Life after stillbirth | Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month + Special News | Lauren Self

[@laurielange3777]

My William was born 10/6 @ 24 weeks gestation. He lived for 4 hours. He would be 20. James was full term stillborn in May and he would be 25. Holes in the heart that cannot be filled, that still cause me to cry.

[@robinchemin3631]

I'm so sorry. ♥

[@BreLoomis]

My heart hurts for you. I can’t watch without having tears. I admire you so much 💕

[@ashleysorensen7512]

I love that you keep her story alive and talk about her often. You’re so strong and such a great mommy!! 💕🙌🏼

[@alyssamonty4399]

I just lost my baby last Monday. I’ve always watched your videos. And now I 100% understand you. You were the 1st person I thought of. I’m so broken and devesated. I’ve been rewatching all your old videos. And your words are helping me get through it as much as I feel like I can. Thank you Lauren. I wish I could hug you ❤️.

[@robinchemin3631]

I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss 😢

[@marlenecantu8350]

I feel for you and your husband during this month. You’re such a Beautiful soul.

[@testonchick27]

I know I've told you this before, but thank you for always being so open about loss and talking about your babies! My husband and I both still struggle with speaking openly about our angel babies, but you've given us so much hope. I know so many others feel the same. As always praying and sending love y'alls way.💕💕💕💕

[@abigailv6056]

I just had my 5th year anniversary to my miscarriage at 12 weeks on August 13th, it was incredibly hard since I’d just given birth to my second baby boy on Aug 9. I came across your channel when you took your pregnancy test when you got pregnant with Brody, and less than a year later I found out I found out I was pregnant with my rainbow baby and first son♥️ loss is so devastating and I hear your grief and can’t hold back the tears. I pray for great health in both Brody and Darcy, and your family. Thank you for being a voice for so many that still can’t talk about their loss.

[@jessrebadow9803]

I love hearing people talk so openly about pregnancy and infant loss! Thank you! Video like your helped me so much when I was going through my miscarriage at 11 weeks in October of 2015

[@britneybaggs8789]

You are such a mighty, powerful woman. You inspire other women so much. Giving other mamas hope. For a life that doesn’t seem worth living. It’s never easy & it never goes away. There is always a light... we just have to find it, open or eyes to see it, then shine it onto one another💫💛🌻

[@HayleeLenerville]

Love that you’re doing this and raising awareness for infant loss😭 Our daughter was stillborn this April at 35 weeks. She had something similar to triploidy called mosaic Turner syndrome. This journey is haaaard. She was our first baby and now we’re praying for our rainbow. I’m thankful for people like you sharing your story, reminds us that we’re not alone♥️

[@kristasparks9059]

It is so incredibly important for stories like yours to be told. I admire your strength.

[@genevievemaurano6155]

Thank you for sharing your story and spreading awareness for Infant Loss Awareness Month. All the best to you and your family!

[@ANM5437]

My first son passed when he was almost 5 months old. Now my second son is 18 months and I am so thankful ♥️ we talk about our first as much as possible too. Love you. Love this.

[@brothertn708]

AmberNicole I’m sorry for your loss but how did he pass away?

[@yaelyurkevich1333]

Oh Lauren sweetheart, my heart breaks every time I hear what you’ve gone through with Blair. I hope Darcy will fill that hole in your heart of being a girl mom. Blair will never be forgotten... you are such an amazing mother to both Blair and Brody (and soon to be here Darcy). I wish with all my heart that both your kids on earth will always be healthy and happy. So sorry for your loss, it will never be ok...

[@Shopwingsco]

Thank you for being so vulnerable and strong to share💗 What a beautiful way to honor your baby! 💗💗

[@aniciaparker1253]

I haven’t watched this video yet but I have been an avid follower for along time (pregnant with Brody long). I recently fell pregnant and I was so excited, ready, scared, and just didn’t enjoy my first trimester that great. But once I made that hump I started to calm down. I was proud I made it that long. Then Sept. 5th my world came crashing down. I was 21 weeks when I found out my cervix was open and I was in labor. By the time I made it in I was already 8cm. It was a hard birth not just emotionally but physically. I truly have no clue what to do with my life yet. But I’m excited to watch this video so I can understand how you did it. I know it’s a different journey for everyone but just seeing you push everyday gives me hope I can do it. Thank you for being so raw and honest even in the beginning. I hope I can find the strength you have Lauren truly. Thank tou

[@peachxtaehyung]

I am so sorry for your loss... I will keep you in my prayers

[@nelehsims7957]

Dear Anica, I’m so sorry for your loss, I too suffered from cervical issues and just know it’s not your fault. Be sure to let your family know what you need at this difficult time as they may want to help but don’t know how. The best thing a nurse said to me before I left the hospital is people around you will all react differently and they don’t mean anything by it. It’s hard in the moment when someone says something insensitive but it helped me. I wish you courage and hope for the future. All the best my love.

[@luisaperez2810]

Im so sorry for your loss

[@nelehsims7957]

Luisa Perez Thank you.

[@emilymoppin8246]

I just started a channel, I have lost a pregnancy before and you're an inspiration to me for making everyone not feel alone in it. Thank you, and you're so pretty:)

[@johnjohnrn8655]

My daughter’s anniversary is this month. She would’ve been 1yrs old. I’m currently 30wks pregnant with my son and I’m definitely conflicted balancing grief over my daughter and reserved excitement for my son. I appreciate you for sharing your story and how you honor your daughter.

[@TheDenizxo]

I hope everything went okay with ur son I'm here because I'm scared God won't give me another chance. I'm Sri for ur loss n reminding u too. ❤💔❤️

[@MissUnderstoodKiss]

Thank you for sharing your story! I just gave birth to my rainbow baby girl 7 weeks ago, after we lost our first baby. I was also 22 weeks along when my daughter passed, I know how you feel. Hugs mama!

[@nicoleturk3017]

Stay strong and know one day you will see her again. I lost my son at 17 weeks to a cystic hydroma last year and not a day goes by that I don’t think of my angel baby. Your helping so many women with this video

[@artaria22]

Thanks for this, it's only been a month for me an my wife, but it's nice to see someone further along that of course will always carry grief with them, but it's a healthy level and they are still thriving.

[@julie5536]

I know you posted this a year ago, but I wanted to thank you for this. I also lost my first baby, a girl at 22 weeks due to a genetic defect… also an anomaly that is more typically present in boys. Her due date is in a few weeks. My heart goes out to you. This made me feel understood. It’s been the most heart breaking few months of my life and I have felt like no one around me got what I was going through. Multiple of my friends have recently given birth to perfectly healthy babies and as much I am so absolutely happy for them… it’s also been so hard. Thank you. Sending so much love to you. 💕

[@saram2557]

I love your positivity and willingness to help others in the same situation. It’s absolutely beautiful 💘 keep telling your story and spreading awareness❤️

[@nelehsims7957]

Dearest Lauren, I have been subscribed to your channel for a while now and have been watching every vlog since you announced your pregnancy. I wanted to say that I appreciate you taking the time and having courage to film these videos as I feel normal when I see that some of our feelings are the same. I lost our first baby last year in August at 19+4 due to cervical incompetence. It was the darkest time of our lives and I still cry at the drop of a hat some days... a song a date, a toy, someone with his name. I felt like the world continued and mine had ended and nobody was remembering that I’d just suffered this loss and showing me photos of their friends newborn babies. I just wanted to shout at them that didn’t they realize that I’d had a baby too. Flash forward 1 year and we’ve had another miscarriage at 6 weeks and I’m now pregnant at 17+1. As the 19+4 day mark is approaching I’m getting more and more anxious and I can’t stop this feeling that history is repeating itself. I was thinking of you in the past week and was wondering if you may have been feeling the same but I wasn’t able to say anything. When you said that it’s hard that you thought you’d never be a mother to a daughter I felt that I really understood how you could be feeling. I’m so apprehensive about finding out the sex of our baby at our next appointment which coincidentally is exactly 19+4. I wish you the very best in these final weeks and look forward to meeting your little girl. To all those mammas out there your stronger than you think and I wish you every hope of baby dusk in your future.

[@kimhuerta8785]

Keep telling her story, I'm sorry for your loss hugs to you

[@lexibible757]

Thank you for this video. I just lost my baby two weeks ago at 24 weeks. He was my first baby. I haven’t been able to leave my house. I feel like no one understands. I wanted him so so much. I am not doing well now, but it makes me feel good to hear that other people have been through it and have survived.

[@laarniherrera1882]

lexi bible i was pregnant with twins. I lost one at 10 weeks. I started to get sick and at 24 weeks I deliver my baby boy due complication. He lived for 6 days. It happened November las year and until now not a single day I dont cry. I suppose to give birth to them next month.

[@lexibible757]

laarni herrera I am so sorry. I know exactly what you’re going through. I couldn’t imagine having two babies. It’s so heartbreaking. I wish I could hug you. Everyone says it gets better, but honestly it doesn’t feel that way. It helps being able to talk to someone that had been through a similar experience. Sometimes I feel like no one else understands. I would love to talk to you and for us to support each other. Please email me at [e-mail]

[@christinem.carter-wanner5304]

God bless this family

[@brth3637]

God bless and keep you and this precious baby girl! 🌸

[@sjp2k2p]

Praying for your heart as I know this is not been easy. I lost a baby before I felt movement, only saw the heartbeat and that has been so painful that your experience was so much more painful. So glad you are getting a baby girl!

[@StephFrederick]

My dear friend just lost her first baby at 20 weeks today after her water ruptured with no medical explanation. I miscarried at 6 1/2 weeks with my first. Loss is so hard when the love is so strong. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and everyone reading this comment who has ever experienced loss no matter how far along💜💜💜

[@peachxtaehyung]

Aw that happened today? Im so sorry for your friends loss. I will keep her in my prayers

[@TheAllenroni]

God Bless You Both! Prayers for better days to come.

[@limerihajdini]

when you started talking about her birthday cake ugh made me cry so much! Ugh these pregnancy hormones are killing me right now! Love you stay strong & positive soon you will have another sweet little girl in your arms!💖

[@laura_jp8666]

Thank you as always for sharing your story 💕 as painful as it is you are doing so much good helping others! You give me strength every day as I carry our own rainbow baby.

[@brittni492]

Thinking of you and Corey this month. Thank you for sharing yours and Blair’s story. Can’t wait for Darcy to be here. Special rainbow baby girl 🌈

[@kaylaharbison221]

Just found your channel. I also lost my daughter to Triploidy in 2016. I definitely get emotional over my daughters loss to. Our story seems to be actually pretty similar. After Lorelei (Triploidy baby) I had another daughter named Harper in 2017. Then 4 back to back chemical pregnancies. Currently pregnant again (5 weeks) also a military family! Hugs mama this journey is definitely hard. I never heard of the place you donated to. That’s seriously amazing that they have places like that.

[@megansampson5445]

I am going through the same thing. It has been very very hard this christmas. My daughter passed away on my grandpa's birthday, and I felt like he was there for her to take her to heaven. I love your idea with the birthday cake. My daughter was nearing 20 weeks and I had to give birth to her .... and it's just really sad, makes me angry, confused, and shocked. But there is this feeling in my heart where I know there is another baby to come into our lives and I hope my daughter will protect her sibling to come and always be there watching over us. Planning another baby after a loss is very hard, especially when you know the previous loss was due to a chromosomal abnormality. I worry if it will happen again.... was it just a fluke or is it something to repeat... it is all just very scary :*( There's a joy of a new life coming into your life but also still grieving the loss of another baby is hard. But I'm hopeful and always try and keep faith.

[@Sammyfoodshorts]

I understand your pain. My son was born sleeping at 22 weeks 3 days on January 22nd, 2010. I didn’t have time with him or said goodbye. Wish someone would have told me to hold him tight because if not I would regret it. I feel your pain and even though I have two beautiful kids now I think about my Angel often ❤️Blessings on your new pregnancy!! Hugs

[@marykaluuba5064]

Samantha Gfernandez I just lost my baby boy as well some 2 weeks ago at 20 weeks after it hasn't been easy for me😭 but after seeing this, at least have got some hope of carrying my rainbow baby next time. Thanks so much for sharing

[@Yelenahallum]

Thank you for sharing, it takes a lot of strength and courage❤️❤️❤️

[@ccdance0806]

You’re amazing Lauren. I’m sure this video will help so many ❤️

[@lisapeacock6733]

I just found your youtube channel. Watching your sharing the remembrance box for Blair. I was told the little silk dresses they make for the babies is made out of donated wedding dresses. I will continue to watch your channel. ❤❤

[@linziana1]

I had a still birth 7 years ago due to uterus ruptured.He was born around 42 weeks .Its still hurt up till now.hugs and kisses to you

[@sadiefuller1185]

October is also a hard time for my husband and I, we lossed our son oct. 15th 2016 to SIDS this will be the 4th year as well of his passing I feel for you and my heart goes out to you as we were blessed with 2 beautiful daughters and we are due for our 3rd girl in January of 2020❤️❤️❤️❤️stay strong there's many of us out her with you

[@tafarakay895]

Sending so much love to you especially this month mama. Blair is watching over you. I lost my son too last year august at 24weeks and can relate it never gets easier.

[@LailaandBrett]

You guys are so strong and so wounderful. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've only felt with early miscarriages, but I wanted to say I'm glad there is a month to remember angel babies. I'm so happy you have your son, and soon to be baby girl here to comfort you until your with baby girl again. My birthday is the 14th! And I'm due December with my third baby girl. ❤🥰 So we have alot of similarities

[@TheRachealLeahshow]

You’re amazing Lauren. Thinking of you all during this hard time 💕

[@darlenebatts6860]

Aww I Cried My eyes out. Your Story still touches my heart in such a big big way !! I'm So Very Proud of you Lauren. 🙌😘 I know what your going through sweetie, like I've shared with you before. But you have a Big Heart and i know so many parents appreciate both you and Corey's support ! How amazing Y'all are !! I wish i could wrap my arms around you both and give y'all the biggest hug ever ! I'll Never Forget about your precious Blair 🌈 Kudos to you for being strong enough, to come on here again and share your story about your Loss. When your Heart is Broken into. God Bless you Y'all. Keep your head up Beautiful. I Love Y'all So Big !!! 😘😍💚💛💜🌈🐘

[@martharosales2029]

Your video just made me so emotional i can't stop crying 😭

[@lovelanirose]

This is amazing! Sending you love! ❤️

[@Passion4Kee]

I don’t know how imma deal with Dec 6th my due date and August 5th the day I gave birth .... it’s so hard I just miss my baby boy ....I thought I never could get pregnant and it finally happened and I was so shocked ,excited and scared ....I don’t kno how imma handle another pregnancy cuz I’m beyond scared that it might happened again. I’m sooo happy that you are doing so well

[@peachxtaehyung]

Im so sorry for the loss... But just know it is entirely normal to be scared but please remember its very possible to have a normal pregnancy and healthy baby born ok? In fact its very rare that 2 still births or miscarriage happen right after another!

[@jaelleerica]

For the due date of our daughter Everly , whom we lost- my husband bought and planted a rose bush with the whitest roses ive ever seen. He chose white because she was pure and perfect. So my suggestion would be to plan something like that.... something you can enjoy daily. Im so incredibly sorry .

[@KaylaNatalie]

My heart hurt for you.. I’m crying with you, Lauren.💕

[@ashleydickerman8878]

This video hit home for me. Thank you for posting. ❤️

[@madelynnelias3431]

You are so strong. Remember that!

[@abak3948]

Your most beautiful video to date. Much love to you.

[@a_w_entertainment]

Thank you for sharing

[@mariakirlin3903]

Holding space for you mama. 🤍 I lost my baby two weeks ago today at 22 weeks gestation.

[@BrennaLyonsK]

Aww Lauren this video made me cry! Love you girl 💗

[@1210happyfeet]

My heart is with you .. Stay strong

[@sassysandra245]

My daughter lost her first child to still born at 39 weeks it was so so hard not only to lose my first grandchild but to also watch my daughter going through a full labor and delivery without the reward of a live child she was so excited and fully ready when his heart stopped

[@LaMorenaMuneca]

Sorry for your lost.. The same thing just happen to me.. Did she go on to have more children?

[@serenityprice1767]

Your channel gave me hope during my miscarriage in April. Thank you. Thinking of you and Corey this month. 🌈💛

[@katiemaslowski2803]

Darcy was meant to be yours after this loss . God truly has a plan . I love how genuine you are , sharing your journey with all of us . I’m so sorry for your loss and for this tough month . You’re amazing ! 😘

[@apriltownsend8463]

Rachelle and Justin did this last year but they actually donated a Cuddle Cot in their baby girl's name to the hospital where she was born because they didn't have one when they lost Brynn and not a lot of hospitals do.

[@arlinelagasse3200]

Thank you for sharing your story. My baby girl passed away at 4 hours old on 8/29 and I’m devastated and heartbroken. She was my first pregnancy so I’m terrified it will happen again.

[@arieswife8926]

Arline did they they the reason why it happened? I lost my boy too...im very sorry for all of us..i.m still waiting for autopshy resulta

[@arlinelagasse3200]

Aries X yes, she had polycystic kidneys and underdeveloped lungs. I’m truly sorry for your loss and I hope you find some answers. Prayers of healing and peace to you and your family ❤️

[@Lifeszebarbie]

The comments are heartbreaking! I lost my beautiful son Gabriel after birth at 32 weeks 2/4/19 👼🏼💙

[@jessicaspangler4472]

I just love you. I feel so deeply connected to you. 💗

[@madelynnelias3431]

Also you look STUNNING!!!

[@apriltownsend8463]

It would be awesome for your YT community to be able to do something like this FOR YOU in Blair's name and do a different project every year.

[@peachxtaehyung]

Wow triploidy is 100% fatal? Im so sorry for you guys' loss. I had a miscarriage last year in november from severe spina bifida because i have spina bifida and i didnt know i was pregnant so this is my 1st october with it. I am 11 weeks again (12 weeks on Tuesday) and i am so scared that it will happen again...

[@EmsEssentialsxo]

Love you Lauren!!! ♥️♥️♥️😭

[@sassysandra245]

It was 11/13/14 when we lost Chasyn

[@erinn992]

❤️

[@theloranclan3225]

💕

[@Edzhjus]

"Associated with the Sun, a Phoenix obtains new life by arising from the ashes of its predecessor." Same will happen to that Pink Teddy 🐻. 😉🥋

[@yoscelinT]

I’m still confuse I’m new to your page. Is brodey a boy ?

[@kallie-annramirez27]

🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@yesseniabalbuena7914]

❤️...

[@amandaarrheden2472]