Little Skittle's Pacific Crest Trail 2019 Vlog #27: Day 101 & 102, Double “0”

Please be patient with the delayed content from days 94-100 and also the days ahead. I will do my best to work on uploading the vlogs as best I can, but my priorities from here out include focusing on processing my grief and hiking these last 900mi home. Your unwavering love and support has been and is so very much appreciated.
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[@nancyjohnson4612]

First I would like to say thank you to all of you who have kept Becca in your prayers and have helped her through this difficult time. Your comments are amazing and have helped me also tried to process this. Today the 28th is the first time that I've actually watched this vlog😥😘👍🙏 it warms my heart and the PCT community is AMAZING!!! I was able to see my Little Skittle PCT just like she had planned on the 27th. Giving her a hug at The Bridge of the Gods was such an incredible feeling I'll never forget it. Got home tonight have spent most of the evening reflecting on the last 24 hours. Also on the plus side I'm going to be able to see her next weekend and drop off a food box. That will be the last time I see her before I meet her at Manning Park to welcome her HOME !!!💪👍😘😜 please pray for no wildfires anywhere :) Mama Skittle :)

[@dougpetty67]

Becca, you just made many of your followers cry with this post. It's because we care and wish you nothing but good. It's all part of the plan for your life. Embrace it and do yourself proud.

[@Ice-Fall]

My condolences for your Grandma. There are many who have followed your journey so far, and our hearts will be with you to the Canadian terminus! Trek on, Lil Skittles, trek on.

[@dahlhouseadventures5230]

Sending you love lady. Your grandma is obviously very proud of what you are out there doing, and now in a way, she gets to join you for the ride. ...and like you said, can't think of a better place to work through crap then in the fresh air, on the trail. Feel all the feels through these next 900. We are rooting for you!

[@stevehorning3238]

You have my deepest sympathy. Remember your grandma is an extension of you into the past, as you are an extension of her (and all of your ancestors) into the future. She is with you!

[@Jennifer679100]

I love you sis, you are one of the strongest women I know....it's been amazing watching your journey. I love how candid you've been. I got a few of my pts at work following you as well. Each video you post is exciting and I can't wait to see the next. This will be an experience you'll never forget and I'm so proud of you!!

[@littlethislittlethat456]

Hi. So heartfelt and touching. It is so hard to lose someone close but you will have a trail angel watching over you for the rest of your journey. She would want you to finish what you started. What you said is so true. You never know when your last breath or the last breath of a loved one will be. That's why my motto in life is to live every day as though it's your last. Thanks for sharing and God's Speed to you on the rest of the trail. John from MI

[@galetaxera7474]

Little skittle, So sorry for the physical loss of your Grandmother. Sounds like you are open to keeping your connection going with her and what a beautiful opportunity you have to spend time with her in spirit while you finish your hike in the quiet. We are all rooting for you. Thank you so much for sharing in this most vulnerable way. Many blessings to your mom and all of your family.

[@djd1269]

So sorry for the loss of your grandmother. As a grandmother myself, I hope my grandchildren miss me as much as you miss her. Her many words, advice and words will flood your memories and maybe your eyes as you finish your journey with her help and your strong spirit. May God bless you and keep you safe as you head north. Donna, Bellingham Wa

[@berkocshivers]

Becca I’m so sorry about your grandma. You have so many people loving you, supporting you and cheering you on. ❤️

[@joycecory]

I am saddened by your loss. Being with nature is your best therapy. When times are tough on the trail, remember your grandmother is with you. Life is a precious gift and meant to be lived.

[@newfoundlandhikes9361]

This was hard to watch and not think of the sudden passing of my own Grandmother many years ago. I am sincerely sorry for your loss. You will carry on and she will help carry you when you most need and miss her.

[@davesanders9203]

Condolences for your Grandma. You are one tough lady. We are all rooting for you.

[@DougGreene]

Wow ... I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. Wishing you ease and grace - and the spaciousness to allow whatever to needs to move through you during the grieving process. Your ongoing capacity to be so vulnerable and raw and honest is unreal. You're bringing us all along on your journey. And in doing so you have the support of thousands of people. Be gentle on yourself ... and maybe dedicate this grand adventure of yours to your grandmother.

[@stepheneikmeier1866]

This isn't the first time you have brought tears to my eyes. Your trip thru the Sierras, now this. I am sorry for what you are going thru, but remember we all go thru it. I relate your feelings to my daughters who are you same age. Doing all their activities, and then my own health situations. I have hiked from Kearsarge Whitney twice and Whitney to Kearsarge twice. But nothing like you have done. Keep your Grandmothers Spirit with you. What you have accomplished is so far amazing above most thru hikers that I have seen. God Bless your Grandmother and God Bless you. Please keep the videos coming regardless. We all love you!!

[@yellowroseoftexas2890]

So sorry to hear about the passing of your grandma. You’ve had much ups & downs on the trail. And, you’ve overcome every hurdle the trail has thrown your way. My thoughts and prayers are with you daily. You take care of yourself. Stay well, safe & hydrated. Thank you for another great video.

[@mommakittyhiking]

I am so sorry for your loss, I can see how much she means to you. You will have her walking with you every step to Canada. I loved my Grandmother dearly and I still miss her every day. Be watchful of your dreams, I find that my Grandma visits me in my dreams when something important needs to be said. *HUGE HUGS TO YOU*

[@johneason6540]

So difficult processing the loss of someone you love. But you owe it to yourself to follow your grandma's wishes to complete the trail. I, do think it help on the grieving process to stay focused. So sorry for your loss and know that you are still loved by your grandma and friends. So, journey on! Thank you for being so strong to share your grief with us.

[@claytonbatten7317]

I know exactly how you feel. I have cancer myself and it’s a huge decisions that have to be made. Be a strong girl and do it for her. God always has a plan. Be strong for us that can’t be. We love you

[@frank-to7lu]

I am sorry for the loss of your Grandmother who loved you unconditionally as only Grandmothers do. I've observed that Thru-hikers seem willing to take on any obstacle for the simple reward of unending possibility. You experience life in its most expansive, challenging form and your moment by moment engagement with the mountains leaves nothing in reserve. Your Grandmother gifted you a striving curiosity, a yearning to know what is over the next hill. Here on out you'll feel your Grandmother's wonder at the magnificence of each discovery... Blessings, Brave Skittles.

[@spurgecochran2738]

My deepest condolences, what better way to grieve, heal and honor your Grandmother than to hike the rest of the trail in her name.

[@garylabella3080]

Becca... Very touching. Clearly you have a great trail angel with you... My thoughts are with you. Mama Gecko 🦎

[@gama45]

Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss of your grandma. I send my condolences and best wishes, and wishing you continued strength to push on. ❤🙏 Hugs and prayers, Gary

[@donzones1367]

My heart goes out to you and i am so sorry. I can empathize with you as I lost my dad on the same day as your grandma. You are where you need to be and the feelings and heartaches will come and go at the drop of a hat but that is ok and nothing to be embarrassed about. Your grandma will be so proud of you as you continue on and we will be cheering you on as well.

[@oceandrew]

Sorry for your loss. Going through something like this while in the middle of a monumental endeavor such as what you’re on is really the test, isn’t it? Sounds like your family and home support are firmly at your back so you won’t be doing this alone. Wishing much inspiration and motivation to connect with the joy you’ve come to know in the mountains.

[@ronbrown6272]

Just got a chance to catch up on your journey. I am so sorry Rebecca for your loss. I lost my brother to cancer so I know the emotional roller coaster your are going through. You stay strong-she is with you. Keep going- cry if you must, and know that you have friends and family there for you. Stay safe, big love, and all the best.

[@jimwolff3823]

Sorry for your loss, stay strong.

[@delmorejr1950]

Skittles, so Very Sorry for the loss of your Grandma, my Dad passed two weeks ago, it is never easy. She is watching you now and expects you to finish the PCT. You got this. SAFE HIKING

[@saltydog6241]

I’m sorry for your loss. I hope you find some comfort in the many happy memories you must have of time spent with your grandmother.

[@chelseadanielle1464]

So sorry about your grandma. My grandpa passed away on Halloween night going into Day of the Dead (Nov 1) 2018 and it still hurts. I too was not able to be there to say goodbye. I feel your pain girl. Good on you for continuing on trail! Looking forward to seeing you at the northern terminus

[@bcoolson]

So sorry for your loss! Be safe!

[@drewlucero3916]

Condolences to you and your family. Just know you have a lot of Love and Prayers heading your way.🙏❤️🙏

[@stephanieburns4560]

Watch for her on the trail. I am sure she will show you she is with you. It's so good you are close to home. Crossing into Washington is going to have so much impact.

[@grizzlygramp]

It really sounds like your Grandmother was very proud of you and your accomplishments. Actually I should not say "was very proud of you" but instead should say "Is very proud of you". Her spirit will be there beside you whispering in your ear with that still, small voice cheering you on towards Canada.

[@glazehikes853]

Sending good vibes and my heart is with you 💙💚 Keep On Truckin’. We’re all behind you.

[@bcarter1973]

Deepest sympathies to you and your family. May God bless you with your new trail angel.

[@neilmiller9826]

Wow. I feel like I know you like a friend. You are a warrior. You impressed me in the Sierra and your video today made me cry. Please, please, please pull hard from within and proceed. Your grandma wants that and she will be with you and watching you every step of the way. Your strength is an inspiration to more people than you will ever know. Keep working hard to get to that finish line - you will regret it your whole life if you don't. I am praying for you. God bless your grandma and God rest her soul. Go Little Skittle!!

[@ThomasAnderson-sd6yt]

Be strong, and tears are a healing balm🏕

[@marilynsartadventures3956]

I could really feel your pain, and all the feelings! Made me cry too. Hope the rest of your hike is awesome, i know your grandma will make it that way!

[@TNhunterKMC]

Sorry for your loss. Take your grandmother to your “happy place”. She will be with her.

[@cemex559]

So sorry for your loss,I felt your pain,stay strong and finish this for her-god bless

[@flymatilda12]

My heart breaks for you. Fill your heart and mind with wonderful memories of your grandmother as you hike on. Much love to you

[@thomasclark6268]

It's a sad day when you lose a grandparent. "Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal."

[@betsybarbera9806]

so sorry about your grandma. I bet she was very proud of you.

[@richardross7219]

My sincere condolences on your loss. Part of her still lives on in you and all the others who loved her. I agree with you that you should continue. Grief is a long slow process. I lost my wife 2 years ago and I'm still lost. I hope that you find the trail therapeutic for dealing with your grief. Taking care of our son keeps me going. You are going to be a bit distracted now, so be extra careful. Good Luck, Rick

[@gregzolob8992]

so very sorry to hear about your Grandma. Please accept my heartfelt condolences. whatever decision you make will be the correct one for you. Blessings to you and your family.

[@kellyjohnson3617]

I’m sorry you just lost your gramma so suddenly. My heart goes out to you. I just lost my dad June 16 from cancer as well. Take care of yourself. I’m glad you could take time to be with your family. Honestly, being in nature is the best therapy for me as I’ve gone through this difficult time. Enjoy as best you can the beautiful creation around you and remember this life now with all its problems isn’t all we get. In the meantime death is a real enemy and is very painful. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

[@ihikefar]

Condolences on your loss. What an amazing gift your brother gave you in her honor. Powerful actually. Advance North!

[@karensturm]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Lots of love and support for you.

[@sharynbeer1736]

May she continue to bless you and watch over you as you continue on as she wanted you to. Saw and felt the pain of her loss to you. Praying

[@robertalexander9931]

My condolences to you and your family. My prayers and thoughts for you at this trying time.

[@carolegregory866]

She'll be with you all the way, that's what Grandmothers do

[@krystalharvey731]

Your amazing girl. ❤

[@donr6499]

It's OK if you crest a ridge and see a beautiful sight and sit on a rock and cry. At that altitude you'll be closer to your Grandma :>)

[@markcummings6856]

Very sorry for your loss. The very best to you and your family!

[@chrishikesfalls1648]

I sent you a message on Instagram. I will tell you again I am so sorry for the loss of your grandma. I truly believe she will be with you on the trail. Open your mind and you will see her in many little things along the way. I can guarantee you it will give you comfort. Hopefully will meet up with you in Oregon. I just love Buddy and you will be surprised at how comforting his little licks and loves can be. We care about you even though some of us have never actually met you in person we feel is if we know you.

[@kyungchi6324]

Loss of loved one is always hard but I am sure she's pulling for you harder so you go on girl. You can do this.

[@jeffreyrule8143]

So sorry about your grandma’s passing. Hang in there! She will be with you on the trail.

[@christopherkelly5822]

Don't mourn the passing, celebrate the life.

[@erinthetraveler6168]

So very sorry for your loss.

[@tomsalter3570]

I'm so sorry to hear of your great loss. Everyone has their own beliefs, but as a Christ-follower, I am going to pray God's comfort for you and your family. I understand whatever you choose to do--but what a great challenge from your Grandma herself! Prayers for the rest of your journey!

[@jacquelynbalkin6496]

The passing of a loved one is so hard. Try to focus on her memories. Sending you many hugs. Take care

[@bobkuhn861]

GO GIRL!!!🤗💖

[@creedm3040]

You made the right decision. Hopefully the hike will heal your hurt and put things in perspective for you. Difficult times indeed.

[@AWBepi]

Here's looking at you kid.

[@robinraddatz982]

So sorry

[@EvaFitts]

❤️

[@alanstordal5621]

Heavens NiCe✨💖💎👸🕊️✝️🎶 Grandmother is Happy in Paradice. Watching You now. Very Proud of You. Strength and Peace to You and Yours. There be☑️Thanks God. Death is only a beginning point to a new demention of reality. Hope.