Maroon is still thinking about Lora this is sad to see her go but she will still be part of the fam I understand how it feels like when Lora had said that she will leave and that made us feel so sad and crying like Cindy she was upset Lora always loves us and she is knows that we are doing and she knows we all here and safe when in 2014 Lora was playing with me and she liked to spend time with me now is not the same Sandy and Lora not here and is hard but I will still love them because they are nice and clam and quiet and warm when Lori was here Sandy and Lora said that they can come and go out for dinner now Lori is not here to and is not the same because things have changed and I don't like it the fam never gives up like this is because is been years they were formed as team and a grate group the member who worked hard and keep up with the fam are Lori and Cindy because they are the once that make so much money and have a good life now with Lori kicked out she is going to lose her money and she will lose everything and I will keep suffering to get Lori and Cindy back because is been years that I was little and have fun and play around and Lori is always by my side she will never do mean things because during the arguments from the fam and yelling to one another it made me a mess and I was going though mental health problems and I was putting my head down and I was upset I was cover in tears when Lori got kicked out I was freaked out I was sacred to death because I didn't Lori to get kicked out because me and Lori make good memories together it's not Lori's fault and is not my uncle's fault Isabella's best friend is not here anymore because she is a bigger mess and she is effected with all of the fam's arguments and that yelling and effected me to because the reason I'm part of that argument is because I want to protect Isabella and the rest of the fam because I want to make them happy and make them understand I tried but I couldn't that yelling hurt my ears and my ears were cover with blood and I was end up at the hospital and I was with my mask and I was laying in my hospital bed and I was suffering with mental health and I was a deep mess and when my grandma died my mental health hot worse and I was draged through hell and finding myself fighting alone and no one helped me not Isabella not Cindy not Stacy no one is like I'm getting ignored by them same with Johnny the fam reunion is going to be a flop because I was having a lot of bad things in my head and I have nightmares now I have bad nightmares about the fam argument that happen like who's fault is this and who's fault is this now I have another nightmare about Lori getting kicked out I can stand it anymore please this is why I want Cindy back