"Life Is Hard, But God Is Good" - Living With Bipolar Disorder As A Christian I 120 I See Hear Love

Join Host Melinda Estabrooks, the See Hear Love team and Special Guest Lyndsay Thompson as they talk about the Challenges and Learnings of Mental Illness & Bipolar Disorder .. and that GOD IS GOOD in all of our struggles.
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[@lysetteroman3348]

As a Christian mom of an adult child with bipolar, I feel the judgment coming out of this video. They don't even know what to say to this person until she starts talking about the power of God delivering her. There's very little compassion to her struggle but then everybody wants to cheer when she says God brought her through. People need support while they're in it, not just after they're out. The body of Christ has a really hard time dealing with mental illness and homosexuality. They just don't know what to do with it and that's why so many people in the church struggle in silence and condemnation. Most Christians don't believe MH issues are real and they certainly don't want to admit that their child has those challenges.

[@tamarabradberry9299]

Because they don't believe it is really an illness. So sad.

[@a.s.k3149]

I don't hear any judgmental attitude here. This talk is to help people understand this sickness, not judge them

[@partlysimpson5154]

YES PEOPLE CAN GET DELIVERED, I HEARD PLANT BASED CAN HELP WITH SYMPTOMPS. BUT GOD CAN DEFINETLY DO MIRACLES, LETS NOT FORGET

[@missrhondam]

I agree. I felt that as well and wanted to try to watch the full video before getting the comments. They diverted from answers to the hosts' roundtable question about do they believe everyone struggles with some sort of mental illness at some point. The answer should have been a resounding yes. Depression, anxiety, eating disorders, OCD, PTSD, and ADHD are common mental illnesses! Many people don't want to associate themselves or their family with a "mental illness" so they pick and choose what they accept as being a mental illness which, to me, can be a trait of borderline narcissistic. Love to EVERYONE!!!❤

[@faithiseverything777]

Great explanation 💜💜💜

[@thisisourlifewith3kids]

My Husband has Bipolar and I Thank You for speaking about it openly !!! I hate the way society looks at Bipolar!!!

[@UnraveledwithJoy]

I don’t have bipolar but I’m struggling with my mental health, my parents are pastors and I feel scared that they’re always gonna brush it off and tell me to pray. I believe in the power of prayer but I just want support

[@destinysipp7084]

I support you girl! Praying for you love!

[@alisonrichardson9915]

I struggle with anxiety and depression, as well as OCD and complex PTSD. I hear you and you are not alone, even when you feel alone. God is always with you, God is always loving you and you speaking out about your truth and your struggles, helps me feel less alone too.

[@beautyfrompainxxx]

@@alisonrichardson9915 I struggle with all of that too... My OCD and Complex PTSD is getting awful and I feel so awful for it. I want to serve Jesus and I want to help others but I know I have to get help first..

[@dawnrsng]

Your struggle is with your soulish desires which are given over to want and desire.Satan feeds off of the negative energy.Spend serious time praising Christ for what He has accomplished for all of us,otherwise yu are going in circles.Freedom comes when yu embrace His power and renounce your fears and doubts.

[@malloryjines5050]

Mothers Liberty, the brain is an organ in your body just like the heart, lungs, kidneys, etc. things can and DO go wrong in our body. The brain included. We live in a fallen world filled with disease, etc. how many countless millions of people have died in this world of famines, disease, plagues throughout history. In Heaven, there will be no disease or blindness, deafness, etc. on earth we will have tribulations. Jesus will be there with us.

[@88niteowl88]

What I have learned in life is that things are not always as they seem. Keep your focus and trust in the Lord and be kind to everyone. You never know who may be suffering in silence. To everyone reading this, Jesus loves you.

[@jasonbailey1164]

I used to not believe in mental illness but have learned otherwise as I have matured in my faith and have pursued understanding outside of my own personal perspective/mental health. I have seen a lot of mental illness working in my profession for nearly 20 years as a police officer and personally in my family. It has grown me so much to love others and to be empathetic toward others. I believe God can heal whomever He chooses but decides not to at times just as He didn't remove the thorn from Paul's flesh upon him asking three times. It's also okay to not be okay but to continue along in faith and Jesus was another example of this when He was on the way to the cross. He prayed to the Father to take this cup from me, not my will but Your will. Jesus wasn't okay, He prayed to His Father, the cup was not taken from Him and He continued on In faith. Our hope is not of this world, it's in eternity with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Our journey through this world is made possible by the love and grace provided by Him and the sending of the Helper/Holy Spirit that dwells in all of us that trust in Him. Our brokenness (physically or mentally) no longer defines us when we are born again but the battles will always be real this side of Eternity once we identify ourselves as an enemy of Satan. Thankfully God also gifted people to become doctors and pharmacists, counselors, etc...all of these can be used for His glory.

[@jerrylowe8615]

Same bro I used to be such a happy person when I didnt have this an I used to never believe in it either but I was living with a lot of unforgiveness and I developed this it really is hell

[@mollydoe]

The fact that it took you many years to arrive at this conclusion, combine that with the fact that you're an active-duty patrolling officer is extremely concerning. Had it been the 70s/80s, how many years of "maturation in faith" would it have taken to learn to identify an epileptic seizure from "violent demon possession"?

[@pbufh]

How many people have you murdered , raped and framed while being a police officer?

[@a.s.k3149]

​Knowledge and education is the answer. So train and teach the church workers, don't condemn them. That's the answer.

[@Jaydenzephyr]

Recently diagnosed bipolar and was thinking I did something wrong. Was struggling with the idea of being a Christian and yet having bipolar disorder. This was really encouraging ❤️

[@patrickdavis9821]

You can talk to me if you want to,see my response to the video. God will give you grace to walk with it. Stay close to Christ and get good mental health counseling etc.

[@discipleshipwithdavid2648]

Are you taking medication Andrew?

[@Jaydenzephyr]

@@discipleshipwithdavid2648 yes

[@discipleshipwithdavid2648]

@@Jaydenzephyr I was bipolar for 12 years. I took medication for 12 years and was hospitalized 12 times. In the past year I have stopped smoking nicotine/marijuana, stopped drinking alcohol, and stopped watching pornography. I believe these are open doors for evil spirits to come into us and cause bipolar symptoms. I also had some fellow believers cast multiple demons out of me. I always felt like it was not God’s will for me to be taking the medication. In Galatians 5:19-21 Paul mentions the Greek word pharmakeia as being a work of the flesh. James Strong defines the word pharmakeia as medication. The word pharmakeia is translated as either witchcraft or sorcery. If the Holy Spirit convicts you of this truth I hope this helps you.

[@discipleshipwithdavid2648]

@@Jaydenzephyr consider the Greek word pharmakeia found in Galatians 5:20, Revelation 9:21 & Revelation 18:23. The author of the Strong’s concordance defines this Greek word as “medication.”

[@kaseythesleeptech]

It’s taken 8 years of treatment for Major Depressive Disorder to figure out that I actually have Bipolar 2. The medications haven’t ever worked long term for me and the cycles have been getting shorter and that’s helped myself and providers realize what is really going on.

[@IssacharNGC]

Thank you for this wonderful interview. I have never before come across another person with similar circumstances: a "highly functioning" bipolar diagnosis (for me since 2002), working as a therapist and a Christian. Like she said at the end, sometimes the pain does not go away, and it is about holding on the truth of who God is, and His promises for me, despite living with an illness that can be distressing at times. I'm currently going through some difficult days with my mental health, and this interview was very inspiring and exactly what I needed to hear. God bless you ladies

[@SeeHearLove]

Thank you for these encouraging words! We are so glad that Lyndsay's story resonates with you.

[@eliyamasamaki]

"Everything we have in life is by grace. We came with nothing. Everything is because of the goodness of God" I love that line

[@patrickdavis9821]

I can relate walking with Christ with B.P. and I have come a long way and I understand myself so much better. I totally agree with everything these dear sisters have said. Take care of your health, learn about B.P. and walk closely with Christ. I find that hiding the word of God in your heart is so so key.

[@AnaMariaamaria005HerreraRamos]

Thank you so much for spreading awareness and your personal struggles with this illness. I have bipolar 1 and living with it is exhausting but you are positive and uplifting. Stopping the stigma is part of the struggle. Grateful to you for sharing.❤

[@sonialugo6534]

Please pray my healing as well of bipolar

[@andyperriccioli1212]

Praying

[@juniolucena5606]

Declare that you're healed of bipolar in the name of Jesus. For it is written: But He was pierced for our offenses, He was crushed for our wrongdoings; The punishment for our well-being was laid upon Him, And by His wounds we are healed. Isaiah 53:5 NASB2020 You may have an negative spirit causing you bipolar. Then you will need deliverance. Search a full Gospel church that speaks the truth. They will know how to take you into a deliverance process.

[@shylascalf]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have bipolar and it’s so hard finding personal information about it. It helps me feel less alone.

[@psicologa.marlana]

To be diagnosed with bipolar disorder, a person must have experienced at least one episode of mania or hypomania. To be considered mania, the elevated, expansive, or irritable mood must last for at least one week and be present most of the day, nearly every day.

[@nancyherrera5638]

This do true .But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

[@findingthefearlesslifeamy7625]

Love this segment. Just stumbled upon this show. Live in the US and hadn't heard of it, 2 Timothy 1:7 has been my saving grace going thru difficult times with anxiety.

[@Jerry.anthony.c]

2:00 - Diagnosed with Bipolar in 2009 4:00 - What is Bipolar Disorder? 4:40 - Having a shower an accomplishment 7:05 - Thick Skin 7:40 - "Living with BP is so hard" ❤️ 8:40 - Longevity & Diagnosis 10:15 - Navigating Faith & BP 11:05 - Struggling with her Faith walk 14:00 - Optimizing for Balance 17:05 - Aslan & The Lion. C.S Lewis 18:20 - "God is good" 19:40 - "Everything we have is by grace" 21:20 - Jeremiah 29:11

[@lionoffireministries]

I hope this blesses some... 🙏 I was 5 years of chronic illness! I was Semi Housebound, lost my health, job, finances and my fiance left me. I couldn't even look at electronic screen for 5 minutes, or hold a 10-minute conversation. But God did an amazing work. I now have a Christian Channel where I encourage people and show them what God did in my life and that there is hope for you also. ✝️🔥😊 *Keep believing even when it's hard* 🙏❤️🔥 *All things are possible with God*

[@kimberlybowling6245]

Please help me

[@debrawoodrick2889]

@@kimberlybowling6245 hi Kimberly. I know how you are feeling. Wait for God. Look for a therapist and pray.

[@sonialugo6534]

thank you, watched it twice, took many mental notes

[@NowBloom]

This was extremely helpful and relieving for me to listen to. Thank you 💜

[@SeeHearLove]

Sarah Martens NowBloom - Thanks for watching! We’re so glad you found this show helpful. We pray it will bring you hope and courage as you live out each day. Much love! ❤️

[@almaponcio5630]

Loved it! God bless y’all ! ❤️

[@LucDespresLifeCoach]

This was so good 🙂 Thank you for sharing 💝

[@N.Jersey]

Thank you so much for THIS conversation!!!

[@SeeHearLove]

Thanks for joining us!

[@dinajoliemarie]

SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad I came across this video! Such a blessing to watch! God bless you! I also loved the opening music to the show; it is very upbeat!

[@SeeHearLove]

Thanks Dina! SO glad you found us! The opening music is by our co-host Brooke Nicholls. We hope you check out more of our videos.

[@staceydelbucchia2576]

Praise God...beautiful interview🧡...I have bipolar born with it...I have morgellons as well...but I thank God everyday..he sustains me...I do holistic healing y take psych meds..y my life is truly blessed y I am happy...the struggles make us stronger y helps us to grow our faith in our Lord. ...it is ok not to be ok....God bless all of you...thank you for bringing awareness y with God all things are possible..eyes on Jesus✝️🤍💜🕊

[@faithiseverything777]

Love this. I feel understood. Thank you.

[@emmanuelamardie-mensah2307]

So good, thanks for this

[@SeeHearLove]

Glad you like it! Thanks for joining us!

[@jbl2270]

Thank you for being so transparent, and thank you for the hosts for the great discussion. How does one hold a job with bipolar?

[@prettyhollypolly7553]

This is a good question, I think the fact that you have a job means that you definitely are capable and you should know your rights, but depending on how close you are with your employer you could a) be honest b) you could look during the day be meditative and pensive to help with your mood swings. I find that helps.

[@jbl2270]

@@prettyhollypolly7553 Thank you for your input. Please share if you know of any tools to deal with stress and ruminative thoughts. I'm currently reading JP Moreland Finding Quiet

[@katrinameuser4562]

Trust me if you if you are not healed right away. God is good. Keep knowing God is still on through the son. Just keep listening through his grace!!!!

[@christophercobbett5750]

I have been struggling with depression for 20 years....I sometimes think I'm sining because I don't trust God enough...

[@faithiseverything777]

We just have to remind ourselves in our lowest 💜 His love never fails.

[@faithiseverything777]

Put the bible versus that to remind you of his love and power in your bedroom. Prime your mind my brother. Fight back and write those versus.

[@partlysimpson5154]

My mental health changed when I came to Jesus and started to read bible daily and repent/pray. I think god can guide us to better choices

[@jacynthallen1645]

I have BiPolar. My friend has BiPolar. We must always take our Lithium with a meal and/or at least an 8 oz glass of water She has a hole in her kidney This concerns me for both of us.

[@mommaria1968]

Thank you Lindsey for your faith, honesty, vulnerability, courage and athleticism : ) I appreciate you mentioned your mom's support, praying for wisdom to help you when you need it. The women in this panel are phenomenal. I'm grateful the question was asked about how Lindsey navigates her faith journey. Also the question of 'how do christians view mental illness' is on point and needs to be dealt with honestly and with hope. My son was recently diagnosed, has struggled in the church, but by God's grace holds a degree in engineering, works in his field. It's phenomenal to me Lindsay is a therapist. In that, it is proof, at least to me, healing is possible. Thank you 'See, Hear, Love'. I'm looking forward to more on this or more from Lindsay.

[@NatureHeadSupreme]

Nice

[@matthewlarode378]

She should try deliverance

[@hazemhazem8500]

she looks great

[@mourice1669]

I am bipolar too

[@aliciavidela46]

We all have to suffer somehow some way,we have to trust God though it all

[@user-wo4iu7ci1i]

I know I have cpsd and am going to start seeing a mental doctor, is that the right answer, cause I gave myself back to God and started suffering again, when I quit my medication. 😢❤

[@peteratkinson4701]

OK, so if a guy said he had bipolar 1 or 2 in a church there's a different stigma attached, more praise to you for dealing with this.

[@SeeHearLove]

Peter, this is such a great point. There is a different experience for men with mental health struggles. We wanted to address this as well, so we actually brought in a panel of men to speak on the topic, and their own stories, which you can find here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/bqWkoa2hjJt1aLM Thank you for your encouragement!

[@InternetMinistry]

@@SeeHearLove U Jun bbnblbbbbbb

[@dahrunriver2924]

The bells ringing made it hard to concentrate and listen well. Was that intentional?

[@deanasherrick9399]

Eph 4:23-34 and all of Phil 2

[@faithbarnard7371]

Is there a link to lindsay thompsons practice?

[@SeeHearLove]

Hi Faith! Thanks for asking. You can find here at lctcounselling.com/

[@MaiyaMia1]

Having bipolar is torture, I wish I was never born. Idk what type of God would do this to me

[@enterty4364]

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

[@psmith5830]

Its literally not ok if it's hard and its literally not ok if its painful. How are they and Christian leaders trying to pass off misery as good? It's becuz they know they dont have the answers for the reason nor solution to mental illness which is the cause for behaviors in persons inflicted with it. Those behaviors can be contrary to obeying the biblical God thus resulting in justified punishment/condemning/judgment according to bible. Yet it's the followers of jesus whom portray these sinful behaviors becuz they cant control them due to there illness. So the elephant in the room is this question...WHY WOULD GOD ALLOW ILLNESSES THAT CAUSES SINFUL BEHAVIORS OF HIS FOLLOWERS AND NOT CURE IT COMPLETELY? especially if it hurts themselves, others and offends God? Yes I kno 1st thing most Christians are going to try to correct me on is "Well we Christians never claimed we had all the answers and God never promised a life without out pain becuz of the fallen nature of humans" my response is well this doesn't help your claim of christianity as being a creditable authoritative beneficial source for everyone's wellbeing

[@catlover8360]

What would a world without any suffering look like?

[@edithguire9700]

Heaven ❤️

[@catlover8360]

@@edithguire9700 best answer 👏🏿

[@Kressa1111]

I like your ability to reason these things. It’s sincere and open minded. With the open mind that you have, you’d understand then that humans have limited knowledge. We don’t have the answers you are searching for to be fair, only God does. So the questions that you are asking, are you asking them to Christians or asking God directly? Christianity absolutely has no benefit for those that aren’t willing to sacrifice themselves for the good of others. Why should we have to sacrifice ourselves to do good? Why can’t we be good without sacrifice? Better yet why are we ever born if it was just to die? Our very existence is not possible without suffering and it’s an insult to all the people who came and went before us to casually assume the hardships they’ve endured for us were worth nothing more than a question or reasoning in our minds.

[@alicec9092]

I have bipolar and I feel like god let me down and failed me by not protecting me

[@uplift56]

Everything is ment to shift you to need Christ. Do you know how to place Christ in the area of your needs? We do act independently by nature, until we are humbled.

[@leahkeller626]

I got that way too for a long time after my first episode - hung out to dry- abandoned- and that, I feel is honest. But I healed and sought God again because I believed He and Christ are real and do love me. A lot of searching brought me to a place of trust again with God, I believe it wasn’t his desire to put me through so much pain, but He allowed it, and can redeem it- work it for good in my life. I hope to help people one day get through it , and see it as a brain issue that needs love and care like when people get sick with cancer.If there was more care and understanding- it could be faced better by society, and by us who have it. Hope and pray you find some healing ❤️‍🩹 💕

[@DidiLaRestauree]

God will never fail you nor abandon you. Please, take a look in His word Isaiah 49:15. Sometimes things happen in our lives, I don’t know why but God has a plan for each of us and that plan doesn’t include being ill and abandoned by Him. Take a look at Job story, he was rich then he lost everything and got ill but God restored Him in every ways. We should also keep in mind that the Bible says “by Jesus wounds, we are healed”. I am also struggling with bipolar but holding on to Jesus for healing and restauration because I was not born with that and I still believe He can heal me.

[@lukehoddenbagh8526]

I have a question for Lyndsay, so you where diagnosed with By Polar, nothing was mentioned about having to be put on medication for it. See I have a great friend, who has By polar 2. Christians say not to go on medication to help stabilize the person. I am trying to understand so I can help me friend. Thanks, hope somehow I can talk with Lindsay. thanks Luke.

[@SeeHearLove]

Hi Luke! We're so glad you're asking these questions openhandedly. Lyndsay has a counselling practice, if you'd like to learn more from her about how she helps approach mental health from a faith-based perspective. You can find her at lctcounselling.com Hope this helps, and we are cheering you and your friend on as you walk this journey of faith and mental health together!

[@VickiMackLataillade]

Medication works for some people!

[@brokengirl8619]

If you need medication, get on medication.

[@faithiseverything777]

I need medicine. It's okay

[@jeffayers5233]

What about deliverance? The Bible clearly says that with the holy spit we can be delivered. I struggle with bipolar type 1. I’m trying to understand what to do. I’m off the meds now

[@CryptoTalk1980]

Why do people think being born again gaurantees us a problem free 100 percent healthy life as long as we pray enough ? Sorry to tell you , trouble is promised regardless of how righteous you think you are . Jesus said " in this world you WILL have trouble" Bipolar disorder is a real pain.

[@cherriebettess3027]

I need to talk to the Mum please,

[@stevegovea1]

The highs can be thinking about you arw the messiah and low having suicidal ideations. Basically Jesus had bipolar, it would explain why he thought he was the son of god.

[@deanaburnham9571]

Luke 9:23 Jesus told his disciples "Deny yourself, take up your cross daily and follow me." People TEND to not like that phrase.

[@psmith5830]

Lol melinda struggled at the end to try to sum up the message as it's ok to not be ok. She knows that is contradictory and is horrible advice for them that are in misery from mental illness

[@SeeHearLove]

Hello psmith. It sounds like you are struggling with questions about faith and hardship. We are praying for you, and if you would like to hear more on how God redeems hard situations, another episode you might be interested in is here kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5eZdn2woatqfJo

[@Sirach144]

I love CoNarnia but God cannot Die therefore Aslan doesn’t represent God. He represents Jesus.

[@kishalaysinha9187]

Bipolar disorder? ONLY TWO poles? BI polar? God enjoys INFINITE polar order!! G

[@UnloadinClipz]

666 likes Amazing Lol

[@cadillacjack3240]

Majority of mental illness is developmental issues never addressed in childhood. Mental illness is an easy way to defer society and families ignorance and neglect to understanding how to develop kids into adults. Its easier to just say, oh they are mentally ill. It's hard for influences to claim responsibility in their developmental neglect, abuse and willful ignorance. Literally less than a hundred years ago medical professionals did frontal lobotomies believing that would fix mental illness. This video is about as surface level as it gets.

[@boromirofmiddleearth557]

so what did you expect ? Your assertion is based upon what? This is a womans own story.

[@CryptoTalk1980]

Some .... not all . I found out the hard way. I had been stable and de cided to stop medications just to see if i really have the diagnoses they say i do. 1 month later major spontaneous episode ,( thank God this happened at a new job so i could return to my former one) complete with hallucinations and had to be hospitalized. The next morning after being medicated i was back in my right mind and finally accepted my illness. After seeing all that altered mind state mess i never missed a dose again . So i wouldnt spread that assumption of mental illness to the masses to much. Bipolar people still have slight effects from the illness but it can be greatly helped if you work at it.

[@gavinsullivan4553]

Barely any talk about bipolar. So much rambling

[@Stevejoohee]

There is no god. Projecting faith is what's helping you.

[@JedStevens1234]

Jesus Christ is Lord !! You will meet him 1 day . I pray you accept him

[@1965kid]

There is no God

[@jhaysantos2119]

God is Alive ! ❤️ and he really cares for you and love you aswel

[@jameswest8280]

I'm an atheist, and not even I am so bold as to say there is no God.

[@johnmoyers404]

So get lost and leave us believers alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@scripturehelps]

This is my reply to one of the commenters on this page kzbin.info/www/bejne/eWWvp2CIe6p5ras, Max W. May it help you also, if you could use it: I had sad moments in my early youth also , I didn't even knew who my mother was, when I first met her at the age of 4 years old. I just grabbed my panier, and waited for the next leg of the plane journey to continue. Sadly had to accept that this stranger was my mother everyone I knew in life was gone, except my little sister. I became very sad...my only party was pity partying. I decided that happiness was a better party than a pity party...even my best music eventually became sad. So I immediately chose to not be sad anymore, I became happy and optimistic. I became convinced that no one was made to suffer, and became a considerate and caring person to others well being. When the bible made me see that God was like that too (He cares how all persons are doing, at any moment in their lifes). Since we seem to have an important thing in common; I ask Him to be my best friend. Scripture shows He has many best friends. People who meet him, think He is the finest person in exsistance and learn to deeply appreciate Him. I would ask max to find out if He cares about him too. God loves everyone as He loves Himself and anything that good. I pray (in Jesus name, according to God's will, that He shows max, that He is the best trust there is. That can help you learn to trust others who deserve trust also.

[@scripturehelps]

This is my reply to one of the commenters on this page kzbin.info/www/bejne/eWWvp2CIe6p5ras, Max W. May it help you also, if you could use it: I had sad moments in my early youth also , I didn't even knew who my mother was, when I first met her at the age of 4 years old. I just grabbed my panier, and waited for the next leg of the plane journey to continue. Sadly had to accept that this stranger was my mother everyone I knew in life was gone, except my little sister. I became very sad...my only party was pity partying. I decided that happiness was a better party than a pity party...even my best music eventually became sad. So I immediately chose to not be sad anymore, I became happy and optimistic. I became convinced that no one was made to suffer, and became a considerate and caring person to others well being. When the bible made me see that God was like that too (He cares how all persons are doing, at any moment in their lifes). Since we seem to have an important thing in common; I ask Him to be my best friend. Scripture shows He has many best friends. People who meet him, think He is the finest person in exsistance and learn to deeply appreciate Him. I would ask max to find out if He cares about him too. God loves everyone as He loves Himself and anything that good. I pray (in Jesus name, according to God's will, that He shows max, that He is the best trust there is. That can help you learn to trust others who deserve trust also.