"Mentality Shift." Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

[@ranc1977]

I took the BPD test at Resource Center - and the test showed that I have severe BPD. I was expecting mild or low instead due to my social anxiety - and now I understand that social anxiety is actually avoidance of anger and expressing the bpd traits. I was masking it. I was convinced that having no problems in relationship was making me non-bpd, but in reality I am isolated - so I have no arena to get symptoms come out of hiding and then I end up with wrong explanations about what is bugging me. I relate to everything Kevin said in this episode in particular: - You're not doing it just because it is a right thing to do - to be a good person. You're doing it - they'll se me as a good person. - I am identifying as somebody who is worthless, I'm identifying as somebody who doesn't have value, I'm identifying as somebody who will be abandoned because who would approve of me, - Changing your mentality how you identify, how you look at the world and what is your position in it, how you look at yourself that is 50 percent of getting better. - you become obsessed with trying to fix everything. It's a control thing. - That means understanding it is not so important that you beat your idea into their brain. And if you really want them - the reason is you feel invalid. And you don't feel good enough. - I couldn't enjoy anything positive unless everybody else was ok. Vacation - partner said something negative about the flight and I should book another. I make everybody else's dissapointment in the world in their own world about themselves about their world about me. I take the accountability for it. It's really hard to feel good when you do that. Really hard to have enjoyment. - not making other people's lives better so that they bless you with the ability to relax. - My coworkers will criticize my work, boss tell me things I don't like, I know I'm not going to be appreciated, so I'm just not going to work. Or another one - I'm not getting into relationship, I'm going to be single forever because it's better that way.

[@patiaurelio1990]

I like that the time of transmission disclosure