Milk dried up, postpartum depression and my Reglan experience (Day 595)

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[@ipickedjake]

That little laugh is so precious. Please don't beat yourself up over the milk loss. You have been so dedicated. I am so impressed with what you have done.

[@jessicatheriot1115]

I am so sorry about your milk. I know it is heart breaking but you did everything you can and that's all you can do. You are an awesome mom and anytime you forget that look at your beautiful advanced son.

[@jasminestaples3416]

My phone is about to die but I wanted to leave a quick comment I haven't even finished the video yet and I just want to say that you're awesome and now I know that I'm not alone so thank you!! 👍😊

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

Hugs ❤️❤️❤️

[@irenemathieson4229]

Look at Jackson sitting all by himself! What a clever boy! I just love him laughing at the dogs. You are a great mom, just look at your healthy, happy, advanced baby if ever you doubt yourself.

[@niinakukkola6150]

so sorry about your milk. if anyone i know, you have really done everything. i hear people say they have tried everything and sometimes i think "have you really", but in your case i really really know you have tried everything. i am so sorry. but at least you can make him solids now. you gave him all the breastmilk you could and that makes a world of diffirence for his immune system. every drop counts. you are such a good mommy, Jackson is blessed!

[@trishainluv2834]

You're doing awesome! You and Jackson have been through so much. Praying things start looking up

[@letthetreessing]

I think you're so incredible. I dont watch KZbin much but I subscribed to yours because you're just amazing. you're a wonderful mother. and so strong!

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+Chelsey Brown thank you so much Chelsey. You are so kind!

[@jessicaross941]

I had the same reaction to stopping reglan. Hang in there! You sound super aware of where you are. Good luck!

[@Virk1947]

You are such an amazing mom.. I am very proud of you for being honest.. your son is adorable... God bless you and your family!!

[@jeannienolte5877]

Heather, I am so sorry that you are going through so much. You must take care of you first. Prayers and good thoughts sent.

[@SweetEpiphanies]

I had milk supply issues too and was worried about trying Reglan for all the reasons you said. Reglan blocks seratonin in your brain. Seratonin is a happy neurotransmitter so now the balance is all off so you may need to go on an anti anxiety/depressant for a bit just to restore the balance that the reglan messed up. I am so sorry for the struggle with milk supply that you went through. I can totally empathize.

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+SweetEpiphanies I had to start Lexapro to rebalance everything. It was definitely the Reglan. I went down hill so fast it was crazy.

[@raykingtv2351]

@@FibroFightingBarbie what !!! I experienced the same thing with reglan, it was definitely the reglan, I had anxiety out of this world, I had nervous breakdown due to reglan, muscle twitches very severe anxiety and depression and suicidal thoughts it was horrible I’m fighting this with a lawyer now since took that I’ve been a little off ! This is not right and I’m highly upset !

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

@@raykingtv2351 it was a terrible experience for me too. Took me to such a dark place. My son is now 4, it took me forever to overcome thay depression.

[@Madgeslife]

You are an awesome momma and wife :) I love to hear Jackson giggle and talk. He is just too darn adorable. I know what you mean about feeling tired all the time, this is me on the weekend. I sleep and lay around all weekend because nothing sounds enjoyable but sleep. I hope you're feeling better day by day and that you and your family are doing well. Blessings and soft hugs.

[@bellavitarox7442]

I'm sorry your milk dried up. -hugs- I have pretty bad OCD (diagnosed a few years ago) and it really does drain me and causes anxiety. Thanks for bringing some attention to the disorder and especially about the less talked about part about the intrusive thoughts. I hope your symptoms get less and you can feel more pleasant again. I also wanna say that I love how goofy you are in your dollar tree videos etc. Your recent video of showing Jackson's Christmas gifts made me laugh so much. First good laugh I had actually had in a while - so thank you. I hope you can feel better soon - depression, OCD, anxiety it's all so difficult. You're a tough mama!

[@bellavitarox7442]

Idk why the hugs got crossed out oops

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+bellavita rox thank you so much! Intrusive thoughts is definitely not talked about enough, I think because those of us that suffer with it do not want the stigma that comes along with it. People who do not understand its something we would never do or thoughts we do not want to have get freaked out when we talk about them.

[@thebevanslife9857]

I know the feeling.. i couldnt eat and cried a lot when i came to the realization that i couldnt produce milk for my baby. honestly it is not your fault at all, stuff happens in life and not everything can go our way. I love you girl! i will keep you in my prayers. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+Jamie Bevans thank you for always being so supportive Jamie! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@shelleyt8707]

My heart goes out to you so much with this video and for several different reasons! I know it probably sounds strange but I feel a connection to you because I suffer from several of the same things so I know how you feel. You go above and beyond on everything for Jackson and that makes you a fantastic mother! The haters can step aside because I love seeing your personality in the videos and Jackson's as well........He has the cutest laugh ever

[@gailhouston5876]

Darlin you are such an excellent mother.....just the best a mother can be. It's been a long and winding journey for you since tater tot came into the world. Combine that with the medicine and the Fibro (which brings chronic fatigue) not to mention having an infant to keep up with....you can't help but be exhausted!!! God bless you .....it's going to get better I just know it! Love n hugs oxo :) P.S...I love to watch him eat from a spoon..so cute!

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+Gail Houston Thank you so much Gail! Xo

[@MrsBozoiyo]

Thumbs up Heather for your hard work! A lot of women would have given up and to do all that and feel like crap most of the time is admirable :) Jackson is in good hands regardless of setbacks like these!

[@debilles3307]

I hope you can get things sorted out quickly! Feel better soon!

[@JanaD1985]

I am so sorry honey :( my milk dried up at 3 months after I had tried everything too. I can't remember if you have pcos? I do and was told that that happens with pcos. Really stinks . I'm sending you a big hug. But there's no reason to feel bad about it ! A fed baby is best ️xoxo

[@bpfeimst]

you are an awesome mom! I totally understand the emotions that come with not being able to breastfeed your son. but just know that your son is still going to love you no matter what.

[@doreenmaclean4953]

Heather🌹💕, sorry about your milk. It does happen, but think of all the months, that Jackson did get to nurse. He got a lot of good stuff from your milk. My baby loved peas when he first ate lol. Jackson, is the happiest, smiliest baby ever. He melts my heart. I'm sorry that you are having to go through more things hun. You and Jackson have gone through so much. Last yr my friend was taking that med and weaned of properly and went into a deep depression. She was tired all the time and I would help with the baby so she could rest. I know when I went into a depression out of the blue, it was scarey because a lot of things I loved, I lost interest in, like gardening, book scrapping, going out, etc. The Dr said he thought my thyroid issues and meds may have caused this. I'm doing better, but it can be hard to dig deep to get out of that dark hole. Your looking awesome Heather, and your smile brightens up the room. Sending lots of love, light and positive prayers, that you will get all these health issues resolved and can move forward, feeling a lot better. I also pray that your energy level will return to the normal range. I totally have no energy at all, right now. I had 9 big flares since March. I noticed with me when depressed, or have low energy, my flares hurt more and last longer. It sucks not feeling really good everyday and it does make life much harder to get through. I used to get all my housework done in an hour, now it takes almost 3 hours. However, the housework can wait, time for you to rest with Jackson and do things when you feel up to it. Your doing quite well Heather, with a new baby 2 fur babies, a hubby and a house, you are doing a fantastic job💕Take care and have fun at the Pumpkin Patch. I bet Liam and Jackson will love that🎈🎈❤❤. Ilysvm, my friend🌹💕💕.

[@lovewenwin]

Akathisia can be caused by antipsychotic, anti-seizure, and tin nausea, psychiatric drugs

[@mandiejonsen]

I'm sorry about your milk. You did everything but I know it's very sad. It happened to me at 6 weeks.

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+Mandy Johnson thank you Mandy!

[@goldhoopsNdiamonds]

On the subject you discussed of reglan...I feel you honey. I'm glad you have your baby...well toddler now. I'll be trying Reglan very soon for milk supply.

[@karenpate4289]

I'm so sorry about your milk. You tried so hard. Bless your heart you must be exhausted. 😕

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+karen pate thank you Karen ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@yurivlogs8419]

So did it increase your milk supply while you were on it ??

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

Not at all

[@susannahsaurus]

Sorry if I missed if you mentioned it, but I'm assuming LLL advised you to switch out your pump membranes and confirm flange sizes? Also leaving this comment if someone else is struggling and hasn't tried this yet. Either way, fed is best! Moms are their own worst critics.

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+susannahsaurus yup they sure did! we did that early on, had to special order small ones. :)

[@amymorales5929]

I'm experiencing the same. Had a traumatic birth emergency csection and blood transfusions. I never thought of the fibromyalgia part. Ughhhh I'm coming off reglan and I'm drying up. I'm sooo sad.

[@AtomicMeatloaf]

I'm in the process of trying to boost my milk supply. I'm 5 weeks pp and I have never produced enough to keep up with my son. It seems like no matter what I do, it's not enough, it's not positively affecting my supply. I know you were having blood pressure issues, were you ever on Hydrochlorothiazide? I'm on that and Labetalol, still, because my BP hasn't evened out after delivering my son, and even though both medications are safe for breastfeeding, I'm wondering if the Hydrochlorothiazide is affecting my supply since it is essentially a diuretic. I'm paranoid that it's getting rid of the extra water I need to help produce milk. :( it's upsetting because my big plan was to exclusively breastfeed my son and the circumstances of my delivery and the first days after have really fucked it all up for me :(

[@appletinImom0f5]

U gave it all u had.. That's ok!! Give urself grace.. I just started reglan cuz my baby #10 is in Nicu and I had mastitis and it causes alot of stuff which stoped my milk supply.. I used it before tho with no issue.. So we will see.. Thanks for sharing..

[@obeykitten]

you have done so well to come this far hes at least had some breast milk to build up his immune system some is better than non xx

[@prettybianca91]

I went threw the intrusive thoughts as soon as I had the baby and I had to get counseling from it I got really scared that I had postpartum depression they assured me it wasent but I finally have peace with it and now I don't get the crazy thoughts as much anymore but I think a lot of moms go threw it honestly you worry and worry and worry we are just on mommy mode all the time and the milk I have pcos as well and my milk hasn't dried up I really think it has to with stressing I try not to stress and I drink so much water to get my milk supply going sometimes I feel like omg I have no more milk coming and I am reassured when I see milk in the nipple shield and yup am still using the nipple shield and my baby's about to be 6 months 😑it's been so hard to get her off the nipple shield but anyways i am glad you are getting help and am glad you are very open about it a lot of women need to hear this and it helpful ☺️

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+beautifulbee713 thank you so much! I had to use a shield too they are a pain! You're a trooper for having to use it 6 month thats got to be tough. I was lucky Jackson finally started latching close to 2 months.

[@morgan6617]

Have you ever tried going fully raw? Ive seen many people who have gone fully raw and got rid of several allergies and diseases. For example, fullyrawkristina. In addition, theres this nutritionist called karen hurd who specializes in curing diseases like chronz and fibromalaygia through food. She has changed my life. I really hope you give her a call and see her suggestions. Hope you feel better!

[@laurasarvis1082]

People don't understand. We try everything under the sun to become pregnant. Why not do the same thing with breast feeding. I know me telling you that there wasn't anything else you could have done..Won't make it any better. Ur one strong ass woman and I know u will pull through. I am a die hard Halloween fan and have been waiting to see ur decorations.

[@kissykatt-1810]

I wanna stsrt doing youtube videos now. It just seems like a great place to video document your life.

[@kissykatt-1810]

I had a drean like that! Omg i had a dream i fell on top of my daughter and she swallowed all her teeth and puked her guts out. I have horrible nightmares. Omg i need to take whatever medicine you take. Please message me what you are prescribed. I have horrible thoughts ALL the time

[@milagros104]

Fuck... I know the feeling. I’m near 3rd month of breastfeeding and only make just enough for her feeding. I cried sooooo much. Reglan is bs, bad ppa and ppd. :( Still working on my supply.

[@appletinImom0f5]

Sorry.. surplina helped me alot..

[@78tmwesley]

try a supplement call fenugreek it can bring it back..

[@FibroFightingBarbie]

+Rio Wesley took that the whole 4 months. It didn't help much.