Linkin Park Breaking the Habit | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@jennifercardwell258]

Forgive me. I know how you feel. Chester, not directly, understood my pain. I'm the child of an undifferentiated schizophrenic. I desperately wanted someone to love me. My mom gave me away sometimes. Momma died on July 11, 2016. My grandmother found something very special. Momma had made a scrapbook for me. Only me. She did love me, she was just sick. People choose to take drugs and alcohol and I definitely want to say that Momma didn't choose schizophrenia. I'm glad to know that Momma did love me. I just didn't understand.

[@Defensive_Wounds]

I think that the hardest thing to do is to stay alive. I mean, seriously... Everyone alive right now, are soldiers who have gone through their own battles and wars to still be around and still go on.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@jennifercardwell258 I am SO happy that she left that for you to show you her heart beneath all the symptoms. How beautiful!

[@scottlally4030]

CAN YOU REACT TO THE BAND CITIZEN SOLDIER SONGS .

[@Michiavello]

I have family and friends that have battled with mental health issues. I, myself, have battled through mental health issues. All we can do, is do our best. Be the best person we can be for ourselves, and be the best person we can be for others. It's not easy, and it's easier said than done, but it can be done. And it will be done. I refuse to fail myself and others, and neither should you.

[@shadowfox2120]

Glad you are still here with us. Loved this song when it came out and am a huge fan of their music. So sad what happened.

[@matty_mcmattface]

We can never know how many people Chester has saved and that makes his loss all the more tragic. I'm certain that Chester saved you so that you can share your experience and help others just as you are doing now. Suicide doesn't end the pain, it just passes on to those who love you and care about you. RIP Chester & Stay Strong Amanda ;;

[@pcarts232]

Yes brother

[@davidward9737]

Amanda saved my life. It doesn't have to be a movie star or rock star. It is the simple things. Us implorables, that get shat on and people don't think twice when your in the gutter. Small thing and accepting accountability gives people grace. You are in the gutter so when you claw out you know what it is like to be there. Having a tent stealing bk wifi. Because your bestfriend died, you lost your house and everything, then your bestfriend kills themself, then your friend kills people in a auto accident . Then throw cancer on top of it, degenerative hips and lung disease. Yeah rainbows

[@coolbanana165]

The beauty and meaning he gave to the world will be preserved, through technology, for hundreds of years. The world is better because he was here.

[@chrisburnett1638]

I've never felt a loss more than Chester's, Linkin Park helped me through college

[@kristiklisch2915]

Mine was Leave Out All The Rest, I was screaming those lyrics when I was ready to go. When I heard about Chester that was the song I went to immediately. I still struggle with suicidal ideation and was in the ER with a complete breakdown just last night. Thank you for sharing your story Amanda

[@niyalomanatung6305]

Keep holding on bro.. U deserve much more..

[@MentalAmanda]

When my mom died, I sang Leave Out All the Rest to myself while being held at the hospital and psyche ward because they deemed me a danger to myself. That song got me through for the weeks following her passing. I'm here if you need to talk.

[@leewesley1961]

@@MentalAmanda when my dad passed away i completly changed i would not cry,i would get angrier,blame everyone for anything i would think up,hardly sleep,feel violent and drink a lot the only thing that helped me was some words that my mum said to me when she told me that she swore that she heard him say to her i love you all forever then i started to try to feel again but some days i pretend to let my family think that i am ok then i would feel down,angry and sad but i have to keep on going for my mum because i got a phone call from him the day before he died telling me that i am such a good son and he then said please look after you're mother because if anyone can it's you so everyday i try to do what he asked me while i am still trying to get over my stress disorder but i keep going just to help my mum as much as i can

[@Lemon-rk9hq]

Mine are easier to run and by myself

[@blackdog6969]

We're here, Kristi. Even now, reach out to any of us if you need. We all go through hell, I sure have and I'm willing to be a voice and an ear to talk to.

[@garyzigler452]

I thank God everyday that you are still with us. You are such an inspiration to us all. It really tore me up when I saw this video and I could really feel your pain. I don't care if you cry because it's all apart of the healing process. I don't ever want you to be or feel ashamed for crying. I do understand it's always painful and that it's like reliving a nightmare. But now you have so many of us that are right here with you. ❤you Amanda

[@da_uno]

I've never been suicidal, but Linkin Park has sure helped me through a LOT of dark periods of my life.

[@TravMaxAdventures]

I am completely honored to be able to watch this video with you. I know the memories will always be tough and will always be fresh, but I am glad you are still with us today and strong enough to share your story. Strong enough to spread awareness of how scary and confusing the many aspects of depression can be. Strong enough to let us know that there will always be hope. Strong enough to let us know we are not alone. Simply put, the strength you show is commendable. So thank you. Thank you for everything you have done and everything you are doing for the shattered and defeated. Thank you for proving situations can turn around and things can get better. You are truly inspirational. Much love AW.

[@JeremyGerstenberg]

Please for the love of God, keep this going. WE need you and by we I mean mental health survivors and patients. I was suicidal as well and I cannot tell you how many times this man got me through it! You are amazing for what you do and what you obviously have gone through!

[@davidwheeler8543]

I'm sure I speak for many on here. But so pleased you are still here with us fighting the fight. You are a huge help and inspiration to many people. Sending you a huge hug thousands of miles across the sea. Thank you for everything you do Amanda.

[@spinxz_314]

Chester and Mike were so good at writing lyrics and putting words to our feelings. Their voices were so emotionally filled. They complimented each other so well.

[@murka197]

When I had a difficult period in my life, I remember listening to this song often (but at that time I hardly knew English) and it was so emotional it seemed that it could be understood without words. Interestingly, Mike wrote this song for his friend (who was also addicted) and for Chester. Chester cried when he recorded this song, but this song changed his life. Maybe this song saved Chester's life at the time, as did you and many others.

[@nothere0135]

Chester connected to our darkness because he knew how it was. For this i am eternally grateful. He lost his battle, but saved milions and is up to us to repay this kindness.

[@briansgamesandanime]

This was the very first song I ever heard by Linkin Park. I didn't even know it was Linkin Park at the time. I just remember crying like a baby because everything I had been holding and feeling inside had been brought to the surface. I'm doing a little better now but I still have problems with self worth. I'll probably always have trust issues but I'm slowly coming out of my shell. Thank for sharing your story and being open to hearing some of mine.❤️

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for sharing with us! Just think of it this way, you're One Step Closer to being a better version of yourself. (See what I did there? 😂) What next step can you take?

[@pcarts232]

Stay strong brother

[@maatoapolamalu9089]

I can totally relate to how it feels to be depressed. I use to never talk about it but I can do it without hesitation now. About 5 years ago I lost 18 of my brothers and sisters in one mission in Afghanistan with the US Army. I saw most of them die first hand. As I got back to the base I was told my mother died of cancer which only made things worse. Then I got back to the USA after my deployment I got into drugs and alcohol and I let it control me. It got so bad that I was about to jump until a girl came up and talked to me. She is now my fiancé 4 years later and we are the happiest we’ve ever been. She saved my life along with Chester who I saw live just before his untimely passing. I care if One More Light goes out.

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so glad you got a happy ending after enduring so much loss and pain. I'm proud of you. And I also care if One More Light goes out!

[@aliceathenahyde6659]

I've just come across this video. I just want to hug you. You are a beautiful person and I am so thankful for your videos, for your strength, for you. Thank you ❤

[@alejandrinoelenes6620]

Thank you so much for sharing and baring your soul like this. It is so appreciated and comforting. Please know how precious and loved you truly are. Thank you.

[@aidaneckart5054]

Making this video shows your incredible strength. That cleaning crew definitely was not a coincidence. Chester was a gift to all of us. May he rest in peace. And thank you for doing these videos. You are making such a great difference.

[@NOSpwered]

Thank you so much for putting yourself out there like this, it took me a long time to realize a lot of Chester's lyrics

[@leewesley1961]

chester bennington will be happy up there right now with all of the greats chearing him on while he sings to them!

[@chadthomas9297]

I see your pain in your eyes. I hear your pain in your voice. I hear the arms reaching in the song. Just as you did. Music talks to us. Some people just waltz on by as they are reached out to by the message in the music. You're a beautiful soul and I'm happy you're stronger and still with us.

[@ericyoungstrom5745]

Damn you (in the sweetest way possible) for being so open about your fight, your struggle. Great creation and your video (and others) help.

[@dasmurfy92]

Same here. When I lost my mom a few years back and Chester helped me through my pain. I still go back to Linkin Park when I start loosing my mind and heading down that dark road..Thank you!!

[@DoggfatherUK]

Sorry for your loss. I lost my Mum 3 years ago and my youngest brother this year. So know what you must be feeling. The pain doesn't go away. You just Learn to deal with it better, and Chesters music certainly has helped me as well.

[@jamessmith7959]

I love you so much your the first reaction channel that I see and feel has real concern for others I'm very empathic and feel your real emotions, please keep your compassion.

[@LeeB41]

Thank you for sharing your pain with us. You are helping SO many people. You are brave and strong. Keep fighting. I just want to give you a hug.

[@bjvarden]

This song saved my life too! Thank you so much for sharing this!

[@bjvarden]

There's new Linkin Park coming out on Friday, from the Meteora archives! With Chester!

[@leroyanderson2843]

"I'LL NEVER BE ALL RIGHT!" Hits hard, my tears and deep emotion still gets in even being BURNT OUT listening to this song does and I'm 55 years old. I handle all that has happened since my first cut in 1987 and last time was in 2013. I never really placed a band, their music to the times I had cut myself. When I did have that music to relate to was on Nightwish, Evanescence and Linkin Park. It was more on Linkin Park when I had found a band that got how I was from my view on life. CRAWLING was mine.

[@christopherelsworth9559]

First video I’ve seen of your channel. Well done! Aside from all that: I couldn’t be happier you’re still with us. Thanks for sticking around, you badass soul, you

[@stevendeible3789]

Thank you so much, Amanda for standing up and talking about what seems to make people walk away. Almost every video I've watched has struck a nerve, but it's getting everything in the open. Four years ago, I put a loaded 22 pistol to my head and pulled the trigger. The gun never went off. For a few weeks I spent in the hospital, I kept asking why. Why was I spared? 5 months after, I was holding my brand new grandson for the first time. I am now spending time with what makes me feel needed. It may not sound like much, but hearing him say I love you Papa makes the whole fight worth it. I am also using this time to go back to one of my first ventures that I have always wanted to do. I use to play for a Christian metal band, until I lost My girlfriend to suicide. I am now working on music to bring some help to all that have lost or feel lost. Thank you again, and we all love you

[@MentalAmanda]

It sounds like a LOT. Many of the things I listed in my video on what I would have missed had I jumped are about my son. kzbin.info/www/bejne/a5-4gZKKibmGoMU Proud of you for getting back to your healing and happiness! She's proud that you're using your pain and hers to help others!

[@kingmetalant]

I never knew why I loved this song until you describe the song....sufferer of depression myself now it hurts and makes me understand more, Thank you!

[@MentalAmanda]

Here if you ever need to talk!

[@ingridtaylor9397]

I totally understand you, I’m struggling, thank you for sharing I’m here for you my friend ❤❤

[@Jjoker74]

I'm glad you shared your story. Music in general is a life saver, and Linkin Park leads the pack with such emotionally charged songs. Thank you for making the right decision that day.

[@Demodude1234]

Thank you for your courage and bravery with sharing so much of yourself and your story. It gives a lot of people hope, including me. I'm happy you're still with us fighting the fight. Keep being awesome!

[@orca8433]

Thank you for being vulnerable to the world. I wish more people were willing to do this more. You are so brave to show you are not consistently strong. I know will never meet, but my heart goes to you. ❤

[@Doenstop]

I just randomly listened to the song and stumbled on this video, I'm very glad this song gave you strength in life, and I wish you from the bottom of my heart much more strength and perseverence in the future. :)

[@neilcooper2966]

This was incredibly brave. They're still my comfort blanket. Glad you're in a better place now.

[@adamhastings750]

Thank you for sharing this, I know where you are speaking from. Long time ago, I had a gun in one hand and a bullet in the other, I was ready to end it. I know your pain, I've lived it, so thank you for this, your fighting the good fight! I still deal with depression on and off but, your right, it gets better. Ps linkin Park has a special place in my heart too, they helped me deal with a bad time in my life. Keep up the fantastic job your doing!

[@MentalAmanda]

Glad you are still here and finding healing!

[@CT--gu5ng]

Amanda Webster. Its great your still with us. I work at a church where me and my family go to and I just want to tell you that god loves you and he will always be with you

[@randallalvarez8784]

I’m glad I found you and a group like this. Glad your still with us. Linkin park touched so many people from all walks of life. The song that turned me around was crawling the live version from the one more light tour when he is in the crowd. The pain is truly heard. That is one of you have not heard yet I would definitely suggest reacting to or at least giving it a listen on your own.

[@rainman42]

I started to tear up a few min in....glad you are here and that music helped...you are just as important as anyone else...his words are haunting in this song......

[@internaut4257]

I'm glad you're still here with us Amanda

[@Dave534]

I have watched a lot of your videos please keep doing what you are doing you are helping so many people

[@OtherScruffy]

To admit and cry and decide to still upload to hope making others happy is a massive testament to your mental strength. I've been in your position. I still am. I'm very glad I've found this video. I don't feel so alone anymore.

[@MentalAmanda]

So humbled to be able to offer any kind of comfort. We're here if you need us!

[@powerthroughlife2020]

I have been watching a couple of your videos. I must say you are extremely strong in your transparency. I will be putting out mental health material very soon on my IG and soon on KZbin. Especially in these times, this is needed! You’re a beacon of light for everyone struggling or not. You’re an inspiration for everyone. If you don’t mind I’m going to start pushing your channel and making everyone aware of this content. You’re an amazing person and deserves a spotlight shone on you.

[@MentalAmanda]

I very much appreciate it! What is your IG?

[@powerthroughlife2020]

and thank you for responding. Right now I am a professional fitness coach all about the body inside and out. Rest, recovery and nutrition is 90% of how you live and how your mind will work depending on the fuel it is given. But, coming across you, stevieknight, officertatum, candiceowens, benshapiro and a few others that are finally putting emphasis on what’s the most important thing of all and sums up majority of what’s going on today and that’s mental health. Everything else comes after that. I’ve been through my own share of mental health issues and still struggle to this day which I will be putting out there as well. . Keep it moving strong and steady. You’re awesome 👏

[@Oh_its_Mike]

Girl are you good? You're on the verge of tears in every video. Sending virtual hugs ❤🧡💛

[@MentalAmanda]

You must not be watching very many of my videos! I'm doing pretty darn good and the videos that really cut deep are about 1 in 10 😊

[@ProxyMooseGaming]

Thank you for sharing your story. Reacting to this video took tremendous strength. Keep up the good work.

[@childofgod997]

What you're doing is just amazing. Our generation needs more people like u. Everyone shld accept and open up for better there was a time when i was suicidal n Linkin park's songs were life saver n a light of hope.

[@MetalBeard_Solid]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Amanda. You truly are wonderful person and, with this channel and everything else you do, a massive help to more people around the world than you think.

[@heresheis2063]

You are definitely not alone. As a LP and Chester fan I am truly glad to know that LP and Chester were able to help you. Their songs, charities and just their characters in general have inspired and influenced so many people. It's 2022 and Chester's death for me still hits hard.

[@TheOutlawTorn45]

It's easy to feed the metaphor of happiness to the people we love. The hard thing is reversing it to ourselves. Glad your still with us, I have been there also. Stay strong and keep that smile!

[@maxdslr]

I spent so long after his passing trying to make sense of it. Linkin Park had always been the soundtrack to my life, and I couldn’t imagine a world without Chester’s voice. I can say it does get easier with time, but there’s still a void that can never be replaced. I’m glad you’re still with us ❤️

[@robertshumaker5978]

im so glad your here you have a platform to do so much good. people like you need to exist to give hope love and you've inspired me. just keep going because you are making a difference THANK YOU

[@collinfitzpatrick3413]

Chester was the legend. My childhood band. Legends never die. It’s still sad to see him gone. I’ll always listen to Linkin park and other bands he was in

[@thejaredpoole]

Thank you for sharing this experience with us, Amanda. 🖤

[@MerdanLp]

you are amazing cause you are answer almost everyone in the comments not everyone do this respect keep going awesome video

[@christinabishop2533]

Opening up and showing your vulnerable side to others is extremely difficult. In 2011, I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression and it has been difficult, especially when I had to watch my psych keep uping or changing my meds. While I have never been as close to the act as you have been, I know what it feels like to feel worthless and that the world would be better off without me. One thing that always kept me from going through with it, is my family, but that can never stop the feelings. We just have to keep telling ourselves, "You are never worthless in this life, no matter how bad things get". Another good song is "Hold On" by Wilson Phillips. Thank you for sharing your story and stay strong. *Hugs*

[@kevinkohn7726]

Brand new to your channel! Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us, LP has always been my security blanket as well, all of their songs helped me through the darkest of times that I do continue to struggle with periodically. Chester’s voice, to me, is literally a hug to all of us suffering. RIP Chester, and thank you again for sharing your story, we are all so thankful that you are still here with us ❤️❤️

[@kevinkohn7726]

What a lot of people either don’t understand, is that it truly is amazing what a smile hides 😔

[@joshcooper6431]

Mine is Points Of Authority because of the feeling of walking on egg shells when I was married. It led to my own deep depression, bad thoughts about myself and life. I lost everything during this but was also a huge reality check for me. I lost myself completely, but fought and fought by pulling away from negativity to find myself again. I went to Florida to my mothers, I walked miles very day listening to "Believer" by Rhett Walker. I'm here now and strong then ever before. Ones like you Amanda are amazing souls and a voice we all need to here in times of need.

[@ninogamingvariety6594]

Linkin park are my favourite band, they helped so many people , regardless of what happened to Chester, they helped so many people find comfort in their worst, for me Numb was the song that connected to me deeply and still to this day it helps me.

[@richletram539]

Never be ashamed to cry. So powerful, thank you for sharing. Sooo glad you are still hear. Linkin Park's song "Given up" is hard to listen to considering Chester's passing, but may be a good song to react to. For me, the song "October" from U2 is a song that was there for me when I had a loss in my family. I am not okay, I struggle from day to day. Yet if you asked anyone who knows me they would tell you how happy I am and I am always laughing and always smiling and never sad and never miss a day of work and I am a jokester and a kid at heart and always going to Disney or Universal or Comic con so I must be a happy person...right? Most days I struggle just to get out of bed. If I tell someone how depressed I am, they always think I am just joking around. So it becomes hard to talk to someone about it when no one takes you seriously. So you just keep it inside and try to do things that make you happy. Those things help but are only momentary and the rest of life just weighs you down like thousands of tons of weight. Thank you for putting yourself out there, It really is an inspiration to others who are struggling.

[@MentalAmanda]

Be honest and explain to your friends that people who are depressed (like many of the most beloved comedians of our time) tend to turn to comedy or sarcasm to cope. They genuinely probably are just ignorant to it!

[@richletram539]

@@MentalAmanda Yes...Like Robin Williams, R.I.P. I will try to be more honest about it. Though it is so much easier doing it anonymously in a forum like this. I have severe social anxiety and it is difficult to talk about personal things face to face with people. Thank You again and keep the conversation going.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@richletram539 Well you are welcome here any time

[@Nichwar19]

Crying is not powerfull.

[@certifiedswordlover.417]

​@@Nichwar19 it's painful

[@Fubbernutt]

I discovered linkin park through this song when I was like four. I didn’t understand it, but I loved this song so much, and I quickly learned to love the rest of their songs. As I got older I started to understand. Chester was the only celebrity I’ve ever cried for. He saved me many times and I wish I could’ve done the same for him.

[@michaelpalma6346]

I’ve never felt depression myself but one of my good friends committed suicide a few years back. Listening to linkin park growing up depressed or not their music always hit hard with me, Chester is a legend. I just discovered your channel but I’m glad you are still here, you are super strong if you ask me. Great reactions btw.

[@tastein000]

This is absolutely amazing. Linkin Park has been my soundtrack over the last two years or so. Somewhere I Belong is my go to song as I feel like I'm never in the right place. It's a struggle everyday, some days are better than others. It's like a roller coaster and I never know which way I'm going at any moment.

[@MentalAmanda]

That song is a rough one! Heavy is the one that is my go to when I feel I need validation. Message me if you ever need to talk!

[@leewesley1961]

@@MentalAmanda numb is a much,much more emotional song believe me when i listen to is i always begin to cry the same thing happens when i listen to immortal be evanescence i am not known to cry but those 2 songs always cause it

[@MentalAmanda]

@@leewesley1961 Heavy is the one that really hits me every time.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@leewesley1961 It was a large part of what triggered my downfall. Because it felt like my security blanket had been ripped away.

[@ghostlyvenom3052]

I hope ya see this but I’m glad your still around. I remember doing a cover of this song with my band during his birthday. I fell on my knees remembering how I still didn’t beat my habit. This song means a lot to me and seeing you react to it let’s me know that I’m not alone and neither are you.

[@metallicatJ]

I've only just found your channel, LP helped me a lot as a teen in the 90's. I just wanted to say thank you for telling your story, it takes a lot of courage to talk about mental health, even more so to put it online for everyone to see. so, Thank you.

[@scottmonroe7754]

I'm late to this but i just wanted to tell you how strong you are for doing this and how grateful i am to you, and to them, for putting out content that people enjoy. Keep up what you're doing and, even though you dont know me, I'm proud of you. ❤

[@codyhall6279]

This song and 'My December' have been my favorite since I was a teenager. I always thought this was about drugs until now. I am happy that you're here as you're currently saving me. It is uncanny how much this song was meant for you! Again, I am happy that you're still here😊

[@MentalAmanda]

Saw this after my reply to your comment on Lost 💖

[@artecomparte1055]

Keep strong Amanda 💪🏻!!!. You´re so brave for doing this video and it means a lot cause with this you probably saved lifes. Thank you very much for this, you are and always will be loved cause you´re the meaning of being kind and for this reason you´re so important to people. Hope more people be like you in this world cause you´re a soulkind with a big heart ❤. Greetings from Spain 😘.

[@TotoOrlanski]

This song is one that changed my life, every time I wanted to hurt myself this song prevented me from doing it, with every lyric I felt so identified and it just helped me stop doing it. If it wasn't for Linkin Park and Bring me the horizon (another band that treats depression openly in their lyrics) I wouldn't be here they help me to keep going every single day. Thanks for sharing your story, it helps me a lot :)

[@Noxis07]

This song hits close to home for me. I've practically closed myself off emotionally from damn near everyone, convinced myself I'm expendable. I'm practically living life on auto pilot, no real aspirations of a better life. Just slaving away at a desk for crappy pay. Can't open up to many people about this, let alone my own family, otherwise they either: Roll their eyes at me and accuse me of being overdramatic Or Become uncomfortable and distance themselves from me Like the song says, I know this isn't alright and it shouldn't be like this, but I'm genuinely at a loss. I don't know what to do with my life.

[@MentalAmanda]

Sounds like you need some new family. I volunteer as tribute!

[@seymourbuttz2253]

You are a beautiful human being and I'm glad you are here on earth. I'm also so very sorry about what you went through. RIP to your parents and RIP to Chester.

[@skankus]

When I lost my Dad it was LP and Chester that helped me get through it. And still does when those feelings hit. SO many moments in so many songs that just speak to me. ❤️

[@MentalAmanda]

Got me through losing my parents too!

[@kilgore9859]

He desperately wanted to live.... he just didn't know how. Much love to you and the plp following this channel. We're all figuring shit out one day at a time.

[@camdenC34]

I’ve dealt with depression, anxiety, and PTSD most of my life. Growing up Hybrid Theory, Meteroa, and Minutes to Midnight were MASSIVELY important albums to me. Chester was the voice I needed to hear. He’s the reason I discovered my passion for creating music. I owe him everything. Thanks for making these vids and sharing your experience.

[@ilanalmeida4481]

Thank you so much!! I couldn’t hold my emotions the whole video, i do have borderline personality disorder too and all my life I was ashamed to tell how I actually feel and seek help. I felt like a coward, a man who had no reason to feel like this and Linkin Park and Chester saved my life uncountable times in the past few years until now. Nowadays, I’m in treatment and finally finding my way to get better. Thank you so much for this video!! All the best for u ❤️❤️❤️

[@MentalAmanda]

You have a safe space here no matter what you are feeling. You aren't a coward at all. Cowards keep their mouths shut to appease others. Heroes speak out. You're doing just that right now. I'm SO happy for your healing 💖

[@40kedge]

your channel is new to me. I am older… but i suffer from PSTD from the military, AND serious injuries. Put on opioids , then things went really south. Only my daughter got me through, then i met my wife who , thank God they helped me. But now, again, feel like drowning. My wife hears me say almost daily “ i wish i could just die”. She has done right thing .. and honestly, i realized i don’t REALLY want to die. my wife, daughter. grandkids.. would be devastated. And i cannot imagine being without them. lIke you said, imdoingit for me. i am sooo proud of you!

[@MentalAmanda]

First of all, thank you for your sacrifice. Nobody WANTS to die. They want the pain to stop. Please know that you can email me anytime (address is in video description.) I can't promise it will be okay, but I can tell you that healing is there and that I'm here to listen.

[@pnm522]

Although us in the comment section and maybe millions world wide might not know each other or you (Amanda) directly but THANK YOU for being here and being a big inspiration to us who feel the exact same way. Linkin Park is and always will be my favorite no matter what I do or where I go in life since they saved my life in more ways than one. Having to deal with depression since 2006 after a family member passed away and knowing 3-4 people who were close to me all commit suicide just made life tougher for me. The road that I'm currently on is a VERY thin line between life and death and I'm doing all I can to stay above that. Love this reaction and looking forward to more content!

[@znortbird4716]

had to cry. so we shared tears. thanx for your words. a lot. a looooot.

[@Ghyus01]

Ugh. Its been a minute since I've listened to this song and watched the video. It will forever hold a dear place in my heart. I remeber being super young, maybe 5 or 6 when I first heard it. I didn't realize what chester was talking about, who Linkin Park was, or much of anything, but I remeber feeling sad and hurt by the emotions he was pouring out. Cut to many years later when I rediscovered it and being able to resonate with it so much. Just made it even more powerful. Something to relate to during tough times, sometimes is all you need.

[@mickaeltionnais253]

Glad that you are still here with us. Got depression moment but never think about suicide just wish you to stay strong and find happiness for dont think about it anymore. Send you lot of love

[@ITSSIZorro32]

After Chester passed and even more I watch the live in Texas video and if my mood is in that place it hits much harder and I've broken down a lot. Everyone interprets the lyrics in their own way and it just kind of helps let me think that my interpretation helps me battle my own demons. I listened to them long before I considered deeper messages within music and after maturing and starting to write on my own I recognized and was able to admire and relate to where these awesome lyrics come from

[@tsr_08h]

Great you're still alive and healthy🤗 LP played such a vital role in many of our lives...Their songs keeps me stable whenever my mind erupts! Be strong and never give up,stay with us ❤️

[@adityashankargupta7372]

Glad to hear that this song saved your life, God bless you ❤. Music has a way to resonate with our very soul and when nothing works we can surely count on music 🎶

[@gepreier1013]

I really cried hearing your words. All I want to say is thank you. Thank you.

[@nathanclarke2777]

This song helped me too a few times! LP saved me several times and they are amazing!

[@nadaduo1765]

Damn girl you're so emotional, you need a hug 🤗💙

[@My_NameJeff]

I listened to this song my entire life and didn't really understand the meaning till Chester's death. The realisation hit me hard

[@erosparedess]

Mike Shinoda wrote this song for Chester, Mike only had the music and it took him 6 years to finish the lyrics. Chester read the lyrics and started to cry. It is one of the songs that cost him the most to sing, he only sang it a couple of times and the best of them was in Red Square in 2014, at the Transformers presentation. In the ending he is seen singing the lyrics "I Breaking The Habit!" smiling, as if at that moment he had won his battle. But it was not so unfortunately. I love Linkin Park, a childhood friend showed me this band when I was a kid, and curiously by fate, unfortunately he hanged himself 3 years ago. It's nice that you can be here with us to bring us songs like these that fill us with different emotions. A huge hug from Argentina. And I hope you keep fighting day by day, because I know it's hard ❤

[@xtravagentk1275]

He actually started writing it initially inspired by another friends drug addiction, before he met Chester.

[@blackdog6969]

I've left a couple messages but "waking up" as a different person, that hurt the ones you care for is very strong for me. I lost a lot, I fight for so much more and I really do hope it gets better. Cheers Amanda, your pain is shared and your words ARE helping another. Thanks heaps, I appreciate it

[@willtheking8859]

Ur pain thru out this reaction its so real u had me tearing up

[@AnimalLover-yu8un]

I've always loved Chester and his voice. I relate to almost every song. I've struggled for a few years. I keep going now cause of my mom but sometimes i feel like what's the point cause nothing is getting better just worse. Idk. I'm glad i found your channel. You seem like a really nice and cool person. I'm Glad you're here.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm glad you are here too!

[@Ankshus]

Thank you for sharing your honesty. I really hope it helps people who are stuck in the hole. Xxx

[@dary0097]

Same with me , Iam 6 years sober from A Hellish Depressed filled 10+ year Hard Drug Habit and Linkin Park was my Security blanket too during those times , Miss You Chester 💯❤️

[@Zephirum]

I liked your positivity and your emotions sharing those kinds feelings with your watchers, i suffer from depression a lot due to my own situation with my country and hardships and loneliness and other things that keeps me in a dark place....But i'm still living because I feel like I can still make people have a fun time or enjoy whatever time they can showing them a story, helping them out or just being there for them. KZbin has been a link to keep me in this place where I can be useful and create my own ideas to the world. I'm glad I've reached your channel and you've earned a subscribe from me. Keep doing what you love 💖

[@johndawson7337]

We lost Chester but through the grace of God you are still here with us. God Bless You Amanda!!

[@DM00SE]

If id have met someone like you at high school i would have been their rock and would have saved them from everything they would have gone through. I dont understand how you can be forced through all that pain, no one deserves that in their life.

[@LightMediator]

This song has accompanied me since my adolescence, now I'm 34 years old and I still can't stop listening to it.

[@drunkenmettalist5158]

hope your still fighting the good fight.. 2 years later.. im here, we are here x

[@michealtheevilhero2340]

Glad you're still here,and.. let's all agree on something.. He's an angel screaming his heart out to the rest of humanity,for as long and as many times he could handle

[@kourtneybailey5383]

I'm in awe of your strength to share your mental health struggles, and I know it will help more people than you know. My grade "class clown" committed suicide, but everyone would have said he was the happiest guy and most loved by everyone. Unfortunately we can't always tell when someone is depressed, and you being vocal is so helpful! ❤️

[@MentalAmanda]

The class clown in my grade did as well! People who are depressed get good at masking it if they don't feel safe in opening up 💔