Merkules - Jocelyn Flores Remix

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[@Dorian.living]

Back here again huh? Yeah me too

[@Brokeboi471]

Yeah....but you aight tho?

[@scotthahn8773]

4sho

[@loztwunzofficial7431]

Yea 😣😣😣

[@ZackEdmondsMMA]

Meeting merk on Tuesday I’m so hyped

[@justanotheryoutuber5228]

Ex did a number on me

[@peacetea1034]

Depression and anxiety is no joke.. I feel every word you say my goosebumps never stopped until it was over. Everyday is a battle between wanting to die and being to scared to die who ever is suffering right now just know your not fucking alone.

[@adamtaylor9164]

It’s not that I’m afried to die It’s more that I don’t want to hurt my family

[@VossaBygde]

@@adamtaylor9164 Ey yo I feel you, just know that my bro

[@darellteague3845]

Yeah, when he raps and it feels like he's reading your mind

[@mrfjuze4826]

I feel you mate, big time. I’ve battled hard depression non-stop from age 13/14 to 24 (im now 24). A couple suicide attempts here and there ofcourse. From 20 to 24 was definitely the hardest, felt the down-going-spiral got worse everyday. I swear the three last years was so dark, looking back on it freaks me the fuck out. A white room woud litterly look dark in my eyes, everything got colered dark no matter what. Good or bad, didn’t matter. But one day listening to Merk while taking a dump (seriously), I said to my self ‘’im so fucking done with this lifestyle. I’m not going to spend one more second in this depressed and anxious world. I’ve had enough, big time. Fuck this’’. And to this day, as merk would said it ‘’the devil is now my bitch wearing 5-inch Stilettos’’. (real story). It’s been 7 months now, and let me tell you. Life actually looks kinda cool. Just freakin sad i’ve spent so many years torturing myself allday-everyday-every minut- every hour- every week- every month - every year - through out my childhood and teenage years. Let me tell you. It’s hope, I did it. My family, friends and shrink was secure that I would loose the battle and one day get a successful suicide.

[@Schmoogis]

We're not alone man. Thanks for the reminder of that.

[@sinzarh]

This is good, see... he’s not mumbling, and he’s speaking something that’s not so easy to explain.

[@tebatoharder_pt6680]

truth

[@Bigloserbox]

Just like the original of this song but yea i feel you

[@gamerman360]

Very true. But imagine playing this at a club? Everything has its place

[@A77ILA]

@@gamerman360 hearing something like this live would probably make me melting

[@Albrecht420]

This was a song I was hoping he played when I saw him in Seattle but he played so good of a show i didn’t mind one bit, me and my girl had the best concert of our lives there she got to go on stage for like an hour and he came up n grabbed my head and shook it during his song and came n took shots of patron with us at the end so dope of a guy best rapper out there by far in so many ways

[@315Uzin]

4 years later this song will still give me chills the whole song this some real life shit this what makes you an artist

[@bassface14]

1:18 is the realest shit ive heard in a long time. describes how tough it can be to panic and the nasty circle of dismissal a lot of people experience trying to get help. i see a neuromuscular specialist regularly for parkinsons disease. ive had anxiety most of my life, pd makes it worse. i was chatting with my doctor and mentioned this song in passing - he, weirdly enough, asked to hear it. so im sitting at a neuromuscular center at 4 pm listening to merkules with my 50 year old ukranian neurologist, who confirmed that this is beautifully written, and in fact - goes quite hard. well done.

[@TEECOX]

Sometimes youtube do cool things, like recomnd me this thing, i love it

[@luckypotato6973]

Mike Nettle - merk is king!

[@thaddiouz1872]

Same ere

[@arnacho9026]

pero despues de 3 años :,v

[@robertkelly1456]

Bro I'm in the same boat... was not expecting this but this guy went in on this track...

[@khaledkhalkany248]

Same dude

[@swampwar]

RIP X

[@benji899]

crazy how 2017 was 3 years ago already, time goes man. Appreciate everyone around you, all love.

[@valtakozomentalitas556]

2024 bro

[@dirtbikekid]

Goosebumps is right. Merk speaks for a misrepresented generation

[@TheGDOTPRODUCTIONS]

I can't believe I am just finding this now.....

[@otwus2951]

me tooooooooo

[@smxkechxppa4944]

same

[@hamdanalketbi2934]

same

[@anisbousselmi1007]

same here

[@kevinmiller5765]

All of murk is lit listen to all of it

[@RickyR956]

6 years ago and I come back often. Every word, everything said is relatable. This song is my medicine. Ladies and gentleman, you’re not alone. 🙏

[@LilySDavis]

2020 and still listening to this; it might just be me...

[@hawaiiaction.1976]

This helps me alot..

[@shmik17]

2030

[@gstratton7777]

Lily S. Davis nope

[@bxlurr2576]

nah

[@mesta5599]

Same

[@joshsummers9932]

GOOSEBUMPS EVEN ON THE 100TH TIME PLAYING BACK. DOPE SHYT.

[@megancompas3233]

Sammeeeee

[@VossaBygde]

Same ! He really went in on this one.

[@tangentargy]

Same here man

[@michaelgoodwin4083]

Back 2 years later and this still hits hard. It helped me get through a real tough time in my life. I'm good now, drug free apart from weed, good Mrs, 3 beautiful step kids and a great life. Shit does get better bur you have to put the effort in to make them changes.

[@theblackrevan9878]

So sounds an angel with smoker lungs 🔥🔥🔥

[@xRANZIDx]

Will never stop bumping this, possibly my most relatable song. Much love

[@anxietyunited]

Was already a fan of your art Merkules, these lyrics just took it to another level. Anxiety sufferer myself so I can relate. Stompdown Killaz... Peace.

[@dangelosteinhauer5426]

Word bro. I think lowkey this is what we all expeiance. He speaking some real shit.

[@Marvin-ey4sq]

Can also relate. Prescribed xanax for which I don't like to rely on.

[@NoNamesXOF]

Anxiety United I suffer from anxiety too

[@thepassivebag7506]

Anxiety United my anxiety changes so fast inside of me aching with variety and im getting tired of being away from BC

[@thegeckoguy-kq8dq]

I know what u mean

[@trueking1857]

As a man with bipolar schizophrenia depression and anxiety the lyrics of this song speak to me on another level over any song I’ve ever heard.

[@DRUNKLE_NICK]

Same!

[@jgonzo157]

I been listening for 2 years straight

[@excelicvizion8903]

Shit bro!

[@TarjanBeni]

?

[@mangnbang5703]

I play this once a week, deadset i play this once every week, your dedication my brother, love it

[@That1ThatHasIt]

When you relate to every verse in a song.

[@sinaipumba90]

who else gets goosebumps? 🙋‍♂️

[@julianrobertsen5412]

feel you man

[@czizzorxyt8526]

What's a goosebumps😂

[@ethcars]

Got that feeling too

[@SyrusTheCreation]

same lmao

[@WhoisSaul]

Me

[@tyron2479]

Haven't had a piece of music make me cry in years.. man I haven't cried in years. Thank you Merkules. Goosebumps

[@user-vr5zf5oj2c]

One of those days were you gotta listen to this on repeat a couple times

[@PrayerSLY]

Hope you're doing well man

[@bandamelyndem8106]

I became a Merkules Fan because of this track

[@marcosparedez7463]

Yuhhhh

[@kinglilj675]

Same

[@tylersebastian7964]

Same. Its still my favorite song 2 years later

[@JereWall]

I got severe anxiety disorder and live with it daily and music like this really helps! I got goosebumps all over this track. So dope Merk keep ya head up boi and keep doing you, you the man big homie. Thanks for the music.

[@stupidassho956]

Keep your head up buddy. It will get better I have been dealing with anxiety for years stay of the meds they only make things worse

[@hazeyreality4293]

His there guys.... I would just like to say that I suffer from anxiety myself . I've found something that really helps with the anxiety and that is CBD hemp oil. Please please try this if your suffering also

[@BLACCCOBRA909]

This hit me hard. Dude literally said everything I've felt. If someone asks me how anxiety and depression felt, I'd play this song.

[@zachanundson33]

I hate when people say that I “just don’t want to get help” Na. I feel like I can’t be helped.

[@aprilvincent6596]

Everyone felt that

[@rapidsg9120]

You can change that.

[@YourLclScm]

I didn't think it was particularly smart to commit suicide. There are so many beautiful things that really make your life easier. Just ignore the people who make you completely down. Just try to do what you are, which is good and I realize that you will not get it down and do it for your family and your friends. Ps: We all felt it and we got help. Let yourself be helped and then it will go better directly. We promise you then you will have a better life right away. I hope god will help you overcome this pain, please don't do it! Sorry for my bad english I hope you will get help we love you❤️

[@Fitbiker105]

Agreed for sure

[@zacherylie9579]

Dam bro I feel the same way

[@jessicaiwaskow336]

1:29 I felt that with the look and the 'every artist that I know just does them for fun, when I need those'. I don't think those words could be said better.

[@PrayerSLY]

Anyone who sees this, I had anxiety myself, since pretty much my whole life. And now I'm feeling much better since a couple months. My biggest advice: take everything one day at the time. Don't listen to yourself when you overthink all those negative scenarios you're making up everyday. I know it's easier to say, but trust me. You'll become much more confident and you'll get there. Love

[@nicoleparrish9082]

This is wonderful. All the words I can't spit out of how it feels to live with anxiety and depression. This is so comforting I play this when I start to stress and feel like people don't understand or judge or down play how bad this is. Thank u for being a voice for me and many others

[@anonymous4319]

Nicole Parrish Yea I fell you. I can relate to everything he says in the song. What's helped me a little bit is to look at is as a challenge and that once you get over it you'll be way stronger than you were before. Everyone has their own struggles and mental health definatly isn't something to take lightly nor are you any weaker then others for struggling with it. Stay strong ✌️

[@nvfx9096]

R.I.P Bro 1M 😔😔😔

[@Mo-gw5bq]

He's dead?! WTF?

[@ohkutari]

Bruh the only rip is ur profile pic

[@normanxxx]

Fuck you man. Wtf.. Kids..

[@princesskay5562]

Wtf, who died dickhead?

[@princesskay5562]

Mo Mo xxx. The guy who made the original of this?😮 I'm only guessing from other comments lol. Idk 😕

[@MrGreatStoner]

Anxiety is the real deal. It’s not just you remember that ❤ thanks for your music it helps me a lot !

[@matthewkillingsworth7963]

That hits heavy when you can envision it in your own life

[@trashdoge1217]

honestly as someone who has been depressed for a while and basically revovering I can just tell anyone who sufferes from it to keep going... since we all remember that one person we once where, we all want to be that happy person again. So trust me when i say that person isnt dead you just need to keep going and work on your issues everyone has people who care about them.

[@kalonemusic2731]

Man am i glad lyrical rap is coming back and us lyricists are getting out there, hella inspiring man keep it up

[@wowtheatious]

he died bro

[@kalonemusic2731]

@@wowtheatious merkules died??

[@quez_douglas3781]

@@kalonemusic2731 No he's talking about x i think

[@narutoking1597]

It’s only right bro

[@patrickibach2047]

X was still often mumble rapping. So he‘s not a like a typical lyrical Rapper of the past.

[@noahrunge7213]

I’m leaving this comment in hopes someone likes it and I can get a notification on my phone in the coming years. This guy got me through some shit back in college. First song I ever heard from him. ENJOY!

[@Devin711-rc9td]

Keep ur head up Noah

[@zanegardner6488]

"Am i looking for attention hardly stop. But idk until i get some " never felt a merk bar as hard as that one

[@MrStuntman199]

*Stay strong brother, You're bars are deep and hard hitting. Loving this DOPE AF*

[@ariezpye4164]

Lullaby of a dead man that's what this is

[@aljoschaz]

Your* ... god I dont want to be a grammar nazi but it is not that hard to understand that You're = You are... cmon boy

[@Kulxc]

aljoscha z stfu you’re dumb

[@dexfeycal1672]

@@aljoschaz چم ميراثالانبي ء

[@nativeangel]

****LYRICS**** Jocelyn Flores Remix (MERK) Caught in the attention, the darkest depression, lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits Is this all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, let me call the shots I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops, am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know 'till I get some. Bacardi and Coke, that's redrum Oh, you think I got it made, now, guess what? Look me in my face, motherfucker, I been fed up But you thought I looked happy...Huh, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that, though Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when there's something really wrong and you let it slip away This isn't just a part time thing, this is every single day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me it's okay, I'm goin' mental like a slave, and I can't ever get a say, and it's messin' with my brain They told me calm down, you need to breathe deeper Cole, it's just anxiety, you're not gonna die, can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, Ativan and Xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like.. "word" I think I heard of these, though 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun when I need those Every single night I'm in a cold sweat. Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet And then I'm overthinkin' every old text, and then I show up at the hospital, it's cold again They don't even take me serious, I've been goin' crazy, period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and y'all can't even see it, and it makes me furious But that's fine, though, y'all can keep your eyes closed then I'll consider takin' those pills that you gave me all at once, on the ride home The only reason that I won't, is for my girl and my family And my fans that'll hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me Yeah It's anxiety I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me I said it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me I look around and now it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me Yeah, it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and now it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me It might just be me.. Add me on snap.. 'ajr123gmb'

[@alexandermoisesdiaz4819]

ThatGuyThere Thanks GOAT

[@xavierfrodriguez]

*caught in a sad trip

[@nativeangel]

xl xfr lx 👍

[@NUTZmx]

ThatGuyThere **Caught in this head trip

[@nativeangel]

User None K

[@mahatmagundi6747]

"Depression in my veins" Still hits me to the core.. Much love!

[@NotSeanskieeRR]

fuck in a time like this. glad i found this. really speaks on the feelings most of us can’t talk about

[@pytr2196]

Flow, voice, love to the music. Just great rapper.

[@marcopolo9914]

soundcloud.com/user-187392186/jocelyn-flores-cover

[@flowerik6751]

Damn son this went in deep, lovin it ! Benzo's and any benzodiazepine addiction is truly fucked up, especiaclly when you still need the medication to function properly as a normal fuckin' adult. Nice to see you bringing up anxiety- and panic disorders and all that comes with it, we in this together fam :D !

[@bobbytoland]

thats why hes so good cuz he spits about things everyone can relate in some way or another... Especially the pill problem the world has in these times... If you aren't strugglin yourself you know many other people that are... Merk spits poetry, It's beyond regular rap now, that real shit man, SDK for life

[@awho33]

Harold Lee Thank God for the Fam... For real

[@XxBlindoutxX]

Big ass bag of weed is all I need, no pills for me. "The sicker you are, the more they make."

[@colbyweber4467]

2022 still bumping this, anyone else?

[@picklerick5253]

It’s already been 2 years. Rest in peace X. We all miss u... You were an inspiration to many of us....

[@tuer_hyper9305]

Mathew Eb I think 1 year not 2 years

[@meganlovett2924]

This song... Goosebumps don't even begin to cover it, I felt like I was being punched in the chest, It's always nice when Artists can be open about real shit. Keep up the good work Merkules

[@inactive.2048]

Megan Lovett same he is actually rapping about real stuff instead of drugs and alcohol

[@meganlovett2924]

@@inactive.2048 Exactly, wish more did that, cuz man it's needed

[@fadecowboysytyt770]

Im glad this video was on my recommended who else

[@johnmosby8162]

If youre reading this, you're loved and tomorrow the sun will shine.

[@komikall3104]

Everyone being emotional af, but like damn that mic is HUGE

[@ismailyassin1243]

SgtMatthew008 nah the actual mic in in there that’s just sound Protection

[@e2ze967]

@John Smith lol you're saying that like that is a bad thing

[@e2ze967]

like should he have a gun in his mouth? lmao

[@txc_scooter3414]

Eight2zeroEight hahahahah nice

[@Thawhid]

This is so under rated....

[@braydenhanson5504]

TigerSharkBanana 69 beats listing to nothing but mumble

[@lyndagarza5897]

TigerSharkBanana 69 100% agree

[@RVeatz]

underrated* get your shit together

[@Quince477]

Brayden Hanson clean you ears kid

[@subrosaBalumNL]

lol the song has almost 2.8 milion views...

[@dafuq4565]

bro you voice is so smokey and smooth i love it so fukin much man merk u won a huge new fan much love homie

[@dmra1929]

DafuQ Smokey, thats the word I've been looking for

[@tokethedude1103]

DafuQ bro go listen to car bars 6 by merk right now! Then come back here and thank me, by letting me know how much you dig it.?

[@dustinwilkerson5406]

I love this song. It really helps my anxiety. Thank you for making this song. I suffer from high anxiety.

[@StrongEnergy555]

Anxiety is real thank you for this song . Thank you for explaining for me

[@SimpsonsHubb]

Everybody wants to go to heaven but are to scared to die

[@entice7313]

Stolen comment

[@runarantila4973]

thats from that swedish singer Timbuktu..... well I aint scared to die, and I know theres alot like me out there. Thats some bullshit statement.

[@lujop13]

Everybody are scared of early death

[@jesuskvistus929]

You stole that from another comment, and that comment stole it from a Swedish rapper

[@zennong642]

Ice cube said that.

[@chupacabra184]

Love you Merk!

[@chupacabra184]

Fourth time I've seen this, hope the copyright doesn't take this one down!

[@eionpandaboggs7800]

Jackson Allen same

[@DRUNKLE_NICK]

Thank you, cole. You saved my life with this remix back in 2017 ❤

[@jdsinmotion]

5yrs later still banging❤

[@rickypena8852]

Dam I’ve herd this song about 100 times today pure 🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@Gravitysnap101]

This time I was faster than copyright

[@lemonman8471]

Carlos Contreras he won't get copywrited?

[@ironohyes3644]

420th like

[@stevenmillz2306]

This Remix still continues to heal me every time I hear it 4 years later.

[@chasemcintosh7521]

Yes bro

[@filemosha757]

As for me he is the most underrated MC

[@jacobbillberg9832]

That like to dislike ratio says it all. This is the first song or merks that I've heard and I gotta say it made a good first impression. Really glad I decided to check out some of his earlier tracks. He went from unknown to for me to one of my favorite artists. These lyrics just hit me straight in the heart. I have anxiety too (I think) but It feels stupid to tell my parents that. I've had heart attack scares and stroke scares. We've done all the testing possible to the heart and it's healthy and normal. But I still get those scares on a daily basis. It feels really good to have a song and artist to relate to. I've had Logic for some years but merks lyrics are more straight up and almost exactly like how I would describe how I'm feeling. Love this man and his work

[@DrAdnan]

Idk this guy but I clicked expecting fire. I’m not disappointed 🔥🔥🔥

[@sync8278]

same bro

[@1974naenae]

Me too

[@Unlockingparadoxes]

Believe in yourselves and each other and never give up on your dreams and aspirations and remember to be kind and uplifting to each other and open minded and genuine and respectful and humble.

[@adam3989]

just back here from 2017 .. daaamn almost 2024 ..

[@ianwells6278]

This helps me cope with my anxiety so much it let's me know I'm not alone in this

[@bigdeano4351]

Got to appreciate a song that relates and helps people recover from what ever they're going through in life, Well Done Merkules.

[@darkzlayer]

2020 still one of the best!!

[@xStntlcRysys]

Been listening to this at least twice a day since an hour after it dropped. Keeps my head straight

[@louievofficial8564]

“Put the gun to my head let me call the shots” 🤢🔥

[@joshuaholloway4491]

Bro after i got back from Afghanistan i went through bad anxiety depression etc. and the veterans hospital just shoved pills in my face and wouldnt even remember my name and i went to the same Doctor for 5 years 2-3 times a month until a week ago i walked out and told them where they can put those pills im tired of being a lab rat! You may feel alone and probably not many understand what you mean or where your comin from but your not alone just take it day by day thats all you can do and keep coming out with this amazing music! Keep your head up!

[@ethanandino538]

hope ur doing good bro

[@St.Calamity]

Yeah chief, all in good time.

[@thehunter6567]

Haha your fault how many innocent people have you killed 🤔

[@keithlamar3983]

HOOAH bro

[@rickybinks2305]

respect for serving your country brother, I needed to hear what you wrote thank you. god bless

[@landenboman1449]

2 of my favorite artist with one song ( fly high x ) MERK IS THE KING🕊🕊🙏🏽👑

[@wadelaurin9272]

Its been such a long road with you and your music. Got me threw some pre tough times G. Respect. Lone dawg for life.

[@hollyIsRedCoat]

You've said everything I have in mind for the last 2 years ....... "this is not a part time thing this is evry single day i have depression on my vains "

[@emogainsfit]

Lyrics: Caught in the sad trip, the dark is depressin', lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits, is it all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, lemme call it shots, I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops Am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know til I get some, Bacardi and coke.. that's redrum, all you think I got it made now Guess what? Look me in my face.. motherfucker, I've been fed up But you thought I look happy.. Hhhm, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that dope Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when it's something really wrong and you let it slip away, this isn't just a part time thing This is every singly day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me it's okay, I'm goin' mellow like a slave and I can't ever get a say and it's messin' with my brain They told me calm down, you need to breathe deeper, Cole, it's just anxiety you are not gonna die.. can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, ativan and xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like.. word I think I heard of these, tho 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun when I need those, every single night I'm in the cold sweat Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet.. And then I'm overthinkin' every old text and then I show up at the hospital, it's cole again They don't even take me serious, I've been on the crazy period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and 'ya all can't even see it and it makes me furious But that's fine, though.. y'all can keep your eyes closed and I consider takin' those pills that you gave all at ones on the ride home The only reason that I won't, it's for my girl and my family And my fans that are hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me Yeah It's anxiety I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else is there 'cause their life so carefree, I blame it on the world but now it might just be me I said it might just be me, I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me, I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me.. It might just be me, I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me, I take a look around and it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else is there 'cause their life so carefree, I blame it on the world but now it might just be me Yeah, it might just be me, I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me, I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me.. It might just be me, I take a look around and tho it might just be me, it might just be me..

[@coldxdesire122]

its actually "I show up at the hospital, it's *Cole* again"

[@vas9179]

close enough i guess.. aha

[@jeremigarske7610]

**Caught in this head trip, the darkest depression, lost in the essence caused by detention.**

[@vas9179]

Caught in this head trip, the dark is depressin, lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits Is this all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, let me call the shots I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops, am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know 'till I get some. Bacardi and Coke, that's redrum Oh, you think I got it made, now, guess what? Look me in my face, motherfucker, I been fed up But you thought I looked happy...Huh, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that, though Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when there's something really wrong and you let it slip away This isn't just a part time thing, this is every single day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me It's okay, I'm goin' mental like a slave, and I can't ever get a say, and it's messin' with my brain They told me "Calm down, you need to breathe deeper" Cole, it's just anxiety, you're not gonna die, can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, Ativan and Xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like.. "word" I think I heard of these, though 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun When I need those Every single night I'm in a cold sweat Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet And then I'm overthinkin' every old text And then I show up at the hospital, it's Cole again They don't even take me serious, I've been goin' crazy, period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and y'all can't even see it And it makes me furious But that's fine, though, y'all can keep your eyes closed And I'll consider takin' those pills that you gave me all at once On the ride home The only reason that I won't, is for my girl and my family And my fans that'll hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me there ya go bois

[@jordan744]

buddy must have had some hearing problems @@vas9179

[@dougiewarz6232]

Why did youtube just decide to show me this? When Merk is 60% of what I've ben listening too. I thought this was new. One of my new favourites.

[@wPecoreIV]

This remix is heavily underrated 🔥

[@coryroche7209]

Traveled from Halifax to PEI a week ago to see him and after meeting him as a person and knowing we relate on levels we didn't know really makes me respect him on a different level. You ain't alone and thanks for letting us know we arnt either. Your music is inspiring to the generation coming up. Really glad I got to meet you even if it was for a minute. Don't stop your music for anyoneill see you next time Goosebumps everytime

[@shanemullen7656]

Anyone else get recommended just now? Nice remix!

[@tristanfuentes5068]

yeah

[@matthewgreen7274]

Still get chills from this , "Damn it might just be me "🙏🙏

[@wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726]

cant believe he takes theese personal lyrics and gives them to the world. thats true courage!

[@prstation1363]

I listen to a lot of EDM every once in awhile you need to kick back and relax I love these gangster beats with that cool chill Vibe riding on the freeway windows down no cares in the world

[@maceface]

"The only reason I wont is for my girl and my family for the fans who get goosebumps they understand me." Im cryin now lmao bro you went off. First time I ever heard your shit but I think you just got a new fan. Keep doin you bro

[@thexragingdemon]

Listened to this song 6 years ago when it came out still something I go back and listen to. #grounded

[@tylerdelong5508]

2024 check in how do i keep ending up back here

[@louismilburn6714]

It’s called the best freestyle to listen to when you’re depressed, is it only me that listens to it to get a better perception of life?

[@joshl2188]

Bro I know u will never read this but u r the image of success to me. Watching you for years and I have a sense of pride for you. It's like a ride you don't wanna get off you keep me entertained on the daily. I've always been attached to music but your songs are a drug to me. I can't smoke without listening to some Merk. Thank you for providing happiness to our lives through the struggle of yours!

[@grosspotato5682]

john y talking about how the hospital always cold if he had been through some s*** like that you would know

[@hshshshshhshshsh2682]

gross potato he’s emphasizing the fact the doctors are always see him I show up in the hospital “it’s COLE again

[@alisharobichaud2551]

Thank you.. just thank you! 🙏

[@jameswhite6056]

Alisha Robichaud 🔥

[@deanroberts4629]

Merkules changed my life with this one. Isolated in psych wards for weeks on end with nothing but my own thoughts.

[@jayperez8461]

Damn merk a lot of your music has pulled me out of a dark place a few times... much love man no joke

[@darkesthours7309]

Ive been in depression for 8 years now almost 9 and this song identifies me fully, i cried while getting goosebumps thanks for this remix and i hope u keep doing good work my friend

[@stephenhemstrought197]

DarkestHours me to man me to

[@XxBlindoutxX]

if your depressed your living in past. move forward, ive dealt with depression for 21 years.

[@butwhy.5498]

@@XxBlindoutxX the difficulty of trying to move on from the past is easier saying than doing depression can be caused from traumatic events that happened in the past

[@irismontano7801]

2019??? Anyone Edit: this is the most likes I ever had!!!

[@skateboard3130]

Iris Montano i love this i memorized it

[@jhiatt1516]

Popped up in my recommended, Am glad it did

[@truebeats6568]

Justin Hiatt same

[@Mana_forge]

Yes man

[@ohpizzy4766]

noone cares when your watching tbh.

[@bigjayhunter7473]

He killed that

[@xDamonLee]

Anxiety and depression are horrible demons. The people who say, "oh yeah I've got anxiety and depression" No, you'll know when you have it. It weighs you down tremendously. You keep a smile on your face but deep down you wanna jump off the nearest roof. Or You wait for something to happen that'll end it instead. Your chest is always filled with an uneasy pressure that never goes away. It'll haunt you.

[@its_a_salt_ed]

2021 I'm still hear listening to this on repeat, probably why it hit 8mil views!!

[@kbenjamin2532]

If anybody is suffering from depression or anxiety, your not Alone ♥️♥️ keep your head up and stay positive

[@jessicaiwaskow336]

Because every single rapper I know just does them for fun, but I need those. I felt that

[@sgt_courier220]

3 years ago this remix saved me from leaving this world, Long Live Murkules💪 ML&R

[@kimberlygonzales6846]

relatable for sure

[@4000YearsAhead]

Rest easy, Prince X

[@chrismartin1036]

Straight up bro anxiety and depression fuckin suck and noone else understands what your going through unless they've been there themselves. So before anyone goes and judges ppl step back and think what their going thru.

[@davidrutherford5173]

I feel this more then most songs Merk. If it weren't for you, I might not be here. You're music lifts me just enough, to keep going.

[@sindrehanssen1522]

Hang in there brother !