LOSING MY MUM - My story, how I coped and my advice.

[@claireb9119]

Thank you for this! My mum passed away 4 days ago and I just can’t seem to function. She wasn’t just my mum she was my best friend, my biggest inspiration to keep going and I don’t know how I’m going to live without her, knowing I’ll never hear her voice again, tell her about everything that’s happened, see her smile and hug her. My heart feels like it’s completely broken and I’m angry as my brother doesn’t show any emotion about it. I want to scream at him to just cry or shout or something so I know I’m not the only one missing her.

[@sunriseschubert4391]

I feel your pain. I lost my beloved mother unexpectedly on October 6 2022 😭💔. I'm single and she lived with me and she was more than my mother, she was my best friend and everything. But I'm praying to God for strength, healing, and resignation 🙏🏻✝️🕊️

[@stronglybelieve9586]

I lost my mother 😫😩😫😫😫😭😭😭😭😭😭 and I’m lost in this world , life is just soooo hard , I can’t even explain. And you my brother is the same , to him it’s normal 😢

[@28copland]

So sorry for your loss, I post my mum one week ago and I'm so heartbroken

[@stronglybelieve9586]

@@28copland 😥😥😥

[@claireb9119]

@@28copland I’m so sorry to hear you lost your mum. It hurts like hell at the moment but this will pass and get a little easier. You’ll never stop missing your mum but it will hurt a little less each day, week, month or year. Everyone grieves differently, just do what feels right for you ❤️

[@faizalmusa7462]

Losing my mum was the hardest thing i had ever to go through. Ppl say the time heals everything but I don't agree with that statement. My family tried to push me out of my sadness and pretend it was not a big deal, telling me to move on, telling me to be strong. i am so lost without her. everything seems meaningless. I cant find joy in anything. I miss her 😭😭😭😭😭.

[@GeneralEnclave]

I found this video and my mom passed away this morning. I can't even express the tragedy I feel now she's gone but I'm glad we left off on a good note. God bless my mother as well as anyone else who has experienced the loss of a parent. 🙏

[@Mikenactor]

My mum died a couple of days ago, I'm so glad that I found this video. I've gone from feeling numb to hourly sobbing, to feeling numb again. This video helped so much. You really should be proud of it.

[@sparklenights5421]

im truly sorry for your loss..I believe you can come through this and learn from it, you should be proud to for being so strong. I may not understand how it feels to lose a parent, but a 15 year old family member lost his mother, and I can not imagine the pain, just know your never alone, you'll always be loved by others and most importantly yourself to. take your time and I hope you'll wake up feeling something or at least a bit better.

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@vineyardsailing1923]

I agree! I lost my mom 11/18/22. I am so glad to have found this. It was very helpful. Your mom IS very proud of you! Of that I am sure. ❤️

[@lindadupuis1531]

So sorry for your loss.

[@vineyardsailing1923]

I just lost mine too. All I can say besides expressing how deeply sorry I am, is that the soul crushing how-will-I-go-on feeling that is too much to bear, will subside in a few days an be replaced by straight up grief. It was the first few days of pain that were so hard to endure. It’s been a month now. I think of her constantly and cry daily. They tell me it will get better. It is just so hard. Take care of yourself. She would want you to. ❤️ Love from a stranger.

[@shaunprendergast8900]

My mum passed away yesterday, it's intensely raw and the pain is unimaginably painful, even though it's new and intense, I know mum will guide my heart, as she always did. I was her sole carer for 27 years and I don't regret a second, her health has never been perfect, but her heart was, so at 16 it was a no brainer to care for her, she needed me, and I couldn't do any less than give her even a fraction of what she gave me. I'll get there eventually, but until then, I need to feel every painful emotion, how could I do any less.

[@laquanamoody]

I lost my mom 2004 from breast cancer nd I'm still grieving THANK YOU FOR THIS

[@omgilovesteak6484]

My mom died last week. I am so lonely without her. We took care of each other for sure. We both have the same cancer so watching her decline was soooo hard. I am glad she does not have to put up with all the pain and illness anymore for sure. I imagine a sudden loss like yours would be very tough :(

[@merir303]

I know the feeling, my mom lost her battle to cancer 2 years ago and it hits me hard on some days more than others. Sorry to everyone who lost a mom. It’s so tough, I know the void.

[@meghanfain4037]

Thank you for this. I’m also 28 and just lost my mom unexpectedly a few weeks ago. I’m struggling so much to be able grieve with my one year old son. It’s the worst thing I have ever gone through. She was the best mom...

[@db7610]

I am so sorry. God bless you, and your late mother.

[@segaoldschoolsega925]

I’m 29 and I’m right there my mom was told her kidney is toast but she has the other one working still, I’m assuming dialysis comes next or sudden death….

[@jamesjianghaiwang9536]

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[@jamesjianghaiwang9536]

My beloved wife suddenly passed away with my daughter and I mourned and grieved over our loss. She was our closest confidant and missed her singing Cliff Richard’s Millennium Prayer, day in and day out. A very wonderful and beautiful song hearing her melodious voice. Her memory still live on in our hearts now. May she RIP in the arms of Jesus Christ. Amen.

[@FD-tu9rt]

Absolutely brutal and wonderful advice !!! You are a wondrous survivor of the worst circumstances......thank you for sharing your experience and for telling your most honest account of how it is. God bless you and your family. 🩷💜♥️🩷💜♥️🩷♥️💜

[@tekken278]

I lost my mum in January 2024...she just felt a bit unwell that day..i asked her did she need a doctor but she said no she be ok just some vomiting and we thought just something she ate..she collapsed that night on her way to bed and died in my arms before the ambulance came..i went into hysterics and shock..i didnt sleep or eat for 2 days..mums are selfless and love unconditionally no one can replace a great mum..i miss her from the moment I wake til the moment i sleep...id give everything i have to see her again for just 5 mins..i feel numb these days i dont think ive even begun to feel the full weight of it yet..but thank you so much for your video..we all must face this day i suppose usually it comes quicker then we ever imagined..regards from Ireland kate and everyone in the comments :(

[@AX1A]

My Mama passed last night. She was my best friend as long as my memory exists. We spoke every day, no matter what -- even tho we sometimes didn't have much to say -- and when we did -- like when I was going thru it, or she was -- we stayed on the phone for hours. Going thru this now, I keep reaching for the phone -- reflexively, I mean -- but she's not there. That beautiful stubborn Woman stole my heart, and then left, and as lovely as life is, if I had to go today, I'd be ok with it for just a min more. Thankfully, I found this vid; Kate., Thank you Im subbing bc I'll listen to this over and over and over again

[@OnYoutubeInATutu]

My mum is my only living family member (My dad, sister & grandparents all died before I was 9) and I nearly lost her last year when she broke her back. She is only 51, disabled and rapidly deteriorating by the day and I cant bare the thought of being alone with not even 1 relative. Honestly, I feel like dying with her. Lots of people are in the same situation so atleast we can support eachother and cope better❤.

[@oluwatopeliasu]

i learnt recently that wanting to die after the loss of a parent is selfish, God placed us all here for a reason, hold on dear, it is surely not easy i lost my mum weeks ago, i dont know how i am alive today, with God it gets easier everyday

[@dfitzlittle7078]

Thank you , I lost my mum on Sunday .. heartbroken 💔 I got some comfort in your words xx

[@ccb4159]

Lost my mom a week ago

[@niknakgoescrazy]

My mom passed a week and a half ago and it is indescribable and surreal. You thoughts and advice are right on the money. Thank you for this video.

[@katem3]

I am so so sorry my love. Sending you and anyone that knew her lots and lots of love xx

[@sarahs3619]

Thank you for this video. My mom died ten days ago. I want to talk about her and her death, but society has very little space for it

[@lyro5740]

My mom died a week ago and I experienced the same. So I told one of my friends and she told me that I should leave her a voice massage everyday with a memory of my mom, that crosses my mind. So now that’s what I will do

[@lindadupuis1531]

My Mom died on the 8th and we buried her yesterday in the extreme cold. This video is great for me right now.

[@stronglybelieve9586]

I also lost my mines 😢😢😢😢

[@AfikileMcaba-td4uh]

Currently grieving my mum... she passed away in September. Fucken hell it's hurts. Today has been so hard but I'm trying to grieve in the most productive way ever. Thank you for this video. 🥺♥️

[@outofthespiritualcloset_Dawn]

Lost my mom in august and feel the same. Everyone else is "Better" and living their lives I'm lost and trying to move forward 1 day at a time but some days I want to stay in and cry..

[@rachlouise1398]

My mum passed away 7 years ago (2017) she was sick for about 9 years with cancer and I have learnt how to live life the best I can without her but I am really missing her today, being a daughter without a mum is truly the most devastating thing, she left when I needed her most and god.. sending the biggest hugs to whoever needs it today ❤

[@MediciOrsiniBorgiaMassimo]

I lost my wonderful 62 year old mother after a 3 week brutal decline following her 4th official bout with cancer 9-14-22. I miss you, I love you. It’s so hard. It was so terrible, she ended up on life support and we pulled it, as she would have wanted. Took her 8 hours to officially die, every hour her breathing getting worse and worse. I held her as she slowly died for hours and honestly I don’t think I will get over the trauma of everything, that month of hell, seeing her go from perfect health to bed ridden in 2 weeks because of the tumors in her brain. I’m so incredibly full of rage about how everything went down. Grieving is so exhausting, it’s a gloomy shadow that looms over me and the entire family. I had a 17 year old kid die in my arms after a freak accident in March of 2021 and the trauma of that terrible night is incomparable to watching my mom die. She talked to her kids daily. I miss you.

[@amritanurie4885]

My mum passed away in a very similar way, she woke up and within 45 mins she collapsed and was gone forever it's been 4 months, it's hitting me very hard, each day is an effort to get through.every word you spoke resonates with me fully, it's like you're putting words to everything I feel. Every single emotion every single feeling you spoke of.

[@toocooltobecruel]

I’m so sorry ❤️‍🩹 it’s scary that it can happen so quickly

[@pallavinarvekar8292]

Mine lost exact in same way 🥹☹️ life is devasted now

[@AlexaLikes]

Lost my mom last month. I am trying to feel the pain as much as I can, because I need to move forward. We can't change what has happened, but it's so hard.

[@keylah6300]

Two days before my mum passed away unexpectedly, my boyfriends dog had to be put to sleep. i was devastated and i mentioned to my friend how id never experienced grief that hasn't been a pet and i was afraid of how it would affect me. I'd called her that day and i was so upset, we spoke for over 50 minutes and she cheered me up so much. She seemed fine. My eldest sister would see her every day to help her with her morning routine and found her. i am so sorry for your loss, no one can describe how lonely and abandoned you feel when you lose someone you've depended on all your life. I'm 19 and still trying to figure out how i'll be able to carry on. i hope you're doing okay x

[@stephanieojukwu2738]

It’s been 17 years now, I had only 11years with her. I realized I haven’t grieved properly. I dodge talking about her. It hurts. Now I start my grief. She was such a wonderful person

[@autumn1768]

❤❤❤

[@WW-on6bo]

My mother died 13 days ago…I have trouble remembering the week before she became I’ll -she was fine, but I don’t remember the week before she suddenly became I’ll and died. Thank you for sharing your experience…I am going through what you did NOW! Thank you.

[@romjay9689]

“Use the pain to make you a better person “🙏🏽🕊️💕

[@Angel33313]

Thank you so much, you’re such a beautiful and strong soul. My mom died yesterday and I’m breaking apart. Thank you for this video and bless your heart ❤️

[@pisip2tuu]

I lost my mom three months ago and i've been feeling everything You describe. Your video gives me hope that it actually will get easier. Thank You 💛 Looking for that book now..

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@laurenmonroe27]

My mom passed from covid and alcohol addiction January 24th. It’s been a week. And I’ve been so numb. I could sit and stare at a wall for hours... I feel like it’s all I want to do. I’m the oldest of my siblings, and I have to handle all of the arrangements. We were with her when she passed in the hospital, by divine intervention really.. I just wish I could feel. I loved my mom so much. I LOVE my mom so much.. why can’t I feel 😩😞

[@katem3]

my love - firstly, i am so so so sorry to hear about your mum passing. it's heartbreaking and i know exactly where you are. i wish i could hug you and sit with you and cry with you. but you HAVE TO be kind to yourself right now. you will feel, IN TIME. you will cry and wail and scream IN TIME. trauma like this takes so long to be processed and so long to sink in. it's not going to happen for a long while. so you KEEP staring at that wall. keep thinking of her. keep doing everything you need to do to stay here and get through the days. but give yourself SO much time and grace and patience. there is no rulebook for this. there is no right or wrong way to grieve. it will happen as and when it needs to happen for you. you cannot get this wrong. please be kind to yourself my love, this is huge. you're amazing. sending you so so so so much love xx

[@tvflore]

I lost my mom two weeks ago and I found your words to be so true in so many ways. I appreciate that you kept stressing that this was your experience and may not be ours. Thank you for sharing your journey. I can see a light (maybe her light) within you.

[@TrasselJoojon]

Thank you from the bottom of my soul for posting this video for all of us other people going through it right now. I'm truly broken to pieces right now and I can't wait to heal to the point where i can function normally again ❤️

[@keller9026]

My mom died today and I didn’t even get the chance to say goodbye it doesn’t feel real I hope it’s all just a bad dream

[@jeremyromero9698]

I hope you're doing ok

[@margotahsam7137]

Thank you for being so honest and real. I lost my Mum 3 weeks ago and I'm so heart broken. I related to so much of your story...thanks for giving me some hope. Bless you🌼

[@TheMarMarMarvelouss]

thank you for your video, i lost my mom last month and i never imagined that happening at 25 out of nowhere. i needed to watch this

[@mistiblu9133]

My mom dropped dead Jan 1st and I am completely traumatized shattered, lost and I just do not know how to deal with this!🙏 For me I'm paralyzed definitely That's is exactly how my mom died too..

[@sauleaitkul]

thank you for this, energy never dies, we live and die everyday

[@emmacallan7475]

My mum just died and I really appreciate finding this - thank you so much! X I’m sorry for your loss also and my mum was similar so kind And the staring into space I keep doing that and just feel lost.

[@Viney209]

I was my mothers primary carer up until yesterday morning... She died at 7:30am from Small Cell Lung Cancer. Actually watching ones own parent, whom birthed them, die of such a horrible disease is something I'd never wish on anybody. I was legit doing everything for her... down to cleaning her feces and carrying her around and feeding her lifeless yet still alive body, the disease is a stealth cancer, and kills over 2/3rds of its victims. It is mostly not discovered until it has nearly killed its host. They can go from normal, to dying within a week, and dying to dead within a day or 2... I'm still stricken with grief, but having lost both parents, I lost my father 18 years ago, and my mother and I bonded to survive... Death is not the end... Live your life, care for others, and be loyal and true to those whom gave you the life you have and make them proud.

[@theblockcat-ain1572]

Lost my father 3 weeks ago. This hands down has to be one of the best videos by far. I'm 53. Had a great father for over 52 years and we were close. Did everything together. Went to every restaurant you can name from Red Lobster to buffets and movies. He made it to 92 before he got sick with RSV and passed in the hospital. The pain is so unbearable..... I truly understand what everyone is going through that lost a loved one. This hurts. It's like I lost part of myself. He was my whole world. I was his caretaker. I lived with him and did everything for him. I know this is going to be a long journey moving on from losing him.

[@Judgles]

Thank you for this beautiful and precious video. I lost my Dad twelve years ago and still think about him every day but, like you say about your Mum, the joyful memories are there after the pain fades. I'm sure your Mum is proud of you, wherever she is, and I am proud of you too! x

[@NicoleMilikMusic]

thank you for this video! Losing someone that’s close to my heart is my absolut biggest fear. Even thinking about it makes me want to cry my eyes out. Hearing you talk about your experience and your mum was honestly one of the most inspiring things I’ve ever heard. Kate, you‘re so brave and strong! I’m so proud of you x

[@katem3]

Nicole Milik there’s nothing to be scared of. I promise you. we make it so much worse in our heads. i lost the best person in my life and look at me... i’m happy as larry. you beautiful and talented soul 🧡 i’ll always be here to chat to should you ever go through something like this xx

[@mylacabatingan2594]

My mom recently died and your video gave me hope that i will overcome my grief

[@sgist7824]

I know this video is old, but I want to thank you for it. I lost my mum a few months ago in April 24 and I am so proud of you and how you put this together and how vilnerable you were in sharing it. I miss mum terribly but am now frging ahead with gratefulness and bringing her with me each step of the way.

[@caseysimpson5128]

Thank you so much! I'm am truly grateful for your courage to share your experience. I lost my mum 4 weeks ago. I feel as if I've stopped in place and the world around me is going faster than ever. My heart breaks thinking of not seeing her again. Your video gave me much comfort. Please keep posting your content! ❤

[@jyotsanadang7203]

i can so badly relateto this video, thank u so much for sharing. i lost my mum few days back . she was pretty fine one day and the othermoment i see when i wake up that she is no more she died of heart attack and i cant stil process why .. i keep regretting why did i fight with her sometimes. i keep thinking all the love she gave me .

[@stephenmcollins]

My mom died of cancer 3 years ago. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@nellycontentent2_]

I'm sorry for your loss 🙏🏻❤️

[@Linujyoti-Motivation.]

Two days ago I lost my whole world,my Mother. My beautiful mother at the age of 50. It was her firsttime attack. She never had any heart attack before. We thought its ok every body here in the hospital are curing and my mom will be cured very soon. But one last attack and We lost my mom. She did everything for us my father was sick and incapable... Mom worked hard to provide us each and everything. She gave us education and we have jobs now. But we useless children couldn't do anything for her. We regret this every single day single second of our life. I love you my Bou. Please comeback to me . I can't live without you Mo Bou.

[@bijitasonar3689]

Same case

[@TomRipley7350]

My heart goes out to you and all the other people grieving in the comments. My mom is currently in ICU and we’ve been told that she could die in the next 24 to 48 hours. I’m distraught. I’ve always been so close to my mother. She’s my best friend. I speak to her every day and she’s the first person I go to when anything good or bad happens. I’m kidding myself I’m accepting this but I’m in denial. I can’t conceive what it will feel like when it’s reality.

[@drdeepti721]

Thanks for sharing it was helpful for me I lost my mom similarly with massive cardiac arrest 1 month back and I am almost in depression and going through dark phase

[@awoyski]

Kate, as horrific as it has been for you, it’s been something special watching you go through this and handle your grief. I know I’m gonna need this video one day, and I really hope it’s here for me and others to watch when we need it. You’re phenomenal. So much of your creative output before, during and after have had such an impact on me. Total babe. X

[@katem3]

Amy Woy Amy this is so lovely of you to say 😭😭😭 thank you so much. You are also a total babe! Xx

[@GenOfEveL]

Thank you. My mom died of a stroke 2 days ago. Joined the sudden death of a mom club. Life is upside down. Thank your help ❤

[@elaa1934]

I recently lost my amazing angel of a mom... and related to every word you said! thank you. SO much love to you

[@ciandkate]

This was awesome Thankyou. My mum died this month and I’ve never felt pain like it. You’ve given me some hope

[@TheErika711]

My God thank you thank you im spiraling from the sadness of loosing my Mom last December its pain that i cant run from.....you literally saved me hearing how exactky the same youve struggled - I know its going to be work but youve made this journey more possible

[@ksp78945]

Thank you for this video. My dad died the same way suddenly last month of a heart attack :( it's been a tough for me but these videos make me feel less alone.

[@katem3]

oh my love, I am so fucking sorry. there really are genuinely no words I can say to make life easier for you right now. just open your eyes every morning. that's the minimum you need to do. sending you all of the love ever! thinking of you and your wonderful dad tonight xx

[@ksp78945]

Thank you so much that means the world right now

[@katem3]

god I know that feeling so well. just make sure you keep talking about him to those that know, love and miss him just as much as you. you are not alone. i'm just so sorry you're going through it xx

[@phoebetonkin8020]

I remember when I lost mum. My sister was absolutely wailing. I had to hold her for 30 minutes to get her to calm down

[@cecilek.8289]

Kate. Thank you. I am on day 13 with the sudden loss of my sweet mom. My soulmate. My best friend. 💕 you’ve helped me immensely and don’t even know it. I am a complete stranger. From Alberta, Canada. But you’ve helped me. You’ve given me hope. I as well have never lost anyone as close to me as this. My grandparents and aunties also. We lived provinces apart. She was supposed to come home shortly. After our reno project. 😢 my grief clouds are enormous and very dark. I never knew pain existed like this. I wish I could somehow connect with you. I heard you in your video. I really did. 💕 My mom called me her baby girl. She loved to smother me. She loved to smell my hair. She loved just to sit close to me. That was all we needed. Just to be together made me feel perfect and amazing. She would say the same. 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

[@katem3]

Cecile! I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your beautiful Mum passing so suddenly. God I wish I could reach out and give you a massive hug. I know exactly how you're feeling and I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. I am so so sorry. I'm glad this video could help in some way. Man... words aren't enough, are they? Just know I'm sending you so much love from across the world and it won't be this painful forever. I promise! Kate xx

[@cecilek.8289]

Thank you. You made me take a deep breath. I am never on social media. You my sweet thing have just put a warm blanket on me. You even made me see that you’ve acknowledged my message. 💕that meant the world to me. Thank you.

[@michaelkourtoubelides5943]

Bless you, you helped me. My mum is now a beautiful spirit like yours.

[@alanfereday8316]

Thank you Kate I'm literally in bed watching you and absolutely identity with everything you say, Lost my mum in October and and to say I'm struggling would be a understatement, But you have definitely just given me a new perspective thankyou.

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@chelsea7298]

I’m so sorry for everyone in the comments who has lost their mum 💔 your mums love and spirit will never die though , and she will live within you. stay strong

[@lj4466]

I haven't gone through this so I can't even imagine. But wow, this is the most level headed and helpful advice. When my best friend's mom suddenly past I had zero idea how to truly comfort her, or what to say. You are such a lovely soul. You have dealt with this so gracefully even if it felt messy and horrible. Its an honor to see you on the other side of it, wise af. Your mum would be beaming at how much you have learned and grown.

[@GG-rk1bu]

Thank you so much for sharing your loss with us, Kate. This is truly comforting to hear! I experienced something very similar. My mum passed away from a heart attack suddenly in November 2021. My beautiful Mum was also the hub of the whole family, and was in a caring profession. I can 100% relate - although it's been two months I can't get my head around the fact she is not here. I'm also not working at the moment, so have given myself up to the process of funeral planning and grief. It does really help to release the emotions associated with grief - sober. Currently at the stage where the future just seems bleak, but hearing you speak helps xx

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@bekakavtarae7040]

You’re so amazing! I’ve just lost my mom 3 days ago due to COVID. I’m also 28. Thank you for being so sweet and authentic. You’re truly a bunch of sunshine!)

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@resistancerebels9798]

Stunning.....i have just rekindled the relationship with my mom after years of trauma and therapy....we are in a truly fabulous place full of love....but i am sometimes so sad with the thought of losing her......thank you for your video

[@music16399]

This video really helped me to remind myself of the fact that even though my Mum is not here to see me go through university as she died in 2013 , she is watching me live my life and I need to keep going and use her wisdom and knowledge to be just as good as her because she was truly inspiring and if I could follow in her ways of thinking and her love and devotion to life and people then that would be a great sense of achievement through my grief and turning my dark days into happy fulfilling years of positivity and personal growth . Your story was so motivating so thank you! xx:)

[@meganrodgerstschannen9323]

I love all of the F bombs, because this was raw and heartfelt. I lost my mom January 2023, and it rocked my world. Entering into the week before Mother's Day in the US has my emotions everywhere and incredibly confusing. Your story gave me comfort and validation where I needed it. Thank you for sharing! I hold you in my heart as a fellow motherless daughter. ❤‍🩹

[@JamieJenkins2001]

First, I'm sorry for your loss, it's a painful thing words can't really do justice. My mom died in October of 2023 (almost a year ago) and I'm still in a state of numbness and shock. I haven't been the happy and cheerful Jamie that I used to be in so long. My best friend has been a lifesaver, having her to talk to has helped keep me from falling into the abyss of despair.

[@Everything987654]

Kate, thanks for sharing 💕💕 , I had a very similar experience when my dad died of a heart attack when I was 9. Even down to the long intense journey to the hospital. Grief is so hard to understand when you haven’t been through it. It’s something growing up I wished other children and people understood. It’s something that becomes part of you and makes you a better person (if you let it!) your mum sounded like a wonderful person 🌸

[@jazzr.6606]

I know it's been a while since you posted this, yet I want to thank you because, honestly, you kinda saved my life. I lost my mom two days ago and I didn’t even knew how to get closer to the grive process, your video was enormously helpful to me. Thank you so much.

[@tekken278]

Hi I'm sorry for your loss...I to lost my own mum suddenly a few weeks back..the 21st of January it was...its beyond tough everyday..I still dont even believe its real..regards from Mark in dublin 😔

[@SparklSeoul]

My Mom passed away this January it’s hard especially this is a new year I can’t take life anymore

[@MaiaMatiIda]

My mum and dad are my best friends, the thought of losing them literally makes me anxious and sick. I can’t even imagine what you went through, wow. I’ve been following you since your Ellie Goulding covers back in the early days and feel like I’ve been a part of your journey. I’m so proud of how strong you’ve become (and always been) and how you’ve handled this. I admire you Kate. Thanks for all you put out here x

[@hankdmoose]

I'm so sorry, for your loss, Kate. And I thank you for sharing your experience. I lost my mom 14 years ago, and 100% agree that leaning into the pain is important. You have to feel it to cope with it. Music was a very important part of my relationship with my mom, and in the days after she died, I listened to all of the songs that meant the most, putting together a playlist of songs for her reception/visitation. There were songs that, on the first note, would set me sobbing for minutes at a time. But it was important to me to feel that after I said goodbye. I spent nearly 3 days solid going through albums I hadn't heard, in some cases in years, and letting myself cry and grieve. Now I listen to those same albums and sometimes they still make me cry, but more often they make my smile. They bring back such wonderful memories. Your mum sounds like an amazing woman. Your strength is a testament to that.

[@amberjenkins3620]

I dont have alot of good memories. My childhood was quite abusive and so my memories are mostly stuff i dont want to talk about like protecting my mum from my dad. Or my dad saying horrible, traumatising things to her. My hate for him is as deep as my sadness at the loss of my mum. I cant believe ill never taste her cooking again.

[@555jumana]

Thank you for sharing. I have something similar ahead of me with mum. I’m struggling. I’m lucky as I’ve had 52 years with her but I’m still struggling with the idea of her being gone. Sadly it’s something we all must go through. Planet Earth is hard! Take care of yourself xx

[@chrisvillan88]

My mum died suddenly just over a month ago. Sometimes I feel like I'm in shock, sometimes I feel as though I'm functioning as normal then suddenly I get the wave of grief. What's hard is I was there when it happened and I feel such guilt that I couldn't save her even though the paramedics told me there was nothing that could be done. RIP Mum, I'll always love you ❤️

[@leighj3]

❤

[@JesusIsKing1958]

My mom just died a few days ago… thanks for this ❤

[@bekahk21]

my mom died last night very unexpectedly. it feels like this will never end… thank you for giving me hope

[@jamesw657]

I'm so sorry you had to go thru that. I'm losing my mom right now to pancreatic cancer...she was only diagnosed in May and she's already in hospice and almost gone, days maybe a few weeks left. It's fucking killing me. She's always been my best friend and we've talked everyday for as long as I can remember and she's always been the only person that has made me feel loved and cared for. I'm sitting in a parking lot listening to her voicemails and just breaking down crying hysterically. I don't have a dad or any siblings so I just feel totally alone in the world and that terrifies me. I'm here if you want to commiserate

[@ceciliaowen7744]

I love your story and after hearing you out, the cussing doesn't really matter, I like your bluntness and thank you for your candidness.

[@jwhite7303]

Firstly Kate , I’m so sorry for your loss of your mum xx I lost mum on Boxing Day last year 2022 .. every word you’ve said is so true and I can relate with exactly what you’ve been throu. I’m a month into my grief and some days I’m ok and the next day I cry several times a day .. the one realisation I’ve had is like you say is that it’s important and-you must allow yourself time. It’s certainly been an eye opener for me with certain things in life. Life needs to to be lived and not have any regrets and all the little things we moan about don’t matter.. life is to short.. thank you for sharing your story and experience, I hope it’s some comfort like it was to me and thousands others that we’ve been such challenges and experiences of losing a love one so close like a mum x

[@Leanna_Weber_Art]

This video showed up in my feed today as I’m grieving my mom and burying her this evening. She was amazing and I’m ugly sad but this video has given me hope. Thank you. I thought I was dying. One month without my mom. The darkest most horrific time of my life. But I am grateful for the years and the love. I will be ok … someday.

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@annaasatiani5950]

I loved listening to you!!!!!! What a beautiful soul you are!!!!! Your mom is so so so proud of you!

[@snek8930]

I was watching one of your videos from 9 years ago and seeing how much you had grow up your mom would be so proud of you, now that she can finally rest know that you still have the support of your fans and family. Wish you the best luck!

[@StallionStudios1234]

You seem super sweet. I just lost my gorgeous mother. We talked every day. It's hard. Thanks for your wisdom.

[@1journal2catstea39]

Kate, You are such a beautiful person. You are also my first favorite KZbinr. Before I discovered you I didn't watch or like KZbin. I thought I would have cried through this video... but I didn't. 🤔🤗 I am so happy that you are okay.

[@katem3]

thank you so much for this comment!! i'm so grateful that you took the time to write this for me. i'm glad you didn't cry! we've nothing to cry about! life's awesome. thanks again and you are awesome xx

[@28copland]

I'm so sorry for your loss ❤ your helping a lot of people with this video I'm sure your mum wud b proud

[@claireandclaws]

Thank you so much for this video. I lost my Mum on October 13th 2022 from liver failure and pneumonia, 10 days after I took her to A&E. We got to be with her in intensive care until the very end. I am completely broken and miss her so so so fucking much. I lost my Dad when I was 12 and always took for granted Mum would always be there, never thought I would lose both parents by 34. Through the pain Ive tried so hard to appreciate the little things. Even found meditation and I talk to my Mum daily. So comforting to hear your experiences and even found similarities with my own hellish journey. Love how honest you are. Cried so much when you said stop wishing if only. Thank you Kate, your Mum would be proud of you. ❤

[@boitumelonyati4546]

Oooh my God this is crazy, it's 2024 April & I lost my mother last month March & it was a sudden death jst like your mom 😮. She got sick a night before she passed but they slept & in the morning she was looking better & spoke to my brother telling him to go a meeting because she's fine, unfortunately she passed around 10 am on the 8th March 2024 & I can't still believe she's gone. As u said about your mom, my mom was the glue of the family, everyone in the community would come to her jst for advice, like she was an amazing soul. So now this emotions I'm feeling are driving me crazy, what I do is cry a lot. I couldn't eat at all for that March after I was told she passed, & after 2 weeks my dad feel sick & he was hospitalised & I thought to myself here we go again, we honestly thought we are also going to lose him too, it was an out of body experience, so eating wasn't my priority at all & I felt weak😢. Now my dad is better but I'm still traumatised with everything 😭😭😭. No more phone night calls for me like literally every night, she was also a great grandmother to my kids so it's so sad I don't even know how am I going to go through this life without my mom. thank u I really needed to hear this 😊

[@cowboyecosse]

This has clearly been on your mind Kate recently. I know I’m some internet stranger and this holds no weight, so I hope you can take this as “of some worth” when I say, my very best wishes to you and I’m sorry for your loss. Your mum would be very proud.

[@katem3]

thank you very much Billy! i so appreciate this xx

[@noirchronicles]

I didn’t know your mom and I very barely know you but I can feel a bit of your mom being channeled through you in talking here and it’s refreshing to hear honesty and openness, even about the worst bits. Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss.

[@noirchronicles]

I’m a similar soul and am not good at not being open (🤔) with the world. If you ever want to chat lmk. I think it’d be interesting. What a weird cool world we live in... just make sure not to ‘overcorrect’ and make sure you take care of yourself and know that you intrinsically have value and are allowed to turn off your phone etc. You are wonderful and I’m sorry for your pain. But kudos on putting in the ‘exercise’ bc most don’t and they go into denial and delusion.

[@noirchronicles]

Obv no matter what, god speed and as you ‘turn the corner’ of being able to look forward, instead of looking back, it takes time (and effort), I’m excited for what you figure out you want to do and i hope you are too... Your positivity is contagious even in spite of this terrible situation. God speed ✌️❤️ Drew

[@noirchronicles]

I was only halfway through when I replied lol, now at the end, guess we came to the same conclusions, will get the book (probs as an audiobook if it exists, sry) ✌️❤️

[@kar0soul]

Wow. I have never lost a such close person in my life, but this video really encourages me to really deal with it when that time comes. Thank you for your openness, thank you for your strength to talk about it and thank you for sharing all your very inspirational thoughts. It is absolutely beautiful to have seen your whole journey through grieve, getting better and feeling thankful again. You are such a beautiful human being!

[@jeremystanley216]

I feel you’re pain my mum died a week ago and the pain and sorrow and the feeling of emptiness is overwhelming

[@Izzybelaas]

Same here 😢 I feel you

[@jeremystanley216]

@@Izzybelaas I’m sorry for you’re loss

[@EASYTIGER10]

i lost Mum 3 months ago. It still seems unreal. I still occasionally forget momentarily and look forward to seeing her for a chat. I still feel I need to get better at relieving that "pressure" you describe. I've not taken time out and I know I should

[@eclaire1804]

Thank you! My mum died last night from Cancer and this gave me some hope xxxx

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@dorabalogh3127]

Thank you so much💖 I lost my mom suddenly to a heart attack too. Thank you for sharing, it really helps, this gives me hope💝

[@amirmht8029]

Sorry to hear it 💔

[@georgeg7172]

3 years and a month now. Still cry at least once a day. Feels like yesterday. It was sudden. I lived in a different state so every time she comes to my mind now, I have to remind myself that she died and a brief feeling of disbelief still comes over me. When “Down on the Corner” by CCR comes on, I change the song and apologize to my Mom and hope she understands that I still can’t listen to it. There is a constant light though, and that is every time I cry, without fail, I feel relief. And almost always laugh with a memory of something funny she used to do. I’ve watched your video many times. It comforts me. Thank you.

[@santi7616]

Thanks for the video, I lost my mom 3 weeks ago and thanks to your video and others I can feel a bit better but I think I will need more time. I just wanted to say thanks for your video. I hope you are doing well. Best regards

[@Starlightv74]

I'm so sorry, sweetheart. Thank you for sharing.

[@dianagula8101]

My Mom has just passed away next to me. 😭

[@brigitd8321]

Thx so much! #Truth 💖 I loss my own mother suddenly and unexpectedly on January 8, 2021 and this video, your words are spot on! Hugs ❤️

[@psychedelian87]

Their time to go my arse. You've been hypnotised. Still, I thank you for your efforts. The pain never goes away so I admire your strength in making this video.

[@katem3]

hypnotised? unsure about that. just a difference of opinion! thank you for watching it regardless 🧡 xx

[@kelleymcfadden9675]

Our only true hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you. Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5nSk5aHj5uEmJo

[@simonlai6972]

THIS EXACTLY HITS ME AND WAKES ME UP!! i've been into these dark mode for a year after my mom passed away. Damn the world is so dark i hided in my room for a year with some weeds and alcohol just try to sleep well and try not to think bout it but it just got x100000 worse! Im living at my mom 's house alone , i just went to her room and looking at her photos, cried like an animal btw , i know i had to stop this , and i accidentally saw this video. to be honest it really helps me, i know well even im not ready and capable again to face the world , but i'll turn these grief into a beautiful lessons. it sounds weird but whoever is having griefs like this , man we have to overcome it ! this too shall pass !