thanks for your postings.

[@michaellauer3397]

I know that feeling all too well. I couldn’t understand why my “friends “ wouldn’t come by. I had eight short visits in 6 years. Several times one would call and tell me they drove past my town on I-10 going somewhere on a vacation. I think they want to say that thing that makes it all better, but just can’t think of it, so don’t know to just stop and visit or include you somehow in their life. Your shared life.

[@Gsmith1717]

Hey Jojo, omg girl you are so blessed! Having 650,000 people to chat with about everything is such a wonderful support. You are doing the right thing analyzing the science behind grief to help overcome it. The dress is beautiful(and you in it!) with it being a part of a wonderful time in your life. I keep a football jersey of my best friend and wear it on his birthday as a tribute and reminder of the friendship we had. The emotions well up, but focus on the good things you shared! Know that our Creator has a plan for your life and reasons why everything happens & some things we will never understand while here on earth. Stay healthy, stay safe & always BeBlessed🎶🌅☯️✝️🌄♥️

[@dan0alda568]

I knew Kale. We worked together when he lived in the Texas panhandle doing automation. He was a gem, I have a flag he gave me hanging on my wall. Also I have a work bench he built in my garage. He was a good guy and hearing about his death hit me hard. I would like to visit with you about things he told me about his time in Detroit.

[@zaccotter8276]

June 1, 2022, 3:14 AM, double homicide, suicide both of my best friends' parents, dead, alongside a potential step-father, his father behind the trigger, 9 bullets total, I didn't see, I was told she was completely unrecognizable 5 kids, 5, 7, 14, 16, and 18, orphaned. Just to protect one man's fragile ego. I've never been able to push it off or forget any one detail, I still remember every little detail 2 years later It's never been any easier than that day Maybe I cry less But I still do It won't go away I don't see it ever doing so

[@familyoffour247]

​@@zaccotter8276this is terrible. :( I am sorry. I grew up with this girl who had two younger siblings. We were involved in the same homeschool co-op. I slept over at her home multiple times, both with groups of other children for birthday parties, and on my own. A couple of years after losing touch, we found out in the news that her father had stalked his wife and children, who fled to another state trying to escape him, and shot their mother outside her place of work. He then found an alley and ended his own life. He had been sexually abusing all of the children since they were very small and the mother knew, but was also being abused. She tried desperately to seek help in her last 2 years but domestic violence ended her life. I remember red flags. I remember the game of hide and seek we all played with the lights out. I remember being brought into his office by him and being shown Twisted Sister music videos. I remember my friends four year old sister shaving her legs alone in the bathroom. I remember the couple of times she slept over at my home, her begging to stay. So many signs that I didn't understand and my own parents didn't catch on to. She was a wonderful lady who deserved the world, and so do her kids. Thankfully, they are alive. I think about them often.

[@waderemington817]

My goodness sakes, Dear. I had no idea. How amazing you are that you found such a healthy means- a breaking down of for The Bigger Reasons. God Bless You & All Them around You today, (your real life support group). Much Love & Respect , ❤

[@Candie-ub2yv]

@@zaccotter8276oh honey I’m sorry no grief is no longer paralyzing but your sadness and wishing things were different does not go away. No one understands unless. They have gone through it.

[@denislacombe4103]

I am.widower for now 14 years ! And i still miss my sweet wife!!! And i 'm.waiting for death, to.rejoin her as quickly as possible! I can't wait more!!! I am 70 years old! God Bless you all!!! Denis from.France...

[@JasonPitts-cb6nr]

Want to say I am sorry for your loss. They say time heals but sometimes it feels like it takes forever. I'm battling depression right now. I've been dealing with this for long time. I watch your videos to shine some light in my life. Thank-you so much.

[@mikevonellis]

I’m very sorry that you have to go through grief, and I’m sorry for your great loss. I really appreciate your videos about your grief and how you deal with it. When I have gone through grief I tried all I could to get help, and I found some. If videos like yours were available back then they would have been so helpful! It’s been 20 years since my son was killed. It’s been 10 years since my wife left me for a rich man. The grief still continues but it becomes less often, and more joys in life move in. Take care of yourself, Jordan! You are a very good person! Honestly, you seem like a sister to me. ❤

[@johndoyle6697]

Jo Jo. Beautiful dress. Celebrate life and memories.Never ever doubt yourself. Love your videos. Blessings to you always.

[@doratavano3983]

Thank you for this video!! I am a new subscriber watching grief videos because I lost my mom 5 years ago and I still get sharp grieving pain when I think of her sometimes. I love how you describe grief, my pain ball is getting smaller but I still get flashes of memories that send me down a spiral of emotion and it is so hard. I am 37 with two younger sisters and two daughters and I wanted my mom to see my kids grow up so it has been really hard. I want to pick up the phone and call her for advice and it hurts realizing that I can't. Anyway I am so glad you have family and friends to support you and you are not alone!! 💕

[@longtimepittsowner5589]

I lost my wife this past Christmas Eve. After we were married I don’t know where the time went. 33 years….it was a blur. Now the clock ticks and I watch the seconds go by….

[@toddlawrence8137]

My fiancé was struck by lightning ⚡️ and I went through so much grief!! It takes forever sometimes. He would want you to be happy again and move on❤ with life and you will see him again!! But for now you’re doing great hang in there!! You’re an amazing strong woman and you give so much love to everything you’re around!!🙏🏻🌹🩷

[@MrRupus2020]

OMG my wife was hit by lightning years ago in front of our then toddler son and she survived. It killed the mule she was feeding. I'm so sorry about your loved one.

[@stephenknight8334]

I lost my mom in August 2019 from Pancreatic Cancer... unlike you, it was not sudden, but rather watched her slowly die from that horrible disease... The family opted to keep her with us in the house right till the end... It truly was a blessing to see her handle her day to day challenges, with a faith that was unbreakable... She is at peace, in a wonderful place, and I will see her again... I still miss her every day, so I understand your grief... My prayer is that you will experience God's peace in your life... ❤️🤍💙🫶🫶🫶🙏🙏🙏

[@fynbo1007]

Allow you to as long as needed to grief, don’t let anyone tell you it’s enough. And allow you to be mad on your husband, why did he leave without you, it sound mad but you will get control over your mental health when you can allow you to be sad and mad. You can’t get any answer, but you will get control over yourself, because we human don’t like to be let alone. I talk from my own experience, I was sad so long time to I realized I was sad and discovered I was angry to be left alone. At that time my healing began, no more get control of yourself. Thanks for your word, I hope you get some use of my words. God bless you and thank you for sharing your words

[@chcgostyle]

I feel for you. My mom died 7yrs ago this week. She died on Memorial Day, and I found her on Thursday that week. Parkinson's contributed to her untimely death. Grief is very personal and there is no "one way" for everyone to navigate through it. My heart goes out to you!

[@lesgaal4017]

Loosing the love of your life can't be replaced i lost my wife to breast cancer eleven years ago, and had to watch her slowly over three years fall from from life. For me grief is a search for answers that you'll never find and questions i can't answer. When i first came across your channel without knowing about your husband i could see pain in your eyes. Its a terrible road but it does get better im now a religious man by any means but i talk to god every day. Keep smiling. Australia

[@johntrainssmith1475]

I would think that Kale would be very proud of you, and supportive of what your doing and how your living life, I hope you journey thru grief in a way that in time brings about a form of healing that frees you to live more for your life now, and somehow the pain is not so overwhelming for you. You will never forget Kale, and it will always hurt, but I hope that in time, the memories of good times bring you great joy.

[@lordieshepherd]

Having grief from a sudden death in my family life but for a different reason completely, your video helped me to understand not only what you were going through but helped me identify what I am going through as well. For me it gets better every week, but I still miss my little man more than anything. You have surrounded yourself with everything that can help you get your mental state back to happiness without trying to find a way of leaving your pain behind you. I think that is perfect. Just keep doing what you are doing, you are an amazing and strong woman and endless happiness is only around the corner. Soon, only the great memories will outweigh the bad ones, and you will be able to talk about him with anyone with a smile and a laugh, and no thoughts of loss and grief. Sadness is a totally different thing. Your videos also help many people like yourself out there, so please, keep doing what you are doing, and sharing your little successes, and it gives so many more people hope that they need.

[@trimbaker1893]

grief... I cried a river of tears. I saw that I had to cross that river one day to get to my life that was on the other side. I had gathered so many heavy stones of grief that I had carried with me. I put those stones in the river and crossed on them. I was afraid that I would have to cross other rivers of tears and I chose large stones to carry for that fear. they became too heavy and I set them down. knowing that there are stones at every river of tears, mine and others and I did not need to carry these from this river to the next. perhaps they would be there for the next grieving person to cross on. many years have passed. my grief is still there, like a stone set in the fork of a young tree in a fence row, the stone never goes away but the tree grows around it towards the sun. only those who know what to look for can see that the stone is there deep within me. when an old person dies, only one life dies, their past. when a young person dies two lives die. their past and their future. my sorrow has given me strength in that ever since that loss, it has been damned hard to scare me. well, I have talked longer than I had intended, thank you for sharing your story. I might understand. George.

[@hughjass1044]

OMG Jo, I had no idea. I only recently discovered your channel, purely by chance, but it's such a fun and uplifting few minutes when I see you puttering about the farm doing everyday chores, dunking in the tank or playing with the animals, always with that big, beautiful smile. I often wondered whether you were a solo farmer or whether you were married or if it was your parents' farm or what the situation was. I was sure that if I watched long enough, I'd learn all the details but I never expected this to be one of them. I'm so sorry for your loss and your grief and your pain. You bring such joy and sunshine into our lives with your little snippets of farm life, I wish there was something we could do to take some of that pain away from you. I wish you peace and strength and comfort. God bless!

[@jimmyjenkins9240]

I appreciate what you are doing, or at least what I see you doing. I see you providing support and knowledge for those who are grieving and educating those of us who have not gone through what you have. My wife and I have been running grief groups for 10 years. We have learned so much from our participants; people just like you who have lost a spouse or another loved one. The ball in the box is a great analogy.

[@willbraswell4906]

Thank you so much! I wasn’t searching for wise words for my friend who is suffering from a similar deep loss but then you popped up in my feed and I’m so happy you did. Your words and actions are perfect! Love and respect!

[@vernt4583]

I’m just gonna have to say that I understand some of the pain that you feel when I have lost two very close family members in less than a month apart!! It’s hard for me as well and it’s only been 5 months now. Time and staying busy with your life helps a little bit!!! And I was one of those who subscribed when you were under the 1000 mark. Carry on with your journey!

[@Metfan1986]

First of all I appreciate you sharing your feelings on such a tough and sensitive subject. I have only been through a divorce which they say is the second highest stress behind the death of a spouse. I cannot imagine the pain you feel daily and there are no words anyone can say to make things even ok. I admire your courage even through it all to find a purpose in life. It's been one of the hardest things for me to do, but connecting with nature again has helped me regroup if you will , a better foot hold on my life and guides me daily. I have also found love again unexpectedly.

[@KennethCampbell-oj3qd]

Praying for you and Zack today. Be comforted as you press forward with living each day.

[@T.A.RunningHorse]

Appreciate your sharing your grief ma'am, it is damn important. Over the course of the last 13 years I've lost my 3 boys, my mother, and ended up divorced. Your analogy about the grief ball says it all. Used to be I couldn't even be around someone else's son because it would hit like a sledgehammer. Over time it's got easier. Keep on keeping on ma'am.

[@adolfochaves9219]

Crying Jojo because the tears cleaning the soul. The life continue❤❤

[@billcampana4328]

Jo Jo, thank you for sharing. Please know the pain you feel is an indication of how much you loved Kale. He has been torn from you, causing this grief. Please also know you are loved, and there is hope. Stay BLESSED!

[@user-kd4fj9yo8e]

Hi Jo Jo i lost my late wife to cancer 24 years ago and not a day go,s by when i dont think of her stay strong sweet lady the pain of lost will get a bit easyer take care ❤

[@majortree]

You're the first person I've seen in person or via the internet talk about the "Death Anniversary." My wife passed away 8 years ago and the anniversary of her death still conjures up memories and bad dreams. No one else remembers the day or talks about it. I appreciate your sharing of your struggles with this day. Thank you. I wish you all the best...

[@BurstingVeins1]

It's wild to think that a farming channel can get so many subscribers, but you're doing a great job. Glad you've found things to help you get through the grief.

[@user-ss8nf2mf4j]

Losing someone you love, hurts like hell. It's good to grieve. Honouring him is commendable. Take advantage of your support group. We're behind you😊 those critters feel you as well, you're loved❤ live life be strong. You'll see him again🤗

[@alanpranke3299]

Peace dear, sending you best wishes. Love what you have done with your life and vids.

[@CNC295]

I think grief is one of those human emotions that once experienced stays with us till the end of days. It's needed so we remember the things that were truly important.

[@silvermountain467]

Much Love for your continued healing from part of your large support group. ❤❤❤

[@richardsnyder1333]

"Love doesn't end with dying or leave with the last breath. Grief is love that has nowhere to go, and it lingers in our hearts forever." - Fran Solomon

[@klsmith0722]

You go girl; Grief is a personal journey. It helps too know you are not alone. Thank you for supporting all of us, you are awesome!

[@MACvSOG]

Young lady, your husband was one very fortunate guy, I think you know what I mean. It is rare these days for someone like yourself, to be so genuine. Grief is not always a bad thing, you feel guilty if you don't and pain if you do, so the cure is to not try to forget, your mind's eye is not going to allow that anyway, so rejoice in the memories> When you live long enough, there may be many times that pain comes to visit, it will remind you you are just human and at the same time alive. I have no doubt, just from watching a couple of your videos, that you will be happy, you will find someone, if you already haven't, that is for sure or they will find you. I wish you all the best.

[@ArchiveAmerica]

Im an anthropologist/archeologist. Ive studied hundreds of cultures around the world and through time. It's my opinion that we (the west) have lost our natural connection with dying. We have taken away closure from people and that creates a void that can rarely be healed in a healthy way. In all tribal cultures, they're ALLOWED to grieve and say goodbye. In our broken culture, our loved ones are taken away and they literally disappear before we even know what happened! Then people are supposed to just get over it without closure! This is wrong and its psychologically damaging! Even if they pass by natural causes, the psychological result is closer to dealing with a missing person because they're stolen before we can even process whats happened. HUMANS MUST GRIEVE! We must process and go through the stages of understanding. If not, we dont get closure and it hurts for years/decades/forever. When things were done slower and at home, people got that sense of acceptance and finality that has been taken from us. We've removed the sacred out of people's lifes. Replaced it with cold antiseptic procedure instead. This must change. Not only would it honor our loved ones better, it takes away a sense of fear we have with death. Its too alien to us now, and that scares people. But dying is the universal human experience. Literally everyone on earth will experience it. We should honor our loved ones more, slow down and let people grieve at their pace. Not have so many profiting strangers involved when family should come together. We've turned a sacred ceremony into an overly expensive business transaction. This is broken. And it harms millions of people every year.

[@wjgoh653]

Love the flag, we are in trouble.

[@ArchiveAmerica]

@@wjgoh653 Unfortunately, we truly are. 🙏

[@papadingo]

That wonderful unconditional love you are getting from that, and our own, ball-chasers humbles us. The kitten insanity helps too. He would be absolutely so proud of your achievements and growth, which would have only confirmed why he loved you. Gentle Gentle hugs

[@tonyl.thompkins3542]

Hey, Jordan. I know you have lost Kale. I know you loved him very much. But, He is gone. I know what i'm talkin about. I lost my wife 38. Years of marriage. I loved her with all my ❤️. Now you have Zack. You need to grab a whole of him. Love him with all your heart. And move on with him. You are being unfair to Zack. How do you think it makes him feel. Someone should have told you this some time ago. I wish you all the happiness in the world you and Zach together.!!

[@goober9983]

zach is a better man than us.

[@tanyapotgieter1665]

You have no idea what you are talking about. He will be a part of her life, even if he isn't here. Commemorating his life should be part of the new person's life as well. If he loves her he will understand.

[@realbogus]

My Dad died in 1977. I was 11. My Mom never got past the anger stage. And it ate her up. Surviving grief is the ultimate victory, and that is, I feel, what our loved ones would want. I do find, that over time, the pain eases and the memories of that person fill your heart and mind with peace and love. Let that feeling flow and the pain goes away. Time is a human construct, and memory has no basis in time. That is why a memory is as vivid as the original event... it is not clouded by the fog of time, it is now again. Leverage that. You may find solace in the memories.❤

[@humanbeing2420]

I think JoJo hasn't discussed how her husband died because she knows people will keep watching her videos, hoping she will explain it.

[@Patsrivertosky]

This was a great post. I've had a loss and no one in my family wants to discuss it. It's unfortunate because I feel grief needs to be shared.

[@donaldnelson9319]

You shouldn't be married clearly you can't cope with your ex husband passing yes death is terrible thing but is it fare to your husband that you have now you crying over you 1st husband I don't think so.

[@katrina3560]

A strong man can stand by and understand the tremendous grief without his own ego being bruised.

[@MichaelGumkowski]

You are doing what exactly what you need too to heal, all the elements you have surrounding you aid in your healing and growth. Eventually you won't suffer as much and will be able to talk about Kale without sadness. Zack is a God send too, because he supports you ❤😊

[@bigc8300]

I feel sorry for your new boyfriend.Always briging this up is gonna drive him away.

[@katrina3560]

Then let him keep on driving. However, a strong man can stand by and understand the tremendous grief without his own ego getting bruised.

[@ronaldwinder5051]

JoJo, I would first like to say I'm very proud of you for being brave enough to share your grieving process with us. Secondly, my heart goes out to you! I feel I can emphasize with you completely, and even share your grief with you, as I'm still dealing with the sudden death of my second wife, 2 months shy of our third anniversary, and with the death of my mom. With Mom, it wasn't sudden, but watching her gradually going downhill for a year before she finally did pass was very agonizing. My mom died March 23, 1999, at the age of 73.....my late wife, Jeannie, died on July 10, 2010, at the fairly young age of 47, right about a year after she suffered a medically unexplainable, debilitating stroke which put her in a wheelchair. Thank you for sharing the "ball in a box" analogy regarding grief, as now I'm able to understand why I can go for days, maybe weeks not doing too badly, before suddenly, BAM! It stabs me right in the heart. That pain button is very acute! I can still recall, as if it were just a few minutes ago, watching mom as she took her last few breaths of life. I can still recall just as vividly, coming back home from baling a small amount of hay for a neighbor while at my part time job working for a neighboring farmer, which I've now done 21 years and finding her dead, as she had fallen forward out of her wheelchair. Helping with his farming operation since 2003 has been my purpose in life. Any way, know that my heart is with you, as are my thoughts and prayers. As time goes on, even after 25 years as it has been with mom, my sister and I have learned that the ball does hit that pain button less and less, but it still packs quite a wallop when it does. She and I have both accepted the fact that while we never will completely be "over" losing her, over time it has gotten a little easier, as that ball does keep getting smaller and smaller. Thank you for being brave enough to share your grief with us, and again thank you for explaining the "ball in a box" analogy. It certainly does make sense. I want you to know I'm not trying to downplay your own grief by sharing my story with you. I'm hoping you realize I only shared that with you so you could see I honestly am able to completely emphasize with you regarding your own grief over losing Kale so unexpectedly and causing you to become a widow at way too young of an age. I honestly cannot imagine what if was like, but am quite sure it had to be extremely devastating. It is so great you have found such a kind, devoted and very loving man to be able to share these times with you, to comfort you and simply hold you tightly in his loving arms at times. Obviously, he never will replace Kale, but at least can help fill that terrible void that suddenly came into your life. I hope you don't mind my asking you this, but did Kale fall victim to a sudden devastating illness or tragic accident?? Take care, may God bless you as you continue dealing with your grief and may He wrap His loving arms around you a little tighter when that ball hits the pain button!! Again, my heart is with you my dear!! ❤❤❤❤

[@starlingknight9499]

I lost my son of 33 -8yrs ago but to me it feels like yesterday.I'm sorry for your loss.but if we let ourselves to suffer for a bit.that way we can visit them in the memories & moments of luv we share in life.an keep moving forward with our life's ❤❤❤❤

[@brianmcconnell1817]

I’ve been through a lot of loss in my life so I know and understand the journey you’re on. Grieving is the process by which we learn to accept and eventually live with loss. It’s a process that you cannot go around or skip over. The only way to deal with it is to go through it. It’s healthy, it’s normal, and it’s different for everyone. During this time you’ll experience what are known as “grief spurts”. These are moments when you’ll find yourself crying or expressing your loss in some way that you’re unable to control. As time goes by these moments will be farther and farther apart until they eventually disappear altogether. Kind of like a thunderstorm. I’ve found that the best way to deal with grief this is to set aside time each day to feel and express your grief in any way you want. Cry, yell, throw things whatever it is that gives you release and relief, just do it. And when your grief time is over get back to your life. It also helps to have a place to do this that is private and that only you know about and use. Trust me, this works. But whatever you do don’t avoid it, face it, lean into it and give it its own outlet for expression. You’ll heal someday, I promise you will. ❤️

[@nathanhale5455]

It’s been my experience with friends & especially myself that when one has a traumatic event, how you deal with it the following two weeks will dictate the rest of your life. If you become isolated, withdrawn or emotionally paralyzed with heartache, that will become the norm in your life. However, if you decide within that two week window that you will not allow those emotions to rule you, you WILL overcome that tragedy & be productive again instead of becoming an emotional wreck. It’s THEE most important two weeks of the rest of your life. Folks, we never know when tragedy will visit us but, never succumb to surrender in that two weeks & you will conquer that stress…it’s never been known to fail. 🙏🏻

[@marcosalvarez3982]

hello! I discovered your videos recently, when you work on your tractor or do tasks on your farm and I started watching them because of the positive energy they transmit to me. Now I saw this video and my heart sank. I too have lost a person recently. .. Thank you for your videos, they are a great inspiration. I will continue watching them with great affection. a greeting from Spain

[@garyfreeman5999]

I often think of the stages of grief and the fact that it's like those little equalizer lights on a stereo that go up and down. Generally . . . . . . . one goes from shock, to denial, to sadness, then negotiation, sometimes anger and then, eventually, some sort of acceptance. Sometimes, just being aware of the fact that an emotion is one of those things then helps to make one understand at least a little bit more about why they are experience those particular emotions at any given time. I wish you continued strength and courage.

[@billgavin487]

You said it! Finding a purpose for grief is important! Always remember, never forget. With time it does get easier.

[@robertcurtiss3649]

"And even in our sleep, pain that cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart. And in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God" Aeschylus......These words have helped me in my life dealing with grief...maybe they will help you too....☺♥

[@kimberlyheckler8453]

You never get over the pain of losing your loved one. You learn to live along side the pain. ❤

[@cherylmcgowen5519]

Sending you peace and a hug ! You are so strong !! ❤❤ Thank you for your openness , sharing your grief ❤

[@curtisziegler3934]

I lost my wife March 24 2021 she had health issues and we had other issues with each other but her health began to go downhill quickly, i sent her to the hospital in a ambulance and they told me that she had stopped breathing they got her breathing again but it was too late she went into a coma and never recovered . It was hard for me to watch her the last day take her breath in front of you. Thank you Jojo for your kind words of encouragement watching you is therapy for me for going on with my life. 😊You have a wonderful personality. It’s beenThree years since she passed away and certain songs now bring me to tears because of her love of the songs and now she is gone forever. Again Thank You For Being You 😊❤my heart goes out to you also for your loss.

[@lambo6325]

Hi JoJo I went through the darkest time but it was a different situation but the pain and grief sound similar. The broken heart , trauma and shock of that event kept me in bondage. I found true freedom from the pain and negativity through the healing power of God. I pray you experience it too. God Bless🙏🏼

[@danpage6044]

You are one of the most beautiful , strong, educated and sensitive ladies that I have had the opportunity to watch and listen to and my wife and I are so sorry about the loss of your husband. Talking is a big part of healing.

[@SoCal780]

Thanks for sharing, Jordan. Just know that we, your dedicated followers, are out here praying and rooting for you. You’re doing fantastic, although it may not seem like it at times. You are sincere, grounded, caring, REAL, loving, and giving. Cale was blessed to have you during his short life. You gave him his best years, I hope you know that.

[@garyblevins3532]

I'm sorry for your loss young lady. Grieving isn't ever really easy to deal with but over time we learn how to get on with our own life and try to remember all the good times and things that happened with the one who is no longer here in body. I'll be praying for you JoJo

[@dennymartin18]

Thank you for your sharing and most of all your vourage. I don't like talking about my losses ( too many to count), but I adopt the attitude that when a person in my life ducks out, I keep myself busy and fill my time up taking action while I'm still here, despite losing numerous family, friends, classmates and I accept them all, as someday, I also will cross over. I don't feel grief at these funerals; instead I am joyous, despite the circumstances of their passing... I like to treat death the same as birth, having several people die in my arms. I look at their last moments as a miracle; a transition, just like birth and the beginning of life. It's all coming+ going, the transitionsl process of either entering the world with memories yet to make or exiting the world with a lifetime of memories to take with you. I yreat each transition as a time to be greatful. Rach is a miracle to rejoice; we don't know how we are hoing to ho, but if it is unpleasant, we should not focus on how they died... But how they lived, and honor that and live the best life we can live while we're still here and live for yhem if we have to; to carry their torch for them. We will reunite with them up the road and they will explain what we do not understand while we are left behind. My heart goes out to you: be strong. They would want that for you... to carry on and be happy! ☝🏻😇

[@dean4truth]

You are a beautiful soul, keep keeping on. Kale is really proud of you. And he loves and Misses you very much.

[@RAY-lk9ur]

You have a great you tube channel .I want to let you know that every time we watch your Channel. Your smile, your personality just lifts us up. So sorry for your loss. Ray ,Barbara, in of course our baby. Baby is a mix between a Jack Russell and a Whippet. We prayed for 8 months for a dog I could train to be my service dog. Our Church had a picnic for our youth. At that picnic some one had dropped off this cute puppy . We named Baby. Pray to GOD. He listens to you. Wish you the best in everything you do…

[@johnnyholland8765]

My dear sweet lady you are someone special indeed. I don't know what to say except if whatever you are doing helps you to keep your sanity and helps you to cope with the loss then keep doing it and make no apologies. Both my parents are gone and quite a few good friends one by his own hand after he found out he had alzheimers. It is not easy by any means. I will tell you the same thing I tell others and that is if you keep them in your heart and mind they are still with you and will always be with you so please do that simple thing and all the best from a fan and farmer from middle Georgia. God bless...

[@user-jv9yu2jf8sKSJ]

Was married for 47 years. The loss is unexplainable. Thx for your help. ❤

[@Candie-ub2yv]

I appreciate you sharing and the comments so you know what you’ve gone through and still go through in your journey of grief is ok and that you’re not alone.

[@ButterflyChik1982]

May God continue to heal and comfort you, JoJo. Grief is a very complex thing to process and to have to go through. It never may truly go away, but just gets easier to cope with over time. I am so sorry for your loss of your husband and you have my most sincere condolences. I will uplift you in thought and prayer. And in case no one had told you lately, I'm so proud of you and you are stronger than you think you are. Keep moving forward...you are doing a wonderful job! Much love from me to you. ❤

[@jonathanmarkbotterell1926]

I'm an English bloke living in Spain. My respect to you for sharing your feelings on u tube. Your strength will help others ,I'm sure of that. My best wishes in this time of healing.

[@annsmarpat9500]

I'm so sorry hun for your loss. Please know that you are loved beyond measure. You're also helping others with their grief and sorrow (me 🙋‍♀️) and that's kind, compassionate and so unselfish of you. It makes us all feel less alone too. You're an Earth Angel, truly. Thank you 🙏🏻 Sending you infinite love and healing ❤️‍🩹

[@pawpawmike7372]

Jojo, you are a beautiful person. Grief will never go away, we have to learn how to live with it. You are doing all the right things to get you where you need to be. You are much stronger than you think. Embrace the grief when it visits, and continue to build your life. This coming from someone old enough to be your dad. Keep smiling 😊

[@user-lw5vc2ii2m]

How unfair. Shine your light. You are touching thousands, hundreds of thousands. God bless.