mitski - first love/late spring (lyrics)

[@zezeNice]

why the fuck does a video i made when i was bored have 1 million views now thank u tho carry on with ur crying

[@lorddeesnutsthe5th244]

THANK YOU FOR THIS THO

[@catslol4226]

Yes

[@iridescent_rain5939]

GOODBYE

[@handlelabra]

we needed the lyrics to cry harder you see 🥲

[@sarahs7808]

THANK YOUU

[@perfildogoogle7130]

"and i was so young when I behaved 25 yet now i found I've grown into a tall child"

[@b4lenci]

god damnit

[@fionagallagherapologist5968]

its the way i relate to that line sm .

[@lanny007]

crying

[@heyysophie9928]

and that’s on not developing healthy coping skills 🤖

[@kenmakozume9168]

God damn

[@xmay_mayx3383]

if anyone is wondering, the japanese in the chorus (胸がはち切れそうで) is pronounced as “Mune ga hachikire-sōde” and means “my chest seems like it is going to burst” ♡

[@e6026]

THANK YOU!!

[@angelinadeleon1268]

I can't copy and paste

[@crystalgymnast4801]

thanks for telling us!

[@mommywithnokidsss]

You’re a peach 🍑 thank you ❤

[@Jwhy...]

ahh ty ty

[@soupiaaa]

“And I was so young when I behaved twenty five, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child” This is on of the most relatable lyrics I’ve heard in a long time

[@satanwithoutskeletonhats7867]

Yesssssssss never related to anything more

[@Cosmic-Catt]

Same....

[@cirquedutournesol]

happy birthday to me

[@Joebama87]

​@@cirquedutournesolHappy birthday!! 🎉🎉

[@We1rdK0re_Ellie]

Same!! I feel like I aged backwards in mental when I age forward in physical.

[@shartface929]

y'all i hope ur okay

[@raylynncambray5405]

I hope ur good too :)

[@ivey-i]

i hope ur okay :')

[@brielle9113]

i’m not

[@aaaa-be5ck]

definitely not rn but i hope you're okay

[@Marie-bt9kr]

@@brielle9113 are u better bestie? do u wanna talk

[@irma7220]

it hurts so much when you were forced to mature and "act" like a woman when you were so young. this song is so important to me, makes me cry about the childhood i never got to have :/

[@cherimoya3601]

for real, 14 year old girls shouldn't have to take care of their young siblings.

[@mitskislovechild]

@@cherimoya3601 i started doing that when i was 7, took care of a brat who gets me in trouble, everything she does, everytime she gets hurt, even though im not there, its always my fault

[@Xylopi]

@@mitskislovechild im so sorry about that! im still young and my mom expects me to be like her when she was younger; cleaning, mature, taking care of her younger siblings but in reality it breaks my heart that she has such high expectations of me. just let me live my life in peace who knows maybe i dont want children or to get married in the future. everytime my youngest sister cries its all on me and my other siblings, she calls us “disgraces” when we do the smallest thing wrong and compares us to her when she was young and besides it will only stress me out even more taking care of my stubborn sister - but with that aside i hope youre doing well you deserve to be happy :)

[@mira9667]

@@cherimoya3601 this is so true, I was 14 when I had to take care of my siblings after my parents had a pretty bad divorce. I'm 18 now yet I feel so old like I never got a childhood.

[@absurdist_666]

Same

[@danna7656]

I love the hidden symbolism in this song "The night breeze carries, something sweet. A peach tree" A peach tree symbolizes longevity meaning long and healthy life. This song is about the person being afraid of being loved. "Please hurry leave me I can't breathe please don't say you love me. My heart is about to burst" I love Mitski's songwriting so much could talk about this for hours

[@NikitaVerryne]

Reminds me of a song I wrote where it says "I'm afraid of what I can't control is like a paralysis demon, bury my heart 6ft into yours, " it's actually inspired by washing machine heart. But the fear of love is like this one.

[@thenightriterpartii7724]

​@@NikitaVerryneyou should keep writing. It can be just for fun or a career but, I recommend you continue. From a fellow writer, ( not music but, like stories ).

[@NikitaVerryne]

@@thenightriterpartii7724 fun fact, I write stories too. : ) Both for fun and careers. My stage name will be panic, because my artstyle is goth

[@Am-fv6lh]

this changed my life

[@sagewright5331]

Omg you put it into words I will be referring to this when explaining this song

[@Kyhaha34]

I hate when people say I love you because they won't mean it forever, but at the same time I love hearing it every once in a while.

[@rae.the.realest8797]

I don't think you ever really stop loving someone. Maybe not romantically, but I still love even the people that I'm not friends with anymore. Love can change and develop.

[@pruriient]

i’d rather have them say it once and mean it then say it multiple times with no meaning , but i just crave validation so bad because of all the things i didnt recieve as a child

[@miyaadabae_6618]

I wish they could mean it forever

[@gabep8340]

at least haseul loves us

[@Kyhaha34]

@@gabep8340 fr 🙏

[@violets.and.violets]

The Japanese means “My heart is going to burst”

[@musikody890]

thank you!!

[@aubreyannonorato7912]

i think its chest but i am not 100% sure-

[@lucatripp7129]

i realize it's kinda off topic but does anyone know of a good place to stream newly released series online ?

[@lucatripp7129]

@Matthew Thaddeus Thanks, I signed up and it seems to work =) Appreciate it !!

[@matthewthaddeus6673]

@Luca Tripp you are welcome :)

[@אפיהנמר-ר5ז]

Everyone always ask:”oh their listening to mitski I hope their ok” and never “I wonder if mitski is ok”

[@justranch9872]

Mitski is a Capricorn moon she’s definitely not ok

[@l0vedive]

​@@justranch9872what💀 u mean the signs?

[@Potatochipformycubs]

@@justranch9872ain’t no way

[@Yukasensei1]

They all know the answer

[@medinaamra5860]

real :(

[@jupiter5238]

“please don’t say you love me” hits so hard. i’ve always struggled with a crippling low self esteem, and i’ve always had a people-pleasing complex. i’m always trying to please people for validation but whenever anyone says they love me or appreciate me i want to push them away. i want someone to love me but i feel guilty receiving love because i feel i’m not worthy. it’s a constant push and pull. edit: i got into typology a bit ago and looking back on this comment, i realize it’s a dead giveaway that i’m an insecure enneagram 2

[@araclaudia27]

hello, i've read your comment and i just wanna let you know that ur not alone and feel the exact same way:)

[@rock-js4xp]

Hun i understand that feeling a little too well, but please know that you are infact deserving of love 💘 and I love you

[@ren-ee2zp]

no because you literally described me

[@jupiter5238]

@@ren-ee2zp BAE THE LAIN PFP, pls hang in there for me. it’s hard but we got this :))

[@T.O__]

Pls are we the same person??

[@god-rj5wf]

1:00 GET SOME REST TALL CHILD YOU CAN’T KEEP BURNING THE CANDLE AT BOTH ENDS

[@tesskondora3515]

I've referenced both this song and that line from John Mulaney when talking to my little sister cause she's 2 years younger than me and 5'9", she is a tall child who sleeps not at all

[@3bugsinatrenchcoat]

woah, that tall child looks terrible!

[@Oli0987]

Thanks TwT

[@cheesydelphox1552]

HAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHA. LOOK AT THAT HIGH WAISTED MAN HE'S GOT FEMININE HIPS

[@87wendyangel]

@@cheesydelphox1552 that’s the thing i’m sensitive about!!!!

[@coolsaige]

for anyone wondering how to pronounce “胸がはち切れそうで” it’s “Mune ga hachikire-sōde” have fun singing along 😊

[@nawarlamarti]

Thank youu

[@casimirsinferno]

What does it mean?

[@coolsaige]

@@casimirsinferno i believe something along the lines of “i feel like my heart will burst”

[@onlyyemii]

OH I WAS DOING IT RIGHT THE WHOLE TIME??? i dont know any japanese.

[@ZoetatZtvideos]

Thank you

[@honorary508]

'I was so young when I behaved twenty-five yet now I find I've grown into a tall child' when I was little I was mature, I was responsible and smart. now I feel like a child, and I am one but I thought I would act like an adult now. but instead, I'm having my childhood too late and now im a tall baby

[@haven_is_lit_woods5502]

I feel the same, as I’ve raised 7 kids when I was just a kid as well 👍.

[@arnoldthotticus4844]

Im only 17 yet I drink but I feel so emotional like a child. I feel so in the middle of this phrase 😳

[@miyaadabae_6618]

Felt

[@estherm.5500]

babes same lmao

[@Human00002]

Same

[@destinyleak9099]

listening to this for the first time guys!

[@destinyleak9099]

when is it my turn to be happy.

[@ryovampz]

i kin this

[@jujiper]

WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY TO ME

[@abriiiii]

@@ryovampz i like your pfp

[@dulcedelosantos2354]

Same

[@MC.9000]

"And I don't wanna go home yet, let me walk to the top of the big night sky" Is definitely my favourite line.

[@chibekaisabellturner4651]

Same here

[@k-onenthusiast5234]

same

[@nursegeeismymother]

GWEN PFP!!!

[@yuiiyamada8258]

This is such a comfort song, especially the part that’s like “ so please hurry, leave me, I can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” and it hurts so much bc I know they will all leave soon. They’re slowly getting bored of me. And I’m not ready. I should stop getting attached to people all together. I hate it when people say they care and that they love me but they never do. I’ll never believe anyone loves me.

[@cattopabac3854]

you will be truly loved, you deserve love

[@anchalee9724]

Yea! Someone will truly love you one day, I promise

[@ang3lm4ry]

literally going through this rn :’))

[@caidenbond1988]

RIGHT and it hurts to see them try and make me feel loved.

[@nana21._.]

It all hurts 💔

[@tesskondora3515]

"Please hurry leave me I can't breathe, please don't say you love me" As someone who's been abandoned a lot and had to burn bridges with people I still love, that hits home because thanks to my past I'm scared of connecting with people and getting close to them, expecting them to just leave anyway. It hurts worst if they say they love me while they leave.

[@burrowingentity]

you're not alone my friend, it really does suck, but I wish you the best-

[@MothmanBaddie]

Well said!

[@alexvalentine5505]

I love you Tess

[@rachael2195]

same

[@ewbae3402]

me too, i become friends with people & always expect them to leave & don’t end caring. im tired of feeling like all my relationships are not worth anything bc they’ll leave me. a boy i loved use to leave me all the time till one point he never returned. it doesn’t affect me when people leave but it does hurt a little bc it just proves your right. people say “people come & go” yet those are the people who leave you.. i don’t understand

[@poycicle1953]

Just recently got diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder and I went back to listen this song. The lyrics “So please hurry leave me. I can’t breathe. please don’t say you love me.” relates to me so much because I just feel like I don’t deserve love. I hate how I look, I feel ugly and I just hate myself. So I’m hopeful no one begins to fall in love with me because I WILL push them away and I don’t want to hurt them. I just can’t help but push people away and it’s hard to stop.

[@catteomi]

Just like me fr

[@NikitaVerryne]

I can relate.

[@patriciasaldanha25]

this feeling is so accurate. I feel the same way too but I hope you feel mercy towards yourself and know that you deserve more than you think.

[@ej-ej49]

🫂

[@SamanthaDelRey]

;;; ❤

[@katball2679]

" One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge I'm on baby " All her songs are so soulful and relatable. I love it and hate it

[@yiitunga9256]

Every time I listen to mitski, I think of unsuccesful long distance love. And I surrender myself to the warm arms of melancholy and rage because ı hate a to be losser

[@pruriient]

currently balling my eyes out, listening to this for the first time , and knowing nobody gives a shit about me and im nobodys first option, i treat everyone as a close friend and im just their side character :(

[@pruriient]

im alot happier today, i’m trying to see it as if im my own main character and i pick whos in my life , like the director

[@salems_lot]

@@pruriient I'm glad you're better

[@faithautumn28]

i give a shit abt u

[@miyaadabae_6618]

felt

[@NoeBIchez]

Honestly, i can relate, so you're not alone

[@ihateithere6961]

Lmao this song is literally the only thing I have left Edit: I’d like to thank everyone for the kind words. I wasn’t doing so well when I commented this, but things are starting to look up ^^

[@elentiya5479]

honestly same

[@ratb4st4rd30]

.. u good?

[@Vanillaville]

i hope you are doing okay...

[@fionagallagherapologist5968]

hii i hope ur doing ok today :)

[@simmynaik6177]

hope you are doing okay today

[@starrysoups]

i wonder if mitski is okay . imagine what she had to go through to make music like this

[@sageee350]

Fr

[@chqrliaustin3151]

fr

[@rayaneben3588]

Why did she disappear and where ?? Cuz there's literally no information about her

[@velvethoebar]

@@rayaneben3588 frr:(( she doesnt even have any social medias

[@lugmagyatt]

Do ya’ll think Mitski’s going through a toxic relationship? Almost all of her songs are like about toxic relationships if you think about it.

[@Sam-qh6ob]

This song always make me tear up. Especially at the "please don't say you love me" part. It makes me think of my mom. She's so bittersweet. One moment she's telling me about how she loves me and the next she says I'm an entitled brat who doesn't know anything and yells at me and say so many horrible things. But then after that she goes right back to saying she loves me as if she never said any of the things before. And because of her I had to grow up and mature to fast to survive. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a normal childhood.

[@ellecharlie6822]

It's the same for me but with my father

[@itsrainingtacos4774]

Same

[@ronimydear98]

there is no normal childhood...even the kids on tv sitcoms have had shitty lives. that's the reality behind it.

[@whos.aishaaa]

same for me, but with both my parents. are you okay?? it's so frustrating, like you can't even express it.

[@KiraCrimsonXX]

Damn...

[@littlebluebutton97]

How does she know every feeling I’ve ever felt

[@miyaadabae_6618]

Fr

[@Weeboyetodd]

Cause everyone feels these feelings lol

[@camii7ss]

por eso no le cuentes tus problemas a mitski

[@B1llllllllll7y]

@@Weeboyetodd go

[@kqiri]

@@Weeboyetodd get out.

[@noctifer.]

As someone who is terrified of being abandoned deep inside, it hurts so beautifully to hear these kinds of lyrics

[@niamhthomas6966]

Fr tho

[@theotakupunk3484]

1212

[@hxpeko]

"lately i've been crying like a tall child." "so please, hurry, leave me, i cant breathe." "please don't say you love me." "and i was so young when I behaved 25 yet now i found I've grown into a tall child." god those struck me

[@nyl1da720]

the way i relate to the song is a lot different from other’s. when she says, “so please, hurry, leave me, i can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” it reminds me of how at times, i just want them to leave me so i don’t get even more attached. when she says, “tell me “don’t do i can crawl back in” it reminds me of when i try to leave then unintentionally and they come to me and ask why i’m distancing from them and they tell me they miss me or care about me. when they say that, i get even more attached because i know that they “actually care”

[@aichalo6326]

i just started crying i felt your text so much

[@miakavs830]

THIS OMFG

[@morxsine]

me

[@kimrodriguez6544]

THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL U PUT IT IN WORDS

[@sincerelymaya]

same

[@milkyuuuu]

I miss you so much and you're not even gone yet.

[@melindaflowers2864]

This hit hard.

[@chellereyes3911]

i can tell hes getting ready to go tho

[@Diana-hu4sx]

felt this on a spiritual level

[@cadenceolivia6304]

Ugh I’m not in a relationship but I relate so hard

[@leslification]

we grew distant i wanna cry so bad it hurts so much after all that she said to me, all the i love you and i can’t believe she’s gones

[@andre.avalo3994]

"i was mature but i was still a child" -the vibes of this song

[@abriiiii]

this is my comfort song, am i actually ok?

[@sunitaoot3614]

We are not ok, and that’s ok to admit

[@buzzblebee9763]

No bestie, respectfully, you’re not okay❤️

[@abriiiii]

@@buzzblebee9763 ok thanks love ❤️

[@ultrabatman55]

respectfully, no

[@lemonlover22]

Ya

[@sekaiixhi]

i have bpd and somehow it explains a lot of my life with bpd, it makes me sad

[@plaguedoc0077]

Ah dude same :’))))

[@Max-mn4wc]

SAME

[@m9rcelin3]

Same and I feel it getting bad again

[@rachel-on2ut]

:(

[@sekaiixhi]

@@m9rcelin3 i'm sorry to hear that :( i'd love to help, to erase bpd from everyone bc we all deserve a healthy and happy life without struggling, but all i can say is that you are not alone and you've got this.

[@Mish-Mishka]

As an Insecure, lost, unlovable and incapable of love person, I appreciate this song SO much

[@joomblee]

I think I could be happier

[@hollisrut.8759]

Bro same....I want to be happy but anxiety is eating me alive and I'm sick of feeling like shit some days and just ok on others

[@lordladybug4398]

You can

[@gretamay9150]

@@hollisrut.8759 It is so exhausting to be anxious all the time. Something totally involuntary shouldn’t take so much physical effort. I hope you’re doing alright

[@hollisrut.8759]

@@gretamay9150 sorry for the late reply but thank you. I'm getting better luckily, I've had a lot of great days where I feel more like myself and I barely feel half as anxious as I did a couple months ago. So, to anyone seeing this, it does get better. You worse days feel much worse than they are. And its hard to look bad at good days and see anything but the negative. But I'm slowly lifting the veil of gloominess that was put on every day, and I try to stay positive and keep fighting everyday. Get help if you need, take meds if you need, but most importantly, dont avoid the things you fear the most. If you are like me who is terrified of getting sick and having something wrong with me, to to that loud, crowded, food filled event with high expectations. You will most likely have fun. If you struggle with social situation, go up and talk to the other person awkwardly standing by themselves. There is always someone else who feels just as left out. Don't stay at home just bc you are afraid of having a bad time. You will probably have a blast. If you are afraid of having a panic attack, go on that long road trip where you are driving anyways. If you have panic attacks frequently, let the person who's sitting in the passengers seat next to you ways you calm down or how you act when you are having one. And say you have one. Just pull over. If people laugh or get mad at you for somsthing you can't control, then they are shit heads, and you shouldn't worry about what they think bc they are either ignorant or won't try to understand in the first place. And I realize it's easier said then done. But after months of trying to 'cure my anxiety', Ive realized facing the fact that I might get sick, I might have an anxiety attack, I might not have a good time, but going anyways is the best way to take control of it.

[@SofiaJP]

I kinda kin this comment

[@Riho.Obara124]

When you refuse to receive any love or affection from them anymore because you feel guilty that they’re treating you with so much kindness when in reality you’re not good of a person as they think you are, are what these lyrics mean to me. This one hits so much.

[@Rithuuz]

Bro this thiss one I was searching for this😭

[@maikavera7726]

I'm afraid the person i like might be feeling this. And i'm just questioning if i should leave her, though i just found this music for her and i love her so much ❤😢💙 idk how to help her

[@Kay-ofc]

i relate to this so much 😭😭

[@nursegeeismymother]

Dude I feel exactly like this :'( I feel like I don't deserve so much adoration from my partner

[@jaden8586]

"and I don't wanna go home yet, let me walk to the top of the big night sky" I relate to this line a lot. I often find myself daydreaming about my future and what I could accomplish, yet I always get shadowed down by the crushing realities of my life and the environment surronding it. To me, this line means not wanting to be disturbed or go back to reality, but wanting to be able to dream about the evergoing and stellar possibilites of your future/imagination, even if it's just for a little bit more.

[@ratb4st4rd30]

i remember late evenings when my mom would blow dry my hair whilst i sat and tried to hear over the hairdryer to watch tv with my brother, and im sad cuz everyones getting old

[@leakekse2768]

Yep I’m crying

[@wasabilover1293]

Growing up is one of my biggest fears, i feel like i missed childhood and teenage years even thought...they havent passed yet.

[@bonecag3]

I used to watch my older sister draw anime in her room. We were so close but then she moved away and we kind of grew apart and that makes me really sad lmao

[@beatrizngz3011]

i have the same exact memory 😭🥰

[@nostalgic8295]

this comment made me cry 😭

[@noirette.mp4]

"so please hurry leave me, i can't breath, please don't say you love me" no i don't have a low self-esteem, i love myself, i love who i am right now. i also love the idea of romance, dream about it all day long. imagine being in a relationship, look at each other, eyes full of honey and kisses sweet like apple pie, little promises and be together till dawn. i love all parts of it. but i guess romance isn't for all of us. every time people say they have feelings for me, i got scared and run away from them. i also want to be in love, but i'm not ready to take risks, leaving something you love might be painful, so why don't we cut it off in the first place?

[@RowsOfTeeth]

I'm in the same boat here with ya Sometimes you are just hurt and you don't want to add to it. taking a risk is scary, sometimes you can do it but other times you just need time to get better.

[@angstylemonsartistiq5648]

I feel the same way and I’m not sure whether it is my commitment issues or a yet unknown reason..

[@hanniequoka]

That’s what I do too ☹️

[@yuliaadinda8992]

THIS..

[@ninamasson3866]

Two years ago I fell in love and let myself be loved back, taking in the warm feelings of first love, but also the freezing anguish of it all, the stress of hurting and being hurt. A year ago he broke my heart to pieces but oh god does it feel good now. To know I've loved and accepted being loved back, that I've survived all that was so terrifying. It'd have been easier to cut it from the start, but now I'm not afraid anymore and looking forward to the next thing. I hope all who stand alone in self preservation will find courage in letting go, whether embraced back or left temporarily broken, may they feel as alive and brave as I do now

[@ariana7027]

Starting around 1:08 you can hear a male voice singing in the back and I just noticed this detail but it just makes it so much better 😭

[@pinkmilkshake1971]

please don’t say you love me :(

[@brattydouchebagthethird4898]

I don't love you

[@uhmm_yeahh2511]

I love you

[@pinkmilkshake1971]

@@uhmm_yeahh2511 :D ily2

[@lovemizu2921]

i hate you

[@ultrabatman55]

i wont

[@fairyintheblue2407]

Scrolling trough this comment section, I've seen that everybody relates to these lyrics differently. To me the " please don't love me" is- pushing people away because I don't think I'll ever be loveable. I've always felt like no one will ever see me as the person who will ever be loved, neither me and I can't accept the fact that someone will "love" me. I just can't trust people who say that they love me

[@poingucac]

mitski is the first artist that i go to whenever im upset about something. she just gets in my feels. most of the time i cant even relate to her lyrics, i just find her voice comforting

[@poingucac]

"lately i've been crying like a tall child" hits diff when you're a tall child

[@anakpinterhehe3936]

People always tell me "say something positive to yourself, say I love you to yourself, compliment yourself! Be proud to yourself!" But when I do that, I breakdown instead. Knowing no one will say these things to me. I'm so alone until I should be the one who said these things to myself. Everytime I said "I love you" to myself looking at the mirror, I just reading my own eyes and knowing it was a lie.

[@arighostea]

same. I just can't find it in myself to believe in those words. Even when they are from my own mouth.

[@arabarra]

@@arighostea relate to that :(

[@Elysian_xo]

You’re all worth everything in the world

[@mgourdet]

Mitski gives me this weird feeling of comfort when I listen to her music, i relate to her music so much

[@jellyjillie]

ngl, Mitski's songs always make me calm even when i feel scared, anxious and useless.

[@beyzataskn5132]

All I need is a new album from Mitski!

[@pictureparlour000mitski]

agree!! we miss her so much.

[@nona-tc5ug]

@@pictureparlour000mitski she’s coming out with one 😟

[@jeanno4872]

Pretty sure she is coming with one this month

[@zobia8567]

@@jeanno4872 WHATTT? really? whats your source?

[@jeanno4872]

@@zobia8567 it seems like it just a song and it already out! Its called the baddy man

[@Aleinationss]

im barely at 1:17 and can’t keep listening to this. i’ve been holding in my tears all day and letting them out when no ones looking and i cant fall apart rn

[@penntagram1293]

How are you now?

[@aellaainsley7]

Listen to this again

[@miikaa6776]

This song makes me feel so,so much. My parents always hit,yell,throw stuff,tell me to starve myself and kill myself,threaten to throw me out over simple things and they just think they can make all the pain they caused me just by saying “I only did that because I want the best for you” “I love you”. I can’t do this anymore

[@dory1489]

Honey, I'm so sorry. But please don't listen to them. They're manipulative and toxic. Please leave them as soon as possible. If you need to, record them and show your local firemen or police department, or some local abuse rescue organization to help you, or if you, move with another family member or friend. I wish you the best, and if you want or need to talk to someone, I'm here. Stay strong, and I wish you the best luv ❤

[@whosarisa9683]

I’m so sorry

[@animejs7301]

You sound like my ex gf, she listens to this songs naw to. She felt like you to cus of her mom. Tough it out there are more probles than those

[@skhedlexy7498]

@@animejs7301 what the fuck are you saying

[@xyellowcoffeexfatrat7923]

are you ok

[@jacrispcrisp3707]

I wish we could all cry toghether and feel better. It never stops

[@aster7234]

Reading A Spring Without You Is Coming while listening to this was very painful.

[@ebru7222]

Welp im also bout to do that

[@giadasoldani]

agree.

[@amorestviesse]

oh god oh no dont do this to me

[@normanteio]

Now I want to reread that..

[@chuu-cord]

Hits different when you love the fuck out of them but they're hurting you and you can't take it anymore.

[@ratb4st4rd30]

being myself i get very overwhelmed by beautiful things very easily, sometimes to the point where i have to come inside because i find trees too pretty?? and holy cow this song is killing me

[@MB-ou2eq]

“To my dear Historia As I write this, Reiner is standing at my side. He knows this is a love letter but he’s still sneaking peaks. Honestly- it’s no wonder the creeps still single. That said... he did give me his word that he’d deliver this letter to you. He says he owes me- for the time I doubled back to save him. I’m sorry about then. I never would have imagined myself choosing those two... Over you. I’m going to die soon... but- I’ll die without regrets. Or that’s what I’d like to say. Truth is..... I do have one ... it’s that I never got to marry you. -With love Ymir”

[@fabiananafeeza7462]

DON'T DO THIS TO ME

[@MB-ou2eq]

@@fabiananafeeza7462 I’m sorry ;^; I pained myself too

[@Emily-iq5zr]

BESTIE STOP, I CANT DO THIS TODAY

[@MB-ou2eq]

@@Emily-iq5zr IM SORRY BESTIE

[@niaprovidence9489]

NOOOOOOO

[@pankick4015]

This song got me sobbing and holding my chest because I am suddenly feeling weird ass pains just because I am being reminded of something I wanted to forget so badly

[@aaaa-be5ck]

every mitski's song never fails to make me cry

[@ailanipulley8268]

This goes to my love. Please leave me and let me go if you have to, I want to love you forever, but I hate when you tell me "I love you" because I know you do, and no one should love me, but I hate it so much I love it. You make me so happy. And if I do something to ruin it. Leave me. Just go. I'm not worth your time. But you know what. I love you so much you don't even know how much.

[@hollisrut.8759]

I hope you are doing ok. This sounds like such a rough situation.

[@jasminkraft1509]

i hope you’re doing better now, and you are fully deserving of your partner 💗.

[@Netfrhrv]

please stay safe

[@pizzasteve5802]

due to personal reasons i would like my friends to stop caring abt me as it’s incredibly inconvenient to my plans on destroying myself n also i do not deserve their love ❤️

[@nursegeeismymother]

You deserve their love

[@ilyTakami]

idk why but the masc voice behind hers in the chorus makes me feel so safe

[@flickafire8145]

This song has made me cry a lot harder than I'm willing to share

[@quinndoesthings]

2:14 TW this part hits really hard as someone who was SA as a young person. it's hard to truly act your age after doing something meant for people much older and more mature than you. especially when you didn't want to.

[@whos.aishaaa]

i know exactly how you feel. u okay??

[@Broanci]

Yess

[@Personwhotakesprettypictures]

Are you okay? Hopefully you can recover from the trauma

[@quarterqueen]

i hope everyone here knows that it gets better. i promise. i always thought things never would too. it's hard getting through the shitty part but the payoff it always worth it

[@salems_lot]

tysm I needed this

[@sheng5269]

The black hole Of the Window Where you sleep The night breeze Carries Something sweet A peach tree Wild women don't get the blues But I find that Lately I've been crying like a Tall child So please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in And I was so young When I behaved Twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into A tall child And I don't wanna go home yet Let me walk to the top of the big night sky Please hurry leave me I can't breathe … Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in

[@briandfarell]

we saw the lyrics

[@sheng5269]

@@briandfarell i was commenting them for myself so i could memorize the japanese part i didnt think people were gonna like my comment LOOOL

[@LeadGuitarist]

this is a lyric video

[@sheng5269]

@@LeadGuitarist read my reply.. lol

[@shan3497]

thx 4 typing the japanese part

[@DaNBABoi]

this at midnight looking at your ceiling thinking about missed opportunities,toxic friendships, and a bunch of other things is hitting like a train

[@sylie_goose]

3:21 hits so much harder than the rest of the song. It feels so powerful, yet so sad at the same time and it's just an instrumental bit

[@kinimitoriko6336]

SMAE

[@jayreyes4629]

“tell me “don’t” so I can crawl back in” hits so hard because recently. I feel like I’ve been disappointing her so much with how I am. I have so many problems and I’m so negative. She even confessed that her mood has been a bit down recently because of my own negativity and I’m trying so hard to be better. Nothing has been working and I feel so bad for being myself. I want to be better. And I’ve honestly just thought that maybe not being around her would help her. I just don’t know anymore and it hurts that I’m doing this to her even when all I want is for her to be happy. I just don’t want to lose her. She is so important to me but it feels like me being with her is such a drag. I don’t want to lose her. But it seems like me being away from her takes away the negativity from her too… Just please…I hope…I hope so much that she doesn’t let me push her away because my first instinct right now IS to push her away…

[@zenpai3748]

I'm going through the same thing, I don't know what to do

[@wisteria1739]

I was in a position of 'her' . I tried my best to give her space and even held myself back from showing any feelings(that I cared and loved her)that I thought would put so much weight on her,but I was pushed away,still. Now I have to accept that we just didn't work,but I still hope that we have another chance in the future. And how is everything now? Are you okay?

[@ilikecartoons.3041]

This song hits different when you physically can't cry ♡

[@sumpfb]

feels like a bpd song very much

[@pawllypocket]

what is bpd??

[@me-ph5to]

@@pawllypocket borderline personality disorder

[@lani6814]

very much agreed

[@deedeenana3]

Specially when you have a favorite person and being fully aware of it but not being able to stop yourself

[@_xxgogglesgamingytxx_4865]

@@deedeenana3 yeah im here because my fp treats me like their partner and flirts w me a lot even tho we have barley known eachother for that long, but im romantically attracted to someone else (im pretty sure) and its so hard to sort all this out 😭😭 sorry for dumping this on you, i just wanted to say i relate!!

[@aramaram6366]

this is her fav song (as far as i know) and i miss her haha

[@pictureparlour000mitski]

me too

[@Duckie283]

I’m sorry…

[@_crisiscache_8378]

this is the relationship I have with my mom I was forced to grow up so young because of her, the abuse, the shifted responsibilities. I raised her sons, I raised myself. I feels so old, and I'm not even out of highschool. I have all of the instincts of a child, I want to cry and scream and throw tantrums, I feel entitled to comfort and pity and my mother's arms around me, while feeling too old to be allowed those basic things. I was only told she loved me when she felt guilty, guilty because she hurt me, guilty that she took her problems out on me, guilty that she was a bad mom. I hate when people say they love me cause all I can think of, is the pain and hurt that came before it all my life. I just want to escape, I want to be free. but if she told me to jump I would, if she told me to stay I would. I need her to leave me behind, I need her to leave. because I can't, she raised me to be endowed to her, and she still holds power over me. I need her to let go. it's exhausting, I'm in the ledge and it's her decision where I go.

[@dearlantsov]

your mother failed to give you the love you deserve, I'm so sorry. things will get better i promise. you deserve love and affection and being cared for, even though you may not feel like you deserve good things, always keep in mind you're an important human being. i cannot emphasis this enough but 👏you deserve to be happy👏 i pray that you get some financial stability and get out of the toxic clutches of your mom. you will find happiness soon! keep being strong, im rooting for you

[@yagirlXoXo]

This is written so beautifully, you must be very inteligent person… Sending all the love, hope you’re doing better now

[@joliebrielle797]

I completely feel you, to the control she has onto me and especially on the part where they finally show "appreciation" when they feel guilt and realize what they've done. It makes me not want to believe in love anymore or at least I never believe them. I want to thank you for sharing your story, you said what was tangled in my mind, now in words. I am rooting for our love and to reach our true selves. Once placing more value in your being, like simple things of clothes you enjoy, things that look cool to you, your opinions, things you enjoy in yourself, and ofc music :) etc... your mom will no longer hold a big place in there anymore, you feel me? I'm rooting for you lovely person

[@stopgriefingmymchouse1144]

this song makes me bawl. it didn’t before but now it does. this is because a few days ago, i decided to search for the news case on my cousin who a few years ago, committed su*cide. i miss her. when i read the news case it was the first time i found out the full story as to why she did it, my mum never told me. i think of her mum when listening to this song, the pain she must feel knowing her daughter left this world because she was dealing with so much. it makes me feel guilty for wanting to kill myself. i want to die but i don’t want to make my family have to deal with this pain all over again, it hurts so much knowing you could’ve helped that person but they didn’t tell anyone and now you have to live with the fact they’re gone. it’s almost like an anger, i feel angry about the people who made her do it, i hope their lives are awful. the lyrics make me think of her especially “one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby” she committed by jumping out of window. a boy had r/ped her and recorded it. she was stood on the window ledge in her flat telling him to delete the video or she’ll jump. she jumped, she was only 13. rest in peace, chevenea 💕🕊 you’ll never be forgotten, i love you so much.

[@T.O__]

I’m so sorry for your loss :( and Rest In Peace Chevenea

[@stopgriefingmymchouse1144]

@@T.O__ thank you

[@marilenasem2746]

I'm so sorry babe :/ My condolences to you and your family. I'm sure Chevenea is watching over you, so make her proud

[@gumdrops2085]

another song for this feeling is Redecorate - twenty one pilots !!

[@APHxVOCALOID12lover]

My condolences. I also hope the ones that harmed her will get what they deserve: a life worse than death

[@ukiiyu]

This is what it feels like when your entire emotional stability is dictated by a certain person

[@mariayyad2546]

No cause this is exactly it. isn't that a symptom of bpd though? with the favorite person being the dictator?

[@ukiiyu]

@@mariayyad2546 I can not handle this realisation rn

[@joey_youtube]

@@mariayyad2546 as someone with bpd, yes, it is.

[@Gjoob.725]

This song was made for my son. When I was very young I had him and I know that his father‘s family could raise him and give him more than I ever could. Now he’s in college how I regret the day that I gave him to them but I’m so thankful that he had has an amazing life thank you Mitski for this! Your music helps me heal 💛💛

[@sophie7956]

this song.. i can feel it. i can understand it completely. i’d rather push people away than hurt myself more keeping them with me. “please don’t say you love me.” i can see myself saying those exact words. i love this song. but it pains me how much i can relate.

[@berkehan4808]

i absolutely adore mitski,thank god for her

[@onyxmoth383]

"she's such a good child, so well behaved and mature for her age." i just wanted to be a kid.

[@morxsine]

i heart thinking that maybe im just being emotional and overdramatic over something but then i proceed to stare at a wall w this song on loop at 3am trying not to break down into tears because this sums up what ive been feeling lately aha bites lip #swagmode

[@TheCatspayjaymas]

#Coolkidlife

[@morxsine]

its been 4 months you have not recovered #seektherapy

[@TheCatspayjaymas]

@@morxsine bro do you wanna go to therapy together? I'm a Basil kinnie

[@uploxy5341]

#materialgirlscrytothissong

[@mariasarah689]

beautiful reminds me of my best friend cecilia she is a beairiful and noce girl she desrves the world just like mitski this is very good i love gay people equal rights everybody moist

[@user-yr5er5uz5k]

*_everybody moist_*

[@izinny]

sarah costa I agree gay rights but I’m gay

[@izinny]

Gay rights specially to gay cecilia

[@izinny]

A Doughnut are you homophobic because I am gay

[@zezeNice]

this is the best comment i’ve ever gotten thank u

[@mayaale6025]

this is what relationships feel like to me; a constant push and pull between wanting to be loved and my mental illness pushing everyone away

[@spaceboi9933]

am only 12 yet I cry over and over whenever I hear this song, I miss my old life and those memories are gone :(

[@cybiedoodle]

me too. i have a deep fear of myself now and i wish to be a better person, as a child. but i know thatll never happen with the place im stuck in

[@uhmm_yeahh2511]

I’m not twelve but same🧍‍♀️ I would literally sell my soul to have everything go back in time to when I was like eight.

[@johannaquintero6434]

i felt the same way at 12, i’m now turning 16 , i also feared growing up but trust me you make even more beautiful memories as you grow 💘

[@sammysquid79]

Me too, I think its because I've realized that I'm growing up and i can't stop. And that the things i thought were normal and ok actually werent, but I hope it gets better

[@Joannecasupanan]

@Alua Birgebayeva Yeah but some young people find all their problems early and it could lead to even more serious things

[@Rando240]

“Please don’t say you love me” god that hits so hard. I like getting close to people, but I know I’ll hurt them in a really horrible way like I always do and it ends up ruining everything.

[@fluffkin7432]

0:52 Woah her voice gave me goosebumps ✨

[@slapekgoz9980]

“so please hurry leave me i can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” part is so accurate because i always think that i found someone that understands me and loves me with all of my insecurities and i am getting attached with them and then suddenly they acting cold like ice…please leave me before i attached to you, i don’t want to get hurt again and don’t say you love me just because make me feel good

[@Lila0217]

Same.... that's why I leave first

[@slapekgoz9980]

@@Lila0217 i am always scared to leave first, wish i could leave before they broke my heart and leaving me with dreams that we make together.

[@sof8860]

Pov: you want to be loved so much but you are also extremely scared of love and loving back (because of self esteem issues or trauma) Aka Pov: you are me

[@o-tammy-o]

Yay we the same 😭

[@kawiiakitten6105]

omg ME TOO WTF WTF

[@animesimp3207]

Hi me how r u?

[@stxrs3073]

Us wtf😭

[@B1llllllllll7y]

ahahahah

[@Veroisasleep]

Honestly mitski is one of the best singers I’ve ever heard because you can really relate to the lyrics, it’s because all her songs are relatable

[@seijiamazawa7670]

I could never be happy in this place.

[@nourqanbashoqah1539]

Same

[@brianna1077]

i hope you’re ok

[@jorgie15]

Tearing up reading y'all comments. I hope y'all are doing okay

[@tityajack]

This song hurts. After being hurt by people I was close too, I was left with a really bad self esteem, and it made it incredibly hard for me to talk to and make new friends. I constantly feel left out, and don’t often make conversation thinking I’m going to say something no one will find funny, and be alone again. I act too mature for my age and now I’ve realised now that all of that time spent on the internet, effected by other’s views, has really messed with me. It’s hard getting nervous about every little thing, and gradually realising that you don’t have any friends, and maybe they did actually effect you more than you want to admit they did.

[@mailingmyselftokyoawooga4500]

the best thing is listening to this full volume headphones

[@o-tammy-o]

Yes

[@galletonfruna8474]

"So please hurry, leave me, I can't breath, please don't say you love me". I want to break up with my bf because i fell out of love, but he loves me so much and I feel so guilty. I don't deserve him.

[@isabelaglo]

please break up with him as soon as possible it'll only hurt you more and him once he realizes u don't love him anymore and u didnt tell him earlier

[@galletonfruna8474]

@@isabelaglo yeah i already did :(( And also i discovered that i'm a lesbian so ??¿ idk here we are

[@spoonvvv]

@@galletonfruna8474 omg a few months ago I was in the exact same situation. sucked balls at the time but we're both happier now. lesbian gang 😎😎

[@galletonfruna8474]

@@spoonvvv omg

[@spoonvvv]

@@galletonfruna8474 lesbians let's go! 👏👏

[@Hisbabyfiedgirly.07]

This song makes me cry as always, i love mitski so much

[@orpheusoctober]

Reminds me of marceline the vampire queen

[@tesskondora3515]

Marceline sang one of her songs so makes sense? I found Mitski because of that scene in Adventure Time tbh

[@nerbamas6940]

Marceline sang Francis Forever by Mitski!

[@heyustabbedme]

It should be the other way around hahah

[@piesause1376]

@@tesskondora3515 yes best ever decision I've made to search her up.

[@rreapxrr4206]

I know this song is about how you don't want someone to "love you" because you know they are gonna hurt you, but as an aromantic who has lost many friends because they told me they loved me, the line "please don't say you love me" hits hard. Even if we try to make it work as friends, it never will yknow? It sucks watching so many people leave just because you don't like them like that- I know none of you care, but thought I'd share If you are reading this though, make sure to drink some water, have some food, and have a great day, evening, or night!!

[@grungjy]

I always catch windows in her lyrics, She always put them there in a way describes how the world outside the window have what she needs

[@gmdfkkdkkfksjfj]

What do u mean? Windows?

[@bunvbi6641]

Mitski's music is so relatable it hurts but i still love it

[@erinscoolig4281]

they said “i love you” and also “goodbye” in the same message. this song reminds me of that message with everything else in the world. i miss them, i don’t know if they’ll come back. so i’m waiting, possibly wasting my time. i have trust issues, abandonment issues, but i let them in. but they left, like all the rest. unlike the rest, they might actually come back.

[@RiceON]

Lyrics The black hole Of the Window Where you sleep The night breeze Carries Something sweet A peach tree Wild women don't get the blues But I find that Lately I've been crying like a Tall child So please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in And I was so young When I behaved Twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into A tall child And I don't wanna go home yet Let me walk to the top of the big night sky Please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in

[@easefuldeath5902]

"I DON'T HAVE ANY BROKENHEARTS BUT FIRST LOVE/LATE SPRING IS A SAD SONG THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I DIDN'T DESERVE SOMEONE BUT YET STILL SELFISH FOR WANTING THEM AND YET STILL FEEL SELF-CONSCIOUS AND JUST WANT THEM TO *LEAVE ME* AND IT HURT MY HEART SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO HAVE A BREAKDOWN ON THE FLOOR I WANT TO CRY AND SUFFOCATE I WANT TO THROW UP SOME FLOWERS I WANT MY HEARTS TO BURST OUT HELP THE EARWORM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" i found this in my quarantine diary from august last year and went to listen to this song again immediately. wow i am so dramatic back then.

[@user-uw8dn7db1l]

everything about this song is perfect.

[@virgoclown4890]

you dont know how to love and be loved, you don't know how to not lose yourself. love for you is terrifying in how it overwhelms and overpowers, and that's why you push it away because you don't trust yourself to hold something you never had, this delicate thing your hands were never taught to carry.......

[@virgoclown4890]

idk this song is how my mental breakdowns sound like..... to love is to be unhinged i know thats right mitski

[@mjmanlapaz2661]

one word from you is all i need