Loneliness Kills Art (and how YouTube saved mine)

[@JayTheDevGuy]

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[@NoomStuff]

I have never seen a youtube premium sponsor lol

[@ocarina0001]

actually insane getting a yt premium sponsorship, not only have i never seen one before but that's such a... i don't even know, good freaking job is all i have to say about it :)

[@aloyminimum]

I already have premium but I’ve never seen a sponsor for it lol

[@TrizziEhgan]

I'm starting to think there's gonna be a wave of KZbinrs literally getting sponsored by the platform they're in.

[@crazybird199]

Oh yeah I have YT Premium. It's pretty much the only media subscription service I have.

[@Hakita]

Too early to start posting about your art? No such thing when you don't have a sizable following yet. I posted my first video about ULTRAKILL the same day I started working on it. Nobody saw it, but keeping that steady gradual build and push is what got any eyes on the project in the first place, so when it finally did become what people would generally call "good enough to show", there actually were people to see it!

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Damn that means a lot coming from you man, as someone who played early builds of Ultrakill and has watched it grow into what it is now this is so sick that it was forged with the same mentality

[@Computer-Frog]

HOLY SHIT IT'S HAKITA

[@abod_bios2]

I like how he make a gore game and his profile picture is the most cartony cuty thing

[@theamazinglordmilo9608]

OH MY GOD ITS JOHN ULTRAKILL?!?!?!??!?!?!?

[@Mys-tic]

the fact that i just played ultrakill o.o

[@Shadowpaw67]

I'm putting "library of 8s instead of a head full of 10s" on a giant sticky note and putting it on my monitor because fuck man I don't need that hard of a callout post

[@drugcrab]

But can you even make an 8

[@trevorfranks69]

I'll be happy putting out 4s at this point

[@ewoklord-726]

Maybe it has something to do with Autism and familiarity, but my idea graveyard is less of a graveyard, and more of a bunch of balloons that I drag behind me, reeling each one in in their own time. But occasionally, I have to sort of evaluate which balloons are worth the effort, and which ones are running out of air, and I need to let go. It’s always sad when they float away…

[@JayTheDevGuy]

I love this analogy

[@SunnyIsOnline]

Oh no I can already tell this one gonna make me cry

[@ihappydawnz]

fr

[@harmonica_gaming8741]

Too real

[@Scanlaid]

48 seconds and I needed to pause

[@JayTheDevGuy]

I made this specifically to make SunnyIsOffline cry

[@cs1045]

​@@JayTheDevGuy😢

[@PinoPrime]

7:55 THIS!!! The amount of times people have tried to argue for ai saying that you can just make art for yourself is baffling to me. I wish more people thought like this

[@JayTheDevGuy]

+2 the more I understand the process of making art the less I worry about AI slip replacing any art higher than stock photos and clipart

[@frankieloinandgroin]

@@JayTheDevGuy That one video game concept artist who got fired alongside his entire team, just to be replaced by ai still haunts me ngl.

[@AdrianAnema-f2n]

I can relate to the whole starting a project, obsessing over it, the project dying, and the cycle repeating over and over again and I'm glad you were able to get out of it

[@alsopato]

been sitting on 20+ pages of notes for a video essay i havent started writing for almost 5 months now out of fear of it not being as good as i want it to be, thanks for this

[@ConBomb]

Hello! Here to add to the sob stories, I've been working on a game for over a year now, and I remember that rush of motivation I got when I showed it off to my friends for the first time. That was the most work I'd ever gotten done, I added tons of content, fixed tons of bugs, even got it onto steam, (didn't release it). Yet now, it's been over a month since I've opened the project, so I don't know, I set the release as being late december, and I just keep watching that date get closer. I don't want it to fall to the graveyard, and yet as I stress more about it I end up procrastinating even more. So I'll have to figure that out, anyways I'll make sure to put this video into the good Advice I ignore category!

[@JayTheDevGuy]

I'm glad if it can help in even the tiniest way :] thanks for sharing!

[@randuRBLX]

“Good Advice I Ignore” is so relatable i hear advice about something that i needed and then instantly forget it then once i actually do something the advice is needed for i end up learning it myself (either that or i completely forget it exists and dont do it)

[@NOOB-ps8km]

Can you release the game as early access?

[@mumblety]

Well that intro hit a little close to home. I also have a huge graveyard of abandoned game dev projects. And other projects... Basically all of which have not seen a single ray of sunlight. Maybe I'll go through them, blow the dust off, and make a compilation video or something.

[@thecupcakehey1608]

Game jams might help

[@MissGenkiArt]

Hoo boy I relate to this one but in an oddly backwards way. I'm 32 now. I've been posting drawings online since 2005 and hoo boy does that fucking hurt my soul to think about, lol. I've got the old deviantart with the cringe pre-teen art. I've got nearly two-decade of progress to look back on on various websites. Heck I even did KZbin for a bit back in the wild west era of the platform. (The cringe is still there too.) And something I realized in the last couple of years is that I'm secretly jealous of myself. I've grown in so many ways and am proud of who I've become as a person but when it comes to art I lost something the old me had. Sure that old stuff online is weird and cringe and sometimes it hurts to not understand what I was even thinking with some of it but hey, at least younger me was posting! I still post art today but it's few and far between.. and I have a huge graveyard of abandoned ideas that haunt me. Hell I've been telling myself I'm gonna make a webcomic one of these days for 10 years at this point. It's definitely easier said than done but I've been trying to talk myself into just doing literally anything despite the quality and posting it. Then it will be real and people will see it and I'll have a reason to truly begin. Thanks for sharing this video. You've inspired me once again!

[@JayTheDevGuy]

I feel that man, my younger self had a stubborn naive dedication I sometimes envy.. I'm proud your former self managed to post anything, cringey or not. My former self didn't even have the balls for that. I'm so glad you're starting to feel that itch to throw it out there again, despite imperfection :]

[@Silencer1337]

I get this. The online community I posted my stuff in faded out of existence in obscure ways. Key people meeting the reality of life, popularity declining, etc. I didn't realize how that environment was the thing keeping me going, and even though I still had amazing people to spend my time with, they weren't ones who realistically could be expected to show interest in the unique challenges I was experiencing in my creative processes. A decade of wasted time later, I clenched my butt cheeks and built and released a mediocre game on Steam, and nothing happened, just like this guy experienced, and it was kind of liberating. It made me realize how unnecessary it was to work on it "behind closed doors".

[@blu-phlox]

Damn I could've written this myself. Legit, 31 and posting art online under different names since 2005. Never did make that webcomic. Or that other webcomic. Just this year I was finally motivated to start drawing again after taking a 10 year break to focus on building a regular career. And like coming back now with how much things have changed, I'm like man young me did not appreciate just how special posting art online was. What I found helped me getting back into things was just setting a timer: I have 1 week to make this piece start to finish, no revisions after Friday. Kinda like treating it like a deadline at work, in a way. It's helped me immensely. But the idea of hopping into a new venture like recording my process for KZbin is still a little too intimidating! I'm rooting for you! I really think you can do it with the right framing!

[@MissGenkiArt]

@@blu-phlox Do you post your ary anywhere? I'd love to follow!

[@blu-phlox]

@@MissGenkiArt Thank you! I pretty much just post on Tumblr with the same name as here since it's the only place that still feels familiar. What about you?

[@QUENROUTE66]

that first 3 minutes punched me in the gut and stole my lunch money to inspire me to make my own food

[@JulieeBees]

The scrible vibe is so real. I wish I could pet a scribble cat it would be so fluffy

[@JayTheDevGuy]

*animates the personification of my deepest artistic insecurities* My Patrons: can I pet it like a kitty cat? 🤔

[@childlikedialectic7157]

This really hits home. I think loneliness kills all kinds of creativity, not only art. I'm a researcher, and one of the greatest joys of the work is going to conferences, getting feedback that offers you a reality check, testing out something you're working on with populations that you study, or seeing what drove other people to this strange, beautiful niche you've worked your way toward. Great artists lived together or were each other's pen pals for a reason. There's something about sharing with others *why* you love creating that's deeply affirming. There's so much more we can find in the world around us than when we try to refine things in isolation. Also, I love how mixed-media your animation style feels, and the glowing sketches in the first long narrative chunk of the video!

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Exactly! This is such an interesting perspective. I think these primal monkey brain feelings is what keeps us all productive in ANY field, whether it's silly drawings or not

[@Orion_TheProto]

9:47 "i will never forgive any of you for not funding pixelz's plushie" WHY MUST THE UNIVERSE BE SO CRUEL, IT GOT SO CLOSE

[@JayTheDevGuy]

✊😔

[@chatfulness03]

I TRIED DUDE 😭 I wanted it so bad....

[@0cktopus]

I feel like something that should have been touched on is not to pressure someone into posting on widely accessible social media. I'm a digital artist who used to care about internet number. But since, have moved to a more humble online presence. I never really got a big following but I feel a lot more freedom drawing for myself and only sharing to a couple friends regularly. I do still draw plenty of art for several other friends, and it's always a more organic feeling of satisfaction having them comment on it in the moment and not worry about it hanging around and not getting the internet numbers you think you deserve. I'm a strong advocate for sharing what you make. But I also know that social media can be SERIOUSLY harmful to your mental health if you go in with high expectations and don't get what you think you deserve.

[@BobbeDev]

I was going "oh hey that person" every half second when you were scrolling through the subscribers

[@slugcatsu]

Same lol

[@LucyLavend]

9:37 ahahah that search bar 😆 Absolutely phenomenal video ♥

[@Koopa2007]

It really disappoints when a project doesn’t get the views it deserves because I’ve experienced it and its really shatters my confidence and it doesn’t help me focus on my projects, and also it only raises the perfectionism bar higher and higher. I was shattered just yesterday when i was scrolling on youtube and saw one person who had more subs than me on their first video and ngl the quality wasn’t as good as my videos, this isn’t supposed to be hate or anything but it is really energy draining to see it right on front of my eyes. I hope i never quit because this is what i wanted to do for years and when i finally had the chance this is how it goes.

[@IrrationalMango]

Dude I cannot put into words how much everything you've said here resonated with me. Finding 3D gang and working w so many other creators and everything has completely reshaped what I value in the creative process. Everything you've also said with the pressure/struggle of making a 10/10 and how that held you back is something I find myself still struggling with right now too, and hearing your perspective on that whole experience was rlly eye-opening. Thank you for continuing to be one of the most genuine creators on the platform and I don't think I could thank you enough for dropping this masterpiece

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Brother you're one of the most talented people I know. Between game dev, 3D animation, KZbin, and all the million other disciplines contained within those 3, AND being a boy genius college kid? You're insane, and I can tell no matter where you end up you'll be one of the best at it. You inspire this old millennial. Keep it up ✌️

[@thunderbear06playsstuff63]

Yeah... I used to share my stuff with friends/family, it never really motivated me to continue working on them though

[@honahearts]

NEW JAY VIDEO !!!

[@spygun21]

9/10 video! 2 points because I am in it! 2 points for the art style! 2 More for the second art style! +1 for being relatable for the artists! -1 for the ad, +2 because it's not Raid, +2 because I was there for the creation of the video! Also you can clearly see your art style grow over time and it's great

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Can I get a +1 for reading every comment and showing unethical favoritism towards my Patrons

[@spygun21]

@@JayTheDevGuy Yes. 10/10 KZbin Video 👍

[@s4bishii]

thanks for making this video dude, there are too many talented people out there who are afraid to share and be part of the community because of self imposed limits. I know at least a few and will be sending them this video ❤

[@JayTheDevGuy]

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[@mb_kieran]

i've only just started watching, but i already know this video is gonna be exactly what i need. i've been stuck in a job i hate for four years now and i keep watching videos on game development and animation and comics and using youtube as a place to share all that with the world and getting this *pull* in my chest, my heartrate quickens, i'm itching to get started on something, so many ideas running through my head. but that's all they are right now, ideas. i've never formally started a project, much less finished one, and i can barely get past the sketching stage when i'm drawing. but making things is what i want to do. after this, i think 'm gonna hand in my two weeks and do exactly that. for real this time!!

[@JayTheDevGuy]

I did all of this while chained to my desk job! It absolutely sucks, I get it, I'm looking to quit soon too. Be responsible but if you can sustain it safely then good luck!

[@Eishous]

6:50 Ya got me :( The hardest part of putting stuff out there for other people is accepting flaws. I have fallen too often into the trap of redoing or rerecording stuff because of some small detail you only notice because you have been obsessing over this project for months. Your video really resonates with me. Especially the part about your first video not doing so great but the feeling of actually finishing a month-long project. I have had the exact same experience! The rush of actually finishing something and the encouragement of the few people that saw it is SO REWARDING. Hearing you talk about this struggle so openly is also really nice. Makes me want to continue on my current project. Love your videos and your presentations!

[@Eishous]

I find the thing about accepting small flaws is that you just need to stop yourself from correcting them but then carry that knowledge to the next project, so you don’t waste your time a second time.

[@dinysk8]

11:13 the official TF2 KZbin channel

[@Mrmanimate]

One of my fav KZbinrs you’ve your stuff man hope your doing well

[@Mrmanimate]

This is what I’m going through a similar thing where I keep giving up on passion projects

[@flatterghast]

I saw the title for this video and I immediately thought, "aw man this is gonna hit too close to home for me is it?" and I was absolutely right. I'm 24, and I have (and continue to) struggle with releasing a project. I've been learning game development on and off for the past couple years (godot mostly) and despite the time I spent in and out of the engine, I cannot bring myself to make and complete a game. A few days ago, I started a new project, and since I started it, I decided that I want to learn from past mistakes; I want to try and reach out to others, and post about its progress. This video was a really nice reminder that I'm not the only one who has dealt with this kind of struggle, thank you for making this :)

[@CD_Rhoms]

Im so glad to feel so seen in this video 😭😭 ive been drawing for myself since i was 17 and now im 27, never really posting much and feeling like an imposter. I really want make things that make others happy but also never feeling happy with what i make. But we are our own worst critic and your story inspires me to actually try and do something for people to see!

[@TheLordZephyrus]

This guy is who inspired me to start KZbin. Been doing it for like 2 months now haha. Thanks, Jay

[@TheLordZephyrus]

Also awesome video it totally encapsulates the feeling of being and artist I forgot to put that in my comment

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Aw thank you 😭

[@ymi8238]

omg same I'm an illustrator/concept artist. Till now I would create accounts on twitter, post art, get tons of likes, but each time I flopped I would delete the account. I repeated that cycle a lot.. I never went over 300 followers. Till 5 weeks ago I decided to stop that cycle, and post anyway, even if I don't think the art is fully polished, even if I missed my shot I wouldn't delete. In 5 weeks I went from being unknowed to having +1100 followers, a number I never reached. Art I thought were flops, later gained engagement because someone would find it and rt it, creating a snowball. I do very long illustration but also somes quick 1-3hours drawings, sharing idea and concepts, which are often more popular than the 20-30h long illustration ahah. So artists, stop sabotaging yourself!!!

[@EndVertex]

Ouch. I've been thinking the same thing, but I didn't have the same experience as you unfortunately. Was hoping to make more art friends by posting online, but just ended up with friendly acquaintances. Loneliness is still there.

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Joining existing communities when you're smaller is a lot easier than starting one yourself. It'll help you grow and get you bumping shoulders with people in your shoes. There's lots of places online that are great for this :] Not gonna pretend it's all easy though. Just easier than keeping it all to yourself

[@aeoligarlic4024]

The acquaintance thing is real! It's so hard to loosen up and make natural friends, i'm always scared of stepping on a landmine

[@MaliceWicker]

I've only watched the first minute and a half so far but i *gotta* get this off my mind cuz it's an immediate thought of mine, seeing that intro. For those that need to hear it: Just because projects dwindle out at all, doesn't mean you've failed them. Some truly just were not meant to be, or more importantly, you found out you couldn't resonate with them long term. You'll find something. 💗 Additionally, when I posted about some projects of mine on twitter, even if the state it was in doesn't even closely resemble what it is now. Just the 2 replies and handful of likes I got, kept me going for another three whole versions alone. At the end of the day, creating is a hobby, sometimes a job. But it should never prioritize over those you love. And hey! Maybe your friends could be of more help than you think!

[@toastercat2946]

I'm pretty early on in this cycle, so I'm glad I saw this before too many projects started stacking up

[@alvin_row]

What you describe here is 100% what has happened to me many many many times. I have no idea how many abandoned GameMaker projects I have. I'm not completely above it, far from it. But at least now I made a Twitter (it's still scary for me to Tweet so I've barely tweeted like 2 times) and I already paid the Steam fee. Let's hope I can actually finish something this time. Thanks for making this video by the way, it feels good to know there's people out there who've gone through the same things I have.

[@Stanely_Chompers]

Yay! New video! Edit: the opening was great, and it almost perfectly describes how I used to feel

[@yt_paperHANk]

This video is what I need to watch the most, I dropped 1 game project due to burnout, I cannot find sb to program with me, I used to draw and had fun with doing individually *and now anything can be emotionally draining for me, I’m hustling me into finishing my programming assignments* I still don’t wanna drop the other 2 game projects, having multiple interests suck, my time’s running out, coding at college doesn’t spark joy but I gotta fantasize the process

[@typicalpixelanimator]

I've also just been digging up and re-working on some projects for the past week! I was also stuck in that lonely cycle till I decided to show and talk about my projects to my friends randomly. It made me realise how much they actually want to listen and learn more about it. Which only blew my mind more, feeling more of that itchy itch. Despite me and my little brother's card game being made when we were kids. I'm still glad and happy to find myself digging up their graves occasionally and trying to find a pulse. Even when I have another project in the works :) Thanks for helping us Jay

[@Blackpapalink]

I've been having a story going on in my mind for... Yes years... And last year I decided to start putting it down on paper. Putting... yes years of plot beats into a document has been unwieldy, so I've decided to break chunks into separate stories in the same Universe. The result is a mess of half worked on documents that have a little cohesion. I keep saying that I'm gonna learn how to draw, code, make music, etc, and keep burning myself out then restarting from where I left off. The thing is, I really do want to make this story into a game. It just seems that diving deeper into the little aspects of the story might be the best way to start.

[@eclipticsonata1313]

I wrote a story once and then I got half way through a sequel and scrapped it. I then rewrote the first one. Then I made a third one in the same universe and actually thought it was decent. It just sits there printed out in a binder though. Then I did music, made like 40 songs, only 2 are properly finished. I now do drawing and that's a complete disaster. I've also coded, 3D modeled, studied languages, none of this has gone anywhere.

[@thevoid5863]

yo dude, i think we have the exact same watch history, from acerola to randy to uncle dane to, well, you i guess. also, i really look forward to all of your uploads, i dunno what it is about this, but these videos feel comforting, they are genuine and i don't think there's a single one of these that i haven't watched all the way through. take some advice from the best (lazypurple ofc), and don't let yourself get in the way of yourself.

[@milkthatsbagged]

Damn this video really hits home, I literally put this on for some background noise while working on one of those dream projects and I relate to what you said so hard lol. Glad to hear those thoughts and feelings expressed by others! Thanks for making the video!

[@incrementalsocial]

The start of this video was emotionally devastating to me with its relatability. I've very often struggled with perfectionism and all the problems that come with it, and I'm so happy to hear your journey getting past it.

[@TTI-x2v]

Thats the thing with all art advice, you know its good, it's almost blindingly obvious if you stay adjacent to like, any art tutorial or even just friends who make art themselves. But its just so hard to actually listen to it sometimes, especially when you're first starting out. You're searching for some trick or some shortcut to make your magnum opus out of the box like thats ever going to be a viable strategy for anyone I've been drawing for about 3 years now, and been posting them publicly for just about 2 know, and man once I started posting it was awesome. Even though most of my little pixel art drawings don't get much traction, just one person dropping a like or a reblog makes me smile, and when i see someone sift through my whole page or even just my comic, it feels great to know you connected with someone else, even if its superficial

[@Vexilo5]

This is so real. Ive had to remind myself a lot recently that every single thing I do is NOT a direct reflection of my own ability. Thank you so much for making this, ive really enjoyed your videos :)

[@RandomCriticalRocket]

8:00 oh my god… I needed to hear something like this. I really want to make things that other people could at least enjoy a little but I always felt like I was SUPPOSED to make things just for me

[@webkinskid]

I've had my own void to shout into for a year or so now and it's really helped, but I have been thinking about starting a channel to discuss data structures and programming for game development, I'm kind of an optimization nut so I'd discuss ways to minimize memory usage, when to cache, when to recalculate, how to store data smaller and more efficiently, etc, at this point I outright refuse to put something on the heap that could have fit on the stack, fixed-size data is KING just recently, I figured out how to manipulate bits in data directly to make my own representations of information, the notion of using 6 and 7 bit integers was nauseating at first, a defilation of the way things are meant to be, but by the end of it, I was almost shaking with excitement, skipping out on conventional data structures in favor of manipulating bits directly just has so much potential, now I scheme how to fit information into as few bits as possible so I can make full use of every byte, it's so much more efficient than I could have imagined possible and I'm loving it

[@chunkycraftz4594]

I'm happy. Happy that I clicked on this video, and happy that a video understood the very feelings that I was going through too. The graveyard of "bad ideas", the fear of putting your very first project out (hell even future projects), the annoyance sometimes of taking time away from your little project which you want to spend every waking moment dedicating yourself to, and even the crippling expectation of what you feel your videos SHOULD be to you. Im also scared, not because of the chance my videos dont take off, but that on the chance they do, people will see the works which I dedicate myself to and think they are mediocre. But by some strange method of the universe, I would still keep bashing my head against this brick wall. Its an obsessive love, and I would spend every waking moment to sharpen my skills for the next video. Because to me, thats what I love about making videos. The constant struggle, and the boundless limits which i can work towards. A fine balance of that "argh this isnt good enough" and "I love this to my core". To finally SHARE the video you so longingly worked on day and night, despite whatever fear or doubt you have. To just send it out into the endless void of the internet. Laughing with my friends and burying my face in my hands out of embarrassment when they react to it for the first time. Its a strange love hate relationship, but its one that is part of the journey of creating something. This video perfectly encapsulated that process and feeling of creation :)

[@NaughtMax]

It’s funny that this came up the day after I shared a bunch of bad sketchbook pages for the first time in my life, I decided it was worth sharing the process and not just my clean finished works. It’s a bit embarrassing not just showing the BEST of what I can do but I also have to remember I took a 5 year break from illustrations so my BEST isn’t really where my skill level is at anymore.

[@skpacman]

I've had too hard of a time coming to grips with all of these concepts you're talking about to be watching this video right before bed... yet here we are.

[@AProbablyBadIdea]

I got to watching this right after watching "Look Back" since it just dropped on streaming today. Thanks for the being my second sign today telling me to draw and post more. :)

[@flowerheadmusic]

This is an important video ❤Thanks for making it

[@JayTheDevGuy]

Genuinely wouldn't be half as good without a banger soundtrack, you liked it with Underwater man

[@slugcatsu]

Wait, you made the death by ai soundtrack! Never thought I would see the person who made those bangers randomly here!

[@AvaGr8ce]

I completely relate to this as a new creator who finally got over my fear of sharing this summer!!!! I feel even more fired up after watching this, i love it!

[@InvasionAnimation]

I agree! I feel a similar way being an animator. The joy of creation is a wonderful thing!

[@GreatHammerEnjoyer]

Stop calling me out, gonna make me cry

[@BenisDD]

This sure sounds unfamilliar. Moving on

[@rallekralle11]

the bingo is gonna be a blackout

[@AfamiliarSwordYT]

As somebody trying to break into that kind of digital independent art sphere to make more original works, this is a good video. Solid 8/10.

[@yenmink]

from the very first minute you have encapsulated how I have been feeling about my art recently and consistently over the years. my perfectionism is a killer. but there is something so thrilling about removing yourself from the pressure and doing things anyway, and release it to the world, knowing that you could do better each time. but there is so much joy seeing your art grow and see it for what it is and enjoying that process. I understand that joy of finally releasing something that is finished and realizing the catalyst it is that is essential to moving forward, it is quite magical. thank you for the relatability.

[@CrokeyHigati]

Thanks for sharing, Im always happy to hear peoples thoughts and experiences on just... making things. Making things is the coolest thing a person can do and I can definitely relate to the struggle that can come from it. Hmmm I have a scalie OC... HMMMM.

[@JayTheDevGuy]

🤔🤔🤔

[@Mochagoosey]

Showing off your subscriptions during the YT Premium section is actually genius! Coming off of the community section and myself already feeling emotional from this video. Just seeing channels that I've enjoyed for years now (inferno plus, camwing, etc) really drove that community feeling for me. Especially after relating so heavily, its really heart-warming to see and just be rids that isolation feeling

[@anonimusnotengo4627]

Rather have a catalog of 8's than a head full of 10's. Damn. I'm printing that. Thanks, mr dev guy

[@lordmarum]

We are so many, walking slightly different yet similar paths

[@SoCalledSwitch]

cardboard/paper cutout characters gotta be one of my favorite genders

[@GetMadz]

what a wonderful video, thank u

[@icet1100]

I was tearing up during that intro. That sounded like the story of *my* life… Now I just got to follow the advice.

[@FedoraProductions]

26 years!? You know... Maybe I do rock 😎

[@MasterEth]

This video kept getting recommended to me. After the 20th time seeing this thumbnail I finally clicked. I kid you not like 30 seconds in and I am HOOKED IN THIS IS SO RELATABLE

[@bruniojunior445]

It's crazy how hearing about the death of a project/idea can be so emotional... beautiful stuff!!!

[@dawid035]

Darn, I got outspeed in Homestuck category in the bingo, especially with that Dirk Strider wombo combo x4. HS fellas aren't sleeping, that's for sure. But I am not surrendering on the bingo spot yet! Now more seriously - I gonna agree with you wholeheartedly about the goldmine that are indie youtube creators nowadays and how so many of them do some banger animation. Like even if they aren't doing content that often, when they do and give you some super polished animation you are like darn, how they can make something so awesome with such little time? That's frickin awesome and a lot of those creators really put a lot of soul into what they make, which only further motivates you for your own project. Nice to know I got to encounter a lot of creators like you did. KZbin recommendation system lately has improved with pushing new creators out, which can make you find some really shing gems. Now let's focus on your experience as an artist. While I am far from considering myself as one (I might be a programmer but on the art side my skills are definitely lacking), I find your journey to be pretty relatable. Everyone talks about small scope but you really gotta feel that, not just HEAR it as an advice, which can take time. Like from my experience, even if you go with small scope projects, you still aren't guaranteeded to finish them, especially when you are working alone. Still, when you do finish something, it's pretty rewarding. I did game jams before and while I wasn't exactly successful with finish the games as I wanted to on time (heck, my first jam game was pretty buggy) but it was still an experience that made me appreciate the act of creation itself, even if the end result isn't ideal. Heck, as I speak I try to return to one of the older projects of mine and see if I can bring my vision to life - I had to put it on hold but now, since the stuff around me didn't exactly go as I planned, I might as well give it another go. So thank you for this video and I hope you will continue your awesome journey.

[@Skyddawg]

Idk if you'll see this but Thank you so much for making this, i needed to hear it. For around a couple years I have this problem where I always think of the end result of a product being perfect and loved by everyone, instead of actually creating it (partly due not having time to actually make it), to the point where i am in a constant constant state of thinking about that thing rather than socializing with others, which has also severely damaged my own communication skills. Even if your thing is not your best work, you should still share it anyway as both the completion of a project + others enjoying it will give you the adrenaline you need to creating and improving both your skills and future works.

[@husseinkobeisi5022]

Watching this at 24 years old (and already feeling like it's all too late). Thanks man.

[@goodsirbear-7579]

I like void-like jay gets and orange glow when he sees the new video and later JayTheDevGuy is completely orange and in his yt design talking to void jay, it like a leitmotif but colors!

[@TheBeepMann]

Aw dude I fucking cried, I finally got my creativity ball rolling then I see this, exactly what I needed at the right moment

[@bertsteinich]

Never done any art, but can relate so much to this. It works with pretty much anything that you have passion for

[@ChaplinChapman]

Thank you for making this. Taking the pain and making it into something priceless an beutiful.

[@cooldude8570]

So glad I took a ceramics class, I was pretty familiar with completing something and then starting over, but having classmates witness me literally punch and beat projects back into a primordial lump is freeing. It let me create something better every time. I wish I had done it at least once more.

[@uwu-oz6xn]

This was genuinely one of the best art advice videos I’ve ever watched. Genuine heart to heart real shit. I fell into pretty bad artblock for a few years and nothing would really break me out of it. Then with the help of hyperfixating on a few characters I started drawing for arts sake again. It was nice but still I wasn’t drawing as much as I was pre art block. What you said about art friends and friendly competition is probably the truest thing I’ve learned about art and creativity. I have drive now and we feed off of eachother whether it’s ideas or stealing little bits of each others artstyles lol. Now I’m back to pre art block levels and am drawing for multiple hours almost daily again. This video gave me the same feeling that good art friends does. Genuinely great video dude

[@JustGrennan]

W video, the sketchy style expertly showed the feeling on working on something Alone, and the positive vibes you gave about making things are very motivating. Many get stuck in the “KZbinr” mentality that the one guy popularized of just grinding and becoming the best or else, but now that the popular guy has been outed as being an extremely unkind bts, it’s gotten me thinking about how things don’t have to be the best, they can just be silly or something you find fun. This video highlights that feeling of just doing it, and improving later, which I very much respect. Thanks Jay!

[@WyoteCoyote]

I knew when I saw the thumbnail that I needed to watch this, but man, I have never watched a video like this longer than 5 minutes where almost every sentence was something that I needed to put up on my wall as a reminder. It felt like you were talking right to me. Thanks Jay.

[@mooneyakavex2884]

Thank you, Jay. I decided last year that I wanted to start taking my art more seriously and give myself the opportunity to see if I can do anything with it. My project graveyard is pretty full from years of shooting myself down before I really got anywhere, and I didn't even realize that's what I've been doing. But I think I'd like to change that now, so thanks.

[@moveingmountains6643]

This is what I, (And clearly many overs, given this video's view-comment ratio.) needed to hear today, thank you for inspiring many.

[@Clockworkbio]

As someone who vanishes for a month only to post a video and then vanish again-I’m really happy that YT has started recommending folks that are playing the same game and at a similar spot on the growth curve. Glad to find this and glad to keep going.

[@the_Skorlling]

Jay, I know you read all your comments, so I just wanted to leave you one sharing what little I’ve done and how you’ve helped. This past month, I released my first actual project in the form of a UE5 short film, and while I worked on it, I listened to your videos. Hearing your passion and seeing the success you’ve had with your channel gave me a push to keep going, and along with a few other things, probably helped me to get the thing done at all. Like you said about your first video, I know it’s not my best work, and I definitely wanted to redo it when it was done, but I ignored it and published it anyway. I even entered it into a short film competition the channel NightMind runs for Halloween, and despite all the flaws I saw, I actually managed to make it in! It hasn’t exactly blown up, but the positive reaction I got has been a major motivator, and I just wanted to say thanks.

[@the_Skorlling]

Oh, and if you couldn’t tell, your little character has also been a big inspiration for my own oc, who hopefully will get more distinct as I mess around with him. I won’t be putting him in an entire 3d scene like you do though, I’m not quite that talented yet lol.

[@Deltarii]

this hit me way harder than I thought it should… I’ve been spiralling with my mental health for a couple years due to a traumatic event and my creativity and passion for drawing slowly faded. i didn’t have the energy anymore to push through wips, my project ideas and to keep working on my weak points because i kept comparing myself to other artists. I ended up deleting all of my art off social media recently out of the whole AI panic and any new drawing i made was never “good enough” i want to slowly start to draw for myself again and write little stories for my ocs again like i did when i was younger and this video gave me a little bit of hope again to try again, not worry so much about the end result but to experiment and just try to have fun with my art, not worrying so much about having to have perfect anatomy and body types just so i could fit in with my moots and have more twitter clout. sorry for the long ramble vent lmao ^^” but im glad this was recommended to me, thank you

[@xalexletelechat6464]

It's crazy how much i relate with what you said, as i am working on starting my KZbin chanel and making my "first" video (technically not my first but working seriously on it). I wanted to make video when i discovered KZbin on December 24, 2014, when i was 9 years old, but too many times i told myself it was too early, i had to improve before making content, ect... Finaly, i just lost 10 years imaginating all kind of stuff, but never creating it. I was just afraid of the unknow, of making something for the first time and failing. But i got able to change my mindset in october, and now i thing i can make this video, and open myself to other people trought my art. And i hope i will enconter new people and have great times like you did.

[@JaronamoeTophat]

Really great video! Has A LOT of relatability and I really enjoyed watching it!

[@lopodyr]

The "catalog of 8s is better than a head full of 10s" is really a great idea. I also read someday that "a finished is better than a good" and it has helped me a lot.

[@Katagear]

This is your first video that I have watched (I'm watching it 2 days after its release because I procrastinated. I'm sorry lol), but I must say that this video really resonates with me. I too have felt the burden of self-doubt, and how destructive it can be to my productivity and social well-being. The good news for myself, is that I have already taken my first steps to opening up by posting some of my art online, and I think that this video is the type of inspiration I needed to start just posting my sketches that I like enough to show, even if they're not perfect. That being said, I still cried from the vindication I felt from hearing someone express similar frustrations that I had/have; nevertheless, it was a good cry- maybe even the best cry- that I've had in a while. Almost forgot I had crying faculties built into this body. I joke, but sincerely, thanks for making this video. I want to continue to look forward rather than at the ground, and I want to look back with pride and not shame. So, I will do just that with tears of joy rolling down my cheeks. Thank you.

[@Jiorgos3D]

We do not talk about my unfinished projects.

[@Scaredy_balloon]

The bingo thing is so fun 😭 i relate so much to the start of the video, its nice knowing someone else went through all that and is able to create things again The issue with me is that i start banking all my effort on those less than perfect projects once a make one that decent, which creates another cycle of needing the next one to be *THE* perfect one 😭😭 I'm gonna try revist this video whenever i go through a rough period, putting urself out there is hard, but i always look forward to ur videos when they come out, ur paper style with the 3d backgrounds the second i saw it actually blew me away

[@TANIMAYTO]

Damn, man. That hits hard. Thank you for making this

[@therealwhite]

thank you for making this video. at some point my creative passion died and this provides insight as to why

[@smmario4]

This is by far the most relatable video I've ever watched

[@pamelavergara3771]

Thank u so much for this video, even if i think like you i have much trouble internalizing it ❤. I want to share something my mom always says to me: "Lo perfecto es enemigo de lo bueno" It roughly translates to "the perfect antagonizes the good" wich means the more you try to be perfect the less good you will make. Greetings from Chile.

[@BlueLeef]

Didn't expect it to get real tonight, but I'm there for it. Honest heart to heart about these thoughts that choke our projects is always appreciated. (Also fellow flower head enjoyer. NICE.)

[@PossiblyAxolotl]

within the first second I immediately thought about a current project I've been "working on" for years...

[@JayTheDevGuy]

The world deserves more PossiblyAxolotl, give us more

[@mrcrobart]

Your video is really inspiring :) I really like how you tell your story, even if it's not perfect and it's a "6/10" (which is not, it's clearly a 10/10 for me ) I hope you'll continue to make videos. You have a unique style :)

[@bluethemist]

I really needed this video, thank you- for creating content in general. You inspire me

[@kdevelopergw]

this is a personal attack on me* thank you *and also like almost every other creative out there watched the video in full, made me cry, once again - thank you