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i keep to myself so much that i don't realize how little people actually know about me, even my family sometimes. so whenever i don't feel like hiding how i'm feeling on the outside and i'm caught looking all mopey and shit i just say i'm tired or even apologize at times. not the healthiest behavior, but i keep it away from them cause i know i'll be fine. nobody knows how anyone else's brain works when it comes to handling depression or stress. i know that everything will be okay in the long run but right now it's rough. but no one else knows how i work, and i don't expect them to, so i leave it unsaid so they don't worry. also, sometimes whenever i do let someone in on how i'm feeling, depending on how they react it can make me feel like things are worse than they seem to me, and it can stress me out more. so it feels like a lose lose situation a lot of the time. idk.
fun fact: this song was mainly written to a very heavily "men i trust" inspired instrumental i made. but i like it more when it's played acoustically.
hope you enjoy :)
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lyrics:
you say
i look tired on the outside
but if you knew all the little lies
i hammer in your head each day
so you think i'm a-okay
i think you would feel betrayed
after all, you love me too
but when i'm sad my honesty
sneaks out the door when you walk in my room
i feel like a burden
so, i lie to you when i'm hurtin
don't take offense it's for the best
i'm up when the sun is risin
you see me comin down to the kitchen
you ask if i slept i say not yet
you say
i'm quiet when we're out with
all of your friends there's nothin to say
i hope i don't come off as rude
but i only came for you
i don't like when they make jokes
about my outfits or my shoes
so when we're out my honesty
catches the breeze and blows out of the room
i feel like a burden
so, i lie to you when i'm hurtin
don't take offense it's for the best
i hope you don't find me cryin
cause, you'll probably wonder why
and i won't tell you the truth
i'll have an excuse
my bad
i got angry when you told me
i should cheer up cause there's nothing wrong
i guess the lies caught up to me
i'm sorry i left you
in the dark i know you care
but i don't want you thinkin bout me
just know i'm fine
at least i think
i'll be alright give me another week