Lontalius - sleep thru ur alarm's | Extended Version | XBeats

[@randallwillnauer9779]

“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” - C.S. Lewis

[@xbeats1999]

Beautiful ♥️

[@valefree7243]

Randall Willnauer I feel like that all the time like a wanna do something that isn’t possible.

[@ilikechoco_milk6602]

Preach.

[@richslime6069]

@@valefree7243 bruh what!! I been watching hella anime so seeing like jutsus and quirks and all that I just wish I'd wake up and have some typa power👊

[@awesomegabrielworldrios5122]

Your a dum ass

[@maiizupi5346]

This comment section is full of hurt people telling each other its going to be okay, and im here for it.

[@user-ed6tj]

i honestly think its not going to be any better

[@maiizupi5346]

Jay T Thats what im here for 😌

[@maiizupi5346]

user 0202 It will get better i promise. I know everyone says that but it honestly will. It could be in a while, or even a month or so but it will eventually. :)

[@ayeshajain9214]

@Poozie hey I'm here! now, listen to me! it'll all get better with time. no matter how long it takes for your happiness just keep waiting with time. love you, and keep hoping for the best. ^^

[@chromaticvertigo143]

user 0202 yo dude checking in on you 2 months later you good?

[@kaitlyntaylor5064]

i wish i was as happy as i seem.

[@kaitlyncardona1481]

Out of topic but we have the same name :)

[@gncchi]

i wish i were as happy as they told me to be

[@pickleboy2565]

This hit hard

[@bradyolsonn9196]

Me too buddy. Wanna talk about it?

[@gokukakarot3404]

This.

[@Discombobulatedasf]

The thing is, you don't want to sleep, but you don't want to be awake. You don't want to eat, but you don't want to be hungry. You don't want to be around people, but you don't want to be alone. You don't want to do anything, but you don't want to do nothing. What you really want to do is to stop existing, but you can't do that without dying, and you don't really want to do that either.

[@raihanehadjsayah3090]

Yeah when you feel empty , but there’s so much noises inside you

[@user-fo1kz3zc8x]

Bruh stfu corny ass 💀💀

[@obamashairyballz8334]

That’s life and I hate it my mind and heart are the biggest enemies

[@Ash-hy4bo]

real

[@kiixz5837]

This fits so well to me...literally I just found out about this song and I've been crying outside and inside for 1 hour and 30 minutes straight Now I feel emotionless when I listen to it

[@xxryleighxx5124]

"No one is going to save you, you have to save yourself"

[@King710.]

True words spoken.

[@sufferingsushi]

that’s some monogatari series shit right there.

[@mymelody4199]

Xx Ryleigh xX that hurt im so weak i don't think i can

[@anaguimaraes7857]

What if I don't want to?

[@ang930]

I'm trying

[@mrpiggy4053]

One of the worst feelings in the world is having so much to say but no one to say it to, so you just bottle it up until that glass jar breaks, you put it back together and repeat but each time it gets harder to fix untill you give up on fixing it

[@troisess]

Holy shit that's exactly how it is for me. I have this bottle that slowly fills up with feelings and sometimes it just spills (breakdown)

[@gemrush369]

Me right now

[@troisess]

@@gemrush369 if you want to i can give you my social media, you're free to talk to me about it

[@gemrush369]

Narancia Ghirga sure, that’s really nice of you :)

[@troisess]

@@gemrush369 my instagram is r04d_r0ll3r_da, you can dm me anytime

[@user76781]

i’m not depressed, but i’m not okay or happy either. it’s kind of hard to explain. some days i can go from being very happy to very sad quickly

[@beast_sami]

How can this be so much relatable.

[@beast_sami]

Not depressed,just sad. Idk,just sad

[@usuk2410]

You might be bipolar I struggle with it things will get better tho keep your head up

[@Ava-qx3rh]

This is exactly the kind of things no one else understands

[@djmoney1015]

It’s called emptiness

[@randomnorh5367]

-Today will be different- -Tomorrow will be different- -After tomorrow will be different- -The day after will be different- *Maybe it will never be different*

[@faramongiwamhlophe3780]

you litteraly just blew away my hope

[@Exarhadsgfds]

Things will change when *You* change them.

[@TraDigitalGaming]

@@faramongiwamhlophe3780 don't let that destroy your hope remember that you are always loved and cared for and whenever you dont make sure you know that you love and care for yourself please never lose hope

[@elasina]

HOPE 💖

[@fabiolagonzalez5926]

@@faramongiwamhlophe3780 no joke

[@Idk-vo5qs]

The sad part is I have to imagine people comforting me instead of going to someone in real life cause I feel so selfish talking about my feelings and I’m afraid I’ll either be judged or ignored. I just want it to be over already

[@Brookkit]

Yes...me too

[@destinylol9912]

lol

[@xitlaliveravallejo767]

I've never related to something more in my life

[@nate-nb6yf]

I feel the same so if you need to talk I’m here

[@lianafn555]

same💀

[@MrBrezelwurst]

Honestly, at this point I'm only alive because I'm afraid of the repercussions I'd face if I survived an attempt

[@doq4335]

keep fighting, ok?

[@chunkson3899]

Bull shit

[@milanivkovic1680]

Keep going man keep struggling keep fighting for the better and that better will come just stay strong and keep it up

[@lordofallbacon5961]

theres nothing really i or anyone else can really tell you because i know its so hard to understand that there really always is a light at the end of the tunnel but its hard to see that when you dont even recognise yourself in the mirror anymore. I been there and back bud it doesnt ever go away but you'll find people who make it bearable. You just gotta get through it, rely on the people close to you until it gets manageable again so you can start living

[@aileenbarry5213]

I feel that friend. I survived my first attempt from a couple months ago. Trying it isn't worth the pain it causes others around you. Even my pets had gotten depressed, and they had gotten skinnier and skinnier until I came home. Even if you don't want to be around, I've decided I'll at least be there for others around me until I start to love myself. Good luck and best wishes, I hope you're doing well. ❤

[@rowan6872]

"im constantly writing my story, but never reading it." Something my best friend said to me before she commited suicide. Love you always and forever, Zj.

[@murphy3861]

That must be rough, so how are you doing today?

[@coffeecassette9092]

I'm so sorry for your loss dude :( Losing people is so hard. Sending you love while you heal ❤

[@Sliitsz]

im so sorry for your loss, I hope you're doing well.

[@Brookkit]

Woah...I'm so sorry... That must be hard

[@Ilovetylerthecretor]

I am so sorry I hope you doing better

[@bigolabe5272]

“You’re so mature for your age.” I don’t need to be this mature, I need comfort. I matured from pain, not age. edit//: hey guys, first of i just wanna say, i didn’t make this comment for the people out there that don’t understand the shit that goes on in some people’s life, and they think it’s cool and relevant to shit on other peoples trauma..yeah i didn’t make this for them, so if you’re one of those people just move on, really it’s not that hard to overlook it. second of all, if you’re going thru something..please hang on..trust me you have no idea the wreckage it can cause if you decide to give in to temptation. i’ve had a friend attempt and the amount of grief i went through that night was something i never ever want to go through again, i couldn’t eat, sleep, nothing. please please i’m begging you to stay strong through all of this..we can make it

[@Brookkit]

🥺😭😔

[@angelembertson7044]

I'm sorry

[@angelembertson7044]

That was strong. What you said. . I'm sure only a person who has experience pain and hardship would understand what you mean

[@DanielGarcia-op9vw]

Fake depressed

[@exsavierduran7701]

I feel this on a whole another level, wow. You’re not alone out here. I live through the same pain

[@abbycf1605]

Does anyone else get nostalgia from this because they used to listen to it a lot in the past

[@Cc-qc9wn]

;(

[@MaybePookie]

same.

[@MaybePookie]

October 2019

[@MiikaMiata]

This reminds me of the day my big and only brother killed himself on may 1st.... I never even saw it coming, and now that I’m almost 22 I realize how bad depression and anxiety and ptsd is... he hid his emotions so well and I didn’t even get the chance to see the signs before it was too late.. he was my rock, my go to person about anything.. the day he left was the day a part of me disappeared too.. there’s always gonna be a part of me that’s not there I’ll never be able to feel the same as I did before.. I feel lost in this world.. I feel alone but yet there’s so many ppl around me.

[@charlesw100]

We are 4 siblings , im the eldest brother . I've ... . I understand now how my suicide could influence my younger siblings , especially my middle brother. Thank you for shining some light on that even though that wasn't quite your intention. And im truely sorry about your brother , nothing i say or do could make things better but i truely am sorry , i hope that you are doing better by now or at some point in life you'll find peace❤

[@chelsss__929]

John Krizka I’m not crying...seriously tho I am so sorry please never give up and I don’t know the pain you’re going through but I am so sorry 🥺

[@margaretsatterfield9519]

Hey my name is Margaret, I’m 20. I lost my father to suicide a few years back. If you ever need/want someone to talk to text me at [phone]

[@therandomlady1771]

When I was younger my brother had horrible depression and I was always terrified he would commit suicide, but he hasn't and he's doing a lot better now, but I'm always a little bit scared.

[@cld9ina]

I'm so sorry... it is so difficult to experience these emotions but I'm sending you much strength..

[@oasisvillegas4287]

Quarantine really ducked my off, it showed me that no one really likes me besides my family. I have no one to talk to, no one has texted me only if I start the convo first or if I'm in a group chat. I was doing a lot better before all of this but since all this pressure from my dad it's just so damn hard to not think I'm a damn mess, disappointment, and many other things no one knows. It's close to a full year anniversary when I almost took my life but I chose not to. Well whoever is reading this I love you and it will get better ilysm.

[@nobody7989]

Hey, i would love to have a chat with you if you ever get lonley :,) I'm here for you. You're loved.

[@zinao8915]

Oasis Villegas I felt this so much, I have friends, but they don’t even text me or anything I have 1 real friend I guess, but they barely text me. It really shows how you can have friends in school, but none will ever check up on you or whatever, it hurts but yeah. Wish for the best to you man.

[@oasisvillegas4287]

@@zinao8915 yeah that's the sad truth about life and friends but I wish u the best also.

[@siddharthnamdev1284]

All of us depressed people together,from diff countries culture but living parallel in same kind of story.I'd like to do casual chat with you guys.......

[@Aldrin_Das]

Yea it sucks when you realise some of your "real friends" from school are just fake friends who used you

[@EK-yz5sj]

Im 20 and im slowly realizing that I've been in pain ever since I can remember. The little child in me never left. It stayed there because it never truly lived.

[@trihity]

Yeah .. me too. Word for word. This shit sucks.

[@spirosspero6070]

Not having lived the life you were supposed to at a young age,and realising that due to aging you lost any chance of witnessing how it even feels knowing it only by seeing others live through it will kill you inside.

[@owwmaan688]

am 20 now, ig you're 23, I been experiencing this shit from the beginning, hope you got over it

[@hmmmmmmmm...7672]

im so scared of everything

[@noone-dm9dn]

Why? °~°

[@kagome6637]

Same :c

[@muh1457]

Wanna talk?

[@twicetv2387]

it gets better.. :)

[@robvnn]

me too.

[@MrWendiloohoo]

Sometimes we just all have to sleep thru our alarms at a point in our lives

[@robvnn]

so true it hurts

[@mortemgetaway]

❤️

[@mortemgetaway]

Deegan?

[@mortemgetaway]

😂

[@MrWendiloohoo]

@@mortemgetaway n o

[@lemonade2702]

Reading through all these comments and people telling them it's gonna be alright just makes me cry, it's so nice

[@kurinfu503]

2020 still back at it again

[@xbeats1999]

Hello again! 😄

[@cyanide5152]

2020 on x games mode

[@robvnn]

vault8166_ nullhack yes.

[@chasity8545]

Hey my names Chasity and Ik this year has sucked but it's almost over isn't that great! I hope your doing okay love you

[@itz_lara_the_witch1600]

2021 and I’m still here

[@icarusflew24]

I might never be happy, I might be stuck like this for my whole life. But I’m gonna make sure with all my heart that they’ll be happy.

[@nid_pai2845]

before them, make sure you’re a priority alright? :( you are gonna be happy soon because tough times don’t last. just take care of yourself

[@valekiallamiaous]

hey.. its been 9 months since you wrote that and I guess I just wanted to check if you feel better.. i hope you do:)

[@amber-yp8tk]

dude this is the most relatable thing i’ve seen for a while, i hope you’re okay

[@choosenmoni2160]

I wish all your desires come ... and i wish you all the happiness in the world... please don't be depressed..

[@Nvdjoe]

hey, it’s been a year, you feeling any better?

[@jasmineallen8361]

this past year has been one of the hardest of my life and this sounds so bad to say but i cant see myself living through this much longer. i am so tired and numb from everything i feel like i have nothing left to give. songs like this make me feel grounded and not so alone. if you're reading this, i love you and we got this. don't worry.

[@elijahlovesrpg5538]

Hey how are you doing now?

[@mehdibadidou5595]

I hope you are doing well now

[@viar888]

Some months ago, my therapist asked me: "who are you without your sadness?" That question still makes me speechless today

[@Ken-ur8kt]

The sadness is always a comfortable place for people like us

[@viar888]

@@Ken-ur8kt it's the only place we know, I don't find it comfortable tho, I'm trying to get out of it, cuz I know there is more to life than this, and that's what kept me from killing myself up until now... But even then, it's really hard to get through...

[@sepehrjl7879]

@@Ken-ur8kt it rly is like a home, a shelter that comforts ppl like us, so cozy and warm yet so addictive... its like a parasite!!!

[@amishisoni6097]

maybe someone who i lost a long time ago

[@m.aldiab]

@@viar888 i have nothing to say but i love you bro, really i wish you get the life that you want, the happiness you deserve, the love you should get, please hang on and keep it up cuz one day you’ll look back and say i made it..

[@katsu558]

Lyrics- Thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wish you were dead But so broken on when you can't stop choosing To sleep through your alarms, Man you're losing your head The thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wish you were dead (Can't stop) But so broken on when you can't stop choosing To sleep through your alarms, man, you're losing your head (Can't stop)

[@xbeats1999]

Thanks 😄

[@katsu558]

@@xbeats1999 Np!

[@lol_kaye]

I always thought it was “what’s a broken heart when you can’t stop choosing...”

[@alysa...]

i kept thinking it was “broken armor you can’t stop choosing..”

[@weredog287]

always thought it's "what's a broken arm", like physical pain doesnt matter anymore

[@lanaerin624]

“It will be okay.” It doesn’t have to be okay. Your allowed to feel what you feel. Your feeling are accepted. I hope your voice becomes heard and not ignored or judged…

[@kramsok]

It’s going to be ok, relax, don’t overthink, calm down, go with the flow, why are you sad, SMILE…. And many other things people told me speaking from their perspective, ignoring the fact that we are different

[@jimmybobbyjoe]

"You are extremely afraid of any kind of initial contact aren't you? Are you that afraid of other people? I know that by keeping others at a distance you avoid a betrayal of your trust, for while you may not be hurt that way, you mustn't forget that you must endure the loneliness. Man cannot erase this sadness, because all men are fundamentally alone." -Kaworu Nagisa

[@flowtxen]

ima watch it now.

[@Brookkit]

Are you ok? I feel this. I dont want to be close to anyone because I've been used. But I hope that never happened to you. I really hope you are ok and even tho I dont know u I am worried about you. I hope you are better.

[@melancholy5200]

@@Brookkit they were a quoting a character from evangelion

[@dewww3368]

Whoever is reading this ily ❤️

[@xbeats1999]

❤️

[@Endra616]

Deww6 ilu2

[@quantumcrab9811]

Thanks Pepe

[@indicaluvr]

Deww6 love u king

[@user_quieto40]

Ilyt....

[@StillRose]

To everyone who is reading this: Please enjoy your teenager days. You are a teenager only once in your life. I'm 22 years old and I know very well how shitty puberty feels sometimes. But there are still good moments which you only have once in life. When you become older, is it harder to see your friends. College and work is also pretty exhausting. Please enjoy the times with your friends in school. I feel like I didn't appreciate this time enough until it was gone.

[@yagirlsilverr]

The anime is Neon Genesis Evangelion if anyone wants to watch it. It's pretty good, but a little scary.

[@RedTDA]

Its a classic but not scary at all its more like a puberty fever show with mech humanoids

[@travelnostalgia23]

So we have anime expert also

[@trashcan5988]

I thought it was yu yu hakusho💀

[@sketchywav7741]

Gilliahn P. The best anime

[@justababeh]

@@Sndu I think Netflix has it?? Or KissAnime, but it's a gamble whether it'll fry your electronic or not lol

[@nicolemezzabotta4638]

The rhythm of this song, so constant, the voice, which swings lightly in the notes of this melody, perfectly describe the sense of immense emptiness that is slowly taking possession of myself. The relief of no longer feeling pain mixed with the vague awareness of not feeling anymore NOTHING. Sometimes it's really hard to deal with my own feelings. I'm tired of all this.

[@pastahali306]

ur not the main character dawg💀

[@nicolemezzabotta4638]

@@pastahali306 Who ever said I am? I wrote what I thought at the time.

[@facgce960]

Listening to this song once you've healed and are happy is a very weird feeling.

[@alexwells7812]

It just threw me back and I was like "Woah there buddy, we don't do that" It feels like time is slowing and I am trying to remember how this song impacted me

[@julietlyle1340]

Literally, reading these comments made me realise how low I was a while back and how much happier I am now. It does get better.

[@summero-my5in]

@@alexwells7812 can’t sleep it’s 7 am and I’m so happy about your profile pic rn thank you

[@ashton2770]

Bro yea

[@RedExia]

I hope I'll be able to experience that someday. A true feeling of happiness.

[@V_lanche]

I used to really love this song. It made me happy but now I sit here nearly a year later and now it’s making me cry as I sit here and read all of these comments. I really hope you still are alive and doing well. You all deserve it. I don’t even know any of you, but I know you’re all amazing people and I want you to be happy. Just remember nothing last forever and as this silly children’s movie once said, if you’ve hit rock bottom, the only way left to go is up. I love you all.

[@Brookkit]

T-thanks this helps me so much... Btw love ur profile pic

[@V_lanche]

@@Brookkit ❤️❤️❤️ that makes me happy and thank you!

[@Brookkit]

@@V_lanche aw u noticed me right away! Ty🥺💖💕

[@V_lanche]

@@Brookkit 😁💕you’re welcome love

[@syahmimoomoo]

Almost 2024 and i love you so much

[@kjmahanna5138]

She was so special to me. No one compared, not even a little. I wanted to spend the rest of my days with her. Holding her, talking to her and just enjoying her warm presence. I think about her every second of every day. From the moment I wake up, to the moment I rest. I’d do anything to have her back. Maddie I hope this comment finds you, and you realize how much you truly meant to my heart.

[@Sir_Rat6225]

There is a high chance she is also thinking of you, I hope you find her though

[@crazyglenn5261]

I think she is getting fkd in a trash disco bathroom from some real chad rn

[@deija.who13]

i’m so tired. i’m only fifteen. i shouldn’t feel like this. i can’t do this anymore

[@KIYOKO_006]

Hey, how are you, beautiful? Do you want to talk for awhile?

[@deija.who13]

YO LO yes, pls.

[@KIYOKO_006]

@@deija.who13 What do you want to talk about? Also, how are you feeling today as well?

[@bloketu]

i'm thirteen :~ i feel so empty and useless.

[@mhm77887]

I'm 15 aswell, and I don't feel like I've lived. Soon I'm graduating 9th grade, yet I I feel like I've wasted 9 years that should have been the best of a person's life. It hurts so much some days I don't have motivation for anything. I want to start over, I want to wake up and be 7 again, starting 1st grade.

[@atlaskleiner]

"If we all carried the weight of the world, it wouldn't be as heavy" -Someone who I can't remember, hah (Unless I made it up, but I don't think so...)

[@90sthinqs38]

That’s such a good quote bro

[@isabellafmiller]

i always find myself coming back here. this feeling is like an old friend, it comes and goes but i know no matter what happens in life, it will always be there.

[@zapataboy9377]

that's kind of a toxic relationship, considering this song is really sad. But i'm here for the same thing... I need that extra sadness boost for my workout

[@adria999]

After confessing to my crush, i've been listening to this song. We're now dating, but i'm so insecure, thinking she'll leave me. This song calms me down, it stops me from thinking that'll happen. I put this song on loop, and think to myself that everything's going to be okay. And I hope it will be okay.

[@dallasviolante2301]

Dude you have to keep in mind, she chose YOU, after you confessed feelings for her, I don’t think she’ll be leaving anytime soon. Just being able to say your true feelings to a girl is already respectable in my book. Here’s lookin at you kid, hehe.

[@rociogallegossanchez]

Exact same situation here

[@shar1784]

Rocio GS look at the comment above, he knows

[@jessysanni8726]

Enjoy it while it lasts cause it never does.

[@alexbaribeault]

@@jessysanni8726 nice

[@chosensamurott4907]

i think the reason im always so anxios is because, sometimes i don't know what i'm doing is wrong or right. It always feels like i never know what i'm doing.

[@xbeats1999]

I think that's just how life works 😅👍

[@ava_bald]

The secret to life is that you never do, and you never will. Sure the uncertainty is scary, but there’s no such thing as a bad decision, just how you decide to manage in those circumstances and almost always you’ll make it work. You’ll be ok

[@7mna780]

This is so true

[@cyb3rc4ndy29]

i feel the same. it’s like i can never look at the picture. i’m always saying or doing whatever to make the present more bearable and even then it’s still bad. i just want to go back

[@Mumbapolo]

It helps me out alot reading things like this. I know I'm not alone.. Thank you

[@sanzulover8881]

This song have been with me a very long time ago. Still hitting me everytime. It’s like a small amount of comfort after all the past reviving it self inside of you. I can’t imagine my self moving away from this song and if i did.everytime I’ll hear I’ll know how it felt everytime and it will always be the same.

[@ky6te204]

“You dont get over the feeling, you just get used it.”

[@jennyafonnso5711]

It's amazing that some people here share their life with strangers and even better they actually listen and want to help.

[@justvictor4414]

I was in a two year relationship my junior year, it was rocky, it was new, it was my first love. One night, we were talking about the relationship, and I remembered I said how she seemed to never wanted to be around me. She responded by breaking down and saying how doesn’t even want to be alive anymore. It scared me, seeing her cry for the first time in years, being unable to comfort her, not knowing the right thing to say. I felt like I couldn’t save her. We broke up a year later, and now 3 years into the future I’m here. This song reminds me of that moment of my life, it reminds me of her.

[@Tmp866]

You know, I always told my self that I could handle loneliness and that I would be fine and if I was ever stuck on an island alone I'll be able to do. That was the biggest lie I've ever told and it was too my seld. Feeling lonely and watching everyone else have someone. Have a partner or a friend just someone makes you feel worthless as a human being. Its not anger, its not jealousy, evny. Its just nothing. You laugh you smile you sit there alone talking to your self just lost inside your own mine. The world around you keeps moving but not for you. A day feels like a enterny. You want the day to be over so badly but dread it when it does because you know the next will be exactly the same. Not matter what you do. No matter how hard you say I'm gonna be different and make friends. You get so use to having no one that it becomes a cycle. A very bad cycle that you can't break. Just want out.... not to feel alone and forgotten no more.... have someone who cares enough as just a simple "are you ok?" Every few days will make your week.

[@nathanh5448]

Hey man, you wanna talk? I'm here for you if you ever wanna talk, you got discord? I get what it's like, no one else around you cares, and ik I don't know you in real life but being there for you to talk to and be cool with is all I can do to help and I'm more than happy to do so

[@kaylafaye2212]

Tmp866 I felt this..... a little too much.

[@xeivrae1822]

Hey, I understand what it's like and if you need someone I'm here for you. If you have any social media I can contact you on I'm down to talk. I have nothing but time on my hands and I'd love to talk to you any hour of the day. You aren't alone 🖤💚

[@edibleforks]

I relate to this on a spiritual level

[@gibby3198]

This hits close to home, even making a friend however u sometimes feel as if it’s be better if ur alone. And once again like u said perfectly “it’s a cycle that you can’t break” . And dude thank you for writing it out Becuz I never know how to correctly word how I feel, my small circle of friends I can tell sometimes don’t know how to deal with me becuz I never know how to speak my mind, since I was so used to being alone and speaking to my self. Just know your not alone bud!

[@diobrando5836]

Evangelion was like representation of our world with depression,conflict with parents and suffer in the air.They had to go and fight inside the robots despite what they were going through. It's a good anime. I recommend watching it

[@mmllee7954]

ok i will, ill update you when im done watching . thank you

[@iin_utralii7325]

@@mmllee7954 are you dine watching it yet? its been 11 months

[@mmllee7954]

@@iin_utralii7325 oh wow i forgot about this and yes i did. It was good

[@iin_utralii7325]

@@mmllee7954 lol. that's good (:

[@uhhbebo9727]

the fact that as we were young we were told to enjoy the time we had being as kids , and thought to ourselves that its all jokes and giggles made me realize sooner that the world aint the place where people are happy and just living a good life , but its all the opposite, atm i lost my girlfriend, i lost all my friends, im failing school , i feel so distant from my own family , i cant even sleep at nights sometimes , and my heart is at constant pain since all it ask is to be at least be thought of being worth something to something since at this point im here , having no motivation to do something , or getting out of bed . Im sorry if yall had to read this but its just my personal experience.

[@yours.truly.pretzel_2176]

im scared, im scared of living but i’m also scared of dying. but i’m so so tired of living man. like i don’t wanna keep going but i have to. too many people love me which hurts even more to feel like i wanna die.

[@ashleyg006]

Hi Pretzel, it's been 3 months, hru? ♡

[@yours.truly.pretzel_2176]

@@ashleyg006 not any better tbh. how are you though?

[@yours.truly.pretzel_2176]

@@ashleyg006 ALSO I LOVE YOUR PROFILE PICRURE

[@n3crox1s]

@@yours.truly.pretzel_2176 bro you are a legend

[@ga6706]

Yup. And the guilt I’d feel if I ended up surviving and have to face my family afterwards feels unbearable

[@Caspy.theghost]

If your reading this You matter You’re enough You’re amazing You don’t need them People care about you Don’t give up If it’s true love it will come back Because someone really cares about you

[@Caspy.theghost]

Rahama Mosleh times are rough for me to but it’s gonna get better and if not then just rember everything happens for a reason

[@Opshadowlord]

I hope so....

[@Caspy.theghost]

250_ anonymous if you ever need to talk I’m here

[@wraein]

*You're :)

[@Caspy.theghost]

Wraein or Shine :D lol I’m so bad at spelling 🤘

[@smokinwitgamerz1032]

Don’t watch the clock do what it does, Keep Going.

[@Kat-kv2vw]

Just ignore this I guess: To, my younger self Hey little one, how are you? How’s mom and brother? In a few years you’ll be a big sister! Aren’t you excited?! It will be a big responsibility and you’ll fight with her 24/7, but I know deep down you’ll love her. You will also have a step-dad, he’s amazing. You’ll be scared, a lot. You’ll shed multiple tears every day. But be strong, okay? There will be a moment in your life where you will harm yourself physically and mentally. That physical moment will be the worst of your life, you’ll feel life everybody is against you and feel pressured. You can go trough it, I believe in you. Emotionally, your mind will be against your body. It will make you believe that you’re disgusting and worthless. You aren’t. Your mind will attack you when you are happy and not aware. So I tell you this while I’m stable and happy; little one, I love you. I may not show it often and be rude, but I love you. I always have. You’re worth everything, you are everything. And when you go trough that dark tunnel, you’ll feel like there’s no ending. But I know that I’ll meet you at the end of that tunnel one day. I’ll be out of it, and I’ll be guiding you to the exit. So wait for me, okay? Don’t end it. And always remember: I love you. Your future self.

[@dandude4817]

Hey I hate to not Ignore this but it means a lot when i red it so I just wanted to say that

[@ether794]

I almost cried.

[@hiccup2056]

Not gonna lie i cried when i read this I hope you are doing good.much love❤️

[@neil7355]

ignored

[@danielcrane3353]

Damn

[@lefavne]

I dated a guy for 3 years, but we are now broken up. He showed me this song in our first year when we called at least once a week. We didn't get to talk very often due to timezone differences (he was 16 hours ahead) but we made up for it by texting and showing each other songs that meant something to us. This was one of the songs he showed me and now whenever I listen to this it reminds me of him. It hurts, considering we never officially broke up. We just, drifted apart... And now he doesn't even remember who I am. Day by day we had starting losing contact no matter how hard I tried to keep it strong. He made those 3 years the happiest of my life, he made me feel and want to live life to the fullest until the day we finally got to hold each other. This song brings both happy and sad memories/feelings.

[@salt6339]

I feel ya but it’ll get better

[@hiccup2056]

I'm here,i get you.it will get better

[@drosea]

I am so sorry :( that’s really sucks I hope that one day you’ll feel happy

[@Nvdjoe]

it’s been a year. are you feeling any better?

[@m.us..c203]

I Was That Guy Wishing My Missing puzzle Piece was Here...spent countless nights missing her.. Wondering why the fuck I was a Ghost, why I wasn't important enough to hear her voice everyday I said fuck the puzzle I'm gonna paint a picture instead And I Called It "The Return"

[@jocivia]

this song NEVER fails to make me cry .

[@flamingoswife7358]

i don’t wanna be here anymore . everyday is a constant reminder of everything i hate about myself.

[@nid_pai2845]

stay. stay because there’s so much to live for. don’t let your insecurities shadow the things you love about yourself. it’s gonna be alright ok? :(

[@valekiallamiaous]

hey its been 9 months since you wrote that and I just wanted to check if you are still here, I hope you are.. if you are, good job mate.. you thought that you couldn't take it anymore and here you go, 9 months later and you are still around.. I'm proud of you:)

[@anx9855]

same. hoping you re doing fine now

[@asap554]

dang

[@beansman6462]

This is so vastly underrated this is awsome

[@xbeats1999]

😎👍

[@Mitzthatonekid]

Dealing with a loss rn and the melody really hits in a way I didn't expect.

[@penpup72]

my heart beat is prefectly matched with the beat in the background. i’m alive

[@calicox6l]

i live for this comment

[@pastahali306]

man yall cringy asf 💀

[@penpup72]

@@pastahali306 ITS BEEN 2 YEARS

[@nyodesu]

Alright, I know it's gonna get flooded sooner or later with a bunch of comments about depression and all of that. But I want to add some positivity here before it gets destroyed again (and also to make up for the depressing comment I posted on the old video. 🙁): Evangelion (and Shinji Ikari in particular) to me is an extension of myself. It speaks for me whenever I'm afraid to speak. When I see Shinji, it's like looking in a mirror. Him and I are just THAT CLOSE, the fear of the world and everything in it, the self-destructive nature. It all comes together to form someone who would seem so unlikable, yet, for me, I love him as a character for THAT reason; he's a human being. Seeing him grow is almost helping me in a sense, him learning to grow up, be strong, and appreciate himself is a powerful journey that I've NEVER seen in another anime. With that, I'm following in his footsteps, starting to show more of my true self, even if there will be those certain people who won't like me, I just go through with life with a smile and determination to continue to grow. 😎👍 And to you, the reader of this. I want YOU to do the same. Before writing the hateful things about yourself and others, consider on letting YOUR true self come through, life ain't all doom and gloom. 😁 Be like Shinji and become your own brilliant self. 🙂 *You have a purpose, why would you be born then if you didn't have one?* 😄 Oh yeah, and *I LOVE THIS DAMN SONG!* It never gets old! 😄👌

[@xbeats1999]

Thanks Nario this makes me happy to read! 😄

[@Squigbillies]

Where can I find your last comment? You peaked my interest.

[@nyodesu]

@@Squigbillies I don't recall. My old comment on this video was very negative though, I remember that. That's why I wrote this positive comment to make up for it. 😁

[@guts7752]

You my friend have the words of the wise and you know exactly what to say, thank you. I will try my best.

[@g9nevieve]

off topic but i like your icon:)

[@feelingsleepy2588]

You will get through this I promise. It might seem like you never will but that’s not true when it’s over you will be happy your alive and you can influence other people to feel the same. :)

[@thestrangerilove3617]

I think there’s a difference between feeling pain and experiencing it, feeling is like getting shot or being stabbed it is physical. The person who experiences pain is consumed by it. Their mind is like a water tank being filled with it, and they are trapped with rising water. That amount of pain makes them loath themselves, maybe they feel guilty about feeling that way. So they take that anger and they direct it at others and they push them away. Eventually they’re alone, with rising waters, and nobody can hear their cries for help. Eventually they’re consumed by it, their head goes under. But they are so desensitized to pain that it isn’t painful it just is. Almost as if you’re floating. As the pain consumes you, you feel your lungs tighten and the heart monitor flatlines and they rule it a suicide but really you drowned in your own thoughts and pain. If you relate to this comment know you’re not alone people care about you at least I do.

[@thestrangerilove3617]

KEIRA BARRY Well I hope when you’re ready to talk, someone will be there to listen and if you want to know how to express yourself. Listen to philosophers and poets, how they lament over life. Maybe even start writing your own poems and eventually, bit by bit you’ll learn. I recommend Alan watts and Charles Bukowski.

[@Arthrobug]

I find it really interesting that when someone asks me, "well what kind of pain are you experiencing?" I feel like I can't just answer truthfully and say 'both', since I then feel like I'm seeking for attention or something. The moments I actually did that, they wouldn't believe either the physical or the emotional half, or they just would straight up believe neither, and that really hurts emotionally. Then after being hurt emotionally, those emotions will cause physical repercussions, just making me even more miserable than I was before. Having both physical and mental issues *suck.*

[@thestrangerilove3617]

@@Arthrobug hang in there bro, we all go through tough times even if that time lasts our whole lives I hope you can find peace In knowing that some people out there understand

[@ayusharyal6346]

High tide here mate. Been swimming since 5

[@sydneyxerin3140]

i’ve been looking for this song forever now..

[@xbeats1999]

Hello! 👋😄

[@Brookkit]

Hi

[@sydneyxerin3140]

@@Brookkit hi

[@Fatkhulikhsan]

this song brings peace, solidarity bro

[@jonah.932]

Thank you I’ve been looking for this animation with this song

[@xbeats1999]

😄

[@jonah.932]

I used this video as an end song for a story I’m writing

[@xbeats1999]

@@jonah.932 Nice! I hope it goes well for you 😄

[@jonah.932]

XBeats thanks

[@pooopy9892]

let it out, cry it out..I know how alone you’ve been throughout the time ur family and friends didn’t even notice. it’s hard to try and keep all ur different emotions in you for so long. I think it’s time to let it out :) everybody goes through there pain but nobody notices? why? they notice ur mistakes, but exclude ur pain. ik it’s hard. I know, please don’t give up. u got this :D

[@amber-yp8tk]

thank you ily

[@pj1016]

Thank you so so much.

[@ayusharyal6346]

I imagined going to my mum pop and cry it all. I wasn't able to breathe and thought i might die. Too much for imagination

[@val1691]

I am starting to forget what it feels like to smile and have it be real and genuine

[@lolop5212]

Why does everyday feels like nothing changes but when u look back at it so much as changed

[@nagato2519]

Yeah i hate that

[@kianar210]

i need this song to be so loud i dont feel anything.

[@immapotatoreader3594]

I love how youtube always leaves this song at the top of my recommendation list, keep coming back to this 🤧

[@Vxlas]

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy" - Martin Luther king Jr.

[@renaejacoba5558]

I remember coming across this song years ago in a hard place. When my music playlist got happier, I thought it was over. But now I'm back in the same spot I was before.

[@miapia8000]

Yeah I thought happy music would solve my sadness, yet it just covers the sadness your having for a couple minutes, then you’re back to square one. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️

[@holyskadoodle]

to everyone who’s here just know things do get better i promise. i used to listen to this all the time when i was at my lowest but years later i can look back on this song with happiness as it helped me through a lot. Things do get better don’t think you’ll always feel the way you do you are loved

[@DRAMAtical_Me112]

I just finished Neon Genesis, I never realized this was from there. After seeing that scene, and seeing it with this song, makes sense.

[@NFKhan-eu3ff]

I found this song when I was at the lowest in my life. Now listening to it after a long time reminded me of my struggle. I'm so proud of myself for having survived those times. I'm scarred. Physically and mentally but those scars taught me about life more than anything ever did. I hope anyone who reads this at their lowest find peace in their lives..

[@klavdijaskufca4643]

To people reading this. Listen. Something that broke you cannot heal you back. Accept yourself for who and what you were designed for. I know you may never experience the same happines but diffrent happines will come in life that might spark you even more. And it will he unlocked. Even if it's 2 years before you dissappear it's 2 years. You gotta use those muscles to try and experience it. You live as human only once. And this world is so big. We litterally live on a rock in space. And i know we are only strangers but you gotta believe me i am all here to listen to you and listen to your life story. I know i might not seem a lot but i can be your 1st reason to never give up. I love you.

[@syafiqhaikal9608]

Already missing this song.Tq for the reupload,well at least it's is

[@xbeats1999]

No Problem 😄

[@nahuelramirez3420]

I'm using a translator since I don't know how to speak English, I only speak Spanish, so if there are some words that don't fit, that's why, sorry. This song reminds me too much of someone who currently lives only in memories and left this world physically almost 3 years ago. I am 15 years old, I am a boy, I never had a balanced life in terms of my emotions, in my first 4 years of life my joy was greater than my sadness until everything for me began to get worse, yes, with only 4 years I started to suffer too much, my mind was a storm, I have many memories of my childhood and most of them are not happy, much worse things began to happen to me than the previous ones. But I am not coming to speak to you only about myself, I want to speak to you about another person. Lucia, although I called her "Lucy", I and she were the same age, 12 years old, we met in 2017, that was my first year of high school, I came from another school where I knew many people, and I was He looked happy although he was not, I always kept it, so I managed to convince my parents to change my school with the excuse that I liked the level of education that he had. The day classes started (March), I obviously didn't know anyone in that school, but on the second day I was getting along with a classmate, the days passed and I kept feeling the same, I felt something alone. Until after 3 weeks, to be exact, the first week of April, I met a girl in the playground who seemed beautiful to me from the first moment I saw her, and she looked at me too but I didn't dare to talk to her, after three days of looking at each other we had met at the school buffet, she had dropped her cell phone on the floor and I gave it back, she thanked me, then I dared to talk to her, I remember what I said to her, "I feel like I know you from somewhere but I don't remember where" she said the same thing to me, although it was obviously the first time I saw her, I only said it as an excuse to talk to her, at the moment when I was going to say something else to him. At the same time the bell rings since recess was over, obviously we wanted to keep talking so I asked for his cell phone number and he gave it to me. After 4 months of talking as friends (August), I began to feel a sentimental attraction towards her, I really felt too sad at that time since that school was not what I expected and many other factors, I hurt myself and sometimes had suicidal thoughts, but she was the person for whom I continued to stand, she was the one who made me happy, my source of joy, and I was 3 months hiding my feelings for her until one day in November I confessed all my feelings, and that's when She told me that she had doubts about whether she felt the same for me, we were young, we were only 12 years old and we did not know how to achieve a good relationship, and since she doubted her attraction to me we decided that time passes and don't rush things. Also, at that time she did not feel well, since May she had depression, she suffered too many things that I promised never to tell anyone so for that reason I will not write them here. I felt that she did not feel something for me, that I was just a friend for her and I did not want that, I really wanted to make her happy and in the role of boyfriend, I was getting tired and then I distanced myself a little from her, that It was the worst decision she made, on December 22 of the same year she decided to put an end to everything, she committed suicide with an overdose of clonazepam at dawn in the middle of a crisis feeling completely alone, terrible things were happening to her in those weeks while she was alone and hurt by my estrangement. Since then I swore to myself never to hurt anyone again in my life, be it distancing myself, be it committing some action of seconds, I would never hurt someone again.

[@izzym8852]

im so sorry. its not your fault❤️

[@lotus-yo6se]

It’s been two years of this comment, i don’t know where you are or what you are doing but i hope you are doing ok. If i ever get to meet you i bet we will be great friends.

[@mryemhoria]

you know that feeling when your just laying in silence right after crying for a long time

[@austinpowers3659]

This hit's harder when you sleep through your alarm consistency

[@Livlaughlmao]

Hey random person scrolling through the comments I just wanted to say.... I love you so much and I'm proud of you❤

[@deimosgaming3290]

Thank you so much... 💙

[@risingstartc]

😁

[@jaydenlisowski6957]

Thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wished you were dead What's a broken arm when you can’t stop choosing To sleep through your alarms, man, you’re losing your head [Chorus] (But I guess I'll go home and dream instead) The thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wished you were dead

[@hannahboo4343]

I would do anything just to have someone to talk to. I want to have friends so badly, but it feels impossible.

[@jngkjngk4060]

Hey, just wanted to say that loneliness is a completely normal thing that even people with loads of friends experience. I’m not a huge believer in thinking life will magically get better but I do believe that you are the catalyst of your own life. So maybe put yourself out there, find people who have common interests whether it be online or in real life. Much love from the UK.

[@venturahighway363]

i can be ur friend :)

[@hannahboo4343]

@@venturahighway363 For real? 🥺

[@venturahighway363]

@@hannahboo4343 of course:)

[@hannahboo4343]

@@venturahighway363 do you got anything I can add you on 😳

[@Segwee]

Was The other version of this Deleted or Am I Just Stupid?

[@xbeats1999]

Yes, I have moved most of my songs to this channel since my original channel had some issues. This way I can also allow comments to be back on 😄👍

[@syafiqhaikal9608]

@@xbeats1999 great! hope you gone gains alot of view to.

[@StarLost96]

I’m glad I’m not the only one who was trying to find this version again

[@chrisnewland5151]

anyone else is just numb and can't feel any emotion except random outbursts of anger

[@Cosborn21]

ive been through a lot in my life and i deal with anger issues to this day. Find a hobby you genuinely enjoy and look for improvement. no one gets better or learns just sitting in sadness. Mine was the gym i go to the gym everyday and focus on my eating and i can honestly say it saved me. I try everyday for improvement and look forward to getting better. fuck the women and drugs get your head on straight. i wish someone told me this when i needed it. Everything happens for a reason and all the shit i went through has matured me so much more than anyone else around me. Look for the things that brighten your day. get rid of all the negativity. life is too short to waste time thinking about this stuff. good luck friend

[@maheen2631]

I've been here for long but you couldn't see me To you I was invisible, unnoticed I wrote my words down, because when I spoke, you wouldn't hear me Those same words turned into poetry, who would have thought I saw everything and decided I want nothing I wished for many things, now I want an end to it all My bones found solitude Chasing existence won't bring back what's already gone Will it? Now when I talk to myself they think I'm crazy, but when I spoke to them, my "I" wasn't me Life is unfair, truly Now that I want no one next to me I'm filled with unwanted company Ironic, isn't it?

[@surrounding.my.surrounding9452]

Beautiful, truly, where does it come from?

[@maheen2631]

@@surrounding.my.surrounding9452 it's something I wrote myself :)

[@amber-yp8tk]

this is amazing :))))

[@lebruh6010]

i sit here, at 1230, high and sad.

[@SatouKazuma]

Its 1:58 here im at the rooftop watching stars and listening this 🖤

[@anymoususer5875]

drugs bad

[@eeeeek888]

It's 4:11 AM, I haven't gotten out of bed yet, I woke up at 2:00 AM. I've only been listening to this song

[@MaybePookie]

In this verse, someone is restating the one time someone close to them said that they wished they were dead. This person is clearly struggling, and throughout the song you begin to understand how this person feels. “Thoughts that go like bullets, through you. The time you told me that you wished you were dead” This references the line above “Thoughts that go like bullets through you,” and how the thought of a loved one telling you they “wish” they were dead has an impact on the mind. This could be conscious or unconscious, but the words always stay on your mind and can torment you in a way.

[@katannadrake7399]

THANK YOU FOR EXTENDING 🙏🏼🔥 A SONG LIKE THIS WITH A VIBE LIKE THAT NEVER GETS OLD... I think it’s just as beautiful as the first time I listened 🥺 *can’t get enough of it* (tell them to play this at my funeral) 🖤 crybaby gang up 🤘🏼

[@2d312]

It hurts so much to listen to this song, so much bad shit has happened this and last year and it really just hurts

[@eeeeek888]

Same, my bestfriend has obviously gotten bored of me. I think my boyfriend doesn't care even though he tells me he does. Last year I had friends that I now realize were toxic. I even had a crush on one of them. They were terrible friends but I wouldn't leave them. And so this year they left with most of my real friends.

[@رقطة]

@@eeeeek888 i hope you're still fine

[@eeeeek888]

@@رقطة I’m okay now, and I got my friends back. and i broke up with my boyfriend because he was manipulative

[@suckmyhugerod]

Life goes on! Life has a funny way of blessing us at the most unexpected times! We only have one life, make sure that you remember that you can’t just BE happy. You must find the things that MAKE you happy. Happiness is a byproduct of something else. Searching for happiness is futile. You must search for the things that MAKE YOU happy! Search for those things! Life is a beautiful thing, I pray you realize that before it’s too late. Just remember that every single person who is no longer alive would give everything to be back and experience life

[@yungnejy3172]

don't disappoint that little kid, don't give up on yourself.

[@GORDON-so1xe]

It’s amazing how many people listen to this song and share the same problems I can’t be bothered wth anything anymore everything is tiring and I just wanna go to sleep for a long time until it’s all gone all the pain until I finally cheer up again....

[@kurinfu503]

Since the first time i came across this song i ve come to a conclusion , i became more mature , i ve come to accept the state of emptiness and void, where no sadness and no happiness resides , tho there are times i wish i could cry, or laugh or enjoy the small moments, u can t have happiness without sadness , to much light is blinding , to much darkness is consuming , there must be a balance, i hope that whoever reads this will find that balance and live in peace. stay safe

[@ilikemusic8019]

This non feeling helps you get into the astral realm I'm cursed to feel nothing as well and what I know is that out feelings are in a different dimension

[@favourco8403]

I’m just so tired of school. But I’m afraid to grow up. This is my last year in high school. You can do it jimmy ! Hold on a bit longer dear :,)

[@elimcgowan1461]

I know this would've been one of those songs I would listen to every night thinking to myself: why am I here? That was a year ago. I'm so happy I overcame all my traumas and abuse that happened in my life.... The memories that this song brings to me...

[@Brookkit]

I'm sorry :(

[@ok6123]

ily

[@elimcgowan1461]

@@Brookkit Don't worry. I'm okay now. I hope you're doing okay. Ily

[@elimcgowan1461]

@@ok6123 love you too

[@Brookkit]

@@elimcgowan1461 oh really? I'm glad!! Ily too

[@Vlad.Ghoulia_]

This song reminds me of all the pain I went through, from a child, to now..this song reminds me of that time I cried so hard I couldn't breath which was when my sister was in the hospital and I found out she was bleeding for two hours while giving birth, I thought she was gonna die and all those days that she was in the hospital I thought about her every day she was there I cried at the fact she was bleeding for hours I just couldn't handle the pain so I went in my mom's room and cried my eyes out for so may hours I had to cover my mouth so no one would hear me, I've never cried so hard in my life, I never knew I loved her that much but I do, without her I can't live she's my source of happiness and I love her more than my life she matters more than my life, I didn't know what to do if she died but she didn't she ended up making it alive and I'm glad she is alive and she's a happy healthy mother now 💕

[@creepyboy2313]

aw im so sorry love. I hope you and your sister both are okay. just know that she will always be there for you no matter what. You both are so strong

[@Lvesick-r5x]

I remember when this had 2k views. I’ve listened to this song for about 2 years and a half now and I’m still obsessed

[@sophiette4001]

Same

[@maddye3734]

I like music like this because then I can stop and think while relating at the same time :)

[@lightyylight9480]

"Is it okay that I hate this world so much?" I don't know why, but this song hurts me in ways-- nothing else can make me feel this way.. I used to listen to this song back when I was still in high school, I hate it so much, I hate it WAY too much, but I love it. It makes me cry everytime. Every sentence, every note, every second of this song is beautiful pain that pierces deep into my soul. I don't know anymore... "man, you're losing your head" is my fav line.. it makes me go deep into my sad status then throws me out and wakes me up, and makes me say to myself "try harder".

[@eijiroukirishima2543]

I wish I was as happy as people see and think I am

[@myariggins7731]

"why do i, and everyone i love, pick people who treat us like were nothing"

[@nadjinni]

we accept the love we think we deserve.

[@drosea]

@@nadjinni yeah:(

[@nissanjup1732]

i thought i lost the song when you switched the channels thank god i remember the artist

[@xbeats1999]

Eyy 😄 Good thing you remembered 👍

[@H3adx]

To anyone reading this, trust the process. From my perspective, we go through this strange feeling of sadness/depression for a reason. That reason is for us to uncover and it will craft us into a better individual. Into a happier life.

[@jellyhxrt_]

This reminds me of December of last year, where i just couldn't take it no more, i didn't even want to exist...i wanted to end it all i felt misunderstood, unwanted, helpless. I almost did it by drinking and dosing down some pills but eventually i didn't die... i'm still here. And i'm here to tell you that you are loved and that everything will be okay whatever you're going through, you're going to be okay. And i love you if you're reading this you're beautiful and you matter 💕 xoxo