Life Update - Why I Took A Break ❤️‍🩹

[@kenimarie39]

Jena, I am so incredibly sorry that you are struggling with this. Please know what you are supported and loved by this community. 🖤

[@BabsBeauty]

Happy to see you back and able to share what you’re comfortable with at your own pace ❤ hang in there

[@TaraLynnbeauty]

I have been with you along this journey, hours and hours and hours of Marco Polo convos, the highs, the lows. But, hearing you tell your journey condensed like this, you've been through so much. I admire you even more, which i never thought was possible. All that you and G have gone through, your love is even stronger than ever before. You both make me feel incredibly blessed to call you my friends, and I love you, Jena. I thank God & Mel, every day, for bringing you into my life❤ Love you both so much❤❤❤

[@JR-md9rz]

I would love for you to keep us updated. If that's something you can do. You owe us nothing, and that's OK too. My daughter in law and Son went through this for five years. Two different offices for treatment. Eventually it was brought to light that my daughter in law had a disease that prevented her from growing the the little forest that is responsible for hanging on to egg. Not really a forest of course but this is how it was explained to me. For the next two years, the postman dropped a box (temp control) at thier door. And on Hollidays they drove to a couple hrs to the clinic, because you couldn't miss a day. My Son gave the various meds and shots for the first year. No baby. It was destroying thier marriage, the stress they couldn't Handel. They were 14 when they met then pushing into the early 30s. Well I became so upset because I loved my daughter in law like my own. She said she would do the shots she would do the driving and I was so incensed that he checked out. He said I can't do it anymore mom. Omg, what do you say, what about my girl, it was hard. I volunteered to help out if SHE wanted to go forward. The second year went by, no baby. They at that point had done invitro twice, because the forest finally grew in nicely. But no baby. At this time my mother became critically I'll. We brought her home to pass away per her wishes. I moved in to be with her till the end. During this time they Dr told them to stop, stop everything. The stress would be too much and she would not get pregnant. They would pick up later after everything was settled. This was about 80,000 invested by then. They were broke, broke. And had decided maybe it was time to look into other options. A couple days before my mom passed, she said Jean don't worry about them having a baby. Don't worry about Michael (son). She said "I spoke to God and I asked him to do me a favor. To bless them with the child they wanted so desperately." And she looked at me, like looking through me, and said, it will be done God promised her. On her death bed she's still worried about her family not herself. What a beautiful brave loving mom she was. The day of my mom's service, the kids had an appointment at the office, just general check up as everything had been put on hold. My family was not expecting to see them at her service. It would just be too much, and gma knew she was loved. Standing there I see them come in, not a tear in sight, I thought I was going to fall apart. My Son waved his Gpaw over and his sisters and they told us, they were going to have a baby. Without anything except God's love and intervention, he kept his promise. Do I believe ABSOLUTELY. I relive that conversation over and over, I can't explain it fully, but it was a miracle. My heart was ripping apart listening to you tell your fertility journey. I'm so sorry Jenna you have had to endure this. I do know how it can affect your life. Remember there is a God, a good God. Even when we may not understand. I know you will have your beautiful baby. Trust yourself and your husband and most importantly trust the Lord. He knows all. Now I expect to be the first to know, lol jk. But I will be praying for you. You just keep your spirits up, take good care of yourself, and definitely relax. Knowing your dream is just around the corner. Believe ☝️🙏 I'm sorry it's so long, I felt every word you spoke. Thank You for sharing and trusting us with something so precious. ❤

[@JR-md9rz]

Tara where's your blue check? ;) is it really you? Lol

[@TaraLynnbeauty]

@JR thank you so much for sharing the story of your grandchild and the tough road your son and daughter in law have been on. I love that your mother asked God to let them get pregnant, i believe God works miracles, and that is truly such a beautiful ending❤️❤️ I have to be honest, until i went along this journey with Jena, I knew of the struggles, and always had so much empathy for people who struggle with fertility, but I didn't fully understand it. After witnessing it and the pain people go through, it's just incredibly painful and you have to ask God to help you through. 🙏 Thank you again for sharing, I'm so happy God blessed your son and daughter in law with a beautiful baby 👶 XOXO

[@madylynmontgomery5059]

Sending all the love and prayers

[@sophied23.]

Resilient. You are resilient Jenna. That’s what kept going through my mind as I listened to you share your story and be so vulnerable with people that you don’t personally know. I will be praying that you and your husband get this beautiful miracle that you deserve! ❤

[@TaraLynnbeauty]

That is the perfect word to describe her. She truly is resilient and a warrior❤

[@malloryfischer3131]

The part about Harvey licking your face 😭😭😭😭😭 Harvey is a hero! What a good boy ❤

[@PattyAlonso]

I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone through! I can’t wait to see the happy ending to this story! ❤ Sending you lots of love!

[@candaceb5373]

I wouldn’t wish infertility on my worst enemy. I’ve gone through many IUIs and finally IVF. Your story brings back memories of the nightmare I had gone through and the internalizing and feeling of failure. I’m so glad that your are focusing on getting back in a good mental state. If sharing your story aids you in getting it off your chest then I’m here to watch and send my prayers, love and support. God has a plan for you and your amazing husband.

[@CharlotteHoldcroft]

I'm so sorry you've had such a rough time Jena. I'm really glad you've been taking a proper break and giving yourself grace. Sending you lots of love 💞💞

[@Liora.y]

I’m So sorry for this hardship in your life. I hope god will send you and your husband the biggest miracle soon!! ❤ My best friend just gave birth after 9 years of trying, IVF and the whole process. God is preparing the perfect baby for you 💕

[@JenPhelps]

I'm so sorry for everything you've been going through Jena! Thank you for opening up and sharing your story, and I'll be sending prayers your way for good news. 🙏🙏 I too have struggled with anxiety for most of my life and as I've started going through menopause, I've had panic attacks from the changing hormones and they're awful so I can definitely relate. I've also been having hot flashes that started last year on and off and while they're not fun in the daytime, they're the worst at night because I can't sleep. If you do end up getting them, I would recommend cooling sheets/pillows because they do help somewhat. I've tried herbal remedies like Estroven and it didn't work for me. Also I have high blood pressure so I can't go on hormone therapy. I just saw my doctor last week and she told me that SSRI medications can be used off-label for hot flashes, so I may try that next. The good news is, if you're already taking Lexipro, you may not experience them! 💗💗

[@heidiliao6275]

Jenna, I just wanted to let you know I have also had the same experience with infertility and IVF. It was a long, dark times (we tried for 6 years). I never felt so isolated and alone as everyone around me all seems to have babies no problem. The emotional ups and downs were like none others. My heart goes out to you and your husband. Thank you for being so honest in sharing and I truly hope you'll become a parent soon and whichever decision you make, you'll find peace ❤.

[@MorganTurnerMakeup]

Jena, I am so so so sorry to hear about what you have been going through. You are so brave sharing your story. I hope that you will find happiness and peace. Sending much love and good vibes your way. Don't lost faith, i just know it will end well. Hugs. ❤

[@KimmboV]

My aunt went through most of what you did. They gave up "trying" and decided to adopt. They adopted a baby boy- and 4 months after he was with them, they found out she was pregnant with my other cousin. Don't give up hope-God always shows up in unexpected ways!!!

[@tia5382]

I went through the same testing and I remember clearly that test. I silently cried the entire test. I pray for you and your husband. We were not able to get pregnant and adjusted life to being childless couple. The only thing it bothers me is that when my husband passes away, i wont have a part of him with me (outside my heart and memories). He became very sick 5 years ago and not doing well. That’s when i realized such feeling. Again, I pray you are able to conceive and have children. On the plus side I am the fun aunt and spoil rotten my niece and nephews. 💜

[@znmm2588]

You are not alone! I’m getting ready to start IVF after a 10 year delay from Lymes disease and CIRS (mold illness). I didn’t want to risk infecting a baby plus I was bedridden and wouldn’t have been able to care for a baby in that condition. I’m scared to death of all the procedures but time is not on my side (I’m 40!). Thank you for being so open about your story. It’s so nice to not feel alone. A natural product I highly recommend for anxiety is Ancestral Placenta-it’s calming.

[@hairbyhelene7246]

I went through it myself but there is hope! I had 3 surgeries, many tests, 3 late miscarriages and went on to have 3 beautiful kids who are young adults now. Don’t give up! I also suffer fro bad anxiety. Sending you a hug❤

[@Sally_30]

Oh Jena 😢 I cried throughout. This was very close to home. This was like my mum talking about her struggles with her fertility, almost word for word. My mum and my dad waited 17 years for me. It wasn’t until the early 90s that they finally had me. They struggled through with all the drugs and procedures. IVF was still in its infancy in the late 70s/early 80s. However, my parents didn’t lose hope and neither should you. Thank you for talking about this. Take your time and your resilience will pay off.

[@zenmaster9195]

Infertility is the shittiest thing we can go through. My husband and I went through the same thing for 4 years. Jenna, you are not alone. There are so many of us out there. We were successful after 11 IUIs. Our son is 5 years old now. Here is the best advice I can give you: yes, you have to get the anxiety under control. It's so great you are going forward to get that under control. And it sucks when you're at the height of all of this because the anxiety is crazy high. I vividly remember when we found out we were finally pregnant, how I was feeling. I remember in that month I had resigned that we were going to have to go to IVF in the next couple months. That "don't care" attitude, it's so hard to explain, I relaxed (?) for lack of a better word. The anxiety was eating at me for so long. The wishing so hard, the stress of it all. I just gave up. Sort of. And I'm not trying to say "oh you need to relax and just let it happen", NO, F that. I hated when people told me that shit. That was THE WORST!! I guess what I'm trying to say is the anxiety can kill the whole thing. I was still trying to do everything I could to get myself in the right body environment. I changed my diet a little like eating more organic foods. I also got some vitamins that I had come across that supported a healthy uterine environment. So I was still working on the whole thing, but I got the anxiety and stress more in check. But it just sort of happened naturally. You can't just talk yourself out. So what you are doing is the perfect step. At the end of that month, we were pregnant. All of the changes that I made in a month, resulted in my son. You are on your way. Keep fighting though, don't give up! It can happen! I was also 34 😉 Just remember you're not alone! We're all here for you! Talk it out, don't let it eat at you! Wishing you the best of everything.

[@iamabutterflychaser]

I haven’t seen many of your videos before but this whole video really resonated with me. I struggled with unexplained infertility for 4 1/2 years before I got pregnant with my miracle baby. It’s crazy how painful that HSG and other tests are! And I totally understand how you feel about wanting to be happy for your friends but being so sad for yourself. Also the thing about feeling like your life is on hold and feeling like you are losing your faith. It’s so hard and so many people do not understand if they have not gone through it. Wishing you the best and lots of baby dust ❤

[@JenaFroese]

Thank you so much ❤️ I’m so happy to hear you got your miracle baby. That is very inspiring and helps me keep my faith strong that one day it’ll happen 💕

[@elizabethbc8293]

This sounds incredibly painful and I’m so very sorry to hear. You are young and strong- keep going as long as you feel it is the right thing for you. Your life will be full of love no matter what the path.

[@amomentwithmileva]

Jena don't give up your dream of being a mother, you are going to be a fierce mama, you had me in tears with you. AS an RN and as a mother, I will tell you with no uncertainty that your positive attitude and power of prayers will precvail - your dream will come true. Keep praying honey

[@naynay8219]

I am so happy that you are back, and I look forward to hearing updates on your journey. I will pray that God will bless you with a healthy pregnancy and baby in the near future. I also have a generalized anxiety disorder with panic attacks. I suffered with this disorder from the age of 7 until I turned 42 years old (I am 67 now). At 42, I was prescribed Effexor (Venlafaxine), and it worked for me. I have been on Effexor for about 25 years now and have not had panic attacks nor unnatural anxiety since I started the medication. I wish you the same success. Special blessings to you!

[@cabrooker]

I feel for you my dear!!! I went through all the tests and probing and prodding...only to get pregnant and it be an ectopic that ruptured.. and then IVF and lost all. You do feel betrayed by your own body. No platitudes will make you feel better but know that you'll be lifted up in prayer!

[@case1962]

I was wondering where you were. You were the first You Tuber I watched in 2018 after I had broken my back and later had a severe seizure out of the blue that created more damage. I was home, alone, and watching your videos was like having a friend here with me during my long recuperation. My heart goes out to you. You've got a lot going on, but you've got this. As your video goes on, you can see and hear a shift of relief. I think you releasing this is very healing. As far as anxiety, I find Ayurvedic transcendental meditation wonderful. I'm not sure what the laws are in Canada regarding CBD and THC, but they also are amazing for anxiety, and natural and non-pharmaceutical. Sending you much love!❤

[@yellowjasmine2009]

Jena, you are a strong woman and also unique. I hope you are doing well and staying positive. If you ever feel like you need to speak to God, don't hesitate to do so. He is always listening and will guide you through any difficulties you may face. I will keep you in my prayers and ask that you never lose faith, no matter what anyone else may say. Remember that negative words can't bring you down if you don't let them. Stay strong and keep pushing forward.

[@meganpierce4890]

We went through infertility for three years. My first fertility dr told us my husband had 0% morphology and that we would never get pregnant on our own or through anything other than IVF. I found a male infertility specialist who put my husband on a number of vitamins as well as Clomid. Fast forward about six months and he had another test. Morphology went up to 2%. We saw another dr and went forward with an IUI. I’m currently sittting here breastfeeding my 5 week old little girl. I remember the hopelessness feeling that comes with negative tests month after month. God is good, hold onto hope. Your little miracle will come.

[@sheryl1009]

Oh my darling! Your candor is so very greatly appreciated, bless you. I will add you to my prayer list. Jesus has you honey, like no other ever will. Hot flashes, I feel like I was the queen of them. I gave up being wonder woman, I don't mind being chemically well LOL. I take venlafaxine, but I am more long term. I guess its an antidepressant, but one of the side effects was helping women with hot flashes lol. So I'm like, yep...gimme gimme. The stuff is fantastic. I dont have to stick my head in the freezer anymore or go outside with ice packs lol no joke. And I absolutely want to be in on your journey whenever you feel like sharing. No push no rush, all in your good time. Prayers for your hubby as well.

[@BuyLessJess]

When people ask “why don’t you adopt?” Look them in the eyes and say “I haven’t given up on myself yet” and maintain that eye contact until they look away. I’m sorry that you’re going through this, it hurts so bad but I’m happy that you are talking about it because infertility seems to feel like a shameful secret but so many of us struggle with it. I miscarried the one that we tried 4 years for and it was devastating but still brought more hope than I’ve ever had. I hope you conceive and safely deliver your little peanut 💜

[@randypage4847]

Jena I will definitely say a pray for you and your husband. We met a few years ago at a wonderful dinner in Rome. That night is a special memory for me, Thank you. I have been subscribed since as I promised I would do. I have little interest in the beauty products, but I hold you both special and with an update I watched it all. My heart truly goes out to both of you. Gracious God, Heavenly Father, Please hold Jena in the plan of your hand through this trying times. lend her your strength and comfort to deal with the anxiety. Uphold her with your spirit and bless this couple with the child they would love and nurture. Help them reflect your love that could give growing a family. Bless them so that they can in turn be a blessing to a child. Also Thank you for all that we have. Let your loving grace shine upon Jena and her husband and all those that are in need of your support. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

[@tarabayliss7714]

Your willingness to be so open and vulnerable with your struggles resonates with so many women. I guarantee u that so many of us r finding out that we have a lot more in common with u than anyone could have ever imagined. I appreciate your bravery for sharing your hardships with so many “strangers” behind a screen. Your followers love u because u r so genuine Jena! Please know that your words are helping so many of us feel so much less alone. 💕💗

[@noaamouyal2971]

Parenthood should be possible for any responsible adult who wants it. I went through two rounds of IUI and had my beautiful boy three years ago. I hope you are able to experience that joy very soon. Please know none of this is your fault, you're doing everything right. Sending you love and strength.

[@TaraLynnbeauty]

Love you SOOOOOO MUCH❤❤❤❤❤ You’re seriously AMAZING.. 🎉🎉🎉 You know I am here, ALWAYS❤❤

[@kaelamayzus9180]

Happy you’re back! There are a lot of women struggling through infertility. I am one of them. I know your pain. ❤ you are not alone. ❤

[@TheGlamorousNest24]

My heart hurts for you. My husband and I were in the exact same scenario. We tried for two years and got our miracle, naturally. And then tried another two years and we’re blessed with another miracle naturally. We never gave up (I’m quite stubborn, haha). Even though they gave us less than a 1% chance to conceive. The testing and blood draws were definitely exhausting, I also had the SHG and HSG tests as well and it was so uncomfortable. It is an unexplainable journey unless you go through it all yourself. Holding babies when you want a baby, watching your parents dance with kids at weddings when you want to give them a grand baby…. There are no words. I still don’t know the right words to say for those struggling even though I’ve been there. Sometimes just being there, listening, or even giving space when needed was all I wanted. You’re definitely right about having to have a rock solid marriage/partner to get through it all. I will be praying for you and your family and for strength to get through this journey! ❤️❤️❤️

[@kellyfarris8984]

Hang in there Sweetheart! I went through 3 IVFs and finally had my miracle. You are definitely not alone. I'll be praying for you. Believe it will happen!!!

[@DestinyKish]

God has a plan for your life. He has you. It is so hard to trust through this kind of pain. I’ll be praying for you. I hope you find comfort, and peace. I’m so sorry to hear of your pain. Thank you for your vulnerability and openness. There is victory in surrender.

[@muneeraalmarzooqi4074]

I’m sorry that you went through this. I’ve seen patients go through similar experiences during my medical practice and it certainly looked tough and painful. I don’t mean anything bad but sometimes we need to give ourselves the peace of letting things happen the way they are. I know it must be difficult and nobody would understand it better than you do, but you deserve better than this. You don’t deserve to go through this psychological pain and this constant pressure. God will always give us the best, even if it was not what we want. As painful as it is, you will get what you deserve and what is best for you in the right timing for you. You’re so strong and brave to come out here and talk about it. I will keep you in my prayers. Please stay safe and healthy🙏🏻🤍

[@tonipage5191]

I’ll be praying for you! One tip for hot flashes in the middle of the night - sleep on 100% bamboo sheets. That has helped me tremendously with night sweats.

[@flawedfabulous]

You are in my prayers. You're stronger than you know. Being vulnerable is the hardest and you've got support all over the world.

[@lavenderamethyst6050]

Jenna, thank you. I’m 37 and my husband and I have battle infertility since we got married in 2017. I’ve been scared to have IVF or try fertility drugs because I have an eating disorder and am scared about weight gain…. Even though having a baby means you gain weight! I was heavy all my life until before my husband and I met, and my father made me feel like I wasn’t good enough until I was thinner. My anxiety is horrific to this day. I’m proud of you for all the steps you’ve taken! You are brave. I did the fallopian tube flush this year and had a similar experience to you. No blockage but it was HORRIFIC and the anxiety leading up to it was terrifying. I almost cancelled. We are finally going to try fertility drugs in July or august if we can’t do it naturally. To your point, the fertility journey isn’t about the procedures… it’s all the rest of it. It’s so painful. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being so honest. I’ve watched your channel for a while and have always loved your personality. But seeing this side of you, and seeing you own your truth, makes me truly respect you. God bless you and your husband on your journey. You’re going to get your baby! It will happen. Keep the faith and keep yourself enveloped in self-love. We will all be here for you, rooting you on. ❤

[@lavenderamethyst6050]

And I want to add: My husband and I have a bevy of health issues and have tried our damnedest to have kids this whole time. We want children more than ANYTHING!

[@MakeupByCheryl]

Again, I am so sorry you’ve been struggling. Sending all my love and prayers for you and Hubby from your neighbouring province 🇨🇦💕

[@heathermallins9985]

I wish I could hug you.....I'm 70 and have dealt with anxiety (leading to depression) off and on for my entire life. As I got older, it really subsided but listening to your articulate description brought back intense memories of the struggle..you are handling everything exactly as you should be. You are a champ and a warrior. Nobody did say that it was going to be easy but people like you and I are used to that. I believe that anxiety comes from 2 different places..1) it is chemical ie your wiring..it will come and go and meds will help if and when you need them 2) fear...anxiety is fear and you are confronting your fears. This will pay off huge for you once this period has passed and the dust has settled. I am praying for you dear sweet girl xoxo

[@sharonhart5646]

Just by chance l came across your video. OMG it was like me talking 15 years ago. All those feelings started rushing back. The IVF process, the veins that only 1 nurse can access, the highs of creating an embryo, the lows when your not pregnant. And anxiety taking over your body and life. I can tell by listening to you that you will be a mother one day. You have the same determination and passion to be a mother that l had and sometimes the most wonderful things happen not in the way you expect!

[@Brigitte_Cantin]

I am so sorry, I have no words other than that. It feels so inadequate. I hope and pray that your own prayers get answered soon. Hot flashes... bamboo sheets and clothes have helped ENORMOUSLY because I am not able to take meds for menopause. I cannot wait to hear the good news, my provincial sister 😊 😘💖😘💖

[@LindseyBedro]

I’m so sorry, Jenna. I’ve been by my sister-in-laws side as she went through IVF and I did the injections for her. Not only is infertility so difficult in itself but the IVF process is so taxing on the female body. It took 6 tries and 2 retrievals for them and it was only until they decided to switch doctors and their second doctor got it on the first try did they get pregnant. The first doctor was missing the transfer time for optimal embryo attachment by 12hrs, which that idea by itself is devastating just thinking that maybe those 5 previous tries could have been different. So I am sending you and your husband love and light in this difficult process and you are not alone.

[@angelafischer7788]

Jenna you are incredibly brave to share this journey publicly. I’m so sorry you are going through this. My husband and I suffered from secondary infertility. Several miscarriages. We did not openly share our struggles even to family because I was so fearful of the judgement. We were fortunate to have excellent insurance to cover exactly one round of IVF. We ended up with one embryo that was given a 10 percent chance. It implanted but my hcg numbers were super low, we were still looking at a slim chance of bringing home a baby. She is now 10 years old don’t lose hope. Sending you love!!!

[@leahparr1852]

I'm so glad that you felt able to share this with us Jena, and looking at the comments, you can see how much you've been missed. You've had a tough couple of years but you have handled it beautifully. By sharing your story I'm sure you've helped many people going through their own similar journeys. Welcome back, and just know you've got all of us within your community sending you lots of love, positive vibes and prayers xxx

[@courtneythompson1124]

I've not been through infertility but had severe postpartum anxiety/depression. It is debilitating. It took me a year and a half to finally realize I needed to be on medication. I'm also on Lexapro and it has helped me SO much. Love and prayers to you ❤️

[@creelyn8107]

As someone with a history of anxiety (and also a fellow nurse), I just wanted to say- I just watched this video and saw a very strong person!!! For hot flashes- try a tablespoon of flax seed in an ounce of water. Let soften for about an hour and chug down, qAM!

[@saundragrose7550]

A friend went thought 3 IVF's over 10 years and nothing worked. The doctor told them there was nothing else they could do. They resigned themselves to the fact that they would have no children and with that realization, they both relaxed and they let go of the stress and anxiety they had been going through during all the procedures and the waiting to find out if they were pregnant. The next year they had triples and the next year after that, they had twins! When I have anxiety about something serious I have to face, I just pray and turn it over to God knowing worrying will not do anything to help me and when I do that, I feel such a peace. Being a nurse, I know you know what stress can do to a body. I pray that the medication you are taking will alleviate that anxiety and stress on your body and that you will be able to conceive.

[@randiewawrzynski7200]

Anxiety is awful and has become a major part of society today. Mental health is as important as other health issues. I hope you can find a great regimen that works well. Be your own advocate and be honest to your providers ❤

[@StaciLeaBeauty]

I am only a minute in and just paused to say you are not alone. I have struggled with anxiety, OCD and panic attacks.

[@jillyp9181]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. You are very brave for sharing. Sending prayers and positive vibes to you both! ❤

[@Drolywa]

Sweet Jena, you are stronger than you know and braver than you think. I am wishing you peace and love regardless of the outcome of this incredible life struggle you are crossing through right now. Your life and pain are yours to choose to protect or share. But know that in the community you created we are reflecting back to you the joy and light that you have broadcasted on your channel. In the words of Robin Williams (Mrs. Doubtfire) “All my love to you, Poppet. You’re going to be ok.”

[@akatz6566]

I had some infertility issues too. Partly was an erratic sleep cycle since I was in residency and the other was stress. I went on a much needed vacation-hurt myself on that trip and had to elevated my legs due to a sprained ankle. My husband took advantage and I became pregnant. My body reset itself , cycling normally to have two additional healthy pregnancies. Once you resolve your anxiety/depression take another trip before you have an embryo transfer and you will be successful. Being relaxed without the cortisol spikes is truly important.

[@kathleenmoul3630]

You are so brave for sharing. I went through this a little over 40 years ago and didn't feel I could share with anyone. My husband and I were older and didn't have as many options. We did adopt - it was the best thing we ever did. Good luck with your journey.

[@jilljohnson251]

You are such a brave lady. I am in the same situation as you, fertility wise, but mid 40's. I fear that door has closed for myself, but I have faith that we will all become mothers in the way God has meant for us to be. I understand what you mean about the celebrities. Look at Mick Jagger! That man is still populating the world even in his 70's! Even Hillary Swank having twins at 48. I am so happy for her. She seems like such a great mama. It is still hard to think, "why them, and not me?"

[@katch7309]

Hi Jena, I’m so sorry you are going through this. Please read “Is your body baby friendly?” and “it starts with the egg” books before your next embryo transfer. So many doctors do not look into immune issues during IVF process, which is essential. Several of my friends had to do meds to suppress immune system and blood thinners to get pregnant. Wishing you all luck.

[@suecone2198]

I am so sorry to hear what you have been through, but I am happy you did share. I was thrilled to hear you say you believe in God and know he will take care of you. Sometimes we don’t always get what we want when we want it but down the road it all makes sense. I was born on my Mom & Dad 12 th weddings anniversary. I was an only child who always wanted an older brother! LOL hang in there you are getting a lot of prayers ! 🙏❤️

[@My_Girl_Milley]

You are not alone in your journey to fertility, many couples experience infertility, though it’s not spoken about enough. Life isn’t a race or competition, it’s a process and the less you focus on what everyone else is achieving, the happier you’ll be. It seems like you had a preconceived idea that one transfer would result in pregnancy, many rounds are often required. Take it slow and easy, and it never hurts to seek another opinion or explore options. The cost is far less than a luxury handbag and the reward of being a parent is far greater! The best parents will always sacrifice whatever is necessary for their child/ren. I wish you and your husband well on this journey and I appreciate you sharing, so others understand how common infertility is and how it really affects a person.

[@chasitywhitson7613]

I have had the same treatment with the reset on the Leuprolide injection (Lupron Depot). The shot s do make you have hot flashes, the only advice I have to give you is get a portable fan to carry in your purse for trips and outings. Have a small one on your night stand this helps so much. I also had so many mood swings with this. One minute I would be crying over absolutely nothing and than laughing. These symptoms want last forever, I was only allowed to be on this injection for 6 months. This will be nothing compared to what you have already went through. It will be worth it in the end, this is what I had to keep telling myself. Thank you for sharing, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Sending lots of love, hang in there!

[@jenieats_midwest]

Thank you for sharing your story. Sending you lots of hope and comfort and encouragement. Everything you feel while experiencing infertility is valid. I went through four failed IUIs and two egg retrievals that didn't produce any viable embryos. The heartbreak is fresh - wish I could give you a hug.

[@nicolefrick5709]

Praying for you and hoping you have success with the next transfer! Please keep us updated!

[@JulieMeikle]

My brother and sister-in-law have had this same journey. I’m so sorry you wished haven’t come true yet. And! The pain medicine has to change regarding those procedures. Barbaric!

[@paolapilonieta]

I’m happy to see you again. I’m sorry you’re going through infertility. I’ve been through that journey too. So true what you said about the conflicting feelings when you hear about your friends or celebrities getting pregnant. Sending you prayers.

[@1Riquena]

Panic attacks come on for no reason many times…. I’ve suffered from them since childhood… I take meds, I do therapy and have learn to cope and learned to manage my life in 66 ivethad really bad times but my quality of life has gotten good, I expect you to find the right medication and coping skills life will get better… many blessings!

[@beckyf5507]

So happy to see you back!! Will send tons of prayers for a successful pregnancy. I also deal with anxiety and depression, so I get the talking yourself through things. We're here for you!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤❤❤

[@Notperfecttonya]

Jena, everything you’re feeling is normal and also extremely heavy. I’m praying for you and your husband. I want to share a quick tip for dealing with that overwhelming anxiety-hold ice in your hands tightly. The panic attack will subside. Carry those ice packs you can break in your bag, or get creative on other ways to have ice. Ask the doctor’s office for ice to hold during any procedures. ❤ ❤ 🙏🏻🕊️✝️

[@shawnabloemer9564]

All my love and prayers for you and your husband. I have been through this process, and I understand the disappointment. It was just a dark time in my life, and the anxiety and depression are amplified, I believe, by the massive amount of medication. The doctor put two embryos in, and they both implanted. My twins are now 20 years old.

[@caterinaiona6397]

Dear Jena, you have to believe it deep down that soon you will have your miracle in you and in a few years you will be thinking of all this period in your life and be proud of yourself and your husband who is always by your side. I didn't have difficulty getting pregnant but I had keeping them. I had three miscarriages which were devastating. Now, at 56 I have a 29 year old daughter and a 26 year old son. The memory of all this pain I went through as I also had treatment to keep my son in, is gone and substituted by wonderful memories of bringing those kids up. I have been in menopause for 6 years and boy the hot flashes are still here especially now that the weather is hot here in Greece (I suffer all summer long) but I get through it with cold showers, lots of water and fans haha. I am sure that you will soon give us the good news, and please do update us. Meanwhile having your furry baby will mean a lot, I know because I have four cats and I had a Yorkie always near me. Take good care of yourself, and know that we need more people like you in this world, fighters with a warm smile on their face like you and a kind heart xx

[@rasha-elfaramawy]

Hi Jena, I admire your courage filming this video and I believe you have more courage to get through all the hardships in life and remember you are a beautiful woman inside out. Honestly if I were living in Canada I’d be honored to be your friend just because of your lovely personality 💕 Hang in there, don’t lose your faith and all good will happen when it’s meant to be 💜💜

[@melindakonopisos5193]

Oh, Jena! I promise to keep you in my prayers that you will become pregnant and have a beautiful, healthy baby. You are such a sweetheart. I’ve missed you and I’m so glad that you are back and feeling better . 🙏🙏🙏

[@SugaredSongbird]

I'm so sorry you're going through this! I will Pray for a future celebration of multiple children for you, and current peace. As for hot flashes, you could try Chilly pads for comfort. May He protect and keep you, His face to shine on you.

[@karissalauren9661]

Jena, you are a warrior. 💕 I’m so sorry you have had to go through this. I never went through IVF, but I had four miscarriages due to a clotting disorder. I have one year old girl/boy twins now after a high risk pregnancy that included giving myself shots every day. You and your husband are in my thoughts and I will be hoping for your little miracle. 💕

[@maureenhansen8321]

It always feels better to shine the light on the darkness as you did today Jenna. You are brave and your faith will continue to carry you through this journey too. I see a rainbow after this storm Jenna, I believe, i pray, I love, all these for you!❤

[@gaylefw5072]

Oh Jena, you have been on my mind and in my prayers. Please just know that the main thing is for you to take care of you! Makeup will always be here to chat about ❤ Sending you nothing but love. XO Gayle

[@Kiwi_Christine]

Firstly let me say it made me cry to know of that pain, anxiety and heartbreak you have had to endure. As someone who has PCOS and also had to have fertility treatment, as well as moments when it seemed everyone around me was getting pregnant (and I wanted to punch one woman lol), I get it! I am also someone who knows God and believes in prayer. I told myself God gave me a heart to be a mother so I was going to keep praying & believing it would happen. I got to tell my dying mother-in-law that I was pregnant just before she passed away. As for anxiety, I’ve gad small bouts of it which were awful so I can’t imagine how hard it is for you. I am praying that you conceive and that you have a 100% healthy baby. “So do not fear for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you & help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Bless you x P.s - I went on to have 2 healthy sons. One of their names I didn’t realise until later means in Hebrew “granted”. P.P.S - your husband sounds like such a great man; what a blessing to have him beside you in this.

[@kellysmith5105]

I’m so sorry you are going through this as I can relate after going through IVF 4 times and failed. God gave me my miracle child naturally after we relaxed and stopped IVF. I stopped all alcohol, caffeine, used natural cleaning products in my home, I tried everything and think it did help. I’m sure you God will give you your child as well. ❤❤❤

[@AmyRobertsonVan]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I relate. I have also been dealing with infertility since 2020 - I’m 39, and my ovaries are failing prematurely. I did five egg collections and only got five eggs total. Got no normal embryos. My lining is a mess too. The negative pregnancy tests every month and seeing others with babies is so, so heartbreaking. :(

[@patriciadebord1089]

Jena i went thru the IVF process you described perfectly. Prayer and powerful positivity hit me thru this. Hot flash drink ice water and have a fan at your desk. WALK WALK it got me out of my head and it help relieve stress. Put good music on and just walk. Best of Luck. BTW my girl turned 18. So blessed. You got this Yiu have a beautiful smile Hugs

[@heathersargent289]

I have been on so many different SSRI meds and the only one that actually helped some was the Lexapro it's alot more expensive then prozac ..lol . I am so sorry u are dealing with all this but I'm sending you love prayers and good energy, I know you will end up with a baby I feel it. Have you stopped using perfume and scents stop burning candles all of that for awhile , I know that helps alot . I know some clinics tell you that but idk about Canada. I totally understand the anxiety and depression I deal with it on the daily and have my whole life so I can empathize with you. U got this girl .. u can do it and always think positive.

[@jessicahall2248]

Sweetheart, there’s nothing to feel ashamed about, I’m so sorry that you went through all of that, but just rest assured that you are a strong women and god never throws stuff at you that he knows you won’t be able to handle! You got this! Sending my prayers and good wishes your way, I’m confident you will be a mom soon, but remember nothing happened before the right time ❤❤❤

[@mariavega7855]

I was on Lupron in my thirties and the hot flashes are real so carry a hand fan in your purse. I would break out in a heavy sweat, like I was running a marathon. I am now post menopausal and the hot flashes were not as intense during menopause as while on lupron. Wish you the very best in your journey. You are a champ!

[@janellethompson41]

I'm so incredibly sorry you are going through this. I cant imagine what you must be going through. Hang in there, there's light at the end of the tunnel.

[@lovinnnnlife]

Jena, just wanted to share that after 3 retrievals I’m now 26w with my IVF baby. From one warrior to another praying you get to the other side & sending so much love & baby dust ❤

[@lavayuki]

Aw oh no, so sorry to hear you went through all this. IVF and fertility is a very tough process for sure. I hope you have a successful pregnancy! I am surprised they don’t use anaesthetic for Lap and Dye in Canada, as we do in the UK. Sounds awfully painful being awake for that.

[@valerieshoopman4881]

I'm so sorry you are having problems conceiving! I myself never was able to have children ..I am 55 now. My Husband at the time and I went through infertility treatments too! HSC was horrible....back then they did not give any pain meds at all...I was told to take some Advil before the procedure. The procedure was soooo painful....I did have a nurse who held my hand during and I probably crushed her hand. I agree they should give more pain meds! At that point I stopped with any more treatment and tests. Years later I did get pregnant...however I miscarried and had to have surgery at that point. So I was never able to have a baby. I understand exactly how you feel! I finally realized this was not my lot in life...I hope your journey will end differently than mine did. Praying for you! God Bless You!

[@rona0215ify]

❤❤❤ God’s got you girl. I’m praying for His hand in your pregnancy journey. I admire your sharing and being such a positive, authentic, and inspiring individual. Much love to you!!!!

[@anna40299]

It's true, the panic is from fear of disappointment, but if you don't do it , the chances are less. We all pray for you and support you. Always focus on positive and repel negatives. Just don't have high hopes and treat the procedure like you are just going through motions. With no high hopes and and no expectations sometimes surprises you

[@kristencaddell8503]

Oh Jenna💔 Im so very sorry that your having to go thru this on top of having significant mental health issues! Ive struggled with anxiety & depression the majority of my life and its seems almost impossible to see things are going to get better. Im so happy you a wonderful husband to help you and go throught this with you! I bawled almost the whole video because you dont deserve to have to thru all this pain physically and mentally😢❤ You may not think this at the time, but you seriously are an AMAZING, STRONG & BEAUTIFUL woman!!❤💯 You're such a great role model for women all over the world going thru maybe 2 of the hardest private things a person can go thru, yet you are on social media opening up about your journey💯👏💪❤ I hope you will keep us updated bc Im rooting for you sooo much, this will be all worth it and your going to make a Wonderful mom.❤🤗

[@alyonza]

Jena, it’s true they are saying no matter how one may seem, you have no idea what a person is going through. Watching your videos I couldn’t even imagine the battle you’ve been fighting while staying positive on screen. I’m praying for the happy ending to this journey and patiently waiting to hear all about it (if you decide to share). P.S.: aren’t dogs just the best creatures ever? Always ready to comfort us and love us unconditionally🥺 Kisses to Harvey🤍

[@ashleywillard3033]

I hope this helps you even a little as it has helped me. My last trip to a mental hospital another patient helped me to recognize that my feelings are not facts. Just because I'm in a situation right now doesn't mean I'll always be that way. I have to tell myself that so much when my anxiety and depression are overwhelming. Hormones for women are just cruel in how they make us feel. Every birthday I would sob because I wasn't able to have a kid, turns out I have endometriosis and didn't find out until halfway through my pregnancy because no one bothered to tell me.

[@9catsandcraftsticks]

I don’t watch beauty channels anymore, although I have not unsubscribed, but something made me click onto this video. Girl, you are a BADASS!! You can overcome this!! Your anxiety does not define you and will not beat you (trust me, I am BiPolar and have BPD). I am also on Lexipro. It works wonders!! I am praying for your fertility journey. I believe God has a purpose for you. Prayer works!! 🙏🙏

[@marjoriebryan5415]

Don't give up!! it took me two years to get pregnant, and when I got pregnant the first time, it was one right after the other fast. I had 3 kids. All it takes is the first one.❤❤❤ 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@elizabethgreer27]

I cried so much for you watching this. I just wanna hug you babe. Its all gonna work out, I have faith. You will have a baby and you will be the best mom!! ❤ also, I feel you on this. I do have kids (they are 20, 15 and 12 now) but I want another baby and have for a few years now. Im 39 and I feel like it’s too late and I won’t be able to anymore. I know lots of women have babies at 39,40 and even 43. But it’s how I feel. And it makes me so upset. So please know that I love you and am rooting for you and understand you. I KNOW you will be pregnant come fall. ❤

[@jenfurlow9074]

Jena, I am so sorry you are going through this. My godmother told me of her journey with infertility. Treatments, disappointments, managing work who was not supportive. She ended up adopting a wonderful baby that blossomed into an educated, vibrant, adventurous young woman. I have never been a mother. My time passed. But hot flashes? Ooh! Frog togs around the neck and shoulders or those neck fans help! Also, (I have no shame) go hang out in the refrigerated sections. Once, I almost got kicked out of a store for sitting in along with the beer. I was dying!!! It helped so much. Keeping you in my prayers. ❤

[@stacys447]

This is a tough journey. You aren't alone. I am sorry that this is so tough. There are so many things that you cannot control, but I am so happy that you are feeling a bit better.

[@amandapanda75]

It took me 3 years before getting pregnant. Fertility doctors, shots, pills I did it all and once I got pregnant the flood gates opened and my daughter was 4 mths old when I found out I was pregnant again. It will happen for you😊😊😊😊

[@hannahmacleod6281]

I’m so sorry. You explained it all so perfectly. There was a study that said when people prayed or sent good wishes the outcome of ivf was more likely to be positive (I don’t know how scientific the study was as I only saw the overview but it doesn’t hurt and it’s harmless). I’m sending you all the good wishes and prayers that the next one sticks xx

[@noelleweetman2212]

You are an absolute warrior. Keep praying and fighting for your family. Infertility is so cruel and I wish they could figure out why it’s on the rise and couples like you struggle. Looking forward to content now that you’re feeling better.