Life Update, Part 1... We Bought a House!

[@jonjudice1155]

I just find it fascinating that your frame of reference when it comes to you speaking it's all about how you feel, consciously and unconsciously. I also notice that all my frame of reference is thinking. Like I'm problem solving anything I see or talk about aloud

[@lunam33]

I can't help but laugh at all all the wandering 😂 because I do the same! Its interesting to watch someone else do it out loud, puts things in perspective, I generally don't show that to others, kinda go in a more direct mode than wanderer. Congratulations on the new home! ❤️. And thanks for being you. 🙏. God bless.

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Thanks so much Luna 😊 I really appreciate your sweet comment. I try and be direct...lol....but honestly a lot of my more direct and concise videos I've filmed over the years came out a bit bland and I didn't bother editing and publishing them. Ah well...it does get to me in real life though....why can't I answer a simple question, simply.?..why is thinking in a straight line so difficult? aaaah! 😂 Unfortunately a lot of people just zone out or then start talking over me rather than being patient enough to let me get to where I'm going (in a very spaghetti brained kinda way)...which is a shame because I think I have some really helpful thoughts to impart on people at times, but they rarely take the time to truly listen or engage. Were you always this good at speaking directly when needed, rather than letting your mind and speech wander or is it something you developed over time?

[@nikkiburns8129]

Bloomin’ love you! 💕

[@ChaoticallyMe]

❤️❤️❤️

[@jonjudice1155]

6:30 mark, you're cracking me up.

[@friarpesel]

What an excellent example of self awareness! I was thinking of you the other day, I’m glad you posted 😇

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Ooooo weird mind connection thang going on there Friar, I thought of you just the other day too!...or maybe it had just been the right amount of time since we connected last for our brains to send out a, 'I wonder how _____ is getting on?' signal 😊 I was just thinking of you and your sweet Prissy and wondering how you're getting on all these months later? I hope 2020 treated you okay? ❤️

[@friarpesel]

@@ChaoticallyMe I was wondering much the same about you! I am happy you’ve seen some of my videos, you’re just the kind of viewer I want - deeply thoughtful and gentle, and with a good heart and a high level of self awareness. 2020 was very much a state of suspended animation for my outer life but a deep dive into the inky depths of the inner world. When we endeavor to discover our inner truths... sometimes we get them, and they’re not all beautiful. I think of my practices like a glass-bottomed boat; you can see the fish so well! And the trash too... I miss Prissy terribly, and I’ve had some of the ugliest cries of the last few years thinking about her, but sometimes she appears in my imagination like a Patronus charm, only she’s enormous - finally taking on the size of her heart and spirit! I think my lesson for 2020 was discovering the true meaning of mercy... when one travels within and confronts one’s own inexcusable wrongdoings, the only way to move forward is the practice of mercy toward the self - which allows one to understand how divine mercy really is, and why we should extend it to others as a divine act. So while 2020 was pretty difficult circumstantially, it did provide the dark soil that allowed the seed of light to germinate. I’m happy and grateful to know you were thinking of me 💖 - thank you, kindred soul.

[@friarpesel]

Also if you want, I have a private account on Instagram as friar_pesel if you want a chat. 🌟

[@heatherpobursky-smith6984]

I have missed you. I am so glad you made a video.

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Heather 💕 So nice to hear from you :) I hope you and your family are doing okay?

[@heatherpobursky-smith6984]

@@ChaoticallyMe We are doing alright.

[@INFPHD]

Glad to see you back and in good spirits home girl! 🤙🏻🤗 Congrats on the house 🏠 “Gonna act like I’m doing something” as the person passes 😂😬 #relate Your KZbin buddy, Sean 🤪

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Thanks Sean 🤗🤗🤗 Yep, I mean really....who do they think they are just walking along in any kind of proximity to my parked car...minding their own business...in a public place....yeesh! 😂 selfish much!! 😜 So nice to hear from you Sean, thanks for dropping in on my video ❤️

[@INFPHD]

Lol I know right 🙄🙄🙄🙄 Yeah just one person 50 yards away that has “the chance” to see me recording myself is a no deal for me lol. We can talk on camera for a social media audience, but just one “real person”....again nope lol. I’m always around for ya lady...just easier for me to get burnt out easier nowadays with the growth so I can seem more distant at times to my longterm buddies but it doesn’t mean anything bad - just fielding new people. As a creator we can “want” growth, but at the same time we don’t # contradictoryinfplife

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Oh I can only imagine the risk of burn out being so much higher for you now! You're doing great finding the time to connect with people as much as you do ❤️❤️❤️ it's definitely appreciated! 🤗

[@clarissachua7421]

Thanks for sharing 😊 I've been watching your videos since some time earlier last year... Helped a lot greatly to have someone sharing on mindset of an infp wife + intp husband and able to relate on your sharings. Definitely a great help and understanding social debt... Which I realised I'm doing that to my husband as well. And it can get frustrating. Having that said, so glad to see updates from you and a new home ! Walks are the best, we enjoy that too. And you're looking even more fresher :) looking forward to more of your videos and sharing . Just saying it helps a lot. - love from another infp wife from Singapore

[@ChaoticallyMe]

Thank you so much for your comment Clarissa! It really helps to know that my videos are useful to someone :) :) Have a lovely day 💕