Multiple miscarriages and Faith | CHRISTIAN RECURRENT PREGNANCY LOSS | EP 3

Recurrent pregnancy loss / multiple miscarriages and Christianity. How did having 3 miscarriages change my faith and impact my view of God? God can handle my anger and frustration and he cares about my brokenness and heartbreak. I hope this helps other women who are going through the same thing.
-Kennedy
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[@livingthemomlife]

god really put it on my heart to be thankful. thankful for this little soul choosing me to make that experience. no matter how long it wants to stay. god is giving us this honour because he knows how strong we are. and even if the little soul is only staying for a few weeks, its much nicer if it is already loved and overall wanted. sending blessings to All the Mamas out there, god is gonna keep his promise ❤ we need to trust him and not our emotions. writing this is a mama during her 5th pregnancy, with only one child born and alive.

[@tiquito1239]

I don't know if you'll read this. I've been trying to get pregnant for 4 years today with 6 miscarriages being a Christian women left me feeling exactly how you feel right now. Broken distance myself from God got mad blaming him I've tried to be the best Christian why would you allowed me to suffer like this were the words I would tell him. But I know deep down he's plan is better. Just recently i started praying more reading my Bible and praying for healing my heart is still hurting but I know I can't continue breathing with this pain without him. Close friends and family continue to have kids while I cry and wait for my miracle. Am trying everyday to get closer to him .. I have good days and bad ones days I just want to cry and cry and I pray and slowly but surely I know he's working on my heart

[@kennedypeters7198]

I am so sorry for your heartache and your babies. Please know there is nothing and no one that can heal such a deep heartache other than Jesus. God is able to handle your honest raw emotions and it’s in the moments of completely honest vulnerability that healing happens. Also know your prayers don’t even have to be words. I would lay on my bed weeping and wailing and God knew what my heart was saying. There are no words to describe the wound of losing multiple babies. I will pray for you and your husband 🤍

[@tiquito1239]

Thank you so much for your kind words. I haven't had support from my family and friends. I've been dealing with all these emotions by myself. I talk to my husband but I feel bad for always putting of the weight of my pain on him. I will continue to search for God in these hard times. Thank you for your prayers 🙏 I will pray for you as well. For healing and many blessings to come.

[@kennedypeters7198]

@@tiquito1239 how are you doing?

[@Ni2416]

@kennedypeters7198 have you seen a specialist?

[@han1515]

Thank you for this video. I just went through a chemical pregnancy last month and just got a very faint positive this morning. So hard to let God take control and not let fear overcome me and resist his control. Ultimately, his way is the best way. Even if.

[@kennedypeters7198]

Praying for you this morning! How are you doing?

[@dayday481]

Thank you for this video 😭😭😭😭😭 🙏 had two miscarriage recently back to back with the second being a month ago..i dont feel ill ever get through it but ik god is in control no matter the outcome.much healing to you and others who are going through this

[@RCMama05]

Kennedy, Thank you for sharing your story. As women it's easy to feel alone in this kind of situation, so you sharing helps me and I'm sure others to have someone to relate to and identify with. I lost my son 2 weeks ago at 5 months pregnant. I never thought I would loose him or that I would have a miscarriage. This is so hard to process, but as you said with God we can get through this. He is the only thing I can put my hope in. Reading His words after going through this really speak life to me. I'm still going through grieving and I'm not going to rush it, but He is speaking truth to me through my sadness. I'm so sorry for your loss and for all the other mama's out there. Just know mama You are a miracle, you are God's idea and He has a plan bigger than we can see. Our view is temporal..His view is eternal..and your babies and how you are growing from this has an eternal impact that only God knows fully. I know we may see some of his plan or the good that comes from these though times in part while here on earth. We can trust in our creator. He is a good father and loves us. Thank you again 4 sharing

[@kennedypeters7198]

I’m so sorry you lost your son. My husband and I will be praying for you. I know that in the midst of this grief there are no words I could say that would bring true comfort. Comfort only comes from the Lord and his words. Please know God is caring for your tender heart as he loves on your son. Continue to seek the Lord daily and he will bring you moment by moment peace🤍

[@raybay7237]

Why didn’t god want you to have Christmas morning with your child?

[@kennedypeters7198]

@@raybay7237 God didn’t not want me to spend Christmas pregnant, he just has a different plan. What happened is a result from living in an imperfect world. But God is so good and marvelous in the way he is able to bring good even out of our most painful situations.

[@raybay7237]

@@kennedypeters7198 so you appreciate gods word more than spending Christmas morning with your child?

[@kennedypeters7198]

@@raybay7237 if you want to think of it that way then yes

[@AmyJennison-Smith]

Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry for your losses. I really needed this today. I've just had my third miscarriage withinn a year. I have felt exactly all the same emotions you have. I'm trusting God has a plan for me. He is good

[@kennedypeters7198]

I’m so sorry. How are you doing? Sending a prayer for you now!

[@AmyJennison-Smith]

@kennedypeters7198 Sadly I have just lost my 4th baby. Their heartbeat stopped at 9 weeks. Very sad. Please could you pray for me?

[@kennedypeters7198]

@@AmyJennison-Smith I am so sorry. I’m praying for you and your husband. Psalm 22 and 23 brought me comfort when I was in the depths of the pain. I pray that you would draw near to the Lord and know that God uses all things for good🤍

[@sarahandrews55]

Thank you so much for your honesty. I needed to see this over the last few days as I’ve just had a chemical pregnancy it’s amazing how much we love something we have never met but we do. God is good and I’m praying for a healthy baby in 2024 ❤

[@cecelia3185]

Thank you for sharing. I am currently going through my 4th loss in the past 21 months. Anger grief sadness. But my love for Jesus Christ is helping me to get through this season. God is so good even when it doesn't feel like it. God bless you 🙏

[@asmrbookshelf]

I’m so thankful for finding this video. After just going through my first pregnancy and miscarriage in the same week as moving across country with my husband, this video has reminded me of God’s goodness. When you said you couldn’t imagine going through pain like this without God… I am absolutely feeling that. Though I’m experiencing some of the most foreign and difficult pain I’ve ever been through I keep finding sparks of God throughout the past few weeks after we lost our baby. You have been so encouraging to me during this time. I have no friends and family around me other than my husband. And it’s becoming harder to get through each week without a hug or encouragement from loved ones. The pain of realizing that most people won’t remember my baby at all is what keeps me up. Anyway, thank you for being so vulnerable on here. It’s helped me feel not so alone in my misery🤍

[@ericanicolexo8252]

Thank you so much for sharing I feel like I saw this video for a reason, I just had my first miscarriage with my first child and I will be honest I said some pretty hurtful things towards god while I was in pain at the hospital, couldn’t understand why god would allow such a thing to happen. Two days later I am remorseful for the things I said and have asked for forgiveness also not wanting to watch miscarriage videos yours came up and I decided to click on it. This helped me so much so thank you for that. I hope to continue my walk with god to have hope and faith in him that his plan is bigger and better than what I had in mind. Praying that the emotional pain stops.

[@kennedypeters7198]

I am so sorry for your loss. Keep being honest and vulnerable with God, we don’t need to “pull ourselves together” for Him. God uses all things for His glory, even when we can’t see how he could possibly turn our heartbreak and pain into something good. Psalm 22 and 23 brought me a lot of comfort🤍

[@AliannaRenell]

Thank you so much for sharing this, I feel your pain, I recently just had a missed miscarriage and I did not find out until my 13th week follow up, I would never wish this pain on anyone, but God is good, and he is faithful. I’ve been trying my best to look at it in a positive light as well, but we must continue to trust in the Lord with all of our heart and lean not on our own understanding, I pray that the Lord will continue to bless you and fill you with Joy and abundance 🙏🏽❤️

[@MrsMaggieReid]

Thank you so much for this. Struggling with my 4th miscarriage in a row and trying to live in faith

[@karendelgado7923]

I am also struggling with my 4th miscarriage in a row. I am so sorry you are going through this but know you are not alone. And we are not alone. Life is not a fixed point, it is a vector that goes on forever, God has vision of the all of it. So this suffering we are going through is only a tiny bit of time. I am like this woman who struggles with anger with God, but I know I need to put my faith in him because he knows best. I am slowly healing from this with that trust and faith in God. I pray that you and all are going through this will find comfort in that. It’s ok to be sad and angry, just give all that up to God.

[@cecelia3185]

I am currently going through my 4th loss in less than 2 years 😔 my heart is broken,again 😢 I do know that God has great plans for me and I need to trust in His will and plan. Sending love ❤️

[@ByancaFoster]

Thank you for this, because I feel so lost! I’m on my 4th miscarriage. I know he’s in control, but I feel confused bc they are saying nothing is wrong. I’m choosing to trust him

[@kennedypeters7198]

I’m so sorry for your losses🤍 trust your intuition and keep doing research, change doctors if you need to. I ended up having low progesterone and I had to advocate for myself to my OB to test my progesterone levels from the very beginning.

[@jocelynquintanilla5659]

Thank you for sharing, truly.

[@goryjowi7747]

😢 i had a miscarriage 2day a go am so heartbroken am alone

[@user-kg9bw1cc8h]

Im so sorry for what you went thru. I believe staying tuned to worship music can bring healing.

[@chazalinmahoe5105]

Same mine happened today I believe they diagnosed it as threatened but I seen it all come out. This is my second miscarriage in one year. 🙏🏽🤍God knows what’s best, he needed them more than we did and I’m okay with that , but still going to be fervent in prayer 🙏🏽 for another blessing in the future 🤍🤍🤍

[@kennedypeters7198]

I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you now🤍

[@arlinsalaman6564]

Im going thru my third miscarriage rn now .03/9/24.i feel that this is also me.....but i dont want to feel mad at God..im in fear of being completely without him.and this does make me question why cant i just being the most naturalist form that is to be a mother again.ive said lord i could care less of asking for material things.but to just be a mother again..im still trying to understand.but my heart breaks...i went to the emergency room because i had this weird strong head ache that made me feel weak and was spotting alot.then to find out that the babies heart beat was at 80.i felt defeated because like i said this is my third miscarriage.2 days later come back in to another ultrasound and the heart beat at 45..my HEART HURT SOOOO BAD.BECAUSE AS A MOM, I COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO HELP MY BABY.it was as if he was fighting so hard to live.it was soooooooo hard to see this😭😭😭😭😭. My baby.my poor baby!!!!.all i kept praying to God to please please put peace in my heart.this one hurt way more because i literally with my eyes saw my baby slowly dying.please God all i ask for is guidance, peace, comfort.

[@cecelia3185]

I went through the same and have just lossed my 4th baby 😢 I'm so sorry for your loss. Let's continue to trust in Gods plan for our lives 🙏

[@rebeccabrowning2398]

God is always so very good!! I am currently going through what you are talking about. 3 miscarrages within 6 months. I have to remind myself, if it is in God's plan it will happen. How are you now?

[@kennedypeters7198]

I am so sorry for your losses, it breaks my heart that you’re going through what I went through. But God is good, even when everything is going wrong he his good. Now I am doing great, currently 6 months with our baby. It hasn’t been easy but I’m thankful for each day I get. And praising God we made it this far. We know it’s only because of God we have our baby. I will be praying for you and your family🤍

[@user-ur7wg5qh5i]

When I found out I had a lost miscarriage it kept playing in my mind a mundane song about abortion, which I abhorred but was played in a happy pop style. As soon I got home I stated to heavens and hell that my child belonged with Jesus. I didn't know that it was a kind of inspiration. Yet I was sad and mad at God, but something refrained my anger, as if deep down I knew God would explain to me what was going on. On the following day, after I came back from the hospital, my husband told me something I wish he had told me when we met (and I wouldn't have married him, especially because I did that in front of God). He told me that five years before he had travelled abroad with a friend so that she could have an abortion. My husband travelled with her in secret, I still didn't know him, but his friend was already committed to the man she came to marry. It's been less than two months and all I think is this marriage didn't please God or maybe I should pray more for his deliverance. He swears it was not his child, but who knows? Even if it were, he still sees her as a friend and I don't like that her husband was fooled and maybe so was I. I believe a very strange thing, that for every baby killed in offer to the other side, another baby is sent to praise God, even though all babies go to God. Somehow I believe I was punished, that maybe I committed many sins that gave breech to this. This woman now has a healthy baby boy and from time to time is a source of fight in my marriage.

[@kennedypeters7198]

First off, I am so sorry for your loss. I know those words do next to nothing to ease the agony of losing a child. The only encouragement I have is something you already know. Your baby is with Jesus, the creator of Heaven and earth. The one who created you and your husband. The one who loved your baby before you were even born. The one who loves our children so much more than we are even capable of. I’m sorry your husband kept that secret from you, he shouldn’t have but I think it’s a work of the Holy Spirit that he confessed to you. That couldn’t have been easy for him to share and my guess would be he probably feels guilt and shame in helping his friend, and he’s probably condemning himself thinking that his actions then caused the loss of your guys baby now. I can’t relate to that specific situation but my pastor’s testimony is very similar. He actually pressured his girlfriend to get an abortion and (even though he wasn’t a Christian at the time) thought he would never be able to have kids in the future because of that. His testimony is heartbreaking and encouraging and I’ll link it for you below. kzbin.infojwgiJfsra08?feature=share

[@user-ur7wg5qh5i]

@@kennedypeters7198 Thank you for your understanding. I am going to watch your pastor's testimony. "Curious" thing is that while I was pregnant, having many fights with my husband because of that friend, I would pray everyday for his deliverance and for my pregnancy. Nobody knew about that. The first words he said after he told me that was: "Now that I've told you, I feel free." In my language deliverance is "setting one free". God was there everytime, working to save us. I experienced many strange events before I knew I was pregnant, terrible visions and I could not imagine there was such a sin in our lives. Thank you for your faith and for sharing your life story. May God bless you and your family.

[@Bridal_Mua]

I had two miscarriages this year 1st baby 5 months 2nd on 7weeks I’m still in the process of healing May be god can heal me

[@kennedypeters7198]

God is the only one able to heal and restore. Through him alone, he is able to bring something beautiful out of such deep heartbreak. Praying for you right now❤️