My Active Fentanyl Addiction//Starting The Withdrawal Process

Hey everyone,
As promised, I said I would make a video when I start to come off of fentanyl and start the withdrawal process. I’m absolutely terrified as you can see from this video. I knew the day would come but now it’s here part of me really doesn’t want to let it go. I’m confident I can do it, so wish me luck 🍀
Thank you so, so much for watching! It means more than you know 💕💕

[@FREEWoman_from_Abuse]

You can do this, I know you can! Acknowledging is the first step to making a change in your life. A lot of times people want to cover up the pain they have experienced and it from what I was reading is highly addictive with horrible side effects with withdrawal. You will get through this and talking about your story on here is an amazing acknowledgment to what you have gone through. Don’t give up and understand that they are putting all kinds of deadly chemicals in that stuff, so much it is killing people and you deserve a better life than that.

[@bettedaviseyes9312]

Just ran across this video. Probably because I too deal with addiction. I have been on suboxone for many years. I got off everything else and even got down to half a strip a day but I just can't get off. I get so sick and then eventually relapse. I am sending you so much love and light. From one stranger friend to another. ❤

[@67marlins]

I commend your bravery. Shocking that someone so attractive, intelligent and coherent could struggle against this poison. You're strong enough to beat this. Just like you did without trying as a happy kid. You can take your mind & heart back to that strong, carefree and confident time of your life when drugs simply didn't exist. You're beautiful and strong. Please keep us advised of how you're doing, friend!

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you for your lovely comment! Honestly, addiction and mental health issues don’t care who you are, they will take whoever they can sadly. I know what you mean and I’m confident I can get there. I will do, new video coming soon, just had a bit of a tough time recently. Thank you 🥰

[@andrewfedder9354]

Fetty is so hard to break, I have found a steady stride with it and that is horrible because I don’t want to deal with side effects. I need a better reason to quit before I ruin my health. Thank you for the great video and being transparent. You’ve inspired me to tell my story

[@amieelizaa]

Tell me about it! It’s awful. I’m glad you’re not experiencing the side effects. I don’t have them as bad as when I cut it off all together but they’re still horrid. Thank you so much for your lovely words!

[@Bando-fx4mf]

She wants on fent she’s from England , she’s a liar , only real dope in Europe. She’s made title for click bait. She was not on fetty.

[@Vanessacurry84]

You are very brave to not only do this but to film it to help other ppl!! I think ur videos will help so many ppl and I cannot imagine doing both at same time!! Sending u love and good luck!!

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much for your lovely comment! That’s my aim, to help people feel like they can also do it and to feel motivated. Sadly it means showing some of my most vulnerable and difficult times but to me that’s worth it 😊 thank you 💕

[@albin2232]

Good luck Amie. I strongly believe that you will be able to move forward. I understand the fear. You need a really good Multidisciplinary team to help you with this. Bother people, push for help, be persistent until you feel really supported.

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you for your kind words! I do feel I will get there, it just takes time. Yeah I have been learning to ask for more help and tell people exactly how I’m feeling and what not struggling with, rather than just saying I’m fine.

[@BananaGomez.]

You aren't in this alone! I'm on it as well but getting it off the street. I'm ready to get my life back and I had bags packed and dad arrived to take me to rehab on this past Wednesday... well here I am, obviously couldn't make it. But I'm sure I will get myself to go in by the end of this month that's my commitment to myself so we shall see. Love love love these videos and you for putting yourself out there I know it's so much bigger than it appears to the rest of the world. Addiction is the strangest most awful thing in the world but we will be on the winning side soon enough I know it!! Keeping you in my thoughts, wishing the best to you and sending you strength 💪 ❤ 💙 💛

[@amieelizaa]

Sorry I only just saw this! If you’re at the stage where you’re ready and confident you will go and get yourself sober, you are always such a huge part of the way there. That’s always the hardest bit! Thank you so much, and sending you so much love and support too 💕

[@lookingup113]

How does fentanyl make you feel?

[@lookingup113]

How many blue pills do you take at a time?

[@tekClown]

Stumbled upon this video. Good luck with your journey. It's a gruelling battle, but you can do it with determination.

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much!

[@itzcawdkarma]

How are you…..!!! So proud of you baby girl

[@L._._]

Good luck, you’re stronger than you know

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much, that’s so kind of you 💕

[@djinflict1401]

Hi Amie, I was on 150mcg/hr of fentanyl patches for 2.5 years. I was also taking oxycodone on top for breakthrough pain. I decided to come off it and weaned down by 12.5mcg/hr every 2 weeks. It was absolutely brutal but I got all the way down to 6mcg/hr (half a 12mcg/hr patch). On the 8th January 2023 I went cold turkey and it was horrendous but I stuck with it. I have now reached 4 months and I made it. If you want any advice or want to talk to someone who has been through exactly what you’re going through let me know. James

[@HappyColour98]

Good luck! Hope you’re doing ok ❤

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much! I’m getting there, it’s not easy though 💕

[@freshtoast3879]

I wish you all the best of luck in the future. I hope everything works out for you

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you 😊

[@freshtoast3879]

@@amieelizaa why did you decide to come off these meds?

[@johnboy4067]

I'm in a very similar situation after loosing my leg I was put on high amounts of oxycontin, I hate it so much yet I love it so much , I hate the pain yet the opiates don't do much as I'm taking them not to be sick , withdrawaling from opiates is horrific even worse than having my leg chopped off

[@amieelizaa]

Wow, that sounds absolutely horrific! I’m so sorry you had to go through that 😩

[@ohitsmookie2751]

Sending love, I’m over 2yrs clean from fentanyl. It was a BITCHHHHH.. I quit COLD TURKEY. 🤧

[@JenDoe1]

I found your channel earlier! How are you feeling? I’m transitioning from Fentanyl to Methadone at the moment. I relate to you so much, I hope you’re doing okay! Love from the USA! Xx

[@amieelizaa]

Hi! It’s a struggle tbh! I’ve gone from feeling HORRIFIC, all the horrible feelings of withdrawing coupled with the pain which is like no other and also feeling anxious about what’s to come and when or if this gets easier (as I know I need to reduce again another 3-4 times). But then I get stages of where I feel like it’s getting easier and then more recently I’ve been struggling so bad and it’s affecting my mental health because I just feel like it’s never going to improve. I honestly didn’t think it would last this long before I got used to the reduced dose but here we are 🤷🏻‍♀️ thank you so much for asking! Ohh wow, how are you finding it? I hope you’re getting on better than me haha! 💕

[@jessikamouchet8046]

Wishing you luck ❤️

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much 💕

[@jeremieyanni59]

If you're going to get off of fentynal I suggest the vitamin c protocol get started with that for one week talk to an addiction therapist and use suboxon or subtext to wheen of off it for the further 2 weeks then taper off the suboxon or whatever treatment drug you decide on just know that if you choose methadone it has a longer shelf life in your system and the withdrawal from it will be a nightmare.

[@smith2781]

Good luck I know how you feel. They put me on methadone when I was in prison and was getting reduced with no problem. But then I got told one day that I’m out 2moro on a tag. So I had to go to one of these drug places to get my script. I hated going there so I just did my cluck. After 5 days I started slowly getting better and after 2-3 weeks was back firing on all cylinders again. I feel so much better for it I have so much more energy and my mental health has improved no end. Honestly the thought of it is worse than just doing it if you can make it past day 4 you almost there. Trust me if I can do it anyone can do it I was on heroin for 15 years. I wish you all the best and if you need someone to talk you through it just comment.

[@amieelizaa]

I’m glad to hear you were able to get through it all okay! Sounds like you went through hell though! I think the thing I’m struggling with is not only the withdrawals but also the horrific pain, it’s awful and some days feels like I’m not getting any closer. But thank you for the support!

[@smith2781]

@@amieelizaa Sounds like you might actually need it though if it’s for pain. You’ve just got to treat it like a medication. There is a guy that I know that lives near me. He was in a car accident and was given tramadol and the doctors took him off it and he was still in pain. The doctors just told him to take paracetamol which didn’t work. Now he’s on heroin he’s in his 50’s or 60’s he looks like my dad. This guy is just a normal middle class guy so I would be careful. Thank you for your kind message, yes it was a horrible few days. But even after 5 days when I started feeling better I was just depleted of energy and I didn’t sleep for 5 days straight. Then I would only have like 40 mins here and there. It took over 3 weeks before I got back into a normal sleeping pattern. It did feel so nice though after my first night of proper sleep I had my energy back and everything but still felt a bit rough from not sleeping, that took a couple of days to overcome. I wish you all the best and your in my thoughts and prayers. Like I said if you need someone to talk to that’s been there and understands your situation then you only have to ask there is no shame in asking for help and advice. If you don’t want to talk on here where everyone can see it let me know and I’ll give you my Facebook details. Hope you’ve had a great jubilee weekend.

[@hayy4409]

🙏🏼❤

[@Stewartchampion]

Keep away from it all ..while ya still got ya looks n health ..i wish u all the best..... it only gets worse ..day at a time .take care

[@amieelizaa]

I’m trying my best, thank you

[@mandynicole10]

I hope you're doing well. I became addicted to Dilaudid about 9 years ago and stayed hooked for a few years and then I used Methadone to help me come off it because I just couldn't handle the withdrawal's I couldnt get past a day or two it was absolutely awful. I'm still taking Methadone to this day and its really helped me. The withdrawal's from Dilaudid was horrible I can't imagine how much worse Fentanyl would be. Opioid withdrawal is truly the worst agony and pain you could ever imagine. I wish you the best in your journey. ❤

[@amieelizaa]

I’m so sorry you had to go through that but I’m happy to hear you found methadone and it was able to help you. It’s honestly awful and has taken way longer than I thought. And that’s without me even getting off yet! Thank you for your lovely comment 🩵

[@mtamela1855]

Yeah. I am trying to do what she does, and posting videos and so fucked up in the head...only that I crave the street drugs...and I am hiding myself in a small town in Eastern Europe...because if I went away...I do not trust mysef yet

[@mtamela1855]

And my greetings to you 💝

[@ellen9925]

Just a heads up, the withdrawal from methadone will bring you to your knees. Research and find other's experience. It takes a long time to come off methadone, the withdrawal and post withdrawal is a whole new level. Not trying to scare you but get off it as soon as possible if you can.

[@headshrinker1124]

The withdrawal from methadone will be 100x worse than dilaudid I found dilaudid the easiest to come off its got a short half life it's a really clean opioid ask your doctor to go back on it for a few months get the methadone out your system then tapper off the dilaudid good luck ✌️

[@CA-of2nt]

Good luck 💜

[@amieelizaa]

Thank you so much 💕

[@simsimo4113]

Good morning dear moon Elisa great channel great gentiment God blessing you with your produits af this channel good luck my der princess❤😊

[@PHL82]

Did you get through it? I know it’s hard, but detoxing your body you’ll feel some better in time. You are a beautiful, smart woman. You want children and that alone should be enough to fight through this!

[@laurencejones8977]

She’s a stronger soul than I am. I need my Fentanyl patches to survive.

[@Teenywing]

All addicts think that but you don’t. Everyone can live with limited pain and limited opiates, it just takes work. Addicts really struggle with that, which is understandable.

[@doloressverko9887]

There are so many tools to help you. Music from Miten or Santa Kaur. Going to spiritual places where you can chant and dance for hours.. then build into the yoga exercise that works for and then the meditation process. Your time and habits should be replaced by positive habits and eliminate people with anxiety, criticism, negative habits and abuse.. for like a year, until they don’t faze you. I know because I had an auto accident that hurt my 5th lumbar area. I wasn’t insured. After a few years of pain, then about 2 years of less pain with self-realization exercise yoga, I eventually found a state of zero pain. I can’t help but share that there are natural solutions. Qui Gong has helped others that I know.

[@danielgomez4670]

I was on fentanyl for 4 years worst shit ever and I’ve been in combat for the military . It’s extremely hard you need comfort meds only way

[@amieelizaa]

It is horrible, and coming off it is the worst feeling honestly! Morphine is really helping with the withdrawals and to manage my pain so I’m glad I have it

[@keeya_ks]

I was on fentanyl lollipops for more than 7 years and withdrew I understand it will be hard but now being years off you will look back and wish you came off sooner

[@amieelizaa]

Yeah, I know you’re right! It’s tough now but just am getting there slowly. Thank you so much 😊

[@Fineeeaddiction]

Tell them to prescribe u gabapentin to help ease the pain thru withdrawals. Don’t wish this disease on anybody! Good Luck🙏🏼

[@amieelizaa]

Unfortunately I was on Gaba before and it made me so poorly, I thought I had flu! I was bed bound, couldn’t eat or sleep and was constantly throwing up, everything hurt too! It was horrible. I appreciate the comment though and advice.. unfortunately I’ve tried every SINGLE pain med there is and that’s why I’ve ended up on, and addicted to fentanyl 😭 thank you though xx

[@Fineeeaddiction]

Are you sure it was gabapentin (Neurontin) that’s what they gave me detox to mask the withdrawals then the other detox gave me buprenorphine (which I hated kept throwing up) have you tried winging off Suboxone?

[@amieelizaa]

@@Fineeeaddiction yes I’m sure, I’ve worked around medication for 9 years so know what is what extremely well. Gabapentin is actually known to have really awful side effects. My family also work in the healthcare industry and when I said how I was feeling they said it would have definitely been the medication as it often does that. Google gabapentin side effects and you’ll see what comes up, I literally felt awful! So never again haha! Never tried Suboxone, it’s not anything I’ve ever been offered so not sure if it’s available in the UK. Morphine is helping me a lot to be fair with the withdrawals and the pain management. There’s some tough days but generally it’s doing it’s job! So I wouldn’t want to change now

[@PHL82]

@@amieelizaanot true for everyone. I wouldn’t have gotten off it without it. EVERYONES body is different

[@Bando-fx4mf]

She wants on fent she’s from England , she’s a liar , only real dope in Europe. She’s made title for click bait. She was not on fetty.

[@Horticarter41]

I had to get an implant put in my back to prevent the pain signals from reaching my brain. It's called a spinal cord stimulator. After that I was able to slowly wean down from morphine and dilaudid over the course of several months. Now I'm just on vicodin for breakthrough pain. I want to have more children as well, and my pain doctor says the dose I'm on wouldn't cause withdrawal symptoms. I don't know how bad your pain is, but Maybe an implant could help.

[@amieelizaa]

Ohh that’s really helpful, thank you so much. My physio has found the problem and it seems to be helping for so long but then the pain will start again somewhere else in my back, so it’s very frustrating. I didn’t even know this was an option! So glad to hear it’s helped you though, fab news!

[@Horticarter41]

@@amieelizaa no problem! Trust me, I get it. I spent the last decade going up and down with pain meds and it is a BITCH. The best thing to do is not worry about getting off at all, just seeing how much less you can do NOW. YOU control where you go. Don't worry about where your doctor wants you to be. It's your pain, your body. Don't beat yourself up.

[@amieelizaa]

@@Horticarter41 thank you so so much! I needed to hear this Due to recent events, I have hit a few issues (which I’m editing a video of explaining) and ended up not reducing as much or as quickly as I planned and it has really upset me. So hearing this has reiterated things to me and made me realise I’m so much further forward than I was and just focusing on the fact I have reduced loads already and not focusing on being completely off everything. It’s hard not to beat myself up but this helps a lot, thank you, you’re a lovely person!

[@Horticarter41]

@@amieelizaa I'm always here. Just remember to breathe. And if you can get a cannabis prescription that's something else you can take that isn't an opiate that can help you reduce. Muscle relaxants like methacarbamol are great too. You got this, and I'm always here.

[@fentanylanonymous]

Hey whats up just found your channel. Have you been able to get off the fent or are you still struggling to get off?

[@amieelizaa]

I’m still very slowly coming off as I’m struggling with the withdrawals and pain a lot. Currently on 12 mcg/hour patches and the next drop will be off all together, just using morphine to get by

[@davidkruse4030]

I wouldn’t be so quick to call this addiction. You have a dependency plus you have pain. I hope you ended up well

[@michelebergman4336]

It shouldn’t be too hard as long as u go SUPER SLOWLY!!!! U have to do this with dr help

[@amieelizaa]

Sadly, because I’ve been on it for so long, no matter how slowly I go, it’ll be tough. Because it is in patch form and not liquid, you have to jump down quite drastically

[@CA-of2nt]

I think of you often, hope you are doing ok

[@amieelizaa]

Awww thank you so much! I’m slowly getting there 💕

[@sherryyyy100]

shouldn’t be dropping more than 10 % a week but you would be a good candidate for suboxone/buprenorphine

[@amieelizaa]

It’s all under the guidance of my doctor so I fully trust the amount I’m dropping in is safe for me. I’m not sure if that’s something we have over here, it’s never been offered to me 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@fentanylanonymous]

@@amieelizaa are you in the UK? yeah they have subs/bupe over there yall get the tablets tho and we get strips over here in the US

[@amieelizaa]

@@fentanylanonymous yes in the UK. Ohh that’s interesting, never something that my doctor has brought up to me

[@fentanylanonymous]

@@amieelizaa yeah it was the only way I was able to get out of that life and into recovery I’m on a low dose of subs and it saved my life.

[@andrewcampbell6883]

Tapering is the way to go but the real hurdle is when you jump off and do not have the get out of jail card of a small dose of whichever opiates the most important thing is make the decision that you don't want to be enslaved anymore think of heroin morphine or fentyl as a greedy landlord kick him into touch

[@WaliWrlddd]

Getting down to that last dose before you cut it is so scary

[@lookingup113]

How's fentanyl make you feel?

[@amieelizaa]

It depends! At first, it made me feel awful (sick all the time, really dizzy, passing out constantly etc.) but as I got used to it because it helped with my pain, it started to make me feel good. I look forward to the day I change my patches because the day before I start to withdraw and feel really ill and also my pain gets much worse. But of course that’s because I’m addicted! I still sometimes get some of the feelings I did at the start when I first change my patch but they’re much less strong, I’m not usually physically sick anymore. I was also used to taking opiates as I had been on morphine for a long time before so my experience was very different to I imagine a lot of peoples, I was used to a level of opiates. It’s now a case of taking it to help with my pain and so I don’t withdraw, not because I get much of a good feeling from it, if that makes sense?

[@lookingup113]

@@amieelizaa have you ever tried M 30 light blue pills?

[@0ate5y]

In the uk?

[@amieelizaa]

Yes 😊

[@michelebergman4336]

Taper super slowly & u need assistance!!! Maybe take Suboxone while tapering!

[@amieelizaa]

I don’t think that’s available in the UK unfortunately. If it was I’ve not been offered it at all. I take morphine to help

[@miketrush4028]

Here cuz your beautiful 😍

[@jeremieyanni59]

Are you done with this

[@amieelizaa]

Sorry, what do you mean?

[@jeremieyanni59]

Yes I am before I decided to get clean I got 30 legitimate prescription pills to mitigate the withdraws from the fentynal because no one is getting heiron anymore and although fentynal is fast acting it lasts like 4 to 5 days in your system so don't make the mistake that I did once before and think that 3 days is enough time to start suboxon. The 30 10 milligram percocet that I had barely reduced the withdraw symptoms but gave me enough of a brake that I could still keep my job. Then the vitamin c protocol helps you bounce back

[@sherryyyy100]

exercise will help

[@amieelizaa]

Well it depends. Some days I struggle to even get out of bed due to the pain increase from reducing my meds, other days because of my accident I need to stay on the go anyway to keep myself from seizing up but you must remember that everyone is different in terms of pain and addiction

[@sherryyyy100]

@@amieelizaa I’m so sorry for your pain and I understand everyone is different! I only say exercise because it helps produce more endorphins- that help you feel better so even tho exercise may cause some pain it would help long term to get you feeling better!

[@anthonylewis1980]

Ibogaine will do the job

[@amieelizaa]

This isn’t something I’m familiar with from either my experiences working in healthcare or from my doctors so I’m presuming it’s not available in the UK

[@anthonylewis1980]

@@amieelizaa it is . Don't bother with traditional methods seek this plant out do your research and it will find you.

[@GRANDDADHOOLIGAN]

Damn the Restless Leg Shndrome is a beeeyotch, and the insomnia is just horrible I’m only on day 2

[@amieelizaa]

I know, it’s horrible and you feel like you’re literally dying but focus on the fact that every day is one day closer to not waking up and feeling like this and feeling fresher and happier. It will take some time and it will be absolute hell but you’ve got this!

[@jakepadgett5569]

Too pretty to be a drug addict.

[@BohdiBaine386]

I'm a active addiction now too

[@amieelizaa]

I’m so sorry to hear this, please take care of yourself!

[@Erie3577]

Your beautiful

[@Jachi_Michael]

You’re way too beautiful thou...

[@queenicedcoffee4217]

Fentanyl damages your inside not the outside