My Biggest Secret.. My Battle With OCD And Gaming

Today I talk about my struggle with OCD through my childhood and how it reflects on to my gaming habits.
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[@pablotapia1948]

I used to be just like you when I was younger. I would always keep my room clean. I even cleaned up my entire house and I would get mad at my family when ever they didn't push in their chairs or shut any of the doors in the house. And with my room would always be clean, I would make sure my blankets were neat, I would keep my consoles from smallest to shortest, my games would be organized by color, and I would get mad when my family would clean up the house, because they didn't know how to clean the house my way, I was basically Danny Tanner from Full House. I'm not gonna say I have OCD, because I never got diagnosed, since I didn't think about it until now, but I did have a problem and it's way better now than before.

[@draknov1888]

Great video man, I'm battling with OCD in regards to steam accounts and files being "contaminated" due to saving something wrong or if i see a message in the console of the game that doesn't match the "default" messages and things alike. Little by little I'm starting to do exposure therapy with myself to show how stupid these thoughts are though some are still at the back of my mind I'm wroking towards overcoming these irrational thoughts by proving them wrong. Much appreciated you make these type of videos man, it helps people alike. Keep it up.

[@jackconey5948]

Don't worry man I'm with ya 100% of the way love your channel and your work. It doesn't matter if you have ocd you can overcome it with the people around you that love and support you. Keep on trucking, your the best Nintendo channel out there 👍👍👍

[@SaviorOfEdge]

"My biggest secret"

[@seanwc6746]

Thank you for speaking up Shawn. You are incredibly brave and we are all here for you

[@emfancyy7736]

We still love you man. Everyone has some kinda issue, or most people do. Just know we are all here for you & we don't care if you have OCD or not, we still love you. Thanks for being honest with us & sharing your story. You're the best Nintendo KZbinr in my eyes.

[@ashleyhands7717]

I have 2 OCDs that affect me during gaming and they're going to seem pretty pathetic but I can't just shake them. I have to look everywhere, and even if I know a level is clear I'll still look everywhere. The other is I have to press buttons a certain way, has to be a nice, clean press and not like a sudden press. When playing games for fun you could see how this would ruin them.

[@arthurmorgan2042]

For a moment, I thought you're talking about my biography!! I have the same issues and It's truly crazy bro!! As a VideoGame lover, I'm really tired of struggling with my OCD!

[@vondestanley2631]

Keep your head up things will get better.

[@pobtv5638]

I have mild cerble palsey and my hands and muscles hurt and cramp up fast keep on striving and doing great things

[@bwlfarmer]

As someone who used to treat OCD years ago. It is sad how people always tell me they have it when they only just get annoyed if their house gets messed up. Best wishes to you and thanks for sharing your story.

[@nomore8441]

I have Aspergers, Anxiety, Depression and Slight OCD

[@otan2622]

I learnt that there's no point in letting it dishearten me as it was something i couldn't get rid of, its of course a struggle but there are positives to it, people with ocd are always more creative due to the hyper activity in the brain, better attention to detail and much more. Also if you want to reduce anxiety thoughts go towards the anxiety and you will slowly learn that the worst situation doesn't ever happen.Anyway, it's not all bad.

[@CB-fq2ye]

God bless you!!

[@MrThrideye]

Trust me, your not alone.... Everything has to be in its place and if it's been used or not placed back in the order I have it, then I'll get really upset..

[@sauce4279]

Hey, man. No matter what you have, no matter what you suffer from, at the end of the day, your still VanBuren20. Your still a cool guy, and still a good youtuber. We'll always be here to support you. Us fellow gamers gotta stick together, right?

[@nicholasbersito6942]

Your not alone my friend

[@spmugenuploader5905]

I can relate... I still do it today as a matter of fact, I would usually stay up late before 12:00 AM, but before I go upstairs to bed, I would usually make sure that every electric object is off, for example: the lights, the TV, I don’t know why I always do it sometimes my brother stays up too so I ask him to do it for me sometimes and he usually does, but when I do it, I would usually check two or three times to make sure that EVERYTHING is off.

[@Outlaw-fe2ju]

First of all I applaud you on opening up especially on video that right there just takes guts. Now I never had to deal with OCD growing up my issue has always been adhd I grew up in military family so I had to move a lot by the time I was 14 I moved 8 times and the only thing I had with me was gaming. I never really had friends until high school so I can understand about being over protective about a game system but like I said you got guts and I cant imagine having to grow up that way it had to be really tough

[@imtiazlcfc4life]

I have OCD with gaming too which is why I often lose matches on FIFA online that I shouldn't be losing just because I have to keep doing a particular move perfectly over and over again until it feels right... which is what sucks the enjoyment out of certain games for me that trigger this OCD... especially FIFA which is the game I live off of! 😢