Life Changing Ayahuasca Epiphany

In February 2012, shortly after my return to Toronto from an 18-day trip to Ecuador where I had my first two ayahuasca ceremonies, my life took an unexpected turn.
Hear my thoughts on this experience 11 years after it happened: • Video

[@Emmawatsonevolution]

This girl has the greatest set of eyes ever..

[@Ramt33n]

level of ignorance in the comment section is one of the reason why psychedelics are needed the most now.

[@VasproAuto]

You said this a year ago but bravo friend well said.

[@ryanilopan229]

Ramteen that’s why you don’t look at the comments section, let the dumb people stay dumb untill otherwise, ignorance is bliss but it can be a curse and majority of the time it’s up to you to get out of that.

[@superreverbfreak]

Not it’s not but nice try

[@xx_PCCR_xx]

what if this video was an acting assignment from her school? :o

[@Randall_Kildare]

+xpeterdudex Not a chance... Same girl has a slew of video's documenting her experiences with Ayahuasca.

[@grinchgrow4206]

+xpeterdudex maybe she just has alot of acting experience and it plays part of her person in life now? were all actors in our own way dont you agree? its dramatic but shes just a cryer ;D and its sexy

[@grinchgrow4206]

MetusBatmanV4 damn really man? what reason would you have to do such a thing to such a innocent person? some how you feel as if you have more purpose than she does? if so you are deceiving yourself from what is actually true because we all have very different paths but the same importance! love and respect all and you will find the true meaning to live. :D

[@grinchgrow4206]

MetusBatmanV4 easy big guy call your mom up and tell her to give you a hug. cause thats what you need my friend a nice warm hug!

[@grinchgrow4206]

mmk peace.

[@GlockFirearmchannel]

watching this video and listening to the things that you had to say to the camera gave me chills. these emotions that filled you were once in me. i have taken magic mushrooms and understood the irrelevancy of the things i was doing in my life and how it wasn't benefiting humanity. take those emotions and don't let them fade out of your mind even though the drug has. remember why you felt the way you did. and how it all made so much sense. p.s i want to feed the world magic mushrooms and watch hearts grow.

[@alejandroguzman3165]

I am so happy a young person like you had the opportunity to do this. Ive been dealing with PTSD from combat, anxiety, insomnia, perscription drug dependency. Im 21... I hope my family understands what ayahuasca can do I do not believe in western psychology or psychiatry anymore. I left material things and even considering leaving people that say that love me to go and heal myself... Most likely I will stay there and try to become a maestro ayahuascero vegetalista myself.

[@naturalAK47]

Don't be shamed that you feel so strong about it. Chase it as far as you can, everything will fall in place. I am intrigued by this, and have it on my bucket list to experience. Thanks for sharing! Hope all goes well.

[@TiagoSantos-bx3oc]

You are already helping me and others by having the courage to be public about this. Peace!

[@vaprex]

Holy smokes -- she has the most gigantic and beautifully enchanting eyes. Like anime eyes but somehow mapped in a realistic way onto a human face. Wow. stunning... Never seen anyone with eyes like that! Kinda weird, but very cool, really.

[@AltusCarstens]

The most destructive illusion is a settled point of view.

[@rickystarr1549]

This was actually eye opening, you are amazing. Good luck!

[@Theboywhoatelasagna]

So amazing how many total strangers you have touched by being brave enough to speak your mind.

[@fliphyzer2033]

These realizations are so important. I love showing people the true side of life and watching them pursue purpose by way of helping others through education. You're swell :) Going to watch the rest of your vids now. Thanks for posting.

[@pie189]

lol I took psychedelics and before I wanted to be an actor, now I want to be a director. Edgy.

[@pie189]

thanks m8

[@MomoFilmProduction]

T1Brit lmao

[@SevenFootPelican]

T1Brit LOL

[@mrsmoothables]

T1Brit i subbed cause of that comment

[@Frgdtz]

pie189 This place shaman buried a ayahuasca tourist named Kyle Nolan after dying during a ayahuasca session. When police confronted the "shaman" he dug up the body. Beware of this place (Shimbre) that they speak of in this video!!!! Many places have fake Shamans. The Ayahuasca ceremonies have become an industry and wimen have been raped and/or touched inapropriately by "shamans" during the influence of the sacred medicin. Please be careful when choosing a Ayahuasca retreat!

[@kipikartist1075]

finding something that speaks to you and make everything meaningful is wonderful. I think it is a rare gift and believe it is only given to special souls who come with a purpose to better the world.

[@elnazdavoudi]

Hi Taylor! I almost never comment on KZbin videos but I have a strong feeling to do it this time. I watched this video over and over again. Specially the part where you say, "I know I should do it". Without exception I shed tears each time tears came into your eyes. I felt it with every cell of my body. I know it sounds crazy but I am sure you understand it. I have had so many of my own type of coincidences that cannot be coincidences, and I am sure it is not a coincidence that I was so attracted to this video. I have been asking for the purpose, too. I am a designer, but I know that I am meant to do something more important. I am seeing all the signs and I have asked to know what exactly I should be doing. I know it will come to me soon. While watching this video I felt that our life will cross one day. It's funny I am not even sure if you will read this, but I kind of know that if it is meant to be you will. Good job on your journey! I have understood from another video of you that I watched before this, that you have made it happen by now. I might be of help somehow, someday! I just do not know it yet, but I can feel it. I subscribed to you channel. Wish you tons of luck and abundance in every aspect of you life! Never stop! and BTW there are people who care. I am happy that you uploaded the video. :) :) :)

[@dyingnohara8115]

After coming across a TED Talks video with Graham Cock talking about DMT and the purpose it serves for humanity, I was then driven to educate myself with others' personal experiences with the Ayahuasca brew which led me to your Ayahuasca Experience Explained video and then this. It's eye opening to see how it really is affecting lives worldwide for the better and helping us toward our true destiny as a human race. In all, you've gained my support ^_^ (subscribed) and I congratulate you on embracing your life-changing experience. I wish to come in contact with the brew myself one day. Many of us out of pure ignorance spend thousands of dollars and countless hours dedicated to an oblivious purpose. A rather hollow one, if you will. Hopefully through my knack with my music production I will be able to spread our divine soul message just as you did here, to me. I thank you.

[@Jairzinho121]

Ignorance is bliss. Curiosity killed the cat. But massive respect to you for your incredible brave journey over the last couple of years. I just found you today when I was researching Caapi. What you have done in the last couple of years is the true human experience, good luck in the future.

[@salsa4everable]

I am awed by this, you are a rare, very rare soul. Thank you for creating this, I needed the spiritual experience in seeing someone's inspiration leading so sincerely to a goal. I so much hope you were able to go for it and your dream was realized. Spanish is a language made for music, so embrace it :)

[@MrTatts64]

The seven years of training to be an actor were not wasted, Taylor. They were a path which you needed to walk. Like all paths, there are forks and junctures. You have reached the next major fork in your life and I wish you every success, enlightenment and happiness as you follow this path to where ever it will lead you.

[@heirofmind5508]

Hey Taylor, your videos inspired me to get ayahuasca ingredients and brew my own! It was...earth-shattering :)

[@raw4beginners973]

I support you %100 and admire your courage. I can totally appreciate your insight and hope you will continue doing these great videos even through all of the ignorant (Definition: lacking knowledge or awareness in general; uneducated or unsophisticated.) comments. I have watched some of your other videos and really love your raw authenticity. Please keep doing what you are doing:)

[@banzihiphop]

you made me cry...i feel exactly how you are feeling

[@kramnesnay]

I'm really happy for you that you have found your purpose. I liked your other video when you were in the jungle and learnt from it and wish you every success on your future path.

[@Blubl0cker]

i really cannot express how amazing this video is to watch and how excited i am to watch it...

[@lukemelton.angelmusic]

I think you are a very brave person for making that video. Only you can decide how to live your life and what your purpose is. I am lucky that I have always known I wanted to play music and my psychotropic experiences have always supported that. I admire your openness and your willingness to share your endeavour with us. People are always going to criticize things they don't understand. Sure it won't be easy, but following your dreams never is. I would love to know how it's going.

[@TheBlanco951]

that is freaking crazy and amazing how a turn around takes place after having a psychadelic experience.

[@ayawoke9906]

That took a lot of courage, thanks for sharing.

[@1NaturalMystik1]

for my generation it was lsd/shrooms, for this generation its Ayahuasca. after watching many of these videos the illumination their experiencing isn't different from the ones we experienced its just using a different tool. it really doesn't matter though, express your truths and expand the mind kiddos.

[@1NaturalMystik1]

***** right it was used by aborigines not snot nosed kids living in the city till what 5-7years ago? thats what im referring.

[@JuuzyFruit]

***** chiiilllllll buddy. you just didnt understand his comment xD haha its all good though you probably do by now. i thought it was just funny haha

[@Blubl0cker]

Kenny's Blazed well its the kiddies that know that lsd and shrooms are a level below dreaming brain activation and dmt and ayahuasca has higher brain activity than a dream state.... you actually trip on lsd and shrooms because its your body trying to dream awake... so a tool comparison would be a screwdriver to a power drill, so yeah, different tools, same purpose... evolution

[@Sotegihe1]

Yes indeed, I have not taken DMT but I can +1 on this. Done shrooms,acid,ecstasy, and also alot of other drugs. Me and my friend call it "The Matrix", since the best way to explain it to a sober nondrugtaking person, is to watch the matrix and suck in the deep knowledge in it. Its a state of enlightenment you can come to via different paths, some drugs take you there faster than other. You CAN also get there via meditation, but it takes alot more work and persuasion than with "drugs".

[@LetsBeSeriousNow]

O.Dwg Ayahuasca is not a drug. Is a medicine. In fact it does away with drug adiction as well. You do not take it and go to a discotheque. That is for sure.

[@SpicyTricialicious]

Good for you Taylor! God Bless you!

[@specialedd13]

I took mine at a church in Amsterdam!!! Given, most of it was soul bleaching despair and anguish, the ending made it all worth it

[@shunpillay]

A beautiful moment. Thank you for sharing this. I hope that you've followed, and found your heart.

[@SteelDragonBurn]

Wow. You're so brave to have shared this. Much respect :)

[@luelauj375]

You're not crazy and you're not alone. I found what my purpose is through a different way (many hours of being by myself, researching the meaning of life, changing my daily habits, eating more fruits, working out and though meditations). Now my purpose is clear as day and is working towards it but I will love to try some of that ayahuasca one day. :D

[@jedi40loot28]

I love people. .all people no matter the race or nationality. .we are all humans... one source. . Let's love each other

[@boarderx949]

I understand what you meant and your trip. I apprenticed with a shaman. He said the student became the teacher and I put my soul into it...

[@Dopesauce42]

the beginning laugh says it all. awesome. good for her!

[@waynesvan4676]

wow, your eyes are truly amazing.... amazing video, I can see how your thought process has been totally stripped back to instinct and spiritualism. DMT has opened a door it seems you need to walk through to scratch that itch burning inside of you. Good luck on your journey...

[@cuntspicuous]

Ayahuasca, has successfully used you to alert the KZbin world. I do not know, ATM what Ayahuasca is, but the message you both shared will shift my weight to windward, if you catch my drift. Oh, after completing your Ayahuasca training, your acting will be more worth while. The best of life, love, and laughter.

[@debiwashburn-pasquale6940]

To sum it up its an all natural herbal "drug" ( much like dmt execpt it is a liquid) made from various plants and herbs found in the rain forest. Usually you have to isolate yourself in the forest and have a strict diet so no chemicals in certain foods interacts with the chemicals in the Ayahuaska...I think the diet is more of a safety thing but the isolation is to allow you to think and learn from the environment around you-- it is typical to meditate in isolation as well. Following this, you undergo ceremony with a shaman (usually who you got the ayahuasca from) and drink the liquid causing similar things as you would feel as if you had done Dmt....Its very spiritual and not to be taken lightly, and it is not for recreation it is mostly for spirituality.

[@gabrielseth2666]

embrace your true calling! deep down, we all know what we are supposed to be doing- blessings on your journey:)

[@lionheart4703]

Love this!! I wish you well on your journey. Aya is such a beautiful teacher 😊

[@ufos22]

you are beautiful and young. most doors are already open. now you must choose your path.

[@1412497129489rr]

acting or not, doesnt matter. inspiration is inspiration.

[@buhsecs]

Continue to spread the word Taylor. Thanks for sharing!

[@guyrichardson5680]

I had an astral projection and my life changed, I'm currently saving for mother ayahuasca, she's a callin lol! I feel like thats the only thing that matters now, learning to know my self.

[@ukiyokenobi7169]

this is pure honesty and anyone who cant take this istn able to love himself and that is why these people cannot recieve her love and honesty, they even cant believe that grade of pureness is possible

[@morkey74]

Have Fun and be safe out there. Finding your true meaning is everyone's trip. There are few that are willing to risk it all, and throw there past away to find happiness with there true passion. just remember to share the love to see where the love will reflect back to you.

[@ownser1]

"im making money, pretending to be someone im not" num 1 reason why people end up hating themselves and life

[@musicvideosish]

I care. I think it opened you to your true path. I think its wonderful that you are following your 'emotions' guiding you back to your calling. I'd love to see a vid about the journey or the jungle (way of life there), that would be fascinating.Whether you go or stay, you will still make a difference just by 'being', your presence alone can inspire others. Kudos to you for actually taking action. May God, Source, Universe bless you always. Sending you love

[@luxan100]

GET GOING GIRL! YOUR MASTER IS WAITING FOR U!

[@Rawreson101]

U sound like u have a strong pull to do this, so i say thats awesome! Do what your heart truly pulls you towards :)

[@chaseme81871]

your face is so beautiful. gorgeous !!

[@alcyone47]

Her soul too

[@joeyvicheto6420]

Will you share more info about where you went through a DM if you don't want to post here. I have been desperately looking into this. I hear and have read that this experience can be life changing. Props to people like you for sharing your story to allow other like myself to learn more....

[@pantera29palms]

I would love to trip with you. Your stories are nothing short of fascinating and would love to hear more.

[@allyigle]

i did led two days ago and had a life changing epiphany as well. Im finally chasing my REAL dreams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@mastermoney9110]

I am completely stunned by your beauty and energy, you're nothing short of beautiful. I have just been set back by your eyes and all.

[@draggyzation]

Its so cool to hearing you how you feel so strongly about it, about your plan, so inspirational :O

[@PeterFritzWalter]

I have taken Ayahuasca back in 2004 in Ecuador with a local Shuar Shaman, and while it was not a 'nice' experience, it was a life-changing one. And yet, I would want to warn people to just jump into that kind of uncanny experiences for they are in fact life-threatening. But okay, if you consciously take the risk, it's okay.

[@domeskeetz]

I need to experience this drug to help me accept death and life.........I currently am slowing going blind and it causes me so much depression and anxiety. I'm 24 and I hope ayahuasca finds me soon enough. Thanks for this video

[@twilt4rville]

So, more than a year and a half later, have you followed through with this? Has the experience really shaped you? Or was it a temporary epiphany that slowly faded?

[@chrisparkhouse3367]

Taylor is doing it! Go to gofundme dot com slash AlternativeHealingCentre

[@JuuzyFruit]

nope she doin it bro :)

[@twilt4rville]

Good for her.

[@lastday8046]

That made me laugh, "I have to go into the jungle...I have to teach people about Ayahuasca...I am getting so emotional...I love Ecuador...I love being out there"

[@unmeshl.6708]

i'm glad that ayahuasca didn't prevent you from taking care of your eyebrows. they're so well groomed. but no, seriously, good on you for answering the call. also good point that it showed you the shallowness of everything we as a culture hold dear- our "entertainment", our "sports", our "news"... its all just drama and we as a species are addicted to drama.

[@TheBestMovieAlive]

Follow your dreams! I don't have the courage to try Ayahuasca but if it changed your life and you found your purpose, go for it!

[@michaelhumphrey2858]

try dmt only last about 30 min

[@bunchofdumbsitsyouallare3620]

Michael Humphrey ^just a addon..dmt is the main compound in ayahuasca...smoking it is alot shorter of a trip

[@michaelhumphrey2858]

ya i know! give me about 10 years then maybe ill be brave enough to travel to the jungle for now ill keep the trips short and sweet :)))))

[@LetsBeSeriousNow]

Only fear fear young man.

[@davidgaffney4794]

Awesome!!! You Are Very Brave, Follow Your path!!!

[@hemmislord]

I understand you completely =) 100% of all you just said , i´ve been thinking about for ages. And it feels so good to se that we fell the same about it=) We now understand that we are not made to bee sheeps and just live for money, but we want to live for LIFE it self. I live in the middle of the city and now, all i want is to move out in the forest and live there and go to the jungle to clear my toughts.

[@ALEXUNBEATEN999]

finally i did ayahuasca and wow i saw this emerald glowing city it was incredible

[@TheGodlessNorwegian]

Taylor Marie: Im 43yrs old and still have noe clue on what i want to do in my life, i feel like i just exist and nothing more. I have no purpose, no goals. Have lived with depressions all my life and now i give treatment one more chance.. and thats Ayahuasca! So... are you living in Peru as a shaman now?? :)

[@TheGodlessNorwegian]

***** Sure i had many of those :)

[@blmido]

Read the Holy Quran :)

[@weeeeoooow]

baasmans you can get it in Amsterdam? I’ve seen the mushroom shops, so would they sell it in those shops?

[@myidistonynsrqFl]

Your Beautiful Big Blue eyes were reflections of Wonderment and Awe of your 1st Giant Leap on the path to Enlightenment. I'm worn and scarred from a long and life threatening journey on the same path less followed. You have conquered 1 of the most necessary and difficult obstacles to reaching the fulfillment of Truth and Supernatural Enlightenment. MATERIALISM! Congrats! When I reach Ecuador, maybe you will be ready to guide my 1st experience. Thanks for sharing what Words Can't Express. Namaste

[@MarcBoiteux]

It's called a "Deathless overdose"... You are still "high", girl!.... Get a grip!... If you keep doing this over and over, it might not end as you may think it will! You can achieve enlightment via Meditations and knowing that your mind, your thoughts, you beliefs are what create your reality... Why keep using a substance that could eventually be dangerous, when you can achieve the same thing using your mind?... Think about it... And then again, you have your free will... Just sayin'..... Peace! :)

[@fredsk8x]

Terence Mckenna

[@someblckguy7509]

r u tryna say she is permafryed

[@someblckguy7509]

r u tryna say she is permafryed

[@MarcBoiteux]

Permanently Thermo-fried, is she? ...Abuse it, girl, and it will abuse you!...... :P

[@MarcBoiteux]

If you wanna get "high" safely, smoke some weed!... at least it's not dangerous nor harmful!.. ;)

[@markjohnson9063]

Hahaha! I know you were tripping! I can see it in your eyes and can hear it in the way you are talking.

[@stoneman289]

I got so excited when she said he had to go to the jungle to apprentice with a shaman. An excitement of happiness. I'm not sure if it was for her, or that I secretly want to do that as well, or both?

[@MaxMartini22]

keep listening to your heart!

[@whomyouassume2618]

Oh look, somebody who can find a way to be happy, let's belittle her life choices because i'm insecure about my own shortcomings.

[@GraceRoberson]

I had an epiphany too. It was crazy, but I learned a lot about myself

[@tirinite42]

I'll be waiting for you to come back and teach me.

[@nelly13tube]

God, you are an inspiration! Feel like I've known you since time began?

[@reyankapoddar7696]

Thats what i felt after lsd to tell them how awakening it is i feel so connected to what you feeling

[@RamonNZ]

Thumbs up for the whole clip.

[@DaVingo2]

So awesome for you to basically follow your gut. I've always wanted to do this as well. Do something for the world. Something to benefit what life should really be like. But the way today is I need money to follow my dream. The expenses needed to do this is definitely not in my budget, but still is a dream of mine. One day I'll do this.

[@brianhughes3153]

do what your heart tells u Taylor. anyone can do anything they put their mind to.

[@albuvlad]

Hi Taylor, Where exactly you went for the Aya ceremonies? Planing to go and want some info in regards of an authentic shipibo camp.

[@Sunnyflowah]

What a beautiful soul

[@IamQuadzy]

We are one you are not alone I have felt what you feel

[@LeonGaban]

Looking forward to the day that all Psychedelics are legal in the US for medicinal therapy and spiritual use...

[@karlt7198]

Thank you for sharing this Marie. I have a question for you if you would, please. What did you experience with Ayahuasca that made you change your mind about your future?

[@marakstrtin9754]

So you recorded this over 4 years ago. Do you live in Ecuador now, speaking fluent Spanish and organizing Yagé retreats? I've been in the Ecuadorian jungle as well, with the Cofan tribe, so I understand what you are talking about : )

[@infamous8181]

this is really amazing I heard you have revelations on ayahuasca

[@luke_hikes2893]

I hope you see this somehow some way. I too had that same experience. Im getting ready to leave for the jungle in the fall. I would so love to get in contact with you. Just to talk about your experiences and receive any advice you have to offer. I know that nothing can prepare me, but those of us who walk that path are few and far between. I think that if we band together we can do great things.

[@felicia499]

Lovely. Congratulations!

[@MrsShoplifter]

Hi Taylor... I just stumbled upon your videos and noticed that this dates from 2012, so I was wondering.. how have things gone since then? What are you up to? Are you a Shaman's apprentice? Just curious... Whatever you're up to, I wish you love and light!

[@supernaturalbodyz5406]

I totally get where you're at in this video and your experiences, as I once did psychedelics as well. Your intentions, motives, and heart is in the right place...YES, you were created to do a lot more than just act...you were created to help your fellow humans into a relationship with their Creator Jesus Christ :) We all are on a journey in life, may your journey lead you to the LOVE that you have been experiencing on these trips...you don't need the drugs because the Love is Jesus...seek Him and you will see.

[@auroriella]

It's funny you say all this while your avatar pic is have a naked man...

[@supernaturalbodyz5406]

auroriella What does the sport of bodybuilding have to do with anything in this post...what's your avatar pic all about?

[@Pyromancer2]

i hope this cryptic shout for "help" works as i expect it will be understood, and my way to do it its to say that right now my personal moment of consciousness needs guideness and therefore i can relate to the person and feelings withold on this video, like it was said "....i just had to tell somebody.......... i'm not crazy" :P

[@loquatmuncher]

Hi this is an inspiring story. I was wondering what you are currently doing and if your original mission has changed at all.

[@jkuri89]

That's great. isn't it amazing finally allowing your inner self make choices? I had my first eye MIND opening experience with mushrooms. Mushrooms alone gave me enough self awareness to realize that i was living every day trapped by man made regulations and control. Now my mind is free and my soul is relived. Im really looking forward to having my Ayahuasca experience.

[@wj7495]

:) You understand. It's so indescribably powerful and beautiful. Waking up is a strange step to growing isn't it? At the very least, teach one other person who desires it, just doesn't know what it is they desire. They give the best feeling of achievement when you convert them.

[@gratefulaya192]

how the fuck do people find time and money to go to fucking peru to do Ayahuasca. I need some people to send me some cash or a plane ticket so i can take that trip down there. Update, i have been to Peru already, i went on august 25 and yes i know how to brew ayahuasca

[@dugp1862]

It's very easy when mommy and daddy support you and you never have to work a day in your life. Spoiled child.

[@gratefulaya192]

dude, my parents left me at a young age, your hate is from jealousy, when you an adult you make your own choices. I was on methadone for 10 years from an injury, but i went to Peru and drank ayahuasca and spent all my money, but i was healed and have no addiction anymore. everything i have is because i worked for it, no one in my family gave me shit in my life except problems

[@dugp1862]

Hey no jealousy over here friend, I come from a broken home. All of my habbits and vices were all supported by me, myself and I through hard work. If I asked my mother or father for cash to go to a remote area in Peru to do some crazy drugs I'd be kicked out of the house, or sent to rehab (which I'm no stranger to). Good for you for kicking your addiction btw. I did as well. Be well.

[@gratefulaya192]

well it is not a drug first of all, it is a medicine, many people do not understand that, it actually heals the mind and body, it has done amazing things for me. i saved my money for a year so i could go, it sacrifice and hard work but well worth it.

[@MrPlatinumfan]

+Grateful Chad just buy the ingredients online and take a recipe off of erowid,, you are perfectly capable

[@J1M0TEE]

Interesting vid. Two years ago to the day! What are you doing now?

[@banzihiphop]

i love you for being so real...please tell me where i can go for ayuasca...i also feel like my spiritual journey needs my attention

[@ossola55]

lol...I wanna go to Ecuador now! I love your videos by the way.

[@Tehownilator]

I feel like it's not possible to tell you the amount of empathy that a lot of people out there are having with you watching this video. I haven't personally had the experience of ayahuasca, or DMT - but having done salvia on one occasion, and considering the scare it gave me, I understand the power of what you're talking about. I have also, obviously, had psilocybin, from which I can understand the feeling of deep and vulunerable love you talk about. From there, I have come to something that you might find equally beautiful and revelatory; and that is the reality of how extremely disfunctional popular parenting is today, and the state that children are really living in. I would commend you to take a look at the work of people like John Bradshaw and Alice Miller who can you give you an idea of this profound, almost unheard of, newfound respect for children. I would venture to say that the powerful emotions you are feeling after having entheogenic experiences is directly related to your true self (or your inner child) which was abandoned a long time ago (most importantly by yourself) as a defence mechanism for the narcissistic manipulation and cultural prejudice that was foisted on you as it was on to every one of us to some degree. The power and beauty of finally breaking through the membrane of the false self and into the true self sounds to me like exactly what you have describe as your feelings. So happy for you, I don't really know what to say about how great it feels to hear someone who isn't speaking some script, but is actually communicating their true self to others.

[@DonBerry77]

You are not sober your eyes are fucking huge

[@axeloidmusic]

shane hansen Which makes her end up looking beyond hot

[@SevenFootPelican]

DeadCow Yup.

[@orbetterzagz7736]

shane hansen this is an emotional response, "sober" people get it too.