a few days in my life

[@Delilahjewel]

I appreciate your vulnerability in a couple of these clips.

[@mariahlamb2983]

This was the first day in my life video that genuinely looks just like a day in my life, right down to the breakdowns and killing time with the car wash/vacuum lol Also, seeing you get a little vulnerable there for a minute almost had me cryin. I don't think we've ever seen that part of you, really appreciate you leaving that bit in... I hope you're doin alright.. love u mads

[@Mai-zy1wz]

This cheered me up so much! I live by myself and it gets really lonely sometimes and seeing you talk about your feelings and being vulnerable gave me so much comfort because we all have those days and it's just nice to hear someone else share those same feelings too. Doing everything yourself and trying to keep yourself happy by doing these silly little things is so real. Also, this has to be the most realistic day in my life kind of videos, thank you for sharing this!

[@courtnjo]

We're the same age n I live alone too and I completely relate on "the breakdown" part and the having to rely on yourself for things. Just wanna let you know you're not alone and you are loved! I look forward to every vid of yours and just hope you know so many people love you 💖

[@camilledavenport1017]

I live alone too and I do this!! It feels nice to be seen ❤

[@Bronkodile]

The lack of a S.O. during wedding season is rough. I feel that, really doesn't help that I'm a wedding DJ and am watching at least 1 wedding a weekend. You got this.

[@brittanykendrick2103]

Though we love your sense of humor, your vulnerability is absolutely beautiful in this video..I think it resonates with a lot of us experiencing these kind of waves of emotion. Thank you for this. Thank you, for you. We love you, and appreciate you. ❤

[@ariannebrodeur]

wanna say I LOVE your vlogs, I haven't moved away from my abusive parents yet and seeing you living independently in your own apartment gets me so excited for when I can do that so I love just seeing you go about your life idk your videos are such a cozy comfort place for me! The breakdown was a mood, I've always been alone most of my life socially and have become SO used to dealing with my emotions by myself and believing everyone around me would be burdened by me opening up and now that I've tried to be more social and have people i can rely on its so weird knowing they want to know if I'm okay and they Need to know bc our lives are that intertwined and I'm like oh shit bc I just am so not used to it like I'm so used to holing up inside of myself and not having anyone who cared enough or knew enough to check on me so I totally feel you. Especially bc of my home situation i have a lot of crisis times where like i should be calling my friends and asking for help but i just feel so much like a burden that i just deal with it myself and tell them about it later and then feel bad lmao but im trying to work on it Basically I think we all really appreciate how open you were on this vlog and you're not alone fr 😭

[@lucyservo6574]

I felt your breakdown, I am also not a number 1 to anyone. I know it's not possible to be happy all the time, and its part of life to feel down or lonely or unhappy, but the bad times always feel sooo bad and isolating. Muffins always help though

[@nonamejellyfish2571]

You're not the only one dealing with breakdowns. When I have one I usually just let myself cry about it &/or pray to God about it. At the end of the day, He's in control & things will get better 💜

[@somebodyyouknow_]

really wish i had a friend like you, you remind me of the friendships i wish i still had at 22.. but all the good friends good go our separate ways :'(

[@TR-kf3vm]

I love that it's "a few days" and not just a day 😂

[@joysacks3314]

thanks for sharing how u feel about living alone. it really is tough. i know it's also hard to share. ❤

[@juliajaeger8175]

I totally understand the being more social hurts more. I am currently experiencing that myself. And when you said you wished you could feel like someone's number one person, oh man, I felt that too. You are not alone in that, Maddison. It's always the best people. I'm so sorry you have to go through that. 💔

[@jackier1726]

Wow. The talk about the “number one person” thing was so relatable. Never heard anyone else talk about it before. Also, definitely want more of these day in the life vlogs

[@rubyf4686]

being in your 20s is so great 'cause you'll be totally fine one minute and having a mental breakdown the next!! 🤪 i'm right there with you girlie. thanks for sharing a realistic few days in your life with us ❤ also the anastasia soundtrack !!! so true. and i've been wanting to make pumpkin muffins all month but haven't gotten around to it yet. but they're saur good, like. why are pumpkins so powerful??

[@albertjohnson6320]

Hey, Maddison. Love the vid. Thank you for showing a side of humanity that people rarely see. I know it can be really vulnerable sometimes but the fact that you had the courage to take your car to a coin op car wash and wash your car yourself really resonated with me. I too, take my car to a coin op car wash and find that it is more effective than sending it through an auto wash which can strip wax and possibly damage the paint. After washing my car, I also wax my car by hand and then buff it with a microfiber towel afterwards. Unfortunately, this causes static on the paint and the next day my car is covered in dust as a result, but I guess that's how things go. I also really appreciated that you vacuumed the interior of the car. I don't always get the chance to do that myself, but when I do, I remove the car mats and also vacuum the area of the floor that the car mats cover since there can be debris there. Anyways I think I've gone on too long about this subject. I'm sure car care was the exact point of the video. Just kidding, I was being sarcastic. Come to think of it, car care could be the subject of your next video. I'm being serious about that one. Or visit Buc-ee's and do a 24hr challenge there.

[@mintyhippo8125]

For the friend thing, feeling like you aren’t someone’s #1 might be an indication that you need new friends lol For a long time, I would settle for friendships that I didn’t really like/feel a connection in because I thought they were “nice enough to hang out with so it’s fine.” But I always felt forgotten and like I was pushing it to hang out with them. They would pick people over me ALWAYS. I decided that’s not the kind of friends I want. I want people who will be honest with me and who are excited to hang out with me as I am. I think it is good to have a variety of friends (because one person can’t do everything lol) but if you feel forgotten/brushed over, listen to that. Also, if you’re feeling down, your real friends would want to hear about it! Don’t feel bad about telling them when you’re sad because they want to be there for you! If they don’t/make you feel bad when you tell them stuff, they are not the friends for you. I think you also gotta ask yourself if you’re friends don’t like you, or if you don’t think you deserve your friends to like you… and then explore that. A big reason I also couldn’t except good friendships in my life is because I couldn’t accept that I wanted to be loved or that I deserved it. I felt like a burden - which is not true! Or maybe I was to those people because they were the wrong people for me! Keep seeking fulfilling friendships, and you’ll find them :)

[@crystalmarcial6575]

I hope you know on my worst days when everything is falling apart I watch your videos,they are my safe space,so thank you for that and thank you for making us not feel alone ♥️ we love you!

[@miafreeman777]

What you said during the breakdown...exactly what my recent breakdowns have been about 😭

[@Heather_Andrews]

Can I just say... Same! Everything, same! Living alone is tough. I feel like listening to you makes my daily life feel more "normal". We're best friends, right?!

[@dogz19]

This is so refreshing to watch as someone who is alone majority of the time 😭 love to see it 💗✊

[@Emperiella]

When you mentioned Anastasia though 👀 it’s my favorite animated film 🕺🏻

[@TarteAuSucreTV]

I feel you Maddi, you're not alone. I hope you know this. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. :) I hope that you find the strength to reach out to those who love you and talk to them about this. You'd be surprised at how much they are willing to be there for you in moments like this.

[@edenb1789]

I loveeee going to yard sales, flea markets, thrift stores, etc. & having break downs are completely ok!! don’t feel like it’s ever for a stupid reason

[@ccshrimp]

I feel the same way about being someone's number one person, like with friends

[@briyoncegreer]

im rewatching this again and just wanted to say.. you're one of my comfort KZbinrs. you make me feel safe and cozy so thank you for being here

[@christianhardtofind6349]

Just want to encourage you with what you were saying during your "breakdown." I'm 34 years old and single, and even though I'm not looking for marriage, I know how hard it is to be a single person in a world of married couples. The feeling that no one else sees you as their #1, and constantly feeling out of place in contexts where there are couples, it's real! Glad you're able to be vulnerable about your feelings and find joy in each day!

[@beeszzz2774]

I feel like this is your most "adulting"(for a lack of a better word lol) videos ever, I LOVE it, we all are just confused but we'll get through it

[@namelessfornow1885]

That one segment where you were vulnerable SIS WE ARE GOING THROUGH THE PRECISE SAME THING AND WE'RE ALMOST THE SAME AGE. For me I have no family really no friends nobody like close and no significant other so yup I feel ya 100%, and I'll be praying for you Maddison!

[@uzzab6937]

You being so casual and expressive makes me feel like we’re irl friends. Which is totally true right?

[@bby9523]

No

[@greeko811]

OMG Maddison’s a Hitchcock fan??? A girl after my own heart ❤❤❤ You have great taste 👌👍 “The Birds” is one of my all time faves as well along with Psycho, Rear Window, Rope and Vertigo etc and I have had the pleasure of seeing them on the big screen as well. You should see what “The Birds” looks like at our local single screen vintage cinema called “The Astor” theatre over here in Melbourne, Australia. I think you’ll be quite impressed. Pity we don’t live closer cause I’d love to hang out with you and see movies. Thanks for another great video Maddison 👍

[@gracehoward8605]

We're about the same age and I live in Alabama too and seeing you do all the exact same stuff I do when I'm bored and having a breakdown was so comforting lol

[@xThePinkApple]

this seems like a productive few days tbh like i wish i did as much as you over a couple days. and the part where you talked about being alone and not feeling like you can talk to people in your low moments - so real. i feel that on such a deep level. i have regular 'breakdowns' about that too. i'm kind of comforted by knowing i'm not the only one who feels that way, so thanks for being so open ♥

[@ADuckieGirl]

It's so refreshing to see a vulnerable side of you, and I think it'll help your followers feel even closer to you, I know it worked on me. I would love to hang with you, girl!

[@blurp8996]

I love how random and chill this vlog is💗

[@emptyskeletons]

"is this me like having some type of breakdown?" me every time i get dressed in the morning

[@rebeccaalbrechtsen]

You are honestly my favorite person

[@lacemsboo]

You forgot the corn mazes in fall! Your next video should be getting a cookie decorating kit and decorating the cookies, then take us along on a haunted corn maze adventure of sorts. Or follow along with a DIY fall decor tutorial. I love your videos, keep up the amazing work.

[@aquaruisangel]

Thank you Maddison. This is my favorite video. I appreciate you being real and please feel free to post stuff like this anytime!

[@heidimelo758]

Thanks for being real and sharing the little things that bring you joy in your day, like going to garage sales and making muffins. :)) Wedding season when you're single is tough. That feeling's legitimate and finding community in your 20s when you're not in school anymore is hard! Praying for you to find reminders that you're loved by the people in your life, and that you would feel a sense of community even when you have those lonely moments. 💐❤

[@kayleeferguson8261]

I have been having random breakdowns too. I am going through somethings and i feel so alone even though i have many people supporting me. thank you so much for sharing. this helped me.

[@hahabarajas]

What you said about having a number one person HIT HOOMMMEEE. ily and appreciate u

[@LittleMissNoName24]

Yes!! Watched the original Halloween a few yrs back in the cinema, felt so good xx

[@laura.b.1989]

Fr, if you became a daily vlogger I would totally watch all of them :)

[@hocuspocus111]

this video was relaxing and the breakdown part made me feel seen, also anastasia is not a disney movie!

[@hb2547]

Hey Maddison! Just want you to know you are truly an amazing person! I have recently been binge watching your videos, just to keep my spirits up! I get really lonely often, but your videos are so genuine, creative and funny! I love that you are a small town girl doing small town things! Because I’m in the same boat! I’m from Texas and live in a small town in the country! But I love getting outside and walking with my dogs!

[@reginagoolsby8297]

I love this!!! I would love more videos like this!!

[@yakyim2114]

Hii I love your videos! I wanted to give you some encouragement! Keep doing you girl! You'll be someone's number one! It'll come you are so beautiful and your personality is just so wonderful! I used to feel the same way. I met one of my best friends when I least expected it. You got this and I appreciate you and your videos! Thank you hunty!

[@owendale1079]

u should do more of these kinda vids this was so slay

[@valenfr01]

love you in vlog format! i just think you're doing great❤️

[@crystaljones1998]

So cool to see ya again! And sorry if I've been creepy! Just love chillin' by watching your videos and people's reactions to things I used to watch back in the early 2000s. Happy late birthday, by the way! And I appreciate your transparency with us. I honestly go through some of those things, too. Nice finds, by the way! Love the trinket tray and jar mug!

[@iceteafairy]

absolutely loved this video

[@robertasfl4932]

I really enjoyed this video! thanks 🫶🏼

[@christinemarsh4827]

I loved your the camera battery is dying dance. So cute. 😁

[@andie.vasconez]

"it's hard not being someone's #1" damn, i get it :(((

[@jennifergood4123]

I related so much to this! I have said that exact thing about not being anyone's number 1 priority! It can feel lonely and a little scary at times. Personally at times therapy and or medication has been extremely helpful as well. I begin to struggle around this time of year as the days get shorter/darker. Just wanted to say if you ever wanted to explore medication, etc. it might be just the added edge you need. You could try just a very low dose and it doesn't have to be forever either. Just thought I'd share my experience. Love your videos and I hope you're doing great today!

[@sophiacharlotte]

Omg thank you so much for opening up, I feel so seen because I feel the exact same way right now.💗

[@OurShowOurStory]

Thank you so much for being open about your emotions. I too have been having a moment....

[@aubreysmith9097]

Loved this type of video from you queen!!❤

[@Etherealcotton]

I always recommend getting a pet if you can financially support it! Especially if you live by yourself, I know you mentioned wanting a cat really bad

[@Emily-xz9lg]

hiiii girlie! im 12 and me and my mom love u soooo much!!❤❤ we love hearing you talk about book recs and twilight. seen all of ur videos approximately 800,000 times and they never get old. if u want a laugh, watch kay’s cooking. love u!!! ❤️❤️❤️👑👑👑

[@sgtgramps1836]

You’re 12 and watch Twilight.........

[@mintyhippo8125]

@@sgtgramps1836 that’s when I read twilight lol

[@briyoncegreer]

thank you for opening up and showing your emotions.. that's really strong of you and I'm proud of you.

[@amalsobsessions_]

You should do more of these

[@babyjuliet6104]

great vid maddison, it was like hanging out with you. i appreciate that you didn't cut the parts where you felt down, that happens to a lot of us and it's not really acknowledged by most youtubers

[@luwasgarden]

love the vlogsss!!!! KEEP DOING THESE!!! 👏 ☺️

[@hsfhanaa]

Totally get where you are coming from. I'm turning 25 in November and was snapchstting my out of state friend and literally talked myself into a breakdown. I realized, just like you said, I'm not anyone's main choice. I have acquaintances and people I go to school with or work with but not "friends". No one to surprise me with a birthday cake that'll say, "I'm too old for Leonardo Di Caprio" or wanna go watch movies. It sucks but can't let myself get stopped from enjoying my day from hyperfocusing on that fact. Thanks for making my day much better whenever I watch your videos

[@kurimallow]

12:50 the trees are pretty!!! Trees don't change color where I am!

[@Sheri_J]

You're so naturally pretty girl..Great personality too! You'll meet the right guy in the right time..just put yourself out there. You're young so enjoy your life..meet new people lol. God will bring the right guy to you🤗💗💅

[@ystago]

loved this video!!! wouldn't mind seeing more vlogs like this :))

[@dizzybee2]

wouldn’t mind another vlog like this. love you girlie 🧡

[@Blakiedoo]

pretty sure i commented this before but i always like the video before i even watch because i know my girl maddy b never disappoints 😈😈😈

[@raevxo]

I adore you. I relate so much to feeling alone and thinking no one cares even though you know that's not true. But just keep doing exactly what you're doing, being yourself. We love you M💙

[@MrLeroy3895]

I also live alone. I deal with my breakdowns with wine. So girl get some wine & cry it out.

[@ismeow2523]

Let me just say that I love your videos so much. I really resonated with what you said about not being a persons number one because lately I’ve been struggling with the same issue. I don’t know why, but it’s really comforting to hear your thoughts on it. Anyways, thank you for this and have a nice day ❤️

[@roshhh7791]

Thank you so much for new vlog! I’ve been just waiting to see a casual side of you, something that u feel u can share with us. Esp vulnerability part, more relatable then any KZbinr I’ve seen:0 I hope u doing well, luv u mads👾

[@uzzab6937]

Btw, don’t be sad. You’re awesome.

[@myonnareads]

you need to make these longer ma’am

[@neonjellyfish7025]

I love how her style is different and not-so-trendy and she owns it. She isn't afraid to like what she likes and buy furniture and clothes that she likes. I admire that she decorates in a way that is not so popular and beige-betty lol

[@kayleighselina.3152]

I feel the exact same way about not being or having someone that's number 1. It helped when I got a dog, now we're each others. 🫶 Happy late Birthday qween!

[@joeyseaman5235]

2:50 same though 4:23 me literally every day of my life 🙃😅

[@avivfox558]

this made me feel not alone because I was literally going through the same exact thing I live alone and lost most of my friends

[@avivfox558]

and it felt like I was no one's number one and it hurt sm

[@michwreyes]

love you girlie! your videos always make me feel better 🥹🫶

[@gatamandra2539]

Hi Madisson just wanted to say that I always have a blast with you videos and the 3 I saw today were no exception, and I specially liked this one besides being super fun cause you have the best sense of humor, I also liked seeing that bit of vulnerability cause I recently moved too, a year ago and it feels like that sometimes haha so it made me feel less alone, thank you 🙌🙌🙌

[@anna93171]

I love these vlogs! You should do more of them!

[@dijahmunawar]

this makes me feel so much better :) thank you maddison!

[@happyhermit5280]

I love seeing this type of video from you you always make me laugh and brighten my day love your videos

[@SummerHawaii582]

I enjoyed your friendly personality.interesting video. Hope you make more.

[@SolipsisticElixir]

Hoodie and jeans, Midwest style

[@smokyskull1880]

You're too hard on yourself sometimes you look great in anything and have a great attitude and you're so honest about everything

[@IvysWowzers]

Girl Anastasia is not Disney 😭 but fr once upon a December is one of the most beautiful songs I ever I be vibin to that shit in my alone time-which is always bc I also live alone LMAO

[@celesteheathers9309]

I love this so much

[@alie_smith]

Maddie B, AY YO

[@YedidahMVO]

Maddie, I'm married and I still feel like that sometimes (but it's because I don't have any friends aside from my husband) and I really appreciate that you let us see that side of you, antisocial ladies club 💅

[@tikkka]

Any plans for a Halloween video? ☺️

[@mschabelita]

yes i love maddison bush.

[@grippygrippyhippyhippy]

I wish I was your friend. But I'm happy to give you a view on your video.

[@ashleymarie5500]

Happy late birthday Maddison!!!

[@Nay-Nay2k]

We love you Mads 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@lilyclark6710]

This woman really just said she was listening to what I’ve been trying to find my entire life…..WHERE IS SHE GETTING THE ANASTASIA 1997 SOUNDTRACK?!?!?

[@julianpeppers1889]

Living alone is so rough. I truly don't think it's natural for most people, humans are an incredibly social species, yet in the US we have this expectation of near total "independence". It's not weak to be lonely. As isolating as being single can feel, from my own experience, I felt a lot less sad about being single when I was living with family and got to see friends regularly. I think part of my own desire for romance was a desire to simply not be alone, because as an adult, it almost feels like you're only "allowed" to live with and rely on a romantic partner. My practical advice is to get a pet and try to see friends and family as much as possible.