SAD BACKSTORY "The Circus"~ Helluva Boss REACTION

[@tacoenjoyer8623]

“Maybe he deserved it” my heart literally shattered.

[@Morgan_Reacts]

Same. She wouldn’t even let me explain how he’s a victim

[@FrancineJackson-nn2oi]

​@@Morgan_Reacts Your sister just doesn't get it

[@rifino3971]

​@@Morgan_Reacts force your sister to watch it 😤

[@oreorigami9466]

the fact that stolas already knew stella was going to hit him broke my heart bc it means stella has already hit him before 🙁

[@J1ntu]

That is when I was ready to fuck her up. The literal audacity

[@amayaharig4330]

Even though it was hard to watch, I deeply respect Vizie for addressing that unfortunately men can also be emotionally, mentally, sexually, and physically abused and that women can be the abuser, I know not everyone will watch Helluva Boss but I'm hoping that this episode might break away from the stigma that men get ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Rockstar-sq1nb]

Or she hasn’t hit him before and doesn’t know his blind spot

[@SilverGallowglass]

Yeah... Also, we are given that moment with Paimon hitting Stolas over the head for bowwing to Blitz, so he might not even have realized that it wasn't a normal thing at first. Kinda like, oh, I got hit, I must have said something wrong. Another thing that gets to me is Stella talking about how Stolas is in bed with her. How he is just "staring at the wall" and she has to "do everything". Like, okay I might be overthinking this, but that sounds like Stolas was distancing himself/dissociating, and while he was in this state, she slept with him, more than once. Like not to be blunt, but that sounds like marital SA. And she is using it as a bit of funny gossip at a party to put him down...that's sick. I mean, honestly it isn't that surprising considering that they are in an arranged marriage and prior to Blitz he seemed like he might have been more inexperienced in sexual matters, but still to have it be hinted at in that way is off-putting.

[@DarkDragon1889]

Nope. I got that vibe IMMEDIATELY too. Vivzie is a master of the art of "trail of bread crumbs" story telling. Based on the VERY raw and realistic way SA and abuse is portrayed in Hazbin Hotel, I dont think you're overthinking that detail at all. It would also explain why he's so hypersexual when he interacts with Blitz; Blitz is the first person hes actually **ENJOYED** sharing his body with. ​@@SilverGallowglass

[@VanHellbright4763]

I think my biggest issue is that the relationship between Stolas and Octavia is written off as "Stolas is kind of a bad dad but he's trying", when really it's "Stolas is being abused and trying his best despite the circumstances and Octavia just doesn't fully realize".

[@shadowguarder2857]

s2e2 fixed that a lil

[@kevinmorris3200]

Stolas is Alador

[@Ixshs3a]

@@kevinmorris3200 fr

[@glowbiggiez5670]

😊

[@0racle.sunrise3570]

I mean, he's still a "kind of a bad dad but he's trying" as he still brought Blitzø along when he was supposed to spend a day with his daughter (not considering how she'd feel). Even if the marriage was forced & Stella was abusive, while not a horrible father he still isn't the "best" as he's sometimes inconsiderate of how his choices would affect his daughter.

[@Igny306]

Stella isn’t an owl. With the design of her brother that came out they are apparently peacocks. With Stella being a Peahen, her colors make a lot more sense now :) 😂.

[@Lightice1]

More importantly, Andrealphus, Stella's brother, is a bona fide Goetic demon who manifests in the form of a peacock.

[@starchaser1779]

i thought stella was a secretary bird

[@obsisaber]

“He is in a arranged marriage and He’s Gay!” - Morgan standing up to Stolas like a queen 😌✨

[@golgothavirus]

up for but yeah :)

[@emanuelbaigorria3932]

stolas is bisexual

[@obsisaber]

@@emanuelbaigorria3932 Are you sure about that?

[@jaxcraft2848]

You mean "for Stolas" 😆

[@obsisaber]

@@jaxcraft2848 Lol 😂

[@madramblingsofanauthor850]

Listening to Morgan and their sister go at it, the sister saying Morgan is using fighting words, just had me wheezing in laughter. We need more of Mallory! This just had me in stitches! Also, Stella is a peacock demon, like her brother. She's dull colored because female peacocks are drab in color while males are fabulously colored.

[@SpiritedHeart94]

Is she a peacock? I always thought she was an owl like Stolas. 🤔

[@verywickedvenus]

Pretty sure she's a swan

[@JamJaM___]

She's not a peacock, she's not a owl, she's not a swan, she is a *female dog* >:(

[@zerooftherebellion4612]

For the question "Are they not owls!" In the Lesser Keys of Solomon, the book Stolas's name comes from, all demons have different forms. In the show, its very likely that all of them are different kinds of birds (Peacocks, Vultures, Parrots I think. For the how many children Stolas' father has (His name is Paimon btw) its theorizied that maybe 70 because in the Lesser Keys of Solomon there is 72 demons of hell. But this is just a theory. Also your silent reaction for Stolas' song just tells how good it is. He has the best songs. Your little conversation with your sister was so funny, in a good way of course.

[@geekedhoopoe6371]

so basically most of the population of demons are freakin... birds???

[@jaxcraft2848]

You know the crazy part. There are people that still defend Stella. Also, this scene was so satisfying. : 14:25

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

people defend stella because they want to pretend they're not monsters for doing the same thing. so they invent a villain in stolas, so that they can pretend to be heroes. because in the world of abuse, fear and passion is more important than reason.

[@tryeveryfandom1718]

Mallory: She is my child Morgan basically: And Stolas is my baby, let me protect him-

[@BadNinjaStudios]

"Why do they keep ending it like this?!?" Because they like to take our feels gently by the hand, caress their face, and then deliver a cassowary kick straight to the jingle berries.

[@alishahandley2142]

This is the best way anyone has ever put it im fucking dying lol

[@BadNinjaStudios]

@@alishahandley2142 Coming up with creative expletives is one of my favorite hobbies.

[@comicsans6264]

13:24 - The page that Stolis turned to are the Asmodean crystals that succubus and incubus uses to travel to the human world. There's a theory that Stolis was planning on giving Blitz one of these crystals so that Stolis could have his grimoire while Blitz can continue his business without it. The reason why Stolis didn't give Blitz or told him about the crystals is because he believed Blitz would have no reason to visit him anymore.

[@blue2497]

This aged well

[@rosenrot234]

I love that stella tries to bring up her brother as if he's a threat. Stolas outranks him in the Ars Goetia lol

[@LiMe251]

Yep, he's only a Marquis

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

imagine being so pathetic you go "waaaa im gunna tell ma bro on you waaaaaaaaa"

[@VanHellbright4763]

Loona and Octavia being sisters and Blitzø and Stolas acting like an old divorced couple who still have feelings is literally the best thing I’ve seen all day!

[@MxSae]

Fr

[@Jeetaruey]

"It's an arranged mariage and he's gay" was the best part XD

[@area52ron]

I wouldn’t say all of Stolas’s songs are sad but fun fact during this song the voice actor actually started to cry during the song Also if you noticed Stella tried to hit Stolas hinting at physical abuse

[@SeinIshamiado]

Your banter with your sister is something else 😭 you need to have your own talk show I swear

[@damienofthedamned]

Fun fact: The voice of Stolas' father is Jafar from Aladdin. But yes, this was a satisfying watch lol. I remember when I first saw this, my response was basically "Slim fit?!? You sold ur child for a small condom?!?" And yes Morgan, we do come for ur genuine thoughts, lol. Stay true hun

[@area52ron]

Fun fact: Fizzarolli is a cyborg as fans speculate that the day Fizzarolli became a cyborg was the day Blitz got all those scars

[@jittercritter]

I had always guessed that Stella was abusive and I was so happy to see Stolas stand up to her!

[@area52ron]

The thing is Octavia is a precautionary heir which feels like a threat that if he dies in any way than Octavia will be forced to do his job whether she likes it or not

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

which means she'll be stuck in exactly his situation, with paimon forcing her into an engagement

[@ilikespaghetti4458]

Your pure undying hatred of Stella is so funny and so based 😭

[@emmashane8762]

Asmodean Crystals (from that book) are what the succubi use to get to the living world. So it's rumored that Stolas is looking to get them for Blitzo to end the arrangement so their relationship won't be transactional anymore.

[@obsidianwolf1999]

Stolas's song is the vocal to his theme in S1

[@luckyeight4148]

I think you actually see blitzes Sister in the circus She's on the tightrope Also I'm so happy you reacted to this 😁

[@SeinIshamiado]

I thought that was fizz

[@luckyeight4148]

@@SeinIshamiado no, it was blitzes sister if you look close enough, ( i think her name is barbie wire )

[@irumadaimaou]

@@luckyeight4148 Well, the horns doesn't match but maybe it was just an error

[@SeinIshamiado]

@@abluerainbow but when stolas's father was asking about the imp blitz's dad said the other one was fizzarolli

[@Zach-Reacts]

Stolas sounds heavenly, ironically. Meanwhile, Stella sounds like the woman that they had to replace the voice for in "Singin' in the Rain"

[@CallicoJackracham]

Oh god Lina ''Can't hold a note to save her life'' Lamont

[@Jamjamsart]

not really ironically because in demon lore, Stolas is a fallen angel, not a hell born demon.

[@geekedhoopoe6371]

Stella sounds like a dying cat who got exposed to drugs.

[@geekedhoopoe6371]

Or alcoholic beverages.

[@GhostBestCat]

So basically that whole moment with your sister was: "A-are you ok? Do you need a hug?" as she tries to soothe your anger about Stella even though you had a right to be mad at Stella xD

[@whutevausai]

I see Morgan didn't catch onto Blitzø snapping Stolas' neck only to realize he's a [bleep]ing owl

[@opalshardz]

Male imps have the black and white stripes while females have fully black horns with the small white lines

[@jaxcraft2848]

17:35: No! Mallory needs to watch this series to understand! XD

[@Ghost_R4cc00n]

Is it too much to see you design a cute artwork of smol Stolas and Blitz being hugged by you in a hellhound form? As I believe it would be so cute to see 😄

[@onichichi_ussr2836]

One of my pets died today and this really helped thank you Morgan

[@Morgan_Reacts]

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is so hard. Wishing you the best in this trying time

[@jakealexander2405]

@@Morgan_Reacts Your sister is so funny

[@zackthejolteon]

1:49 well I believe it's theorized that Stolas' father has around 70 kids I believe so yeahhh

[@cyberwolf_1013]

Love the sisterly interaction. Reminds me of me and my sister when I used to try and explain my shows and anime to her. She never got it either. This was such a great episode and Stolas is absolutely my favorite character, the one with the most development, and arc so far.

[@patch1752]

Paimon (Stolas’ father) is the same voice actor as Jafar from the 1992 animated Aladin

[@Aqua311]

If Stella had even the tiniest shred of class in her, you would think that she'd be impressed that Stolas was finally standing up for himself after all these years, but nope.

[@SpiritedHeart94]

Fun fact in case it hasn’t been mentioned: the voice of King Paimon (Stolas’s dad) is actually the voice of Jafar from Aladdin (The original, not the remake 😑) Edit: 4:40 I think King Paimon might have had an inkling that Stolas was gay in this moment, or at least bisexual (Or maybe just blitz-sexual lol)

[@twigthetroll9279]

NO you do NOT need to talk nice, this owl is a LITERAL DOMESTIC ABUSER, you do not under any circumstances need to talk nice about her.

[@undertonetm7692]

Notes and thoughts in chronological order because again, I'm lazy to put in time stamps: > The mansion looks like Stolas' own, but with Paimons insignia on it, this mansion might have been a hands down to Stolas once he has come of proper age > That at the background looks like the same bathtub that we see at Ep.1, albiet just smaller > Baby Stolas Portaits. The imp doll that he cuddled in bed and is cuddling in the portraits might have signified that he already had a fascination with imps at a young age > Paimon is confirmed to have multiple children, might also mean that he has multiple wives > The girl on the tight rope looks like a young Barbie Wire, might be Blitzo's twin sister, don’t know > Interesting note is that, a lot of the circus imps have the same mark on their foreheads, would probably indicate that they are a group and not just a family crest that some people have theorized > Here, we see Blitzo's dad have a heavy favoritism towards Fizzarolli rather than his own son, to the point that he's willing to sell Blitzo for 5 dollars and a condom > Hooo boy, I have thoughts about the conversation between Blitzo and Fizzarolli, for me at least, this scene might be a really big RED FLAG. Why? This might be a hint on how Fizzarolli may have lost his limbs. Let's break down the interactions between the two balloon horses. The worm horse lost its legs in the "great pirate war", worm horse fought back against its assailants, the worm horse tried to run away, only to be caught up by said assailants, leading to them taking worm horse's limbs. Next banana pudding helps worm horse feel better, then apparently more blood. Now why do I think this might be a RED FLAG? Let's think for a bit, the story might be over-dramatized, but here are my thoughts, Blitzo and Fizzarolli in some way got into a fight, not with each other but with other people. My speculation is that the "great pirate war" might have been a rival circus. Maybe jealous of Fizzarolli's rising fame. Getting pushed back, Blitzo and Fizzarolli runs away, fleeing the fight. The assailants somehow caught up to them or just Fizz and proceeded to chop him up and take his limbs. That or maybe a burning tent of some sort, falling debris leading to pinned and broken limbs. OR, they were doing a performance act, and then accidents then falling debris leading to pinned and broken limbs. After everything, Blitzo wanting to help his friend picks him up and tries to leave, somewhere there, an accident might have occurred causing Blitzo to have a white scar on the right side of his face, hence more blood. > When Blitzo’s dad was pulling him away from Fizzarolli, you could see in the background a family portrait of Blitzo and Barbie Wire, their dad Cash Buckzo, and their mom Tilla > Side note, a lot of people mistake Blitzo and Fizzarolli as brothers, I’m just going to say that they’re not, in the background of episode 4 in the IMP building, a picture frame on the wall shows an advertisement for the “Amazing Imp TWINS”, and the twin is a twin sister, so no, FIzzarolli and Blitzo are not brothers, the mark on their foreheads is a circus mark as all the performers in the circus have them. > Cash Buckzo guilt tripping and gaslighting > I like the way how Stolas sits, really cute > Background music is the occasion bgm that we hear whenever the IMP gang are doing their work, only this one is more childish at heart > BGM is now the BGM of Ep.7 outro but more happy[???] > Happy Pills, Don't do drugs kids, the label looks like it comes from Belphagor, the King and "Prince" the Sloth ring > The Hellhound Doberman[??] on the left is wagging his tail > Rose-colored lenses > Doberman[??] boi is sad now > The contrast of the 2 paintings is stunning > My god, music bops > Someone in twitter apparently already had already translated this, long story short, Asmodean Crystals are used by succubi and incubi in order to traverse into the Overworld or Earth, maybe Stolas would be planning to give Blitzo one for his company while he takes back his book in order to cut ties from Blitzo. > Stolas has been so physically abused so much that he already knows the trajectory of that slap > Might have missed a lot of things but oh well…

[@dappersandile]

" he has sons that aren't owls?" A horse, a starfish, snake lion owl thing, leopard man, and a frog with a guy's face on its back.... just to name a few. I've played persona and ars goetia is common in there.

[@violetoderwald6535]

Me when Stella was on screen: *"I'M SORRY WHO INVITED ODALIA INTO HELLUVA BOSS?"*

[@shanajeangedeon9060]

Bruh, now I need a video of Mallory because damn girl😆

[@Morgan_Reacts]

She refuses to be on camera because she's afraid people will make fun of her. I've been trying to get her on but she still refuses

[@shanajeangedeon9060]

@@Morgan_Reacts Aw, that's okay. She doesn't have to do anything she's uncomfortable with, do tell her that we find her very entertaining and sweet🤗

[@Morgan_Reacts]

@@shanajeangedeon9060 I'm gonna show her all the messages and hopefully they will make her less self conscious. I would really like to get her to do one of this videos with me. I think it would be hilarious. Thank you for your kind words :)

[@rileyanthony30]

@morgantarry this episode explains a lot about why stoleus is the way he is .

[@domonicsantalucia9002]

Fun fact about Stolas’ father (his name is Paimon btw) he’s actually the leader of the Ars Goetia, making him the tenth most powerful and influential demon in Hell (second only to the Seven Deadly Sins, Charlie and her mother) And I’m sorry to say Stella can’t just “die in a fire” she’s one of the Ars Goetia as well (the Ars Goetia are Fallen Angels if you don’t know) so only Angelic Weapons can kill her

[@AZDfox]

Eleventh. 7 sins and 3 Morningstars

[@domonicsantalucia9002]

@@AZDfox no cause Charlie’s dad is a member of the Seven Sins (Pride)

[@AZDfox]

@@domonicsantalucia9002 Good catch! I forgot about that! Helluva Boss is so focused on literally everywhere BUT the Pride Ring, that it's so easy to forget.

[@jaxcraft2848]

The writers are doing everything in their power to make us hate Stella! I love it! 😆

[@VanHellbright4763]

The Stolitz drama is probably solved/reduced in the lost episode. That's what I thought at first.

[@dragonfire4527]

13:51 "screetching voice." You tell it sister! She's (Stella not you Morgan) complaining about Stolas' "screetching voice" yet Stella's own voice sounds like claws on a chalkboard lmao 🤣😂.

[@inigocejalara7102]

You need to make your sister watch all of this

[@lexibarnett9125]

4:33 Horse person here, it is more common for horses to develop Lamanitis from endocrine diseases but it can also be caused by excessive weight gain and consuming high amounts of sugar and carbohydrates over a long period. Lamanitis is a disorder with the hoof and affects how the horse distributes it's weight. It is very painful for the horse. Sadly Lamanitis is irreversible. Treatment includes minimizing further deterioration and minimizing pain. nerve blocks and pain killing medication is all vets can do for severe cases of laminitis.

[@raistorm9688]

I swear your videos are so underrated your the only person I enjoy watching that reacts to other stuff

[@Morgan_Reacts]

Thank you so much for thinking that! Maybe one day I’ll make it into the big leagues 😭

[@alexanderleonardi3625]

little detail: all three acts in this episode begin with stolas waking up. the first two end in stolas laughing. the last one ends with him crying.

[@Hyacinthus.The.Clown.]

I’m so happy you got to this!!! It made me cry tbh 😭 love you videos sm! Cant wait for more!:)

[@golgothavirus]

You will love next episode it's wholesome

[@nevermind9835]

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT FOR SO LONG!! I just started watching, but this is one of my favorite episodes, so it's very interesting to see your reaction

[@delajomillozaragoza3386]

Stolas is a great dad, he's trying so hard to fix there relationship with her... 😭

[@CartoonBrains1976]

Stolas fathers voice is Jafar from 1992s Aladdin.

[@rainthehuman]

So is Blitzø’s dad

[@meganferguson1291]

Not your sister defending the homicidal maniac! 😂

[@McCammalot]

I firmly belive that Stolas "looking at the wall" is DISASSOCIATION, and Stella is expletive ABUSIVE.

[@McCammalot]

(Also Stella's voice actress is actually a delightful person, BTW. She's just portraying an amazing villain!)

[@area52ron]

“No wonder he cheated on you” And she’s lucky all he did was cheat

[@simoneperkins4419]

I'm sorry but I died at you and your sister arguing 😂. She should react with you someday.

[@umbraivt]

Now we can ask the question of who you hate more Odallia or Stella

[@gothic_ace2037]

i think the whole stolas having an heir thing has to do with his job more than anything else. all his siblings probably each have their own situations similar to his with arranged marriages and precautionary heirs. if something happens to Stolas then Octavia would take his place as the one to study the earths skies for prophecies.

[@sqxbarto9229]

I have a theory that Stolas's father is like Zeus from Greek mythology, and he seduced women in different forms (the animation shows different forms for him) and the other children are not legitimate, so the only "official" son is Stolas (he seems like an only child).

[@i_a_r_n_a]

We are definitely here for the fighting words!

[@area52ron]

Asmodeus crystals are how the succubus get to the human realm

[@Mad-Hatter-ison]

Fun fact, the voice of Paimon and Buckzo is the same guy who played Jafar of Aladdin

[@shuki3488]

The two of you argue just like me and my brother it's hilarious.

[@cabra0693]

Your sister sounds like a preschool teacher scolding a kid for saying the f word lmao

[@lumityforever]

in demon mythology pimon has 87 children

[@chelonianmobile]

Laminitis is a disease that makes horses' hooves fall off. It's super gross.

[@cupcakegirlpoweredits9732]

When you're here early and you don't know what to say 😭 Edit: now i have a theory. What if Stolas gets disowned and in order to live, he needs a job. So he applies at IMP and Blitz and hires him-

[@Hyacinthus.The.Clown.]

Fr 😭😭😭

[@Morgan_Reacts]

OOO! That would be a cool episode. I would also settle for a fanfic of that

[@zd_zma]

Lol. The conversation between you and your sister. I loved that

[@Edmqueen]

i adore this episode. i've rewatched this so many times. i adore him, stolas and blitz my poor complicated couple lol

[@DragonstarTDB5]

Here’s something you need to know about Stoltz, his father he basically takes the form of whatever creature he fucks and that’s why he has so many different species of kids. He takes that I will form when he sees Stolas.

[@Sandra-u7n8x]

"Describe stolas and Stella in one sentence" "It was an arranged marriage and he's gay!!"

[@arturferrao7353]

Paimon is such an horrible parent that buying the son a slave was literally the best think he did.

[@The-Rguy]

Stoals is part of The Ars Goetia there's 72 of them in total kings, queens, princes, princesses, dukes and dutchess Paimon shapeshifts to have different kids.

[@ninjafalls1739]

This is one of my favorite episodes

[@tahraethestoryteller6079]

Your sister is literally the Stella stanz in the beginning before we knew how bad she was and we thought there may be a chance for redemption Also you should’ve used the word abusive then she might have gotten it Though it’s funny because I think she thought you were talking to/about an actual human being in the real world given her surprise that Stella was an owl

[@ashlynwolff]

12:33 that line almost ripped me into stitches 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I expected "Who laughs now Bitch?" "That was the sound of Bad Karma!" but "Fucking Divorce" was the very last thing I expected. But damn that was TOO GOOD 😂😂😂😂

[@Phantom_Fireside]

Oh thank you!! I was also getting Flying Grayson vibes

[@darkfang347]

Love that song so much. "Die in a Fire"

[@DarcOne13]

Welcome to "Coping with Daddy Issues Poorly, the Musical..." Also, anyone named Stella is either the nicest person you've ever met or the literal devil. I also made an OC named Stella, and she's easily just as abusive as Vivzie's Stella.

[@Michaela-zh1do]

Stella is literally me acting ghetto I would talk about somebody anyway anyhow when I want to whenever I want to at the time when I feel like it when I’m mad I don’t even care if you’re in front of me😭😭

[@elphieb3538]

Not Morgan's sister arguing with them over their thoughts on a fictional character lmfao

[@Paige_wonders]

How does it feel to hate someone more than odalia? 🤣

[@queenkaterose]

the song stolas sings really reminds me of Nightmare Before Christmas 😭

[@gemluka6666]

Stella is actuelly a peacock

[@YourAverageAssassin-HDN1]

Stolas: "Leave him to me, I will handle him" 10:31 What do you mean by that

[@sirbitterheart5465]

17:55 Is she an owl? I think her brother is a peacock 🦚 and she has no black feathers. Via came out looking like Stolas, but I doubt Stella is an owl🦉. Just a thought. Not sure what she is.

[@FloralWeeb]

I’m just eating dinner with my friend and she hears “-FACCKK WAS THAT STOLASS!?”

[@eeveefennecfox]

show your sister helluva boss and she'll be like oh I see what you mean now

[@briangang3977]

I'm pretty sure Stolas' dad is just a shapeshifter. I think also Charlie's dad?

[@briangang3977]

@Vegvisir92 you're telling me they got two monarchies down there? no wonder its that way it is

[@Grill_Crill]

takes love bite to another level

[@tht_indie_fn]

I sensed that “die in a fire” from a mile away lol

[@YourAverageAssassin-HDN1]

I love that T-shirt. Very clever.

[@beastart159]

Your sister is hilarious morgan!😂😂

[@tatumb-n8y]

I am agreeing with you so much this episode and nice Die in a Fire reference

[@mangaanimefan3089]

12:44 For me, it was a YT short of this scene that got me into this show. It was funny and made me curious enough to want to check out the episode it came from. 😁

[@4OUP_]

Dont know if you already knew this or not but the imps horns actually depend on their gender. For example if the horns are mostly black with thin white lines its a female but if its equal black and white lines its a male.

[@wolfiegirl83]

"Being in a marriage for..at least 17 years..is awful!" I'd like to disagree with this. Being in a marriage for that long isn't awful. Being in an arrangement marriage with an abusive, toxic, partner for that long is awful.