My Best Friend Died One Month Ago - LOVE LOSS GRIEF

I post this today, one month after my best friends funeral; the story of her loss recorded one month after her death. This has been the most incredibly immense loss of my young 31-year old life and my life has been forever changed from that day forward.
As I learn to move forward WITH this love and loss and grief, I realize I will never move ON. There is no going back to normal, there is only the creation of a new normal. A day by day that honors her life and memory, her beautiful story, her beautiful self and legacy.
There are no right words for losing someone who was a part of my soul, so young and so suddenly and without explanation. There are no words for the pain that her absence causes or to explain how the reality quite literally takes my breath away at odd moments throughout all things. I mourn the future together we should have had. I'm angry, I am so angry that I have to live another two thirds of my life on this planet without her.
Julie meant so much to so many people and this is only my account. She lives on in so many memories, and faces, and stories. She lives on in the butterflies and flowers and wind. I think of her every time I go outside and feel the power and beauty and fury of nature.
Julie was a force and a great love of my life. She was gentle and kind when she wanted to be, and wild and fierce when she needed to be. She loved animals and plants and people of all walks of life. She valued her family above all else and the ones she loved dearest. She was creative and hilarious and stubborn and wonderful. She was light and strength and the world is so much darker now without her in it.
I hope that someday, years from now I'll be able to watch this video and remember every detail with calm and understanding and acceptance. I hope that this video reminds us all what it means to love like Julie and for Julie. I hope this video helps you accept your own grief and your own journey in loss. I hope she's proud of us. I know she's proud of us. And I know she's with us. Always.
If you are able and would like to help, please consider donating to the Go Fund Me page to assist the family with the unexpected financial stress of this tragedy. gofund.me/be0e...

[@danielcguy]

Ugh. I'm so so very sorry. This is heartbreaking. 💔

[@GallivantGrowGlow]

Thank you Daniel 💗

[@calbreckenridge8526]

Sorry for your loss. I feel your pain losing my best friend as well. Stay strong ❤

[@GallivantGrowGlow]

Thank you so much

[@vivyan92]

Montana, I love you 😘 and I always love Julie too of all the times I appreciate her sweetness and her kisses to me. If she was my girlfriend, we would have been so happy together while you got your hubby. I feel bad for Mary and Julie’s daughter but I hope her daughter can make everything great to honor Julie for her only mom. We love you Julie R.I.P.

[@juliaoneil-kq2mo]

Julie was such an amazing woman. I’m so sorry for your loss and the loss of her. She came up to me at a softball game when Mary and LO played we were instant best friends during that season. Lewes kids for life! And every time I saw her she was so wonderful and kind!! Her beautiful soul is all around. The butterflies and flowers will always remind me of her! Also blue fun-dip.

[@GallivantGrowGlow]

Thanks so much for sharing your sweet memories!