i don't know where to start...

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

‼ DOMESTIC ABUSE HOTLINE: [phone] www.thehotline.org/

[@Hillcountry_Catholic]

For anyone who is going through this, and has possibly been turned down when asking for help, please do not give up! If someone does not believe you, find somebody else to tell. I promise you more people will take it seriously than not. You are worth it ❤️

[@melp8175]

Thank you for everything . I admire and respect you so so much. ❤❤❤

[@heavenj7]

The algorithm sometimes knows what I need better than myself? I went from a physically abusive relationship (2013-2017) to one with a person with NPD (2017-2020), with verbal bashings and belittling, sexual coercion and gaslighting..when I’d go see my friends? He would constantly txt and try to keep my attention on HIM…I thought back then? How cute! Looking back now? I know that’s a red flag. For me? Having experienced both? Leaving the physical was so much easier mentally..the narcissist? Ugh I married him…I thought ? It was his alcoholism and if he stopped drinking he’d be the man I fell for? Wrong again… I was a woman with a disability…and whom had just found out she had a neuroendocrine tumor …it was removed and I didn’t need anything else…but I had no one other than him…idk where the two friends I had went to? But what you said at the beginning? Dont wait to leave and if you’re alone like me? Reach out to your local DV group!! I left mine two years ago me and a Uhaul with two screaming cats…I was happy the first six months and felt hope but he’s done things he knows I will see…and see I have..my health now isn’t the best. Everything you said I feel…I’m tired feeling small..I still don’t feel joy yet? I’ve had therapy but once I left I just kinda shut myself in my apt thinking if I did back to back abusive ships? I need to just be alone? But I’m scared of that too. I want to feel my joy again…everyday I try to… Thank you for sharing your story…

[@xdiamondbabyx]

I’ll be 50 this year and have spent the last few years getting to truly know and understand myself. Others may be wrong, but I can only change myself. It’s a long hard journey, literally changing the way I move and interact with those around me on the daily. But it can be done. If you need to reach out to someone a bit older and wiser for some guidance pls let me know darlin. Much love XOXO

[@GinaHarrisToo]

You look beautiful. Happy to support your quest for justice. May you succeed. Sending love and hugs. You go girl! ❤❤❤

[@zenmaster9195]

I work in the justice system, and too many times have we seen DV victims drop charges and get scammed into going back. Stand your ground! Whatever he says, he's lying!! Just please remember that.

[@Morrocanprincess]

Very true! The more they return, the worse it gets. A guy who does DV NEVER gets better. He gets WORSE!!! It could end in unaliving.

[@zenmaster9195]

@@Morrocanprincess I've unfortunately seen cases like that.

[@Liahs333]

That was me. Twice. His lawyer sat me down and said if I testified it would ruin his life, he’d never be able to get a job or pay his bills. So I didn’t and he got a peace bond and I went back. I eventually left for good but unfortunately he did it to his next girlfriend. It’s hard to forgive myself. He died of a drug overdose last year so I’ve been able to process a lot of stuff. You’re right, they will say what you want to hear. Leave the FIRST time it happens.

[@zenmaster9195]

@@Liahs333 My goodness, I'm so sorry that happened to you. Glad you are doing better! And frankly, he got what was coming to him.

[@11VertigoXo]

Please, justice system doesn't do anything to protect us or our children during or after. It's a pay to win branch of government. All these men need is a decent lawyer and even extreme cases can get off with a decade of probation and still access to the kids.. only to hurt the kids in the exact same ways later. Going back is just choosing the familiar trauma vs. all the new ones of poverty, injustice, judgment, and powerlessness. Protective orders don't block them from breaking down your door whenever they please.

[@haircuttincasey]

Oh honey...you are not alone. We are right here with you. As a domestic violence survivor, I could feel your fear and pain through my phone and my heart breaks for you. Just know you are so worthy and so strong and you will rise above

[@chelseakarpetz3187]

Your safety and health is all that matters! Those of us that have been with you forever will continue to be here!

[@BiscuitsMom917]

Proud of you for pressing charges. My biggest regret in life is not going through with it.

[@crystalvignola8513]

Same.

[@veronika__asmr_]

I'm so proud of you Mallory. Not many women would have the strength to make a video about domestic violence. And yes I was married for 4 years to a terrible man and me and my son got out before it was to late! Sending love and light your way 💜🩷💜🤍💜🩷

[@laurenmichelle8399]

I took a 3 year break to heal between relationships and still found another abusive partner. Some people are really good at hiding who they are & I also still needed to work on my self esteem. Always a work in progress, but getting better ever day!! You will get through this!! Sending all the love 🖤🖤

[@sharonm.t.2492]

People DO hide who they really are. I think taking it really slow for at least 5 months will help you weed out any issues a person/partner may have, or show. It usually shows up by 5 months...

[@Tracylyn42]

They are good at finding US. I now have been alone for 5 years now and I am so happy. I am 65 and if I find a partner ok and if not I am living my life how I want to. No one controlling me, or fighting with me, or putting hands on me. It’s heaven now.

[@justkiddin84]

@@Tracylyn42exactly. They seem to have an extra sense that shows them who is in a vulnerable state for them to destroy.

[@stephfoxeh]

5 years! ​@@sharonm.t.2492

[@lynnbice4567]

I haven’t dated since 2018. Not sure I ever will again! I have children who are having children so my life is full, I see no need to take that chance again. Just remember the first sign of possible DV get out!!

[@dreila01]

I’m glad you are safe now. Gather your support system around you, you are not alone!

[@gio.aprile]

This resonates so much and I am so sorry..it’s been 8 years now since my ex tried to kill me. There’s so many things we could say..I remember I couldn’t even buy myself new underwear without being accused I was cheating. All the gaslighting. It’s terrible. I’m still struggling. It does change you. You will get through this babe. I love you and you’re not alone ❤️

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

Wow...and your story resonates with me. It's been a month and 2 days since I almost lost my life. The things you are describing here are all too familiar. I love you, and thank you for sharing with me because it does make me feel so so so much less alone.

[@Dells16]

Stay strong 🖤 find and celebrate your accomplishments every day

[@amandaf5664]

@@ImMalloryBrooke Be kind to yourself, it is not your fault! You are valid.

[@CurlyGirl-gsj]

So sorry to hear this 😢

[@AnnaL-ku9yw]

My heart goes out to you Mallory. My father was a wife beater and child abuser. There were nights where I thought we’d all be murdered. You’re a survivor and you matter!

[@dianacharboneau]

@@AnnaL-ku9yw in my case it was my mother, i often had that fear as well .. most nights were me lying in bed afraid that my 3 younger sisters were probably terrified out of their minds n almost certain that this would be the night where she would succeed in killing my daddy! She had tried ran him over with her car, she stabbed him and she shot him n she never once went to jail for any of it! I doht think they thought back then that a woman would really do all that but i would love to know they always explained my dads injuries??! He def did not run himself over or stab himself or shoot himself!! That poor man was so in love with her i just dont get it! He divorced her when i was 6 remarried her when i was 11 and divorced again a year latter! He was even asking for her on his death bed! Their story went on so long with nothing but toxic behaviors that I'm surprised my dad lasted as long as he did in the second marriage ( not even a full year) i did learn from all this other thAt once you n your children can get out safely you CANT go back no matter what they promise! Your ex is an ex for a reason! You are out n alive you may not make it out alive again! 💯😢

[@mrspokitstheriot477]

You are not alone. When you feel too weak to even stand, let us help hold you up. Well walk with you. Well be your support. You are supported. You are seen. You are safe.

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

You are everything ❤️ This means the worrrrrld to me🥲

[@monicalipson6644]

What you wrote was absolutely beautiful. It made me cry. wow!

[@SephoraBelle]

I've been watching you for years, I did see notes and comments on other sites but I felt awkward about reaching out because I thought you might think I was invading your privacy and I do respect you. I admit I was worried, I thought with your illness that something had happened to you and I was very concerned. I am so happy to see you Mallory. I wish you love hun and peace of mind..... I wish I could just give you a hug sweetheart.... you deserve only good things.

[@barbarakelly3189]

I was in a life threatening marriage many years ago.. I was almost killed.. so I can imagine what you're going through . I was so afraid , all the time , with good reason.. remember to change your locks and keep your windows and doors locked ALL THE TIME... if you can have a friend or relative stay with you,do that...or stay with them at their home . If you're afraid like I was , it's a horrible situation to be in ... God bless you sweetheart, keep you so safe.. don't let him get away with it.. that was the only way he left me alone. Judge promised him he would do longer jail time if he came around ever again. Which he didn't, thank God... Now I'm worried about you ❤

[@2010LGG]

Oh sweet girl, I missed you. I’ve watched you for years, the first video I watched you had just moved into your own first place after the separation from your first marriage. I’ve wondered where you were, I thought you were ill and I didn’t want to bother you. Think of me as a grandma that you can reach out to when needed. I will be 68 on the 13th but I seriously enjoy your channel and I get ideas to share with my daughters and granddaughters. I wish you the best, I’m glad you are back and I’ll continue watching sweety. I understand alot from where you’re coming from, “getting in trouble “ got me. I’m in west Texas a small dusty town! Keep your head up! ❤❤❤❤

[@amykimball8428]

Getting out of an abusive relationship is hell on earth. It took me 6 years to escape mine. You have a voice and a platform and just sharing this small portion of your story has the potential to help so many in similar situations. You aren’t alone and you are strong than you even realize.

[@michelledillman6381]

Makeup 💄=self care ❤aka : war paint ! My grandmother in her hospital bed / dead bed ….. told me ……after I walked into the room …… Michelle …. Can you get my red lipstick 💄 and put some on me …….. ❤! Love you! You are not alone ! You will become a better version of yourself! …… 😊

[@BarbItalia]

Been there darlin, many years ago. My advice: Get your grief out, then get ANGRY, then get wise. It's likely going to be like war, so move wisely. And whatever you do, DO NOT let him know where you are emotionally. In fact, don't talk to him (or any of his people) at all. You WILL survive this and be so much stronger when it's over.

[@Hillcountry_Catholic]

I am also a dv survivor. I know how hard it is to come forward. I had people we knew not believe me. Other women, I trusted, did not believe me. Even a police officer. I thank God for the people who finally did believe me and helped me escape. That was over 12 years ago. I’ve done alot of work in healing, and will probably always continue that work. But my life now is so good. I am so proud of you, for all you’ve overcome, and I’m praying for you Mallory 💜

[@irislopez-royal5048]

I'm with you. Reading your testimony felt like my own. Down to 1 law enforcement officer (who was sleeping with him). I had a shelter ask me to leave with 3 children because my ex-husband told law enforcement he knew where the shelter was located and what all he was going to do. I've had to walk away with just the clothes on my back and start all over: new city/town, job with nothing. It will get easier.

[@11Christys11]

When I was a young nurse I had a patient who was beaten by her husband with a tire iron. She barely survived and wasn’t recognizable as even human. It was so bad. Her children ran crying from the room calling her a monster. He ran from the police. He wasn’t finished. He came to the hospital that night to finish her off. We were notified and hid her and he was arrested. I’ve never forgotten her and think about her often and that was 20 years ago. My point is they don’t change. She told me she left many times but returned. You’re not alone. Be aware and be safe. Protect yourself. You will thrive!

[@1plawman]

You have a whole community to help lift you up and get you through this. You are not alone. Welcome back

[@HeatherStark-v6t]

Makeup can be armor. Seriously. Even during WWII women used red lipstick as a sign of liberty/victory and to feel good even in difficult times. Ancient female warriors painted their faces. Through my divorce I made myself put on makeup even if I couldn't muster anything else because once I got that done I usually felt better and could do more. It was also my way of showing myself and others that I would not be defeated. My mother and grandmother Always wore lipstick, even when going through things. I remember my mother crying in the car, then wiping her eyes. Grabbing her Revlon lipstick, and watching her put it on inthe car mirror and then her seeing little me watching and she smiled at me. It was what I now realize was her brave face.

[@CurlyGirl-gsj]

Amen!

[@scentsandgems]

Cried reading the last part. Beautiful! Warrior women!

[@DML_81]

I was in a toxic, narcassistic relationship for 20 years. It started amazing. Things took a turn once I had my oldest and went through post pardum. It's like he took advantage of my brain not functioning properly and he wrecked me. I kept trying to push through and advance myself, but had more kids in a stupor. Towards the end, he was the worst he's ever been with me. He had choked me, raped me regularly, squeezed me, held me down, verbally abusive, financially abusive, emotionally abusive, and then it turned to verbal abuse and intimidation towards the kids. I knew I needed to get out. I took all the steps and I'm 5 months out. I feel all of the emotions you are currently feeling, and it does get better. You need to break the trauma bond and heal. ❤

[@lizzieholland7051]

I'm so sorry Mallory. I got out of an abusive relationship 7 years ago. I'm still affected by it. It was physical, emotional, financial.. you name it. I lost so much. I lost myself. You are incredibly vulnerable right now and will be for a long time. Be mindful of this and don't make any rash decisions. Aim for balance in every way possible. Eat (it helps your brain), sleep, exercise, time with safe people, time to reflect. You can get through the trial. You will take all of this a day at a time, or a minute at a time if you have to.

[@Portia1416]

How did you get out? How does one get out when they are trapped? No finances, no familial support? Just how?

[@lizzieholland7051]

@@Portia1416 I took advantage of him cheating on me. I was packing for months. My mom would drive 100s of miles and take belongings. Things unexpectedly took a bad turn so my brother (who was away on holiday) came and got me. By this point my ex was absolutely besotted with someone else, and this was my saving grace. I had to move in with my mom 100s of miles away eventually. I was too vulnerable. I lost my job and the apartment after paying his mortgage for 5yrs. I'd be screwed if I didn't have my mom

[@Perrys_Girl41]

They say getting out is the hardest part but those of us who have successfully survived knows that every part is hard, including some you don't even think of. My first abuser was physical my second abuser was mental emotional and financial and I told myself because he wasn't hitting me it wasn't abuse. I honestly think my second abuser cherry picked me based on what I had been through, he always said all the right things in the beginning. I don't know if you have a victims advocacy group where you are but in New Jersey they were able to put me in touch with the right people & hold my hand through the entire process including court appearances. And while it may not feel like it right now, you have already won and I promise you are going to find strength you never knew you had. I am so proud of you for surviving 💜

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

EVERY PART IS THE HARD PART. Getting out is truly just the beginning of the strength we have to show to survive the rest of our lives. Thank you for sharing this because they do see the vulnerability, and USE that weakness for control, and whatever else they want from their victims. I need to find a group for sure. Thank you love, and I am so proud of YOU.

[@Perrys_Girl41]

@@ImMalloryBrooke There is strength to be found in every survivor story & sharing them might help someone else find the courage to get out. I would never change a moment of what I went through because it made me who I am today.

[@aprilmakepeace8388]

You've been through horrific things, and what I hear is that you're going into your butterfly phase--now is your time to shine, to fly, to be free. Thank you for coming back and sharing with all of us.

[@janicefuller-roberts8094]

As a DV survivor, I'm sending you love and light as you go through this painful journey. Remember, you have people who love you and are pulling for you. God bless

[@brandyoctober5923]

My dad actually died because of domestic violence. I am so sorry. I’m a long time viewer. You have an army behind you. Please let us know if you need us. ❤❤❤❤

[@amandaterrio4823]

I have been married and divorced twice. Both men were abusive. I have been with my fiancé now for 10 wonderful years. Together we have healed from our past. We grow stronger together every day. There are good men out there. Don’t ever settle. You deserve the best. We all do.

[@ElizabethDohertyThomas]

Sending you all the positivity and love. And as a chronically ill entrepreneur, please, please, don't overwork. Nobody is going anywhere, and you deserve to pace yourself.

[@pame7694]

Oh Mallory, you're breaking my heart. I wish I could give you a giant hug. I've watched you since Alaska days and will continue to be here for you. You are loved, you matter. ❤️

[@iwillstom]

You have value because you were born. Helping others is wonderful and the best thing we all can do but you don’t have to do another thing to prove your worth.

[@SmittenKitten.]

I wish there were something to say that would alleviate the pain, even for a moment. I guess the best I can do is say we'll be here, so take your time.

[@pamandrade0759]

Please dont feel like you have to be sorry for being absent from your channel. You are not defined by the title “ beauty influencer “. You are first and foremost Mallory, and you are the most important person before any beauty video. Take care of you and come back stronger and more at peace with your life and yourself. We will all be here with you as you do your best to regain your life and joy🩷

[@EmilyMorrison18]

I don’t know you personally, but I’ve been watching your videos for around a decade, so you have a familiarity in my life and I have missed seeing you around. I’m so very sorry you’ve had to endure the things you have. I’m so glad you were able to make it out. I am rooting for you and your happiness.

[@ibwendybASMR]

I answered a Craigslist post for a studio for rent. When i got there he put 2 different types of a date rape drug into my drink. Long story short, i was unconscious for 15 hrs while he raped me and God only knows what else, as i can't remember anything still. I woke up naked in his bed! It took 7 mosfor the rape kit to come back. During that time the Sheriffs dept failed me bigtime! They were supposed to be keeping an eye on him and yet he sild his house and took off to Thailand to escape going to prison for the rest of his life. This happened 4 yrs ago and i still struggle! Take care and know you're loved and cared about... Stay safe as well!!💜💜💜

[@Hvnly9]

I’m so sorry that happened to you! 🥺

[@amla88]

I'm so sorry this happened to you. Sending love to you x

[@ibwendybASMR]

@@Hvnly9 Awe thank you 💜

[@ibwendybASMR]

@@amla88 Thank you💜

[@CurlyGirl-gsj]

So sorry you went through this. It angers me the way men think they can get away with it...and then they do. Prayers 🙏 go to you

[@crystalpolice]

This video, along with the members video, has just ripped my heart out. The things you went through coupled with all the comments of similar situations is just heartbreaking. And unfortunately, I have been there too with a former relationship. We stand with you, Mallory. We have your back. I'm so excited to see you on KZbin again, and I'm looking forward to your future endeavors and channels. I hate that you've gone through this and that you're having to relive it over and over. But we are here for you if for nothing more than to offer encouragement. ❤

[@Kellyc888]

Mallory, I’ve watched you on and off since the beginning your channel, I just want to say that I have so so much respect you. I’m grateful that you chose to share the not so glamorous parts of your life with us as well. I’m a sending you lots of love, because you deserve the absolute best ❤

[@angel_existential]

Girl, I wasn't allowed to clean my garage. I was told, "That's a man's place," and I had no business other than laundry. The rules never made sense. It's all about control. Thank God you got out!

[@hey_imnicky]

I'm one of those viewers from before the Alaska days and seeing you so sad is just heartbreaking. Whatever content and journey you wish to take we will be here. You are not alone ❤️

[@eceerpek8149]

It has been 5 years for me Mallory, Watching this video made me realize we are all not that different Hugging you, holding you, watching you❤️❤️ You’ll be ok

[@tracibuckley9314]

You are not alone Mallory! As much as it may feel like you are at times, you are not! As a survivor, of DV, of sexual assault, and of alcohol and substance abuse, I write to you with 5.5 years of sobriety and recovery. Sometimes it is a struggle just to get out of bed in the mornings, but it’s still easier than life was in THOSE days! You’re brave, courageous, fierce, and beautiful inside and out. And even though you may not feel it right now, you are a warrior! You will help other women. You’re an inspiration! I already loved you, and now I just love you even more! Kindred spirits! ✌🏼❤️

[@melissaz6778]

I saw the bruise before you even started speaking. My heart broke 😢 I'm glad you got out, Mallory 💜

[@isabeldiaz9717]

Where is the bruise?

[@keelyprice5193]

Aaah Mallory, I’m crying along with you, I went from a very abusive marriage straight into another toxic relationship, I got out, I was lucky my Nan took me in, sending you so much love and strength, we will all be here supporting you every step of the way ♥️♥️♥️

[@juliekowski8094]

I guarantee you have already helped countless others and have no doubt you will triumph and kick ass in all that you do moving forward! You have been missed, so glad to see you back❤

[@jmbutler5]

there is not a man in the world worth going through the pain we go through when things go south/truth comes out. I spent my entire life thinking I needed a man in it, 5 husbands, 3 were absolutely dismal choices and now I’ve been single for 5 years, nothing, nada, none, and I’ve never been more at peace. I have always lost myself in relationships. The only men worth my time are my three sons, oh and my dog Charlie. My dad used to tell me “this too shall pass.” I’d glare at him and say ya right. But he was right. At some point you find your peace, your spot in this journey. Don’t be too hard on yourself. All the bad that happens, teaches us so many lessons!💖🥰

[@SpaCityGirl]

I hope your three son’s are kind and respect women. That’s what we need in this world, is for son’s to be raised to value women, respect them, and treat them as their equal. So many men think women are property, and they can treat them however they want. This comment thread is heartbreaking! The amount of women who have been in abusive relationships *JUST ON THIS SINGLE VIDEO* is insane! I just wish mom’s of son’s would do better.

[@emmajane7036]

I’ve been watching you since I was in high school and as a 27 year old woman who’s been through a toxic relationship, I am so proud of you and you are not alone. ❤

[@heathergustafson4237]

Mallory, you are helping women realize it’s wrong! Stand up for women’s rights!

[@leslie_rish]

I'm an abusive survivor as well and thankful to hear you got out! I went through a few abusive relationships in my teens and early 20s. The scariest one escalated days after I got out of the hospital after having surgery. It seems like this is something abusers do - something in your life is challenging, whether it's work, health or family, and instead of being supportive they get more selfish and ramp up the control and abuse. I got lucky and got out just in time with the help of the police. Hang in there, you got this! The healing process takes time. Surround yourself with a few trusted people and give yourself some grace. And for others watching and reading this and you're in the same situation, please reach out for help. I know it's embarrassing and scary but I promise your family and friends want you out of it and safe, that's all that matters.

[@michelledillman6381]

Sending you prayers and positive/healing thoughts ! I ‘ve missed your videos! Your health is more important than us ! You don’t have to explain !……. Thank you for all your inspiration! You are not alone ! Love you!

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

Love you! Definitely have to explain, because of what happened to me so I can save others from what I went through.

[@michelledillman6381]

@@ImMalloryBrookegot it ! Thanks for sharing !

[@dawnapril]

I'm sorry to hear all you've been through. I've had a "situation," and it takes a toll on your health for sure. If you're already dealing with a chronic health issue, it further impacts it. Been through it all myself. It's unnerving to feel "unsafe". Big hug 🫂 You will manage it all and be ok. That day will come. 💞

[@moriahogilvie6164]

Your story matters to many. You are not alone. I just found your channel and already admire your bravery

[@gfitfitnessstudio]

Oh, Mallory…Girl, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. So brave of you to share with us. PTSD is very real and my heart breaks for you. 💗💗

[@lindseyholemann]

When you say "getting in trouble" I know EXACTLY what you mean. My last relationship made me feel like a scared child. 💕 You will get through this 💕 I am sorry you had to experience an abusive relationship once again but you will persevere. Love you girl 🩷

[@oaklandnikki966]

Mallory, my heart is so heavy to hear that you have been through DA and are battling in court. I have watched your channel for years and truly love your content and all that you have shared from your heart over the years. Just reading through the comments here shows what an awesome community you have built. I am sending so much love your way. I hope you feel the solid ground beneath your feet. I hope you feel the warmth and love of this community surrounding you- like a huge protective shield. We stand with you. Always.❤

[@Lookatmedonnad]

thank you, i have abused 2 times in my life. YWCA abuse helped me in memphis. Later in another county I had no help. I pressed charges and had to go to court many times and write a victims impact statement. He had to serve 2 years. I am still scared. i am on hyper alert. to get a restraining order you have to face them once a year. and agrivate the monster. I am just trying to lay low.

[@fcanatto]

I know it is emotionally hard now, but I always choose to look at the bright side. I see a strong woman who could get rid of an abusive relationship. Darling, look at the mirror, and finally realise you're FREE now. The worst is gone! Now, the path is open for YOU to CHOOSE the way to go. YOU'RE FINALLY CHOOSING, not someone else. FEEL THE FREEDOM. ENJOY THE FREEDOM. Right now, you have the control again. You're not controlled anymore. You're a winner, a warrior, and I bet a lot of good stuff is on your way. I'm sending you prayer and lots of good vibes.

[@Angelcat710]

Hi mallory, im ur subscriber from hong kong, i’ve been watching ur videos for many years, love ur recommendations and all the beauty and hair tutorials. You are a very stylish influencer . Just want to say you are stronger than you think, we are here to support you, do not go back to the person who hurt you, be brave to say no

[@Heather_isms]

Mal, you matter. You're here now to use your voice for the ones that didn't, can't, or haven't. I hope you have someone who can be with you so that you're not alone. much love to you ❤❤❤

[@RlRdHd]

Having grown up in a household like that, all I can say even though I don't know you, I am so proud of you!!! You are in my prayers.

[@Robin32062]

You are not alone - your platform will help so many others. You are beautiful inside and out. Our faces are a canvas for makeup to make us ‘fancy’. Take care of yourself and let yourself heal.

[@JadedGen]

Don’t beat yourself up. I went from one to another, before I started to recognize what and why I was doing it. I grew up in domestic violence, so for me I was doing what felt normal. You will survive this. You will come out different, but you will come out of it. You are not alone.

[@tonyasullivan1164]

You r helping so many people, there's a lot of us living that way

[@LeahD123]

Thank you for sharing your story, Mallory. I imagine it’s uncomfortable to share the deepest parts of your trauma to the internet, but I believe your story is making an impact. You are resilient! Sending love your way ❤

[@dnd1007]

Mal, we love you. ♥ My sister is a DV survivor - last winter, I drove 10 hours to her home to get her out of her situation. It was hard in the beginning for her, but she is absolutely THRIVING now. And you will too. ❤ We're here for you, we're cheering for you, we love you. (And the makeup is 🔥🔥🔥!)

[@lisaspratt7861]

So good to see you back. My heart goes out to you for what you have been through and continue to go through. I pray for the best possible outcome for you! Sending lots of love your way!❤️

[@brandyoctober5923]

Thank god your sister has you. I would do the same for my sister. Bless you!

[@heartslove8449]

Mallory, I’m glad you are back. I’m not even half way through, but thank you so much for sharing such an important message with your followers. On another note, health issues are so scary too. 💕you were missed! Sending you love & light!

[@CathyLou17]

I’ve watched you for a few years now, I just want to say I think you’re incredibly strong and you will come through this even stronger.

[@Desirae383]

We love you, babe. We will hold space for you to discover yourself, heal and fly. 🫂

[@bjmehl2009]

I am so sorry you have gone through all this trauma. All i can say is I’m praying for you. God loves you, and He will never leave you.

[@Dells16]

Girl, I am so sorry 🖤 I am so grateful you came out alive. Please take time to grieve and allow yourself to process everything fully. I recently watched a video by disociadid explaining the 5 F's, and it helped me realize how long I have been living in 'Fawn mode'. Please give yourself grace 🖤

[@chellie7887]

Bless you ❤❤❤ I've been though similar abuse and sexual abuse, I never feel safe still. I'm on immune supressents too, it really affects you and your body, I feel for you! Love too you and doggies ❤❤❤❤❤

[@justmeiam4996]

Girl you don't own us anything!!Just take care of yourself,love yourself - we ♥️ and can wait,take your time!! You've got this!!! 🙏🏼 Luv you

[@katenickels617]

very good advice. glad you are safe. I moved across the country to get away from my abuser

[@kaylamiddlebrooks6412]

I was in a very abusive relationship for 5 years and then jumped right into another one. You’re NOT alone! I’ve taken the last few years to heal. Take your time, find your peace. ❤

[@Hillcountry_Catholic]

I used to work as a stylist and makeup artist. But I’ve been a SAHM for seven years. I still love beauty, and I’m always on a health and fitness journey. I look forward to your new content and I’m so excited for you to get back to creating more of what you want.

[@royerang]

You are not alone; hold your head up high. I, too, went through unspeakable things at someone else's hands. It changes you as a person, for the best and worst. I chose never to date again and live my best life, going further on my own terms. This pain will subside, but you'll carry memories. You get to decide if it eats you alive long-term or builds you stronger.

[@skylilly1]

Don’t ever let some Di** Hea* with a fake heart steal yours. Try to put a protective cover in your mind and true spirit of who YOU are. Sometimes it can happen 2 or 3 times in a row. It takes time with creeps in disguise to rear their ugly side. So sorry that happened to you! ❤️I have 3 older sisters and girlfriends whom I’ve seen some real bs. They had to go through. Stay tough. You are worth it!!

[@chriskibbey962]

I'm so proud of you for being strong enough to get out and even more proud of you for talking about it. Love you, keep up the fighting the good fight

[@alicialynnette9889]

I hope you become truly free from your situation. You deserve all the great things in the world. I can tell how scared you are. I hope you find that inner peace, healing and the allowance to live authenticly Mallory ❤

[@cmlake89]

When you said you can't watch the true crime stuff anymore, I knew the exact feeling down into my gut. Keep a network of people around to protect you. Change the phone number, change the address if possible. I know your fear and its been a long way but I know peace much more now. It gets better

[@idiBibi]

Lots of us understand this feeling. You will look back one day and realize everything is fine. Rise like the phoenix girl. 💘🥂

[@LauraVitt-h3h]

I pray you know how much you are loved by so many but most especially our Lord Jesus. He is right there with you no matter what, you are NEVER alone, reach out. Peace and Joy are yours, my prayers abound for you, Mallory. 🙏🏻♥️

[@jacinta4617]

This video is the first time I've been led to your channel. I'm so glad I did. I can feel the pain through the screen. I am so sorry you've been through all of this. This isn't the life you deserve. I hope it can help you find the life you actually deserve. So much love sent to you, and I will keep you in my heart.

[@breamg11]

I’ve been here since Alaska (even before?!) and I can say, at first I watched you for your TALENT(which is undeniable, hun, you are a beauty wizard..) but I have stayed because you are true to yourself. By sharing the LITERAL SHITSTORM life has handed to you, and seeing you battle and rise, battle and rise again…gives hope to us all in whatever minor or major situation we find ourselves in. You are the definition of perseverance. That’s why I watch. Always in your corner❤

[@kirsbeasley87]

You're so far from alone, you've got a whole world of women that understand without you ever having to say anything. And as a survivor, I know you're going to be okay with time. I'm glad to see you back on KZbin, even if we all cried during this video.

[@laurajohnson6011]

You will rise again, our Phoenix ❤❤❤❤❤.

[@stephaniexenia1352]

Its so scary how knowing whats bad for you is actually what feels most safe and familiar to your brain. And the sad thing is most women don’t notice at the beginning at all because of this very reason. You can date the same type/ abusive behavior over and over again but the relationship or person you’re dating can be so different in other ways that they just don’t notice the signs or patterns before its too late. It’s tragic and really difficult to break a cycle like that especially when trauma or habits are involved 😢 praying for you tonight my dear. You are so strong ♥️

[@ImMalloryBrooke]

You are spot on with this, and I feel like this is something that isn't talked about enough, and then the women get blamed for choosing the "wrong men"...well that is the cycle of abuse, and when you have no self esteem because of being abused...what is expected?!!! Anyone love you and thank you

[@meganryan9945]

Mallory I don’t even know what to say. So I’ll say I love you and I’m so sorry this happened to you. Truly, if I could be with you I would hug you and tell you how wonderful and beautiful you are. You deserve the sun and the moon, when you truly believe that, love that really is love will come to you❤️hang in there my gorgeous warrior. You’ve got this! You’re helping so many people!

[@kimfight9163]

Hi Mallory, I will not pretend to know how you are feeling, but I will say this, I will pray for you, and you speak about worth. You are very worthy of a life without fear and a life filled with joy on living the way you desire and deserve. Thank you for sharing and I'm so glad to see you back.on YT.!! I wish you the best in healing and moving forward, just always remember, you are never alone. ❤

[@thebackyardhorseenthusiast]

Mallory, as a certified Gestalt practitioner, I truly believe you would benefit from inner child healing work. I’m so sorry you have been through so much. Praying for you. 💕

[@sherrygovan6704]

Hey, so sad for you and the fact that your going through this horrible time in your life. Please know that you are a beautiful, caring , loving person and this was not your fault. You will get through this and it will get better. You will meet the man that you are meant to be with and who will love and cherish you. Better things are waiting for you, so please don't give up. Most of all Don't settle for anything less than what you want in life !!!!!! Continue to be the beautiful soul that you are❤❤❤❤

[@Eva-leeee]

I started watching you right before you left & automatically fell in love with your honesty & authenticity ❤ You’re awesome, beautiful & perfect; people who are compassionate & empathetic are easy prey for abusers. There is light ✨at the end of the tunnel, I promise! Focus on that. You are NOT alone ❤

[@blondebeauty995]

Praying for you Mallory. Hope you have a support system nearby to ease your fears and be there for you. Be safe😘

[@meepmoopmeep1]

I’m rooting for you girl! I have been watching you since the Alaska days. You are STRONG. You have been through so so much and survived, and you will continue to survive and you will thrive. You deserve peace and safety and love. Thank you so much for catching us up

[@sherrygilley3176]

Been there done that Mal 😢 I know exactly how you feel honey. I was lucky to have walked away with my life. And the shame I carried was enormous 😢 I am now living my best life single and free 😊 I will pray for you to make it through the upcoming days ahead. ❤

[@brunacirelli]

I’ve been there! Be strong, stand your ground, do everything you can to get out of this entirely, to protect yourself, and never look back! Time will pass, you will heal, things WILL GET BETTER. I had a son from that relationship, but I have been married for 15 years to the best man I have ever known, an amazing person, partner, he is a real father to that son I had from before, and we have another kid together as well. Never give up on yourself. Reach out. Ask for help. You’re worth it. ❤

[@jlkitz1775]

Peace, in mind, body & spirit to you Mallory ❤🙏🏾. Ladies: Trust your gut!!! You are not alone. You are not the only one. Don't let shame or embarrassment keep you from being safe & sound ❤️

[@kathraed]

Happy to see you again. I can see the stress on you. I went through 29 years of it. Nothing physical, but I do remember the fear of "getting in trouble". Lots of breaking furnature in front of me. Emotional/verbal abuse mostly. Stay strong and keep pepper spray and a strong flashlight by your bedside. My favorite videos of yours was between divorce and new guy. My best to you.

[@gilliandean-m6t]

Aww lovely, I'm so sorry for what you are going through, I suffered domestic abuse from the age of 17 until 35, three relationships one after the other, then I met my lovely husband, we started off as friends first and I really got to know him for about 7 months before we got together properly, he was a wonderful kind careing man and we had 20 wonderful years together until cancer took him from me, I feel quite lost and lonely now but I have my little dog and my two boys so I'm just taking things one day at a time, that's what you need to do, just take things one day at a time and focus on your wellbeing, things will get better, your a beautiful person inside and out and I love watching your videos ❤

[@mhanshaw165]

I sure have missed you Mallory! Praying for all you are going through. Praying for strength, peace and comfort.

[@HappinessSparkles]

I have been watching you from the start and always admire your strength through your illness and first breakup ,you are strong and will weather this difficult season of life and come out even stronger ❤

[@pamelapace1948]

I have dealt with autoimmune diseases being on chemo how sick it makes you. But when you walk through that time and you can come through the other side it really is a miracle and I pray you get through this time and get to the other side

[@madametamtam]

Thank you for opening up, Mallory! You can be so proud of yourself. Thank you for creating beautiful content. We are here for you and we appreciate you 🫶