memoir #2 - mayroosevelt [1 hour]

c o p y r i g h t
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all credits to the artist
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[@eryismum]

my mother died in september this year. i lay with her pillow and cry when i miss her. this song really made my grief come out, which is a good thing. some days i just really need her or a hug from her. the pillow, or myself is the closest thing i could get.

[@sarvoplayz1984]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine a fraction of the pain your going through!

[@willintongortiz706]

En realidad es muy trise

[@andoy_]

im sorry

[@elizexp]

🫂

[@fret82100]

courage

[@cb-co3ve]

This song is being alone. Surrounded by people, drowning even, but mentally alone. The feeling that no one else seems to understand or get. It feels like looking at old pictures of a friend who you went seperate ways with. Your smiling faces in the picture, the light in eachothers eyes, knowing you'll never feel like this again with them. It feels like destroying yourself, purposely and unknowingly, shoving your head down under cold water, and keeping it there.

[@z.xanexx5266]

well explained, can definitly relate and agree to this.

[@betternamepending7483]

word

[@franciscaguimaraes4603]

this.

[@touyube5258]

Music is universal so your explanation has validity in your mind and that’s beautiful. I see your point of view and iv had it as well

[@castlebrookstables4611]

oh

[@naught9593]

this song is realizing you lost a piece of yourself somewhere. you dont know which piece, where, or exactly how to find it again, but its missing.

[@thanosstr8901]

That's exactly how I feel

[@carmelonoble5866]

It like a song when my mom is mad at me and I go to the room and cry for my grandfather

[@VVooshbait]

🤓

[@pirotcudoindustrialaustria9506]

Rlly feel like this

[@luutvandeberg5463]

Like ptsd

[@sylvierose5532]

this song is for when you have to part ways with someone whom you grew so close to in such a short period of time. It's crazy how you can know someone for ten weeks, and for that period, they are the centre of your being, they're the reason you wake up in the morning. You tell each other everything that is too sad and too dark for the world to know, you feel safe in your small, silent world you've built together - only for it to all end so quickly. Suddenly, we return to our normal selves, except now, with a hole in our hearts, in the shape of each other. We know things about each other that nobody else will never know. And we can't ever talk again. And it is breaking my heart.

[@ВартанСельвян]

🙏

[@missvioletblue]

I know this feeling. I woke up every morning just to see his message, I've found my peace within him. He said he doesn't want to ever hurt me, he wanted to protect me, but life is the most ironic thing, he was the one to reach me to the core and rip it apart.

[@aws54ksc]

I lost a lot of friends they gone forever

[@Svyd40]

Bu şarkı insanı derin bir boşluğun içinde bütün yaşadıklarını gözünün önünde görüyor gibi hissettiriyor

[@imyt503]

This song just makes me feel empty inside, like there is nothing out there.

[@awkwardverse]

The ancient cosmic deities weep for thee.

[@celestialudenberg7784]

I'm sorry :(, I don't know you, but I hope you come out of this void, that you'll be happy.

[@gulamabbas3207]

Talk to me

[@jellynftboredape4592]

Same bro I feel that way..

[@kristian7316]

In a good way right?

[@alisa3484]

This song feel like an indescribable emptiness. Nobody can understand how you feel or why you act the way you do, its like staring at the wall for hours and not being able to stand up bc you have no motivation.

[@destinybrooks9474]

Wrong, no more pain just emptiness and laughter with no emotions

[@user-bi9ej4ii2j]

@@destinybrooks9474 i don't know but i don't feel emotions i only feel pain, i somethimes goes to doctor and i have special tabs from him to don't kill my self so i dont agree with you

[@gulamabbas3207]

Talk to me

[@gulamabbas3207]

@@destinybrooks9474 talk to me

[@Near248]

I feel like staying in bed all day.

[@katiesummers3209]

this song is like being sad but you cant cry, being hungry but you cant eat, being tired but you can't sleep, wanting to do things but you don't have any motivation left. wanting to live for other people but wanting to die to end your own suffering. idk but i love this sm

[@aylahunt1398]

Last part you said so relatable

[@Depressed_until_dead]

I don't know what you are up to, this is the only song that I am aware that makes me tear up EVERY SINGLE TIME, the only one

[@jel6133]

100%

[@tahapisb1986]

what can i say. same here. lost my life finding llove, sucks

[@lilithiumy]

this feels so real

[@maksimbiloblovskiy574]

why does this melody sound like you have the last day of your life left and you remember everything that happened to you during this time

[@tasmanius69]

Yaman

[@haktanemirgurkan2010]

No, This Sounds Like Ghost From Call Of Duty Staring At Your Soul

[@odysseaspapanikolaou9082]

I don't know how to feel joy anymore,but this song gives me a nostalgic feeling,makes me want to keep going,my life is a mess and this melody is one of the little things in life that keep me alive,I don't know how you guys find this song sad but I believe it gives hope and happiness

[@hpwizzle]

You will fix your life and straighten it out. I believe in you my friend

[@victorhardin2186]

Beautiful yet sad

[@victoriacortez8051]

im so lonely. i feel so isolated even in rooms filled with people. it's like my brain and my body just reject love while at the same time wanting it more than anything. whenever people ask me how i am i just say that i'm fine, because while i so desperately just want to unload everything i'm holding in to someone and just talk through it all completely uninterrupted and completely understood, there's just too much to tell and even the idea of talking through everything that is truly bothering me is too exhausting. and i don't want people to look at me differently after learning all that. that's why i feel guilty when certain people in my life try to get me to open up, like when they say stuff like, "i'm here for you", "im always here to talk", "you can tell me anything", "if you need anyone to talk to, you can always talk to me" etc. and even if i went through with trying to unload it all i don't even know how to explain what's wrong with me. it's like this deep sadness just comes in waves, but in the intervals in between the waves there's this sense of mock/fake happiness that never lasts for very long. and i can't even try to enjoy the "happiness" i feel in between the waves because i know it's either not real happiness i'm feeling or i'm aware it won't last for much longer. i can't enjoy parties, birthdays, hanging out with my friends, hobbies i used to enjoy, nothing. nothing truly brings me joy anymore; and if it does, it never lasts. i'm tired of the constant mood swings. i'm not qualified in any way to diagnose myself, but it almost feels like this isn't normal depression. i would think depression is more consistent -- you know, none of this weird in between false happiness. i don't understand the chemicals in my own brain. i don't understand my own body. i'm trapped in this awful sad fleshy prison that's dying slowly every day. i'm struggling so much in this life and working so hard for things that truly mean nothing because in the end i'll die anyways. i genuinely don't see the point in continuing on. what am i sticking around for? my own death? i would just be cutting life a bit shorter than it would be originally. just bringing on the death part of life a little earlier, you know? who's going to stop me? i don't trust myself to stop myself if i eventually try to end it all. that's a scary thought. i'm so confused. i just need help. the only way i can bring myself to ask for help is asking random people on the internet that i doubt i'll ever had to see again in real life and feel embarrassed around. i've begged multiple times in vent chatrooms and comment sections and just get ignored. i know it's none of y'alls job to help me but i just need the help so bad. i just need someone to understand. i'm begging. i'm scared of myself and what i might do if this gets too bad. it's already really bad and getting worse every day. someone please answer me. i just want to be heard. i just want to feel loved. please if you've read this far help me. i'm only 16 i shouldn't feel like this. i'm so scared. i'm so sick

[@tmmgkk10]

Всё это вечный круг , который увы длиться каждый день . Все искренние люди на самом деле просто тени вокруг тебя . В жизни нет смысла - нет цели нет ничего . Есть только деньги , которые не делают тебя счастливей . Держаться на плову наш долг « Может жизнь и без смысла но нужно ее прожить «

[@Az-nc1wx]

u are heard and loved. u probably heard this already but there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel and I mean that wholeheartedly. life has to get worse in order for it to get better. how would u know what happiness is if you never experience sadness? even though it may not seem like it, u will grow up one day, surrounded by friends/family of ur own and reflect on the times u were leaving comments for strangers on KZbin..how times will change so drastically. just have a little bit of hope and hang in there. take every day one at a time and tell urself I just need to make it to the end of the day. i promise u I was in a deep dark hole like u are, and whilst i too have my waves of sadness, it did get better. life will never be full of clear blue skies, there will be moments of sadness, but slowly and surely these will shorten in length. I promise u it is worth living. pls don’t do anything permanent based on emotions which will fluctuate so much throughout. if there’s anyway I can reach u pls let me know

[@doinacernat6421]

even though i am younger and i just can relate so much to you, the overwelming everythime i think about the other people thinking that than can enjoy life and i just cant because i feel empty every second of my life. But there is a forece uot there that still protects up, you me and other people like us. And even a lot of people may have told youYou are not alone, you are loved. We are going through this togheter, okey? Far away,maybe in another reality we will be happy, but now my dear you have to stay strong, even though u go through a lot and nobody seems to understand you, it is just hurtfull to see you like this and all the lonlyeness you are experiencing by yourself, even life is not worth living now , maybe it will be leater, Rrmember, you are loved, okey? -P.S sorry for my bad english, is not my mother language

[@jagoda4182]

Are you okay?

[@ShareeBon]

@@jagoda4182 wachu mean "Are you okay?" SUCKA the user wrote an entire essay about how he is feeling and asking for help, and you say "Are you okay?". 🗿

[@robjnarpoarpo1706]

I don't know how to explain it, but this feels like listening to your own funeral

[@overlygoated3791]

Perfect

[@big.emotions]

meu deus, você literalmente definiu!

[@tashamott]

this song sounds like when you are basically screaming for help but no one is taking you seriously

[@yunusfurkan6179]

Absolutely

[@tashamott]

@@yunusfurkan6179 ive been in the exact same situation since i commented this. thats sad.

[@yunusfurkan6179]

@@tashamott :( destiny

[@jordansjukebox]

if you scream like rico nasty in iphone maybe people would hear you

[@ik_nothin1006]

it had been 7 months right now, how are you?

[@CaptainC_J]

This is a GOD tier song, it makes you feel emotions that you shouldn’t even feel, hearing this song doesn’t even wanna make me feel happy emotions when I’m not even sad, and you know it’s a good song when you can’t feel nothing when hearing it, only depression. Song just wants me to rise up and sit there floating, not moving, not speaking, just emotions-less, I could play this song for a week straight and not even get tired of it, this song just makes you feel like you’re seeing someone you love die right in front of you, the person you love leaving you, you’re best friend shoving a blade into your back, this song plays when you just sit their, dying, waiting to see if someone comes to save you, this is 1 hour of my life that id never want to get rid of, this song is just something else man, something else

[@outlooktximd6994]

So does mice on Venus

[@togamii.]

I lost my mother when I was 1, and it took a huge toll on my life. I began to think I was worthless and stupid and ugly and I would cry in my bed at night.I would even start to believe it was my fault. Then I lost my childhood pets and I really lost it. I couldn't even get past the vet without crying, and this song helps me a lot with my grief. Thank you so much for the masterpiece. I finished the entire 1 hour loop. EDIT: I am fine. It was a long while ago and I’m in a happy stage of life. Thank you for the support🩷

[@haktanemirgurkan2010]

Sorry For Your Loss, But, I Do Not Feel You And Your Mother Are Not An NPC At This Point Because When I Read The Comment Section Of A Song/Music I Always Find Something Like This Where Someone's Mother/Father Was A Musician Who D̸̢̛̘͙̻͖͈͈̤͎̙̭̗͍̪̻́́͌̚͜È̶͇̜͉̤͎̖̪͕̙͚̜̠̳̥̏͌͂̈̔̀͐͑̔̅͘͘͝͝C̶̫̭̲͈̭̗̝̤̹͕̺̲̮͑͂̿̄̌̄̋̂ͅE̴̛͇̱͓̟̺͉̬͍̠͍͋͐̿̚͜͝ͅĀ̴̲̫͔͖̺͈̩̦̳̻͇̉̌̐͜Ş̶̧̨͚̩̥̪̬͈͖͚̖͔͛͑̈́͐͗͐͋̿͊̈̎Ë̸͖́͛͋̄͋̂̆͐̃͗̆͘̚D̴̨̢̢̡̲͇̺̙̭̥̖͍͎͋̂̿̅̋͒̿̄́͑͘ Either Recently Or Back When The Person Was A Wee Babby, Turning The Comment Section To A Mourning Zone, As People Saying "I'm so, so sorry!", Which Is Actually The Most Inappropriate Thing To Say As If They Were The One Who Caused The Death, Or " Your mom sounded so cool!", I Never Knew You Were A Relative!

[@togamii.]

@@haktanemirgurkan2010 I forgot I made this edge fest comment HELP

[@bloodmoonxx3174]

i am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how painful it is losing your mum so young ❤

[@togamii.]

@@bloodmoonxx3174 yeah, glad I have my grandparents though. They are great. I feel much better in my life rn.

[@SilverChicken64]

This song makes me think about what it would feel like to die alone or forgotten.

[@gulamabbas3207]

Talk to me

[@juliannemcgee8742]

@@gulamabbas3207 hi :D

[@ty-_-7307]

my dad died 3 years ago. he was a pianist there was this sounds he always used to play with only me and my mom. and we loved it. and i still remember it in my heart. and i’m trying to learn it bc my mom has cancer and she’s all i have in this world. i want her to hear the sounds that my dad used to make. that is my goal.

[@zenky1633]

:(

[@malikjalloh4728]

That so sad may God help you

[@jordansjukebox]

your mom will stay alive if you play her iphone by rico nasty

[@leamaddison1167]

Is your mom okay?

[@ashyboi666]

i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying i’m not crying

[@moonlysia]

if there was one song out there that would describe my 2021, it would definitely be this song. this year has destroyed me mentally, and now i’m left with a tired and draining feeling i’ve grown all too familiar with. i feel wrecked, i’ve lost people so dear to me and i made too many stupid mistakes, i know there’s something wrong with me and yet no one is listening, no one ever listens to me. why does no one listen to me? why do i always doubt my own thoughts and feelings, i’m so conflicted and i have no one. please help me

[@geicogecko4420]

Ball fart

[@duntydunt]

Learn to love and appreciate yourself, only then worry about the voice of others. Enjoy what has been not what will be.

[@madmansknowledge7189]

Hope your ok... talk here.

[@victoriacortez8051]

i wish i could help more but i'm really doing no better myself. i guess just remember you're not alone. i'm right there with you. we can push through this for a longer while yet. i'm sorry you're struggling. i'm struggling too

[@qassimabu2102]

Rich or poor life is filled with despair we all take our fair share of pain, the only positive is when you have a happy moment you learn to appreciate it. Learn to live with pain.

[@sadmusicl]

the person who reads this comment know that you will have everything all the troubles all the pain will pass sooner or later so enjoy life good luck I love you.

[@марияспыну-ч5ж]

мой папа умер 3 года назад я все не могу забыть его походку, глаза, голос , его прекрасную улыбку , я так скучаю папочка....

[@ДанилКуприянов-ю7щ]

Надеюсь, друже, у тебя все поправится и жизнь станет не менее счастливой чем до его ухода

[@zxc_pharaoh9373]

брат, соболезную крепись!

[@yuumixx]

мне очень жаль 😞 именно на историях с родителями меня пробивает .. успехов 🙁

[@ама-о2л]

понимаю как больно, сил тебе и терпения 🙏🏻

[@Ктото-ы9и4з]

у меня папа умер......😢

[@sundropfan8638]

This is like when you’ve lost a loved one and the realisation that you’re never gonna see them again just…hits.

[@adlerhmemes697]

This is accurate. I lost someone a couple of months ago and the thought that I'll never see the person again is what made me more upset

[@kimmyl7177]

You hunny in afterlife

[@HIIGHONMUSIC_XD]

@@adlerhmemes697 me to man...

[@HIIGHONMUSIC_XD]

@@adlerhmemes697 my tears falling, as i make this comment

[@tahapisb1986]

EXACTLY WHAT IM SAYING

[@ДимашДимаш-е9е]

Больно в груди когда слушаешь песню

[@cobaka.mp.3]

и за пять минут до прочтения этого комментария,у меня кололо в сердце

[@vishneblyadskiy104]

слишком

[@wiviviiw]

даа

[@urdaddy69]

obviamente bro :(

[@urdaddy69]

мой нос болит

[@jonathanestrada6716]

This song is a representation of emptiness and darkness. It’s like being stuck at a bottom of a well and not being able to climb out the darkness. As time goes by you your cries for help get louder and louder until you reach the end and everything is quiet. No more pain no more emptiness no more darkness

[@pavle977]

(hell)

[@mindboost_]

i'm struggle with emptiness so much, but is there only option. We must go forward to our wishes and dreams. Even if it hurts like hell. Death is a gift, not a problem solver. We must get away from it, but not be afraid to accept our end. Do not pursue death, it will bring only suffering. Life is a gift, same as death. Now, we must love each other, because time will not be our friend. Enjoy every moment, even sorrow, because it doesn't last forever. But you must love: at first point - you must love yourself. Peace to y'all

[@Tripod_20059]

Hell nah im Scare

[@uneedsleep]

this song sounds like a new beginning after the wave of sorrows its happy but behind the happiness is fustration of your pasts like a realization of the wrongdoings and you having main character development you miss the people whom you loved, but they distracted you to become the full version of yurself so really, this song to me feels like the happy overcome of a sad story

[@zlastikk]

This melody really helps to vent all your sad emotions. Every tense note - is one emotion. Listening to this, it seems that you are completely alone. You're all alone and you want to cry, but you will be so devastated by this melody that you no longer want to do anything. How much pain is in this melody. How many emotions can be found here, but only one obvious thing is felt - pain. If you feel bad, and you want to finish yourself off with music, then this melody is perfect for this. Indeed, the legendary melody...

[@donutkingrules7122]

this song is kind of like screaming at everyone you know and love through a one-way mirror; you can see them, but they can't see or hear you.

[@Miguel-mx9op]

Normal version is better than slowed 100%

[@RA-ic8il]

nah fr this one sounds demonic

[@austin4265]

Wait this isn’t the original? Or are you referencing a different version

[@Miguel-mx9op]

@@austin4265 this is Normal

[@grace..4024]

This song to me is what it feels like to be completely lost, the feeling of no one, I lost my mother when I was 10 years old, I will now be 15 in June, almost five years without my mothers touch, without her waking me up telling me how much she loves me, kissing and holding me. Sometimes I wonder why she did what she did that day, if it was me, or if it was everything she went through, but now I understand, the more and more people hurt you, the tougher life gets, at this point it shouldn’t even be called life, half the time I don’t even feel like I’m living, I’m just kinda there. I miss my mom every second of every day, but losing her has caused me to also lose myself, and my hope to get better, before I go to bed every night, I wish to not wake up.. songs like this help me with my grieving, thank you for listening

[@ashyboi666]

This hit me hard

[@AJFooty]

are you okay???

[@grace..4024]

@@AJFooty I mean it’s about 9 months later, and I still feel the same, so no, are you?

[@sladis3496]

@@grace..4024 I don't know you well but.. There's always gonna be a way out that could be a good or bad way honestly the choice is yours, but I feel that you like listening to music for a way out, so write about it or make music or found something that motivates you, but If this doesn't help I'm sorry hope you find a way

[@togamii.]

I also lost my mother at 1 years old, so I can relate.

[@YuuqiiLerda]

É incrível como essa música mesmo sem palavras consegue descrever a vida, coisa que nem trilhões de palavras conseguiria.

[@lizetnoeliabejaranochoque3464]

I know that nobody cares but... when I was little my mom always cooked my favorite food and every night she cried and she didn't know why... I approached her and gave her encouragement ^^she smiled and took me to the park, I encouraged her until one day she left thanking me for making her smile :(

[@itz_uncleshiva.x3005]

POV: You are standing alone,defeated in the war and you know your time has come to an end.

[@SilverChicken64]

Oh yeah, big time

[@mollyharvey1621]

oh shut up

[@jellynftboredape4592]

This just made me even sadder.

[@elqaid7540]

Wow you described it. finally

[@elmatapacos7441]

"There is nothing anymore,nothing to defend,or to steal,there is nothing but bodies and fire in no mans land......im sorry margaret......im going home." *gunshot heard in the distance,in a destroyed town that was once a happy place,now filled with corpses and bullets,its over.*

[@flyingboxcow8724]

Thank you. Now I can suffer without replays

[@Constantilope]

U can also suffer without this video

[@flyingboxcow8724]

@@Constantilope yup

[@outlooktximd6994]

Can't tell if it's hate or what but if is hate play a different song like dam it's not that hard

[@toniotrussardi8126]

@@outlooktximd6994 its not hate,the original version is hsort thus needing replays

[@clarasepulveda9841]

this is how my life feels as a song. i cant take anymore

[@imlafonz8047]

What shall we do today? What shall we do tomorrow? What shall we ever do? The hot water at ten. And if it rains, a closed car at four. And we shall play a game of chess, Pressing lidless eyes and waiting for a knock upon the door.

[@celestialudenberg7784]

I'm sorry for you:(

[@gulamabbas3207]

Hey are you ok, talk to me

[@Constantilope]

It will never end.

[@osam4470]

@@Constantilope the faster you realize that life is just the way it is, pure unfairness and sorrow, the faster you will be able to accept it and move on. You can't change it, so it's a waste of time to even think about it, go live a life. Forget?

[@Xyibin228]

"Жди меня и я вернусь Только очень жди Жди когда наводят грусть жёлтые дожди Жди когда снега метут Жди когда друших не ждут позабыв вчера Жди когда из дальних мест писем не придет Жди когда ух надоест всем кто вместе ждет Жди меня и я вернусь Не желай добра Всем кто знает наизусть что забыть пора Пусть поверят сын и мать в то что нет меня Пусть друзья устанут ждать сядут у огня Выпьют горькое вино на помин души Жди, и с ними за одно выпить не спеши Жди меня и я вернусь всем смертям на зло Кто не ждал меня тот пусть скажет- повезло Не понять не ждавшим им Как среди огня Ожиданеием своим ты спасла меня Как я выжил будем знать только мы с тобой Просто ты умела ждать Как никто другой....." Эта песня Осицируеца у меня с этим стихотворением , как будто одно целое....

[@Xyibin228]

Если что извиняюсь за ошибки, писала на эмоциях

[@salatarmatura]

мой любимый стих, никогда не забуду его

[@bloodmoonxx3174]

this song is like grief. like feeling it dawn on you that youll never see this person again or experience this time again. trying to grasp the empty space that your loved one once occupied and finding nothing but air and wishing you had cherished every moment. its like the feeling of moving house and looking back at your old home for the last time. but then it also reminds me of depression and feeling trapped in a place that nobody can even try to understand and wondering if anything will ever be okay again.

[@heygrell977]

This song makes me realise I'm all alone in the end. People surround you but your still alone. No one is there to help you. You stand and stare in the the black space. Remembering the pictures of u and your old friends smiling with joy in your eyes wishing u could go back.

[@joshuagrahamfrom6594]

🫷🫸🫠

[@zinkoe]

At night, I honestly just stare at the ceiling with my phone under my pillow whilst listening to this song. It has a very special place in my heart, but I can’t quite pinpoint why. This song makes me feel the comforting sort of loneliness, like ghosts wrapping their arms around me. Big respect for you, thank you for making a one hour version.

[@Rose-sy1ln]

This should have way more likes views and comments, I've looked everywhere for this and it popped up on my recommend, thank you ^ ^

[@guitarsenpai420]

You should check it out on her SoundCloud. Tons of people showing love there.

[@outlooktximd6994]

Over 900k isn't enough? I completely agree. Very peaceful song can't tell which is more peaceful this or mice on Venus

[@medlynholmes406]

This year i lost three people, my best friend who was hit by train,my grandma,my uncle... This fucking year And this song helps me to get that grief out.. Sometimes i wish i was the one who was hit by train..

[@n_l_ca]

It's been 61 days since my attempt..so much has occured...let friends go for their absence...most recent now is having my 4yr relationship slowly give out...that just hit me more, he was there when it happened now I don't know where to go alone with my meds out and no professional help after my discharge....this song put me in a state of emptiness , I want to feel empty again..I want to be able to detach

[@sexhaver571]

This song feels like you just realised that you're slowly pushing yourself away from those you loved all your life, and then realising that you'll one day be all alone with only your thoughts and grief as conpany

[@emmamckown1760]

I feel so tired. Physically, mentally, in every way I just want to fail and give up. I’m so tired of trying to be perfect and do my best all the time. It seems so easy to fail and be careless, they all seem so much more happy than the people who try so damn hard all the time. Like me. I just want to stop carrying so much, and be happy and free. I want to feel everything and nothing all at one time. I wish I could still be accepted if I were to change myself completely. I wonder who would still be there for me, if I did that. We’ll never know because I will continue to try and try to succeed, and never give up until I do. I will continue to tire myself out until there is nothing left of me but body and brain. I will continue to push and push and push with no breaks in between. I will continue being tired and sad all the time, worried if I change myself, everyone will leave my side, everyone that I need will leave. I will continue this way, this feeling, this thought, without accepting help. Without getting the help I need. Without reaching out. Without living the life I want to live.

[@lenajagielska1288]

One day youre going to feel better. I know its tiring honey, i know. Just please be patient and keep your head up. Im with you, we're going through this together and i want you to know that im proud of every little thing you do

[@JuanMunoz-qv5vp]

i promsie you i know exactly how it feels i literally posted something just like this before... I promise you just try your best and wait it out Please reply if you need to talk i am here for you ❤️❤️❤️

[@lethallines5898]

This hit different

[@celestialudenberg7784]

I hope one day you will feel good, I will keep my fingers crossed for it as soon as possible, good luck remember not to give up, you are special and wonderful.

[@elcyosimoes]

Real

[@raven1297]

This song feels like an anxiety attack along with depression. Feels like a heart break from memories with family/friends you don't talk to anymore. Feels like you're sitting on the beach on a rainy day late at night crying and regretting things you have done in the past. Watching the strong waves move. I get a flood of emotions listening to this song. Feels like drowning in your own problems you can't get out of. Feels like you are being trapped, you can't talk to anyone because you can’t trust anyone or what they will do with what you have told them. The feeling is strong pain, stress and sadness. -i wrote that in my docs :)

[@jordansjukebox]

i will live in your walls if you dont stream iphone by rico nasty

[@Hello0975]

@@jordansjukebox bruh 💀

[@luciform8381]

@@jordansjukebox imagine being such a disgusting person

[@wisemysticaltree9449]

@@jordansjukeboxyou just destroyed the weird sad vibe bruh

[@jordansjukebox]

@@wisemysticaltree9449 myb 🤝

[@helgaah3282]

now this melody personifies for me only the pain of loneliness, uselessness neither to myself nor to others

[@Cheyanne000]

This song speaks trillions of words, without saying anything. This song is the epitome of loneliness and heartbreak. The heartbreak doesn’t have to be because of somebody, just because of your own living in general. This song is staying up late sulking, staring at the ceiling. This song is staring and somebody you love in their casket, at their funeral. This song is sitting in the rain, engulfed in your own thoughts and sorrow. This song is screaming for help, without anybody realizing enough to care. This song is fighting for your life everyday, while staying happy for others. This song is crying in your bed, wondering when the suffering will end. This song is truly…horrible, in a lovely way.

[@eren9055]

i have a really deep connection with music, so this song just feels revolutionary to me. it feels like im falling in slow motion in a completely black space, always falling, never reaching a solid surface. it feels like sadness.

[@overlygoated3791]

Yes

[@Makyhaa]

I feel this song understands me, its the suffocating feeling to just keep eating and eating until you finally come to a stop. Then you cry all your feelings away and hate yourself even more. The urge to keeping eating until you finally see what you’ve become has always haunted me.

[@jarjarthebredloaf]

There's only 2 songs that can make me start crying, and one of them is this. It feels like the addicting feeling of sadness and emptiness. Like sadness but in a good way.

[@fuflo7756]

And what is another one?

[@thegoldenjubileu3016]

​@@fuflo7756i want to know that too.

[@jarjarthebredloaf]

@@fuflo7756 I forgor

[@user-nwsvjzj]

my brother was 18 when he died, i was 4. now i’m 17 and he’d be 31. i barely remember him, it’s like i’ve never had a sibling. but i did. and that’s what gets me. Nawaf, the boy who cared for me, the boy who loved me, the boy who was always there for his younger sister, all for what? for her to not remember him? i always watch the videos of him and he was so funny, cool and sweet. he always made everyone’s day better, he treated everyone so well. he was such a good brother but now he’s gone and now it’s like he was never here. but i know he’s watching over me, i love you so much Nawaf i really wish i could remember you. i’d do anything to have more time with you Nawaf, i don’t understand why you had to leave so soon. you had your whole life ahead of you, i hope we will be reunited again my sweet brother.

[@idkwhattonamethislolololo2300]

i want this played in my funeral

[@adlerhmemes697]

I'd rather have a lighthearted song I liked played at my funeral so people would remember my life and not be grieving a loss

[@h3arts4v4l]

@@adlerhmemes697 i want pon mi and cpr to play at my funeral

[@ashyboi666]

Same.

[@_c0rpse_cl0wn_]

this song reminds me of a few scenarios 1. a mom dies and her child is nudging her to wake up 2. a mother finds her child dead and each of the high pitch sounds is her screaming 3. a statue of a nude woman with cracks and missing pieces cries on the inside because everyday she’s forced to smile as people touch her and make fun of her

[@youmotha]

Me

[@vasifpnahov3204]

This song reminds me of my old days, I wish I could go back to those days and live my happy days again, but I don't have a chance because now I'm grown and every time you do childish actions, they say you're a big girl, watch your moves, they tell me I'm fed up with this life I'm going to die from this life I can't stand it anymore

[@vohmy8447]

this song feels like your soul is drowning, but yet the feeling is peaceful, like you’re on a hill being drenched by rain, wind passing through the creaking trees. It’s just such a powerful song but it makes everything feel so silent.

[@chilldogs5444]

Everyone else: "This song puts into form my pain, my fears, my struggles. It makes me think that I will never leave this endless pit of dispair and crushing resentment. The pit fills with water and this song is the chain to the floor." My Autistic Self: "Mmmm, buig noise. Sensory heaven."

[@osam4470]

Haha very nice joke so funny and laughable

[@sam-yn1pz]

This song to me, is letting yourself go. Your inner child is screaming for you,, that's what I imagine the high pitched notes to be

[@dyl_dan2647]

We all identify with this song, maybe not all of us, but some of us are going through the same thing. This song makes you feel an emptiness in your chest, the pain you feel when you listen to this song. It feels like you have lost yourself, the person who was happy before, fell into a dark pit, got stuck there, in a lot of mental problems among much more. The person who sees himself in the mirror, is the one who stayed in the dark well... Trapped, with nothing around you, only conflicts, tasks, sadness, loneliness, suicidal thoughts, etc. Your life changed in a blink of an eye. Your life became rubbish and it's something you've gotten used to.

[@Kase_Endmen]

I know I'm a teenager, but my inner child is out here comforting me. Every single pain that I have, every hatred I gain, is all calmed down because of this music.

[@hails_ig]

This song is like when you are trying to cry but have no tears left to bear, or how you are so angry but have no words left to share. Or like how you suddenly realize that nobody is coming to help you. Man. It hits deep.

[@azielly4700]

Me ear hurts so much because i always sleep with headphones on, listening to this every night.. But i dont regret it...... I found comfort in this sound.

[@curiositycore-k9c]

This song feels like the eternal cosmos and realization of life, death, and our nature. The realization that we are nothing, death is a vehicle to the unknown to other worlds and we are only animals in the grand scheme of the universe.

[@marcythequeen]

This is the song for when you’re staring at your scars in the mirror and all you can think of is the pain that those people have put onto, but you can’t escape their grasp. They want more and more from you and brings you to your lowest and all you can think of is. why. why do I have to go through this

[@gulamabbas3207]

Talk to me ok, please

[@mart_ini0508]

I feel like this song is trying to sew my heart together after ripping it apart

[@milasofia6500]

The pain in my chest while listening to the music only reminding of everyone who hurt me, everything and everyone I've lost....

[@deadkey]

"The deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for something or someone that one cares for or loves. The repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never be had again. The recollection of feelings, experiences, places, or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, and well-being, which now trigger the senses and make one experience the pain of separation from those joyous sensations."

[@noone-ng5dd]

Saudade

[@person.9658]

To who ever needs this: I don’t know who you are, but I love you

[@artburnerskenya697]

Don't make me cry now

[@kittynapier4678]

Fucking FINALLY. An hour version of this song, thank you so much 💖

[@Shgoa0914]

In the midst of World War II, there was a man named William Anderson, a young American from a small town in Iowa. He was a bright, ambitious soul who had dreams of becoming an architect. But the war had different plans for him. William enlisted in the army, driven by a sense of duty and patriotism. He said his tearful goodbyes to his family, promising to return soon. Little did he know that the horrors of war would keep him away for far longer than he ever imagined. His journey through the war was a harrowing one. He fought in the Battle of Normandy, where he witnessed the chaos and carnage of D-Day. The memory of his comrades falling around him haunted his nights, and the distant sound of artillery became the soundtrack to his days. William's letters to his family spoke of the harsh realities he faced. He wrote about the relentless rain in the Ardennes during the Battle of the Bulge, where frostbite claimed the fingers of some of his closest friends. He wrote about the stench of the Pacific jungles during the island-hopping campaign against Japan and how the relentless heat sapped their strength. But it was in the spring of 1945, as Allied forces closed in on Berlin, that tragedy struck. William's platoon was tasked with securing a small village, and as they advanced, they encountered fierce resistance from German soldiers determined to defend their homeland. In the heat of battle, a sniper's bullet found its mark, striking William in the chest. As he lay on the cold, muddy ground, gasping for breath, his thoughts turned to his family back in Iowa. He wished he could hold his baby sister one more time, see his father's proud smile, and hear his mother's comforting words. But in that moment, those wishes felt painfully out of reach. His comrades rushed to his side, but there was little they could do. William's breathing grew shallower, his life slipping away with every passing second. He whispered his family's names as if saying goodbye to them one last time. Then, in the midst of the chaos of war, William Anderson closed his eyes and took his final breath. The news of William's death devastated his family back in Iowa. The dreams he had carried with him into the war, of becoming an architect, of building a better world, were extinguished on that battlefield in Germany. William's story is just one among the countless tragedies of World War II, a reminder of the profound sacrifice and loss that marked that dark period in history. His memory lives on in the hearts of his family and in the annals of history, a symbol of the price paid for freedom.

[@zeexoxovc]

This song just reminds me how i feel.i just feel mentally drained ,empty,alone at such a young age

[@sirwhiskers6468]

Whenever I listen to this song it makes me sad… bc I think abt my childhood… feeling hurt for my inner child , wishing that I could’ve protected her and tell her everything would be alright… she’s been thru so much trauma I’m so sorry younger me…

[@sirwhiskers6468]

Not only do I think abt my childhood but my own life too , I feel so alone in this world and my own home too , it doesn’t feel like home at all , I would have to be fcking nanny 24/7 for my little brother and clean bc my mom expects me to, even when she’s home she would just sleep or would leave the house to go somewhere else and I still get called lazy and get told that I don’t anything or don’t ever watch my brother …… it feels like we don’t have a relationship anymore, we don’t often talk anymore Im done… I feel so alone , depressed, stressed , tired , and ignored… Im just so tired of it …does she even care abt me? Or how I feel at all?

[@officialre_]

i’ve never been able to relate to a comment so much, your not alone. stay strong, don’t give up because that’s not an option. Be strong for the younger you.

[@sirwhiskers6468]

@@officialre_ tysm ❤️ I wish u nothing but the best of luck in ur life

[@meredithegnor8103]

Here is a little plot I made in my head with this song: You lay in the snow, her back feels numb but not cold...your hands, fingertips, and nose all are red and numb. You look up to see the dusty grey clouds that befell the sky when you awoke from your dreamless slumber. Once you breathe in the winter air you feel the fresh snowflake upon your ashen skin and eyelashes, your lips settle in a soft smile as you feel the forest around you hold you close and keep you safe. You know it was early but yet your body does not move...does not breathe...you do not think, you are held safe and calm as you sit up and look to see the snow dancing around you, as you stand on frozen legs. After a few hours of walking, you lay back down to find a new soft noise in the back of your mind as you feel the soft ever-falling snow bless and kiss your skin...maybe you would lay here for now...maybe forever. -Meredith Grace 2021

[@skyileer2868]

This song feels like coming home after another bad day, having nobody to hold you as you cry your soul out. Drowning in your unhealthy coping mechanisms as you cry till you can't breathe, and just lay on the floor struggling to breathe from your own tears and sobs. Understanding that you've "lived" like this for way too long, but can't even do anything to change it.

[@_XxvanessaxX_]

This song feels like heaven but hurts like hell..

[@alpacario336]

This is the only comment that encapsulates what this song feels like for me.

[@Ali-nq7jr]

this song makes me feel so much grief. there was a day i finally decided to take down a decoration my ex had put up in my room. all the lights were off except the glow of my tv with this song on loop playing on it. i remember staring up at the decoration, reaching for it, and then shutting down numerous times. i got to the point where i was shaking, balling my eyes out because i knew that taking it down just further proved the reality that he’s no longer in my life. i felt like a child, a child who was being told she can’t have what she wants. by the end of the night, i took it down after the emotional torment i put on myself. it’s such a dumb thing to have been so upset over, but at the time, it crushed me. now, i have a new boyfriend who has shown me more love and respect than my ex ever did, which i’m grateful, but if this is to not work out, i know i’ll be in that same position once again.

[@naoperguntei354]

Minha vida tá um caos, me deito no travesseiro e choro sem parar porque não consigo fazer nada, tento me animar e não dá certo e não sei se vou conseguir chegar até 2023 viva, mas estou deixando um lembrete aqui pra todos lembrarem de mim.Espero que vocês consigam ser muito felizes na vida de vocês e que tudo dê certo. Edit 1:tá tudo dando errado, mas tento seguir firme.

[@celestialudenberg7784]

Sinto muito, espero que tudo fique bem com você

[@PabloLopez-jv1ir]

Sigues viva?

[@naoperguntei354]

@@PabloLopez-jv1ir sim

[@naoperguntei354]

Se toda vez que eu me sentisse mal e viesse aqui, estaria mais de 100 comentários. Por que eu sou assim? Eu só queria ser bonita, legal, gentil, inteligente e que minha família gostasse de mim.

[@naoperguntei354]

@@PabloLopez-jv1ir obrigada por perguntar

[@MyhemMker]

This song makes me think of bad possibilities. Something that doesn’t often happen to me it makes me. It makes me feel empty like there’s nothing left to live for, Or the people I love most died and I couldn’t even cry. This song also makes me happy. Like i’m in a field with friends and we all play until the sun goes down. I feel angry aswell. Like someone has done something so bad I can’t even explain. It makes me want to cry. Cry with no tears, Hungry but won’t eat, Tired but I just cannot sleep This song makes me remember my pop pop, pop pop joe one of the most funniest strongest bravest and most Handsome men you’ll ever meet i barely got to see him cause my auntie, mom, and Grandma had bad terms with him so they wouldn’t let me see him anytime i was around him he had a smile spoiled me and everything I didn’t value that relationship until he died. I’m crying will writing this and it gives me a headache thinking about him. I miss him so much. I know he he’s proud and happy of me so that’s all that i’m thankful for Pop Pop Joe I love you,Cameron.

[@adoraross6948]

This song comforts me. I sleep to this song, i work to this song, i do everything while listening to this song. It is a masterpiece, the sad music caressing my ears, bringing the most genuine happiness, making me feel empty inside, yet, bringing internal happiness. This is a song i turn to when im at my lowest points and my highest.

[@outlooktximd6994]

Same bro..same

[@Risehot89]

Моя бабушка умерла, но я даже не видела ее. Я постоянно скучаю, ее пеньюар, единственная вещь, которая осталась у меня. Когда мне грустно, мысли доходят до боли, я беру ее вещь и лежу с ней. Может мне кажется, но она начинает пахнуть цветами и я сразу успокаиваюсь, как будто бабушка здесь, рядом, глядит меня и успокаивает. Я ее не видела, но безумно люблю и скучаю. Она это самая яркая звезда в небе, я часто общаюсь с ней. Бабушка, я скучаю. Я надеюсь, что ты счастлива и свободна. Эта песня пробирает до мурашек, я слышу в этих нотах ее голос, который шепчет мне ласковые слова и слова поддержки. Я люблю тебя, моя бабушка. От внучки, которую ты никогда не видела ❤

[@chickenwing5645]

This song is the feeling of shock…. The feeling you cant do anything anymore, eat, sleep, walk, even cry just sitting their staring for hours

[@SpookyPurple16]

Bro everyone be saying how deep this song is and my stupid a$$ be listening to it to do homework easily 💀

[@Scarlett_Eyler_Official]

Всю мою жизнь можно описать этой песней。。。

[@fuflo7756]

Надеюсь с тобой будет всё хорошо...

[@SurvivingAnotherDay]

Slava ukraini

[@hoxcas3624]

@@SurvivingAnotherDay Ну да) Нужно ведь обязательно это высрать, да?) Политик малолетний.

[@Leshich.]

Мне кажется, что нет. Хотя, я просто не знаю историю твоей жизни, но другие англоговорящие люди в комментариях пишут о погибших родителях и близких, что реально страшно и больно

[@juliapetsche3232]

This song is an indescribable kind of pain. The deepest, lowest of lows. Your in the depths of nothing. Its like your at your own funeral. Watching down at yourself. There’s nothing out there. Your tired. There’s nothing here for you anymore.

[@aslan.mp3]

The pain of loving somebody you know will leave this world, and you, too early. Living every day you have with them like it’s your last because you’ll never know at what moment they will no longer be there with you to create new memories. Live in the present, the future isn’t here yet. Enjoy what you have while you can.

[@aslan.mp3]

I doubt that these days he’s getting better. It’s like he’s always sick. I want to help but I don’t know how. I can’t just keep telling him to go to the hospital, they can’t do anything for him except up the dosage of medication. He wasn’t like this all those months ago. I was hoping that the year left would be extended, but now the end is drawing closer and there are visible signs that we aren’t going to get more time together. I just want to be with him but he’s getting so much worse, I don’t know what to do. I got into this knowing that it was going to end inevitably, quickly and painfully. I envy the people with loved ones that will stay with them until old age. I have to lose the one I hold dearest to my heart so fast and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. I wanted him to be by my side forever. But it’s impossible for us. I hope he gets at least a little better and isn’t in so much pain.

[@aslan.mp3]

I wish he didn’t kill himself

[@aslan.mp3]

i miss him

[@aslan.mp3]

this is so cringe

[@aslanyan2154]

Я почувствовал боль в нутри сердца...

[@alissonsaray....btstae]

X2

[@КсенияАйваседо]

жиза, мне просто грустно, вспоминаю что то. еще читаю комментарии очень жаль людей

[@gh0stgirl459]

This song feels like I’m stuck. stuck in the same overthinking thoughts that destroy me stuck in the same emotions that make me feel nothing but loneliness yet also numb but ur so used to it all.. so ur just stuck and dealing with it. But deep down it’s destroying you and u feel like ur drowning with everything and people try to help but it’s the same thing eat better, distract yourself, exercise and you’ve done it all so It’s not enough to keep you distracted from ur horrible thoughts and emotions from the nightmares from the constant anxiety and loneliness feeling from being numb and scared that ur gonna lose everyone and that it’ll be ur fault. I’ve never felt this way before I want it to stop

[@malamadxtube]

After hearing this, I thought about the world. About life. I wonder why it’s like this. Evil, sad, melancholy. As a Christian I wonder why we were made if we didn’t listen to God hundreds of years ago. But I know the truth now, I see it. It’s a test, to see if we seek Him out one last time before the world collapses. This music made me see. No I’m not a bot.

[@Joseph-fw7ht]

Well said😢

[@Cade_fans_]

This song reminds me how hard life is. And that life is not like in the stories, there will not always be someone waiting for you, I learned a long time ago, I just go through life with peace, without expecting anything from anyone, nothing in return. Am I honest? I have already lost faith in humanity, I only have faith in myself, and that is what I must fight for, I will fight for myself until the end, that girl that I locked up months ago has the right to be happy, but I don't want to, because if Liberians to that girl, she's going to suffer

[@ik_nothin1006]

this song somehow reminds me of school. trying your hardest to focus, but failed to do so. squeezed every bit of energy till you're just there physically. doing the assignments all at once because it feels better than doing one or two in a whole day, even if it was a large, and wants time. knowing damn well that you'll fail, and fail, and fail, and fail, and fail, and fail, and parents disappointed, teachers disappointed. even if you're trying your hardest. failing an exam and knowing that you actually tried the last bit of energy. getting screamed at for your marks. i just hate how marks are counted, and not the work, or even the energy of the work you've put, this is life, after all. i just hate school, universities, work, just everything, even this beautiful lie that we live in. i just want judgment day to come, but the problem is i'm not ready yet. i just wanna get up and pray. but shaytan always win. i just want this dunya to be over. no matter what i do. when i actually get the motivation to pray, my period comes. and i know it's Allah swt testing me to see if i will continue praying after ghusul or after finishing my menstrual cycle. i don't even know what i'm typing, i just wanna go to sleep, go to Allah. and feel at peace.

[@stephan4804]

Yes😢

[@hundesohn8115]

I listen to this every time I’m home alone so no one hears me crying, I think about the past where I enjoyed life, where me and my friends went outside everyday, where I was good in school, where I didn’t make those surprise mistake which changed my life

[@hampterbutbeautifulface9447]

I can feel the "ghost" starring at me

[@ar1a.luvs.nirv4na.]

Same

[@BobbinRobbin777]

Yaman 11.12.2022 summoned me to this empty shell of a comment section, each one, a reflection of the ever-falling happiness of our world. Also big chucky do a wee big fart.

[@BlazeAndTrain]

When I found this song at first, it sounded like a peaceful song for relaxing. But when I listened to it again I was overwhelmed with memories of everyone in my life that had passed. Mostly my cousin filled my head. After that I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my face.

[@korez96]

Seeing so many comments about the mental state that many of us have been in or are being right now, made me want to comment. Like many people here i was in a place just like them about 3years ago. For reasons that i wont tell i felt like an empty vessel, only a body keeping itself from completely fade or waste. There was so much sadness in me, that i completely isolated from others because it would hurt me more if a had to pretend that im fine just so others would not worry about me. Many times, i would sit on the balcony of an apartment where i lived alone (because i was studying away from home, and prior to that i argued with my family and moved out), smoking a cigarette and looking at the sky with a completely empty and clear mind. Not a single thought was in my head but i just started crying. I was very sociable before this period of time in my life that lasted around 2,5 years. I slowly got used to the feeling of just drifting in time, day after day of nothing that would really make me happy for more than a minute. And slowly things like just seeing a cat and a dog playing brought so much joy in my heart. Things got better and better. I started reading, working out, drawing, writing. In those first two years i never thought in could get the energy for anything at all. But you have to push yourself. I cried many times during i was working out, like the physical force i was using was pushing out loads of emotions from me in the process. I than started talking to people that did the same stuff as me. Just dont stop trying is what i want to say. I know it can be hard hard. Sometimes i questioned myself if i still want to be here. But you can get over this. There is always somebody there for you but you have to start opening the doors to possibilities. If i can give you just one advice, try to not use any social media for some time, it helped me. And start trying out new things. And music helps.. i listened to so much music in the darkest times, like pink floyd(marooned, and the dark side of the moon album), classical music, for instance tomaso albinoni- adagio in g minor. Thank you if you read this paragraph. I know you can get over this dark time of your life! You are not so alone as you think, just start making changes, don’t settle with being alone and i know it sounds ridiculous but its true. We mustn’t be prisoners of our emotions. Take care! One love

[@Şükranbozkurt-z8l]

this song makes me feel dead and away from everything. my comfort song that i used to listen to sleep.

[@НоминаРакшаева-ы5х]

Я боюсь остаться одна я целый день вспоминаю о вчерашнем дне, мне больно. если бы я не боялась смерти то я бы покончила с собой. это единственная песня под которую я могу погрустить. я устала от всего этого. мне больно мне очень больно я чувствую эту боль в сердце этот комментарий о том что я чувствую. это единственное видео где я могу высказаться. спасибо спасибо большое. я чувствую себя намного лучше

[@monolit6312]

Я сколько себя помню всегда один...

[@Haizhsuzus]

Как вы сейчас? Надеюсь что вам намного лучше...

[@grand_deluxe.]

​@@monolit6312здесь я с тобой соглашусь... Меня понимает только мой кот...

[@scarlett8130]

This song makes me feel like im sitting in a small empty room, just staring at the walls feeling nothing at all

[@terryschwarting8704]

The song gives you an indescribable feeling of emptiness like you’ve been in a void for lifetimes it makes you feel like just empty

[@tractionals]

This song is an unexplainable feeling of loneliness. Losing everyone you truly cared for. With all of your heart. Leaving the ones that could care less. It hurts when that is the harsh reality of someone’s situation.

[@ggvstear]

Imagine a melody without words. What does a melody without words remind us of? What goes through our minds? Memoir is very different for me. They can take away all the songs, but I won't let go of Memoir. Memoir seriously brings tears to my eyes. It's really good. There are two memoirs. ❤

[@surf.theweb]

this played on loop as i attempted to take my own life a few months back, my dad found me unconscious and rushed me to the er, when my eyes closed for what i still pray would’ve been the last time i only felt warm and calm, it was peaceful and soft. every day and every night i long for that feeling again, but i cant do that to the people i love. not to my best friends, L and H, not to my father and not to my grandparents. i’m the closest living thing to my real mother and i can’t take that last memory away from my family. but i’m not happy in this existence, not in this life, not in this world, i just want to feel that comfort again without the crippling pain and agony that awaits if i every open my eyes again.

[@bigboumboum7981]

Don't worry about it, everyone is like this, everyone has something that happened in there lives that makes them like this, everyone is depressed in their own way, if its only for a moment or for a while its how humans are. I am not telling you that everything will be okay because I personnaly think only telling someone that is a little cringy, what I am saying and the only thing that I can really say is that you need to tell yourself that everyone is like this at some point and that if we all agree that it is a thing everyone has then it is not a problem, its how life works, we live and we die, in the grande scheme of things it won't matter what we did in life, it is beautiful that everyone will get their personnal experience at life, we live to experience what we want to experience because we can and rest afterwards because we will.

[@notsorichierachel854]

i had a huge argument with my mother and i have a strong feeling she don't want to see me anymore.. i have no idea why i listen to this music, it just makes me wanna cry more...