March Bullet Jornal, Plan With Me

[@ellennesbit6789]

I am glad you posted the vent/rant voice over, it shows that you are real. I hope it passes quickly. Wishing the best of luck

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you Ellen 💕

[@teddybeeandme]

Firstly, your March spread is lovely. Having a condition that causes pain is exhausting, having kids is exhausting, and you have both. On top of that, from what I've seen online, the British weather has been rotten for the past few weeks. So don't be too hard on yourself. The good Mums are the ones who worry about letting down their kids... You are not letting them down. Kids will be kids and part of that is driving us crazy from time to time. Look after yourself and vent when you need to. Spring is on the way, so brighter days are ahead. Stay strong, wishing you happiness. 💞.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you so much for your lovely supportive comment 💕 the weather has been a bit rough actually, and it's been half term, so the kids have been off school for the week, it's been difficult to find ways to keep them entertained indoors. I didn't even think about that actually, I think things will get less stressful again now that they're back at school ☺️

[@evelynpeavy]

Your March spread is lovely. But the most enjoyable part of this video is you. It’s perfectly normal to feel overwhelmed by life, I stay in the overwhelm most of the time. But your sweet voice and your bubbly personality and your charming giggle, are all just adorable. I’m sending you a virtual hug, everything is gonna be alright, you’ll figure it out. Thanks for venting, it makes me feel I’m not alone.💕

[@AspienPadda]

I'm so proud of you for still uploading with all this.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you 💕 After planning and filming and editing, I was absolutely determined to finish this video and get it uploaded 😂 even if it is only a couple of days before march 😁

[@eitheronewilldo]

Firstly, I love your March set up 😍 We all have days, weeks and months like that. I think you’re amazing - a chronic illness, three young boys that rely on you (and Lee) for absolutely everything - life is tough and even more so on no sleep! You’re allowed to be overwhelmed or to feel however you feel. As mums, we go through all sorts of emotions all the time. None of them are wrong, we’re allowed to have feelings! My girls are both in their 20s now and I’ve brought them up on my own since they were 2&5 when their dad died. It’s been tough, but we get through. You’re an amazingly strong woman, even if you don’t feel it. Some days, if all you’ve achieved is survive, that’s an achievement. Who cares if the kids have had tinned spaghetti for dinner - they’re not hungry! Believe in yourself, I believe in you sweetheart ❤️ if you need someone to rant to or to chat to that’s outside of the situation, drop me a message Chin up 😘😘 Carol, Cambridgeshire

[@tamarahkerr2631]

I saw this pop up a little while ago and I have watched all your other spreads. I have recently fallen off my journalling as life has seemed to be just 'too much' that is why I haven't watched it sooner... I am so glad that I have watched this.... So I wanted to say watching this and listening to you express the way you are feeling and being so open and honest is wonderful to see. You are truly an amazing person. I have so much respect for the energy you have put into this and being who you are. I have loved all your spreads, this one included.

[@sallieishere1409]

Thanks for giving us your time. We're all in your corner Elise, cheering you on.

[@maramartian]

I miss your videos! I hope all is well with you and we see you again

[@latoyathomas693]

It's perfectly normal to feel that way. I am a single mother of 1 and their are times when I am so overwhelmed I cry. I would shed those tears get it all out and then go again. Sometimes you need a day away for yourself...my sisters would take my daughter and I would spent a few hours alone. That time is precious

[@dbklyn97]

I always love your honesty! I remember how little ones and lack of sleep just wrecked me for a while and I also have a chronic illness. The best thing is to be aware of what your feeling and self care. Soon you will be at a different stage of parenting with those challenges.

[@amyj-t8766]

You're definitely not the only one Lovely. I've absolutely been where you are now. We all just need a break sometimes. It's so hard to pull yourself out of it and you can't without the time and space to focus on yourself. Your bullet journal looks really beautiful and I hope things feel better for you soon. Sending big hugs x

[@kayashereenpalmer]

Just wanna give you a hug!!!!! Love your spreads and LOVE YOUR REALNESS! From one momma to another… you got this!!!

[@goddess_eve21]

Your March spread is beautiful! I really enjoyed watching this spread come together. I appreciate you sharing your creativity considering we all have a life. From a momma who understands, I send virtual hugs. ✨️🖤

[@chantelwilliams6985]

Trust me love, it’s completely normal. I get overwhelmed with just one child so I can only imagine with 3. All we can do in life is try our best and from what you share, you’re doing just that. Try Tylenol at bedtime to help the baby sleep. It helped my son not be in pain overnight. Good luck with everything love 💗💗

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you 💕 I usually give him medicine at night if he seems really irritable or unwell but I might try him with it a few nights, even if he seems okay before bed, maybe he's waking a lot because his teeth are randomly hurting him in the night. I've not thought about it being that 🤔

[@chantelwilliams6985]

@@missmckennaslifeleverage6028 let me know if it works. Teething is a pain in the butt, especially when they get their molars in.

[@myselfcarebujo]

Thank you so much for uploading this and being vulnerable. Sending you big hugs, because it sounds like that’s needed! I do hope you can find time to just breathe and practice some self-care, even if it’s just 5 minutes. Things will get easier! 💕

[@paperzing5533]

You are not alone! I hope this session was therapeutic for you because it was for me...just hearing that you feel so much of what I feel. And my kids are grown!! 😅 Your spread is lovely and your honesty is welcomed. Mother's often have no outlet for relief because there's always that looming responsibility. Hang in there, I think you'll be fine. I can assure you, loads of moms can relate. Loads of hugs!!! ❤🎈

[@ramildavain]

Same girl! Sometimes it’s so hard! You’re definitely not alone!

[@Believeinyourdreams03]

March spread is lovely! A lot of people feel the same way like you Sometimes. It's normal that some days not going like we want to. I'm proud of you, because you managed so many things. When you're a woman you need to managed so many things, work, house cleaning and if you have children then you need to take care of them. We have friends and family en when you have a husband or wife every thing takes time. Sometimes it's look like we haven't got the time to managed everything. So i really like to watch you're videos because you speak from your heart. Thank you, greetings from the Netherlands 🤗

[@lynsamfortas]

Hello! I hope you're doing alright, I missed you 💕💕 looking forward to watching your next video. Tell the kiddies hi!! 💕 💕

[@xnuttyhheadx]

I've been feeling overwhelmed recently as well, not in terms of parenting (I'm not a mum), but in terms of trying to achieve things. The pandemic has got in the way of a lot of things I've been trying to achieve so I resonate with that rage you've been feeling. I know you have your bullet journalling, I mean obviously cause I'm on the video for it lol, but I recently found these notebooks by Insight Editions. They're prompted notebooks and they have all different ones. I have six and one of them focuses on recharging energy, one of them focuses on connecting with others, one of them focuses on gratitude, one of them focuses on mindfulness, one of them focuses on self care and the other focuses on unplugging from social media. I've been using them for a week every single day and they've been immensely helpful, like I've honestly gone from feeling overwhelmed and depressed to feeling calmer and more in control of my life... In a week. I'd highly recommend them. Let me know if you're interested and I'll send the link across to you, and remember that you're not alone

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

These sound really interesting, I particularly like the sound of the recharging one and the unplugging from social media (I spend way too much time trying to escape online 🤦🏼‍♀️) I'd love the links of you have time. Thank you for your lovely supportive comment 💕

[@lupe1808]

Thank you for sharing your feelings. Everything you are feeling is normal. People on social media usually only show the good bit s of life. Please know that its ok to ask for help when you’re overwhelmed. Your lack of sleep is probably making everything seem worse . Sending you strength and hoping you find a way to get more rest and things get better soon

[@Rootz2fya]

I truly appreciate your honesty!! I have 2 older kids and 2 younger kids and I understand what it’s like when you have a rough a couple of years. I understand feeling overwhelmed and I totally get where you are coming from with the sensory overwhelm. I also have an autoimmune disease and yes sleep deprivation definitely causes a flare up. I understand the food situation and those parents with their organic lettuce leaves and I say WHATEVER. They are not starving and the doctor say they are doing fine. McKenna be easy on you. You deserve it.

[@RosalindPeters]

I think your spreads are always beautiful, and this one is no exception. Just don’t let it get to the point where it feels like your journal is judging you… when I’m struggling, I get like that, and sometimes have to take full breaks from everything but essential task lists, no tracking, nothing that’s going to feel like it’s adding to my sense of failure. Just know that you do not need our permission to take a break, and we will just be glad to see you when you can. Stay kind to yourself, lovely xx

[@KocholateKoutureCo]

Your set up is lovely. I totally understand being overwhelmed, remember that you are doing a fantastic job!!

[@hippodinoreserve6090]

This reminds me of a film I saw recently, The Lost Daughter with Olivia Colman. Her character Leda says, “Children can be a crushing responsibility.” Everything about the film is spot on.

[@sarahmccarty7112]

Momming isn’t easy. It’s okay to be overwhelmed. Pray you get some rest soon to ease some of the overwhelm. 💚 you’ve got this! It will pass. I’ve been there so many times.

[@MsEmily-wp1in]

I know I'm late on watching this video but you created a beautiful setup. I do not have kids, I'm not going to say I understand being a mom and the stress with that but I do understand about being down, stressed and dealing with those feelings that can come with it. From the videos that I have watched you are a wonderful mom and I can see you love your children soo much. You have to be your biggest cheerleader for yourself, especially when you feel overwhelmed, stressed and down. That can be hard I know, but when you are your biggest critic that can be soo much worse. I hope everything gets a lot better for you and you feel a lot better. Im sending lots of love and positive vibes your way.

[@monicaj2677]

First of all - don’t be too hard on yourself. You are doing a great job. Being a mum to three kids is hard work. When they are little they depend you us, their mums, for so much including bum wiping! We all have days like the one you describe. I have 3 children who are now teenagers and much of what you described resonated with me. Being at home full time is really hard work and can be isolating - at least if you work outside the home you get a break from your family. Don’t look at social media when you feel overwhelmed. Nobody posts about the really crap things in their life - they show the 2 seconds in their day when things were going well. I love watching Diane in Denmark on You tube. She talks about the Flylady system and how to get organised in your home. I only wish that I had discovered her when my children were younger. Big virtual hugs from Ireland. 💚

[@LeezaJNZ]

Hi Sweetie, I hope this week is looking much brighter for you and you are feeling more yourself! Something that popped into my head while I was listening was that maybe you could arrange to do your grocery shop with a friend. Then you are accountable to go do it, you have time with a friend and it makes the chore a bit more fun! And maybe Lee can be your Auntie reminder and just plan to give her a ring at a certain time while he entertains the kids! :) It takes a village! xxoo

[@KirstenTebbens]

Sweetheart. 1. It is perfectly normal to feel overwhelmed, you honestly sound like I did a few months ago: burned-out. 2. Instagram and such paint a pretty picture but it's not real. 3. You obviously needed to vent and that's perfectly okay. Life can be very challenging at times but you were given this one because you're strong enough to handle it. I know sometimes we don't want to be strong and just have it easy breezy. I encourage you to do try and take a break, take some time for yourself. The laundry will be there tomorrow, the chores will be there tomorrow but you need to take care of yourself first and foremost if you want to take care of others. And please don't doubt yourself as a mom, you are doing your absolute best and your kids know that too! And the spread is absolutely stunning! Take care of yourself, we are here for you whenever you need it. ❤

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you for putting the time into commenting Kirsten, I really appreciate your support. I've taken a screenshot so I can re-read it whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed 💕💕

[@KirstenTebbens]

@@missmckennaslifeleverage6028 you're welcome. I know it's silly but it hurts my heart to hear you being so down and hard on yourself. You're so lovely and all you can do is your best and that's enough. Really it is. And as you said it yourself, this too shall pass but it's still okay to take a break, take a breather. You're doing enough.

[@bennetht]

I hope that you're stikl readying comments on this video. I've just found your channel and I love the honesty. I feel like this looking after 2 elderly parents. The feeling of being overwhelmed is so intense. I wanted to reach out and hug you watch this. Thank you for sharing - off load more, it's needed and it good for you!

[@Anigmandra]

I love your march Setup! And you are not alone. There are a lot of moms who had the same thoughts and the same problems! I Think it was verry hard to uplaod all these thoughts, but I like it! And I am sure there will be time when it will be better!

[@staceysmith1658]

While I'm not glad that you are feeling this way, I am so glad you shared it. I feel very similar a lot of the time, and then the guilt for feeling so shitty kicks in an ugh....it's just a never-ending cycle of shit. You aren't alone. Every mama ever, has felt this way at points in their parenting journey. Every human being living through this pandemic has had moments of feeling overwhelmed and.....just....done. We are all here to listen and lift you up!

[@tristins9644]

Please know that you are a good mom! Be gentle with yourself. I can relate so so much to everything you are going through right now. It sounds like something I'm learning about with myself and my ADHD overwhelm

[@tristins9644]

Also, this spread is really pretty!! I'm also glad you are able to let it out.

[@JessPlansAndCrafts]

Sensory overload is so hard to overcome when you can't get away from the things that are overwhelming you! I have ADHD (and several other comorbid conditions, lol) and can relate to much of what you said, like the feeling of certain clothing irritating you and especially sounds! Maybe Lee can take the boys out for a bit or keep them home while you go out so you can have some alone time! You have to recharge your batteries, momma! Sending hugs your way 💕

[@rafaelbarreto2658]

It’s so refreshing someone actually saying parenthood is hard! Keep it real! Lock yourself inside your car and scream like you mean it! Cry if you feel like take a deep breath and go on! Don’t hold everything inside you, go scream inside your car it really helps

[@ahouston1989]

Oh man I feel you with being overwhelmed its so hard to be a mom especially this day in age, so much is expected of us. I have to hide in the shower to get a few minutes to myself. Try not to feel guilty about needing time for you. You can't fill a cup with an empty cup my friend. I have days/weeks when my kids eat trash for dinner, just remember your kids aren't going to be malnourished by a few meals. Burn outs are hard for everyone you are not alone. Message me on Facebook anytime we can go through it together. You are an amazing mama don't forget that.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you Amber 🥰 you're a superhero, I don't know how you manage with all your little ones! Sending you lots of love and wishing you progress with your skates!! 💕💕

[@ahouston1989]

@@missmckennaslifeleverage6028 thank you so much! They are so much fun. I put my littlest litlles in the stroller and away we go!

[@dianabatori2645]

Thank you for being real!

[@sandyntony]

Stumbled across your channel. I literally never comment, but this really hit home for me too. Someone who isn’t going through doesn’t understand. But someone once told me if ur worried about being a good mom that means ur one. We r not perfect bu any means just doing our best. Find time to get away alone at least for a couple of hours it helps.

[@andreaobeshaw6727]

I've never connected on a video so hard. I'm at my wits end and constantly on edge and snappy. My baby is so clingy I can't do anything without carrying him around everywhere. I can't even use the restroom. And my toddler is so fussy and still wants to go outside. I feel this video especially right now. Like I have been feeling so crappy this morning, so this video made me feel less lonely. Thank you for that. I know this will pass, but I am just going to feel my feelings because bottling it up is so much worse. We got this ❤️

[@breannenance3776]

You're doing great mama ❤️

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you Breanne 💕 also, your name is beautiful! 😍

[@FrootbatBat]

Parenthood is tough. As an older mom, I'd like to share some tips. Bored kids cause more trouble so have them do activities. They can help with chores, even make it a game. I had my son when he was 2 fold washcloths or 'help' with dishes (he'd play with the bubbles). Also have bedtime a routine. A nice warm bath, storytime, tucking in bed. Do this the same time every night. And self care if you can. Get a babysitter even if you're home to help you out, or just ask for help from friends/family to get some time for yourself- especially if you need a nap. I hope things get better for her. Lovely spread. I wish I could draw like you can.

[@stupiid13]

I don’t know if anyone needs this but sometimes when I’m stuck on something or unhappy with it I take a picture of it with my phone. And seeing a picture of it for some reason makes me appreciate it more or get a better perspective. It makes no sense to me but it works for my weird brain.

[@rosalinmistry6214]

It is SO refreshing to hear someone else describe exactly how I feel all the time. I've felt this way since my 2nd was born and you just feel like such an awful person. I'm really sorry you feel this way too but I'm also glad I'm not the only one

[@Zahrah.M]

First, I don’t have fibromyalgia but I tried a new migraine medication last year and the toll it took on my energy and mood was sooo bad, I was soo exhausted all the time, so I really feel for you & what you’re going through. The constant feeling of lack of sleep caused everything to annoy me and a grey cloud over my head for the rest of the year. I still get overwhelmed and I don’t even have kids, and I struggle with reaching outto close friends and family even though I KNOW it would be good for me. All this to say you’re not alone and I’m hoping things get better for you soon 🌸🌸 Second, I am trying out a greyscale floral theme for March for the first time ever so even if you’re not 100% happy, I hope you know this helps me a ton!

[@debhanorwright6212]

Oh I'm so excited to see your video every time.

[@debhanorwright6212]

I feel pent up rate sometimes and it is then I have to step out for a few hours.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Yes, I think I need to take a moment for myself when i feel like this, bit of fresh air and alone time is always good for the soul ☺️ thank you for you comment 💕

[@Tonsi89]

Hello Lovely 😊 I really feel you with that constant rage and all the noise. Even if I'm not a mom myself, we all have that feeling sometime. The best thing you can do is really talk about. It's a good sign you're aware of it so you can manage. I actually think you're a great mom because you think of your kids and you don't want them to feel bad and don't want to snap at them. I wish you a reeeeeally good sleep and all the best 😊

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you 💕 I do feel better for having spoken about it and getting some support and reassurance has really helped. I'm so lucky to have people like you on my channel 🥰

[@susanoker4780]

I've been where you are. My kids are now teenagers which of course has its own challenges lol. My three munchkins did the same to me with bed time and sleep. My husband and I decided to change the routine up. I would do the toothbrushing and jammies change. We would then cuddle up on the couch and I'd read a story or two and then kisses and hugs. My hubby would then put them to bed. I never went into the room with them or they would fight us both. If the baby woke at night he would go get him. It was hard for about a week. But once the kids realized only dad was coming, they stopped waking up. It was the craziest thing. I felt guilty at first, but then realized it was best for all of us. My hubby got to feel needed by the kids and be a part of things. I got better rest once I forgave myself for not being perfect. And the kids learned to self regulate more. Which is a valuable skill they need. You are not alone!! I hope some of us have ideas that can help. The number one thing to remember, honestly, is that this phase will not last forever. Hugs momma.

[@AspienPadda]

Please remember all these years ago, it was your space theme I think, you felt similarly shit and we encouraged you, we're here for you. Us, the large faceless blob called your fans

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Aww, the large faceless blob ☺️ I kinda like it, it has a ring to it 😂 thank you 💕💕

[@catberlinmusic2204]

Such a beautiful spread!!!!

[@MaybeLily1234]

Also I love the spreads actually you make drawing those doodles look so easy

[@RosalindPeters]

Sweet one, NO ONE can juggle all this. It does not make you a failure. Sounds like you need to cut yourself a break. Instagram motherhood is just like all other images of motherhood (and just in general) - no one is like it all the time. It’s the highlights reel. And if it makes you feel any better, I have fibro and general chronic pain and I can’t even take care of myself, so you sound like an absolute CHAMPION to me xx

[@dylng1]

I'm a strong believer in being under no obligation to be or feel what others expect or want you to be or feel. It's okay to not be okay, and that's okay.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

I love that, "it's okay to not be okay, and that's okay" that's going to be my new mantra 😁 thank you 💕

[@crystalshelton8870]

I really like your spread. It turned out beautiful. I have 2 boys and there a year apart so I understand completely where your coming from. I feel like all moms get this way. Well the ones that care anyway. You sound like a good momma. Like you said this will pass and you will feel better. I get in those moods. Honestly I’m kinda like that right now because I’ve been moving and my boys are constantly fighting so I haven’t even bothered to do my march spread. Yours looked beautiful tho.

[@raer7907]

I totally understand as a newer mom. This is one of the hardest things I’ve done!! It’s soooo lonely at times. And sometimes I just want to rage!!! The weight of motherhood is sooo heavy, and men don’t understand and I feel alone in that. I feel like I’m never good enough for my littley. I get so overwhelmed that I sometimes can do nothing. I’m 16 months postpartum and I still have depressive episodes and extreme anxiety. Sometimes I just cry in my car. On my way home. I go to work early sometimes to sit in my car in silence sometimes 45-85 min before I’m due to clock in. I took a pto day tomorrow and I’m taking my littley to daycare so I can have sometime to gather myself.

[@shanyavirasinghe8591]

Sending you a big hug to let you know I feel you. Parenting is hard. Adulting is hard. No one gets it right all the time. You’re not a failure, in fact you are amazing for managing without sleep. Give yourself a break -you are only human ❤️ Those Instagram Mums are perpetuating a myth. It’s just NOT POSSIBLE to be that bloody perfect all the time! OR even some of the time.

[@mystry192]

I felt the same way...I dont know if it will help but I actually started implementing the Clean Mama routine and that has helped me be able to focus on other things. Like it took one thing off my list to worry about and well I just know how you feel. Just know that this will pass and once you get a type of routine going, you wont even remember your pain now.

[@cillamoorat3828]

Beautiful Setup 💗

[@siwa.2128]

Not being perfect is perfectly enough :) Sometimes life just gives us to many things at the same time. It's been this hard for me for about a year and a half and I still can't find my way out of it. And I don't have kids, just my furr kids. Can't even imagine having kids. I'm watching this because I hope next month I can get on top of this, just for a bit. :)

[@brittanymiller3396]

I love the spread!!!!

[@cammiesuzuki7749]

Hang in there! This doesn't last. Not one of my four kids slept through the night. I was always up with them! I tried the crying out with my oldest for two weeks and it never worked. It killed me and I swore I'd never try that again!!! My kids slept with us because MOM NEEDED TO SLEEP!!! Breakfast for dinner is always available. I have three boys and a girl, she's the baby. My second son broke his hand hitting his older brother in the head. We had many accidents. You are NOT the only mom to go through this. It is overwhelming. My husband didn't help at all. My kids are all grown up now and it's all a distant memory. Create an evening routine with the kids if possible. Do what you can do....and don't be afraid to ask for help!!!!! Oh.....and as far as instagram is concerned.....remember it probably took those moms 50 pictures before they got the one!!!! DO NOT COMPARE YOURSELF to something that's not real!! Don't compare yourself at all!!!!

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

I wish I could heart this comment 100 times! Thank you so much 💕

[@felicityhannsz5188]

You’re a wonderful mother I’m sure. I’m not a mother to actual humans yet but from what I understand, this is normal for mothers to feel every now and then. You’re getting burnt out love. For me, burnout manifests as a vicious cycle of depression and anxiety that eventually manifest in rage. You’re never alone love! Our entire community is here for you! You’re not disappointing anyone or letting anyone down! You’re beautiful and you’re so strong and we all love you so much! We don’t ever mind you pouring your heart out to us because we’re all like friends for you. Never feel guilty for letting it all out and feeling like a human being. You can’t be perfect and happy and energetic all the time love. Don’t bottle it up!

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you so much Felicity, comments like yours remind me that I'm not alone. Thank you for your kind words, I really really appreciate it 💕

[@felicityhannsz5188]

@@missmckennaslifeleverage6028 I may not know you personally but you feel like an old friend! And I never let my friends feel like they’re going through anything alone ❤️

[@rachellefondaw257]

Your March theme is unique and lovely and your self-reflection is so relatable! I just subscribed. :)

[@xwallyallyx]

Great video! Hope you can get some rest. Sending good vibes your way.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you Ally ☺️

[@charlottelee8864]

...And now I have finished it :D ... Great spreads and art as always! Always soo cohesive and aesthetically please to watch ^_^ And a MASSIVE thing I want to shout at you (or maybe around you is more polite) ((hehehe)) about is the way you do your videos. After watching other videos of all the 'perfect' 'pre recorded' voice overs ect, I was soo happy to find your page as suffering with chemo brain -or brain fog - and chronic fatigue my words slip up and away aalll the time and it was soo refreshing to see that 'normal' part of life in a video

[@sherylw4599]

Thinking of you and hoping you are well

[@Minnie11chula]

It is really nice!

[@dawnburr1779]

Aww hun u r doing amazing. 💓 xx

[@jerronjimerson7967]

Love this spread. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Sounds like you might need a vacation.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

😂 I think you're right! I don't know why this comment made me laugh so much, but I appreciate the giggle 😁 thank you 💕

[@abigailmarie51790]

I am so sorry you’re overwhelmed! You have so much on your plate… being a mom is HARD. Comparison is the thief of joy! You have to do what works for you and YOUR kids ❤️ They won’t look back on their childhood and think “man why didn’t mom make me the best food?” They’re gonna look back and remember how loving you were. As someone with depression, it is so overwhelming. The irritability, the lack of motivation, the feeling of drowning, the overstimulation… it’s awful. It makes you feel so alone and so bad about snapping at people you love… when you’re aware of the patterns of behavior, it’s awful to KNOW logically what you should be doing, but your brain and body have other plans! Can’t imagine dealing with all that and having Fibromyalgia. You are incredible, you are doing your best. Talk with your kids, T seems to be picking up on it, have the conversation about hard feelings…could be a great example for them too!!! The spread looks pretty, we all have those spreads we don’t like lol it happens!!! The fact that you filmed, recorded, edited, and uploaded anyways is HUGE! I hope you find a way to give yourself some grace and to be gentle with yourself… I only have one 11 month old and that’s PLENTY 😂 Just take it one day at a time! I love your transparency with your feelings and it’s so important that creators like you exist, cause like you said, it’s not all perfect all the time. Sorry that was super long but I’m hoping that came across the right way lol Sending the biggest virtual hug and all the good vibes your way!!!!! ❤️

[@lisahoskins503]

You are doing a great job ok don't put yourself down. Maybe talk to a close friend if it helps. I don't fell that good about me sometimes irher . I don't have many friends and it gets me down its silly I know be it does. Sending big hugs, you are doing a great job. Tale care xxx

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

I swear, it's so hard to maintain friendships as an adult isn't it! I hope you have people to support you too. Sending big hugs to you too 💕

[@xwallyallyx]

Hope you’re doing well! Would be nice to have a new video from you. Sending good vibes your way.

[@robertapappagallo4267]

Hi , I really like your art especially the alphabet, could you tell me which one is it please?

[@michellefay7016]

Big hugs I think all mums have these days, all the Instagram stuff is fake their is no such thing as perfect, all we can do is our best

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

💕💕 thank you Michelle

[@amydrinkwater2377]

Hang in there! You will weather this as you have weathered everything: with grace, dignity and elegance. When all else fails, just sitting in your car with the music blasting (headbanging acid rock is my preferred) and just screaming is a good valve release...just sayin :P

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

You know what, I used to do this quite a lot and it always helped, but for some reason i stopped, I can't even remember why! Thank you for reminding me... Think I'll go for a drive tomorrow 😂

[@beckyfarion6193]

Your spread is lovely!! Did you train yourself to write your script that way? It’s stunning. Mom of 4 here…let him cry it out. It’s harder on you than on him. Two or three nights and it will be over. Put all three to bed at the same time each evening. Scheduling them is HUGE. Bathe before bed, read a book and put them all down early. Give yourself time to take care of yourself. Let your husband do the laundry. I know I sound harsh but it works. My children and I adore each other. We have the greatest respect and love for each other. Most importantly, be kind to yourself. You’re doing great!!!

[@susanoker4780]

Truly hope you are doing well. Miss your videos. Hoping you'll be back soon. Stay well.

[@charlottelee8864]

Not finished the video yet but had to say (before I forgot) this is the part of parent hood that TERRIFIES me! I don't have kids myself (my crazy list of health conditions make me question it all the time) but was very close to my friend when she had post baby depression after her 2nd and I felt "omg I could have this on top of chemo brain / brain fog and bad M.E. days" .... it's sooo draining when i'm like that and there's just me to think about; my husband can see to the doggo's but the guilt is horrible ... but having real human babies ... can't begin to imagine the stress and mammy guilt / doubt! :'( You're a great mam ... you care about you kids and worry if you're doing the right thing - i'm pretty sure that's normal :) Also normal to run away and hide behind doors for a break too :) And I'm sure you having a bit of a rant here will be helping other mams feel more 'normal' and reassured that what what they're doing is totally fine and reach out!

[@cballard540]

I gotta know the name of that washi that looks like a gold zipper. I absolutely gotta have it

[@goghfurther]

Maybe you can incorporate Trysten in meals to get ideas. Maybe he’ll find something he wants to try and cook and that can maybe help!

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

This is a great idea! I think he'd really enjoy that. Quality time together, learning a new skill, encouraging independence and lightening the load for me every now and again. Genius idea, thank you 💕

[@x.soph.x]

Don't feel guilty, it's normal, they are fed and loved that's all that matters. The washing can wait, the cleaning can wait. And i get you with the inner rage at nothing kind of thing, I'm like that at the mo, but I know it's only temporary it will pass. You are allowed to be overwhelmed, its just a human reaction. Always here if you need to chat, you are not on your own in your feelings. Xxxx

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Thank you Sophie, it's so reassuring to know that other people feel like it too sometimes 💕

[@kapulanir.5]

Wow!!! I wish I could go there & just grab your kids so you could sleep…I don’t know if you work or are a stay at home mom but my secret is to sleep when the baby sleeps & let dad take care of the other kids…the other thing is to let yourself be okay with what you achieve for the day…believe me sometimes making dinner is THE best achievement of the day…let dad help you…it has nothing to do with roles…it has to do with partnership…it took me 20 years to figure that out…love yourself & take care of you cuz without you there’s nothing else…feel better soon ❤️

[@puppetmasterr666]

i love this spread, i love you. from my heart, please go to a doctor and maybe talk to them about post partem depression. (excuse my spelling) it can happen months after delivery, especially if you aren’t getting any sleep. please talk to someone or reach out to me i can talk it out with you too

[@puddytatpurr]

Oh lovey, I've been there, done that! It is exhausting, but it doesn't go on forever. Absolutely, nowt wrong with stuff on toast - my littlun loves it! So do I, for that matter. Sounds like you're having a fibro flare, I know it's easy to say - but don't stress about the house, it's not worth it. One thing at a time! We all go through this, especially with multiple children. Remember, you're their safe place which is why you get ALL the behaviour. Your true friends will understand that everything is a bit overwhelming. Stop beating yourself up. Screw those insta mums with the perfect kids and perfect house - that's NOT REAL!! I stripped my bed and washed the bed linen for the first time in AGES today - it was SO hard and I'm exhausted too. My son is ALWAYS there! He loves to sleep in my bed, I can't remember the last time he slept in his own bed and he's bloody 7!! And people wonder why I stay up late!! I put him to bed then use that time to have ME time! Your children won't feel let down, they understand that this is how mummy is - they don't know any different. You're a GOOD mum, your life and thoughts revolve around your children. If you were a bad mum; you wouldn't be worried about them so much!

[@50sRockChick]

Sadly parenting doesn’t come with a manual, you are definitely not alone in feeling like this. I actually hate meal times as my girls are so fussy. This time of year is crap, it’s dark, cold, miserable and we’ve had such bad weather recently too. But lack sleep is the worst. Is there anyone who could maybe have Felix for a while, while your older two are at school, so you could have a sleep for couple of hours? How old is your oldest? He sounds like a lovely little lad. My 9 yo helps with a few chores. Nothing massive (empty the dishwasher sometimes or sorts dry laundry). Maybe he could help with a few small chores? And finally, don’t be so negative about your spreads, they look great. That cover page is gorgeous.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Ridley is a fussy eater too (he's really funny about flavours and especially textures... Unfortunately I think he gets that from me 🤦🏼‍♀️) so I completely understand your hatred of meal times! I feel like parents of fussy eaters have an extra understanding of the struggles. I'm definitely going to ask for a bit more help, my family are great with the kids so I know they'd be willing. My mother in law is going to have Felix for a bit tomorrow morning and I've decided the only thing I'm going to do is sleep while she has him, the house can wait ☺️ thank you for your comment and I hope you have a run of easy meal times 💕

[@KM-nq7hz]

Read fair play by Eve Rodsky. I feel it would be helpful.

[@innyminny91]

Hi McKenna, I have been watching you for a while. You hooked me with your most adorable intro of Felix in one of your bujo videos. Can I just say the rage was how my post natal depression presented. It took me 3 years to get through without proper professional help. Please seek help. It is totally normal to feel how you do but please reach out xo

[@melizzavelez6823]

I went through this with my kids but sometimes you can’t always hold all that frustration in. I remember losing my mind and going in the backyard and screaming my head off. I was so angry at everyone. I was supposed to be the levelheaded “mom” who understands… who understands us??? I advise a mommy group. And it’s NOT all YOUR responsibility. Did you make them on your own? Was he involved? Well he needs to get MORE involved. IT WILL BE OKAY 👍🏼. I survived and my kids are college age. All that pintrest stuff is BULLSHIT. Maybe 1 out of ever 10000 moms do that shit. The rest PAY others to do those things for their kids. Just think - you make not be perfect but you ARE present for them at these important times!

[@michellefay7016]

ACH where have you Gona I love your videos

[@carolinaazevedo2088]

Sometimes we need time to ourselves and we ALWAYS need to rest. No one can keep up with everything society wants women to do. Don't Stress over being perfect. If the Kids are healthy and developing you have done enough.

[@janaklein97]

I promise you this is the lack of sleep talking. Can Lee do the wake up for just 1 night? You will literally feel a hundred times better. Or maybe someone can take felix for a few hours in the day so you can have a nice long nap? You just need sleep right now.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

I'm super lucky to have family that can take Felix for a couple of hours sometimes, but I always end up trying to catch up with other things or get distracted by something and then he's home and I don't know where the time has gone 🤦🏼‍♀️. I definitely need to prioritise sleep, the house will just have to wait. Comments like yours remind me that it's okay to take time for myself and go take a nap when I need one. I don't think Felix would settle in the night for Lee and I'd just be stressed listening to him cry, but I think I'll ask him to take over during the day sometimes so that I can get some time alone a bit more often. He's been great recently so I don't really like to ask for more help, but I think that's more of a me problem. I'm sure if I actually asked him, he'd be willing, I need to remember that it's okay to ask for help when I need it. Thank you for reminding me 💕

[@AspienPadda]

Hello my lovely

[@ruthrice1152]

Just breathe. Life is bound to have curve balls throughout. Just take it one step at a time. There’s no such thing as perfect. We’re all only human and have hiccups

[@AspienPadda]

Serdep or Sertraline or Zoloft (all the same med) for the rage helped me. See a psychiatrist, that's step one.

[@missmckennaslifeleverage6028]

Yes, I used to be on a low dose of antidepressants but one day I just kind of forgot to take them and it was like they just fell out of existence. A month later I was just like.... Why did I stop taking my medication? I've been pretty good for a while so I didn't really think about taking them again, but you've reminded me that I could go back on them if I need to. I might give my GP a call. Thank you 💕

[@MissAnimegrl]

Everyone goes through burnout. We all have moments. You're human, and this life is hard, and made harder by societal expectations. We don't judge you. We're your fans, and we understand- and we all know you'll have happier days ahead. Thank you for uploading this with the audio! We're all here for you.

[@effytee3835]

Pleaseee

[@evasucharova5936]

You are just so overwhelmingly tired... You really need some time alone. If I can give you a little bit od an advise, try to give your kids fór a week to your mum if she lives nearby... It should help you to get a fresh view on things, relax a little and maybe even vent when alone. It's okay to ask for help when you need it. And by the way I really like the subtle floral theme you have came with. It's so important to have something along as a hobby to make your "Soul cleaning" routine and take a little bit of a self-care. Good Luck and do not worry - it'll pass, you just need to rest a little bit. 😘🥰

[@kat_ie_9984]

Ha I have no children and get overwhelmed with life. You're doing great! They had food to eat. Don't compare yourself to other people, you don't know what goes on in their lives really. You should only compare yourself to yourself and your journey.

[@Lynette2003g]

you sound like my life. i am caring for my mother and get overwhelmed too. turn off your brain for a few minutes while you are being creative and let that refresh your self. talk to a friend. breathe.

[@YsabellMoebius]

I'am hopping on this bandwagon a bit later but I just need to tell you that you are not only a supermum but also a superperson doing all this stuff you dicribed. When I was listening, the only thing I thought was "gurrrl, you need someone to help you". I don't know if it's possible, but maybe you can hire someone to help you a bit with kids and dinners and all of that? It isn't some failure if you seek help, it's just taking care of yourself! And it's great that your husband is helping, but I tend to think that father is not suppose to be helping with raising his kids, but he shoud do the raising part to, theese are his children. Yes, I think the wording is important and shape our thinking. You are awsome, but you shouldn't feel like etherything is on your head. You are great and lovely dear! BTW, this setup is pretty but I see a bit of your troubles in it, maybe this is why you don't like it? I mean, on the title page there is a lot of grays for bad mood and worries and tiredness and lack of sleep, and all this elegant gold is for what you think you should be doing and you should be - this perfect mum from insta doing everything without any tiredness (they do not exist outside of Instagram, I can tell you). And then it continues and you even add some black for sadness and despair. But just look, there you added also this violet like a sunbeam and hope that your flowers will someday turn again to vibrant, full of strenght colors. They can be less perfect, without the golden contour (of expectations to be perfect), but with violet and purple and pink and all colours of positive emotions. OK, so... sorry for this psychoanalisys from my arse, I don't know you, so if you think I'm talking bullshit, you are right. But I'll leave it, maybe it can help. I just put here link to great comic about woman's mental load (when her partner axpects her to menage everything), because I thought about it somwhere in the middle of your narration and this is really important and I couldn't put a pin in it before this comic: www.theguardian.com/world/2017/may/26/gender-wars-household-chores-comic Thanks for this upload!