STUDIO VLOG 17 🎨 adding color to my life (painting, cooking, and mental health update)

[@mingshi7771]

Malin I haven’t commented before but I’ve watched your videos diligently. I know that you’re in a bad mental state here and I want to let you know that your videos have helped me push through with my own mental health issues. Your videos calm me and watching you make art and daily life things helped a looot. I hope this comment lifts your spirit up. ❤️

[@madebymalin]

this means a lot to me jamie, thank you so much for taking the time to comment! im so glad i could help in one way or another. thank you for reminding me that im not alone :')

[@smoleart]

omg the snow fallin in the background while you were painting is so lovely * u *

[@madebymalin]

we love snow until it comes to shoveling out the car HEHE

[@Lillyjoy]

This video made me feel so much better, your painting and the snow was just so relaxing to watch

[@pocketeez]

I’ve been a silent watcher for a bit now but... Malin, thank you for being so honest and open with us... You’ve shed light on how I’m sure a lot of people feel, and honestly how I feel too. Your art brings me and others a lot of joy, and I hope you know you’re not alone. Thank you for everything.

[@yiyafu28]

I totally agree with you Malin! Lately I've been having trouble sleeping. Once I put my head on my pillow, anxiety starts to set in and I can't sleep. I agree with you when you talked about talking to your family or friends but they brush things off. I've felt like this for most of my life so the thought of not being like this doesn't seem possible. I hope you feel better! Your videos inspire me so much :) you're the reason why I started getting back into drawing and also the reason why I started having an interest in plants :)

[@krizza7597]

Sending love, Malin. I'm crying because I related to what you said.

[@madebymalin]

hugs :

[@liebresalvaje]

Sending so much love and healing vibes. I feel you with not having contentment even if we have everything going right in our lives. Dealing with anxiety it’s really hard. But remember you are really strong and brave Malin. Much love from Costa Rica 🐱

[@MiaMoo_Inc]

Thank you for sharing your struggles! I enjoy hearing you talk. I hope you so so more!

[@SarahSwanni]

I hope you know how strong and brave you are for putting your feelings out there. It can be very intimidating to do because you never know how people are going to respond. And if you've had bad experiences before, it is extra hard to do :( I can so so relate to feeling empty inside even though I know I am blessed in many ways and sometimes I feel guilty for not appreciating the things I have more... or why I can't just snap out of it and be happy. Thank you for this malin

[@lavender2533]

I shed a tear when you were talking about your mental health struggles because I’ve been feeling the same way ❤️ depression sucks so much, just know that there are people out there who understand and thank you for sharing because it makes me feel less alone ❤️❤️

[@gaby6431ify]

I love your art and your videos! Hearing you talk about mental health makes me feel less alone, i hope everything turns out well for you

[@SazzArt]

Great vid! I get so sad to see Malin sad 😔 I hope you start to feel better and with the amazing person you are, you’ve got to get that job😊

[@madebymalin]

fingers crossed ;;-;;

[@boots1622fan]

i want to hug you omg. hang in there! even making this vlog or doing the things in it is a feat, esp when you feel like this. I believe in you.

[@alexandrasstudio5308]

I hope you know that you inspire so many people through your channel, watching you draw/paint is like therapy to me... thank you!

[@RoseMuzen]

Thank you for this very honest and heartwarming video❤ I just wanted to say that you are going through a lot right now! so it's very human to feel tired an exhausted and feel sad when we realize it means we don't have energy to do what we feel passionate about❤ with this I hope you can find some inner acceptance for yourself 🥰 it's NEVER fun when we find ourselves in a situation where we are forced to fight trying to find a place which judge us valuable enough to hire us. It can make us doubt ourselves and our own values. I want you to know that I see you as a valuable person and I hope you will keep believing in your own worth too❤ no matter what other people choose to do or say. The first step to get a more satisfying life is to know what it is that makes us sad and then take baby steps from there breaking the now known bad habit and remember to heal when life puts us on pressure🙏❤ sadly not all people are able to handle all the feelings we have within us, but it is my dream to find friends who accept and care for all my feelings and are not afraid to hold me and listen to me with an open heart even on bad days😌🌟 p.s. hoodie cat is so adorable. I would love to see him come alive as a sticker😍

[@ARALAND]

This is a super relaxing video😻Thanks for sharing😊💕

[@honeypie7201]

it's okay to take breaks sometimes! we care more about your well being than our entertainment

[@jenavevesnowolf13]

Thank you for uploading even though you are feeling so exhausted. Lots of people have similar issues that you are experiencing. My mother, for instance, often gets so anxious about tests that she will even forget her name. I myself get anxiety attacks frequently where my face will tingle and I can't talk normal. It is uncomfortable, but I have noticed that these symptoms have come up less over the past few years, even with the trauma of loosing my father. Trying to be gentle with myself and rationalize my negative thoughts (that in bad times spiral continuously down) has helped. I will tell myself that it is normal to feel anxious in whatever situation that I am facing and let that emotion wash over me and leave, instead of fighting it. In the moment sudden distractions can help. I hope you find comfort in knowing you are not alone and that you find solutions that work for you.

[@madebymalin]

thank you for reminding me that im not alone :') hugs!

[@TaffyToodles]

so excited for the vlog!

[@madebymalin]

taffy!

[@shannsdesk]

your studio vlogs are very calm and relaxing and every time when I answer modules I watch your videos to get some inspirations to study!

[@_dansilverio]

I know how you feel about being too tired, my therapist said that when we have a lot of things on our mind that are not resolved and it does mentally exhausts us 😕 but I’m glad you have such a supportive and caring boyfriend but you also got us 😬💜

[@madebymalin]

😞❤️

[@alexis_keith]

Just got off of work and now it’s time to relax and watch some vlogs😊😊

[@kurara3372]

I know there's nothing I can say to make you feel better, so I will just say thank you. Thank you for sharing your feelings, you're helping a lot of people doing it, including me. 💜 Lots of love from Spain. ❣️

[@SkyFudgey]

I relate so much to what you said & I saw a bunch of people in the comments that do as well! I feel like I'm not able to tell you that it will get better because a simple task at my own job made me cry yesterday ; so instead I can tell you that I hope it gets better!

[@exlibrislily7444]

You deserve to have 100k subscribers (and more!) You’re incredibly sweet and your art is beautiful :) I hope you are feeling better soon & remember self care is not a luxury, it is a necessity ❤️

[@madebymalin]

ahhh you're too sweet ;;-;; and yes self care is a necessity for sure!

[@susigoma5601]

I love to see your videos, they relax me a lot ✨

[@madebymalin]

thank you! im so glad 🥺

[@blonde434]

In vegas it's not even cold rn. Lol the snow looks so nice

[@augustatkinsonillustration5341]

We had a nice snow storm too

[@glowatyourownpace]

Thank you so much for being so open and sharing such big feelings. That was so brave of you. Hang in there and *big hugs*! 🥲

[@lixann9653]

i appreciate how open you are when talking abt mental health ❤️ sending lots of love and good vibes 🥰❤️ i love your vlogs so much!

[@kurehaashiya30]

Malin I appreciate your content because I understand it. You are a lovely person and I hope you know your value. I really hope you have a better week.

[@littlelilac479]

This video is what calms me down… keep doing what ur doing 💛

[@MeganWangart]

im so exciiiited for this :') ur vlogs are my favorite

[@madebymalin]

no YOU c:

[@9876qwerty]

Wow your art is amazing 🥺 for real the paints look so crisp

[@kate1703]

21:19 HUGS!!

[@alexis_keith]

Omg! Your green sweater is everything 😍😍

[@wunderkind2204]

you wonderful woman! I love that you bring up topics, that I can relate too and which are easily overlooked or swept under the carpet. I am sorry, that you have felt that way for so long , and very happy for you, that you are working on getting better. I feel like a lot of people tend to forget, that it is hard work to get out of a dark place. Thanks for letting us take part on your journey

[@TeacupGirl]

I’m so sorry to hear that you are having to struggle with the burden of anxiety and mental health. It’s not an easy journey but every step you take to keep caring for yourself and pushing forward is so important. Take care xx 🌸🌸

[@lionlessart]

I know I said I had problems w better help but definitely don't give up. It can take time to find the right therapist and medication ( if u currently take it/decide to take it, I do currently for both anxiety and depression, no shame), or even a few tries but it's so worth it. Your mental health is just as important as your physical health. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 💖👍

[@zyranara]

I've always loved watching your vlog and being true about your stresses. But what I love most is that you continue to fight especially your mind battles. You know it's hard but you also know that it won't get better if you just give up. ❤️ A strong woman. ❤️ Sending you lots of love, Malim! I hope you feel better soon. God bless. ❤️

[@cameodream6610]

malin, same, many pple brush what i say off too when im tryna confide in them :(((, it does hurt, rlly appreciate and admire how u bravely share ure experiences with us, know that ure not alone :))), we can pull thru it all, just hold on, nv lose hope ♡♡♡

[@abegaildaus8613]

Rlly luv ur vlogs they are so rlaxing😊

[@glencop8842]

Since it's all about tomatoes, I have a joke : How does a tomato sneeze? 🍅 Ketchup! 😂Say it fast and high pitched!

[@jelenamay4929]

Sending you lots of hugs Malin!

[@mariellemaniulit990]

im so excited aaaa you're my favorite youtuber 🥺💗 can't wait to watch it tonight!!

[@madebymalin]

Omg yayy come join the live chat 🥰

[@SophieHeywood]

Sending you a big virtual hug. 💖 depression is so tough and it’s really hard to to convince yourself there will be good times when you’re in that place. :c but I promise there will be more joyful days 💖

[@madebymalin]

:')

[@CoffeeBird]

Pretty window view!

[@stitchinstella2425]

Sending good vibes to ya, I know the struggles with anxiety and I'm only hoping the best for ya! I love hoodie kitty made me so happy!

[@Nina-pt9nn]

I love your studio vlogs so much thank you for making them 💜💜

[@Trishuu]

So cute!!

[@angelikacamarador6319]

sending hugs! luving all your paints!💛

[@mariellemaniulit990]

aww your description box~ we'll never forget you malin 😽🤗

[@homstoprintablestickerpape3349]

You draw very beautifully - continue in the same spirit🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@elliotmerrison]

I'm watching your video and having breakfast : ) Your video make my day

[@madebymalin]

your comment made my day! 😭❤️

[@fannasharma342]

Sending you so much love!

[@madebymalin]

thank you so much !

[@beomhwa_-gj8ir]

Podia ter legenda em português, seus vídeos são tão relaxantes 🥰

[@bubble1045]

I love your videos and your drawings so much

[@amanikariri950]

I love you malin, you inspired me 💜💜💜💜 🐱

[@geanayettedionisio5125]

I feel a bit sad because I can feel the tiredness and stress you had but I know you can do it. Don't feel bad about yourself I love you sweetie thankyou for everything I feel the same as you and you really helped me get through this. We are always here if you need someone to talk.

[@karlita_redondo]

I wish I can have that ability to paint! 🥺❤,But when I see your videos I feel relaxed, thank you !

[@lauraarencibia4692]

I love your videos they are so inspiring and so calm.

[@alexis_keith]

Love your glasses 😊

[@scriiblecafe3609]

OMG UGHH SO BUMMED I MISSED THE PREMIERE :'/ luv the vlog tho 💖

[@imcibi7428]

waiting 🍓

[@PrettiFace212]

Hi Malin! I just wanted to tell you that I hope you are doing okay and please know that you are not alone in those feelings. It's so easy to fall into the routines of negativity and self destruction where nothing feels like it's going right but I want to tell you that things are certainly not that way! I've struggled the past year finding meaning and balance in my life where I've felt like all my hard work has gotten me nowhere and telling myself that I am not good enough. But now, I've learn to always give myself positive encouragement and rewire myself to truly believe that I am more than what I see sometimes. It's a scary world of unknown we live in but I promise you that you are good enough and strong enough to fight that negativity because you are such an amazing person, inside and out! I personally have felt like it's been Groundhogs Day for the past year where I feel like I've been doing the same thing over and over, but what has helped me is honestly adding things in my life just for the enjoyment of it, like doing puzzles or playing board games with my boyfriend. Even cooking has helped me so much! Adding those little serotonin moments in your day to bring you joy can really help! I wish nothing but the best for you! Good luck with your job search and future! And thank you for putting yourself out there and showing others that they are not alone either!

[@madebymalin]

little serotonin moments sounds like a goal to me rn :') thank you for sharing your story!

[@kenaj08]

Can you please do a review on your printer that you currently use?

[@mxmissy]

💕💕💕 you’re a bloody legend!!!

[@LittleBloomPaperie]

This comment is rather late as only just having change to catch up with the last few of your vlogs, but just wanted to send a virtual hug❤️ I’ve watched your vlogs from the start, and always enjoyed them so much...though I don’t personally know you, you seem such a lovely person and it made me so sad seeing you struggle with mental health😞🥺 Anxiety and depression can easily make us feel empty no matter what we’re doing or whatever is going on around us, and it’s so hard when people around us don’t always understand. I’ve suffered myself with both throughout my life, and though I’m currently in a good place, you can never know when those feelings come knocking on your door, so I totally understand how you were feeling. I hope you are feeling much happier and less anxious since filming this vlog...just makes me feel so sad seeing someone down like this. Big hug 🤗❤️

[@annalew8357]

Your so pretty!

[@_dansilverio]

Omg I do the double tap in life ALL THE TIME 💀💀

[@oceane8836]

We love you 💛 take care

[@Silverblizzard05]

Oh I understand...I been an artist all my life. Traditional and digital. I got very sick with a nerve disease had my first massive brain surgery. My 5 year old has cancer. So I started to design stickers and books and so much. All my life I was told I would be a starving artist and to keep that as a hobby. I won so many shows but still was told negative things. Well my husband said he wants to see me succeed with my dream of growing Veressa's Hope. I would love for my designs and art to fund my daughters fundraiser into a foundation to help other families with sick kids. My husband has gotten me the things I need to start test runs and idk today I was just very overwhelmed with someone making a shirt out of my design....then it hit me that what if no one likes my stuff....what if I fail if I fail I fail my sick daughter....what if her cancer comes back before I can open my shop....I had a complete panic attack. I'm working everything out in phases but still that fear is still there. 😑

[@madebymalin]

im so sorry to hear everything that you're going through :< it's definitely tough to navigate all of that at once. I hope you can find a small happiness in everyday life that keeps you hoping! lots of love

[@sxrbx]

Your so pretty 💗✨

[@LindseyMix]

Loved it!

[@sassypackratstudios361]

Please don't be afraid to share how you feel. Many artists including me have some of the same issues. It feels a bit better to let it out.

[@jisookim5759]

I leik uoy

[@ruhisartandcraft2463]

existing vlog

[@peacyart5777]

Where are you buy your fine liners? 🙏 P-S: I love your vlogs 💝

[@bitofeye]

เป็นกำลังใจให้นะคะ สู้ๆ ชอบดู Vlogsของคุณมากค่ะ โดยเฉพาะ Steam of Conscoiusness exercise ทำให้เราอยากวาดรุปไปด้วย ^_^

[@madebymalin]

ขอบคุณค่ะ 😭🙏🏼

[@SazzArt]

Yesss!

[@stracciatella]

Just a random hug from afar.

[@anitas_tinkershop]

Love ❤️

[@OhanaCraftAmigurumi]

i see you, malin :)

[@madebymalin]

i love youuuuu ;;-;;

[@camryngoss7624]

That was deep.

[@Audreysseh]

It's hard to see the institutions don't follow the real rythm of life and are still based on a kind of elitist view of the artist, with fame, recognition and all. The practice is what define you. Not really much more x) I admire your strenght to go through this all! This sound quite nerve wracking indeed. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability; I hope you will find some ease, through any way you chose to experiment, and some understanding from people close to you to release even a tiny percent of the emptyness you feel

[@julietteblns4564]

It's so funny , the first way you said "gouache " is exactly how it is pronounced in French ! ( I'm a french girl lol)

[@madebymalin]

maybe you are right! ive been doing it the american way lol

[@bunanabunn]

♥

[@rawanadel4651]

What the name of your colours?

[@amarastrandstudio]

Sending BIG HUGSSSS and LOVE to support you. สู้ๆ :))

[@SazzArt]

First here!