Black Orchid - Blue October

I DON'T OWN THIS SHIZ. It is 100% Blue October's. Unless Universal owns some of it, then like, they own it too. So yeah.

[@adamhanson7584]

This song has the most powerful and haunting lyric that I have ever heard. "I want to belong to someone, but maybe life's not for everyone."

[@chermarie306]

Adam Hanson...I agree 100% its so deep.

[@mamastenz956]

YES

[@survivor139]

@Lina Beck Hey Lina, I absolutely was able to agree with your thoughts....NOT TODAY...Thank God. And wanted 2 reach out & see how ur doing today??? I can share what helped me...

[@tonyroeart7801]

first time i heard it it made me cry. not easy for a 30 something biker. lol. still brings a lump to my throat. shouldn't listen when drunk but there you go

[@seanblanchfield7482]

And he wrote it when he was 15yrs old

[@fireandpowder1021]

The greatest band to ever exist idk why, but when I feel that "itch" that many of you know. I turn on this song and scream it and I don't do that one thing with a razor. I am forever thankful for this band and their music.

[@ApproachingNormal]

Same here! The most criminally underrated band in history.

[@amblynnramblin]

❤

[@annieshairstyles7287]

The way he sings 'Cry' at 3:17 pulls at my very heart. Hearing the emotion he pours into his songs and lyrics is incredible. I will forever love everything this man has done.

[@weebabyshakeus]

“I want to belong to someone, but maybe life’s not for everyone” I think about this lyric every night as I fall asleep, hoping I don’t wake in the morning.

[@PM-vv3uc]

Try to see a new day as a gift and see every new day as a new chance to get better. Stay strong

[@raimundematiusaityte9929]

I have found out that you don't need other people to be happy. But if you give yourself to others - helping those who are in need, life suddently starts give meaning and suddently there are many people around you.

[@zuno09ify]

Live your life your own way. Be happy 👑🙏🥳

[@kecona]

When he sings 'Cry' at 3:17, it just rips my heart apart. You can hear the pain so clearly.

[@mamastenz956]

YES

[@mamastenz956]

He wrote this song about his mother & Its truly moving because of the guilt he feels & the pain

[@mamastenz956]

Sometimes we cannot fix things & it sucks

[@That.IrishBastard1916]

❤

[@bethieboop5504]

There's a live performances where he tells when he first sang this song. He was only 16 and that's all I'll tell. It's a great story that only he can tell.

[@deaddragonskull]

I discovered this song when I was 14 and deeply suicidal and the lyrics spoke to me so much it finally felt like someone understood the pain I was going through. I'm 22 now and listening to it for the first time in years. The lyrics still shake me to my core, and it's still has that coldly comforting feeling to it. No one came into my room, but at least I had this song to help me get through it without having to do it alone.

[@carolcotton9033]

You are worthy. And you are enough!

[@mattbunten244]

You’re 24 now. You still alive?

[@suzrachel9036]

I've been a fan for 10 yrs and I keep finding all these great songs of blue October thank god for the Internet for these reasons ❤️

[@jennyjennyjenny]

Blue Octobers songs touch my heart in a way no other bands songs have. Songs don't usually make me cry, but almost always tear up when I listen to their music. Its just like you can feel the raw emotion coming through your speakers, Justin just writes with such a way that nothing is sugar coated. No cover ups, no bullshit. Hes not afraid that someone will call him "emo" or whatever. And this song is a perfect example of that.

[@stevenmckinney9924]

"An empty bed, but all of my sheets are gone... they're wrapped around me and you. And all is quiet but the drop of my gun, 'cuz I... I want to belong..." 😭 the exact feeling the moment I almost took myself out of this world.

[@sweetiebep90]

this song has nothing to do with his ex wife or his children. he wrote this when he was a teenager, a long time before Blue October ever existed :)

[@Kelseysmyangel]

+Brianna Pugh its about suicide, and yes he wrote it way before they came in his life.

[@Elphonzier]

wrote it when he was 16 before he invented Blue October, was written when Justin was still with Last Wish

[@facemeetspavement1]

He wrote this while on H...... and get off of it......... Some TX History....lol

[@ilovesteveclark6084]

@@facemeetspavement1 thank you for that info. That's what I assumed it was about, that damned heroin. It's evil and relentless and it won't stop until it kills it's victims.

[@damongeer8873]

Shut up

[@Krevvenstuff]

Parents: Awful people. Friends: I have like two or three left who are still good, the rest were just fair-weather. I appreciate what I have dearly, but sometimes I hit a low point and feel this song with 200% of my being. Gotta remind myself that there are people who care about me, even if it's only a very small few. Tomorrow is always a chance for a better day.

[@fadedsinner7019]

Been a fan of these guys, of Justin, since 06. Their music saved my life when I wanted to end it. It got me through the darkest moments in my life and it even healed the rift between me and my mom. I wish I could properly thank Justin and them for what their music has done for me.

[@darlenecastillo8654]

Very beautiful... No matter how much my life turns upside down, I listen to Blue October and all my tears and pain turn to love, grateful and peace. Thank you Justin 💙

[@tessafenton6544]

Justin is such an amazing guy. I went to a concert and he was such an amazing person. Inside and out. He has one of the biggest hearts out there. I wish there were more artists like him; who do it for his fans and not just the title and the money.

[@Keyc94]

Tessa Fenton there are really many bands and persons that do it, you have to find them. But the first step is you have to let them in ur heart

[@carolcotton9033]

He's singing to all who are suicidal. Please call someone. You leave behind someone who is in pain for the rest of their life. Don't do it!

[@Virginiaa101]

"Leave me alone, just go away . Mother I'm so scared, I'm so scared" Those lyrics really hit home for me. I hope and pray my son never has to go through this.

[@rachealdulaney4306]

I was in such a bad place the last time I listened to this. I just want to hug that person who sobbed as she listened.

[@allycat2660]

my boyfriend and I were listening to this laying on his bed in the dark and I heard him start to cry and it made me start crying. This is such a powerful song.

[@nikkili11]

I know that it sounds cliché, but really... it gets better. Little by little. like Justin sings on his new album, "Time heals everything." I've been here before, thinking, "Maybe life isn't for everyone..." If you're feeling the same, know that so many of us have been there and lived through it. Your depression is going to try to convince you that this is how you have always felt, and how you will always feel. It's lying to you. "Life's like a jump rope." Ask for help. One small step at a time. You're worth it, and you are loved.

[@27softballfreak]

It doesn't matter how many times I listen to this song.... I still find myself in tears...

[@jesusXdiablo]

And to think Justin wrote this at age 14... He's amazing and living proof that anyone who feels like this can indeed get by to live a great life when they're older, including sucess and a great family. :)

[@ayyjaxon8981]

"it's not that I'm scared to learn why I'm empty inside"

[@joryjennings7527]

This makes me cry everytime... it kinda hits home and it rips the emotion out of you...

[@kryace]

singing from his heart making other hearts beating and crying! this is wonderful!

[@ellaredbrooks]

This is an amazing song and it's hard to believe what Justin has been through

[@christinacunningham9441]

best song they have shows his feelings at this time in his life i totally connect

[@OGMizen]

Beautiful. Just beyond!

[@allisonm4277]

Hauntingly beautiful

[@diviningoildesigns]

This song is truly so very sad, but so very good. I love Justin so much. What an incredible Artist.

[@AScaryGhost]

I understand the mood of this song a lot... and it pulls at me constantly knowing that this song is true to some people... The pain that we obtain through love and hate, war and peace... I like this song alot... Very good work on the timing of the words Lilugo77.

[@zinadrama]

I'me in love with Blue October since the moment i've first listened to thiw song.. It "talks" right inside my heart and soul...

[@P.Jlive2024]

This song was written when he was 16... Justin's an old soul..

[@ramofusang390]

The song basicly convays my exact feelings and way of thinking when I was at my worse in my battle with clinical depression... Ive decided that for an upcoming concert for my band we are going to be playing this with me singing this band basically saved my life

[@norightturn7047]

I'm not defending Justin's ex wife or what she did to him. I don't know all the story. We know his side but I do want to say it is VERY HARD for normal people to live with people like us. No matter how well we're doing.....we will never be quite normal and I just think it takes more strength than most people have to deal with that. So I'm glad he's found someone new. His new wife sounds like an incredible and strong woman.

[@thehollowpillow]

+Jamie Pinson what happen to him?

[@jakes1590]

+Ray Warnken drugs

[@CiarraMMichelle]

Jamie Pinson what exactly constitutes as 'normal'?

[@angelandres1130]

xstalkmedownn someone who's not disabled.

[@AnarchistPoop]

@@CiarraMMichelle Someone who isnt a burder to others, dude. You know what he means. Addicts and depressive people are a pain in the ass to deal with. I have depression and I know I'm insufferable. And I own up to that. You do the same.

[@snotty2345]

I got the live version from itunes, and let me tell you, there it's way more emotional than the recorded one. I listen to it every morning while I'm getting ready, it gets me in one of my moods for the day.

[@stephanieburrows1549]

Thank you for your playlist, I really needed it today.

[@StillTheArm11]

The violin at the beginning always gets me

[@seanflynn00]

His voice is so haunting but beautiful!

[@MykayaKi]

I will forever love this song♥

[@kadenpeacock5019]

I once tried to end my life listening to this song. It is the most beautiful and sad song I've ever heard and I love justin for putting into words the feelings I could never express. I have autism so it's hard for me to feel emotions the way normal people do. With every word in this song I feel the sorrow and grief that I've hidden from by using alcohol. Justin is a gift from the lord above.

[@maevem5569]

this song is so depressive but it showing how's beautiful sadness can be!

[@xtracaffeinated521]

Depression isnt beautiful. Its just dead. That's where it goes. Life isnt for everyone.... 's selfish needs.

[@Heisenberg-gs2ij]

I love this song so much, one of the few songs where I prefer the live version. The part where he says "I want to belong, to someone " in the live version he add "god, to someone" makes it feel so much more powerful and adds so much more pain to the words. Also, he write this as a teenager as a confession to his mum. Such an inspirational guy.

[@kevinfrench7082]

AWESOME! I LOVE THIS! Great lyrics, I enjoy every single word! brings a feeling I have to life! Thank YOU!

[@bluegirl269]

It's like he knows me. I ODed my Mom found me she took me to the hospital she literally saved my life!! I wanted everyone to hate me but they all still love me somehow through my fucked up life still fighting.

[@bluegirl269]

Thanks for your understanding so many people don't understand. I have been fighting with all the voices in my head for many years I was 13 when my Mom found me in my bedroom overdosed i really wanted my Mom to hate me so i couldnt cause her anymore pain i still have that feeling just fucking hate me but that never happened they still love me that's why I said its like Justin has truly been through a lot of the same fight I'm still fighting. His songs has helped me know I'm not alone and I will keep fighting the fight. Thank you for your kind words and support I'm tired but somehow I still have some fight in me maybe one day I can be strong enough to win the fight. Thank you for caring you are a special person to have kind words for a stranger.

[@stephaniehinton8955]

You are quite welcome. Chin up, my friend.

[@nikkili11]

I have been there too. I'm glad we both made it through. Keep fighting.

[@bluegirl269]

Nikki Li Apple I am glad you are keeping up the good fight!!!! I am proud of anyone that has kept going and not give up because it will make us stronger . it does take alot of strength to fight this fight . Thank you for the support kind words always help.

[@richvaillencourt6597]

The best part of Justin is the fact that he is brutally honest, he doesn't sugar coat what he has been through. I've been able to relate to all of the Blue October albums, so much so that I didn't want to listen to the last 2 because he was happy; I wasn't ready for that so I thought. I told him this at his "open book tour". He told me that I wasn't the first person to tell him that. Eventually I just had to listen, and of course, right on time.

[@Tixkheartlessprinces]

It's interesting how you can find a song that matches exactly how you feel.

[@souki6951]

i go to my room ,cry cry cry .....every time when i hear this sound

[@theTwoFacedAngel]

I love Justin so much cause he's so out about his problems. The discography of Blue October is like a chronicle of his journey through coping with bipolar disorder, addiction, and even his divorce and custody battle. It's BECAUSE of that that Blue Octobers music is so genuine. They're not a band singing about bad stuff to give people something to listen to. Anyone can write a song about a girl who cheats and runs off with your stuff. Leave it to a guy like Justin who's been run through the emotional wringer by a woman who put him through every mans nightmare: have your wife walk out on you and then try to take your child from you. Someone who's been there can write it so much better. Look at me I'm rambling. TL;DR Justin has been through so much shit that he doesn't have to come up with stuff, he can write about his life and give you an album of pain and anguish that feels completely real.

[@organizedchaos7111]

Don't feel bad it's been like that for me for the last 3 years. All my friends have disappeared. When I had money and drugs everyone's your friend then when it runs out your left with all those feelings that brought you there to begin with alone. Life sucks and I hate everybody. Uncapable of love and trust. Just straight up fucking alone. If I had a gun I'd eat it. Sad but true. Just a matter of time

[@miikeconville5203]

+David Carrafiello fuckin do it then...u gutless shit

[@tiffanyhardin1840]

Organized Chaos I feel you bro. My friends aunt shot herself with mybfriend ass own gun. When her dad said suicide is the cowards way out..... she said i dont agree. It takes guts and big balls to hold a gun to your head and pull the trigger.... Three days later her dad held the gun and pulled the trigger... shes forever haunted with the her permission...grief comes in one size. Unbelievably fucking ridiculously large.

[@heavenkept]

So much Love for this .... Blue in general Amazing

[@rVillanueva1111]

I’m in this right now. Tears in my eyes and I just feel lonely and feel done.

[@kyrahschultz9118]

I feel like justin understands me, like these songs were written for me.

[@katieschultz6109]

Kyrah Schultz hey it’s a fellow schultz

[@CindyLGodet]

Same here!

[@cristenk7230]

Depression is a language of its own

[@jamiegregory7576]

my favorite song to play and sing to it is me all rolled into one my addictions and life iv been clean a year now .thanks for the great song

[@masonchadwick8556]

How's it going now? Have you managed to stay clean and straight? I wish you all the luci

[@ryanmcginley3427]

This song I found a few years ago and just loved the truth of his word's and now I found the song again and it is at this time of my life it touches my heart, cause I found my 17 year old son dead 8/26/13 and it was a accidental overdose and I had know idea what he took, I had sent him to live with my mom at the time cause where I lived in Utah the teacher's were cruel because of religion, after he passed my so called boyfriend cheated on me getting drunk and tried to get violent with me and told me get over your dead f--Ken son. That was all done to me 2 months after my baby's death, I left and I decided the day I was holding my son's lifeless body in my arm's that I was going to get through my grief sober and I haven't had a drink since Oct 2013, I love alot of Justin's song's they help with telling of raw emotional feelings. So thank you Justin for sharing.

[@micahbland1128]

Such a haunting and perfect description of exactly what it is like.

[@bobbileestofleth7559]

This song will always mean so much to me.

[@cocojane2]

Ahh I am sobbing :( Love you sooo much, Larry !

[@Ga7man001]

yea in an interview he said something along the lines of he always shared his songs with his mother first and this song was a confession to her that he was going thur a hard time

[@wolfvampire6806]

this makes me think about my mom n me

[@saramcdonald5624]

This song hits so hard, love it

[@exibitions]

best advice ive ever gotten:dont get attached to anyone then you cant get hurt

[@tracybradlly7416]

Thank you for this posting. I like it

[@bruhitscookie8090]

The picture of the black orchid is so pretty.

[@fenn__fenn]

Love love love this song(: Blue October is such an amazing bandd!!

[@HelloHurricanex3]

True love right here. It's a beautiful song that myself, and i'm sure many others can relate to.

[@disarmmenow]

The tears are still rolling down my face someone out there i hope you are knowing what this is all about

[@smar18012007]

such beautiful song.....

[@lilugo77]

I know, it always makes me sad every time I hear it, even though I've heard it a billion times. It's so sad but so beautiful. ♥

[@justingaskins2956]

This song helped me through a time whn suicide seemed my only peace n now I'm back at tht dark place

[@LisaLavigne95]

this song is soo wonderful...it makes me cry!

[@Mrfolgers69]

This song puts me in a zone that I can't explain it's like a sad/suicide feeling. I hate life but at the same time it's the thing I most value.

[@smoke420chillandromeda8]

Oh wow this is really powerful stuff I love it omg he took great pride in this song wow

[@That.IrishBastard1916]

I love this man.

[@FCTTFAF]

This is how I've felt a lot. Beautiful song.

[@MrMuffin0111]

i listen to this song everyday and it just reminds me of sad moments of my life beautiful song work of art

[@BPgamer77]

This is an amazing song that Im sure alot of people can relate to.

[@lilugo77]

I know this song gets me too. I cried the first time I heard it. And I still kinda do. lol I'm glad you like it! :)

[@lilugo77]

That is absolutely true.. It makes me feel the same way. Such a sad song.. :[ Oh and Thank You! :]

[@MrFunnyman1130]

this song is one of there best, in my top five favorite songs

[@CindyLGodet]

So powerful... My goodness!

[@OceansFreedom]

I love the black orchid..sends chills down my spine.. stunning

[@derrickfrancisco3621]

I love this song..

[@CiarraMMichelle]

"Just go away. " That's me.. Just pushing everyone away. Every morning, I wake up with the same sadness. I want someone to hold me, but not just anyone. The one I want to hold me is dead. "Maybe life is not for everyone. " I know I don't have the nerve to end it all, so I'll just listen to this song over and over again.. Just go away. .

[@kaylaaponte4459]

this is so awesom

[@samfisher20041]

absolutely one of my favourite blue october songs.. just awesome! i always get goose bumps when i hear it ;)

[@ssmiddy17]

Best Blue October song ever.

[@racky2015]

at first i hated this song and now i love it-rachel got me addicted

[@kevinpayne8714]

I hate people who say there your friend and get you to care about them and would give any thing to make them happy and use you and lie to you about every thing some times carrying hurts worse

[@trinkaparthemore7362]

This song got so many words it fits me and I can't stop feeling the way I do this song got at lot of memories no one can understand the way I feel

[@Enrique3Tears]

its beautiful...

[@juverodriguez2980]

The piano at 5:20 just get me in the deep feelings!

[@kevinpayne8714]

any time and im glad you feel better

[@leamromero6027]

Beautiful flower. My next tattoo on my left arm.

[@valargenal]

For all those people who don't know this man's incredible story, he had a disease that made him unable to tell real events from fakes(he would argue with trees as a child) and he met a woman who he later married, but while he was on tour she cheated on him with a man named James and whenever he would suspect something, he would ask if it was true, and she would always deny it.(Hear this part of the story in his song "The End" ->) They divorced when he found out and he visited his former/her house and saw her and James in the bedroom and decided he had to get a closer look so he went inside and walked in on them. (In the song he exaggerates this part by using a gun and killing them and himself) he beat up James. Later, they got restraining orders for all of the family... And Blue, Justin's daughter. Justin would never be able to see Blue again.(there are even recordings clearly showing Blue saying "Daddy, but I want to stay with you" even though the wife was a great mom) Justin went a little bit crazy and almost suicided, but he finally found happiness again and married a new woman and got a new daughter.

[@aspenrider6280]

Wow that was like worded great! This is kind of a weird question...Would you mind if I copied and paste this? It will go a couple friends who want to know his story and I give like every little detail and this is just to the point! If not its understandable..Thank you for your time! Have a great rest of the week! Love n' Laughs xxx-A huge blue Fan (since 'the last wish')

[@deirdremcgoldrick7857]

valargenal You just Left Out a Small Fact(not) that Justin is an Addict, & suffers from the disease of Addiction. He's in Recovery today.

[@parkersmith9436]

I'm confused... blue is in like every other instagram story of his so how can this be true that he can't see her?

[@TheJesterJasper]

So true. It makes me reflect and think about all of the saddest moments in my life and the lives of many others I know. For me, this is the perfect emotional song... :') or :'(

[@kathyhaslett3387]

Love this

[@lizbaldwin7023]

This is going to be playing while I end it tonight... I can't take it anymore!

[@christinemarieciurlino-dun4002]

😢😢😢😢Amazing song touches you!

[@skatj23]

My friend showed me blue October this was my forth song and it brought me to tears..

[@kevinpayne8714]

you make me feel better

[@1christie1]

i just love this song

[@lilugo77]

lol nice. now that's what I call a friend! lolol. it sounds like your pretty happy now, im glad to hear it. :) I don't like when people are sad either.