living alone diaries: for all the years grief stole from you

grief is tricky and not enough of us are talking about how to co-exist with it. i'm learning that grief never really leaves you, but rather you learn to cope overtime. whether it be a romantic partnership, family member or past version of yourself, there truly is no time limit that can be set on how long you should grieve what is no longer.
the best thing that i've done for myself was fully immerse myself within the present moment and practice mindfulness to not allow my mind drift too far off into the deep end. and if it does, that's ok. learning to create space for all my thoughts and feelings without passing judgement. you should try it too. anyways, i hope your week is going amazing! take care all ways, always. enjoy! xo ❣️
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#motivation #livingalone #grief

[@simplyylanice]

"The thing about grief is no one will save you" ... This! Everyday I make a conscious effort to choose me and push through each day.

[@AmaniRakeia]

once i learned this and accepted this, i really had to stand on business and do what i had to do to protect my heart space and push through 💗

[@lisasimpson8318]

And Nobody can feel or understand you...

[@Kingdomsrose]

Jesus Christ bore it all on the cross and defeated it by risingg again 3 days later. The Lord can deliver you , hear you , speak to you and heal you but you have to come to yourself and allow Him to do a work in you. You can talk to him , yell , ask hard questions and let His Holy Spirit answer you and lead you to a heart of confessing that you need Jesus christ to save you and that you will believe and accept his sacrifice and ressurection. Unlike others my God is alive and active and He will prove himself as true if you only give Him a chance. Let Him love you , Let him heal you even from things you may blame him for. The Lord causes no harm , satan is roaming around too but through the pain will be comfort , vindication , a testimony. Let Him love yall ❤ bless

[@sunshine-bs2jx]

Wow true

[@MajorMovieStar]

100%

[@elizabethhennessey6437]

I grieved way too long - 20 years - living alone and being antisocial - my animals, garden, home and memories were all I focused on. Now I'm facing growing old alone and it's not the same. Don't let grief deprive you of a whole life. Peace.

[@sylviacarlson3561]

It's not too late Elizabeth~ Travel!!

[@elizabethhennessey6437]

@@sylviacarlson3561 Thank you for the encouragement!

[@thefriendlypsychopath3894]

When were you diagnosed with ASPD?

[@Beencouraged777]

Right.

[@Beencouraged777]

@@sylviacarlson3561Right.

[@blena1524]

"Grief is just love with nowhere to go"

[@sylviacarlson3561]

Wow! Never thought of this way. Thanks!

[@EaglesGirl117]

Amen 🙏🏽 ❤

[@MakeupbyTeresaP]

“The hard truth about this life we live is that no one is coming to save you.” A very profound observation.

[@pinkdiamonds77]

Living alone is a gift it’s all in the mind

[@FLOKADO]

Amen. I luv me sum me and my peace.

[@theartoflivingoutloud888]

💯 I don’t t feel like it’s appreciated enough.

[@MyKeturah]

Trying to embrace this perspective ❤

[@4CQueen]

A WONDERFUL gift.

[@janetofshegatherswellness5403]

I say “time heals all wounds BUT IT DONT HEAL THE TRAUMA left behind.” That -That Takes WORK 🙏🏾😩🙌🏾

[@elenam9435]

Preach!!!!!

[@Herhealingtouch6683]

The trauma takes you commiting to walk you back home , it calls for one to have that support system that doesn't ask questions, doesn't judge doesn't offer unsolicited advice, it calls for one to find that point and say this is where it hurts , this is where the pain is , this is how it hurts and then asking will you walk with me to heal this pain , will you hold my path as I walk me home .

[@novaste1238]

I wish more people could understand the absolute healing, freedom and joy that comes from living alone ❤

[@sippinprettydesigns9011]

I’m going on this healing journey soon

[@novaste1238]

Enjoy every moment 😊​@@sippinprettydesigns9011

[@stellaallbright4750]

I'm 45, single, no kids, live on my.own, and LOVE IT!! I have 5 rescue dogs saved from death row and I network other dogs in need into rescues. My biggest fear is my finances. I don't have a savings, safety net, retirement, health insurance, I don't own my own home, and live paycheck to paycheck, making under $15/hour (after taxes) working as a paralegal in the Midwest. I worry so much about the future due to my financial status that I've stayed too long in terrible relationships. Not because I'm afraid of being alone, but because I can't make it our there on my own financially, and as I get older my concern only grows. 💜

[@vanja222]

I feel the same, but you know what, I saw too many people have all of that, and one day they have a heart attack, or lose a home due to an earthquake, or someone in their family gets sick and all the bad endings because nothing is certain, it has been proven that people like us manage better in life crises (we are used to living in an uncertain way 😉) Don’t worry, we will find our way. As long as we are healthy we can make money and secure our future 🫶

[@wonder12374]

Not sure what part of the Midwest you live in, but go to government jobs .Com being a paralegal, you have developed an impressive administrative skill set that could transition you to a higher paying admin job working for the city, County or state. Good luck.

[@valeriebillings7248]

Hang in there! Stay focused and positive that whatever your goals are will come to pass 💐. It’s never too late to switch careers or start a side hustle

[@LisaThames17]

Me too hi

[@CreativeMedicine7]

Grief shocks the system and for me, it sends me back into survival mode. But faith is fueled by the unknown and there’s some lessons only learned in a storm. May God allow us to heal from all the things people never apologized for. ♥️

[@lifeisbeautiful9455]

Amen! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😊

[@tanyahilton6303]

Grief 😢 is the price we pay for love ❤

[@sylviacarlson3561]

Absolutely! thank you

[@MyKeturah]

Yes

[@MaggieMagnoli]

I felt that - "grief is just love with no where to go."

[@Suzanne-xx3nj]

I love the quote ... 🤍

[@MindReaderAudios]

I can attest that this is true❤

[@eshaepperson5945]

Something else I find extremely important is knowing how to identify grief. You don’t always feel grief when someone close has died. You could’ve lost a part of yourself. Grieving an older version, or a relationship you were forced to cut off from. A lot of the time, we overlook that these are feelings of grief and oftentimes don’t develop the healthy coping mechanisms because we simply never learned to understand our grieving, let alone identify it as grieving.

[@poet82n]

@@eshaepperson5945 This is so true. Thank you for pointing that out.

[@ThePrayerfulBride]

This video helped me tonight, I've been grieving my friendships in my singleness both of my best friends have gotten married within the past year and I don't spend time with like I used to naturally. While grieving what we used to have I am figuring out who I am now, I am not who I used to me 6 months ago let alone 5 years ago. It's a lot to process but I know I'll get there.Sometimes it's hard not having someone to talk to about it outside of God.

[@sunshine-bs2jx]

❤

[@AminaPhilosophy]

We can save each other. We women can support each other. We are not alone…we are just apart. Sending positivity to all of my fellow sisters.🩵🫂🩵🫂🩵🫂

[@jyamaloha2322]

“We are not alone…we are just apart.” ❤❤❤

[@akxsha]

Please lets find eachother. We need us.

[@valeriebillings7248]

Absolutely 💯 We definitely should support each other more. At the end of day, we’re more alike than different. We experience some of the same things. Love on each other more and let the pettiness go. All the best to my sisters out there. You’re loved and appreciated ❤💐

[@vivianmurphy1265]

Female sistahs! No confusion needed, already been dunked in confusion no space for deception!

[@rukiyacarter6316]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@cherylbarlow4284]

I am first time ,new to your channel. I could cry because this is how I viewed my life 40 years ago. I would always go left when God would tell me to go right. Alway listen when he speaks. Always be honest ,no matter what. I promise you won't have any regrets. God Bless this channel

[@lynwill9946]

Excellent content. For me, grief never ends Grief simply morphs itself into a different scene. Regardless of my accomplishments and successes, I can’t seem to run away from grief. Regardless of where I relocate, I can’t seem to run away from Grief. I have acknowledged that my faith and God has kept me sane. The key is to recognize that it’s OK for me to get professional help

[@AmaniRakeia]

i can totally relate to you on the note of relocating. i have found this to be true for me as well. since leaving LA, i've found myself grieving things that was grieving while living in LA. However, I do notice myself feeling lighter and lighter each day. ❤❤❤

[@lynwill9946]

@@AmaniRakeia ❤️❤️

[@poet82n]

It's okay to get professional help. I definitely had to and will continue to do so as I need it.

[@Herhealingtouch6683]

Grief isn't tacked away is your running away endeavors it goes with you in the movers track, it says I'm here aknowledge me only then will you be able to get away from me , see me and let's hold that conversation only then can I exit your life .

[@LisaThames17]

Hi friend. Me too

[@melliethemortician]

Grief is such a crazy thing. I have sickle cell and was diagnosed at 2 days old but I didn't have my first flare up until I was 9. Why? Because of grief. My aunt died of cancer when I was 9 and that same week I had my first ever sickle cell flare up, stress is a huge trigger for my illness and the amount of stress that comes with grief is fucking annoying(excuse my french). Because of that grief I was diagnosed with depression at 10, later diagnosed with BPD at 12, then later diagnosed with autism so I have always been in a constant state of grief. Grieving the life I didn't and will never get, grieving who I could've been if my life didnt revolve around multiple illnesses that I did not ask for. Watching all my other friends live the lives of normal 20 something yr olds while im stuck, stagnant, grieving the could've, would've, should've. I truly hope to anyone reading this we all find our way past the grief and out into a new era of happiness, no longer stuck and waiting for change.

[@elenam9435]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@Lisa_Flowers]

Wow. This is exactly how I feel. I'm 26 and emotionally, psychologically and experience wise, I often feel 16, because that's about the amount of independence and life experience I have. I have basically lost my entire late teens and early twenties to illness, trauma and abuse, that I have tried to free myself from to no avail. So trust me when I tell you you are not alone. I really hope the best for us as well. Because it's tough out here just surviving for some of us.

[@evemito]

Taking this moment to acknowledge your grief hugs 🫂 Also, sickle cell is one of the reasons those with African heritage are so needed to be bone marrow donors 🙏 Hopefully you and others with that are able to find a match and get well.

[@glorytothegood7579]

I know exactly how you feel! Life is not easy! I am 23 years old and I have always had it quite hard, from suffering with a choronic Ilness, having to lose most of my years in hospitals due to severe depression. You are not alone, I'm sending you a vitrual hug. ❤💙💐🫂

[@princesswilliamsmommyof5]

"You have to save yourself," Princess Williams.

[@poet82n]

This is what I've been dealing with. Grief on so many levels. Grief in mourning my mom who passed 3/28/22, my older cousin who passed the day before my mom's burial, my auntie who passed the year before my mom, my godfather who passed 12/13/22, and my godmother who passed 9/2023. My whole support system is now gone. Then as you mentioned, understanding that I've been grieving the 7-year old me from the abuse, added with all the additional experiences we deal with as women. I can go on and on with what that looks like for me all the way to medical diagnosis and intimate relationships. Feeling like you can breathe one minute, then the next life has you in a choke hold. And like you...learning how to take control at this big age in my life and reinvent myself. Enjoying your journey. I definitely love the new style of vlogs you got going on, the voiceovers and beautiful gems you are sharing on your journey. And also your new mic is great. Sounds awesome. What brand is that?

[@lliselsolis4456]

Thanks for sharing ❤

[@poet82n]

@@lliselsolis4456 Thank you.

[@modestvibesss5705]

Can't even imagine how hard that must have been!🥺 wish you lots of love and happiness💕

[@poet82n]

@@modestvibesss5705 Thank you so much. It's still hard most days. Still learning and figuring out how to grieve. Thank you for the well wishes.

[@idontarguewithpeasants]

Living alone is fun

[@lamontevlogs]

shes too much of a vibe, she ain't gone stay alone for long chile

[@lamontevlogs]

10:07 if you want a man at the gym, just ask somebody you like for help lol. we don't approach women at the gym that don't talk to us first to avoid weird shit from these crazy tiktok women.

[@lamontevlogs]

​@@mischaraine1645 blame society for making it harder. You either risk being the weird creep at the gym for approaching or you don't risk it at all because you come to that gym often and being painted as the gym creep isn't something I'd want on my resume lol. I think women are scared to approach because they think they have to carry said conversation lol, just give the men an opening and he'll let you know - but these days not many men are going to risk that at the gym lol,

[@Sogorgeous.]

No one is coming to save you 🥺 so truee! Bought a tear to my eye b/c you got to do this for YOU.

[@armanijack2927]

Your vlogs are always therapeutic for me. So relatable. I turn 30 next month, and I’ve spent almost my entire 20s grieving all sorts of things. Now I know the affect it has on health, I’m now prioritizing making sure my nervous system is calm as much as I can everyday throughout the day.

[@Swtasbrwnsuga1]

Wow i just lost my husband four days ago and can't even get up to clean, cook or do and feel so exhausted. It's gonna take me a long time to feel like her.

[@nandihoward1]

Praying for you❤

[@cbebop5]

Praying for you too beautiful sister, Lord Jesus give her comfort and strength each day to carry her through the hardest of moments. The unimaginable has happened in her life, but You are still God and You have a plan for her life.

[@Qey6723]

Aww I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope that you gain peace that surpasses all understanding as time goes on. Bless you❤

[@zexodus88]

I lost my husband 2 months ago. Been with him for 40 years and it hurts like hell. Cleaning, cooking, and shopping is not fun anymore.

[@Swtasbrwnsuga1]

So sorry for your loss.

[@clarisahernandez5280]

I am sorry for your loss. After 11.5 years my grief is just different now than the day he died. It jerked me into a reality of sorts. I like your apartment.

[@dessireecarter3876]

I’m on my journey of Contentment after my Loss that caused me Grief. 2024 it’s my time

[@AmaniRakeia]

i am so sorry for your loss, but huge congratulations on your new beginning ❤❤❤❤❤🎉

[@dessireecarter3876]

Thanks for your sentiments

[@mschellylove3588]

Don’t beat yourself up too much about consistency and discipline life get in the way sometimes and that’s OK

[@lifeisbeautiful9455]

I’m learning not to do this to myself, it’s hard because I’ve been on my own for so long.

[@mrs.hopson9426]

That Kennedy Ryan book before I let go is so good it needs to be a movie. Just like I wish coldest winter ever had became a movie.

[@AmaniRakeia]

i’m still early on in the book and i am HOOKED! idkkkkk sometimes the movies be leaving stuff out and be underwhelming 😅 lol but we’ll see bc i think it did get picked up for television, so we’ll see!!

[@wakeupwithryn]

I heard Before I Let Go was supposedly going to be a TV show 🤞🏾🤞🏾

[@mrs.hopson9426]

@@wakeupwithryn wow really? That’s going to be great!

[@mrs.hopson9426]

@@wakeupwithryn wow really? That’s going to be great!

[@SoWhat59]

​@@mrs.hopson9426 What are they about?

[@LifeMeetSteph]

Grief comes in all shapes and sizes and for some it is harder than others but that's just it it's hard no matter what and takes work to get thru :)

[@tabithalucius8482]

You are too cute!.. I love your content!.. love your space/home decor, your routine/ cooking and how you're taking care of yourself. It didn't seem like you shared what type of grief you are dealing with, or maybe I missed it. For me, I have been dealing with grief and loss mostly for the past 3 years starting with losing my dad at the beginning of 2021, and it all seems to have gone downhill from there... We were very close and I still miss him a lot. A few months after he passed, I suffered a huge financial loss that I'm still recovering from, I'm also now 2 months post-breakup one of the most painful, if not the most painful romantic love connection I have ever experienced in my life, which lasted about a year long on and off. Grief is not a popular topic nowadays, especially on social media so thank you for touching on that, and making it look cool to talk about. Vulnerability inspires.. While we can totally heal alone, on our own, I truly believe there is strength in numbers and that our stories can encourage and uplift one another even if it's to show that we are not alone in this, and there is light at the end of the tunnel. For me, as a Christian, and a believer in Jesus-Christ, my faith and spirituality is what I have been resting upon, and what has carried me through my darkest days. Ultimately, life is what you make of it & I love how you cope with yours. I'm still in search of a healing community myself if anyone knows of one. Any suggestions would be much appreciated.

[@trinasyoutube]

5:20 yes, surround yourself with the people who bring you joy & happiness.

[@Erinspeedy]

I don’t know how old you are but I’m 29 and I agree with every you said. I find myself wanting to go back and do things in my life over again

[@etherealessence159]

I'm 35 but me too

[@Erinspeedy]

@@etherealessence159 20 21 I should have chosen a different career path

[@checkmattee222]

Hi fellow age mate! And yes, I'm going through the same things now may God make things easier ❤

[@alyokin]

I love your space! Home is everything! 💐

[@tiffanycollins296]

And so clean...love it!!

[@3Bnannylounge]

Another banger on a Sunday yay yay🎉thanks Amani

[@AmaniRakeia]

ahhh! happy sunday! we liiiveee babes!!! 💗

[@cfoster00]

I’m loving the voiceovers, matcha breaks, gym - consistency and discipline we in the same boat! Side bar: I had my green snake plant from EasyPlant since February and two leaves broke off. I was sad and I gotta do better as a new plant mom

[@bianca.jenesse]

SUCH a TALENTED creator love your vlogs boo! so QUALITY! and the grief theme 10/10 such an important topic!

[@ChaNayNayAnime]

you're such a beautiful person. i love your smile

[@AmaniRakeia]

awww thank you so so much ❤

[@kayjay111111]

Girl! Your body is already goals for so many of us, but I totally understand about discipline and wanting to reach specific goals. Also, your comments on grief are SO real. That quote "Grief is love with nowhere to go..." applies as much to loss as much to the absence of love we don't have or haven't found yet. *Hugs*

[@travguy56]

This is just the kind of video/channel I needed. I don't believe I ever took the time to grieve the past person I used to be. I've always just pushed forward in life without a second thought. Why? Grief can be scary. Especially when you have to sort through all the memories of the past. I need to do better for myself. Thank you for reminding me of that! :)

[@checkmattee222]

happy to see a fellow my hero academia fan!🤗

[@ayannajoseph]

I never share my feelings and that’s such a bad thing I’m unlearning. But I’m amazed at how many of us ladies are in such similar spaces and healing ❤️ just sending everyone some love and positive support in our journeys ❤️ thank you for this Amani ❤️❤️

[@wendywells1918]

Sis...I truly enjoy all of your content and how you share your life experience to empower women. You are amazing and have great qualities in everything you do. Keep being you. Much love and countless blessings ❤

[@SoN2MakeuP]

Your editing is so good!!

[@AmaniRakeia]

Thank you so much!! 💖💖💖

[@kingkinsey]

The way this vlog fed my soul! GIRL! 🥲Amani, I know you're a GRWM, but when I say, the level of maturity you display at your tender age, is so FN admirable and inspiring.🤌🏽Your mere existence gives me so much hope for the future of humanity. Never stop, baby girl! You're definitely in the right place and on the right path.😘💕

[@TalkSportsKida]

Wow grief is so heavy thank you for making this video

[@Qey6723]

I do not like living alone anymore, I've reached an expiration date. I've been a loner pretty much all of life and have exhausted time by myself. Grief is complex in so many ways because there are so many forms of it. I'm glad that this video was posted. Thank you❤ First time watching, cute home!

[@AprilPvd]

I wish society had normalized living alone as an option. I spent/wasted so many years, trying to be a part of a couple because I didn’t want to be alone. I have been alone for the last five years and retired for the last two and they have been the best years of my life. At the same time, I have looked back on my past and realized I was never the problem, but I was made to feel like I was the problem.

[@EnjoyingTheFreeContent]

I’m so thankful I came across your channel❤ Stay blessed sis

[@lpsglitterpaws8536]

I can’t wait to live alone! My husband left me for a younger woman after twenty years of marriage and my youngest daughter is now a senior in HS. We will live together until she gets through her school year. Roommates for now. Thanks for the inspiration ❤

[@whyty227]

I have to thank you because I really needed this today. I've been going through some intense things lately and you really just spoke to my soul.

[@donovancortez8877]

You are honestly such an inspiration to me. Thank you.

[@Shakiraelexis]

I live for Amani positive affirmations 😂 and then the lil twerk moment ❤

[@AmaniRakeia]

I am screaming! LOLL duality babe. *duality* 🤣

[@theladyglo4477]

You are so right... no one is coming to save you. ....😊

[@talialynn7822]

Thank you first of all for this lovely soothing vlog and another thank you for that big slap in the face that I absolutely needed at this exact moment. Currently I’m dealing with just that…grief. Grief of that happy girl I once knew who’s so far gone idk how to get back! But like you say, “regardless ima be Ight” I love you girl!! Forever a supportive subscriber!

[@Lemonpeel2021]

Time and giving ourselves grace.

[@AmaniRakeia]

exactly!! 💗

[@camillaw-lk9gi]

Thank you, I didn’t know there were channels like this. ❤

[@sacha123445]

thank you girl.....thank you for letting me know that it's ok

[@Ensoullife]

Beautiful content- literally the *aestheticsssss* but also the wisdom and the good music! Thanks for a lovely and thought provoking vid!

[@nikkiep23]

Happy Sunday Amani! I love watching these Sunday videos while eating my breakfast/brunch. Love the aesthetic and intention.

[@AmaniRakeia]

hi my love!! awww, this makes me so so happy to hear!! i truly hope you enjoy and have an amazing day today 🥹💗

[@lydiacoronado4257]

Wow@! I just love you !! You are an inspiration to me! I live alone for the past 4 years and im loving it. ..i needed this time to heal.. Its me ,Jesus, and my cats ..until My king says otherwise..God bless everyone! On their journey! Muahh💕🕊✝️😘

[@ani9634]

I freaking love you! Go girl! What an inspiration!

[@jnl0803]

Thank you so much for your words on grief!!! I definitely needed to hear them today🥰

[@AmaniRakeia]

i am so so happy to hear this! you're so welcome! ❤

[@lifeisbeautiful9455]

I lost my mom 30 years ago as a teen… and I choose myself everyday… its hard when you have to live on your own and raise yourself but God has kept me. 🙏🏽😊

[@jrot82]

thank u for giving me hope in this dark time

[@drlorrie1019]

New subscriber❤. It’s important that we learn self care and to be alone. Love yr kitchen and entire apt. Classy video. Go girl

[@nonnayme]

U uploaded at the right time !!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ i needed something i love to watch !!!

[@AmaniRakeia]

awww, this makes me so so happy!! i hope you enjoy and have an amazing sunday!! 💗

[@deborahhenderson2506]

Greetings my lovely from London give yourself time to heal.. must say new to your channel but love the aesthetics of your beautiful home and your interesting content.. sending love and light your way ♥️♥️

[@Iamrosyd]

Love the vlog. Your style is unique and I’m here for it

[@C5B-jc1yj]

Thank you Amani. Simply, thank you for what has helped me so much.

[@onlyforme8453]

You are too cute, and this was so comforting 🩷

[@Femme_Cherie]

I needed this been grieving my brothers loss and it hits me every now and then very hard 💔😔

[@AmaniRakeia]

oh my, i am so so sorry for your lost. i pray that each day you feel fully covered and loved by him, especially when those feelings of grief hit hard ❤

[@Femme_Cherie]

@@AmaniRakeiathank you kindly for your response your words and prayers are very impactful to me during this time ❤

[@heyfrenchieb2185]

Miss you girl can’t wait for you to come back hope all is well ❤

[@faebalina7786]

A little bit of living alone is wonderful, therapeutic even ,a lot of it is can be scarily lonely,then if you can push through it becomes normal and company becomes both a dream and a pain but not a reality.I was always scared to reach that last stage where I can stand nothing but my own company and lose all patience for people.Effectively becoming a hermit because I came close but things outside my circumstances pulled me out.

[@SEAofMARINA]

Oh I loveeeeeee this video😍😍 it felt so inspiring for me to write and just record and get out of my head tryna make content look aesthetic

[@Nikkiole84]

This really touched me 💙✨

[@royaladvisorypublishing]

i DEFINTELY participated in the happy dance! Love the yellow two piece and the Teairra Mari throwback ;-)

[@PeterKalivas]

It's UP to "US" to save our selves. SO GLAD I found you! #twinsies Being in the "NOW" is what its about!

[@niqq19]

Jhezzzzz…… it’s so enlightening when you breakdown different concept of grief because I’ve been feeling the same but working through it. Once again! Another brilliant content🎉👏🫶 P.S that Kennedy Ryan book is my favourite 😊

[@samites690]

you are truly so skilled at vlogging like the first volg I HAVe EVER watched that I didn't have to stop myself from clicking away. So engaging and artistic !! KEEEP IT UPPP

[@queenpeaceofgod3334]

I needed this video

[@JaruleBARBIEandthenwhat]

YOU SEEM WELL AND CLEAN..THATS WHY I HAD TO CATCH MY BREATH

[@theofficialshordy929]

I didn’t know I needed this video as much as I did ! Your videos are such therapy 💗

[@decorluv5395]

My homegirl in my head. I just love you! ✨💛

[@AmaniRakeia]

awwwww, heyyy homegirrrrrllll! love you back! 💗

[@mariaessien4499]

Big hugs sis. Thank you for blessing us with this blog. ❤❤❤❤

[@jessieephillips9451]

Your content style is phenomenal. I’m inspired

[@AmaniRakeia]

aww, thank you so so much!! i really appreciate that 🥹💗

[@TheLillybean12]

Wow, love your editing!

[@mabatho.mohaleamalla]

Your videos are literally art 😍

[@donnamoore6520]

Feel the peace that we have.

[@DanielleJohnson-sl3bf]

😂I’m on the phone with my boo telling him how I needed to figure out what to do because I’m bored being home alone then BOOM your video pops up

[@bo-bo]

In fact, you are not alone.You love your peace and life all by yourself.

[@wandamcadoo3550]

I have been going through grief from losing my son three years ago and it is the hardest thing that I’ve ever had to go through.

[@donnamoore6520]

I live alone I love it Peace.

[@BeeAelia]

The plantssss🪴 ❤❤❤ Another amazing video for another amazing Sunday!✨

[@AmaniRakeia]

loveeee me a gorgeous birds of paradise! ❤❤

[@jacsYT]

i just discovered your channel thru this video and a) you’ve inspired me to get my life together, b) let me go binge watch all your previous videos!! 😊

[@rachaelesque3]

First time viewer, instant follower. Love your style!! Going on year two post divorce and I’m happy I stumbled onto your channel.

[@rg8162]

Your home is beautiful.

[@valeriebillings7248]

Trust you’re always on time ❤👍🏽💐🙏🏽

[@Chaunice-w8i]

Love this !

[@millicentevans9232]

Good morning Amani I am new to your channel and I saw your topic on your video. And I said that’s so true. I have not gotten over loosing my dad at the age of 58 years old!🥺🥺it still hurts me to this day. I tear up when I mention my dad. June 3rd was my big milestone. I was hoping to spend it with my fiancé and his family like I did last year. My small circle of family whom I love to much have turned against me. Because I was surprised by an engagement ring my fiancé surprise me!! I was blown away so this went into my birthday! Well cut a long story short my eldest daughter who is my caregiver is moving into a three bedroom house. So I will be living alone like I did in my twenties! Yep I think it for the best I can’t trust anymore. And her sister is keeping up malice with me for no reason only that he found me and yes there is an age gap. But love is love!! He treats me well he makes me more happier than I have ever felt. I am an independent woman as the song says I WILL SURVIVE!!😂😂 power to you for being strong enough to have your beautiful home. And taking care of yourself have a lovely day! ❤

[@CarmenSantana-jn3nb]

Sometimes alone is fabulous peaceful day to do me ahhh.

[@Tiger_Trades21]

Feeling the vibez